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Weigh-In Day: Consistency Edition

Sunday, September 25, 2011

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Weigh-In Day

Weight Last Week: 316.0
Goal for This Week: 314.0
Actual Weight This Week: 311.6
Loss/Gain: -4.4 pounds!!

Weight Lost with SP: 104.6 pounds
Total Weight Lost: 155 pounds

Last week I worked on consistency. On Monday I planned out all my meals for the week - breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks. I made it so I was within my ranges on the low end every single day and then tried to stick as closely to that as possible each day. It didn't always work out.

Calorie Range: 1670-2020

Sunday - 1499 (not sure if I tracked everything, tho)
Monday - 2576
Tuesday - 1908
Wednesday - 1823
Thursday - 1921
Friday - 2722
Saturday - 1994

So I overate on Monday and Friday, but I forced myself to log it. I don't remember what was up with Monday but I know exactly what caused Friday's meltdown/disconnect. I weighed in at the house Friday morning at 312 pounds. I was excited because that was my weigh-in day with the gym. Last month I had weighed 317 on their scale and I wanted to show them a decent loss of at least a couple pounds. I get there and ....316.8. *face/palm* Of course I weighed in in the evening, after eating some salty chips for a snack. I wanted to punch the stupid gym scale in the face. Not only that, but I noticed my FFM has decreased by about 10 pounds, which is frustrating but I'm pretty sure it comes from all the running I've been doing. Anyhow, it means that to reach my 30% body fat goal, I went from having to get to 230 pounds to having to get to 224. *sigh* It was not a good night. I cried a lot...and the next day I shut myself up and continued on.

As for my workouts, I was also working on consistency. I let ST take a backseat as I tried to settle into a consistent routine, something I've been sorely lacking.

Calorie Burn Goals for the Week:
Workout at Least 30 minutes everyday except Sunday and Fridays.
Burn at least 1780 calories in a week. Averaging 356 calories burned in each 30 minute session scheduled.

And this is how I did:
Sunday - 0 calories burned - off
Monday - 226 calories burned - "Easy Run" day; 1.5 miles in 24 minutes
Tuesday - 634 calories burned - Zumba (45 minutes)
Wednesday - 362 calories burned - 22 minutes on bike
Thursday - 216 calories burned* - Speedwork Run; 1.45 mi in 23 minutes
Friday - 212 calories burned* - Zumba for Kinect; 15 minutes
Saturday - 477 calories burned - LDR 5k; 3.12 miles in 47 minutes

Total Calories burned: 2127/1780

Now, I'm pretty sure that it probably overestimated on Wednesday because that recumbent bike did just about nothing for my HR (though my abs certainly felt it), but I'm also pretty sure it underestimated on Thursday and Friday, so I think it all evens out.

So, yes, I overate a couple days - by 1258 calories for the week - but I ate within my ranges the rest of the week. Plus, according to Spark's calculations I burned an extra 347 calories.

See, I'm going back to the numbers...because they work...and because I finally can now that my body is cooperating. I'm working on staying consistent and trying to work out a plan that works. I plan on repeating this same effort next week, though I'm going to stick back in some ST during the day on at least 3 days.

I need more successful weeks. I'm 11.7 pounds away from 299.9 and I can finally see it...I finally feel like it might happen, and soon if I can stick to it. My goal is to in the 200's by the time this year ends.

I can't stress enough how planning, adjusting, and consistency have worked for me this week, so I need to repeat that over and over again until I reach goal. (I know...DUH, Esther! ;) ) I got hung up on the slowness when injuries sidelined me. I got caught up in it not happening and I lost sight of how to make it happen. I've got to get out of that mindset and back to the "I can do this! I know how to do this. I've done it before, I can do it again!" mindset.

Plan for next week:
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Another thing I did well this week and must continue to do.

emoticon Plan out meals, record them ahead of time and try to stick with it, staying within calorie ranges.

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Sunday - rest day
Monday - Easy Run day, ST
Tuesday - Zumba, ST
Wednesday - 25 minutes on the bike
Thursday - Speedwork Run, ST
Friday - (optional) XT, ST
Saturday - LDR 5k

And I've been thinking about October goals as well (which I'll actually post on the 1st, as always). I've already decided to do continue my 5k Saturdays, but I'm going to work on running 3 miles straight for the month of October. It might take me the entire month, but that's okay. Slow and steady wins the race, right? With consistency, I should be able to run a full 5k by the end of October.

emoticon Weight Goal for next week: 309.6

Onward and Downward!

  
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SARAWALKS 9/27/2011 9:07AM

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You are gonna get there! YEEEEEEESSS!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 9/26/2011 4:55PM

    You can do it!!!!

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MANLEYSANDY 9/26/2011 3:44PM

    Way to go Ester!!

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SPARTANBABE 9/26/2011 1:59PM

    Esther, you are awesome! Keep rockin' it!
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NOTABOUTHEFACE 9/26/2011 11:45AM

    Rock it girl!!! So proud of you!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/26/2011 11:23AM

    AWESOME JOB ON THE 4.4 lbs. Love to see when hard work pays off.

I'm with yon consistency and water.

Let's stick it to this week, and reap the amazing rewards.

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KAYOTIC 9/26/2011 10:07AM

    emoticongreat job on the consistency, planning, and making it happen even with a bump or two in the road.....and you can learn from the Friday mishap with the scale, you didn't let it disrail your entire plan, and got back to it the next day, so good for you! And it shows in the numbers! emoticon

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KKINNEA 9/26/2011 12:55AM

    Those numbers are looking so good and the plans are smart. Looking forward to hearing how the consistent 3 milers go this month!

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ERIN1128 9/25/2011 1:47PM

    Glad you've found something that works for you. Consistency may sound boring, but it's a powerful thing!

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MENNOLY 9/25/2011 12:46PM

    You are doing really well. Kudo's Keep it up. Your focus is great. emoticon emoticonon your weight loss. emoticon

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MICHELLESMILES_ 9/25/2011 9:54AM

    You continue to inspire me!

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MRS_ROSS 9/25/2011 9:25AM

    Way to go!! You are awesome!!

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Is This Thing On?? and Please Don't Puke!!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Is This Thing On?? - Wednesday

Okay, so I'm going to say it once again...I *hate* the recumbent bike. Seriously, do people actually get a good cardio workout on this thing because I'm not feeling it! I usually do my bike workout on the one "regular" stationary bike in my Wednesday bike workout. I feel it's more like a bike I would ride out on the road and that's my main reason for even putting up with stationary bike workouts. But this Wednesday some dude was on my bike. *pouts* Instead of waiting or turning around and leaving, I decided to bite the bullet and do my bike workout on one of the recumbent bike.

First of all, I didn't get nearly half the sweat on that I get on the other bike. I kept thinking to myself, "Does this actually COUNT as cardio?" I was tempted to count it as ST because I've been trying to work my abs this week (PMP week 3 was to focus on something you don't normally focus on) and what I noticed was that I was getting great "crunches" in that position.

So, seriously...does anyone get an actual cardio workout from this thing? Really? I don't get it. I'm getting back on the regular bike Wednesday! I don't care who's on the darn thing...I'll push 'em over the edge and laugh and then get my good cardio workout in. *lol*

One good thing I can say about it? Second week in a row I've done my 20 minutes on the bike! Hello, consistency!

Please Don't Puke!! -- Thursday

So yesterday I was reading a Runner's Magazine that I hadn't really had a chance to get into before. In there I started reading about speedwork. It's something I've considered before but never really took notice of because I wasn't running consistently anyhow. But now that I've gotten my 2 mile run in and have been running consistently for weeks now, I thought it might be a good challenge for me.

I cannot tell you how "freeing" it felt to not have to go to the gym last night. I prefer running on the road to running on the dreadmill or the indoor track. I like to actually get somewhere when I run, and I was so happy to actually be able to do that. I kept wondering all day how I was going to time my speed bursts in my run and then on the way home it hit me -- W1D1 of C25k program has great prompts for intervals. I would simply set my program to that and use the "run" 60 second segments to tell me when to increase my speed and use the "walk" segments to tell me when to recover by running slower. The goal was to teach my body that jogging was recovery and to instruct it that I was now going to expect just a tiny bit more from it. I wasn't going for all out speed. My slow running speed is just a tiny bit faster than my fast walking speed, so we're not talking works of genius running here.

I did my 5 minute warm up and then off I went. I got in about 3 fast segments and was surprised how my body was responding to my "recovery" time, even though I was still actually running (though VERY slowly! *lol*). After 3 fast segments, though, I needed a walk break. I told myself beforehand that it was okay to stick a walk break in when I needed it. I was trying this out and if it didn't work it was okay to scale back. I don't need to succeed on the first try. After my walking break I broke into another fast run and then slowed down into my slower run once more. And that was all I had in me. I accepted that and let myself walk the rest of the way home as a cool down.

Now let me just tell you that the actual pain didn't start until cooldown. I felt a side stitch and then my stomach started turning. I suddenly realized how the BL people must feel right before they've worked out so hard they want to puke. I went home and stretched...a LOT! I knew I needed that. And then I sat there and tried to calm my stomach, all the while praying, "Please don't puke! Please don't puke!!" I managed not to lose whatever fluids were in my system and dinner was soon ready. After I got a few bites in me, my stomach calmed down.

It's a lesson I've been learning these past two weeks. Yes, my stomach goes to crap when I eat crap. But my stomach also goes to crap when I wait too long to eat. No clue what that's about but if I realize it's been too long since eating, I grab a few bites of something and feel instantly better. So eating dinner made my stomach stop turning and I realized that it wasn't just overworking myself that caused the problems -- it was lack of proper fueling beforehand. I have GOT to work on this if I want to be successful at it. Going to try tweaking my food times a bit and see if I can find the magic equation that will stop this from happening again.

On the upside? I've managed to stick to my plan all week. Yes, I let my ST slide a bit. I needed to work on consistency in both my diet and my workouts. Sometimes I push myself too hard in ST and I need more recovery time..and that hasn't been working all that well for me. My abs hurt so I know Zumba + recumbent bike + running has been helping engage my core. I also know that I can't let ST go completely. I just need to back down a tiny bit so I don't overwork myself and need a long recovery day.

Happy Friday everyone! Off to see the CC and tell him I've been doing much better! :) Weigh-in today at the gym too. Hoping my consistency will pay off!

  
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MAIA2011 9/24/2011 12:05PM

    Nice job on the intervals, SuperSparkStar! When I was first getting back into it I used the recumbent, but I discovered that I got a better workout in less time on the elliptical. If you are out there running intervals than I bet you are pretty much past the stationary bikes altogether.

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ALYSSA40 9/24/2011 11:53AM

    Whenever I am down or having a Pity Party, your blogs help me out. Good for you. I love the recumbent bikes but I make it an uphill battle each and every ride. Never make it easy. Even if you have to peddle slow, it's better on your legs and lower abs. I love them! emoticon

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FROGGERHKC 9/24/2011 11:43AM

    Great job listening to your body and scaling back when you need to, and good luck with tweaking food times (I have a hard time with that as well sometimes). You are kicking butt girl, keep up the great work!!!

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CARRIEMT 9/23/2011 5:22PM

    I feel like the recumbent bike is more for strength endurance than cardio. My DH loves his and uses it often, but I don't hear him breathing hard...

I had a rough time trying to figure out how to fuel properly and now eat a bit of protein about 45mins to an hour before workout and a meal with some carbs after and that's when I feel best.

I think the exercise and nutrition needs are so different for us all and it's awesome when we find the combos that work :)

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MENNOLY 9/23/2011 3:38PM

    I did the bike this afternoon and on a whim punched in a program instead of doing it manually like I have always done it. I didn't feel like I was working harder but my heart rate was constantly above 120 and I definitely was soaked after my half hour. Maybe you just need to play with the settings. emoticon

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KKINNEA 9/23/2011 12:23PM

    I know where you're coming from on the eating - sometimes I try to stick to a schedule or food, then I run and feel awful - like you mention, a few bites can make a big difference.

Also, we will need video of you taking over the bike - what a great image!

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PHEFEY 9/23/2011 11:22AM

    Did you try drinking some water before you ate something? I'm just wondering if that side stitch was de-hydration (it can be). Be careful and keep up the awesome work!!

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ERIN1128 9/23/2011 11:08AM

    I guess it's all in what you're used to...I have a recumbent bike at home, and I am always dripping sweat when I get off! I much prefer it - I can sit and read and not think about what I'm doing...I've always found the upright bikes hurt my butt, and you can't read on them. I hate the bike, so I need a distraction!

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JECKIE 9/23/2011 10:50AM

    I feel the same way about the recumbent bike. I love the upright bike - sprints rock! - but the recumbent feels slow and lazy to me even with the resistance turned way up.

Good realization on the fueling. I have the same issue - if I forget to eat I'm in trouble. Now... you've motivated me to go look up running sprints! :)

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LUCYVT 9/23/2011 10:48AM

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BEATLETOT 9/23/2011 10:36AM

    I love the recumbent bike, and yes, I can get my heart rate into the 146-169 range, which is what I should be at for cardio. Maybe more resistance is what you need...glad you still did the bike, even if it wasn't your favorite...consistency is great!

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MENNOLY 9/23/2011 10:27AM

    It is possible to get an aerobic workout on the recumbent bike but you have to jack up the level on the bike. I use the bike on ST days because it is easier on my knees. I admit I rarely get it up to the 120 needed according to the machine for it to be aerobic for me, but I do work out at 110 and since my resting pulse is 50 I figure doubling my pulse is aerobic enough. I do sweat, admittedly not as much as when I walk. On the other hand my knees don't bother me as much as when I walk either. I am losing weight is a steady fashion and I feel pretty good most of the time, so I won't worry about it.
You are doing great. I envy you all you do. I have to keep reminding myself when I read what you and other super exercisers talk about running and the other activities you do, that I am much older than you and I could have done more when I was 20 to 30 years younger too. Enjoy your journey to fitness. emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 9/23/2011 9:23AM

    You are doing great and have given me some ideas to help with my running. I just run a mile but I'm working on making it a faster mile. emoticon

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ONCEUPONADREAM 9/23/2011 9:14AM

   
Not a fan of the bike either. I am sure some people can rock it out, but I am not amoung them.. :)

And awesome on working on your speed! emoticon There have been a few times that I've felt like I was going to toss cookies, and that was because I was pushing too hard/fast or not hydrated enough. Could that have been the issue?



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HARTLEYO 9/23/2011 9:01AM

    I have never been a recumbent fan myself. How can one exercise laying down? I enjoyed your insights and humor. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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MUNCHIE718 9/23/2011 8:39AM

  Congrats on staying on track this week with your workouts & diet. As for the recumbent bike, did you try increasing the resistance? Maybe the setting was too low for you.

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OW! OW! OWIE!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Yesterday at work went a little like this...
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try not to fall asleep
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wake up and realize you've been kinda out of it for about 15 minutes
look around for witnesses and discover none
stand up and decide you MUST find something to do
go for a break
come back and wonder what you could do
find a colleague doing something somewhat active and ask her what's up
realize she's moving stuff around
realize this activity will keep you awake
volunteer to help
along the way, realize that the supply room needs cleaning and organizing
jump in without asking if I'm allowed to

*lol*

I was at it for at least an hour - cleaning, organizing, dragging heavy boxes back and forth, sorting through crap from the 70's (no lie). My supervisor walked by and looked at me funny, but didn't put up a fight. One of the women who spends most of the time in the supply room (which is also a huge file room for us) walked by and sent up a blessing and thanked us. The guy who mans the supply room seemed pleased (maybe because he didn't have to do it? our boss dropped by later and said, "I was going to have HIM to it." *lol*). I was proud I accomplished something beneficial for the staff AND kept myself awake. *lol* And today, I had to go back in and admire my handy work...it's PURDY! :)

As I'm running back and forth with boxes and random things to the trash, to the pile of stuff that needs to be shipped off to surplus, and back to the supply room, one of my coworkers said, "Well you're getting in your workout today."

Problem? I told myself there was NO excuse to skipping Zumba. NONE. Nada. Don't even THINK about it. So, yeah, I got an EXTRA workout in yesterday because I still went to Zumba.

About Zumba:
1) I still love it.

2) It still hurts my back.

3) I feel stupid on some of the modifications I have to make and I have to force myself to stop the negative talk as soon as it starts.

4) It still hurts.

What I SHOULD have done next was go home and immediately ice...but I'm a wife and a mother and apparently the only person on the planet who is a part of my family and has any energy to accomplish any task that might benefit the family. *sigh* Went straight home, started on dinner, realized we were out of potatoes, got back in the car, ran back to town, grabbed potatoes (and buns for our "end of summer cookout" this weekend), headed back to the house, put the water on for the egg noodles, turned on Glee REALLY loud so I could at least HEAR the last 20 minutes or so, pulled the split chicken breast out of the crockpot, skimmed the pot for loose bones, pulled the chicken apart and put it back in the pot, cooked the noodles, took a 5 minute break while they cooked, then drained the noodles, put them in with the chicken mixture, nuked the mashed potatoes (yeah, I cheated and bought a pre-made container of taters...if I didn't we wouldn't eat until 10pm because I only have one pot for potatoes/pasta and I needed to make both), and served out servings for all three of us (Logan was out with his grandparents).

That's when I finally sat down. FINALLY.

I ate and had a huge cup of coffee (why the eff did I do that?) and a huge glass of water and then FINALLY iced my back...and my ankle...and my left knee...and my shoulders...and my back again. As I moved my ice pack around I started to realize I was more banged up than I had realized. Unfortunately icing didn't help that much and I was in a LOT of pain when I went to bed...so much so that I spent at least an hour or two whimpering and crying and trying everything I could to get comfortable to no avail. I think I finally passed out around 2am...and then Logan brilliantly set his clock wrong and woke me up at 5:20am this morning...a full HOUR before I needed to be up.

HUGE *FACEPALM* HERE

I have no lessons for you...other than the fact that I can't currently be around chocolate...effin' Halloween candy sales! (Don't worry...came in this morning and gave the majority of it away to coworkers. Only kept the bag of fun size plain M&Ms because I know Ethan will love being able to have those every once in a while.)

So...yeah...OW! *whimpers* I'm seriously wishing I had stayed home today and slept, but I knew I needed to stick to the schedule. I hope I make it through my short stint on the bike tonight! At least dinner will be quick and easy - my now famous Pad Thai Stir Fry involves putting pretty much everything in a pan, cooking, then stirring in the sauce and noodles and VOILA! Amazing! ;) (And because I thought ahead - the veggies I bought pre-cut...all except the mushrooms I'll throw in, so very little prep beyond soaking noodles and cutting mushrooms.)

EDIT: I can tell how tired I am just reading this back..it's just all thrown out there in a je ne sais quoi kinda way. *snort* Off to stand up and walk around and try not to fall asleep once again...

  
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JUDIL62 9/23/2011 11:11AM

    You are funny....and had quite a busy day. Good for you for taking time for yourself to exercise!


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SPARKLISE 9/22/2011 9:34AM

    Wow! I got tired just reading your blog! emoticon
Feel sorry for all your pain.
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LUCYVT 9/22/2011 6:27AM

    hang in there

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SHEILA1505 9/22/2011 6:14AM

    Sounds like a huge day followed by Zumba. Could you take Arnica tablets under your tongue, and Arnic gel on the sore bits?

Hope you were gentle with the bike (and on yourself)!

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/21/2011 9:32PM

    *SNORT* LOL, THAT WAS SO FUNNY AND CUTE!
YOU GO GIRL....
TAKE CARE!
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ALYSSA40 9/21/2011 8:13PM

    You are one tough chic!

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SPLASHDOG1 9/21/2011 7:28PM

    I like the looking for witnesses part - heehee!! That is one loooong day. I possibly would have collapsed and told the fam they were on their own for dinner that night! But I guess I wouldn't make as good a wife and mom as you. I start a zumba class next month. It will be my first time and I'm very excited! I hope all your owies feel better soon!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/21/2011 1:44PM

    Can you take some kind of pain releiver/anti inflamatory? Sneak in a night time version so that you get a better night sleep tonight.

I'll think about you while I'm on my bike today (spinning at 6pm)

Hope the pain goes away quickly... and can I come over for dinner? DELICIOUS

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ERIN1128 9/21/2011 11:54AM

    Poor baby! I hope you loosen up as the day goes on, and good luck with the bike!

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KKINNEA 9/21/2011 10:31AM

    Didn't you get in trouble walking around before? :) Hope the biking goes well and without too much residual pain from the box hauling.

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It Doesn't Matter What the Scoreboard Says

Monday, September 19, 2011

Yesterday my son's midget football team (full of 9-10 year olds) went up against another team that looked like they should at LEAST be in the 11-12 year old range. This kids were HUGE! Some of our kids top out at 60 pounds. They're small, but they're mighty. Our best runner is pretty tiny, but boy can his legs move! When he gets downfield and the kids behind him are out of reach, you just know he's gone and he'll be scoring some points. And he did that yesterday. Early in the first quarter, off he went, dodging blockers and in open field, defenders stretching out their arms but unable to get to him. In the endzone he went. Too bad it didn't count.

I wasn't disappointed with our team's performance yesterday. I was, however, disappointed with the refs, who decided that 30 yards backfield, where no action was taking place, where one of our kids got knocked down by a defender, somehow, in some weird way, that was a holding call against our team. They brought the boys back to try it again, and they didn't get their momentum or pride back the whole rest of the first 1/2. (Boo on those refs! It's the same ref that caused some problems in a couple of key games last year too. They'd already kicked one of the C team coaches (kids around 8 years old) off the field because he yelled at them...because they refused to call a penalty on the other team when one of their boys picked up one of our kids and slammed him on the ground into another kid. Uhm...excuse me?!)

Our boys fought hard, but with bad calls by the refs and a team that severly outmatched them, they just couldn't find their way over the hump. By the end of the first half, half of the sidelined players were seated on the bench (they rarely sit down) with their heads hung low...including my son, who was sitting right next to the first string quarterback, who had walked off the field when the refs continued to scream at him. (Stay out of it refs! If you wanna call something, call it. Otherwise, just stand there and officiate like you're supposed to!) The quarterback had tears streaming down his face, and my son, Mr. Sensitive who feels the pain and anger of those around him, was feeding into it. I could tell he was upset. I snuck up behind him, grabbed him on the shoulder and said in his ear, "Don't you DARE let your team think this is over! You have more than a half of game play yet. They haven't seen what you guys can really do yet! It's time to show them!!" He didn't want to snap out of his anger. I could see him look at me with that, "Yeah, whatever..." face. The quarterback turned to me and said, "I can't! They won't let me back in!" (He meant the coaches, who rightly benched him after he threw a fit on field and walked off the field, leaving his team behind.) I turned to the quarterback, a kid I just don't know (but I fight for this entire team, we all do...we may not know each others names well but we'll fight to the death for each other if it's us against them) and said, "It doesn't matter! You have a whole team out there still playing. Whether you're on the field or not you need to be rooting for your teammates!"

I started to walk away. I was afraid I hadn't done much good. Ethan was still glaring at me with this, "we CAN'T win this!" attitude and the quarterback slumped his head again. I turned back to Ethan and yelled, "Whether you think you can, or you think you can't..." and walked away.

By the time I made it back to my seat, my son was no longer on the bench. He was back on the sideline, jumping up and down, cheering on his team. I guess I must've said something right. :)

It's been our football motto for him all year. He's had some trying times. They put him on second string defense even though he could totally hold his own on first string. He was replaced by a new kid who is about 20 pounds heavier and almost twice as tall as him. Not because of talent, because of size. That's why Ethan got booted from his spot. I told him that sometimes they don't play fair, and it just means you have to fight that much harder for it. That he needs to use every single practice and game to show him that he is a man they can count on to make the plays, to lead the defense, to hold his block and bring the linebackers through the line for sacks.

The first time we had this motivational talk, he fought against it. He felt he was being criticized, attacked, like I thought he didn't do anything right. It took a long conversation, some yelling, and finally some recognizing of each other's worth and feelings before he finally realized that I thought he was a GREAT football player, but I wanted to do my part to make him both a better player and a better person. That was my job as his mom, and I was following that onto the field as his number one supporter. I told him I could lie to him and say he was perfect, but then he'd know I was lying and he'd never get any better. He finally calmed down, turned to me and thanked me. (It was one of those life-changing parenting moments and I will never forget it.) During that same talk he had yelled at me, "But I can't beat him!" (meaning the kid who took his spot) I threw my hands up and said, "Well then you won't." He just stared at me, dumbfounded. I turned to him and said, "Someone very wise once said, 'Whether you think you can, or you think you can't...you're right.' And someone just as wise said something like, 'Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude...and nothing can help the man with the wrong one.'"

That "Whether you think you can or you think you can't" quote is one that Ethan has clung to. (Is it a little self-centered of me to think I see a lot of myself in his determined spirit?) So just popping those words back into his head, like my self-talk during my runs that keep me going when I just want to give up, got him out of his seat and back into the action. He was choosing to think he could.

The second half saw the release of a brand new team. They were fired up, energized, ready to fight back. They still had time to make it up, maybe. And even if they didn't, they were going to put up the fight of their lives trying. Within 2 plays I could see the balloon deflating again. And then the coaches pulled the brilliant move of putting in the second string defense. (See my big happy smiley face here? =D) I could see Ethan pumping up his teammates. I could see him encouraging them. And something magical happened...they stopped the very large, very abled offense of the other team. The same offense that had pounded first string weren't able to move a yard...they actually lost some! The second string defense was out there 2 plays and the other team needed a time out so the coaches could figure out what the heck had happened to their drive. *snickers*

Did my son's team win? NOPE. They still didn't score a single point (except those points early on that the refs took from them...BOOO!). But when Ethan came off the field with his head down, defeated, I looked at him and said, "Now you stop that. You KNOW you did amazing work out there." And the smile broke. Because it didn't matter that they didn't score. My son knew they had done everything they could to change their fate. I looked at another boy who looked like his chin was about to hit the ground and said, "I don't care what that silly scoreboard says, you guys fought HARD and you kept them out of the endzone. YOU are CHAMPIONS!"

As we walked off the field, I could hear similar talks from other parents to their kids. We couldn't fault our kids. They fought hard. It didn't mean a win, but they still fought...and they didn't stop until the ref said "game over." One kid argued about the crappy refs (seriously, some of the calls were ridiculous...example: one of our kids was on kickoff return team...the ball took some bounces coming toward him, and he could see an entire line of defenders headed for the ball, so he did exactly the right thing and landed on top of it on the ground. One of the defenders wrestled him on the ground, got the ball, and the refs yelled "FUMBLE"! Uhm, Huh? What rules of football are YOU playing with? He's down, completely down, on top of the ball...uhm, dude...you gots problems. The refs tried this all day, waiting a LONG time after our plays on offense to offer time for the defense to wrestle the ball out before blowing the whistle.) Anyhow, I digress...the kid tells his dad (who played football all through high school and is a high school coach, I think) that the refs weren't making good calls. His father struggled with words...and out my mouth popped, "It isn't always going to be fair...not in life, and not in football." His father latched on to that..."Yeah! Sometimes you have to play the refs too, and that just means you have to fight harder. That's what I did when I played!"

As for my son? I took him to Burger King and got him whatever he wanted (which turned out to be chicken tenders *lol*). His team didn't win, but HE did. He fought hard. He got 1 tackle and 2 assists. He got through that mean, big front line more times than I could count. I didn't have one foul word against his performance on the field because he played like a champion. So why didn't they win? Who cares! Maybe it's because the fight wasn't fair. Maybe it's because they allowed themselves to get wrapped up in the "can't" during that first end of the half. Maybe it's because the other team was bigger, stronger, and better coached. Maybe, even, our coaches waited too long to put in the second string defense (which, btw, at the majority of practice plays defense against 1st string offense...it only stands to reason why they understand defense better than the first string does!). Doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter what the scoreboard says, those kids won because they didn't let anyone take their pride and they never stopped fighting for it.

I learned a lot from my son this weekend. Sometimes I feed into it too..that discouragement from what the scoreboard (or, in my case, the scale) says. But that doesn't matter. The only way it wins is when I let it defeat me...when I let it keep me from continuing to fight for what I KNOW I can do. If I had given into the scale or my run stats so many months ago, I would've NEVER been able to run those 2 miles on Saturday. The only reason I got there was because I refused to stop trying. Hopefully our boys will get another crack at this team in the final rounds. Hopefully they'll have different refs too....but if our kids can go in with the right attitude, I really think they stand a chance of putting up a fight against these boys that are nearly twice their size. And until that day, if it ever comes, I will keep reminding Ethan what it felt like to fight when all the odds seemed against you. I will remind him how he was able to walk away from what seemed on paper to be a horrible loss with his head held high. He didn't give up. He didn't let his teammates give up. And while the scoreboard says they lost, they know in their hearts they overcame something on Saturday that's bigger than any scoreboard on any field in the world. That's something really worth cherishing!

I know our boys will remember this game, much like we remember the key game against a similar team (and the same bad ref) last year that our boys lost. That game, like this one, they walked out having lost, but not as losers.

I felt I needed to share this with all of you today because I'm thinking we could all learn a little something from a group of 9-10 year old boys. Don't go on scores, go on gut and glory and fight and determination to succeed. You might not win this round. You might give it your all and still lose the fight...but if you keep fighting until the whistle blows, you will NEVER be a loser. Fight like a champion, and you are one.

Whether you think you can, or you think you can't...

  
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MEGSFITNESS 9/20/2011 11:26AM

    Great lessons! "they walked out having lost, but not as losers"

Such an important thing to learn--it just helps to reinforce self worth, self confidence and teamwork.

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TARANITUP 9/20/2011 10:04AM

    Great observations! I love football - it must be so cute watching the peewees. Can't wait til my daughter starts sports!

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KKINNEA 9/20/2011 10:01AM

    Yes, and those kids are learning the lesson early and hopefully will avoid the mistakes we've made. Awesome blog!

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FROGGERHKC 9/20/2011 9:48AM

    Thank you for sharing, and I love that quote... Imma write it down and keep it :)

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DETERMINED_SOUL 9/20/2011 8:20AM

    Thank you so much for sharing! I really did see a lot of my journey resembled in these words. It is awesome how "the fight" seems to be similar in any tough situation.

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LUCYVT 9/20/2011 6:50AM

    keep it up

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SARAWALKS 9/19/2011 5:31PM

    Aw, this is the BEST blog ever. And the BEST TEAM EVER!
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ALYSSA40 9/19/2011 4:34PM

    Good job Mom! I'm a soccer mom of a Christian team. They're always pumping out great cheers and motivation to the boys. It's so nice to see that instead of the parent's fussing and cussing for the kids. It's bad for us and for the children to see us that way. Props to you Mom for leading and hopefully other parents will follow suit.

Okay, now good for you too. It's great advice after the weekend I had. No matter what, I refuse to quit either. Thank you for sharing.

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ERIN1128 9/19/2011 3:28PM

    Oh, what a wonderful story, thanks for sharing. I love that all your team's parents were so supportive - that's how it SHOULD be, but so often it isn't, sadly. So glad that your son came out feeling like a winner! Isn't it amazing how much our kids can teach us?

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POLSKARENIA 9/19/2011 3:09PM

    Keep it up Mum!!! you're doing a great job there!

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RICHILA 9/19/2011 2:41PM

    You are awesome and raising a wonderful young man.

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PAANDRUS 9/19/2011 2:11PM

    Thank You! Wonderful story. Yes we can learn from the 9 10 y/o group. Will remember the "I think I can" as I walk up my Biggest Loser hill!!

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 9/19/2011 1:38PM

    I am a sports mom too and I can tell you that you are a good mother for letting your son know that it doesn't matter if you win or lose as long as you play your best. Our team is always trying to win, so when they lose they take it so hard including the coaches, but we have to remember it is not everyone's day and everyone should have a chance to win.

Great mom you are!

Thank you for sharing this blog!

Kristin

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Weigh-In Day: You Can't Always Get What You Want Edition

Sunday, September 18, 2011

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Weigh-In Day

Weight Last Week: 317.2
Weight Goal for This Week: 315.2
Actual Weight This Week: 316.0
Loss/Gain: - 1.2 pounds

So last week was a rough week, and I was hoping this week was better. Well, I guess it was in the fact that I didn't gain any more. Still, I was hoping for more. Can't always get what you want, right?

So what happened?

Sunday - Went alright I guess. I do remember there was a trip to Wendy's that probably shouldn't have happened. :/

Monday - Went pretty well, I was feeling on task. I ate within my ranges and then did my ST and TRIED to run...which didn't work out so well.

Tuesday - Went alright. I ate pretty well, and got in a GREAT workout!

Wednesday - I had a bit of a meltdown and then ate some of my feelings. Not so great. I did force myself to get my bike workout in, so at least I got that little sticker on my calendar.

Thursday - Eating was a tiny bit better. I skipped my workout and took Logan to dinner at Bob Evans so I think I went over on calories a little bit.

Friday - I had every intention of getting back into the gym and finishing out my ST workouts for the week. Problem was that I got stuck on a project at home (building shelves for my stockpile, which required me to clean the kitchen and scrub the floors, etc.). I was at it for hours, cleaning so much I could feel it the next day. Does that count? Didn't eat so well, was still quite frustrated.

Saturday - I woke up and ran. It was a victory day. I went over my calories but I honestly can't fault myself because I will not diminish my accomplishment from yesterday. For the first time in my entire life I ran 2 miles straight without stopping. I ran a total of 2.25 miles in my Saturday 5k and felt amazing to finally have that one under my belt. And later I took the dog and the kids and Hubs up to the park for a walk and some fun in the fall chill. :)

What else should I have done better? I didn't get my water down so much every single day. That MUST improve. I also had Chinese last night for dinner so I'm sure that's adding some sodium to my body this morning. All in all, though, I cannot fault myself for the week I had. I worked hard. I worked out. I did a good job of working through the tough stuff. I knew when my body needed rest and I gave it that rest. And this week I'll keep plugging away at it. It's a new life, not a diet. I'm still making progress and getting stronger. (HELLO! Running 2 miles straight?! I know skinny, skinny people who can't do that!) So it wasn't a wash.

"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you'll find...you get what you need."

I can't explain how much I needed the lessons I learned this week about my emotional eating habits. I can't explain how much I needed yesterday's running victory. It's help building my confidence in myself again...and I NEED that.

So, goals for next week:

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SUNDAY - Walk the dog. Clean. Laundry.
MONDAY - Legs ST and 1 Mile Run
TUESDAY - Push ST and Zumba
WEDNESDAY - 22 Minutes on the Bike
THURSDAY - Pull ST and Run
FRIDAY - Abs/Shoulders/Biceps ST and either a Circuit or something active at home
SATURDAY - 5k with 2 Miles Running straight again...maybe 2.25 straight if I can manage


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emoticon Drink my water! No less than 32 ounces.
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emoticon Meal plan for the week and STICK TO IT!

This week I'm feeling something pumpkin-y so if you've got great pumpkin recipes, send 'em over. I'm feeling fall, y'all! I'm also thinking another round of Stir Fry Pad Thai just because it's SOOO good and filling and healthy! :) Also have some split chicken breast in the fridge right now...gotta figure out what to make with that.

emoticon Weight Goal for next week: 314.0 pounds

Have a great week, y'all!

  
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SPUNKYDUCKY 9/20/2011 2:22PM

    Sounds like a great plan - hope you have a good week!

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DETERMINED_SOUL 9/19/2011 9:34AM

    emoticonon the emoticonBeing able to reflect on your week is awesome and will get you far in your journey.

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DARE.DIVA 9/18/2011 6:13PM

    GREAT JOB! You've lost, you've learned something, and you've conquered a huge milestone (running 2 miles straight is HUGE!) You've got a great plan for next week...I know you'll succeed.

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LUVMYCRAZYKIDS 9/18/2011 5:10PM

    The scale went in the right direction! Keep thinking about the positives and work on the negatives...it IS a lifestyle now. Great Job on the loss!!!!

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SWEETBEETL 9/18/2011 4:17PM

    EVERY POUND COUNTS!!!

Good for you. I am an emotional eater too. Really starting to see it now try to cut it off at the pass so I don't indulge. I do something else, anything else.

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/18/2011 4:10PM

    WISHING YOU A SUCCESSFUL WEEK AHEAD!
WANTED TO SUGGEST A CHINESE MEAL THAT IS SUPER HEALTHY
AND SUPER LOW SODIUM!! I ORDER EITHER CHICKEN CHOP SUEY OR CHICKEN SUBGUM CHOP SUEY "STEAMED ONLY" (NOTHING ADDED)!!! ONCE YOU TRY IT AND SEE HOW FRESH AND HEALTHY IT IS, YOU WILL REALLY ENJOY IT. I PREFER IT AND HAVE IT WEEKLY. I ORDER ENOUGH FOR TWO TO THREE MEALS (1/2 CUP RICE, WITH 2-3 CUPS VEGGIES AND CHICKEN). THE CHICKEN YOU CAN PULL OUT AND WEIGH 3-4 OZ. BUT I FIND A QUART USUALLY HAS APPROX 6-8 OUNCES TOTAL AND JUST DIVIDE IT. IT IS A GREAT WAY TO GET IN YOUR VEGGIE SERVINGS. BEFORE YOU ORDER, ASK WHAT VEGGIES ARE IN EACH DISH, THEY VARY FROM PLACE TO PLACE. USUALLY CHIC CHOP SUEY HAS MORE BEAN SPROUTS, BUT I HAVE A PLACE THAT INCLUDES CARROTS, PEA PODS, MUSHROOMS, WATER CHESTNUTS, BAMBOO SHOOTS, AND CELERY. OTHER PLACES ONLY PUT THEM IN SUBGUM OR MAY DOMINATE THE DISH WITH SAY, CELERY, SO DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK TO GET WHAT YOU LIKE!! IT IS DELICIOUS AND NO WORRY ABOUT MSG OR TOO MUCH SODIUM AND A WATER WEIGHT GAIN.
TAKE CARE!
MARY
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SARAWALKS 9/18/2011 1:32PM

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And a pound a week is GREAT! Rock on!

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LUCYVT 9/18/2011 1:08PM

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MENNOLY 9/18/2011 12:35PM

    I'd say you had a pretty successful week. You lost a pound. The healthy goal is apound or 2 a week. You are a lot of your meals out so your salt intake was on the high side which makes you retain water. Since I usually eat at home and rarely add salt to my food and use very few prepared foods, I frequently find eating out will cause me to gain 2-3 pounds of water weight. The biggie seems to be increase water consumption. You exercise a fair bit (I call scrubbing floors building shelves etc. exercise). You do need to drink a bit more. I've started to take a water bottle with me to the gym. Between each strength machine I do I take a swig of water. That makes me drinl a lot more water than if I only use the water fountain.
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ADDYSGETTINFIT 9/18/2011 12:27PM

    Wow. Sounds like you're on the right track! And you know what... as soon as I read the words "chinese last night I had a hunch that you're body is retaining water today because of the sodium (which can be compounded by not getting adequate water earlier in the week, too).

Lol, I've learned the hard way to NEVER EVER eat high sodium on a day before weigh-in. I bet if you do 2 days of low sodium and processed foods, while upping your water intake (so long as you keep moving and eating well), you'll be pleasantly surprised!

And not to forget... a loss is a loss, right?

You're doing great, hon. Keep it up!

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PRINCESSBEITER 9/18/2011 12:11PM

    Yes, your house cleaning DOES count.

Just remember that one pound a week is the best way to lose. That's something sustainable and you can keep it off better if you lose slower.

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THOMS1 9/18/2011 11:59AM

    emoticonon the weight loss. Have a great week this week! emoticon

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ONCEUPONADREAM 9/18/2011 11:02AM

   
You're down 1.2! Thats great!

You did what you were supposed to. Watch your calories but enjoyed yourself, did your works out and got in your ST. You are making major changes to last for a lifetime and seeing progress. That in itself is awesome.

I know next week you are going to rock it out!

Btw, I am currently working on a way to de-fat-a-fy Jamba Juices Pumpkin smoothy goodness. If it doesn't come out tasting like hospital food, I'll be more than happy to shoot it over! :)

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ERIN1128 9/18/2011 10:56AM

    Tough week, but you still lost a lb! Cool. Have a good Sunday!

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