Friday, February 01, 2013
A goal weight is hard to define. At 145lbs, 2lbs from now, I will be in the healthy BMI range. So I should be happy there – right?
But I have been down to 143lbs but didn’t stay there? Why? Because I was not happy with my body! I knew that I still carried a lot of fat, especially around my middle area. So looking back I now realise that I was in a way disappointed that having reached my goal weight I still was not happy! That unhappiness and confusion led to not having any clear plan on what to do from then on, which of course led to gaining weight again!
So am I ever going to be happy with my body at any weight? And why do I not want to go under 140lbs which I now realise I need to. I have been fooling myself that I have a big frame when actually I haven’t!!
The thing is that I know that if I go under 140lbs, I am going to get far more of the ‘oh you are too thin’ or ‘don’t lose any more or you will look terrible’ type comments (I already get them, I just know I will get more)
But I have now given myself permission to go below 140lbs. I am not going to take to heart any negative comments I get. I will see them for what they are. They don’t have to live in my body, I do. I have no wish to be sick or sickly looking. I eat far healthier when I am trying to lose weight as I try to make every calorie count! I hate wasting calories on junk!
So I am going to decide for myself when I am happy with my weight and it is not where I am at now. And my plan – to keep eating sensibly and healthily and exercising regularly, including ST! I am going to take it one step at the time and I will know when I get there!!
Saturday, May 12, 2012
I had lots of excuses – and very good ones as well – not the usual, I just don’t feel like it, it is too cold or it is raining!
I have to exercise around my kids schedule. So when they have activities I can do my 5k training.
Saturday’s they are supposed to have swimming and dance class. I usually do my grocery shopping during swimming and do my run while they are at dance class. However, dance class was cancelled today, leaving a gap in my plan! And Sat morn was going to be the only time for the whole weekend that I wouldn’t have the kids. I knew I could do things like skipping or a DVD with them but I wouldn’t be able to finish my 5k training week!
I was toying with the idea of doing my run while they were swimming , but I had stopped doing that before as there was always dogs on the loose in that area and not very nice ones! Then last night I had the idea of driving half a mile away to where it is a safer neighbourhood.
Woke up this morning to a lovely sunny morning and was looking forward to my run. But whatever happened on my way to swimming – I had lots of excuses by the time I got there!
My hip was very sore, I wouldn’t have time to fit in driving a distance and getting in my run and being back in time to help my daughter get changed and I couldn’t think of an appropriate place to do it.
I dropped them and got back in the car, knowing in head that I really had no notion of doing it. I was in the process of mentally preparing a list of what other errands I could do when I spotted them!
Yes – two ladies out jogging. They will never know they just inspired someone but just then I knew I had to do the run! Even if I was not back on time, my daughter is so independent that she does not like help and she does it by herself at her school swimming classes anyway. I need to nurture her independent streak and not stifle it. That was never a good excuse!!
I also badly did not want to give up on my 5k training. I have a habit of giving up if things are not going to plan!!
The end result – I parked the car and just got out and ran! The feeling of not wanting to do it gradually disappeared and at the end my Nike app told me I had completed my fastest mile time to date!!! Was I so glad I did it! 3.14 miles in 31.50 minutes!!!
So going back to my first sentence about having good excuses – scratch that, they were quiet bad ones!!
1) You never know when you are being an inspiration
2) Excuses are never as good as you think (actually excuses are the lies we tell ourselves)
3) Never put off until later what you can do now, something can come in the way of doing it later.
Have a great week-end everyone!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Friday was fantastic - I was really doing well. I was already down two pounds for the week though my weigh in was not until Monday. I only had to maintain for the weekend, and I had planned lots of exercise for the weekend which would surely make maintaining easy!
I had got up, baked healthy brown grain rolls for my kids for their lunch. I had cooked them cookies as Friday is a day they are allowed a treat for school. To avoid problems with the cookies, I halved the recipe and only cooked ten. I brought three to work as I was going to allow myself one and give one each to the two others in the office.
While baking, I did 15 mins and 500 jumps on my skipping rope in the kitchen.
Got to work and all still went to plan - had my one cookie and was fine with that.
My boss (who we are convinced is a ‘feeder’) had come back from a trip and brought a box of chocolate covered macadamia nuts for each of us in the office. I resisted opening them.
In the evening while my kids were at music lessons I ran/walked 3.3 miles in 35 minutes which is just over a 5k. I felt fantastic!!! Nothing was going to stop me now! Or was there something?
Yes- the box of chocolates – kids in bed, husband away, box of chocolate coated nuts and a bottle of wine. The rest as they say is history and so was my whole weekend!
The icing on the cake was that on Sat my kids dancing classes were cancelled, which was to give me an hour of walking/jogging. Added to that was a weekend of wind and rain!!
Four pounds up this morning, disgusted with myself, but I am not logging that weight because if I do I think I will give up. I will wait until Wed as it can’t be real – I def didn’t eat that much as I don’t keep rubbish in the house any more so I didn’t have the opportunity. But I did over eat and I did zero exercise as I was too tired!
Hopefully lesson learned. This is where I normally would fail and hide away with some more food! But I am trying to drag myself back this morning and I know I will!
Need to make a more definite plan – times etc for exercising. Off to do that now.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
"Simple kindness to one's self and all that lives is the most powerful transformational force of all."
— Dr. David Hawkins: is a psychiatrist, physician, researcher, and pioneer in the fields of consciousness research and spirituality
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