Monday, May 03, 2010
Whoever said exercise will reduce your cramps...I want to kill them. I am firm believer of not carrying a gun (I have my reasons), but if that person was standing on my lawn today I would need a good chunk of bail money because dude would be D-E-A-D, dead!
I have been cursed all my life with serious cramps. They usually fall on the 2nd day of my period and then the rest of the time its manageable, but that 2nd day is absolute hell. I feel sick to my stomach. I can't sleep. I scream out for help. Today is that day. And while I thought all this working out and eating healthy might work in my favor today, it simply did not. I woke up a few times last night in agony. At 5am I was in so much pain I could only sleep for about 5 minutes at a time, waking up now and again to cry out. Hubby brought me ibuprofen and hot tea (my usual cures), and still 2 hours later I was playing that same game of sleep-scream-sleep. I called off work.
About an hour or so later, I was back to semi-normal...at least to manageable discomfort. I'm exhausted. I'm sore. I want to sleep but need to study for school. I still have classes tonight. I have a 30 minute walk and some strength training ahead of me. (Nope, not skipping it...I might be slow tonight but I will not ruin my streak when I'm already 10% done!)
I should be thankful because I realized with the lifestyle change happening mid-April, I missed a month for my period. Finally my body is getting back on track with itself. This should make me happy, but instead I feel like I'm being punished for having one blissful month without this pain.
If anyone has any home remedies, please shout 'em out. As for what I plan to do now? I'm calling the doctor this week to get an appointment so that I can discuss BC methods which seriously reduce or even end this one-day-a-month hell I find myself in again and again. I've got the rest of my life (somewhat) under control...I'm not about to let this take me down!
(On a positive note, I broke out the blender today and hubby and I had a yummy strawberry-banana smoothie! It was heaven and I feel much better now! *lol*)
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Alright, that's it. Say goodbye to fair April and hello to a wonderful May!
Weight last month: 416.2
Weight goal for beginning of this month: 412.2
Actual Weight beginning of this month: 403.0
Actual Weight lost in April: 13.2 pounds!
(only counting the last two weeks of April, when I started this journey and started SP on April 18th)
Today was weigh-in day. Down another 3.6 pounds and feeling better every day. Still exhausted much of the time, but that's to be expected for the next two weeks. A lot of things to do before I'm donezo! Graduation will be a blessed day!
So, for the start of May, I want to set some goals for myself.
Weight Loss Goal
Be down to 395. That's 8 pounds for the month and completely doable. Plus, I'll end up hitting my alternate goal of seeing the 300s again. If goal is reached I will be down 20 pounds total!
Work out every day for at least 15 minutes. At the end of the month it would be 39 days out of the 100 goal I set...that's 39% done. It will be over 500 fitness minutes for the month...this doesn't include the days I'll work out 30+ minutes and do Strength Training (3 times a week).
I want to learn to cook healthy all the time. I hope to get 4-5 servings of fresh fruits and veggies every day. (I picked the pineapple because I had some fresh pineapple this morning for breakfast.) I also want to try new foods and find healthy foods I can incorporate every week that my family enjoys. I'd like to eventually have a dish from each country...we really like cooking by geography. Already have Italy, China, America, and France. I'd like to learn to make Sushi at home if I can find the right ingredients somewhere around here.
Of course, this is the month to end my smoking addiction. I have only until graduation, and then it's over...no excuses!
I want to see some changes in my appearance. I usually see these before others do because I tend to investigate the areas where my body changes first when I'm losing weight. I'm trying to stop this focus on appearance, but I really do want to see the results. (Perhaps my goal should be to STOP studying myself in the mirror...another issue for another month.)
Finally, and most exciting for me, I will head this month to the lake/park and get back into hiking, rowing, swimming...all those outdoor activites that I absolutely LOVE and that make "working out" feel like a fun and exciting experience! I just cannot wait for this!
May - the month I graduate from college! This month is looking to be an awesome, amazing, wonderful, unforgettable month!!!!
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Okay, I'll admit it....it isn't as hard as I made it out to be, this "eating healthy" thing. Another thing I'll admit is that it doesn't taste like crap. It tastes wonderful, fresh, and just plain yummy!
Today Hubby and I took our youngest son to Bob Evans for breakfast. I got a veggie omelet. Now, I was right that I'm not big on tomatoes and eggs together, however, I think to sub a little part-skim mozz. cheese in this omelet and I would be in heaven! With fresh fruit as a side and a slice of dry wheat toast, it's a great fresh way to start a day!
For lunch I found myself still stuck on this idea from several people of a hummus and avocado sandwich. Part of me thought it would be gross. Another part was just plain curious. I took the new Nature's Own sandwich rounds (Multi-grain kind) and put on a serving of hummus. I added some laughing cow cheese. I added a couple slices of avocado. I tossed on some alfalfa sprouts for a little crunch. Not only did I like it, I loved it. And my oldest son loved it too, and asked for one of his own.
By dinner I wanted nothing more than a simple baked potato (which take forever to cook in our oven). Everyone got antsy, so I pulled out the wok once more and started tossing stuff in, using foods I knew would be healthy. Mushrooms. Snow peas. Onions and garlic. Olive Oil. Chicken breast. Bean sprouts. Add a little soy sauce and it's just another version of our favorite "Chicken Fried Rice" recipe. Except I didn't fry the rice, and I made wild rice in place of long grain white rice.
That's right everyone. I had a very healthy day...and it wasn't as hard as I had been making it out to be for years! And it was more delicious than a batch of tator tots or a grilled cheese. And there was this special feeling when I realized that I knew exactly what my kids were eating. I knew what was in it. I knew how much salt, fat, carbs, protein, etc. I knew because I made it fresh. That's a good feeling!
On the other side of this, my body is still recovering from day yesterday. I swear I must've danced more than I realized! I've been really, really tired all day. I need a nap, but couldn't take one because there were things to do (grocery shopping, feeding my children) that just didn't allow it. Now it's 10 and I'm finally awake! *lol* Still, I think it's temporary after dinner...I'm sure I'll be ready to sleep again very soon...after a little workout, of course. Can't skip day 8! Tomorrow is weigh in, and I'm just hoping it goes well. I know I've done my part, my scale better recognize!
Saturday, May 01, 2010
I could sit here and tell you how awful I was last night. How I had a few too many drinks (not enough to get drunk, just enough to --probably-- break the bank on my nutritionals). How I ate half a McGriddle when I got home at 2 am. How I didn't do the strength training exercises that were scheduled for the day. But I won't. Instead I'm going to tell you why last night was great for me.
Yesterday I went out with some somewhat new friends from school. I'm about to graduate and my friend had just turned 21...there was plenty to celebrate last night! Yes, we obliged and got her thoroughly drunk, so our friendly duties are taken care of...welcome to 21. (And if I talked to her today I could welcome her to the hangover as well.) We ate dinner late at a Japanese Steakhouse where I ordered what I knew I could eat "on my plan" - sushi, edamame, and rice. I had a drink...okay, two. And then we went to a bar.
I danced, I drank...but the highlight of the evening was hanging out with a bunch of skinny girls and being the only one of them to be bought a drink by a guy. Yep, you heard me right. I was approached and that line I've never personally been asked by anyone other than a bartender was asked of me, "What are you drinking, honey?" I felt...weird. I told him I didn't know, my 21 year old friend encouraged me to get another "sex with a squirrel" and next thing I know, he's bought me a drink. Now, he was pretty darn ugly...but this situation has NEVER, I repeat, NEVER happened to me directly. I've seen it happen to my "skinny" friends. But here I was, surrounded by beauty, and being bought a drink by a man. (Now the funny part, I called my husband to ask if I could drink it! *lol* He told me he wouldn't turn down free alcohol from a girl, and that as long as I didn't sleep with anyone, he didn't care at all! *lol*)
I drank that drink...I earned it somehow. And then we bolted for another club before the guy got the wrong idea! *lol* At the nightclub we went to, my friend bought me a drink - a blue motorcycle, actually - it was good! It was one of those "I know that I'll feel this later but it tastes like kool-aid" goods. I danced with my friends...I didn't care what I looked like and they didn't either. Nobody said a word about how I shouldn't be there. Perfect strangers smiled at me. It felt great. I got one more drink and then our attention shifted to making sure Brit (the new 21 year old) didn't get in trouble with the three guys that were dancing with her and her friend. (We are all a little motherly, me most of all considering I'm the only actual mother of the bunch. I wanted to make sure that she wasn't in trouble...so I kept an eye on her the rest of the night.) About an hour of dancing and I was done. The club was crowded and the dancing looked more like sex with your clothes on than actual dancing (I think this may be my age showing through! Watch out, grandma!). I told the girls I was done for the night and headed home.
Today I am sore throughout my legs and arms. Today I am down another pound as well. Today I feel like once this headache clears and I can move again, I'll be feeling pretty darn good about myself. I thought about beating myself up, but I didn't do it. Because there are only a few years left of me being able to "club" in this manner, and I let my weight stop me from ever doing it before. Last night I felt like a bonafide college student for a few minutes, and we all deserve a little of that when we're in college. I didnt' get fall-down drunk and I had a blast hanging out with my friends. I was good the rest of the day and then I let myself be the judge of myself for the rest of the night.
So, uhm...about last night...I make no excuses. I regret nothing. And I'm ready to get my butt out there today and enjoy this crazy world...in a healthy way!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Okay, first of all, let me let you know right off the bat that this is not a blog about waiting for results and wanting them to come right now. I'm in week 2 and already a coworker said, "How much weight did you lose this week?" I told her that weigh in is on Sunday and she remarked that she could already see the difference. Let me repeat that for those of you that we're just flying through the reading, not really paying attention, maybe there's something shiny distracting you...focus here for a moment please...okay. She said she could already tell a difference in week 2! Now THAT is awesome! (Okay, go play with your toy now...I would.)
My impatience today is with my friends. God love them, but I had set plans with them last week to walk with me today. It wasn't my doing, it was theirs. I simply mentioned that I did 3 laps around the baseball field last week and they said, "Ooh..maybe I'll join you next week!" I said that would be fine with me, and they both agreed to meet here for chatting while we workout. Fun, right? Yeah...fun ends here. It is now 12:31pm and one texted me around noon to say she's going to the beach (we live in WV, what beach is she going to?) and the other said she's going to come, but she's busy working on something right now.
I understand the second one. I get caught up on stuff sometimes. The problem arises in the fact that I don't know when her stuff will end. She worked a few blocks away and she gave me zero indication as to when she'll be done. What's more, there is a history of her bailing at the last minute...so that is what I think will probably happen today.
This walk will happen with or without them. I know that. There's a health-food market within walking distance of my work (I can make it there, shop quickly, and be back just in time) so my plan today was to go there and pick up some fresh veggies, some quinoa, and maybe anything else that catches my eye. This is still my goal for the day (hello, two birds, meet one stone!). Waiting on her, though, is killing me! I need to be outside! I need the sun! I need my Vitamin D! I need to sweat! I just can't wait anymore! I need my oxygen and to feel my legs pumping.
Is is bad to say that my (skinny, eeny-weeny) friends are slowing this fat girl down? Because they totally are!
EDIT (1:52 pm): I just got back from my walk. I texted her to tell her I was going to go ahead and go. Halfway through the walk she texts me to tell me she just got done and "don't feel like doing anything right now." Thank God I went when I did. Came back red-faced (hate this part when I'm at work! *lol* Still a little pink now, waiting for it to subside.) and with a bag full of goodies -- a fresh pear (my after workout snack which I'm munching on right now..YUM!), No Salt Herbal Seasoning, black beans, red lentils, wild and brown rice, snow peas, 2 huge portobello mushroom caps, and quinoa! There's a dinner in here somewhere! ;)
Get An Email Alert Each Time CALLIKIA Posts