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March Recap/April Goals - And I Think Hubs is Making Me Fat!!

Sunday, April 01, 2012

That's it. I know what's happening now. HUBS is making me fat! You heard me right. I'm doing great and then he's all like, "We're going to Wendy's" and "Let's get Chinese!" Bastard!

April Fools!


Those situations did happen, but...
1) I had the power to say no.
2) They were suggestions, and requests, not demands.
3) I have the choice, if I go to be "as good as possible"...and I have been.

I had a baked potato and small chili with some red. fat sour cream

Movies last night:
I caved and ate some popcorn. But very little. And a few Snowcaps, but I tried to stick to my Twizzlers.

I piled my plate with the safest thing possible (and, yes, I know how not "safe" this is simply because it's a Chinese buffet) - broccoli. I had a few pieces of the things I like but I know are simply horrid for me and the rest of what I ate was a small amount of white rice mixed with a smaller bit of fried rice with a pile of broccoli. It's my version of making lemonade out of lemons. Got to learn to deal with the demons. I know better than to think Chinese restaurants are a thing of the past. (I swear they put crack in their food...we all just keep going back, don't we?!)'d it all pan out for me?

Official Weight for March 1st: 306.0
Official Weight for April 1st: 300.6

Total Loss = 5.4 pounds

No reason to celebrate the whoopies! just yet. It IS the lowest official weight I've ever had, but I cannot consider this plateau broken yet. Not yet. I need to see several more weeks of loss before I can call it broken. And I don't think I'll stop holding my breath for a while. Until then, I'm just going to keep going as on plan as possible because, if I do...if I stick it out and don't collapse into temptation this week, then by all rights my "under 300" goal WILL be mine next week. MUST. KEEP. GOING.

It donned on me earlier that some people might think my 8 pound loss in a week was an April Fools joke. Trust me, I thought so too. But this eating clean plan had me dropping a couple pounds here, another couple the next day. And each day it was eating away at the higher numbers of my never-ending plateau. The lowest I'd ever been on that plateau was 301, so I guess if you wanted you COULD call it broken...but I can't, not yet. Still, I like the plan. The plan is working. I'm sticking to the plan. When I got off plan (yesterday with Wendy's and, probably more damaging, movie popcorn, I saw the first gain since day 2 ...of .2 pounds - Ethan said, "Well, that's not too bad." I'm a little nervous about tomorrow, but I'm not fretting. Nearly done with all my prep for the week's meals.)

As for my measurements? I can't find my damn measuring tape. I'll try to get it done tomorrow morning (I have a backup at work).

April's Goals

4 weeks of the LiveFit plan. Staying on the eating plan and trying to make it through the week with no more than 1 or 2 cheats, and still fitting those in calorie-wise. I'm feeling more motivated. I NEED this.

And, of course, my other goal.... UNDER 300 POUNDS! I'd really like to see a number around 395 or lower at the first of next month. I want a new goal badly. It's time to move on to smaller numbers.

I also need to keep flushing with water. I've moved from my regular 8-10 glasses a day to closer to 12-15 every day, which is more where I should be for my body weight. Gotta keep that up.

Let's go April! (I'll also celebrate my 2nd Sparkversary this month...wouldn't mind being able to set a new beautiful goal for my 3rd year on Spark...maybe getting closer to 230, maybe? Trying to get under 40% body fat. I'd love to see a 3 on there and know I'm getting closer to my 30% goal.)

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SASXONTHEMOVE 4/15/2012 9:46PM

    awesome. temptation is hard. your will is stronger.

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ATROTTIER 4/2/2012 1:08PM

    Wow!! So awesome! I love that you tell us details of normal situations that come up that could possibly be derailers and how you survived just makes us realize that we can live this life with others and still come out ahead!! Whoo-hoo!!!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 4/2/2012 11:08AM

    AWESOME JOB. So glad to see the hard work paying off on the scale. Seems like the new motivation from the new gym and trainers paired with the JE and her eating plan are awesome for you. I have my fingers crossed and will be checking in on you this week to see how it's all going!

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    That is sooo great! See, this is a way of life for you now. You don't freak out when those situations come up, you plan for them and carry on. I SOOO relate about not feeling like a plateau is broken even with consistent weight loss. Sometimes it feels like just when you're enjoying a bit o' success that some weight loss dark force is laying in wait to drop kick your joy. Here's hoping the losing streak continues! Woot!

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KKINNEA 4/2/2012 10:47AM

    Just ran through to catch up with you - great job! Here's to week 2!

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ERIN1128 4/2/2012 10:45AM

    OMG, your comment about crack in Chinese food made me laugh out loud - sooooo true!

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KARVY09 4/2/2012 9:46AM

    Congrats on the loss this month! :)

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WONDERJUL 4/2/2012 8:42AM

    Good for you!! You are so right--you have to be realistic--Chinese food is not going to disappear. Way to make good choices. Keep it up and take it one day at a time!


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ROMNEY3 4/2/2012 8:39AM

    Great for you. The new plan is working. I am start it today.

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IONA72 4/2/2012 5:18AM

    Sounds like you are doing great, good luck in reaching your goals. Stay strong! emoticon

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Day Off for Good Behavior - LiveFit W1D5&6

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Yesterday was day 1 of my 3 rest days this weekend.

Confession: It almost felt weird not doing anything yesterday. But it also felt great! *lol*

I rolled out my calf.
Watched some movies with the boys.
Had ice cream. (Oops! *lol* One "dirty" cheat, I guess.)
Resisted the urge to snack.
Went to the grocery store and spent too much money again. *lol*
Made 2 things for this week's snacks - Ground Chicken Muffins and Pumpkin Protein Bars.

My foot is already starting to feel a lot better and I'm pretty happy that even with the cheat and the high calorie day yesterday, I did alright calorie wise. There were plenty of reasons to snack. Weekends are always the hardest...but I held tough.

Breakfast - Eggs and Oats with some of Xylitol Brown Sugar Blend
Snack #1 - Cut up Chicken Burger with 1/2 WW sandwich thin with mustard
Lunch - 1 c Ground Chicken 3-Bean Chili with a salad with Lite Raspberry Walnut Vinaigrette
Snack #2 - 1/2 c cottage cheese with jello mixed in and 2 Pumpkin Protein Bar Squares
Dirty Cheat - Small French Silk Pie Blizzard
Dinner - 6oz Cod with a bunch of asparagus cooked in a foil pouch with EVOO, salt, pepper, and Italian Spices (Dinner was SOO good! Even Ethan ate some!)

Calories for the day: 1801
And I drank a TON of water! emoticon

Today I'm going to try to stay on task yet again. Mr. Scale likes the change and I should have a more than decent weigh-in tomorrow (actually, I suppose my weigh-in day should be switched to Monday, as that's when I started). If I can tough this out a few more weeks, I should be rolling into where I should be and on again to more success and victories.

Also - I tried a new jello mix in my cottage cheese yesterday - Sugar Free Red Raspberry. SOOO good. My cat liked it too as I caught her trying to eat my snack before I sat down. *swats Tigg*

When I announced yesterday that I planned on "dirty cheating" with ice cream, Hubs said, "I want ice cream too...and Little Caesars." I explained to him I could have one or the other. I told him I wouldn't stop him from getting pizza, but I could NOT have any. My beautiful husband looked at me and said, "Well, I'm not getting it then." :) He didn't want me tempted. He didn't want it to have to be an issue. He said the same thing I've been telling myself about my cravings. "I'll just have it another time."


The only thing I forgot yesterday was to take my vitamins. By the time I remembered it was too long after I ate and I didn't want to upset my tummy. I'll try to get them in today. Which reminds me - I'm almost out of Glucosamine.

Today is rest day 2.
I'm happy to say I'm feeling much better today. More rested and my muscles are finally getting back to normal. Think I should be good to hit the gym Monday evening. (Hate that I have to swap my workout to the evening, but I have to fast in the AM for my health screening at work in the AM. Going to have to be brilliant about my breakfast and take in my eggs and oats to cook in the microwave for right after they draw blood.)

Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend!! Looks like I'll be at the grocery store at least once more this week as I'm almost out of eggs. (Me eating eggs all the time has prompted both boys to want omelets. *lol* Logan made himself a 6-egg omelet the other day. *face/palm* I tried to explain to him that I have 6 egg WHITES, not full eggs. No WAY anyone needs 6 full eggs, especially a 12-year-old who isn't trying to become a bodybuilder. *sigh*)

No work this weekend. Probably a good thing because it will add that in after I'm through with my 2nd week...I should be able to take the baby steps I need to get adjusted to a life of crazy always busy chaos.

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BAYBELIEVER 3/31/2012 3:31PM

    Great week! And an great ending to your week--rest days! And Logan and 6 eggs?!?! I am in awe! And I eat a lot of eggs given that I have un-Godly numbers to reach for protein! At least they are good for him!

Have a great weekend and looking forward to hearing about Monday night!

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    What a good hubby!

Holy crap, a 6 egg omelet! Did he pick up a car afterward? LOL

Have a great weekend!

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Target Acquired - LiveFit W1D4

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Here we are! Week 1 workouts are in the bag. I made it through the lifting. I made it through every early morning, each tired day, the stomach and headaches that liked to have never let up. I made it through and out the other side and ended up at... SNACK DAY.


That's it. I'm trapping myself in my damn office all day. These people are trying to sabotage me, I swear! Trust me, half of them simply don't NEED a snack day...unless, of course it was provided by me. Because I've gotten a little self-righteous about this eating clean plan. So my snack day would consist of portion controlled meals and snacks. Everyone would be called out every 3 hours to collect their meal, which typically consists of 45% protein, 40% carbs, and 15% HEALTHY fats. We'd have yummy healthy foods and as many vegetables as they wanted with each meal. The only thing NOT controlled, in fact, would be the vegetables, as there would be a wide array on the tables and they would be encouraged to eat them until they burst (do you know how hard it is to binge on veggies that aren't slathered in fat? *lmao*). *sigh* But, alas. We don't live in Esther World. I have yet to check the "snack day" table, but I'm sure it's loaded with things like donuts, donut holes, cakes, cookies, pies, hot dogs wrapped in bacon (OMFG no! BLECH!), a lunch meat tray full of sodium (though, if you're watching what you eat, this is usually your best bet), chips, more chips, and about a dozen bottles of regular and diet soda alike. I can proudly tell you that none of that is appealing to me right now...but check back around 11:00am when I have to walk by the hoard to get my already portioned out lunch from the fridge.

*bangs head on desk*
*raises head*
*takes a deep breath*
*smiles as she grips tightly to her Carrot Cake Protein Bars*

I CAN do this! I MUST do this!
I've made it through week one of LiveFit workouts.
The headache seems to be clearing away.
The tummy is feeling a lot better.
Even the scale has been kind thus far (a slight gain on day 2, followed by 2 losses in a row).
I cannot turn back now.
I simply WILL NOT give all that up for some stupid donut that I can buy anywhere, anytime.
I get one cheat this week. I will not blow that on a stupid donut!


New Motto


I'm not going to share my food. It was basically the same as it was all week. I tried to "mix it up" a bit and eat my chili for lunch and my burger for dinner. Only problem was I had run out of cooked veggies so my lunch was more snack size and I was hungry an hour later. Won't make that mistake again!

PROTEIN: 171 (46.3%)
CARBS: 129 (34.9%)
FAT: 20 (12.2%) (I'm kinda self righteous about that number too. ;) )

As for the workout - Yesterday was Legs. (YAY! Finally!!)
Leg Press - 3 sets/12 reps/335 lbs
Leg Extension - 1 set/12 reps/40 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/50 lbs
Wide-Stance Dumbbell Squat - 1 set/12 reps/25 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/35 lbs
Seated Leg Curl - 1 set/12 reps/50 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/60 lbs
Standing Calf Raises - 3 sets/12 reps/70 lbs
Seated Calf Raises - 2 sets/12 reps/45 lbs, 1 set/12 reps/55 lbs

TIME: 34 minutes
AVG HR: 102
MAX HR: 139
FAT CAL: 51%

Those last two just about did me in. Especially the Standing Calf Raises. I could not figure out how to get 60 lbs set. It was 50 (too light) or 70 (just about my limit). I'm supposed to be lifting at 60% this week, so I would have preferred to bump it down a notch, but ah-well. I still did 'em. My calves just LOVE me for it. *snort* (DOMS DOMS DOMS) I'm actually excited that I FEEL this in my legs today. I rarely do enough to get that sore/DOMS feeling in my legs because they're just SO strong (wouldn't you be after lugging around 400 pounds for so damn long?), but I think this workout will even help me build up the "runner's legs" I've always wanted without having to actually RUN after them. *snort*

Calories Consumed: 1478
Calories Burned: 169
Net Calories: 1309



As for today...once again, the food is much the same. I can't wait to cook again this weekend, though as I'm going to try Jamie's Chicken Meatloaf Muffins and Pumpkin Protein Bars with Walnuts. NOM! Sounds good! Also plan on trying to figure out more yummy ways to cook up veggies, since they're free (unlimited) and all. I think I'm going to make up some green beans and tomatoes (a yummy dish I have at the Greek place from time to time over rice) and some Kale Tofu Stir Fry as one of this week's meals.

If I consume what I've set out for the day, these will be my stats...

PROTEIN: 154 (43.3%)
CARBS: 132 (37.1%)
FAT: 25 (15.8%)

I did have a tiny little flub this morning in forgetting my protein shake mix for after my workout. Ah-well. It means my calories are down a bit low (and my protein), but I'll have to make due. Another change I'm making next week is adding fruit back into the diet. Jamie says berries in the AM (maybe with morning snack...hrm...or in my oatmeal) and then a banana with your protein shake after your workout. I'm pretty sure I just missed this little line note last week, but I think it's probably good I didn't eat any fruit this week. I'm pretty sure part of my detox was from sugar, so when I add them back in I'll have a better chance of letting them QUENCH the sweet tooth without igniting it and driving me to the gas station for Ho-Hos and the like. ;)

Today's Workout was a tad difficult. My shoulders look amazing to me already, but they aren't as strong as the rest of me, that's for sure. Plus, I've heard so many scary injury stories from shoulder work in the gym, that I tend to be very careful when doing shoulder work. (That means a good warm-up on lat raises before I even think of lifting anything over 5 pounds like that!) That being said, I think I did alright. Feeling pretty good about it.

Shoulders and Abs
Seated Dumbbell Press - 3 sets/12 reps/15 lbs
Standing Dumbbell Straight-Arm Front Delt Raise to a T - 3 sets/12 reps/10 lbs
Side Lat Raises - 1 set/12 reps/5 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/8 lbs
Seated Bent-Over Rear Delt Raise - 3 sets/12 reps/10 lbs
Exercise Ball Crunch - 3 sets/12 reps
Bicycle Crunches - 3 sets/12 reps

TIME: 32 minutes
AVG HR: 108
MAX HR: 148
FAT CAL: 47%

First of all, I *hate* using the balls at the gym. I never know whether they're approved for my weight or not. I bit the bullet this time and headed to a corner with a ball and did all 3 sets. Still didn't feel comfortable, but I wasn't going to let fear of embarassment stop me yet again. Second of all, I must have been doing something right in the meantime. I haven't done bicycle crunches in a while and for the first time EVER they were controlled and almost easy (well, at least to start). Something happened there, somehow I strengthened my core, because this is not the body I was working with when I left my last gym. This one's stronger and more agile and ready to go. *love it!*

If all goes well with the eating, these should be my end day stats:

Calories Consumed: 1424
Calories Burned: 188
Net Calories: 1236

Yes, I still think this is low for me. I once had my nutritionist yell at me and tell me never to go under 1700 (or maybe it was 1900). BUT...I'm just learning. I plan on adding in some fruits next week, so that will boost up the calories a bit more. And then (I looked ahead a bit), by week 7, Jamie urges you to eat the right amount of calories. These first few weeks are like the training grounds for the real fight. Just like Spark, they take you one step at a time. Step one in nutrition is learning WHAT to eat and when. Later we'll work on how much your body actually needs (even if I choose my eventual goal weight of 177, it means I will not be eating under 1900 calories, so I guess my nutritionist had it right). Right now, I'm trying not to worry about it. What's a few more weeks in the grand scheme of things? Learning these percentages of how to balance carbs, fat, and protein has been the one thing I haven't been able to get a hold of yet. If I can figure out how to balance these macros correctly, I will be SET! I already know WHAT to eat, and WHEN to eat, and HOW MUCH to eat, but now I'm learning what I should eat of this in proportion to that. I think that lesson is one we often save for last...and maybe Jamie's right...maybe it should be first. In the next few weeks I'll start thinking about how if I increase this part of my meal to up the calories, I should probably increase the other part as well.

Also not included in Jamie's plans are cheat meals or cheat days. And I agree with that, for the most part...but. (Yes, there's a but.) I've been stressing over the fact that next Thursday is my son's birthday and he's already requested Pizza Hut for dinner. As I was telling my girl, KKINNEA, right now I'm faced with 2 choices. 1) Eat pizza, feel guilty and horrible and like I failed, but enjoy myself in the moment with my boys. 2) Don't eat with the family and feel miserable and depressed and all those feelings of CAN'T BECAUSE I'M NOT NORMAL and have a horrible time, thus taking away from Ethan's day. I needed a choice 3. I needed it badly! It came in looking around at some of the other plans on and seeing that some of them allow "cheats" - some "clean cheats" and some "dirty cheats". I took this to mean that a clean cheat is something that doesn't exactly fit into your "planned foods" but is still considered healthy and clean. While a dirty cheat is totally off the menu, probably on the DON'T EAT THIS list. So my choice #3 - have a dirty cheat. Be smart about it. Fill up on salad from the salad bar first and then maybe have one slice of pizza and be done with it (or two if I feel really hungry, which I doubt I will if I stick to plan the rest of the day). With the calories I'm eating now, it really shouldn't hurt me at all to have a "high" day and it will probably still be under my own calorie goals.

So, yes, I'm allowing clean and dirty cheats. Only a clean cheat this week because I'm really trying to live through one full week of the "eat clean" plan. I was thinking yesterday about what I wanted and I think I've figured it out... peanut butter. *lmao* It's still "clean" if I make it myself, right?! I think that counts. No clue WHY I'm craving PB at all, but there it is. PB on some toast I'm thinking. Or maybe even just on some celery. I just really want some PB! *lol*

Alright, so week 1 workouts complete. Now I just have the tough weekend to contend with for sticking to the eating plan and I'll be able to officially say I conquered week 1. Wish me luck!! (and lots of rest! *lol*)

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SASXONTHEMOVE 4/15/2012 9:36PM

    OMG too perfect. and I just LOVE your face in that pic! You are fierce and fabulous!

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SPARKLISE 3/29/2012 6:57PM

    You go girl! emoticon emoticon
Snack day sounds like hell! emoticon but don;t forget: you are strong!!!

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LULULUCY 3/29/2012 5:35PM

    awesome hun, that sounds like a great plan! and I totally agree with you about having to add in cheats ~ I feel like cutting stuff out FOREVER is just so unrealistic. we have to be able to do moderation and it sounds like you have the perfect plan for it. have a great time at the birthday!!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 3/29/2012 2:25PM

    I love the attitude and the plan. I know you will be successful wiht both Jamie and the B-day party... I love NATF's suggest. Your burn percentage of fat is IMPRESSIVE.

Can't wait to see how the future weeks go for you!

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ATROTTIER 3/29/2012 12:35PM

    Love it! You are doing great!

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BAYBELIEVER 3/29/2012 9:50AM

    Way to go! You are on a roll. Love the picture of you with your new slogan: Live Fit or Die Tryin'! Great attitude! Keep on and keep on reporting on how things are going!

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    You ma'am, are a rockstar. You've got a plan going in and that's grrrrreat! (Tony the tiger style, yo)

They have those 6" personal pizzas. A pineapple and ham is 550 as is the Veggie Lovers. Cheese only and mushroom and pepperoni are also under 600. They also have a Fit and Delicious line but I'd recommend against it. It tasted like crap. If someone else likes thin crust, go for that. You can have 2 normal sized pieces for about 550.

You'll do great!

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Commence Operation "Just Keep Going" - LiveFit W1D3

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Yesterday = Longest. Day. Ever.

4:30am - wake up call from Mr. Bleep-Bleep (alarm clock) Ignored

4:45am - Second Bleep-Bleep message. Geez! FINE!

5:00am - Breakfast
Eggs and Oats with some Xylitol Brown Sugar Blend

5:30am - Run around like Chicken sans head to find everything and get ready. Totally not feeling it. Doing it anyway.

5:40am - Leave the house for the 1 hour drive to the gym...try not to fall asleep.

6:30am - Arrive at gym, put on HRM and lifting gloves, stuff big bag in locker and shut three times to get it to close properly. Realize I still really need to get a lock for the damn lockers.

6:35am - Head out into the weight room for my morning routine for Day 2

This one took me 35 minutes.
Back & Biceps Day
Wide-Grip Lat Pulldown - 1 set/12 reps/40 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/50 lbs
One-Arm Dumbbell Row - 1 set/12 reps/15 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/20 lbs
Seated Cable Row - 3 sets/12 reps/60 lbs
Underhand Cable Pulldowns - 3 sets/12 reps/50 lbs
Alternating Dumbbell Bicep Curls - 1 set/12 reps/15 lbs, 2 sets/12 reps/10 lbs
One-Arm Dumbbell Preacher Curls - 3 sets/12 reps/15 lbs
Standing Biceps Cable Curls - 1 set/12 reps/20 lbs, 1 set/12 reps/30 lbs, 1 set/12 reps/25 lbs
TIME: 35 minutes

7:15am - Head back to locker room and jump in the shower.

7:30am - Dress into work appropriate attire. Drive to work. Arrive 10 minutes early (better than 40!)

8:00am - Time to eat Snack #1.
1/2 cup cottage cheese with sugar-free strawberry/banana jello mix mixed in plus 2 of JE's Carrot Cake Protein Bars. (Not bad, actually...recipe:

And then I commence to TRY to TRY not to fall asleep. My head is still aching. My stomach is starting to act funny. This diet change has gotten me twisted in knots and the time/scheduling change isn't helping much. I got a full 8 hours of sleep the night before and still felt like I needed another 8. I felt rested when I woke up, but it didn't last very long.

11:00am - Lunch time.
1 Ground Chicken Zucchini Burger (see yesterday's blog) on whole wheat sandwich thin with mustard and a HUGE salad with lite balsamic vinaigrette dressing (MUCH better than that nasty other stuff I had the day before!).

By noon, I was just gone. I took my official lunch break and went out to my car to sleep...and even overslept by about 5-10 minutes. (Oops! *lol*) I had set my alarm on my phone, but had woken up, pushed the snooze button, and drifted back to sleep.

I thought the nap would help me...but it did very little. I was SO exhausted. And not feeling well at ALL. I wanted to go home and curl into a ball...but I thought of all the mealtimes I'd miss and the appointment I had at the gym after work, which I'd already rescheduled once. And I stuck it out and even got a LITTLE work done. (It's so hard to function properly when your head is clouded over like that.)

2:00pm - Snack #2 time.
4 Carrot Cake Protein Bars. These would be good with walnuts in them...

5:00pm - Dinner time.
1 cup of JE's 3-Bean Turkey Chili (again, with ground chicken in place of the turkey) and more roasted veg. I gave up on the Brussels sprouts. I know I can do better next time!

5:45pm - Change into my 2nd workout outfit. Try not to think about what I'm about to do and how little energy I actually have left.

By 6:20pm I was at the gym waiting for someone to come to the front desk so I could tell them I was waiting for a trainer. Raj eventually came up and somehow I ended up with him instead of my scheduled session with Janine (sp?). NOT FUN. Raj will NOT be my trainer. Someone else...PLEASE.

First thing's first...they all want you to "warm up" first, so they ask me what cardio machine I want. Then I go through the nervousness of telling them I'm injured and all cardio machines hurt but that I will suffer through anything for 5 minutes. A-wipe puts me on an Arc Trainer and then says, "I'll be back." By minute 2 my foot started hurting. My minute 3 it was really bad, but I just told myself, "Just TWO more minutes." By minute 8 I was pissed as hell. He still wasn't back. I have no clue where he went and why my time wasn't important enough for him to stick by me. And when he finally came back at almost 10 minutes, I was almost crying with pain...and then he took a phone call on his cell phone. *insert "I'm going to strangle you and then tie you up on the chin up bar by your shoelaces, a-hole d-bag!!!" face here*

He asked the stupidest questions. He tried to be encouraging but wasn't. He ignored me when I told him something hurt. He made me to fast step ups (which are a no-no with PF) and joked that I should do some jumping jacks (I literally said, "NO!"). I told him I had already worked my arms, chest, and back...and then he made me do even more bicep cable curls and then tortured me with lat raises. And then he put me on some step machine (well, thank you...I really wanted to see how far I could push my PF today, a-hole d-bag #(%*&%!). He made me do these sit down, stand up things with my arms over my head holding a weighted bar. Yeah, that was not fun. He refused to tell me how many seconds I had left in my wall sit when I asked saying, "Don't worry about the seconds." I'm pretty sure the level of my answer would have been considered screaming when I said to him, "I NEED to worry about the seconds because if you tell me there's 10 or 15 or 20 more, then I can tell myself that I can do this for 10 or 15 or 20 seconds." I was about to add, "Otherwise I'm quitting RIGHT NOW!" He burst out with, "15 more seconds." Thanks. I lasted 15 more seconds. And my most favorite part of this a-hole d-bag? He's like that Billy Blanks DVD I hate. He counts under on purpose. Now, in my session with Tanner, we often lost count - either he'd think I was counting or I thought he was or we were both just talking too much, and we'd ended up doing a few extra just to make sure - but to sit there and count in whispers that I can hear, and then say 3 twice and ask me to do 3 more after I've already done the 15 you ask for without using it as a competition and more as a torture device. Yeah, no thanks. Someone else can have Raj. I will punch him in the face at some point...I just know it.

Thankfully, he wasn't really interested in training me either. He finally looked at me after 45 minutes and asked if I wanted more. I said no. So unlike me, I know! Had it been Tanner, I would've done the 15 more minutes I was allotted. But I just wanted AWAY from him, and add to that the fact that I was already sore and tired. Yeah, 45 minutes was JUST fine.

I went to the mat and stretched like a good girl before heading home.

TIME: 46 minutes

(See, it doesn't ALWAYS pay to push a person too hard...just sayin'.)

I drank a protein drink in the car just to get me home.

8:15pm - I FINALLY arrived home...and forgot that Hubs had asked me to stop by Walmart to buy a new tie-out chain for our dog because he'd broken his earlier that day. *bangs head on steering wheel* I grabbed my youngest so he could "help" (more help keep me awake in the car) and drove back to the town I'd just driven through. And get all the way to Walmart to discover - they're out of the tie-out chains I need. (They've got one for a 10lb dog...should work GREAT for our 90lb Husky/Elkhound mix, right?!) *bangs head on steering wheel* Drove BACK home, whipped myself up my Evening Snack.

5-6 egg whites (I honestly can't remember how many I did)
dab of EVOO
salt/pepper/garlic powder
1/4 cup 2% cheddar cheese

Ate and then refused to move from the couch until about 10pm when I finally was able to get up and drag myself to bed.


Today is looking slightly better just for the simple fact that it's not yesterday. I do have another appointment tonight, but it's not a workout and it shouldn't take too long (I'm hoping), and it's close to home, so as soon as it's done I'll be home in 15 minutes.

The only thing I'm dreading today is a possible phone call from Kroger telling me I passed my background check and drug test (DUH!) and they want me to work this weekend. But I can't stop that from happening, nor can I stop the fact that I need to do it even though what I really want to do this weekend is have a movie marathon and then a sleeping marathon.

Head feels a touch better today...but it usually worsens around 11am or so, so we'll see. If it gets too bad today I may have to bite the bullet and just go home. I can only take so much. As for my tummy troubles, they seem to have faded, however I think Raj may have caused me to pull a muscle in/around my groin so, yeah, that's not fun AT ALL.

Whatever. Just keep going. Breakfast and Snack #1 and Workout W1D3 done so far. Now to make it through the day eating on task and then I can get back to bed...where it's safe and warm and cozy and I can sleep! (I have NEVER craved sleep so much IN MY LIFE!)


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ERIN1128 3/28/2012 11:48AM

    Boy, if I were you I'd complain to the gym - disappearing on you, and then taking a phone call while he's supposed to be working with you, sounds pretty unacceptable to me. Sorry he was such an a--.

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KKINNEA 3/28/2012 11:45AM

    You are working this, girl! I'm sending all my awakeness vibes so you can get through to the weekend - I'll send fresh vibes then.

Can't believe that dude was being such a jerk - at least you now know who isn't worth your time!!

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BOB240 3/28/2012 11:26AM

    very very impressive.. I got tired just reading it :)

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 3/28/2012 9:51AM

    Way to power through your workouts when you are so tired. I know that it's really tough to do when you are really tired.

Hope you get some good sleep in the coming days.

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MELLISOND 3/28/2012 9:27AM

    congrats on your determination and perserverance - and on sticking with the work out despite a bad trainer.
I notice you don't mention your water intake. I found that getting 10-12 glasses a day really helps my energy level. Just a thought...

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DOMS Activated - LiveFit W1D2

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

emoticon by 9pm last night. *lmao* This from the girl who had trouble shutting down around 1am every other night. I was absolutely exhausted!

Yesterday went pretty well beside the obvious time issue in the AM. (My work doesn't let me adjust my schedule so being at work 40 minutes early only means I give them a free 40 minutes of my precious time. Not going to happen again.) Well, okay, it went RELATIVELY well. I stayed on plan. I had a "good" day.

I had eggs and oats with mushrooms and celery...and a bit of Xylitol brown sugar blend to add some flavor/sweetness. (Sorry, no picture of I'd remember I was supposed to be taking food pictures at 4am?! HA!)

Snack 1 (post workout)
1 cup of cottage cheese with some sugar free strawberry banana jello mix mixed in (and some cinnamon...won't do that's weird). (Again, no picture...oops! Finally thought to start taking pictures just after my snack -- and you won't get pictures of breakfast or snack 1 from today either. I can't remember anything pre-9am!)

Because my day started so early, I ended up having lunch at 10:45am. *lol* Hey, it was right on my 3-hour schedule so I had to fight that "but it's not lunchtime yet" feeling.

Italian Chicken Zucchini Burger and a huge salad.

(Crappy pic, sorry!)

I found out a few things - 1) I still hate cucumbers and 2) I don't much care for this "sun dried tomato vinaigrette dressing. Blech! Also...THIS was the star of the show:

Recipe here:

Snack 2:
Grilled Chicken Tenderloin (it was leftover) on 1/2 a whole wheat sandwich thin with some mustard. (I have a picture, but my email box is holding it hostage right now...)

Okay, so I thought it would be super weird having dinner at work. I thought I would feel sad and awkward and all that...but it really wasn't that bad. I wasn't exactly "hungry" at the time (I felt like I'd been eating ALL DAMN DAY! And I follow a similar schedule anyhow so no clue why this really struck me as SOOO much...) but the food was super good. *proud*

3-Bean Ground Chicken Breast Chili with a side of Roasted Veg (Brussels sprouts, peppers and zucchini. NOM!)

My Brussels sprouts need some work...they were a touch too bitter so I need to figure out how to get rid of that little bite in them. (I don't like my food to bite back.)

Chili recipe:

Late Night Snack:
The best part about this plan is that there is something AFTER dinner. It feels like a second dinner and it stopped me from feeling all bummed and sad about the kids eating dinner without me because, well, they didn't (we just didn't have the same thing).

5-Egg White Omelet with Onions, Peppers, and some cheddar cheese.

Confession: Cheddar Cheese isn't in Jamie's plan per se...but there is nothing against it (only carbs this late at night) and I had some calories to spare, so I added a little. OMG! So good!

Total Calories: 1536-1628 (MFP vs. SP)
Total Calories Burned: 167
Net Calories: 1369-1461

So still over 1200, which I know is a must, but still awful low. *shrug* I'm following the plan almost to a T. (Even upped my water from 10 to 12 glasses yesterday AND took my vitamins (multi, glucosamine, b-stress complex, potassium, and fish oil).) Every other thing I read tells me to eat closer to 2000-2200 calories...but, here's the thing. I'm TIRED of overthinking this. I have to give my body a chance. I have to stop thinking I'm smarter than it or someone like Jamie Eason. If in a couple weeks I'm not seeing ANY results, then I can readjust and just figure that she meant her plan for a much smaller girl (which I know she did). That being said, I promised myself I'd make it through 1-2 weeks on Jamie's plan before I did anything to try to screw it up. So that's what I'm sticking with for now.

Now, I said that things went relatively well. Here's the rub. Switching to this "all clean" diet hasn't been easy. I mean the prep alone was a monster to get done (and I whipped up a batch last night of her Carrot Cake Protein Bars too...not bad, actually), but what I mean body is just NOT used to this. Somehow, something in the processed foods and fast foods and junk foods I've allowed myself to have on occasion here and there (and more so in the past week in prep for this change) must be highly addictive. Yesterday I got a headache at 11:30am...and it didn't subside all damn day! It was torture as I had to battle through work and by the time I was done with my late dinner, I didn't have any energy left and I was in bed by 9pm and out within 5 minutes of my head hitting the pillow.

I feel a little better today, but there's still a little pressure in my head. The only thing I can conclude is that I'm experiencing some serious withdrawal symptoms from something that's been in my diet regularly that no longer is (maybe it's that wicked coffee creamer! Or the fact that I drank less coffee yesterday because it just didn't taste as good without the creamer. *lol* Or maybe it's the lowered carbs. *shrug*). I'm thinking that this will all be gone by Thursday at the latest. And it makes me wonder how far "back" I want to go when I let up on the rigidity of my diet. I wish I knew what it was that was causing this, because if I knew I'd probably swear that crap off completely. Nobody needs this kind of pressure and pain...especially while she's trying so hard to stay focused and get things done!

So, that's that. Made it through...just barely.
I feel a little better today. By this time yesterday I was already craving a nap and today I think I've got a little more left in me...and I had better! I did day 2 this morning before work (Back and Biceps) but I've got a second workout tonight after work - another supervised workout with a different trainer at my gym. Should be interesting. I hope she leaves my darn arms alone! *lol*

DOMS is setting in. ...don't mind that feeling all that much ...reminds me I did well.

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SASXONTHEMOVE 4/14/2012 1:22PM

    mmmm...foood. I like food. and DOMS. I love DOMS. gonna go look at that burger now...can you taste the zuchinni in it at all?

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ATROTTIER 3/27/2012 2:49PM

    YUM!! Everything looks great!! So happy you made it through Day 1 even though it was a little different.

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BOB240 3/27/2012 1:12PM

    ps...any time you want to cook for me.... :)

I'll eat my tin of tuna now :(

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BOB240 3/27/2012 12:37PM

    really going for're a real fighter :)

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ERIN1128 3/27/2012 12:13PM

    Sounds like you're on a good track again!

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KKINNEA 3/27/2012 11:23AM

    Your food looks good - even the meat (says the vegetarian!). Sounds like I should try to at least make some of the snack bars so I inch closer to the food plan. I hope you have a great workout at the new gym tonight!

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GAMECOX 3/27/2012 9:16AM

    Awesome blog! Love the food pics.

I love roasted veggies. My favorites are Brussels sprouts and broccoli - but not together... Try marinating the sprouts in a little fat free chicken broth for an hour or two before roasting. It will reduce some of the bitterness and add tasty.

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