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October Recap/November Goals

Tuesday, November 01, 2011


Weight 1st of October: 310.4
Weight Goal for November 1st: 304.4
Actual Weight for November 1st: 306.4
Total Weight Lost in October: 4 pounds

*sigh* IF it hadn't have been for yesterday/last night, that weight lost total would be just a little bit higher...I may have actually hit my goal if not for the trouble last night. Combine overworking your body with staying up too late with getting too little sleep and instead of going DOWN from yesterday's 305.0 weigh in, I went back up to 306.4. *smacks forehead* Ah-well. It was a necessary evil as I had to get the final deals I could at Wal-Mart before they stopped doubling their coupons.

Anyhow, it's still me moving down on the scale by the end of the month. Two months is a row, so we seem to be getting back on track. I mean, I certainly miss the months of losing 8-12 pounds per month, but after all the months of NOTHING, I'm happy to just get 3-4 pounds and know I'm moving in the right direction.

My Goals for October were:

1. Stick to the 1600-1800 calorie range.
emoticon I tried, but it didn't work out so well. In fact, I've tried allowing myself around 2k calories per day to make up for the sweaty workouts I've been putting in and so far it's going well. This is one of those goals that needed adjusting, so I adjusted. That being said, I've been doing pretty well staying on track MOST days. Not all days, but most. I've had some days over 2k calories, and I've had some days under 1600, but mostly I'm in the 1600-2000 range.

2. Make healthy meals at home.
emoticon I've gotten into this habit a lot more lately and it's felt really good. That isn't to say that we don't eat out. We still do...too much, actually. I'm hoping that will change even more now that Ethan's done with football and there are less LATE LATE nights for us with little time. Let's face it, there's a reason fast food joints are so popular - convenience! When you work 10 hours, drive 2, workout 1, and then spend an hour at the practice field and you finally leave around 8pm to head home, the LAST thing you (okay, *I*) want to do is go home and spend another hour cooking dinner. So sometimes the fast food is a way to save my sanity. I've been trying to find more convenience foods for home, but I just haven't had a lot of time recently to do things like batch cooking. Too many chores, too little me, I guess. Like I said, hoping that will improve this month.

3. Pack my lunches.
emoticon This one I have been SUPER good at. I rarely order out anymore and instead choose to pack a salad and sandwich or some leftovers instead. Keeps me on task a little more and I know, at least, that lunch is covered.

4. Plan ahead on what I'll eat for the week and try to stick to that. It keeps me on task.
emoticon For the most part I've been doing pretty darn good at this. I plan my meals for the entire week, and then make adjustments when/if things come up. It DOES help keep me on task.

5. Cardio schedule:
Monday - Easy Run
Tuesday - Zumba
Thursday - Speedwork Run
Saturday - 5k
emoticon HAHAHAHA! My plans always change so much. For the most part, though, I've been sticking to those 3 runs a week, one day of Zumba, and then one circuit training round. I have plans (again) to change this for November.

6. When possible and able, stick in biking on Wednesdays and XT of some sort on Fridays.
emoticon Biking on the stationary bike will NEVER be a love of mine. I forced myself through some, and I'll probably pull it in now and again because it totally works the inside of my thighs, but it's nothing I enjoy. XT on Fridays? For the past 3-4 weeks I've been following the Nike Training Camp circuit training app, which I DO love. Going to keep that one up and going to get Ethan in on some of the action because a lot of the recommended off-season football conditioning moves are things I do in my circuit training.

7. Rest on Sundays. It's my one day to not worry so much about how many miles I'm putting in or how many cardio minutes I need for the week. Plus, it's been essential in my 5k Saturday recovery.
emoticon I love my Sunday rest days. Now that there's no football, I'm hoping to squeeze in a bath on this day.

8. ST schedule:
emoticon Okay, so ST has taken a huge backseat. That being said, I still work my muscles a ton during my speedwork runs and in my Circuit training. ST has its uses, but for right now I'm all about calorie burning in short bursts so I can keep this streak going.

9. Drink my water!!
emoticon DONE! And will keep doing it!

10. Do my CC stretches!
emoticon Oops.

11. My running goal - 3.1 miles straight.
emoticon I can now run 3.5 miles straight.

Not a bad month overall. Now to November Goals.

1. Stick as close to 1k net calorie deficit each day of the week. Keep using your Net Cal spreadsheet to track! (Thanks SUGIRL! ;) )

2. Log EVERYTHING and pre-log!
Once again, prelogging is helping, so I'm going to keep at it.

3. Fitness Minutes for the month: 1200
Last month I got about 1000, so I'd like to do a tiny bit better than that this month.

4. Miles to run this month: 40
I have a end of 2011 goal to log 100 miles in October-December. In October I managed 21 miles. Now that I'm running longer, and if I stay consistent, I'm hoping to increase in November.

5. Complete a 5k Turkey Trot
My sister has been a little leary of this, but I need to find one to do because it keeps me motivated to keep running.

6. Maintain control during holidays and keep moving!
I have to remember that no matter how good something might taste, I can always have it another time and, even if I don't, the world is not going to end if I don't sample it. I'll eat what I want, maintain control and then stop when I'm full. And I'll keep moving the entire month...not slack off just because it happens to be a holiday or something.

It's hard when it's cold, but it's still necessary. No wimping out on something this easy!

Weight Goal for December 1st: 299.9
There, I said it.

It's 6.5 pounds and totally doable. AND I WANTS IT!!!!!!!

November 1, 2011 (Just remembered I need to update my measurements too....)
EDIT: Lost on my hips, waist, thighs, calves, and upper arms! =D

Happy Thanksgiving Month! ;)

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 11/2/2011 4:31PM

    Amazing job. You are correct, any loss after a long plateau is something to celebrate and I will continue to celebrate with you each month and each success.

Love the plan, and goals for November.

I'm also loving the pic!

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SHEILA1505 11/2/2011 8:26AM

    3-4 pounds is good going - great to get off that plateau!
Well done

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AHEALTHYDANI 11/1/2011 9:34PM

    Wowser! Congrats on being to run 3.5 miles straight! That is a super fantastic achievement!!! I can't wait for you to hit those 200s! So excited for you!!!!
P.S. Could you get any more gorgeous in that picture??? Stunning!

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SARAWALKS 11/1/2011 8:36PM

    Beautiful photo and you are doing SO WELL!
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KKINNEA 11/1/2011 5:16PM

    You've got this!!! Go 299.9!!

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CHICAT63 11/1/2011 4:39PM

    Woohoo is right, with October gone you are closer to your goal by taking on November stronger !!! You can do it, you will see 299 on the scale.

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    Awesome game plan :) And a double fist pump for the loss in October... I was on track to have a 2 lb loss but I gained TOM weight and this morning had a 1.5 lb increase... pfbbt.

But you got the trick - adjust - adjust - adjust. Thats the one constant in this journey, when it no longer works - adjust it.

Rock November girlie! You can do it!! emoticon

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ERIN1128 11/1/2011 12:21PM

    Going strong!

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ROCKINFOX 11/1/2011 11:24AM

    You rocked out October, and November will be rocked out too! emoticon

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4EVERADONEGIRL 11/1/2011 11:17AM

    Woohoo! You made October count and with your goals for November will be ROCKIN' it!!!

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Oh, Is It Halloween??

Monday, October 31, 2011

I thought it was just another Monday. *snort* No dressing up for me. No parties. Just a walk through a nearby town while the boys collected candy, my back hurting a bit by the end of the hour and getting impatient to go home. Thankfully both my kids said, "That's enough candy for me...let's go!" after just an hour (they do 2 hours of T-o-T in our town).

Yesterday my son's team got shut out by the #1 seated team, but I'm not overly depressed about it. If his team had to lose to anyone, I wanted it to be this team. They play with class and respect, something that was confirmed for me when one of their coaches walked up to our team afterward and said, "I know this might not mean much to you guys right now, but you have improved SO much since the last time we played you!" He was so sincere, and he did not have to come up to our kids at all. Mineral Wells is a team that is good because they play hard, because they practice hard, and because they teach their kids how to win FAIRLY. Huge difference from the team we played in the quarter finals who MUST teach their kids things like blocking in the back because they do it CONSTANTLY...and then they complain when our kids play long and hard and beat them by just 8 points (a 8-0 game) that they were "cheated" and that our boys "cheated." (Ethan looked at me confused when they said it and I looked down at him, shook my head and gave him a look that we'd talk about it later. I told him that the coaches were upset that they weren't able to cheat their way to a win. They were mad they got called on some of the illegal things the team does on a regular basis. They didn't expect to be beaten by our boys, by a fair team, and they were grasping for straws to explain it...and all they knew was "cheating" as an explaination. He knows that I'm the first mom to criticize if our kids start playing wrong, start pulling illegal moves, because as much as I want our boys to win, I still remember that these are 9 and 10 year olds and it's much more important to teach them sportsmanship, discipline, and playing by the rules.)

I also realized yesterday that, while our boys didn't make it to the Championship game, I fully believe they are champions in their own right. I have never seen a team improve so much over one season (except the Bucks, who seem to be turning something out/around finally) and my son has improved so much from the kid he was when he started. This year I saw his drive and determination. He's growing up and becoming a young man that his Mommy can be proud of. As I watched my son in this difficult game against the #1 team, I watched him break through the line, jump over another player on the ground and run his heart out toward the ball carrier to pull out a tackle. That is not the boy that started this year. He's learning how to "read" plays, how to assess where the ball might be going and where he should be. He's gone from blocking well to "shucking" blockers and getting tackles. He's played center, right/left guard, and linebacker and has grown and learned with each change. I don't give 2 craps what the score was yesterday - my boy was a winner and I'm proud to be his Mom!

That being said, we're both just a tiny bit sad about the season ending. Ethan made more friends this year, of course, but so did his mom. I started putting myself out there, talking to other Moms, getting to know them a little bit, and it's been a lot of fun "hanging out" at practice instead of just sitting there getting cold as the nights grow longer. After the game yesterday, Ethan said to me, "I'm going to miss my team...." and then he stopped and said, " family." I smiled at him. How can such a little boy be so sweet and smart and sentimental. He understands that "family" can come from anywhere, that it isn't always just reserved for mom, dad, brother, g'parents, but that sometimes you can build your family out of people sharing a common goal/dream and working toward it together. He's understanding the bonds of friendship and how to foster them. This is the same boy who last year (and at the beginning of this year) thought no one liked him.

So, yes, we'll miss them...but there will be a next season, I'm pretty darn sure of that. Ethan not only loves playing football, but he's really good at it and he just keeps getting better.

I joked to Hubs yesterday that I was changing his name to "Owen Schmidt" because he actually CRACKED his facemask in the game yesterday because he was playing so hard! (Scared, but proud Momma. *lol*)

For the reference, read here:

and this:

And before that we still have:
Equipment Turn-In
Pizza Party
Team Cookout
Football Awards Banquet

I told Ethan this morning that we have months between now and when the next season starts to do a lot of conditioning and make him even better. The HS players are supposed to host an agility conditioning training in January that I'd certainly like for him to attend. But since Momma knows how to train for things, I think Momma is going to set up some regular conditioning for him between now and then. And, as I was talking about that this morning to him, and before anyone gets on me about being one of "those" moms that pushes too hard, he busts in with, "Well, I was thinking. Football starts in late July. My birthday is in April. You said that I have to be 10 to workout at the gym with you. That gives me 2 months at the gym before practice starts." *lol* Yep, that's my boy. So now that I've got a training schedule for now, I need one for him that will include:

- Running
- Strength
- Agility
- Throwing
- Catching
- Blocking passes
- Blocking on the line (offense and defense)
- Tackling

Anyone have a good football training schedule that isn't too NFL hardcore? *lol* I don't want to go crazy, but if he wants a way to get better in the meantime, then I should be able to help him out with that.

Hope everyone has a great Halloween or, if you're like me, Monday! *lol*

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 10/31/2011 11:20PM


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ERIN1128 10/31/2011 3:52PM

    That just warms my heart to hear about that coach, how awesome! What a great role model. Congrats on your son's great season...from all your blogs, it sounds like it's been a great learning experience for both of you.

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BRIAEL 10/31/2011 2:01PM

    Great parents produce great kids - what's surprising about your kid being one of the good ones, huh? :)

Have you considered contacting the boys' coach and other parents to see if they want to get together and check if a local community center or gym is prepared to give you some time and space to carry on training? Like an off-season season, so to speak? I'm sure Ethan can't be the only team member that doesn't want it to end.

Kudos to you on teaching your children good values. I wish every kid was lucky enough to have a mom like you. :)

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KKINNEA 10/31/2011 12:09PM

    Sounds like your boy is just amazing in what he's learning - love that you'll be his summer coach!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 10/31/2011 11:53AM

    That is awesome about how the other team plays so graciously and with just don't see enough of that in kids sports these days. :-)

Sounds like it was a great experience for all of you! Have a happy day today!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 10/31/2011 10:44AM

    I think sportsmanship is such a great thing for young athletes to learn, and it sounds like your son has it.

I don't know much about trianing for football, but I've seen football players doing up downs which are simlart to burpees, and running suicides or something similar helps build edurance and speed along with agility since there is start and stopping.

I'll keep my thinking cap on.

Happy Halloween!

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Weigh-In Day: I'll Take It Edition

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Weigh-In Day

Weight Last Week: 307.6
Weight Goal for This Week: 305.6
Actual Weight This Week: 306.4
Weight Lost/Gained This Week: -1.2 pounds

I'll take it!

Total Weight Lost with SP: 109.8
Total Weight Lost from Highest: 160.2

Okay, so this week was a really hard week, to say the least. I was in mourning. I was contemplating life and having a bit of a mid-life crisis. Can't say I'm out of the woods yet as when the lady at the gym asked the other day, "Esther, are you still 30?" I said yes and it hit me that in 2 months I will not be...I'll be seeing the other side of 30 and, for some reason, that's scaring me more than turning 30 did.

Yesterday I didn't get to run. I did do a bunch of cleaning around here and then went Trick-or-Treating with the boys where we walked around for an hour so they could collect candy...which I then did NOT binge on when we got home. I did steal some for my own little "pile" of candy. It includes 4 bags of pretzels, a few 3 Musketeers that Ethan didn't want, a couple tiny Reese's cups and a lil bag of Reese's pieces. Last night I ate a fun size Kit Kat while we were walking around and then a mini bite-sized 3 Musketeers while my football game was on later. (GO BUCKS!!!)

I didn't get to run, though, so I just adjusted my calories down a little bit and stayed closer to 1700-1800 calories...which seemed to work. Yesterday morning I weighed in at 307.4 or something, and this morning I was down another pound. I was mad about missing my run but I'm starting to think I may have needed the break just this once. I ran a LOT this month and I feel really good about it. Plus, I now cannot WAIT until tomorrow so I can run again and start the week (and then November) off right.

Today Ethan's football team is playing in the semi-finals against the #1 seated team (his team was ranked #5 in regular season play, but pulled out a hard-fought win last week against the #4 team). All week I kept thinking, "Not gonna happen..." but after watching my two teams last night pull out wins, especially the OSU upset over Wisconsin, I feel much better about their chances. If they go out there and play with heart and soul and do what they know how to do they could pull out a win and make it to the Championships. Of course, this probably means my son won't get a lick of game time (he didn't last week either), but we don't care. If his team can pull out the win, he'll be part of the team that goes to the championship. And, as I keep telling him, whether or not he plays, he has helped make that happen by being a strong defensive player during practice and giving the first string offense something to struggle against and get better.

Plan for the day:
Beat Mineral Wells
Go couponing *lol*

Our WalMart store was a tester store in the state for double coupons up to .99, but they're ending all that on November 1st, so this is my last chance to get my .55 and .75 coupons doubled and find some good deals and build my stockpile a bit. Wish me luck!

Okay, so back to the weight loss thing. *lol*

Goals for next week:

emoticon Weight Goal: 304.4

emoticon Pack healthy lunches

emoticon Eat lots of fruits and veggies

emoticon Cook and eat healthy meals at home

emoticon Run 3 times this week

emoticon Circuit train 2 times

emoticon Yoga/Stretch on off days and when necessary

I've already got some yummy meals planned.
We're probably going to have Steak and Potatoes tonight. *lol* Ethan's request.
I'll also make up the Stuffed Red Peppers either tonight or tomorrow.
Going to put in a batch of Healthy Potato Soup in the crockpot for the week as well.
And then sometime this week I'll make up some homemade Chicken Fajitas.
Sounds yummy, right!? :)

The need to eat healthy meals at home has become even more important for us recently. Both of my kids have health concerns/issues that require dietary adjustments. Logan seems to be lactose resistant so I buy him Soy or Almond milk for his cereal and try to cut down on the dairy he's allowed to eat. Ethan's is a little more serious. We think he may have encopresis, which is causing him a lot of stomach issues. One major treatment is to adjust to healthier eating habits - lots of fruits and veggies, lots of water, whole grains, etc. I turned to him after we figured out the likely problem and said, "Oh, we've GOT this! This is how MOMMY eats, so you just need to start eating like Mommy and not refusing all her healthy dishes and opting for junk." The only curve balls I've experienced so far is that he's supposed to stay away from cooked carrots and bananas, but we can work around that no problem. He, also, needs to limit his dairy intake.

As I was thinking about these tummy issues both my boys have I realized that my turn to better, healthier eating could've never come at a better time! My kids NEED me to be the Mom that pushes healthy foods and doesn't opt to go out to McD's and other fast food joints every night (something Ethan's also supposed to avoid). I had a long talk with him over his fears that he'd never be able to go out and get Taco Bell or eat peanuts (another one he's to avoid) or have a soda (another no-no) and I told him, "No, honey. You can have those things...just not all the time. Limit your intake to special times or special treats and eat healthy the other 90% of the time and you should be fine." He seemed to feel better about that, especially considering the big bag of candy he got last night which he was afraid he couldn't eat.

So this family is going to be moving forward and moving toward even healthier eating. Eating out has GOT to be a very limited thing. Should help EVERYONE live a healthier, happier and longer life. And will help me shed these pounds a little easier as well. ;) BONUS! I think I'm going to try to work with Hubs some more on him being able to cook some of these healthier meals so I'm not so stressed all the time too. It's important that everyone knows how to make a few healthy meals...even the kids can help out! I'll teach each of the boys at least one new healthy recipe, print out the recipe for them and teach them how to follow it to make a healthy meal choice for the family. (I think that will be one of my November goals.)

Well, happy Sparking everyone! Enjoy this crisp weather because soon it's going to be so cold you're going to wish for days like this! *lol* And for those of you already getting pounded with snow...eep! Sorry! *lol*

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AHEALTHYDANI 10/30/2011 11:13PM

    Go SuperMom!!! P.S. What time should I be there for Chicken Fajita night? emoticon

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SHEILA1505 10/30/2011 12:24PM

    It's such a good idea to get the men in the house to cook some of the meals - my DS learned to cook early on and it's just as well as he had to fend for himself in London, and New York, and in his apartment here.

Hope the coupons worked out well today - I had good news the other day. A supermarket that was giving one percent in store on purchases, and also links healthy foods to large refunds on my credit card, has now increased the kickback to ten percent from December! All my savings of this kind go into my FunFun :)

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GOGOSHIRE 10/30/2011 10:20AM

    I listen to the Jillian Michaels podcasts on iTunes, and she was saying something that resonated with me, that we all have about 5 things we eat repeatedly for each of the 3 meals a day (she was telling a caller who was kvetching about how counting cals is hard that really, no, it's not - you count up your 15 meals, and boom, you're done unless you go out to eat). I like the idea of making the hubs and kids each responsible for 1 or 2 dinners - it takes the pressure off of you, it makes the boys more independent and self-sufficient (a good thing), and it makes it easier to count cals since you know those recipes anyway. :)

About the 30 vs 31 thing, it was true for me, too, and even more so when I turned 41 vs 40. With the 0 years, you're riding the fence of the two decades' teams, and part of both, part of neither, but with the 1 years, you are undeniably part of that decade's team.

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MIQUEY73 10/30/2011 10:02AM

    I love that idea to teach the kids a recipe! I think we'll try that too!

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Goal Met

Saturday, October 29, 2011

I was a bit surprised that I got everything done yesterday that I wanted to do.

The Plan:
- Chiro
- McD's breakfast for Hubs (but NOT for me!)
- Shopping at Old Navy (needed new compression running pants, shirts for Logan and pants for Ethan and they were having a big sale)
- Panera for lunch
- Circuit Training workout
- Meeting/weigh-in at the Gym (with hopes to get under 310)
- Football practice for Ethan

Chiro appointment went well. He told me to ice it later because I'd be sore, and boy was he right! I went without Hubs, but picked him up his 2 Sausage Biscuits and Coffee from McDonald's. I, however, was a good girl and ate my bagel before my appointment and didn't submit to any McD's food temptation.

The Old Navy shopping trip went well too. My couponing/sale techniques came in handy and between the 30-40% off sale, shopping only clearance (besides my running pants) and a $25 rewards cash coupon we had, I got 3 shirts for Logan, 2 pairs of pants for Ethan (1 pair of jeans, 1 pair of cool cargos with skulls on them), and my $30 running pants all for $10.14! I actually spent MORE money on lunch than on clothes! *lol*

Panera, as always, was a great, healthy treat. I even resisted while Hubs ate my favorite Cinnamon Crunch bagel in front of me and stuck to my Thai Chopped Salad with some Black Bean soup. NOM!

By the time we got home, I had about an hour and a half before I needed to head to the gym. I grabbed my ice pack and headed to bed to rest for a bit, telling Hubs to wake me up at 2:30pm if I fell asleep. Within seconds I was conked out completely. I slept until 3pm and then finally dragged myself up and headed out the door to the gym.

My Fighter Fit circuit training went great. I'm getting much better each and every time and as I learn the moves I don't have to watch the demos to understand what its telling me to do. Some of my favorite ladies walked in as I was finishing up again and asked me if I wanted to work out with them. Surprisingly I told them that if I didn't have an appointment downstairs I probably would have. They said I could join them anytime and I think if they're there next week and I feel good I'll jump in on that action. As I was walking out of the room, one of the three ladies said, "I don't know if I can do this..." I turned around and said, "Of course you can! If I can do it, you can!" She thanked me and they all laughed and kept going with their workout. :) I'm not sure what she said to me but it was something about being motivating for her, I think. :)

I went downstairs, hurried to potty, and then hopped on the scale nervously. I took a deep breath and looked at the scale's readout just saying to myself over and over, "Just under 310. Under 310 is all I need." Up pops 304.something. I nearly bounced up and down. Cissy was looking at my past readout saying, "Let's see here, so we're trying to beat..." and I interrupted her and said, "Oh, we beat it." with this huge dopey grin on my face. Pounded it to the ground, I did. We talked for a few minutes. she said I lost 2 inches off my waist too. I told her about the circuit training app and she said she'd pass it on to other clients. I told her how amazing I felt when I was done with them and she just smiled. I told her I've gone back to cooking more at home and that I have a sneaky suspicion that I was trying too hard to eat too little and that I'm testing a theory right now that if I eat around 2k calories and burn 500, I'll end up with a 1k deficit for the day and lose my 2 pounds each week. "So far, so good!" I told her.

Ethan's football practice ticked me off. They made my kid stand there and do basically nothing, in the rain and 40 degree temps. Thankfully they only kept them for an hour and I drove my freezing boy straight to Pizza Hut for dinner. Yes, I ate 2 pieces of pizza last night and a breadstick, but I felt alright about it. I had been pretty darn good all day and I stopped when I was full. Plus, the only snacks I'd had all day were a banana and a protein drink between my workout and football practice.

Of course, I was exhausted by the time we made it home...and then Hubs surprised me with his need for me to pick out clothes for his interview today. *sigh* (Why do men always wait until the last damn minute!?) We ended up having to run out again to get him something "professional" and he looked great when he left a few minutes ago. Only thing he's missing is a tie pin/tack and a sports coat/suit jacket, but we did the best we could with the WalMart supplies. I wished him luck this morning and sent him off with a kiss.

I'm still wondering how I hit 304 at the gym last night. I think it was a perfect combination of sleep + workout + good food all day. I wasn't even all that dehydrated according to the readout so it wasn't all water weight. This morning I got 307, which was about a half a pound down from yesterday morning's weigh in. Still, I was so friggin' close to the 200s that I got a little tingle down my spine. Next month I hope to have a repeat performance and end up under 300. We shall see.

I can't always count on the scale doing what I want it to do. Most times, actually, I'm at a loss for what's really happening with it, but if I find that perfect equation of calories in v. calories out I should be able to find my consistency again. Going to keep this 2k in v. 500 out going for a week or two and see if that's what I need to make it happen. Used to be that 1600 calories was my "sweet spot" but I'm working out harder than every and, likely, burning more calories than I ever was before so it stands to reason that my body would need a little more to keep up with the running all week and circuit training and Zumba.

Speaking of Zumba. *sigh* It still hurts to do...and while that makes me a little sad (at the beginning of the year I had every intention of becoming certified), I'm wondering if I need it in my life right now. I've been doing it just once a week, and I'm wondering if I cut it out and substitute another round of my circuit training if I might feel better as far as my back is concerned. Maybe I'll be able to go back to Zumba eventually, but for right now it just about kills my back every single time I try...and that just about sidelines me every single week. Maybe I'll try the new workout plan this week and see how it goes.

Plan for Today:
- Run 3-4 miles when Hubs gets back with my phone. Thank goodness I got pants and have my long sleeved running shirt because it's COLD out today! Keep hoping the sun will come out.
- Cleaning. Got some stuff still to catch up on around the house. Kitchen, living room, laundry, all the regular (boring) stuff.
- Trick-or-Treat tonight from 6-8pm. It'll be a good long walk for Hubs and I if it's not raining.

Workout Plan for Next Week:
Sunday - Yoga/Stretching
Monday - Easy Run
Tuesday - Circuit Round 1
Wednesday - Speedwork
Thursday - Yoga/Stretching
Friday - Circuit Round 2
Saturday - 4 mile run

*It has been weeks since I actually got in an "easy" run. Weeks! On Wednesday I decided that I miss having running be fun and not just a challenge. I love the freedom of an "easy" run where I don't think about how far I'm going or how far I need to go or how fast I need to be running...I just go until I'm tired and remind my legs of the run and have fun with it. I NEED this in my life, so I'm really going to make it a point to try to get this EASY run in!

Last month's gym weigh-in: 316.2
This month's gym weigh-in: 304.4 (I think)
Weight Lost This Month: 11.8 pounds!
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FROGGERHKC 10/30/2011 11:02AM

    Congrats on your amazing loss this month! You are doing awesome!!!

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SHEILA1505 10/30/2011 8:59AM

    Well done - and yes, if Zumba lays you out for a week, it's time to listen to your body. It's sad though but there's so many other things to do.

Hope DH has some good news

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MIQUEY73 10/29/2011 1:47PM

    You are rocking it! emoticon

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COCOMAC7 10/29/2011 1:16PM

    Yay!!! Great progress girl. YOu are doing everything you need to and it's paying off! You rock

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SPUNKYDUCKY 10/29/2011 12:59PM

    Congratulations! I hope you have a wonderful weekend and that you don't have as much snow down there as we have up here in the North - belch! Looking forward to Halloween though!

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MANLEYSANDY 10/29/2011 12:55PM

    You are amazing!!

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CHICAT63 10/29/2011 12:38PM

    Wow, totally awesome on your weigh-in, gym time and shopping ! All the best of luck to Hubs for his interview today:). You are doing great !!!! Here is to a terrific November and you totally got this. emoticon

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 10/29/2011 10:04AM

    OMG This blog is just what I needed to start my day out. I'm like this emoticon for you.

I hope you have many more days like this in the future.

Fingers are crossed for the hubs!

Sorry to hear about Zumba and the pain, but I think you are right to give it up if it's causing so much pain and sidelining you from working on your goals.

Congats on the 11.8 lbs this month. I knew all that hard work would pay off.

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This Feels Weird...

Friday, October 28, 2011

So while I struggle to see 2011 as a success in terms of actual weight lost, I realized the other day that this has been a year of tremendous self-improvement on another level.

I started my first day at my job, as a Receptionist working the front desk. It didn't pay that well (I would've KILLED for a teacher's salary!) but it was steady work. Within months, though, I was already looking ahead toward making my mark and moving up the ladder...not always an easy thing to do in State government work.

Six months later, I moved up to a job as Secretary I. The job wasn't all that clearly defined. It had formerly been a job as a Secretary in the legal department, but since we'd moved from having 3 judges to just two, and as we already had 2 legal secretaries, the job changed. I wasn't quite sure what I would be doing, and the job changed rapidly throughout the period I worked it. It changed because of my ability and the willingness I had to do more. I went from mailing invitations for our annual awards luncheon to, by the last year we did it, basically running the whole she-bang. I directed the Governor's security, the press, the honorees and guests at that event. I was there to do whatever was necessary, and was told I had done well.

In the time I spent holding that Secretary I title I worked as a legal secretary when our Chief Judge's secretary (my new bestie) left for greener pastures (by that I mean she went private sector and got a raise *lol*). I spent a couple months fielding calls from attorneys and writing orders and sending certified documents from the Chief ALJ. When I wasn't doing that I was helping to plan, organize, and design literature and posters for outreach events. I was good at that and I loved it. For the last few years, I was asked to help alleviate a backlog of complaints that needed to be written up into a formal, legal document. I started learning how preliminary investigation worked, and how to determine jurisdictional issues. Many times I was called in to work parts of the Executive division, helping tidy up personnel issues, acting as Secretary for meetings, and doing what needed to be done to make things better.

Basically, I felt like the woman holding the fire extinguisher, helping to put out fires wherever they arose. I joked about what jobs I *hadn't* done in this position (anything financial! *lol* I told them long ago not to allow me near numbers...I was creative, and they didn't want a "creative" budget). And I did most of that while attending school full-time for my BA in English. I also know full well that I was being groomed...and that's a weird feeling in itself. It's positive, because it meant someone (my ED) saw something in me that was bound for better things. So she increasingly released her grasp on me and let me have at it, let me learn more about the biz and what we did on a regular basis. I got used to saying, "I'm not sure what the answer to that question is, but I'll find out and get back to you." And I always got back to them understanding more about our process and how things worked.

Then, on Valentine's Day of all days, I was promoted to Investigator. They gave me a badge and some authority to work on my own and make important decisions in the lives of the public. It was scary and daunting and I still to this day go back and say, "I want you to check my work" because I don't want to tell someone no when it could be yes. I think a lot of our Investigators have lost touch with the importance of what we do, how our decisions can change people's lives, can confirm or deny the feelings of hurt and mistreatment they've experienced. Sometimes our job is easy and the lines are clearly defined, someone clearly crosses them and we can make a quick decision to send it on to the next level. But, in most cases, it's not as clear cut as all that. We have to read between the lines, get in the heads of the people we're dealing with, be a good judge of character, and not get swept away in the story we're being told.

Once again, I've been floated around between departments. I've learned both sides because my work has learned to expect from me that I will go where I'm needed. And as confusing as it can be for me sometimes, it's also very exciting to not feel limited by "well, I don't work in that department." I'm not perfect. Far from. I get nervous about the decisions I make sometimes. Sometimes I'm a little slow to get to the decision because I'm afraid of its magnitude. Thank GOODNESS I always have someone willing to check my work!

But none of this is strange to me. This is what I do. I adapt and learn. I have *always* loved learning. Very few things form a barrier in my mind where I think, "Nope. Can't learn that. Not what I'm good at." and I let it go without trying. (Geometry is one. Do not put a triangle in front of me or I get a stupid look on my face and my eyes bug out of my head. I don't GET geometry and firmly believe that no amount of time spent on it will make me understand it.) Also, I must credit my mother for always teaching me the value of working hard and constantly trying to improve. And teaching me the most valuable lesson of all when it comes to business, "Make yourself invaluable to the company."

None of this feels weird. What does feel weird is that I keep getting compliments from the most unlikely sources. Both our judges (including our new ED) have complimented me on my work and work ethic (the ED did it in front of the entire staff, which made me incredibly nervous). All of my supervisors have done the same. Even the attorney who works with us has gone out of her way on several occasions to thank me for the work I'm doing and tell me how great it is. And then yesterday, I get approached by one of our Supervisors who tells me that my direct supervisor informed her that *I* was the one who should be the "face" of the department on an outreach/training program. And I about crapped my pants. I still don't know what I'm doing in this new department 100% (I just moved to this new department full-time in June/July). I almost said, "Are you SURE?!" But I just nodded and smiled and took it as another challenge. And, as I told Hubs, I'm going to practice my, "I don't know the answer to that, but I'll find out and get back to you." speech. *lol*

The other day, after my second compliment of the day, and one that came from one of the most unlikely sources, a guy who rarely gives compliments freely, I thought to myself, "This feels weird. It's almost TOO easy." I snapped myself out of it. I refuse to get comfortable. I refuse to think I have all the answers. Too much is riding on what I think and say and I don't want to stop being the girl who has someone else check her work. I don't want to stop considering the importance of what we're doing here and get comfortable with just handing down judgements. (One reason why I think I probably could NEVER be a judge.)

So, while this year has been the struggle of all struggles in terms of pounds lost on the scale, I'm going to take this year as a win. I'm going to keep fighting and keep ignoring the compliments. I know it sounds incredibly stupid, but I do NOT want to be someone who think she has it all figured out. I want to continue to learn and understand and grow. I want to never stop trying to be invaluable to the people around me. And I NEVER want to stop helping people and get to a place where, "I'm just doing my job." and "That's not in my job description." become regular mantras of my life. Ain't gonna happen. I'm going to continue to remember that I'm new, I make mistakes, and I'm NEVER going to see myself as an authority on what we do...because that would just make it seem like there is nothing more to learn, no more expansion of the mind or thought process.

It feels weird. Is it weird that I choose to ignore it? Hrm...

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WISHICOULDFLY 10/29/2011 9:03AM

    Yeah, I have to agree. This year is a BIG WIN for you. You are articulate AND insightful. Thank God, those that have authority in your workplace recognize your talents , strengths and potential and are wise enough to utilize them.

You have done an amazing job with your weight/exercise, but it is not ALL about that either. How wonderful to be able to do a job that brings you satisfaction too!

I am very proud of you and happy for you too! emoticon

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ANNIE7205 10/28/2011 4:49PM

    It is great to be recognized, but you definitely have the right attitude about it. Also, your job sounds very interesting. My plan after college was to go to law school. I spent a few years as a paralegal, decided it ultimately wasn't for me, went back got my MBA and went into financial planning. I do get to be a bit creative working with clients and retirement planning/education/etc, could never handle doing anything like accounting or budgeting, though. And yeah, geometry totally eludes me.

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LUCYSUNFLOWER 10/28/2011 4:27PM

    I think we cannot push ourselves forward in only one area of our lives without affecting others. You have pushed yourself so very hard to lose weight, but I think you carried other aspects of your life forward as well. I think this blog clearly illustrates why you should not beat yourself up for not losing as much weight as you wanted to this year. Your path of personal growth would be very colorful if you created a chart - sometimes you shoot forward in one area while another one may appear stalled. Girl, you need to accept that you are a stellar human being with a LOT to offer the world, and your weight loss goals are only one part of the extraordinary journey of being You! You've got it all going on, and I look forward to hearing more about the positive changes you've put in motion... Rather than looking at one aspect of 2011 in terms of success, look at the year as a whole - I'd call it a raving success and it's not even over yet!!


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SARAWALKS 10/28/2011 2:27PM

    So interesting to hear about your work and I must say I'm not surprised! You are one of the most articulate and curious and interesting folks on Spark.
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SHELLYKOCH1 10/28/2011 1:17PM

    This journey is more than just shedding pounds. You're well deserved to consider this year as a WIN. You can truly feel the care and passion you have for your job through your writing. Having that passion and understanding what/how you tick is a great part of this journey. You are very fortunate to have a job you so obviously love.

This year will be the year of the scale. With such a great foundation, you can't help but reach even more of your goals.

“Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”—Unknown

Oh, Shrek. Don't worry.
Things just seem bad because it's dark and rainy
and Fiona's father hired a sleazy hitman to whack you.
- the movie Shrek 2

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KKINNEA 10/28/2011 12:16PM

    Sounds like you're the real go-to at work - way to go taking on those challenges!

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SHEILA1505 10/28/2011 12:15PM

    It's great that you are doing something that so clearly interests you and keeps you focussed. The challenges that stretch you all the time seem to add to the pleasure you find there. Well done - and how great that people actually tell you that they appreciate your input.

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PAANDRUS 10/28/2011 11:06AM

    Sounds like a neat & interesting job! Keep up the good work! You deserve it it sounds like! Never forget how far you've come!

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JELLEN726 10/28/2011 9:33AM

    emoticon emoticonThose are big accomplishments!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 10/28/2011 9:07AM

    Awesome!!! I love when people recognize my hard work, and it seems like your compliments are well deserved.

Keep up the great work... I promise this year will be a success in more ways than one, you've earned it.

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ANGELOO29 10/28/2011 8:39AM

    I feel the same way - I'm taking the year as a win because I've grow so much in other ways. Good for you~!

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