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When the Going Gets Tough...

Thursday, September 15, 2011

...the tough get tougher.

I sure hope you've heard that phrase before. Yesterday was emotional. It wasn't health related, but that was part of was life related.

My husband has been out of work (per se) for about 3 years. He fell when the banks fell because, well, he worked for a bank. He'd worked there for 10 years and for the past year or two of his employment he still worked there even though we lived a state away. He'd drive up for work for a few days, and then he'd drive back home for a couple days with us. He worked hard. He made it to Supervisor and worked on creating manuals and managing things and the whole 9-10 yards of the business world. And then the bottom fell out and they called him one day and told him not to bother coming back up because the department was getting laid off. He was one of the last to go, so he had that going for him, but still he had to go.

He worked for a long time trying to find work, but in this market and trying to find a technology job in a state that isn't known for technological advances, well, it was nearly impossible to find anything. He went on interviews he thought went well, but all we could sort out was that the supply/demand (something my 9 year old just learned about) was WAY off. So, while he continued to search, he made strides in doing his own thing online...and he was quite successful at it. He got to a point where he was making more at home than he had made in his 10 years at the bank. Life was good for a while. We bought a new car, we felt good about ourselves because we were finally getting ahead.

And then that fell apart too.

This morning I attended a work seminar on the book Who Moved My Cheese? And I guess that's why I've been thinking about this a lot lately. You see, I'm a Scurry (you'd have to read the book to get the reference, but he's the mouse who moves quickly to adapt to change). My husband? I think he might be a Haw...the Littleperson who takes a bit to learn to adapt to the change, but finally moves toward it. So it's been time for a change again and me, always scurrying, I have been desperately searching for more sources of income. Last night we had one of those hard talks where I poured my heart out and he tried to give all the right answers and I was still upset. It reminded me a lot of that scene in The Break-Up where Jen Aniston tells her man, "I want you to WANT to do the dishes." *lol*

So, yeah, it was a difficult day. And in some ways I gave in. I had a little trouble controlling my eating last night. I'd grab some food and then spend the first few bites questioning myself trying to figure out why I was eating. It finally stopped when I finally got it out to him. I yelled a little too much, but eventually I said what I needed to say and he listened and we were better by the time I went to bed.

But I learned something about myself last night. I learned that I can choose to give in or I can ask the hard questions, say my peace, stand up for myself, and then find a resolution. Guess which one is healthier? Letting things rot inside you is NEVER a good idea.

This whole weight loss journey has been a viciously emotional one for me. As I tell people all the time, it's more about the mental journey than the physical one. It's about learning how to like and love myself. It's learning to ask the tough questions about what I want to change about myself.

Today I said something aloud in our seminar. We were all going around with these "magic wands" and saying what we would change in our work or lives. Everyone was picking things personal like, "I want to be more forgiving." And then it gets to my turn and out of my mouth pops, "Since this wand is magic, mine is a little different. I think if there are things I want to change about myself then it's fully within my power to do that. I can change myself. What I can't change is other people. And if this wand is magic, that's what I'd do." I talked about changing the system of our state government so that we could reward those employees who work hard and do a good job (because it's hard to be ambitious and fight for the cause of the company while knowing that your efforts will NEVER be rewarded because whenever you do get a raise working for the state here, everyone gets one -- even the person in the cubicle next to you that doesn't work as hard as you do, doesn't search out opportunities to help the agency succeed. It's a level playing field, and I think that is one thing about state government that makes most of the employees hate their jobs and take that out on the public they're working for...sad, but true.)

I said this without really thinking, but after I thought about "Where did that come from?" I realized that my journey here has inspired that. I've learned that we have the power to change ourselves...the power to create who we want to be. I know that wishing for a smaller tummy won't get me one, but hours in the gym and taking care to track my calories and eat right and make good choices, all that effort over time can lead to the change I want. It takes more time than a "wish" would, of course, but it's inevitable...a wish ain't ever gonna happen!

The going got tough last night...I got emotional. I STILL did my 20 minutes on the bike. I STILL did my yoga stretches after. And I STILL asked the tough questions throughout my emotional eating outburst and made the situation better by even binging mindfully. (I think that's a HUGE step in emotional eating btw. We all want to skip ahead to just quitting cold turkey, but it usually doesn't work out that well. Sometimes we have to just be okay with being better at handling the situation than we were last time. Learning from our mistakes and all that and taking improving ourselves.)

So I have one question for you. When the going gets tough, are you ready to fight? Are you ready to get tougher? Are you ready to create the change you want through hard work? Or are you going to just sit back and wish your worries away? Are you going to wish for change or are you going to make it happen?! You've all heard the joke about pooing in one hand and wishing in the other, right?! I guarantee that change will happen if you take the steps towards making it happen, and keep taking those steps unrelentlessly. But I also guarantee that no amount of wishing will ever get you what you want without action behind it. It's like a guy who hopes to win the lottery but never buys a ticket. If you don't play, you can't win.

Next time you think about skipping a workout or just throwing in the towel and eating that piece of cake...ask yourself, is this the change I'm hoping for and what steps am I taking RIGHT NOW to make them happen?

Get tougher.
Fight for it.
And never stop fighting... Because another thing I've learned along the way? The fight is never over. The journey ends at your last glad you're still alive and keep fighting!

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KAYOTIC 9/18/2011 10:30AM really have thought it out, and are making it happen!

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SARAWALKS 9/17/2011 2:47PM

    Thank you, Esther. I shared this on make a number of good points and it's good to have some GOOD things said about state government employees. Keep going, hang tough... emoticon

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SUGIRL06 9/15/2011 9:01PM

    Wow I just loved your response in your class. You are right! You can change anything about yourself without wishing for it! You don't need magic. What an eyeopener!

Sorry to hear things are crazy for you in life. Things always work out and it seems like you guys do well to adapt!

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SWEETZMIX 9/15/2011 7:57PM

    Love the blog! When it gets tough, you man up and stick around no matter how long it takes. I been on my journey for over 3 years. Thought I made it, but you know what I didn't make it mentally. But I haven't given up the fight! Keep on fighting!

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GETFIT2LIVE 9/15/2011 4:30PM

    You are so right--the mental part of the journey is the hardest of all. And until we are willing to make the changes in how we think (about ourselves, food, stress, etc.), any success we achieve in losing weight will be temporary. Get tougher. Fight for it. And never stop fighting. Yes.

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TIGERJANE 9/15/2011 4:24PM

    SO, so good!

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KKINNEA 9/15/2011 3:42PM

    I like how you boiled it down - "get tougher". It's something that I need to meditate on every day.

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POLSKARENIA 9/15/2011 3:19PM

    Great blog!! keep it up!

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FROGGERHKC 9/15/2011 3:01PM

    Wonderful blog! It really hit home with me today, so thank you for sharing! Hope you are having a better day today girlie! emoticon

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LISSOME 9/15/2011 2:33PM

    Esther, that magic wand bit is just - well - brilliant! Did anyone's jaw there drop when you said that? Because that was like a 100 watt lightbulb in my face. In a good way.

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MENNOLY 9/15/2011 2:25PM

    Powerful blog! I hope the economy improves for you soon.

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/15/2011 1:46PM

    What an amazing blog, and something I was just thinking about today, as I voiced on my own blogs my shortcomings of this week. These blogs are inevitably followed by how I plan on changing, but you voiced it perfectly:

"Get tougher.
Fight for it.
And never stop fighting... "

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SUGARSMOM2 9/15/2011 1:42PM

great blog. loved it . 'we all need to learn to say what we want . to be in the minute . day dreams are nice but they dont pay the bills as you know . money makes the world go round . we all need to have a bit of magic in our pockets . to pull out when needed .. stand tall tell it all . good job .

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BANDMOM2012 9/15/2011 1:42PM

    Great thoughts. Thanks for sharing so honestly. You've inspired me today.

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ERIN1128 9/15/2011 1:37PM

    SO proud of you for not letting the stress run you off the rails! It's so true, the biggest part of all this is mental. And what you said at the end is the mindset I'm really trying for right now...thinking each time I reach for food about whether it gets me to that goal. Hugs!

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SENIOR62 9/15/2011 1:19PM

  I loved your blog. It's all so true and gives us all food for thought. Good job emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 9/15/2011 1:19PM

    Great blog today. I love what you said about the magic wand. It is that thinking outside of the box that will help you reach all of your goals. emoticon

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Getting My Grove Back...I Hope

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Last night I felt something I hadn't felt in a LONG time....good. Around lunchtime yesterday my mid-back started hurting. I did a few stretches, did the best I could to make it better, but as soon as I got the chiro, guess what part he focused in on? He asked me whether I'd every experienced that before. I told him that it's been happening off and on for as long as I can remember. Sometimes my back just gets tight and then it's sore. Don't tell CC but Hubs usually works it out for me if the pain gets too tight (he fancies himself a Chiro in training as his parents worked for a chiropractor for a long time and learned a few of the tricks...don't worry though, he's careful and doesn't do anything beyond what he knows - which is VERY little, but just enough to help me). Usually, I can ease the tension with stretches for a day or two. CC said that it's not the bones misaligned when it gets like that - it's muscle tension pulling on my spine. He asked if I do a lot of work over my head in workouts. "Some...not a LOT." It's just something else I'll have to look out for but didn't seem to be much to worry about it.

CC then moved to my hips, which didn't hurt as bad as it has been hurting for a week and a half when he pushed on it. He actually said my hips are looking better...and I knew I'd been feeling like it was getting better. By the time I left his office, I was feeling pretty darn good. This time the adjustments made me feel better rather than worse...kinda like on that first day. I really wanted to capitalize on the "feel good" feeling, so I headed straight to the gym for my ST session.

Before I left work yesterday I sat in my car and told myself (aloud...yes, I talk to myself sometimes...) "Okay, chiro, then ST, then you can do your cardio while dinner cooks, then off to the store." I was in for a long night and I didn't know how long I would make it, but I prioritized. ST first, because of the challenge. Home-cooked dinner next, because it's so easy to crap out on this! Then cardio fit in somewhere, because I do want to keep it up, but if I skipped Tuesday I could just make it up Wednesday (which I usually skip). Finally, groceries - because it could certainly wait until Wednesday night.

I got to the gym and something got into me. Not sure if it was the fact that I actually felt good and had little to no pain or soreness (that was probably it) or what it was, but I couldn't stop myself from running. I'd walk a lap, run a couple, then walk a couple, then do a set of pushups (my ST warmup move for the night). Then I'd head back out - walk a lap, run a couple, walk 1-2 more, then pushups again. Then I walk/ran/walked another round before heading downstairs for the rest of my ST. (You can see my log of what I did on yesterday's blog, which I updated.) By the time the decline crunches came around, I was back upstairs by the track, so I started my circuit again, subbing my crunches for the pushups. By the time I was rounding out the workout, I was starting to feel the drag of my feet signaling that my body was nearly out of muscle power (i.e. I was near "failure"), and that felt great! I pulled myself to a corner and did my yoga stretches (and nearly got whacked in the head by a stray racquetball (racquetball ball?)).

By the time I was leaving the gym, I was feeling a bit more Superheroine. I had accomplished two of my goals for the night already - cardio and ST were DONE! I went straight home and got dinner started and popped in the shower while it cooked. Hubs came home with Ethan, who was kept in the ENTIRE practice (see! he's getting SOMETHING right) without having to be put out to sub someone, and we ate dinner. (It didn't go as well as I wanted...this recipe needs tweaks!) Then we all piled in the car, coupons in hand, and spent the next hour or so getting $226 worth of groceries for $103. :)

(FYI - I need shelves! My stockpile has taken over the pantry and the table and under the table. *snort* MUST GET SHELVES!)

First of all, yes, you can diet and clip coupons and save money all at the same time. My haul included stuff that I can work into my healthy diet, and even included some things that people would consider "diet" food. I have like 8 boxes of Total, which is one of my favorite (and a healthy) cereal. I have 5 cartons of Almond Milk (my oldest has problems with lactose so I've been buying this for him to drink and use in his cereal anyhow). I got some Ritz munchables that are totally doable as a little snack, some granola bars, granola thins, 90 calorie Fiber One bars, and 2% milk cheese slices. Yes, there are cookies, and I snuck a couple last night, but only one package. And, yes, there are chicken nuggets, but I doubt these will last very long in my house because my youngest nearly peed his pants with glee when he realized they were on the list. *lol*

So, there ya go. Got it all done. And how do I feel today?
Sore! *lol* Of course. I'm going to need some stretching sessions today.
Also needed today? Lots of water.

Plus, I need to figure out what to do about lunch because stupid me thought our training seminar was today, but it's I didn't bring my lunch and will have to either pull something out of my drawer or go get something. Sucks because I have a crapton of great, healthy, tasty leftovers in my fridge! *pouts*

Plan for the night?
Just 20-25 minutes on the bike. Tonight is supposed to be an easy night...sounds easy compared to what I normally do, right!? NO! 1) I'm not a HUGE fan of the bike. 2) My leg muscles are totally not used to the bike...last time I lasted 5 minutes and it HURT! 3) I have wimped out of this singular workout no less than 3 weeks in a row...and I've only been on this program for 3 weeks. *lol* I always seem to find something else more important to do than go to the gym on Wednesday nights for "Bike Night."

I know what you're thinking - don't do it if you hate it. Sorry, I have to. While I *hate* the stationary bike, I actually enjoy the real thing. I used to spend HOURS on my bike as a kid...I'd leave the house after school and wouldn't come back until the street lights came on at night. I got so good I could ride my bike without holding on to the handlebars. I remember how great it felt on that thing, and I want that feeling back. Problem is, I don't actually OWN a bike. For years I felt I was too fat to ride a bike (and I was). Last year I finally tried to ride on Hubs' bike and it HURT and was really hard. I tried it again some months and pounds down later, and it felt better. So, yeah, I was too fat to ride a bike...but I'm starting to think that might be changing and I think it would be great to be able to go for a bike ride with my kids and husband at the park. If it's anything like I remember, I'll lose track of time and be out there for hours really enjoying it. Still, I have this thing where I feel like I need to EARN a bike. Like I need to make sure I can physically handle it before I go spend the money on it - and that means training at the gym on the stupid stationary ones. (I think it's less about the bike and more about that feeling of being trapped and being inside. The best part about running and bike riding is feeling the wind and seeing all the colors of the world around you and moving through the world with purpose and function. I also hate the dreadmill for this very same reason. It's not a workout to's being in the gym doesn't work for me...)

So, yes, I do need to complete this workout. I need to get in the habit so when I do get my bike, when I'm finally brave enough to say, "I CAN ride a bike again," I'll be ready fitness wise to handle it. (I cannot tell you how ridiculous this sounds to me simply because of the phrase "It's just like riding a bike." I have a whole new set of thoughts about that phrase now...)

One final note...last night I pulled into the driveway and this was on the radio:

Comedown - Bush

ĎCause I donít wanna come back down from this cloud
Itís taken me all this time to find out what I need yeah
I donít wanna come back down from this cloud
Itís taken me all this all this time


Yeah, I sang my little heart out to that part (and teared up a little). I haven't felt this pain-free in SO long and it just felt so good to finally be there. I've been suffering from near constant pain of one variety or another since November of last year. That's nearly a YEAR of fighting through the pain and still managing to lose a few pounds in the process. I don't think I gave myself nearly enough credit because last night, finally, I remembered what it felt like to feel like I had more control of my body and to feel "normal" in a sense. I'm so scared it's going to be taken away again but, for now, I'm just using this time and enjoying it and hoping against hope that it sticks around for a VERY long time and allows me to fully blossom into the person I want to be and already am.


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PAMAZON 9/14/2011 11:01PM

    I'm just getting to know you but your coupon craziness and biking aspirations are melting my heart!!!

I'm so glad you're feeling better. If we see our Chiros or PTs and do what they tell us to, we get better! Keep up the great workouts.

As for the coupons, I'm on my knees in admiration. I really try to do this, and I do good at least one trip per month. My budget says I need to be doing it every week though. I LOVE LOVE LOVE those fiber one 90 calorie bars, and the 90 calorie brownies? Shazam!

And the biking, it is one of my favorite things! I have been a big girl on a bike for the last several years, and I've been riding a hybrid and doing triathlons on it. The hybrid bike was so comfy! That padded seat and those shocks made it a sweeet ride. This past winter I upgraded to a fast, lightweight road bike and I haven't gotten swept up in riding longer distances like I thought I would. Back pain has been part of my problem too, and riding down low in an aerodynamic position on my new bike has been a BIG adjustment. And then there is that new tiny little seat that my lady parts aren't very fond of. I like going fast and not having to wear my legs out as much, but it's been hard to get used to! Just know you can shoot bike questions my way anytime!

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ERIN1128 9/14/2011 12:33PM

    Awesome! 'bout time, huh? :-)

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 9/14/2011 12:02PM

    Wonderfully uplifting blog. You have so much energy now--isn't it wonderful? I feel the same way--I can do so much more now than I used to be able to get done. And...I try to put myself far as exercise goes. I get that in as a priority, because I just don't feel right if I don't do it. I was telling son last night that on my new training for the Spark Virtual 5K (I'm trying the walk/jog--first time jogging for me), the final run segment always comes at the end, which means I have to run up my fairly steep rocky driveway. It's a little less than 1/10 of a mile, and really kicks my butt. But I told him, I am just determined that I will run all the way to the top. I remember when walking up the driveway at the end of my walk about killed me--so running up it (sure it's pretty slow running, but still....) is quite an accomplishment/

We WILL get there, we have to. Because no matter if we put ourselves first or not, we're doing it for them, cause that family depends on us. We make the whole thing work, don't we? Women really rule the world! Just don't tell the men.

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FROGGERHKC 9/14/2011 11:48AM

    So happy you are feeling better! Way to go at the gym and prioritizing! I should really start clipping coupons, you can save so much!!!!

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ALYSSA40 9/14/2011 11:45AM

    I'm glad to hear that your back is easing up on you. Also it's nice to see how you saved so much for yourself and family. My family spends a bit of money but my husband, son and brother in law are wasteful. Half the stuff they eat, I don't touch, except when I'm making it. We still spend about the same amount of money though. Glad to see you're both feeling and doing better!

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BRIAEL 9/14/2011 10:19AM

    Glad your back has eased, it makes life so much more appealing. :)

See you're a Cheerios fan - have you tried the Multigrain version? I used to think the regular version was great until I tried the MG one. I even like them dry with a glass of water as a snack!

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PAANDRUS 9/14/2011 10:10AM

    I am new to your blog and only have read two or three of them. Enjoying hearing other people who are going thru the same things! Sometimes we "think" we re the only ones. Congrats & keep up the exercising..moving forward & keeping moving.

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KKINNEA 9/14/2011 9:57AM

    Sounds like your chiro sessions are really working. Bike for next spring maybe?

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SARAWALKS 9/14/2011 9:55AM

    emoticon emoticon Happy for you! emoticon emoticon

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SPARKLISE 9/14/2011 9:49AM

    emoticon to you for doing all that! emoticon
Being in pain all the time must be so awful. I hope it completely goes away!
Have a great day! emoticon

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MENNOLY 9/14/2011 9:45AM

    Wow what a great blog. Dood for you on sticking to your workout. About the bike, have you considered looking in freecycle? If you have that where you are from it would be a cheap (free) way to get a used bike. Keep it up! emoticon emoticon

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PMP Part Two

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

FYI, whenever I see "PMP" I don't think Pimp...I think PUMP. I'm from Ohio and Arnold used to come every year and threaten to PUMP...US UP. So that's what I think of...and it certainly helps me when I'm surrounded by the young guns in the weight room who think they are SO macho and I see them wincing while pressing a 15 lb. dumbbell. Hey, bud! I want to PUMP, YOU UP! *snickers*'s the second week stuff...and this will be a kind of place holder so I can come back and edit and update.

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1. By the end of Thursday, September 15, you are challenged to do 2 HOURS OF STRENGTH TRAINING OVER 4 DAYS. This can be broken down to two sets of 15 minutes per day, which ANYONE can make time for if they want to. Between Friday and Sunday night, clock AN ADDITIONAL HOUR. That's 20 minutes on Friday, 20 on Saturday and 20 on Sunday. THis is the minimum I expect you to spend on strength training if you are serious about changing your body and health.

No it will not be easy, THAT is why it is called a challenge. If I told you that you had until the end of the week to do 15 minutes total of free weights, it would be so ridiculously easy, that it wouldnt do much for your body.

You can do more than one muscle group OR you can concentrate on just one group for the entire two hours AS LONG AS YOU TAKE REST DAYS BETWEEN THOSE WORKOUTS SO YOUR BODY CAN HEAL AND GROW AND BE MORE EFFICIENT.

**no die hard stupidity please. It is best that you do not work out your arms for two hours tonight just to get it out of the way, esp if you have not been following an ST plan for an established amount of time yet**

This is where I will be making this happen...
emoticon Well, I started last night with about 35 minutes of ST. (LEGS)
emoticon 2 sets of 15 Freehand Jump Squats
emoticon 3 sets of Plie Dumbbell Squats (reps/weight: 15/20 - 15/30 - 15/35)
emoticon 3 sets of Narrow Stance Leg Press (R/W: 15/340 - 12/360 - 15/360)
emoticon 3 sets of Dumbbell Lunges (R/W: 15/25 - 12/30 - 10/30)
emoticon 3 sets of 20 Calf Raises (weights: 20 - 25 - 30)

emoticon Tonight, it's the PUSH strength training. - about 45 minutes
emoticon 2 sets of 15 Pushups (regular)
emoticon 3 sets of Machine Bench Press (R/W: 15/90 - 15/100 - 8/110)
emoticon 1 set of Butterfly (Pec Deck Machine) (R/W: 8/40)
emoticon 3 sets of Incline Dumbbell Press (R/W: 15/15 - 12/20 - 15/20)
emoticon 2 (HAHA!) sets of Tricep Dips (reps: 15 - 2! *lol*)
emoticon 3 sets of 20 reps of Decline Crunches

I did something a little fiery last night and pulled in a circuit for my warm up and during my crunches. I walked a lap around the indoor track, then ran a couple laps, then walked one or two more, then did my set of pushups, then headed back out on the track. I ran a lot last night, actually...which I think makes up for my poor performance the night before. ;) Certainly feeling everything today! ;)

Thursday, it's PULL.
And then Friday, it'll be Abs/Shoulders/Biceps.

emoticon Total Minutes: 80/120

(Yes, I'm counting Friday too, but I SHOULD be done with it by Thursday anyhow. I had to cut last night short and experienced a bit of "failure" while trying to run's hard getting back into it after just 1 week off!)

I usually spend anywhere from 30-45 minutes in the weight room. I lift a set, then rest for a minute, stretching out, and then lift another set. For the past few weeks was the first time I started chatting/joking with the macho guys and gals over there (seriously, there are a couple women over there that could lay some of the guys out FLAT! *lol*). It felt good to feel a bit of that "belonging" which I've also been getting with head nods from the regulars. *big grin* Anyhow, got off track, but I'll get my 2 hours in for the week if I follow my plan.



You will need to look back on this next week. You will need to see how often you work each group. You will need to do this so you can learn to keep balance.


I've already got it written down and will log it here as well.

LEGS = Well, legs, duh!
PUSH = Mostly chest
PULL = Mostly back
And then of course SHOULDERS/ABS/BICEPS = Shoulders, abs, and, well, biceps. ;)


3. MUSCLE FAILURE CHALLENGE. Before Sunday, September 19th, pick !!ONE!! of the exercises from your starting line (pushups, situps, planks, squats, etc) and, instead of seeing how many reps you can do in one minute, I want you to (going SLOW and keeping proper form) see how many reps (or in the case of a plank, how many minutes:seconds) you can do before you reach muscle failure and have to stop. I am giving you until Sunday to do this so that it will not interfere with any of your ST sessions unless you want to count it as part of your 2 hour challenge.


Okay, so I'm totally terrified of this because I'm DOMing like crazy already. *lol* Anyhow, because I NEED to do crunches like woah! I'm going to probably go with that one. I am going to allow breaks to catch my breath, but not long ones, just like my minute breaks between sets (because I've heard anything over 20 reps is just not helpful anymore). We shall see how that turns out... I'll likely tack it onto my Friday routine since crunches are already on the menu for that day anyhow.


4. Take this week to finish getting measurements or taking pictures if you need to!


Yes, I still need to do this! Going to try to get it in tonight, but if not, certainly tomorrow!!

5. BONUS! Take pictures of your sweaty workout afterglows, of your healthy beautiful food, or how you spend your rest day doing happy active things!


Confession: I ain't felt all up to taking pictures of much of anything because my iPhone is bogged down and needs cleaned out and my computer I put my pics on to clean it out is bogged down and needs cleaned out. *lol* It's going to be a long process just to get my pics cleared off my phone. :/

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And other stuffs?
* I found out I get another week to try to get my weight down before the gym weigh-in this month! YAY!
* I feel MUCH better! I did some Yoga stretching last night after my cardio (a sad, sad, 10 minute walk/run) and it's amazing how much better I feel. I don't think I've been stretching enough lately, but that 10-15 minutes of yoga following a workout is going BACK IN!
* Now that I'm feeling better, I've got another chiro appointment today. *face/palm* *snort* Hopefully it's not too bad.
* I'm still trying to figure out in my head how to get everything done I want to accomplish tonight.

I leave here at 4:30pm for the chiro.
If he gets me in and out I should be done by the time my 5:30pm appointment time comes around.
But I also need to get to the grocery store.
And Zumba is at 7pm.
But I'm going to take a little bit of time in the grocery store because it's a couponing trip.
And I have some ST I have to do either before or after Zumba.
And I'm cooking Chicken and Dumplings tonight (healthy version, don't worry!).!? Can someone please invent a cloning machine now so I can get everything done in such a short amount of time?! PLEASE?!!?! MMkaythanxbi!

TUESDAY EDIT: FYI - I got everything in after Zumba was cancelled. *big grin* Scale was mean last night (was SOO swollen/bloated, I could tell!) but was nice this morning. :)

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/14/2011 4:51AM

    Just reading all you are doing burned a good 200 calories off ME!!!
Good heavens girl...
Whew, I gotta go lay down!
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CALLIKIA 9/13/2011 4:20PM

    Welp, Zumba was cancelled, so it's down to ST, my own cardio (which doesn't have a time limit on it other than "before I pass out from exhaustion for the evening"), grocery shopping and dinner. I *THINK* this is doable. First? Off to the Chiro! And that man better watch his hands this time or his cute face won't be so cute when I leave!!

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FROGGERHKC 9/13/2011 3:13PM

    Wow girl you are busy!!! Hope the chiro goes well. emoticon

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ALYSSA40 9/13/2011 2:07PM

    You are doing an awesome job lady! Keep it up!

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PHEFEY 9/13/2011 1:25PM

    I'm gonna PUMP up with you!!

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KKINNEA 9/13/2011 1:24PM

    Yep, it's the puzzle piece problem - how do you fit in everything you want and should do? PMP is looking good!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/13/2011 12:57PM

    Busy girl, but sounds like you have a great plan and are totally prepared for the day. Fingers crossed you don't hurt too bad after the Chiro, and I'm with you, I need to get back to stretching.

Have a fabulous day, I know you squeeze the things that need to get done, in today.

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Weigh-In Day and Better Things Ahead

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Well, for accountability's it is, in all its wonderful non-glory...

Weigh-In Day

Weight Last Week: 312.2
Weight Goal for This Week: 310.2
Actual Weight This Week: 317.2

So that means I gained 5 pounds. *pouts*

I can't give excuses. I earned those 5 pounds. How?
- I slacked off on drinking my water.
- I didn't exercise all week except yesterday.
- I ate my emotions.

And that, my dears, is how you gain 5 pounds in a week. Question is, can we work on losing them again?


How, you ask?

- I'm going to drink my water! No less than 64 oz every single day.
- I'm going to cook at home delicious and healthy meals with lots of fresh veggies.
- I'm going to stay within my calorie ranges.
- I'm headed back into the gym. The PMP challenge is now underway and I'm ready for it! Also going to work on building up my running endurance and stamina.

Last week was horrible. I haven't experienced pain like that for a while. But now I'm feeling better. I put more exercise minutes in yesterday than I had all week. I did a 5k with my son (53 minutes), of which I ran 3 times even though both knees hurt, my back is still a bit sore, and my left knee popped out twice. Then it was about an hour of bowling followed by an hour or more of pulling weeds and general gardening. Not to mention I had to do my baselines for the PMP challenge, which included 30 regular pushups, 35 squats, a 33 second plank, and 49 crunches. I also did a few dumbbell curls at the gym and some tricep exercises as well to test my baseline for weight lifting. So put all that together and I put in at least 3 hours of exercises in ONE DAY! That should be a lesson to me that I'm NOT too tired and that I CAN put in at least 30-60 minutes of exercises every single day.

Plan for this week, fitness wise:

Sunday - Walk the dog and maybe some tennis if the fam is up to it and we can squeeze it in.
Monday - Run and ST
Tuesday - Zumba and ST
Wednesday - At least 20 minutes on the bike followed by at least 10 minutes of stretching.
Thursday - Run and ST
Friday - XT and ST
Saturday - I'm thinking of doing my 5k again and seeing if I can run a little more of it this time.

As for food?
I'm going to put in some pork loin for dinner tonight and make a bunch of roasted veggies too.
I've got a 3-bean taco soup from SparkRecipes to make.
I've got some chicken for a healthy Chicken and Dumplings recipe. (Healthy comfort food? Uhm, yes please!)
I've also got some split chicken breasts, some tofu, rice, and veggies galore so there are NO excuses!

Also on tap for this week? Couponing, of course! I'm printing my online coupons now and am about to put them together with Ethan for a cheap shopping trip later. Only buying things we need to get us through the week and/or what I can get for DIRT cheap. One downfall? I'm pretty sure I'm going to get Chips Ahoy cookies because they're super, super cheap with the coupons I have and the sale Kroger is running. I am going to try to set aside 2 servings for myself in little baggies for treats for this week and then I'm not touching the bag the rest of the time.

Weight goal for next week? Let's face it, I'd like to get all 5 of those pounds back off this week, and it may actually be doable because I think a lot of it is non-activity combined with low water intake. Still, I need to be more realistic, so if I get to 315.2 or under, I'll be plenty happy with that!

I'm pretty sure I have another gym weigh-in this week and I REALLY wanted to lose the suggested 4 pounds in a month they want me to lose... weighed in today at the same weight I was when I weighed in at the gym last time, though, so unless my body catches up pretty quickly, it doesn't seem like that will happen. *sigh* Well, maybe the FFM/body fat numbers will make up for it...

Time to get my head back on my shoulders and kick through this like the superheroine I know I can be!

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KKINNEA 9/12/2011 4:47PM

    Your start line stats are so awesome! I grumbled my way through mine :)

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FROGGERHKC 9/12/2011 10:40AM

    You've got this girl!!!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/12/2011 10:09AM

    Loving the positive outlook you have on the week. You have a great plan and a great goal.

Good luck, but I know you don't need it.

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CHLOEGRACE1 9/11/2011 10:41PM

    you probably got into a lot of salt and have on a lot of water weight; surely you didn't gain five pounds; you would have to have eaten over 5000 calories a day, which I doubt you did. Keep documenting your food intake; watch the salt, and you will see the weight go down. Do not give up!

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DARE.DIVA 9/11/2011 5:25PM

    Knowledge is power....its clear you know yourself well and know what you had a tough week, but you picked yourself up and rocked the exercise today/ O know you'll have great results this week

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ALYSSA40 9/11/2011 4:45PM

    You know the best thing about all of this? You knew ahead of time and even blogged about it. Is it still upsetting to see the scale go up that much...of course. But you are taking it in as much stride as possible. I like that. We always have setbacks but they too shall pass. Keep up the great job and I'll see less of you next weigh-in! Good luck my friend! emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 9/11/2011 2:01PM

    I was up this week over 5 pounds-- ate too much ham grrrrrrr

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LUCYSUNFLOWER 9/11/2011 12:58PM

    Back pain like you experienced means there's inflammation. Inflammation means fluid retention at the point of discomfort. Healing means that fluid will disperse and you will lose it! I suspect you will lose that five pounds and more... Cheering you on!


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POLSKARENIA 9/11/2011 10:47AM

    I am so glad you wrote how long you managed a plank for. I'm still at the stage of trying out a modified plank and was somewhat shocked to read in the demo to try for 1 minute to start with!!! I managed 2 planks at 5 seconds each. Every time I willtry to improve, but it'll be a while before I do a minute or over....

Good analysis of your week. Keep it up!!!

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MIQUEY73 9/11/2011 10:46AM

    emoticon Keep it up my friend! You will continue to be successful.

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MZMELISSA2007 9/11/2011 10:33AM

    Well at least you know where you went wrong and you're willing to fix it and move on. Don't let it get you down! You can do this!

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PMP Starting Line and a Note About This Past Week

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Yes, I'm coming to the party a tiny bit late. Let me explain (though I'm trying to tell myself I don't need to, but when I get a 5 pound gain tomorrow I'll need to log why that happened). This week was hell. Absolute hell! I had an adjustment from the Chrio on Tuesday evening and by Wednesday I was sore from my butt to the top of my head. So sore, in fact, that I had to take a half day off work during our busy time to go home and just sleep for 4 hours. It was horrible. I felt helpless. The pain finally started to ease up around 7pm on Thursday night.

This wasn't usual soreness. This was pure, unadulterated pain. I didn't even want to talk about it. I cried myself to sleep every night. I ate my feelings. There, I said it. I was scared and confused about the whole thing and I just didn't know what to do with myself. Thursday night I decided that I would take Friday off too, just to be sure. I met with the Chiro again for another adjustment last night and explained what happened.

CC: So, did you Zumba this week?
Me: NO! I didn't do ANYTHING this week.
CC: Hrm....
Me: I was in so much pain Wednesday I had to take off work and go home and sleep and that's about all I've been able to do the past couple days.
CC: Hrm...I didn't expect that this late...
Me: Huh?
CC: I expected that last week, and when you said you were fine, I figured maybe you wouldn't go through it.

Picture me glaring at the chiro with those dagger eyes.

CC: Remember I told you a few weeks ago that once this started to take hold it would really hurt?

Picture me still staring at him. No, I didn't remember anything like that...

CC: This is actually a good thing. It usually happens a couple weeks in. People who aren't so active probably wouldn't feel it so much, but it's your body finally holding the adjustments and trying to adjust to the way you're supposed to be.
Me (trying to calm down and not kill him): So this is normal?
CC: Yes. Like I said, I expected it last week.
Me: You could've warned me!
(insert nervous chuckle)
Me: I almost banged down your door Wednesday asking for answers.
CC: That's fine.
Me: So...
CC: It shouldn't happen again. If it happens again this weekend, call me first thing Monday and let me know. Otherwise, you should be good.
Me: Good, because I need to get back to exercising and I want to run tomorrow.

CC smiled at me then...and I didn't want to punch his pretty face anymore.

So, yeah, I'm hoping that's all that was. One of those "it gets worse before it gets better" kind of deals. I have a run scheduled for today. My newly 12-year-old has said he will go with me and we're thinking of making it a 5k day. I won't be worried about running it all. I'll run when I want, walk the rest. Then I must get to the gym and get my baseline measurements for PMP.
So here's my entry card for the challenge, which I will complete. I took a week off...that is enough! Time to get back to it and get things moving in the right direction again.

This WILL be filled out by the end of the day!

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1. Find your official starting line.

emoticon Crunches completed in 1 minute ___49____

emoticon Pushups completed in 1 minute ___30____

emoticon How long (up to one minute) can you hold a plank or modified plank? __33 sec___

emoticon Squats (or lunges, or both)(without weights) completed in 1 minute ___35____

emoticon 5k Time ____53 minutes____

emoticon 2. What equipment will be you be using in this challenge?
A. Gym equip (resistance and/or heavy weight machines)
B. My own body weight
D. Free weights and dumbbells at home or at the gym.

emoticon 3. What dumbbells weight/resistance level are you starting at? (if applicable)
Curls - I'm at around 20-25 lbs. max.
Triceps - I'm at around 30 lbs. max.
Leg Press - I'm at around 340 max.
Barbell Bench Press - I'm at around 55 lbs. max.


emoticon 5. Create your tracking space.

You need to have one of the following:

emoticon A Windows Calendar
emoticon An Excel Spreadsheet or some kind of computer worksheet
emoticon A calendar and stickers/markers in a central location in your home or workout space
emoticon A phone app
emoticon Your blog
emoticon Your sparkpeople workout log
- Create your own tracking thread in the PMP team (WHICH IS NOW A PRIVATE TEAM!)

emoticon 6. Your dreaded before pictures.

A. take pictures of any specific areas where you plan on tracking changes in physical appearance. You CANNOT spot-shrink specific areas of your body, but if you dedicate serious time and hard work into squats, your leg muscles will indeed change shape. SO to track these changes, without expecting to get a washboard tummy by only doing crunches every day for the next 8 weeks, you can take before pictures of:

arms/upper body
legs/lower body

B. You can post these in the PMP Challenge Photo Album, But I ask and strongly urge anyone that posts before pics in there, to also take the time to encourage the other brave souls who also posted their before pics.

emoticon 7. Starting Line Measurements

Biceps - 14.5
Forearms - 10.5
Shoulders Across - 18
Bust - 47
Abs/Back - 49
Waist - 46.75
Hips - 57.25
Butt - 56.5
Thighs - 25.25
Knees - 17
Calves - 20

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TRACYZABELLE 9/11/2011 9:25AM


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    Go! Go! Go! PMP in full effect!!

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SASXONTHEMOVE 9/10/2011 9:39PM

    Hugs for the pain, babydoll. I know how much that worried you. And if it happens again, go back and punch that cute chiro in his pretty face....after he does the adjustment tho.

And PMP will be rockin!

love ya lots

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POLSKARENIA 9/10/2011 1:11PM

    Awful that you've had such pain, BUT things will now get better and better!!

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KKINNEA 9/10/2011 1:03PM

    Sounds like you have a good chiro - once your body is holding the adjustments and you "re-learn" how to move correctly, you'll feel so much more ease.

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ALYSSA40 9/10/2011 12:02PM

    Wow, you did have a rough week. I'm sorry things went south for you but there are good things to look forward to in this new week. I see you have it all mapped out. It looks like a lot to do. Maybe I'm never tracking all that I do and think about- maybe that's why it seems you've put a lot on your plate. If I jotted it all down, my list would be huge too. Anyways, good luck to you this week and I'm praying all goes well with your bod. emoticon

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SARAWALKS 9/10/2011 9:50AM

    This kind of delayed body reaction makes a lot of sense to me. I used to go for Alexander technique sessions and as the tension released, my body would be very very tired later. You gotta expect it, things are readjusting and it's all part of the healing. emoticon

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