Friday, July 04, 2014
I am swamped with work, so I don't have much time for a formal update. Not much has changed. I finished pediatrics and am on psychiatry now (loved the former, loving the latter). Still doing one Blogilates workout a day, and I still don't eat clean--and I'm feeling less guilty about not doing more with either of those. Feeling like I'm consistently on the upper range of my calorie/macro limits--feeling a little guilty about that. Slowly getting back into mindfulness meditation which I used to find helpful when it came to eating and emotions (and eating my emotions). Still wondering about why I've been having trouble sleeping.
Since this is my 7th monthly update, I decided to do picture collages today. When I was putting them together I realized I HAVE made a bit of progress since January. My waist is slimmer at baseline and the contours are a bit more defined, and I think my saddlebags are less prominent too. It's hard for me to really describe what changes I see, though, so I'm interested to know y'all's thoughts.
Sunday, June 01, 2014
*sigh* I honestly don't feel like writing much today. Not much has changed in the past month. My schedule is less hectic now that I'm on a less stressful rotation, but I'm still struggling to find time for the things I need to do and the things I want to do outside of the hospital.
I exercise when I can--I got through one workout per day of the Blogilates #ahMAYzing calendar, minus 2 days (going to finish that up in a little while); I also went ahead and bought the $60 "Power Pack" from the Blogilates shop. I haven't had many opportunities to use the equipment (a Pilates ring and some resistance bands) but the few times I did were INTENSE.
I've been doing some cooking, but I think I might put a halt on stocking up for new recipes in an effort to allocate time to other things. That would mean going back to more frozen dinners (Lean Cuisine, Healthy Choice, and now Kashi which is worth the extra money), reasonable dining out options, and quick meals I can throw together, but that's pretty much what I was doing last year so I don't think it will cause me that many problems....I don't know. Haven't decided yet, really. I love being in the kitchen, and I honestly feel healthier when I cook my own stuff, so if I gave that up now I would definitely miss it.
Meanwhile, I feel like my sleep schedule is falling apart. I've been pretty strict about getting around 7.5 hours of sleep, because I know that I make poor life/health decisions when I'm sleep deprived. I don't have trouble falling asleep but I often wake up hours before my alarm is supposed to go off. Don't know what to make of this yet, but maybe the problem won't become a pattern.
I'm still trying to tell myself that the amount of body fat I have/feel like I have is not a defining quality...still finding it hard to believe that at least half the time. Even though I'm still losing weight according to the scale (and now I'm not even trying to), I feel like I've lost all the muscle tone I was starting to build up in February and March. It seems like the more I try to convince myself that it's not a big deal, that I'm still me, still attractive, still fairly healthy thanks to my efforts with SP, the less I feel like any of that is true.
I almost didn't take pictures today because of how I've been feeling about my body (and because I was groggy from a bad night's sleep). But I did, and they're below.
Saturday, May 03, 2014
Hi friends! This post is a few days late because I was studying, but I am happy to say that I am DONE with my first rotation. Surgery was tough, but I learned quite a bit about the practice of medicine and how to adapt to overwhelming situations.
This month on surgery was a lot harder than the last; I transitioned to a busier service, which meant longer hours spent at the hospital, late-night cases, no time to exercise (although I did manage to finish one workout per day of Blogilates #aprilabs), and a constant battle between sleeping and studying. I did the best I could with tracking and making healthy choices, but in the last week or so I did a considerable amount of grazing and also gave in to a massive craving for French fries (this didn't derail my progress in any way--I was still fairly responsible--but fried potatoes aren't the best snack/side dish multiple times a week (so tasty though).
Many of my friends said that they put on a few pounds after finishing the surgery block, and that's understandable. You're walking around with a number of snacks in your white coat because you don't know how long you're going to be in the OR and you don't want to pass out and contaminate the sterile field; even if you're not watching or helping with an operation, you don't really know when you're going to eat again. And you can pretty much forget regular exercise unless you're planning to wake up before 3 every morning. I don't really know how I would have made it without a calorie tracker and a steady supply of Larabars from the interwebz (shipping is pricy, but how can you go wrong with less than 9 ingredients per bar?). I stepped on the scale a couple of days ago and found that I hadn't gained anything--actually may have lost some, but the timing of my monthly weigh-in coincided with another monthly occurrence...anyway.
My next rotation is pediatrics. I should have more time to cook for myself and more time to exercise. I don't know if I'm going to try to finish the entire Blogilates calendar this month, though. I might just stick to one workout per day, maybe the shortest one, maybe the longest one. I'm also considering buying Cassey Ho's power ring and exercise bands as a sort of treat to myself...but they're $50 together and she doesn't use them in many workouts, so I don't know if they're a good investment yet. Le sigh.
Pics below. No visible changes good or bad, but I'm still fighting the negativity that comes with not having a flat stomach/feeling flabby. Maybe having a more normal schedule from here on out will mean that I have more time to work on this aspect of myself. Stay tuned...
Sunday, April 06, 2014
I've been on surgery rotation from mid-March until the beginning of May. Even though I knew this rotation is one of the hardest in med school (if not THE hardest), I still planned to work out as much as possible. The first 2 weeks, this was doable; I was on a subspecialty service that didn't require as much from me, so I was able to wake up a bit earlier to do the longest Blogilates video on the calendar each day. But once my first general surgery service started, I soon realized that waking up even 30 minutes earlier to do just one workout video was going to be too hard--for general surgery I have to be at the hospital at 5am, and I usually don't get back home until 5 or 6pm. I tried to keep working out each day for a week, and it drained my energy completely. So I decided that for the rest of this rotation, I'll only exercise on days when I don't have to report to the hospital (so, basically once a week), and on those days I'll do multiple videos. I hated myself for having to make this change at first--spent all of last week feeling like a total cream puff--but I think sleep is the more important thing here. Surgery is hard enough without me trying to be a fitness hero. So when you see my "countdown to the end of surgery" ticker on my page, know that I'm also counting down to the return of regular exercise (hopefully).
For the sake of consistency, I'm still taking pictures and measurements on the first of the month and writing these monthly updates (on my off days, though). I decided to stop tracking fitness and switched to the newer nutrition tracker; doesn't make much of a difference for me since I've been putting in my own nutrition ranges, but in a way it takes out the time and guess work of trying to figure out what to put in for exercise every time.
In other news, my dad is still sticking with SP, and he's seen results. My mom told me about how he doesn't get as bloated as he used to, and how he's claimed to "feel lighter." I'm really proud of him.
Pics below: the usual (all with abs flexed). Things are the same...for now.
Saturday, March 01, 2014
February was a busy month. I took the USMLE Step 1 at the end of the month. Not sure if I passed/did well, but I got through it. AND I finished the Blogilates #FEBUREADY calendar! I did (read: survived) all the workouts, even if I had to modify every move and take several breaks during each video. It felt SO good to finish, like I had accomplished something really great--even if the last workouts did happen at 1 this morning. I feel like I'm equally as excited about finishing the calendar as I am about finishing Step 1.
In other news, MY DAD FINALLY JOINED SP. He's recently started working with a health coach through his job. His coach suggested that he lose about 20 pounds; he claimed that he would "look sick" if he did that (my mother and I rolled our eyes at each other). However, after significant nagging from yours truly, he finally sat down with me for an "orientation" session. Right now he thinks that tracking his calories is time consuming and too intense. He tends to complain about how he's going to "go hungry" because he isn't used to eating serving sizes of cereal, etc. But my mom and I aren't giving up. She's been reminding him of how I was almost wearing plus sizes before joining SP myself, and now I'm a size 10/12 (depending on the manufacturer). I've been a little rough on him, telling him how he'll probably have less knee trouble if he sticks with it and begins to see results. All we can do is hope that he perseveres.
Pics below: the usual body shots with no obvious changes that I can see (even when flexed, sigh)...and the app version of the #FEBUREADY calendar! Pink circles are things I completed; the other circles were recipes and other activities.
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