Monday, April 16, 2012
I know I was rather vague yesterday, but I was seriously not in the mood to talk. My plan to eat less during the week and then more on the weekends, a sort of "spike day" or whatever...which worked amazingly well the week before, well, that plan crashed and burned. For three days in a row I was seeing sub-300 numbers on the scale. Three blissful days in a row I felt like I'd FINALLY figured it out. And I almost gave up my plan for spiking on Friday, but I've been trying to follow this, "Go through with what you set out to do...don't back out or second guess yourself." plan of action. So while I got to see an amazing (and wrong, I'm sure) 294 on Friday morning, the result of my "spike day" landed me at 307 the next day.
*falls to her knees*
I was devastated. I knew it was from bloat and water weight and high sodium and all that. I honestly knew that in my own head. And had it been something like 301 or 302, I would have been able to take it knowing I could just drink a crapton of water and eat really well on Saturday and weigh-in could still be a success. But 13 pounds is just too high a hurdle to jump. I know my body. I know the fluctuations it makes from day to day. It wasn't going to let me have my sub-300 official weigh-in this week no matter what I did.
So I did what I do best. I said, "Screw you then!" and ate whatever I wanted. And felt like complete crap afterward, but somehow got it out of my system without making things too awful bad. I was defeated on Saturday. I slept on and off most of the day. I felt weak and stupid and like I had, once again, wasted another week.
But then I woke up on Sunday. And I decided that a week like I had last week was NOT wasting a week. While no one can see my muscles (they probably never will at this rate), I know they're there and getting stronger. I set out to do the best I could for myself on Sunday, and reformulated a plan of action. No spike day this week. We seem to be good sticking around 2000-2200 calories. Not sure yet if I'll have to start eating back my exercise calories soon as I'm netting around 1800+ but adding in cardio is going to up the calorie burn, so I'm going to probably have to change things up again when that starts.
I set to work yesterday and cooked:
Brown Rice (plain)
Grilled Chicken Breast
Green Beans & Tomatoes
Chicken Zucchini Burgers
Chicken Meatloaf Muffins
Chocolate Banana Protein Bars
It was a LONG day. I ate within my ranges even WITH the pancakes Ethan made me for breakfast and a couple cups of coffee my way (with full fat, full sugar creamer foamed on top). Logan had already made me some of my Chicken Chili so that was already in the fridge ready to go. I should have more than enough for this week, and Hubs and the boys even ate half of my burgers yesterday! *lol* (Finally, something healthy that Ethan likes! And Hubs had two!)
So, in the end, am I mad about Friday? Well, yes and no.
I woke up early and ate a healthy breakfast.
The boys and I left the house around 8:45am and stopped at a couple stores before heading to the city.
On the way out of town, Ethan said he was hungry, and I realized I should probably eat something again soon or my workout was going to be sacrificed. We went to McD's. I got a fruit and yogurt parfait and ate 1/2 (top of the yogurt and some blueberries). It was just TOO sweet!
Got to the gym around 10:15am or so.
A little over an hour later (okay, around 11:40am) I'm getting called out of the locker room over the PA system. Guess the daycare area closed at 11:30am and I was running behind. I paid the girl (and tipped her) and then told the boys to sit still while I went and finished putting my things away.
Around noon, we left the parking lot and headed off to eat. I asked the boys what they wanted and we ended up at what I like to call "the sushi buffet". They have Chinese food as well, and some random americanized type things, and then they bring out sushi fresh and you can pick what you want from the options. Unfortunately, they were doing a lot of things coated in eel sauce and spicy mayo, so I stuck to the things I knew I liked.
I did pretty well at the buffet. I didn't overstuff myself. I did have some fried rice (they have some of the best around, hands down) and a few pieces of sweet & sour chicken (w/o the sauce) but I mostly had sushi and vegetable vermicelli noodles. I had about 2 bites of ice cream and a few bites of one of those little cake things and that was it.
(Chinese buffets are evil. Even when you're good, it's bad.)
After eating the boys and I went shopping. Got our puppy Champ a new kenel/bed as he had outgrown his old one. (This one is HUGE and I doubt he'll outgrow it ever!) Also got him a new stuffing free toy for free with my pet perks card. I tried on some jeans at CATO, and decided that since I now fit into 20s there (but snug), I refuse to buy anything there until I can wear an 18 (this may also have to do with the fact that I'm broker than broke right now *lol*). Went to the bookstore and got Ethan and I a few more books in the series we have been reading. And Ethan checked out some things at Dick's Sporting Goods where he had a $20 gift card but everything he wanted was at least double that. *lol*
Finally, even though I was exhuasted, I drove the boys up to the movie theatre. We had planned to see Mirror, Mirror but had missed our show time and didn't want to wait around for the next one. So, somehow, the boys talked me into going to see Hunger Games...again. (I'd already seen it, and didn't care for it all that much, but they hadn't seen it yet.) It was a great place to get a nap, I tell ya! Boys were occupied and the room was dark and I wasn't interested in what was happening, so *snore*. *lol* I slept through about half of it and felt much better after waking up.
I did eat a bit of popcorn and a small handful of Snocaps, but honestly, I thought I'd done pretty well.
Before heading home, I grabbed some water and a sweet tea (the tea was simply something to buy so they'd give me a cup of water and not a stupid bottle).
We got back to town and hit up the grocery store, where we picked up a few things for dinner Friday/Saturday. The boys talked me into a cookout (with hotdogs), and I got a bag of chicken for the week.
The only thing I "regret" on Friday was that I ate BOTH a Reese's PB Egg AND a Chocolate Covered Peep. I should've just picked one. Not sure what happened there.
Anyhow, while I thought I'd done pretty well considering (save the last thing), it meant a 13 pound boost on the scale and the loss (once again) of my sub-300 numbers.
So, yeah...that's what happened. And Saturday was much worse. But Sunday I was back on track.
One more week to get through and I'll have completed all of phase I. I can't quit now. Even though I'm exhausted and I have a LOT on my plate this week. I must get through it. I must pull through.
1) I think TOM has hit. This isn't exactly easy for me to tell since I'm on BC, but I feel super sluggish for no apparent reason.
2) I've been trying to quit smoking. So that's added some stress.
3) I have a presentation today...and I don't feel quite ready for it.
4) I have a big meeting tomorrow with my boss' boss and I'm hoping he understand that my numbers only LOOK bad because I've taken on all the crap no one else wanted to do and got it done.
Going to go try not to fall asleep while I go back through my PowerPoint presentation. *sigh* Wish me luck!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
I am beat.
Like lay my head on the desk at work and hope no one hears me snore tired.
What the hell have I done??
Last night's workout was Chest & Triceps. By the time 5pm rolled around, I was already getting super sleepy. But I ate my Chicken Tomato Basil Pasta dish and felt a little bit better and finished up work and went straight to the gym. And did as promised - with some umph...which nearly killed my left quad...but...more on that later.
Heads up! Here comes the workout report (part 1)!
Chest and Tricpes
Wide Pushups - 3 sets of 10 reps*
Incline Dumbbell Press - 1 set @ 20, 2 sets @ 25
Flat Bench Dumbbell Flyes - 1 set @ 20, 2 sets @ 25
Decline Flyes - 3 sets @ 20**
Bench Dips - 10 reps, then 9, then 10***
Lying EZ-Bar Triceps Extension - 1 set @ 20, 2 sets @ 30
Dumbbell Tricep Kickbacks - 1 set @ 15, 2 sets @ 20
Tricep Extensions - 1 set @ 20, 1 @ 25, 1 @ 30****
One-Arm Rope Tricep Extensions (Pulldowns) - 1 set @ 30, 2 @ 25
Avg HR: 116
Max HR: 154
Cals Burned: 433
Fat Cals: 43%
* I'm not sure I get why we reduce the reps on this one when we aren't adding any weight. Maybe these are just a warm-up anyhow. Soon I'll be switching from modified to regular so I will need to back off reps for a bit then...but I don't get it yet. *shrug*
** HAHAHAHAHA! That's what's in my head everytime I'm trying to climb my behind up on that decline bench. And I just keep thinking when I get ready to lower my back, "OMFG. Please let me get back out of this when I'm done!" Hence me using smaller weights. Just nervousness and fear.
*** The video on BB.com shows Jamie doing these with her legs on a bench opposite. Now, me and my triceps don't much care for each other. This is hands-down the weakest part of my entire body. I'm a friggin' WIMP in the triceps, hard as I try to pretend I'm not. But I was about THIS close to actually tweaking my left quad coming up out of my second set of these. MUST be more careful! Have to remember that I may be strong, but I'm still heavy. Can't just always be throwing this weight around like it's nothing.
**** My only sign that my tris are actually improving. Next time I'll be trying the 35 or 40 because even the 30 wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Of course, that rope thing that came next? HAHAHAHAHAHA! I barely completed #10 on each of those sets with my left arm. WEAKNESS TO BE ELIMINATED OVER TIME. MWAHAHA!
I grabbed my gear, made up my protein shake, went to the car and drove straight home. At home it was all I could do to stand long enough to make my evening omelet and then I was in bed, wide awake, unable to fall asleep. *bangs head on wall* I was exhausted, but my brain would NOT SHUT UP! (I've got a couple big work events coming up that I seem to keep "prepping" myself for at night before bed.) When I did finally fall asleep, I dreamt of my AB girls, so at least that was nice.
This morning it was all I could do to drag myself out of bed. Honestly, if Hubs hadn't been home, I would've slept right through the alarm...I know it! Thank goodness he got me up though. I could either do day 18 this AM OR do it half-a$$ed with no energy tonight after an hour-long trainer session. Yea, no...not happening.
The only real surprise this morning was ...okay, well, there were two. One - Hubs made me coffee. *lol* I haven't had time in the mornings this week so I've been hitting up McD's for my morning jolt. Two - I am quickly running out of prepped clean food. Because this weekend was such a flop with my batch cooking, I've been needing to make the next night's meal the night before after I get home from work. There was NO WAY that was happening last night, so I had enough for lunch and none for dinner but a salad. *bangs head on wall* Of course Hubs didn't cook at all last night (*snort* the thought of anyone assuming he would makes me laugh until it hurts) but went and got pizza from Little Caesar's instead. *sigh* "Screw it!" I said as I put two smallish pieces in a bag and plopped them in my lunch bag. If there was any day to "splurge" on pizza, today is the day. I've been averaging about 400 calories with each lifting routine, and the trainer is bound to get me to do at least 300 calories worth of effort, so - Hell yea! I'm having the friggin' pizza!
So today's workout was legs again. I was nervous because I'm still a little sore from Monday, but it really wasn't all that bad. In fact, I was surprised at some of my increases. I did swap out the "walking lunges/forward lunges" with something a bit more forgiving on my foot/ankle - I just put my foot on a bench behind me and it didn't cause the same amount of pressure through the back of my ankle. MUCH better! You can tell from the lift weight! ;)
Leg Extensions - 1 set @ 90, 2 sets @ 100
Wide Stance Barbell Squat - 1 set @ 65, 1 @ 85, 1 @ 95
Barbell Lunges - 1 set @ 40, 1 @ 70, 1 @ 90
Single-Leg Kettlebell Deadlift - 1 set @ 30, 2 sets @ 35
Lying Leg Curls - 1 set @ 70, 1 @ 80, 1 @ 85
Seated Calf Raises - 1 set @ 90, 1 @ 100, 1 @ 90
Standing Calf Raises - 1 set @ 85, 1 @ 95, 1 @ 100
Yes, I said 100. Because I lowered my number of reps, I was able to push a little harder. My calves are improving so super fast it's amazing to me! I remember my first standing calf raises felt like fire poured on hell in my legs, but today...well, you can see what strength I'm gaining. HAS to be muscle happening to be able to pull out those numbers, right?!
Time: 60 minutes
(remember, I let the timer run through my stretches, it was more like 50 minutes or so)
Avg HR: 113
Max HR: 159
Cals Burned: 418
Fat Cals: 43%
Seems I stay pretty well around 40% when I'm going strong but not crazy. Crazy workouts tend to lead to less % but higher cals burned. I've moved up from weeks 1 & 2 burning about 250-300 calories per session to burning around 400-450 each time. Can't imagine how high this will be in week 5 when Cardio makes a comeback. (I'm probably going to have to up my calories...AGAIN. *sigh*)
Speaking of Calories...
Calories Consumed: 2207
Calories Burned: 433
Net Calories: 1774
Today (if I eat what I have planned) -
Calories Consumed: 2426
Calories Burned: 418 + ?
Net Calories: approx. 1600-1700-ish? (Assuming I burn 300-400 calories tonight.)
So, yeah. I told you today was the day to eat the pizza. *lmao*
Tomorrow I'll be eating a bit off plan as well. This week is the boys' spring break, and I haven't seen them pretty much all week. Tomorrow I have one more lift to do and I want to do it in the gym, not make it up at home. I figure I'll bring the kids with me (they have daycare for Ethan and said Logan can sit out in the main room and watch TV if he behaves) and after I'm done (and then take a quick shower) I'll take them to lunch and then out to see a movie. (We're thinking Mirror Mirror - anyone seen it yet?) As for lunch...maybe a sushi buffet...maybe something else. *shrug* Who knows.
BTW - Scale is being kind. Up a tiny bit today, but not much...and the soreness can account for much of that anyhow. Drinking lots of water and making lots of trips to the bathroom. *lol* Hoping for a happy weigh-in this weekend. I feel like I've ALMOST figured it out....we shall see, I suppose.
I'll let you all know how tonight goes! (And if I stay awake throughout the day and don't kill anyone -- tired Esther = grumpy Esther.)
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
No workout to report yet. Hubs kept me up a little late last night, so I wasn't able to drag myself out of bed when I finally rolled over at 4:30am. No matter, I'll get it done tonight after work. Thankfully I usually tend to miss the rush since I don't get off until 6pm...hopefully that holds true again tonight, though tonight looks like a pretty simple night working Chest and Triceps.
I hopped on bb.com (bodybuilding.com for those not in the know) this morning just to check my routine and OOPS! I'm doing it wrong! I've been lifting a bit heavier for sure, but I didn't remember that Jamie drops the sets from 12 reps to 10 in week three. Of course, this just means I can lift heavier because I don't have to sacrifice form on those last two reps. *big grin* Going to see what I can pull out tonight!
I did a little more research on bb.com this morning about those lunges too. Totally missed that the site actually gives you alternative exercises if you look for them. The alts for my "walking lunges" (which are just forward lunges for me as there's really no where to walk in my gym holding a huge barbell without risking smacking someone over the head with it) are...different kinds of lunges! *lmao* *facepalm* These include step-back lunges (or reverse lunges) and single leg splits, which are basically lunges with your back leg up on a flat bench. I'm actually thinking I'll try the latter. I think the new angle will take a lot of the pressure off my ankle and maybe will save me some PF pain. Foot is still super aggrevated today, so I need to find some alternative. If this doesn't work, I'll simply input some leg presses and call it good. Nobody can be perfect all the time, and I've got to ensure I'm saving my foot so I have some chance and hope of running again one day.
I have to say I've been getting a little nervous about adding in cardio in just a week and a half. I thought maybe I'd be more ready by then, but it doesn't really seem likely. The foot is better, for sure, but I haven't been doing stellar at all my stretches and such (trying to remedy that starting now) and my night brace? It doesn't last more than about an hour before I'm waking up stripping it off. The stupid thing is really uncomfortable, not to mention that I swell when I sleep (does anyone else do this?). No matter how much water I drink, I tend to swell at least a little bit while I'm sleeping at night. I figure it's just my body trying to repair itself in the best way possible, and as long as I keep up with my water it's nothing too awful bad. But it's the main reason I don't wear my rings to bed. In the morning I find them hugging my fingers just a little too tight and it's a bit annoying. When my foot swells, the straps start to hurt it and I actually wake up from the discomfort from the brace and take it off. Sometimes I don't even remember doing it. I still try to start out with it on, though. Maybe I should put it on while I'm "relaxing" before I go to sleep. Hrm....
Yesterday's calorie count ended up stellar as I was just over a net of 1800 calories. The scale rewarded me today with a sub-300 number (297.8 to be exact), but I'm not putting too much stock in that as I've seen it before and then I go back up the next day. Still, my one and only chance of breaking through is to continue on like I'm doing, and I have another net 1800 calorie day planned today. The best part about my meal plan today? I'm actually OVER on potassium. And I even forgot my banana this morning at home, so that's not in the meal plan at all. Some changes I've made? I made a batch of the Carrot Cake Protein Bars last night with walnuts in it. Figured it would only work to enhance the flavor and would boost my calories just a bit without me feeling like a friggin' cow.
Because I have been feeling like a cow lately. Yesterday, as I told my girl K, I kept looking at the clock thinking, "OMG! I have to eat AGAIN!?" *insert pouty face here* I seriously was not hungry ONE SINGLE SECOND OF THE DAY yesterday. In fact, at times it was a bit downright uncomfortable to feel full for so long. (Not overstuffed, but full.) I couldn't even muster the last few bites of my chili for lunch before I finally gave in and pushed it aside and figured it wouldn't hurt me to be 50 calories under what I expected or whatever.
Of course, to many people this sounds like a stupid thing to say. Most people want to eat more food on a "diet"...yea, I know. But when you're eating clean, healthy food...you just don't quite realize until you do it how much food it actually takes to reach those high calorie goals that are set for the big girls like me. And it's not like one day I'll be able to eat less. I plan on keeping my body in top shape. I'd love to say I never stopped training. Sure there will be days or even weeks off here or there, but I'm a bit addicted to this feeling (can't believe I forgot that!) and I don't see myself stopping if/when I ever reach goal weight. And according to my calculations, whenever I'm training, even if I'm 170 pounds (considered healthy by BMI standards, which are crap because if I never lost another bit of muscle I'd be about 2% body fat at 170 pounds) I'd have to eat about 1900 calories to maintain my training energy and keep my body from losing all that hard-earned muscle.
Maybe it's the momentum talking. Maybe it's the feeling in my shoulders/arms/back of my legs (hello, Mr. Doms! Nice to feel you again!), but I've got this rush of pure hope running through me right now. Hope it doesn't break anytime soon. I still have a long way to go, but, surprisingly, I'm not thinking like that anymore.
You'll get a lot of weight loss advice on this site, but if I could give you just one thing that might keep you going - just one bit of advice to stop you from jumping off the "I can't do this anymore" cliff it would be this:
Throw out your scale.
Well, only if you take too much stock in what it says.
Stop thinking about "I've got THIS much weight to lose."
Invest in a way to test body fat measurement and aim for a lower percentage.
And when you go to the gym and lift heavy (seriously, girls...stop being wimpy about it! show those boys who really rules the world!), just think to yourself that you just spent the past 30-45 minutes challenging your muscles.
And know that the next time you come back to it, you'll be even stronger.
...but only if you treat your body right.
I've been here 2 1/2 weeks. That's it. 2 1/2 weeks spent solely focused on nothing but lifting and lifting heavy. I've had DOMS most days, usually with only one day not sore. But when I finally feel recovered and refreshed? It's the greatest feeling in the world.
And, I've changed my mind about what I said yesterday. I AM noticing changes. My stomach is shaping differently. I'm starting to lose a bit of those pesky rolls and it's actually starting to flatten out (take into account this means something totally different when you weigh 300 pounds, but still, it's noticable to me). Today I looked down while I was getting water, not bending over at the waist, and I saw my toes. Well, boobs, then a bit of toes peeping out at me. I see my calves popping out. I see my shoulders and arms getting the kinds of bumps that are supposed to be there...and that's when relaxed, not flexed. I'm not denying myself what I'm seeing or second-guessing myself. I see it. It must be. I've spent countless hours staring at myself in the mirror, hating my body. So why would I think I wouldn't recognize the changes that are taking place? Why do I need someone else to point them out to me? I know this body better than anyone because I've been obsessed over it, and over changing it, for so very long.
So, making a few minor adjustments at the gym tonight. Trying to figure out how I can take the boys to the city with me on Friday and workout and then maybe do something fun with them after (maybe a matinee) since it is their spring break. I think one of the gyms has child care and I think another may have a swim time available where people can bring their kids, but I need to verify that. Also have to call and get another trainer tryout and another weigh-in set up so I can see if my body fat % has improved at all.
Lots to do. But feeling good about it.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Yesterday flew by and when 6pm rolled around I was more than ready to get my lift on! It's funny how excited I get when it's time for me to earn some sweat! It doesn't hurt that Hubs got a killer job offer yesterday - though he just told me it's not quite official yet as it's not in writing - so the good news spurred me on too.
Last night was Legs! YAY!
Leg Extensions - 1 set @ 70, 2 sets @ 80
Wide Stance Barbell Squat - 3 sets @ 55
Barbell Lunges - 1 set @ 45, 2 sets @ 55 *
Single-Leg Kettlebell Deadlift - 1 set @ 25, 2 sets @ 30
Lying Leg Curls - 3 sets @ 70
Seated Calf Raises - 3 sets @ 70
Standing Calf Raises - 2 sets @ 75, 1 set @ 80
Time: 55 minutes
Avg HR: 131
Max HR: 160
Cals Burned: 570 (WHAT!?)
Fat Cals: 32%
So I can sacrifice some fat cal % burn to burn more calories if I keep my HR up the whole time (tried to stay above 113 at all times). Not sure what's best, but I wasn't too worried about it as I knew I was working hard.
* About lunges... I shouldn't be doing them. Anyone have an alternative because they cause my PF to flare up like crazy and I'm trying to heal my stupid foot right now, not make it worse?!
Yesterday I started noticing how this increase is going to affect me. By the third or fourth exercise I could feel myself starting to "fall apart" as it were. And I honestly doubt I would've made it through without the boost I got from the supplement I just purchased.
On a recommendation from my ever awesome SUGIRL, I bought some Xtend Watermelon powder. Now, first of all, let me make a general statement about these powder supplements. Both this stuff and my Body Fortress protein powder call for 1 scoop with 8 ounces of water. B-friggin'-S, dude! I dilute the protein powder with a few extra ounces of water and it doesn't taste quite as gritty and gross. With the Xtend? If you drank it the way you're supposed to...well, you must like drinking syrup! That stuff is SO thick at that ratio! No way I can stomach it! So I just put one small scoop in my 28 oz bottle and fill 'er up. Lasts my whole workout and tastes pretty good too. More hint of watermelon flavor vs. watermelon syrup.
And what a great time for my package to get here with that very product, because I honestly felt like every sip gave me a jolt. Not sure if that was mental or physical, but I'm tending toward the latter for one simple reason - Hubs agrees.
Yesterday Hubs had an interview for a much better job. By the end of the interview, he received a handshake and a job offer and he was so excited as the new job is set to start either the end of this month or the beginning of next. Right now Hubs has been working nights stocking shelves at Kroger. As much as he is a night owl, however, the schedule has been wearing on him. Plus, 3 employees have gotten other jobs and 1 seems to have disappeared...and there are only about 6-7 on night shift crew anyhow. That means Hubs has worked just about 10 days in a row as he keeps getting called in to work on his days off. With the job offer in his head, Hubs said it was just about impossible to get any sleep yesterday. In addition to that, he said his legs have been screaming at him because he's worked so many days and has had to do double or triple the workload because of the lost crew members. As he was laying in bed talking about how sore he was, an idea popped into my head.
I told him I would be sharing some of my Xtend to see if it helped him out. Couldn't hurt, right? He asked me what it was and I just said it was "Gatorade for bodybuilders." *lol* He's not usually one to buy into my supplement nonsense (which is funny considering his entire family swears by vitamins and natural supplements vs. any drug prescribed by a doctor - but he's "BIG STRONG MAN" and doesn't hardly ever want to admit he might need "help" getting by), but he immediately relented. (Ha! I win!) He still seemed skeptical, but I instructed him to take his drink and just try it out.
I just called him this morning to check on how last night went. I asked him if the drink helped at all. His response? "Oh my God! I turned to Timmy (his boss) at one point and said, 'Man! I'm working on 4 hours of sleep and my wife gave me this drink...I don't know what's in it but I'm not quite sure it's legal! I feel great!! I'm not sore at all!" So, maybe it does work the way I feel it working for me too. Once again this morning, without that stuff I fear I may have been dead in the water. Jamie Eason is no joke, my friends!
This morning was Back & Biceps:
Hammer Lat Pulldowns - 1 set @ 70, 1 set @ 85, 1 set @ 95
Wide-Grip Lat Pulldowns - 3 sets @ 60
Seated Narrow-Grip Cable Rows - 2 sets @ 60, 1 set @ 65
T-Bar Row - 1 set @ 45, 2 sets @ 70
Hyperextensions - 3 sets
Barbell Curls - 3 sets @ 45
Incline Dumbbell Curls - 3 sets @ 20
Hammer Curls - 3 sets @ 15
Avg HR: 119
Max HR: 160
Cal Burned: 386
Fat Cals: 38%
Not too shabby. I was having problems keeping my HR up in the beginning, but after a few more exercises...no problem! *lol*
One more thing - I now prefer my morning workouts to those in the evening. It's really hard to budget calories and take into account calories burned throughout the day when you don't workout until 6:15 pm. I had figured on about 300 calories in my exercise, so I ate accordingly (it also didn't help that I missed a bit of my day by sleeping in, so I think maybe it will all even out in the end???). Then I was surprised by the calorie burn and there was no time to make it up. When it's in the morning, I can figure things out a little better, eat a little extra here and there.
Yesterday's Calories --
Calories Consumed: 2169
Calories Burned: 570
Net Calories: 1599
Okay, getting a bit better. I also figured out my calories for today and should be doing even better.
If all goes right...
Calories Consumed: 2104
Calories Burned: 386
Net Calories: 1718
So, yeah. Things are going well. Not too sore in my legs today, but that might come later. I am noticing my calves popping out a bit, which excites me to no end. First my shoulders are like rocks, then my calves are starting to catch up to what I expect of them. Hoping all these muscles start eating away some fat soon! Today the scale had me down to 301 again, so we're moving in the right direction yet again. Going to try to stay more alert on these calories throughout the week and hope that in a couple more weeks I finally get my 299. I keep feeling denied and it's really pissing me off! I figure - go ahead, get mad, and then do something about it. Use that anger to fuel the next workout, and the next, and the next. And I keep reminding myself that even if I still weigh 300 pounds but I fit into a size 12, who the hell cares about my actual weight? I mean, of course I care, but there are certainly more important things...like wearing cute pants and not worrying so much about how I look because I know I'm looking fabulous. Already my abs look smaller too...though that just may be a result of the positive feeling I'm getting from my workouts. I'll probably measure again soon (maybe today, or maybe I'll wait until next Sunday), just to see if I've actually lost my mind or if I'm onto something and actually seeing results. Either way, I feel great! And I wouldn't trade that for many things in this world!
Keep on lifting and doing what you do.
16 days in...still going strong!
Monday, April 09, 2012
So today is day 15 of the program. What have I technically lost so far since starting?
Day 1 - 308.4
Day 7 - 301.8
Day 15 - 302.6
Lost so far = 5.8 pounds
The first week was awesome. Almost 8 pounds gone in a week. Second week? Not so much. I gained almost a pound. And I actually think I witnessed this "famine" or "starvation" mode everyone talks so much about. We were going well good and fine on those low calories until about Wednesday or Thursday of last week, when my body started to rebel. By Friday I was up 4-5 pounds. With as "on" as I was being, I knew it wasn't a fault of me not following the program. So I did what any (in)sane person would do. I dropped the program and let myself eat more on the weekend. It actually saved me from a 5 pound gain this week.
I got the idea from one of my phone's applications called Target Weight. This application suggests calorie cycling in a way I've never quite seen before. It calls for me to eat about 1800 calories on Monday through Thursday, around 3k Friday and Saturday, and then a more modest 2100 on Sunday. Since I'd spent the week around 1400 calories, I let myself have a bit of leeway on the weekend and ate off plan here and there and even had some of my son's birthday cake and some M&Ms. And went from 304.2 pounds on Saturday morning to 302.6 this morning. And now I'm back on track...sorta.
It's going to be a bit of a stretch today. I took off work this morning and didn't get my AM workout in for one reason only - I COULD NOT get up this morning. My body doesn't allow me to "sleep in" on the weekends anymore (well, I guess you could call 7am sleeping in since I get up at 4am now). It requires a more regular schedule from me, not this "catch up" of sleep I used to do on the weekends. Going to try to keep to my schedule more because I really do think it will help. So when I stayed up just a little late last night to help Hubs get ready for work, I totally screwed up any chance of getting up by 4am, and 5 and 5:30 and 6 and 6:30 all passed on my clock as well as I woke up, pushed snooze, and went back to sleep. So by 8am my body was FINALLY able to get up feeling rested. I also took the opportunity to get my car legal again (I just needed to get an inspection sticker, but since I leave town at 5am and don't get home until around 7pm, there hasn't been much time to fit it in).
No worries, I'll work out after work today. I'm really looking forward to it because today starts the Muscle Building stage of the program! AND...today is Legs day part 1!! WOOT! (I'm so excited to have 2 legs days! *lol*)
I've decided I will NOT be waiting until Week 7 to take my calories into account and instead will be attempting to tweak those this week. I may calorie cycle a bit like suggested because, if that would work, well, that's what my body and mind wants to do anyway. I can eat nearly 100% perfect during the week while I'm at work and such, but once the weekend hits, plans change, we're away from the house, things come up, and I have to make tweaks...and it gets super hard to eat even at 80% on plan.
Of course, I'm also terrified of this "plan" but it seemed to work last week in controlling what was happening, so if I can get my Monday - Thursday calories up just a bit, and then watch what KINDS of foods I'm eating on the weekends, but allow more calories...well, it just might be the switch my body needs. My body seems to have become too smart for dieting and it's pissing me off! Time to trick it into doing what needs to be done.
I discussed this idea of "starvation mode" with the Hubs this weekend (again) and he still doesn't believe it. *shrug* Have to say this is the first time I've ever seen a hint of it. Usually I get off plan and then things go wonky with the scale and I just blame my slip-ups. But this time I stuck to it and my body did the work of showing me what all these "pros" could be talking about when it comes to "starvation mode" or, as I like to call it, "famine mode"...I always think of it this way - there were times of feast and times of famine, and the body had to react accordingly to ensure optimal nutrition and aid in the chance of survival. But in today's culture...well, there's not really such a thing as "famine" because we've got food so readily available everywhere. Hardly anyone is ever in chance of starving in our country...even the homeless can get a full supply of "trash" from the various restaurants and fast food joints around...though none of us like to think about it. After going over the theory again, Hubs has decided that Hyperthyroidism is the beginning of the evolution of our species as those who have it are more able to regulate the overabundance of food and calories we have in today's society. *lol*
So, the plan moving forward is to simply move forward. I love the workouts, so I don't see myself changing that anytime soon. This week will be a challenge as there will be an extra day thrown in (Fridays), so I'll either have to tweak my workouts to do in my MIL's garage or I'll have to drive down to the city to my gym. Two more weeks without cardio too, which is good because my foot is feeling better each and every day. It still gives me problems now and again, but, well, it's better at least. I did have a moment of insanity on Saturday as I tried to buy Easter supplies without the 10-year-old noticing me. So I ran from the store to the car (which we'd parked really far away) to hide the stuff I'd bought and then back to the store so he wouldn't notice I was gone....in flip-flops. Ah...the things we do for those we love. ;)
As for the nutrition. I'll either be calorie cycling as explained above, or I'll be trying to stick as close to 2150 calories as possible each day. (Honestly, it's just really difficult to eat 2150+ (the plus for days I exercise and eat those calories back) each and every day when you're eating this healthy. I mean, you can only stuff down so much salad and it still barely makes a calorie dent. It probably means I'll be adding back in things like my homemade peanut butter and allowing myself to cook in a tiny bit more olive oil and then adding in whatever protein and carbs I can muster to even things out percentage wise.)
Isn't this insane? I feel insane.
Weight loss is supposed to be as simple as eat less, exercise more - right?!
Wrong! Oh, the lies they've fed us. Not all of us can simply eat less, exercise more.
Granted, that worked for the first 160 pounds, so if you've only got that much to lose, go for it and you should be just fine!
As for me? I've got at least another 110-130 pounds to go and now's where I'm hitting the bump in the road. As I see it, I have two choices - do what I did last time and simply give up, gain some weight, come back to it a year or so later and get another 80 pounds off pretty quick (maybe) OR keep tweaking until I find my body's perfect burn rate. For some it's eating your BMR every single day (and eating back exercise calories when you burn them) - although this has always seemed to me a great way to MAINTAIN, so I don't quite get it. For others, it's eating your maintenance calories for your goal weight (another possible method I may try) plus 200 calories. For others it's carb cycling, calorie cycling, eating basically nothing when combined with massive amounts of exercise, continuing to eat more...who knows. My magic equation has to be out there somewhere, though, right!? I mean, as many times as we tell ourselves the lie, I wasn't MEANT to be fat. I just gotta break through my body's barriers and find what works to keep it a happy fat burning machine.
(On a side note - I've been considering going on a skin removal consult to see how far I have to go before we can consider this type of surgery. Unless some serious body shrinking happens to some major skin pockets soon, I'm going to not like my body for a VERY long time and I'll never see the muscles I've built. But if a doc says I'm not there yet, then I'll know I probably can get there with more work. I'm just confused...and I need to see what my insurance will cover too. *shrug*)
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