Monday, August 15, 2011
So this weekend was....eventful, I guess. I was so pumped on Friday and ready to take on the world. So I got on my running gear and headed to the gym. I did a short run on the treadmill, trying to baby my back a bit, but it wasn't really hurting while I was running, so that was good. I then tried to take the fitness test on the upright stationary bike at the gym, except, I got a little flustered at the end while taking my heartrate after the five minutes. *lol* Still, it was a heck of a workout in 5 minutes! My legs were so sore with the running + biking and it was good to feel like my body was being challenged again. I think I might add in some bike training here and there, maybe one day a week to start. In between my cardio, I squeezed in some ST moves. Nothing over the top, but I got in some pushups and walking lunges. By the time I left I'd put in at least 30 minutes and felt like I'd pushed myself a bit, so I was good with that, especially considering I planned to go home and get started immediately on the lawn.
Which I did. I mowed half the lawn before the gas ran out and I had to refill the tank, and that's where all Hades broke loose. While filling the tank, the stupid thing overflowed and before I knew what was happening it was splashing up on me, into my face. My eyes and nose and skin started burning and I started screaming. I won't draw this out. I'm fine. We called the MIL, who is the master of home remedies, and she said to wash my eye out with milk. Hubs helped me as I was already washing my face, hands, eye and nose with water and we doused my face in a milk bath of sorts. Within moments, the burning stopped. Crazy, right!? After it stopped burning, Hubs and Ethan both offered to finish the lawn, but I wasn't having it. I couldn't let anything stop me. I had to see it through. And I did. I finished. And it felt amazing to come back so quickly and do what I set out to do, so when I took a rest after that, I felt like I had really earned it.
Friday night was football practice. Saturday was Ethan's scrimmage, which meant 4 hours on the field while they played and tested positions and Ethan was pulled on and off the field and there were no scores. I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself. I had a bit of a problem staying seated during the scrimmage. I was restless and ended up getting my workout in by walking from the car to the field about 4 times, and then walking around the field here and there, following the team down the field, moving a good majority of the time. By Sunday, my legs were DONE! *lol* Saturday night we went to the drive-in - it's the oldest drive-in in WV that is still operational. Takes us a little over an hour to get there, but it's a great fun night and super cheap, so we think it's worth it. (BTW - it takes us about 45 minutes to get to the 2 main movie theatres either north or south of us, so this isn't much farther and it's MUCH cheaper!) Watched HP7-2 (again for me and the boys, first time for Hubs who actually gave a thumbs up for it) and then Green Lantern. Not a bad night overall, but not so stellar on the food front. And then Sunday? Lazy day as much as possible. We did hit the grocery store, but that was it. Felt good to relax a bit.
So that's my weekend in a nutshell. Things are about to get crazy again. In addition to Ethan's football practice and games every weekend, Logan is starting Middle School. They called us yesterday and I think they were talking about an orientation for students and parents tomorrow, so I need to call and confirm that. (It was an automated message and Hubs got it but he missed some of the details.) Football, school, work, and workouts. It's back to the grind. Even more important that I have detailed plans for each week!
This week's meals include:
* Vegetarian Chili
* Stuffed Eggplant
* Zucchini Parmesan
* Chicken Tacos
This week's workouts include:
- Monday: Run and ST
- Tuesday: Zumba (unless we have orientation, I need a backup plan!)
- Wednesday: Run and ST
- Thursday: Zumba
- Friday: XT and ST
- Saturday: Long Distance Run (Going to try for 2 straight miles running)
- Sunday: Rest Day
I also have my chiropractor appointment on Friday, so I'm super nervous, anxious, excited, and scared about that. The whole thought of it both thrills me and terrifies me, so we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
Again, I think orientation might be tomorrow night. If that's the case, I'll have to squeeze something in some other time during that day or simply call it a rest night (which will likely happen, unless I get really eager).
And I know that 2 miles doesn't seem that long to anyone else, but I've topped out at being able to run a straight 1 1/2 miles without stopping. I NEED that 2 miles, so that's my main goal for Saturday. As far as my other runs...I try to make them easy. I do speed work and intervals sometimes. It's not a strict schedule, and that might have to change as time goes on, but right now I'm nursing a sore back and trying not to burn out. I still love running, and I really want to keep it that way. Hoping with the heat backing off again I might be able to love it even more because I now understand why people call it the "dreadmill". I have more drive and will and desire to run with I'm running on the road, through the trees, anywhere outside. Each step on the treadmill has me watching the clock, while outside I get lost in the scenery and the moment. There's something magical about that...
So that's the plan. And in addition to that plan is the plan that I get up every morning and start again. Each day is another chance to reach the goals I set:
1) Drink water
2) Stay within your ranges
3) Keep moving
4) Keep running
5) ST 3 times a week!
What kind of plans do you have this week? For the parents out there - do you find it more difficult to stick to your plans/schedule when school starts? I actually can't wait for the regularity of it because it puts me in that regular mindset of scheduling again. Summer is so crazy with all its randomness. I'm ready for a plan, a calendar and a schedule again! I thrive on to-do lists and scheduled appointments! *lol*
Have a good week!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Today I didn't wake up groaning from pain.
Today I woke up to the sun, the birds, and other noises I've drowned out with being too busy to notice for so long.
Today I realized that summer is winding down and I haven't done half the things I wanted to do.
Today I realized there is still time.
Today I don't care what I wear or what size I am.
Today I'm glad to be alive. Glad to have made it through a hard few months without gaining a bunch of weight back.
Today I'm ready to take on the world, however slowly because of my back.
Today I'm glad I skipped Zumba last night because my body needed the rest.
Today I actually WANT to go to the gym. I don't even know what I can do once I get there, but wanting to go is HUGE because I haven't felt that in a while.
Today I'm nervous, but not hiding.
Today it's the sunshine and smiling faces of family and friends that make me feel like this world isn't such a bad place after all.
Today I'm thinking of my grandparents, about how proud they would be of me for what I've accomplished against all odds and statistics.
Today I will make them smile with my bravery, courage, and lust for life.
Today I will remember that each moment is a precious one.
Today I will cook something, because I miss that creative outlet.
Today I will mow the lawn, because I miss being productive at home.
Today I will visit the gym, I will eat healthy because it feels right, I will do my chores while making it feel like the freedom I have to accomplish the things I want.
Today I will watch an entire football practice and get ready for my son's first scrimmage of the year.
Today I am happy that both my boys are growing into strong, capable young men.
Today I will think about how lucky I am to have Hubs as a support, lover, counselor, friend, and my constant companion.
Today I will poop rainbows and sunshine and let the world know that I'm back. I'm ready. I'm good. I'm capable.
For the past few months I've been caught up in a whirlwind of what's been going on around me, hanging on for dear life. But today, I take over the reigns, thanking myself for surviving the chaos and letting myself know that it's okay sometimes to lose control, because it makes fighting for it back that much more of an accomplishment.
Cardio and ST today with a smile! Who's with me?! :)
Thursday, August 11, 2011
So, yeah, remember all those amazing goals I had posted on Monday? HA! Thus far all I can be proud of is cutting soda mostly out of my diet and getting back to drinking my water. I've been trying so hard to be good, but it's been difficult. Thing is, I know there will be challenges...I've faced them before. I just have to learn how to get past them.
So first, let's give them a name.
1. Work. Yep, all my training is over now, but the real work of catching up really took on a whole new meaning on Monday. As of today, I am proud to say that I am pretty much caught up on everything. Still, it's kept me from staying up to date here and focusing on much else. I haven't really taken an actual lunch break all week. A shame considering how nice the weather has been!
2. My energy level is in the crapper. I know it's directly related to #3 but OMG! I don't want to do anything beyond work and sleep. Sometimes eating is even a chore. Lord knows cooking has been out of the question. No matter how strong the drive to do it, I can't seem to get myself moving because I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep.
3. My back. This is the main reason for the lagging this week. Last week in DC when we were doing all that walking around, I noticed some pinching in my right shoulder blade area. It hurt, but I kept going anyhow. (Not really a choice when your hotel is still a mile away..) On top of that (or below it actually) the right side of my tailbone hurts SOOOO MUCH! It hurts when I sit, stand, lay down. Sleeping is out of the question. I don't sleep longer than an hour or two before I'm awake again in pain. The pain in my back is causing headaches, bad migraines that make it hard to see or think or do anything without feeling like my head is about to burst. I took off all yesterday after leaving 45 minutes early the day before. I felt like a tool for doing it because I really need to be at work right now, but I couldn't move.
And that is why I haven't been to the gym since returning from DC. I've wanted to go...so much it hurts me emotionally right now. But the thought of working out with all this pain makes me want to vomit. And the lack of sleep and general wearing down of my body makes me tired all the time. Driving to and from work is dangerous. When Hubs is driving, I'm usually asleep. It's a nightmare!
Still, tonight I'm going to attempt the gym. Who knows, it might help right? There's another Zumba class tonight, and I'm going to try my best to make it through at least 30 minutes of it. I haven't put the back pain to the real test because it basically hurts to just stand or sit, so the thought of moving is not something I'm exactly thrilled over...but I should try. At least try.
As for healing the back? I'm stretching a lot like the PT showed me. It HURTS so much! The tension in my back is ridiculous! And then today I made an appointment with a chiropractor for next Friday. I'm terrified because I've never been, but I've heard nothing but good things, and I need something to help me get my body from rebelling! I can't lose weight if I can't move. I just don't have the drive.
So that's what's up. Gonna go cringe a bit more and then talk myself into trying that workout tonight...
Monday, August 08, 2011
So, I know it's not exactly August 1st, but for me it kinda is. With all the crazy training nonsense in the past couple months, I've barely had a moment to breathe. I took the weekend off for the most part, rested my weary legs. I did run a bit on Saturday. Not a lot, though, just enough of a walk/run to get the dog home from G'ma's house (about a mile, maybe..). Yesterday I got all the back-to-school shopping done, so that's like a weight lifted off my shoulders, too.
So, today, August 8th, is my August 1st. And I'm ready to get the ball rolling again. No more excuses. No more "but there's no time!" There will never be time unless I MAKE time for it. So, most important to getting me back on track is logging where I am now and then setting some goals.
Actually, first off is to remind myself that I have the power to achieve these goals. And I'll do that by reminding myself how far I've come.
In April 2010, here were my starting Spark Stats:
Weight - 416.2
Waist - 56.25
Hips - 73
Neck - 17
Thigh - 32
Calf - 24
Upper Arm - 18
Body Fat % (taken when I started the gym program in like June/July?) - 53.3%
As of now, I am at:
Weight - 318.0
Waist - 46.75
Hips - 57
Neck - 14.5
Thigh - 24.5
Calf - 20
Upper Arm - 14.25
Body Fat % - 47%
That's a change in 16 months of:
Weight: -98 pounds!
Waist: -9.5 inches!
Hips: -16 inches!!
Neck: -2.5 inches!
Thigh: -7.5 inches!
Calf: -4 inches!
Upper Arm: -3.75 inches!
That's a total of at least 58.5 inches lost overall!!!
And I've lost 6.3% of my body fat (at least!)!!
Not too shabby! So I CAN do this. It CAN be done. I just have to recommit and stop letting myself fall victim to my own worst enemy - my self-doubt.
I've reset my goals.
The main goal is to reach 230, which should put me around 30% body fat, by the end of June 2012.
But the more immediate goal is to reach 298, a number that seems like a golden goose egg, yummy and wonderful and HUGE!
And even MORE immediate than that? Have my first consistent and consecutive 4 weeks of LOSS on the scale, no matter how small, I want to start the downward motion again.
And how will I do that? I can't just wish it away, that's for sure. If THAT worked I'd be skinny and fit by now! No, this takes work. Hard work! And I am NO stranger to HARD WORK! This isn't a new concept here. When my mom told me that I could work as soon as I turned 16 (and after I got a license/car), I went and filled out the application to work right after my birthday and started working soon after, filling up my evenings with dedication to whatever task was put before me. I'm good at that. Give me a task and I'll set my mind to achieve it. And that's just the fire I need to reignite in myself to get this show on the road once more.
So, my small goals to get back on track:
1. LOG! LOG! LOG! Good or bad or worse, you will log every calorie you consume whether from food or drink, a bite or a serving or a binge. It will be logged. Don't worry so much about the calorie counts as you do about logging. Don't avoid the log because you know you went over your calories. Log it anyway! Get back in the habit!
2. If you CAN get ahead of your calorie goals, try to stick between 1750 to 2100 calories. That does not mean you MUST be at or under 1750! That means anywhere in between those two numbers will do just fine. Even if it's 2099 calories, you're good. Stop thinking you have to achieve "better than perfection" to succeed.
3. Workouts need to become a regular thing again. Zumba on Tuesdays and Thursdays now that your schedule is back. Unless it's cancelled or you work short days. On those occassions, cross train on other equipment in a circuit training type deal...because you always loved those so much! Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays are running days, so enjoy the finishing of the C25k program, because I KNOW you have it in you! And running days will share the spotlight with Strength Training, because you KNOW you need that in this program. Cardio is never enough! You have to build those muscles to eat that fat to see results. Get back to lifting, remember how much you love the instant results?!
4. DRINK WATER! Seriously? It's 100 degrees outside and you've been avoiding water and drinking crap like Coke and Juice instead? If you ever needed water, now is the time! 8-10 glasses a day of good clean water. Save soda for special occassions...and by special I don't mean once a day or even once a week or month, but on those special treats every few months when a nice cold Coke just sounds so nice. It will mean more if you save it for special occassions!
5. Get back to Sparking like a Rockstar! I seriously have missed you all dearly. I apologize for my lack of participation in what you've been up to. Truth is, I've been reading blogs but not commenting...but I know that doesn't help you at all. That's me being selfish, not wanting to miss out on what my friends are up to but not taking the time to support them in a vocal manner. I sincerely apologize for that selfishness and I'm SO ready to get back on the commenting bandwagon. I'm ready to share the joy and experience and bumpy ride, to share the motivation, because as much as I know motivation comes within, I realize that by the sharing of experiences here we share a bit of our motivation as well. Self-motivation can be quick to fizzle out, but when we keep fueling the fire by sampling a bit of yours and giving you a bit of mine, well we all benefit from that. We stoke the fires and keep them burning. So I'm pulling out one of those old-age push air blower fire stoker thingys! Get ready to have your fire stoked again! :)
Goal for next week: 316 pounds
Goal for end of August: 312 pounds
Reward for reaching goal: Self-spa day and a Professional Haircut!
Reward for consistency even if I don't reach goal: Self-spa day!
I'm giving myself the credit and rewarding myself for what I CAN control! The rest is just icing on the proverbial cake! :)
Saturday, August 06, 2011
Finally got back last night around 10:30pm. We left at 1pm. We only live about 6 hours from DC, you do the math. In our desperate attempt to avoid a major traffic jam that shut down about 4 miles of 70W coming out of Maryland, we ended up wasting a couple hours. It was a hard trip back, but we made it!
So, how did everything go? Well, let's just say that my focus was not on eating healthy. Seriously, I got bit by a "I don't care" monster at the beginning of the trip and it took everything I had to control myself. That being said, I walked all our butts off nearly every single day we were there.
On Sunday, when we arrived, there were some issues with my work's payment of the hotel room causing me to have to pay for the first night out of my own pocket until I could speak to our accountant the next day and try to sort things out. Things were so up in the air that I didn't know if we'd be staying the whole week or not, so in an effort to not waste whatever time we had, we headed out to check out some of the DC sites. Now, my hotel was about 1/2 a mile from the National Mall. Hours later, and about 5 1/2 to 6 miles later, we returned tired as all get out. I took them to see the National Mall, the Washington Monument, the Lincoln Memorial, we caught a glimpse of the Jefferson Memorial across the way and the White House in the other direction, and we stopped by the WWII Memorial and looked up my grandpa in the system there (the picture was so great! An old picture from when he was young...he was such a handsome man!). When we returned, everyone was super sore and I was stressed about sorting everything out with my work, so sleep was hard to come by.
On Monday morning, THANKFULLY, everything was sorted out and I proudly let the kids and Hubs know we were there for the week. I decided to give them the night off. Grab groceries (about a mile walk, I'd guess?) and then stay in, go to the pool, rest. But by Tuesday, we were off again.
Every day I'd walk the nearly 1/2 a mile to my training, walk back for lunch, walk back after lunch, and then walk back to the hotel after class was over...so without any exploring at all I was averaging about 2 miles a day just shuttling myself back and forth.
On Tuesday we hit the Air and Space Museum before Hubs mentioned he was still sore from Sunday and we headed back.
On Wednesday, we headed down to the Natural History Museum and had to speed walk through it as they were closing early at 5:30pm (it looked like they were setting up for some sort of reception or gala), so we did a little "speed museum" before heading next door to the American History Museum, where we spent a little more time. Still tired and sore, we caught a cab back to the hotel (something none of my boys had experienced before either *lol*).
And then on Thursday, I gave them another 6 mile trek through DC as we rushed to the National Archives to view the important documents and walk through a room that was piping in the most delicious smell of apples! Then we headed up through the Ronald Regan building complex area, grabbed a pizza at Aria, headed up to the White House to get a better view, and then down to the Vietnam Wall and past the WWII Memorial and Washington Monument again to head back. Again, everyone was sore and tired when we got back.
So while I didn't pay much mind to calorie counts, and while we didn't run the National Mall every morning (or every other morning, actually) like I wanted (we were still too tired from the night before!), we did do a little running on the mall on Sunday night and Thursday night, and we walked so much I can't imagine it being a bad thing.
The scale says 320 again this morning, but I'm still quite sore and swollen so I expect that to go down some with some water intake today and a bit of rest this weekend. More importantly, this trip helped me clear my head from the tragedy that was the trip out west for my "friend's" wedding. I'm not lazy, we walked SO much! I'm not stupid, I did well in training and my instructor (who I had for week one back in December) remembered me and stated that he was so proud of my promotion and of the confidence I have built in my abilities in the job. I'm not selfish, I tried to accomplish what all the boys wanted to see, I listened when they needed a break, and I gave up some of the things I wanted to do to ensure that we all got to experience the city together.
And I cannot wait to get started on my healthy lifestyle again. I'm excited to take the next couple days to rest (other than returning the rental car here in a bit, and then a wedding of an actual friend at 2:30 today), to check on my garden (I spy tomatoes!!) and then to hit the gym hard next week and get this ball rolling again. When i met with the nutritionist before I left, we set 3 small goals.
1. Cook at home at least 2 times this week.
2. Start logging again and get back into Spark. (I miss you all and need your support to succeed!)
3. Drink at least 8-10 glasses of water EVERY SINGLE DAY.
It's all about baby steps, right? I'm excited to get back to running, but my feet are simply raw today from this week. Hoping that's cleared up by Monday so I can get a run in. The stage will be set and the major goal facing me right now is in my head. The challenge will begin to not only get back under 320, but to get under 300. I'm ready for Deuceland, and I think it's finally ready for me.
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