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Weekend Plans and Rest Days

Friday, October 29, 2010

Wednesday was my SIBCCT night, and I burned over 1,000 SP calories.

Thursday I followed my son's lead and started out on the stationary bike, and reminded myself how BORING it is and how much I hate it. We set our time for 30 minutes, but I did not want to be tied down to that thing, especially since it wasn't doing CRAP to raise my heart rate that much. I stopped after 10 minutes and switched to the elliptical. The machine set an automatic 60 minutes on the glute workout, and I just figured I'd stop whenever I wanted to. I didn't want to stop. Like, at all! It hurt, yes - my legs were still sore from the day before, but it also felt so great. I went for 35 minutes and then figured I was ready to go home. (I could've pushed more, but I knew I was sore still and I didn't want to injure myself.) I did my Yoga stretching to end the night and headed home...and then had a blowout with the Hubs. *sigh*

Yesterday was a bad day as far as things happening to me, but a good day for me because I pushed through them and did what I needed to do for myself anyways. Today I woke up SORE SORE SORE in my legs. Thank GOODNESS I stretched or I likely wouldn't be walking today. Funny thing is, as sore as I am, I still feel good. I can feel the muscles in my legs! I can feel my skinny girl legs under that hidden fat, and it felt good to know that I might one day have legs I'll be proud to show off. Still, being this sore signals only one thing for me today -- REST.

I have a little something to say about rest days. They are SOOOO important! I know you all know that, at least in your head, but let me put it to you this way. Having spent 6 months doing this I know that if I continue to push myself, I won't see results. My body will be in shock trying to keep up with me. And while I think it's great to push through a tiny bit of soreness, when your muscles are so sore that it's a little difficult to get up and walk, that should signal to you that they need their rest. It's an important part of the process. Today my weight is up from yesterday and the day before. Why? Because I pushed myself. This is NOT a signal to not work out, by all means. It's a signal that it's important to let my body spend the day doing what I have taught it to do, what it knows it needs, rest, repair, and kill a few fat cells along the way. So on the docket for today? Rest, relax, be me, and drink LOTS of water (because it's so important in the repair process...muscles need water to rebuild themselves!). If I handle this right, I should be able to get to the gym tomorrow and crank out my last day of cardio and ST.

So, weekend plans.
Friday - REST! I would *love* to go to a movie today. I haven't yet woken up Hubs. We're supposed to have our "date day" but with the fight last night, I'm both a little nervous about it and SURE we need it. I'll wake him up in a minute. We DO need to hit the grocery store, though.

Saturday - Workout at the gym in the morning. Football practice at 1pm. Trick-or-Treat with the boys at 6pm. I tried contacting a friend about possibly watching the boys for a couple hours so we can still go to our Halloween party, but she hasn't gotten back to me so I doubt that will happen.

Sunday - Wake up early. Pack lunches, and head to Belpre, OH for the big midget league semi-finals game. Our number 6 ranked team is going up against the number 2 ranked team, so my hope is that they do the best they can and DON'T get slaughtered! EEP! Of course, I secretly hope they'll win, but this is a TOUGH team, so I don't know what to really expect. Depends on if our boys are on their game (so wish Trick-or-Treat wasn't the night before!) and if the other boys are on theirs. I'll let you know how it goes.

Ooh, some things upcoming that I'm excited about....
I have a short week this week thanks to the holiday (state workers get November 2nd off for Election Day) so I'll be getting off at 4:30pm, instead of 6pm. That means I should be able to make it to the gym for the new Monday night Yoga class at 5:30pm. I'm so nervous! I do Yoga on my own because I was always afraid to walk into a room of skinny chicks and bust out some half-shaped yoga poses, but both the atmosphere at my gym and with my new self-confidence, I'm determined to get some REAL instruction on Yoga poses. Have to remember to take my Yoga mat to work with me so I have it for class!

Another new class at the gym starts on Wednesday. The best part? It's not until 7:35pm! Our gym rarely does late night classes (only ones I can get to are the 2 Zumba classes that start at 7pm on Tuesday and Thursday) so this is a HUGE step in the right direction for me! I think I actually "yipeed" out loud at the front desk of the gym last night when I saw the announcement sheet! *lol* Anyhow, Wednesday night, 7:35pm - Pilates! I've NEVER done pilates, so I'm excited to try it. I hope it goes alright! (Funny anecdote - My 11 year old son saw the posting and said, "What is pilates?" The guy at the gym said, "Do you know what yoga is?" Logan nodded and the guy continued, "Well, pilates is like yoga on steroids!" *lmao* The best part...my son didn't get it! *lol* I did though, and it made me giggle!)

So next week, I'm switching it up.
Monday - Yoga
Tuesday - Zumba and ST
Wednesday - Pilates
Thursday - DANG, I have to work! *pouts* I'll probably do a lunch walk, maybe fit some Yoga in too.
Friday - The gym. SIBCCT anyone? HRM....

I'm half tempted to show up for line dancing tonight at my gym at 5:30pm. I never make it in time but the instructor dude is so nice. It's VERY low intensity, so I think I could manage even with a little soreness, but I'll play it by ear.

Know what I love? When exercise becomes something you enjoy! I'm excited about classes! I'm excited again to try new things at the gym! I'm excited about my new ST routine (even if it does take forever right now! *lol*). I *love* that excitement.

Know what else I love? I spent about an hour this morning talking to a neighbor. I met this girl at Shoney's when Hubs and I used to go there Friday mornings for breakfast. She struggles with her weight as well, and when she saw me again she immediately wanted to know how I did it and how much I lost. She kept apologizing for "bugging me" but I assured her that helping her would make me feel so proud! I want to pass these gifts on to others. So this morning I told her to take some baby steps, give me a call when she needs to talk or wants to walk, and to never be shy about asking questions. I *might* just turn her into a new workout buddy! *lol* (I haven't told her that yet, though! ;) )

Have a great weekend everyone! Enjoy Halloween and don't eat too much candy! (But seriously, one tiny Snickers bar is not going to undo everything, so don't stress TOO DARN MUCH! ;) )

  
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ROSIEP7 10/30/2010 9:44PM

    I love pilates! Have fun with it - and expect some sore muscles the next day!

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DETERMINED_SOUL 10/30/2010 12:49PM

    You are doing a wonderful job! I love your enthusiasm and it has rubbed off on me, I am ready to start something new! Thank you!

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CHICAT63 10/29/2010 6:53PM

    You sound like me anything new I like to try it !!!! What is love without the blow-out and the making up *wink* I know it ain't easy at times but I am sure things will be better. I really laughed out loud when I read that your neighbor could be your new potential workout partner, *lol*. You are a great inspiration and I am sure teacher.

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KITHKINCAID 10/29/2010 5:20PM

    Fight with hubby or not, you sound so happy! Great work - you're in a really good place right now and it wasn't easy to get to, so congrats!

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TEAM-SARAH 10/29/2010 4:22PM

    I'm so excited you're trying yoga!! :) Pilates and yoga arent really much alike honestly, outside of the shared similarity of them both being mat workouts. Pilates is VERY core centered which is awesome! I had a personal trainer for a while who would do a lot of pilates centered workouts and they were always great. I'm sure you'll dig it. It'll be a great supplement to your strength training.

I'm glad that you're very smart with your rest schedule. You can't get burnt out or injured, then you'll be resting for WAY longer than a day or two a week!

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HEATHER_TEACHAH 10/29/2010 12:41PM

    you are just OOZING w/ happiness!!! I can tell that you're feeling happier/more confident/stronger! :) :)

I love pilates, for the record. I'm excited for you to be able to try it now!

happy halloween to you! I def OD'd on the snack foods at my all-day halloween snack party at work, but feeling like I do right NOW I can promise I will NEVER ever do that again. UGHH junk food hangover.

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GOZEKIGRL 10/29/2010 12:15PM

    great plan! yaaaaay rest days! friday's are my rest days. totally. =D

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RIGBY31 10/29/2010 12:04PM

    OMGosh your blog..so timely! I'm having a rest day today after really pushing my workouts this week. I didn't eat enough calories all of yesterday before going to the gym and had to leave early. Plus other *body parts* are feeling the stress. So A-OK to have a rest day!

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ATROTTIER 10/29/2010 12:00PM

    Thanks for your comments yesterday on my blog - that was the Mommy coming out towards me and I needed it!!!! LOL I'm already starting to throw away food when needed...on Fridays at work we have free bagels and I always treat myself to one, but this morning I ate one half more slowley than I normally would and then waited a bit and looked at the 2nd half and threw it away...I was full and content and I didn't need it!! Yippee!

I love classes too!!! I'm so excited that you have some good ones coming up. I took Yoga for 2 semesters at the college last year and beginning of this year and FELL IN LOVE! Yeah, it's super tough but it feels so good at the end mentally and physically. Just be super careful when you try the pilates class, I did it once and I messed up my back for 2 weeks...I rushed myself and wasn't careful so please be super careful but I hope you enjoy it!! emoticon

Happy Halloween! Have fun this weekend! emoticon

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MEGSFITNESS 10/29/2010 11:53AM

    hehe! line dancing on rest day? Sounds like fun to me :) Yay for active recovery.

I seriously read the rest of this but I'm running late right now so that's all you get =P I hope you're doing well!! Have a great weekend! I drop off the SP radar on weekends so I hope it goes well for you and for the boys on Sunday.

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CANOGAPARKGAL 10/29/2010 11:05AM

    You are really smart about your workouts, and the need for cool downs, stretching, and rest days. Enjoy your weekeind. emoticon

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Another One Bites the Dust

Thursday, October 28, 2010

...another pound of fat, that is! That's how I like to think of my workouts sometimes - me, blasting away those calories, calling my muscles into battle against those lazy little fat cells that do little more than take up space in my body. A big workout, like my SIBCCT last night, is full on war against fat!

Okay, okay. So I know you all are wondering just what exactly I did last night at the gym. Right? ...RIGHT? You see, I have a little secret to tell you...everyone pull in a little closer to the screen...can't have this getting out! PTs would KILL me if they knew I told you! ;)

...You can be your OWN personal trainer!

Yep, I said it. PTs of the world -- please don't kill the messenger! Last night, after a little online research and a firm plan of action in my head, I challenged myself to another round of Self-Induced Boot Camp Circuit Training. And the big secret is...you can too!

emoticon How It Works

emoticon Boot Camp - Think military drills. Even if you aren't in the military, one viewing of G.I. Jane, or one of the countless other movies that deal with boot camp training, will have you feeling more in the know. And the best part? Little to no equipment needed!

emoticon Circuit Training - Just watch Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred, or one of the many circuit training DVDS, or visit a Curves gym just once, and you'll start to see how this works. Bursts of cardio mixed with bursts of ST exercises. Lather, rinse, and repeat. Don't know what kind of ST to do? Just think about ways you can use your body as a counter weight - no equipment needed! Surf through fitness magazines or online or through Spark! And make sure you find exercises for each major part of the body.

emoticon The key? Push yourself and KEEP MOVING! Always moving, always keeping your body guessing, always pushing yourself to stretch the idea of what your limitations are.

Last Night's Program
I downloaded an app for my iPhone that beeps at me every minute (or however long I set it), so I turned that on and got started.

emoticon Warm-Up
First up is always the stretching and warm-up. Get those muscles loosened up and get warmed up. You don't want to go from 0 to 160 in 2.2 seconds. Not great on an engine, not so great on your body either. Don't know what to do? Seriously, Google is your friend! My warm-up was a little different last night because I really wanted to push to burn more than 700 calories. I stretched and then did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine.

Circuit 1:
emoticon Running/jogging.
Just don't stop! For 60 seconds straight (or however long you decide), go at the fastest pace you can. Aren't to running yet in your fitness level? No problem! Walk as fast as you can for 60 seconds. Get that heart rate up!
emoticon Squats.
I did 12. I wanted to do a full 60 seconds, but I didn't take into account the time it would take me to get to each station, so my timer was a little screwed up. If that happens, just go with it. Count to 60 in your head or set a specific number to do.
emoticon Push-ups.
Again, challenge yourself. It will all depend upon where you are physically. I did 15 modified push-ups. (I tried the regular kind and got to 2! *lol*)
emoticon Crunches.
I did 20 regular floor crunches followed by 12 bicycle crunches. (I used to *hate* bicycle crunches, and in a way I still do, but they work, darnit! One of the best abdominal exercises out there as far as I've experienced!)

Repeat this circuit 3 times.

Circuit 2:
emoticon Jump Rope.
I suck at this, but that's okay. The key is to keep moving, like I said. So for 60 seconds I was either jumping or fiddling with the rope, but when I wanted to stop and scream at myself, I just kept going. (One bonus of including at least 1 thing you're not so good at...if you repeat this workout over several weeks, you'll actually start to see and feel improvement. I kept telling myself, "Wow...I suck at this, but it'll be interesting to see how I can improve!")
emoticon Shadow Boxing.
Okay, so I'm lucky in that I have a boxing room at my gym that's generally pretty empty. I had the whole room to myself last night. I would punch the bag while moving around it and shuffling my feet. But you don't need gym equipment to do this either. Shadow boxing means boxing a shadow, something that's not really there. Just be careful not to overextend your elbows when you punch (that means don't ever lock them...listen to Billy Blanks on this one! It can be harmful, and the benefits of concentrating on your arms to make sure you don't lock them actually causes you to use those muscles more!), otherwise, beat that air like it stole your cookie and you had already worked it into your calorie count and had been looking forward to it all day! But don't stop moving your feet either.
emoticon Speed Bag.
Okay, I've worked a few months on trying to figure out how to work our speed bag at the gym, and do you know what I've learned? It's all about your core! Squat just a bit to form a steady base for your body (may not be possible if you are actually punching a real speed bag), tighten your abs and hold them there throughout the motion. You can use those abs in a sort of rocking motion to keep a steady pace on the speed bag (or air speed bag).

Repeat this circuit twice. (I would've loved to have done 3 times, but I was POOPED! already!)

Circuit 3:
emoticon Walk/Run.
Okay, let's face it...I was WORE OUT by this time! So I walked a lap around the track as fast as I could still manage. The wore out part means you're working it!
emoticon Ab Crunch Time!
I ended my circuits with a rather intense crunch time. Core is so important to me right now. Normally I would say you should add in some sort of arm work and some sort of leg work too, but...like I said, I was pooped! (I generally do lunges at this point and would probably add in planks or bear crawls.) I did 4 sets of 20 - 2 different kinds - with a 6 lb. medicine ball on the reclining ab bench to finish it out.

I only did this circuit 1 time.

emoticon Cool Down
By this time you should feel pretty spent. I don't know that I've ever seen someone after an intense workout go, "Give me more!" If you've got more to give, do some more circuits! But always remember your 5 minute (or more) cool down. For me, this is always just a simple walk for 5 minutes. I don't worry about pace, I can go as slow as I want. If you're on a treadmill or elliptical, you might want to decrease your speed by 1 (or .5) (or on the elliptical, slow your pace by 10 strides per minute) each minute of cool down. The key is to let your heart rate come back down gradually by continuing to move at a lower intensity than before.

emoticon STRETCH
OMG, please, please, please do NOT forget to stretch! Stretching is the key to ending muscle soreness, and after such an intense workout, you're going to need it! Yes, I am sore today, but I can move about and perform daily functions without extreme pain or muscle cramping. I also like to think that if I end my workouts with the same stretch routine every time, it's like sending a message to my muscles -- Thanks for what you've given me, but now you can rest. And it should last at LEAST 10 minutes.

(Of course, I didn't quite rest...I proceeded downstairs and spent an HOUR doing the ST routine the PT set for me. (OMG! *lol*) I'm hoping that once I get the new routine down it won't take me quite so long to complete.)

My warm-up on the elliptical was 25 minutes, my circuit was 25 minutes. Added together with the yoga stretching I do to end my workout, I burned 1,052 SP calories in an hour-long workout! That's one heck of a calorie burn!!

Now, please keep in mind that I'm not a professional, but this is just a taste of what my SIBCCT looks like, in case you were wondering. (Or at least what it looked like last night...I change it a bit every time.) The thing I want my Spark Friends to really know and realize, the thing I think most of you miss out on, is the "create your own" style workouts that I really do have a blast with from time to time. It's freeing and empowering to create your own and, my thought is always, as long as I'm moving and doing the best form I can maintain, then it's pretty darn good for my body, right? I use the tools I've learned from countless exercise classes and DVDs along the way, the stuff I read here on Spark, the stuff I see all of you do, and the exercises I read about in fitness magazines to design my own fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants workout!

You see because...I get bored. And one thing I've learned from my 6 months here, the reason it's different than before, is because I refuse to let myself get bored. I have to try for more, better, different. I have to have something to look forward to and learn or I get bored and want to give up. So circuit training like this lets me switch it up. I don't have a chance to get bored during my cardio segment because it's already over and I'm moving onto the next move. The first time I did this SIBCCT was because I got bored on the elliptical. I forced out 20 minutes, and then went and did pushups and planks and crunches, and then I did the rowing machine...and when I got bored on that, I went and did lunges and squats and crunches again, and then I went to the bike...and I got bored with that and moved onto the cable machine. I went from completely bored to completely excited...it's like being able to mix-and-match your favorite things, your calorie burners, the things you do because you feel you should, and the things you do to challenge yourself.

So there's my report from last night...and I have a challenge for you. Take one of your workouts this week, and switch it up. This can be done at all fitness levels. Seriously, you can do 3 minutes of cardio walking in place followed by wall push-ups, or you can do a sprint at your fastest speed followed by diamond or pull-ups even! I know that some of you like the instruction from a certified PT or your DVD instructor, but maybe try it, just once, and see how it feels to make up your own thing. (And someone test this with your HRM to see how the real calorie burn is. I just have to go on how I feel during and after.)

Today, I hope gets better soon. So far I've had my eye scratched by the cat, forgot my cell phone at home, and opted for a McD's breakfast that, well, was NASTY! (guess I don't like that anymore! *lol*) Oh, and I have no clue what to do for my workout tonight considering my Zumba class is canceled. *pout* Guess I have all day to figure it out!

  
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HEALTH-E-CLARE 10/29/2010 9:21AM

    I love circuit training and switching it up. It's something I really missed while I was training for my half.

Sounds like you got in a really well rounded workout. I love how hard you pushed yourself!

Once I figure out my new gym situation and where different machines are located, I'm going to plan one SIBCCT day a week. It'll keep the muscles guessing as well as my mind.

Hope today is better.

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BAYBELIEVER 10/28/2010 11:47PM

    Love the information and suggestions! Thanks for sharing! I, too, was worn out just reading about this! How many calories do you suppose I burned?? (JK, JK, I did my swim and a 20 minute walk today)

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MEGSFITNESS 10/28/2010 4:34PM

    Wow, that's an awesome workout :D I don't know that I can match your calibur but I'll damn sure try! What program do you use on your phone to measure the time???

Wee!

p.s. what HRM do you have? Don't say you don't have one!!

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KITHKINCAID 10/28/2010 12:38PM

    You have a point. Just this week I was thinking that I need to switch up my routine because I'm starting to get bored. But the payoff is so huge every week it's hard to give it up. I just need to find new ways to challenge myself. And I think once I'm done with my 5K next weekend I need to reassess the number of days a week that I'm running. Maybe I'll cut back to one, stick with my one swim day and one Zumba day then add in something else along the ST line of things...

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ATROTTIER 10/28/2010 12:25PM

    Love your training session!!! Sounds so intense but doable at the same time...I'm gonna steal it!! hehehe!!! emoticon

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RIGBY31 10/28/2010 12:25PM

    Wow, my heart was racing by the end of your blog! (I'm going to count that as part of my cardio this morning-jk). You are my inspiration to kick it up big time when I lose a little more and feel more steady on my feet. (I'm giving it my all walking-just started- and feel stronger already).
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TEAM-SARAH 10/28/2010 11:48AM

    Killer workout lady!! It's no secret that you don't need a PT to workout. It's the motivation, mostly. A lot of people just can't push themselves through a workout like that. They need someone to tell them what to do, when to do it and how hard to go. And of course a legit advantage is having someone there to correct your form and make sure that you are performing the exercises safely. BUT if you know how to do the workouts already and you can motivate yourself... then that's AWESOME because you get to save lots and lots of money!

Sorry your day is off to a less than ideal start. Sounds like you have a very positive attitude in spite of it all, so no matter what you're going to have a great day. AND I know for sure you can get in a fantastic workout all on your own.

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CHICAT63 10/28/2010 11:15AM

    Excellent blog, you are like me I get bored very easily ! I am always doing things differently. Like this morning got to the gym at 06:00 no employee, got home did a HIIT workout on the treadmill and then steps-up on the basement stairs *lol*.

You know, PT should be one of your goals Esther you would be an excellent teacher, counsellor and trainer ! Something to think about it, I'm just saying !!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MRSSIBRAT 10/28/2010 10:29AM

    girl you are a superstar!! you kick butt!! be proud of yourself!!

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CALLIKIA 10/28/2010 10:11AM

    Sara - The great thing is, if you stick with what you know, with exercises you've done before or ones you've seen instructed or performed, you're pretty well off. Try to jump rope! I totally sucked 100%...I'll let you know how that goes in a month! *lol*

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CBRED1628 10/28/2010 10:08AM

  Wow! I'm gonna try it.

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BARBARAROSE54 10/28/2010 10:06AM

    emoticon blog.

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SARAWALKS 10/28/2010 10:05AM

    WOW! YES YES YES! I am nowhere near on your level here but I am the same when it comes to getting bored & I enjoy self-selecting what I will do and thinking about how it worked or didn't. Staying proactive in your own process, rather than taking directions from someone else, seems so much more creative to me. However, you have to have some knowledge to do this safely - and obviously you do!
I suck at jumping rope also. maybe I'll try it again...
After the morning from hell, I hope you have the evening from heaven! emoticon emoticon

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KARVY09 10/28/2010 9:57AM

    Love this! You absolutely can push yourself and be your own PT! Great advice here.

Sorry about your eye and the Zumba cancellation and other morning mishaps. I know you'll figure out a good workout for tonight.

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Annoyed

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Okay, so last night I had a meeting with the nutritionist. Sure, my fault for giving her the wrong time and having to miss part of Zumba, but I didn't expect to be in there for an HOUR and miss ALL of Zumba. I literally tried talking faster as she kept asking me questions.

She's afraid I'll get bored. I told her I'm working on that.
She's afraid I won't know what to substitute. I told her I'm working on that.
She's afraid I'll slip on the holidays. I told her that I'm not as worried because I already planned them out in my head.
She told me to call her if I needed anything.

That was it, basically. Now, don't get me wrong, she's great. Nice person. Thinks if SP is working for me to just keep using it. Nothing real negative to say. Gave me positive feedback. I just wish it hadn't taken an hour to do. By the time I left it was after 8pm and I didn't have the time or energy to do anything else on the machines. (Not to mention that I got hungry. You see, when I'm working out, I don't get hungry until about 30 minutes or so after I stop. So I can put in a 2 hour workout usually and be fine the whole time. But once I stop, it's time to eat. I've trained my body to expect that, and after 18 minutes on the elliptical I had to stop and go to this meeting and then it was all over for me.) *sigh* And I missed the Halloween version of Zumba that I've been looking forward to all month. Seriously, people. I want to CRY that I missed it! My 11 year old son was even up there enjoying it and I got NOTHING out of the night except a business card. I don't know if you've learned this about me yet, but I *hate* wasted time!

Whatever. Okay. Trying to move on. (But seriously, with TOM making me so emotional, missing Zumba feels like I just missed my son's big play on the football field or didn't make it to my husband's speech when he was accepting an award. Hate when TOM blows things up and, even though I can rationalize that THAT is what's happening, I'm still so mad I could spit. Not only did I miss Zumba last night - I missed it all week! Thursday got canceled and there's no Zumba toning this Friday. *screams and pulls out her hair*)

I know this is a completely ridiculous reaction but my blood feels like it's boiling over it. Stupi TOM.

On another note, I've decided that my HM training is O-V-E-R. It just doesn't make sense right now. What makes sense to me is calorie burn and losing weight. My body is working like a machine right now and I really need to hop on that burn and make it happen! Stupid 18 minutes of elliptical last night and a wasted night that could have been a HUGE calorie burner. GRRRR! Now all I have left this week is today, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I had BETTER make something happen! Serious!

Does anyone else get annoyed when they feel like they missed their workout?

It's not so much that I'm addicted to Zumba, but I've just finally started feeling like I'm fitting in in my class. People talk to me now. They notice when I'm missing. They tease me (like friends do) when I don't show up when I'm expected. I like feeling like I'm apart of something and I'm so mad at myself for screwing all that up by giving the wrong time to the nutritionist. (I really hoped the weather would cause her to not show up. *sigh*)

Okay, so I guess I'm starting today annoyed. I have to remember that there will be times that these tools will come in handy. There will be times when I need these people to tell me what's next. It's a GOOD thing to have these resources, even though it might feel like a bit of a waste of time right now. Plus, my meetings are done for now so I can move on and get back to what I know. Plus, plus, I'm going to be saving a ton of money in the long run.

Keep reminding me of that, okay?

On tap for tonight? ST is a MUST! Plus, I need to burn at LEAST 700 SP calories tonight. Maybe it's time for another round of my SIBCCT (Self-Induced Boot Camp Circuit Training)!

  
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ERIN4771 10/29/2010 10:12AM

    i'm with you on the hate missing a work out, especially when it's thru no fault of your own.....sorry chica....but hey, still got friday, saturday and sunday!!!! keep going!!!!

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BAYBELIEVER 10/28/2010 8:53AM

    I hate it when I have to miss a workout that I am planning to do! That is why sometimes I end up walking on the boardwalk in the dark. If I can't get to the pool before it closes I have to do something! And I hate that there are all these hundreds of women (a slight exaggeration) doing water aerobics and just me, lone me, swimming laps in the one lap lane. They make the water so choppy I feel like I am swimming in open water. But, I figure it probably ups my calorie burn! So, I can relate!

While it wasn't convenient, though, I do think it is great that you have the opportunity to meet with a nutritionist! Ideas from everywhere are a good thing!



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HARMONYBLUE 10/28/2010 12:20AM

    I literally broke down into tears when I had a last minute proposal request that required immediate attention and kept me from the once a week HipHop class I was already dressed for. I have told my boss when a call was running long (thank goodness she is a trusted friend) "I have to go for a run now before I scream." SO I totally get it and I had an annoying day too all by the way-all work related. Doesn't sound like you got a lot from the nutritionist. Are you planning on seeing her regularly.

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JLITT62 10/27/2010 3:11PM

    I remember once being stuck in horrible traffic and not able to get to my kickboxing workout. I called my husband, who told me to have some chocolate.

I don't want chocolate, I wailed, I want to go to my class!

Me, I said that? REALLY?

So yes, I can understand your frustration.

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CALLIKIA 10/27/2010 2:01PM

    FYI - the nutritionist was just looking for holes in my plan to see if there was anything she could help with. She's great and if I typed out the whole convo I'm sure most of you would agree.

Also - it wasn't so much me striving for perfection. The last few days haven't gone well and I finally felt good enough to workout again. Plus, Zumba is like the cherry on my sundae and it was the Halloween one too! *pout*

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BADASSBLONDIE 10/27/2010 1:57PM

    Man, I can relate to this 100%. I get SOOOO pissed about missing workouts, and I get SOOOOOO pissed during the TOM, and man when they're combined..... UGHHHHHH


*hugs*

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KITHKINCAID 10/27/2010 1:52PM

    I agree with ARCHIMEDES - sounds like a bit of an odd nutritionist appointment to me. They're supposed to give you ways NOT to slip up over the holidays. Did she tell you ANYTHING useful that you can fit into your life now?

Sorry you missed Halloween Zumba - yes, that's annoying. I do get annoyed if my schedule doesn't go as planned - BUT, we have to be flexible I guess - that's all part of learning how to live this new lifestyle.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/27/2010 1:45PM

    I think it's ok to feel annoyed... as long as you don't let perfectionism interfere with your progress. What you experienced last night is life... and life happens... and it's one night, not your entire existance. I have to remind myself that I am not always going to be able to work out the way I want/need, but I can do the best I can in the in between. I have set my focus to time in the gym vs. calories burned because I've never been able to consistently burn 500+... but then again, that's me. Whatever I can accomplish in an hour is what I want to accomplish because I can't go insane to get where I am going just to slow up and gain it back.

I am so sad you had to miss Halloween Zumba, maybe there is other classes in the community with a Halloween theme? Love you Esther.

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MEGSFITNESS 10/27/2010 12:29PM

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FLWRCHLD97 10/27/2010 12:10PM

    Yup, I feel your pain. I HATE wasting time (I value my time and feel it's precious, at least to me it is) and I do get annoyed when missing a workout. Especially if it's a workout I've been looking forward to or needing (sometimes it is like therapy to me).

So, you are not alone. Hang in there, you are doing great.

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HEATHER_TEACHAH 10/27/2010 12:07PM

    it's ok to be annoyed-- its reasonable since she was interrupting your ROUTINE! :) I totally vote for some SIBCCT!!!!! DO IT. I dare you to burn MORE than 700 calories :)

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ARCHIMEDESII 10/27/2010 10:16AM

    This strikes me as odd, but why is the nutritionist afraid that you'll slip up or that you'll get bored or that you won't know what foods to substitute ? That's not their concern, that's yours. It's their job to give you the tools you need to help you become a healthier you.

Do you know what this person's qualifications to be a nutritionist are ? Are they certified by the state ? If not, then I would take anything they say with a grain of salt. Most states require that a dietitian or nutrition be certified by the state. Thus the need for some caution because anyone can call themselves a nutritionist.

Honestly, it is not their job to be worried about whether or not the program will work for you. Their job is to find ways to help make the program work.

That really does seem odd to me. anyway.... I'm sorry that you missed your Halloween Zumba, but there is no need to fret. I'm sure there will be other great Zumba classes between now and Christmas.

Do I get annoyed if a miss the workout ? Depends on the reason I'm missing it. If I have family or work obligations, no. However, if it's for something stupid, then yes.
While I do like being on schedule, I also know there will be times when I need to go off schedule and that's okay.

Personally, you might consider checking out other nutritionist.

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SARAWALKS 10/27/2010 9:59AM

    Oh I SO feel your pain! emoticon I HATE meetings with a passion & an entire hour of NOTHING would fill me with intense disgust, even though I am SO LONG past TIM that I don't remember what it was like! emoticon
Not a zumba addict (YET) but I have realized that I am totally addicted to my cardio & I get quite upset if life keeps me away from it for several days or makes it hard to get a good session.
You're making incredible progress! Here's a cheer for you..EsTHER, EsTHER, EsTHER! yaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
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MRSSIBRAT 10/27/2010 9:56AM

    I know exactlyyyy how you feel! I get so crabby when I have to miss my workout over something I can't control!

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MAGPIE17 10/27/2010 9:49AM

    Oh, Esther, I hear you! I had an awesome plan for the week - Monday zumba, Tuesday yoga, Thursday run and ST, Saturday yoga... My zumba instructor wasn't there Monday, and I really don't like her sub, so no zumba; Tuesday morning found out my yoga studio's closed for the week, so no yoga Tuesday or Saturday...How much exercise have I gotten so far this week? A dog walk and raking on Sunday. That's it. I was so annoyed that I couldn't get my act together to do some other form of exercise Monday or Tuesday night.

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RACHELLY0724 10/27/2010 9:28AM

    I hear ya, but you know what, it's EXCELLENT that you feel this way - that you're so passionate and engaged in an exercise class that you get ticked for missing it! I think the nutritionist should give some credence to that, to your altered mindset and not cloud you with her own fears - you own this, and while I'm no expert, I don't think that worrying about what could happen a month or two months from now is going to help you - you're owning it one day at a time, one hour at a time, one calorie burned at a time.

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RUNTRILAUGH 10/27/2010 9:22AM

    ABSOLUTELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>But think of it this way, thats A GOOD THING that you feel the way you do! Consider the alternative, you could have felt annoyed that you missed a night of sitting on the couch, watching tv and gaining weight! OH WAIT, thats what I did! LOL

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READINESSISALL 10/27/2010 9:19AM

  I totally understand what you mean. There is nothing that bothers me more than wasted time! BUT I think you should be really proud of yourself for still getting that 18 minutes in. A lot of people would have let that meeting messing things up stop them from working out at all. At least you did SOMETHING. You're doing a great job of using and getting to know the resources available to you. That way, when the going gets tough, you know where and how to reach out. Keep up the great work! I love the idea of self induced boot camp circuit training! You go girl!

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GEORGIA_KAY 10/27/2010 9:16AM

    Reading in between the lines of you being seriously annoyed, I can also see that you are SERIOUSLY committed to losing weight, exercising and getting healthier. I think that's absolutely awesome!
I don't blame you for being annoyed. When we work so hard at something we set up these little rewards for ourselves (as we're supposed to do) and then when something happens to make us miss out on our well-deserved reward we feel cheated. Completely normal reaction. I think you did the only thing any rational human being could do. You blogged about it and got some of it out of your system. You'll start to feel better now :)
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MERAINA 10/27/2010 9:12AM

    I feel... just wrong when I miss a workout. Last night I went to bed WAY early... no workout. But I do feel better this morning!

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Fear of Expectations

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Yesterday I did nothing. I didn't eat according to my schedule. I didn't workout. I didn't even go to work. I didn't even Spark but for a few minutes. And while I felt that twinge of guilt every now and again, I shoved the guilt down and went about my business of laying on the couch watching movie after movie. Sure, I didn't feel so well (hello to another re-surge of the month and a half long TOM) but there wasn't any real reason I wasn't doing what I knew I should. I just kept thinking to myself that there will always be days like this, no matter the size I am or how "healthy" I'm thinking, there is bound to be days, every now and again, when all I want to do is lay on the couch and watch movies. And, every now and again, I'm going to give into that desire. (And I still stand by that - there will be days like that from time to time.) But as I went to bed my brain started asking those questions of myself that I've become so famous for....Why? The only answer I could come up with was a simple one - fear.

We're all afraid, and while I agree that there are innate fears that are built into us, I believe the majority of our fears are taught. "Don't touch the stove! It could be hot!" good Mommies teach us early. "Don't run out into the road, you could get run over!" Each time we're taught these lessons of fear, we're also taught that there will always be consequences to our actions, whether good or bad. We're taught, more than anything, to fear the consequences, to fear the failure that comes along with not doing what we have been taught we should. It can be something really important - "Don't stand too close to the cliff, you could fall!" or much less so, "Do your best in school and get good grades or you'll lose your privileges!" And as we struggle through this whole, "Eat right and exercise, or you might gain weight again!" it's not the action we're afraid of, it's the consequence. It's fear talking, and fear that motivates us to do well. Sure, there's the other side of the coin, the one that says that we do it all for the benefits or for the positive outcome we might achieve, but when the going gets tough, it's the fear that drives me.

So I knew I was afraid of something. Most of my bad eating habits and forms of anti-exercise rebellion are bred out of fear. But fear of what? It came to me in a sort of "DUH!" moment (this is the opposite of an "A HA!" moment, wherein we realize it's something we already knew) - fear of expectation.

Yep, you heard me right. And I know I'm not alone here. I'm afraid of what's expected of me. I've been getting such positive feedback lately that the little scared girl inside is afraid that she'll answer wrong on a test and lose her perfect 4.0 GPA. And then all these little monsters come out to feed on that fear and scare me further.

You see, the last time I felt these many expectations from those around me, I was in my senior year of college. Oh, don't laugh! It was just last year. I carried a 4.0 GPA throughout all 3 years of college, while working full-time and working part-time at the paper. I did it all. I was the president of two honor societies. I was top in my class. I was on track to bring up my poor transfer scores and graduate summa cum laude. I got great scores on my GRE (not on the GRE Lit test, though...that thing is insane!) so the expectation was that I would either get into a stellar grad school program or I would land a great job. I did what I was supposed to, I followed the formulas, I set myself apart from my peers by holding onto both the full-time and part-time jobs. I spread myself paper thin. And then I graduated and I realized that no matter how hard I might fight, I couldn't live up to everyone's expectations for me. I got scared early, but I stayed the course and finished with all my T's crossed and I's dotted. And then my world fell apart. Four schools applied to, four schools rejected me. Countless jobs applied to in months, very few bites, no offers. Today my old classmates will meet for a English Majors Luncheon and all I can think is that I failed. I failed myself and I failed them all.

Please know, I'm not going for a sympathy vote here, I'm just sorting this out in my head by putting it down in text. Because, you see, I've made a connection from those expectations to these. You all expect me to keep going the course (Lord knows I've got a long ways still to go), and people in my life expect to see more changes. I expect the most, really. And as we move from the "what ifs" to "in the next two years" talk of plans become expectations for what I'm supposed to accomplish. So what do I do? Instead of rising to the challenge, I get scared. Afraid of being rejected again. Afraid of putting all my ducks in a row, doing everything I'm supposed to, and then finding myself sitting in the corner, staring down my ducks and begging them to tell me why it didn't work. I said it. I'm scared.

Expectations are big, scary things. I used to shy away from them completely. I wouldn't tell people I was dieting or losing weight because I was afraid of what they'd expect from me. I never wanted to disappoint them. But when I started here, I made that vow with myself to be completely honest, to dare to set myself up and even, possibly, fail in front of all of you. I know how easy it is to stay hidden and never fail to meet anyone's expectations but your own, and while that might be safe, it's also disheartening. Because I'm missing out on the greatest tool for success -- support. So when I started here, I vowed to be honest - to share my triumphs and my failures, let the chips fall where they may. But that didn't mean that I vowed to never be scared by what was expected of me. In fact, I'm hoping, as I continue, I learn to work on this biggest fear of mine and attempt to overcome it.

Want to know what else I'm afraid of? 230. No, this time I'm not afraid I won't get there. It seems reasonable, actually. But as happy as I was to release a little of the expectations of myself in terms of weight-loss on Saturday when I heard that number, I also felt saddened. That's the best I've got? Do you mean to say I won't ever be "normal" according to a BMI scale? I'll never see ONE-derland? I'll never get to say that I'm lighter than my husband? Why must my fate always be to be fatter than my friends? I'm confused by it and saddened by the lack of expectation there. It sounds silly, and I know I don't have to stick to that number. I know that once I get there I can re-evaluate, but I'm scared. What if that's all there is for me? What if I get to 280 and then struggle for the last 50 pounds and then...that's it? What if I never get to shop in a regular sized store? What if people always see me as fat? What if I work so hard for so long and I'm still not at all happy with my body, my weight, my fitness ability?

So yes, there is fear. And fear is what kept me on the couch yesterday even though I COULD have moved. Even though I DID have the energy to go to the gym. Even though I COULD have put in my 10 hour shift at work. Momma said there'd be days like this, but I've got to work through the fear so that they become fewer and farther apart. And step one? Admitting it.

I'm scared. Of me. Of you. Of what is expected. Of what I may have to settle with. Yesterday I fed the fear. Today I'm starving it and confronting it head on.

  
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MEGSFITNESS 10/27/2010 12:20PM

    We've all felt that fear and while some of us choose to shove it in the closet for diagnosis another day (like me) some people confront it and get over it (like you).

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JLITT62 10/26/2010 7:12PM

    I have to admit I have been fearful more often than not in my life. But sometimes I do step outside my comfort zone -- the results are mixed -- sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes nothing to shout home about.

But here's the thing about worrying about tomorrow . . . you forget to live your life. It just all passes you by while you're so focused on something that might never arrive (kind of like hiding from the world watching movies, right?).

So rather than focus 20 steps down the road, try focusing just one step. And then take the next, and the next, and if you have to backtrack, all if proves is you're human.

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ATROTTIER 10/26/2010 6:28PM

    Nuff said my friend! Fear is a constant struggle - the struggle that you don't even realize you are fighting until it shows itself during the revolution - ok now i'm getting too wordy. All I'm saying is that I was hiding from fear so I didn't have to deal with expectations too! I didn't tell to many people about my goals and little by little I lost some weight, people started noticing and then the fear was there! I must NOT dissapoint these people, who cares if i dissapoint myself - WHY IS THIS??? It's so crazy that we think like this! I hope you at least enjoyed your relax day - you did nothing wrong and today is a new day! emoticon

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KITHKINCAID 10/26/2010 3:49PM

    Hey lady - WE don't expect anything of you except to be your wonderful self every day - which you are a rockstar at. YOU, on the other hand, expect a lot of yourself - but that's ok. You're allowed to expect great things of yourself. You're smart, you're powerful, you're a wonderful mother and wife - why shouldn't you expect big things from yourself?

I had to "break up" with my nutritionist because her and I didn't see eye to eye with my own expectation levels. She didn't want me to run. I'm running a 5K next weekend. She's given me varying answers about questions I've had concerning calorie levels. I've been following Spark's recommendations and doing just fine by myself. So - sometimes the pros are wrong. I think your trainer said 230 because she didn't want to overwhelm you with a number in the 100s. But I think you're QUITE capable of seeing and living in Onederland and you know it. The only person that matters here is YOU. So go ahead and set those goals high, and dream big because YOU KNOW you can do it!

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MAGPIE17 10/26/2010 2:33PM

    Hugs, girlie. You will go as far as you want to go, be it 300, 230, 280, 150....YOU will decide, and YOU will do the work to get there. We love you for you, not for expectations. We're here for you, and we'll cheer you on, but you won't disappoint. Promise!

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NACHOSMAMA 10/26/2010 2:25PM

    I think you've just articulated something that a lot of people struggle with but don't know how to describe. Thank you for shedding some light on this kind of immobilizing fear.

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RAVENSONG37 10/26/2010 1:59PM

    First, I have no expectations of you...I have hopes and a strong sense that you will be well...but you can't let me down. Just wanted you to know that. Secondly, that bit about getting to 230...that's just the first mega-goal. There's no saying that's where you have to stop if you don't want to...but imagine she had said, let's get you to 180 and 20% body fat or whatever....that woulda freaked the crap outta me if I heard it. No one can limit you but you babe. Just know that you will get where you are going because YOU want it. The only expectations that matter are yours.

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ERIN4771 10/26/2010 1:16PM

    fear is a funny thing, it can either push us past or push us back from something. the thing to try and remember is you are not perfect, and trying to be perfect is way to heavy a burden to carry.....keep being yourself esther, that's all you ever need to be, and all i ever expect from you.... emoticon

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BECKYB73 10/26/2010 11:53AM

    Regretably, opting for an English Major and not focusing on education, takes you right out of the "cookie cutter" career paths. Don't feel bad, I majored in History and Classic Cultures...WTF was I supposed to do with those two majors? I graduated 12 years ago, with a far less stellar GPA and for the first 10 or so years I really struggled to find a career path that resonated with me and afforded me real income and personal growth potential. Yeah, it was hard, yeah I was "stuck" in jobs that sucked the very soul from me. But somehow I made it through and you will too. Being scared is very human, but being paralyzed by it is not something I see you being able to stand very long. You will keep moving forward and eventually, you're going to find that job that sings to your soul (and you wallet) and then the road you took to get there is going to be full of milestones and events that make you even stronger in the end.
Incidentally, I found the right job a little over three years ago and I can tell you that I have not missed a day in a little over three years now. When you become engaged in your career, you'll be amazed at how hard it is to stay home from it. :)

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MAMADWARF 10/26/2010 11:30AM

    Thanks for the honesty, Esther. Really. I mean, I do not let myself even start thinking about that stuff because I have a crazy-ness in my head that I can make things happen if I think about them...lol. I therefore, try to just think about positive things and things that would benefit me but I think by doing that, I deny alot of stuff. You are brave, smart, motivated and honest. There are no limits for you. You have come so far and I know you are going to get where you want to be. You are also a brilliant writer. Thanks for letting us in.

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MAIA2011 10/26/2010 11:27AM

    Now I'm feeling guilty for expecting you to blow my mind everyday (which you always do)!

It is hard dealing with other's expectations as well as what we THINK other's expectations are of us. Since you have a history of exceeding expectations you probably have a different fear from me who has been underwhelming the world for most of my adult life. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your struggle. We've all got something!

What movies were you watching?

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RIGBY31 10/26/2010 11:09AM

    You are a brave, smart woman! Continue on your path and you will succeed. How could you not... you're doing all the right things physically, intellectually, emotionally. Just because you're challenging or doubting yourself doesn't mean you're on a downward spiral. Keep up the fight!!

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DOWNTOWNJEN 10/26/2010 11:04AM

    Your blogs really resonate with me - so thank you for posting them. I too am fearful of people's expectations and have been dealing with them in another arena of my life for a few months. This blog gave me some insight into what's going on with me mentally. THANK YOU for being honest. THANK YOU for writing about being afraid. Know that you are valued and loved for exactly who you are!
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RACHELLY0724 10/26/2010 11:01AM

    Excellent self analysis!

I think that we all struggle with that same fear - of putting hard effort in, having people see results and comment on them, and then reverting back to our old ways and failing. If so many people didn't suffer from, and get paralyzed by this same fear, the diet industry woudln't be as collosal as it is!

One of the things I love about Spark is the acceptance. I too am the fattest girl out of my friends, I look at them and just WISH I could be like that. They don't have to worry about the fear of taking up too much space in the backseat on a roadtrip, or not having the back seat seatbelt be long enough, or have to try and shuffle to the back of the picture as not to be the whale in front.

I constantly think, HOW did I let myself get this far? HOW? But we can't look back, we have to try (as hard as it may be) to look forward.

You truly are an inspiration - but do NOT ever feel as if you have to carry the world on your shoulders.

Much Love,
Rachel

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LOOKY-LOU 10/26/2010 10:37AM

    Fantastic blog.

It's great that you are able to sort this out...the mental side of all of this is definitely the hardest part!

I for one truly appreciate your honesty...and wish you only the very best on your journey to 230...and beyond!

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MRSSIBRAT 10/26/2010 10:30AM

    I feel this same way sometimes....I am afraid I will fail even though I know if I keep doing the same thing I can not fail...I think my mind is own worst enemy....

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 10/26/2010 10:29AM

    emoticon Praying today is a much better day and that fear takes a hike. That you are full of hope and optimism. That you are able to enjoy the journey and not focus too much on the end result. And most of all love how far you have come and really embrace the here and now. Thanks so much for sharing your heart. It touches so many areas in all of us.

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ROPEGEMALEX 10/26/2010 10:21AM

    When you are fear only change your mind and be strong, think "You are special, unique, and precious to God" wake up again and go on. emoticon

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HARMONYBLUE 10/26/2010 10:20AM

    Don't be afraid of failing. This isn't a place where anyone will reject you or expect more from you that you can do or be disappointed when you fall short of YOUR goals. This area of your life is not one that depends on appealing to a panel of judges for entrance or a manager for a job. it's just you and your body.

But about the job, you are a writer, right? Are you freelancing? If not, I would suggest it. A lot of publishers need freelancers right now and its much easier to slide into an open position (and they do open up) if you are already on radar. If you are not a writer...sorry...somewhere along the way I got the impression you were.

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Weigh-In Day

Sunday, October 24, 2010

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Weigh-in Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 348.0
Goal this Week: 346.0
Actual Weight: 344.8
Loss/Gain: -3.2
SP Total Loss: 71.4
Total Loss: 121.8

Okay, so yesterday didn't go so well food-wise. Around 4pm, I took Ethan down to the school for their Fall Festival. I was hoping we would avoid the food line, but around 5 or so he got hungry. The choices? Hot dogs, pizza, and nachos. None of that sounded anything like what I wanted...and the only thing I really wanted was a no-bake cookie. It would've been just fine if I would've stopped with the slice of zucchini bread and 1 no-bake cookie, but I ended up eating a total of: 1 1/2 slices of zucchini bread, 2 no-bake cookies, and a M&M chocolate chip cookie before the night was out. Not good! Not good at all! Okay, I'm letting it go and moving on.

Time to be serious about it again this week! I'm ready to set some goals!

emoticon Weight Goal: 342.8
emoticon 1800-2000 calories
emoticon Meals: Pan Chicken Parm with Whole Wheat Pasta, Chicken with Roasted Vegetables, Ground Chicken Tater Tot Casserole, Slow Cooker Pot Roasted with Mashed Potatoes
emoticonTraining Schedule this week: 2 miles Monday, 2 miles Wednesday, 3 miles Saturday
emoticon ST: Follow new ST plan set by PT 2 days this week, include 140 crunches, 24-30 regular push-ups, and 2 planks

Fitness Schedule:
Sunday - Rest Day
Monday - 2 mile training, Elliptical
Tuesday - Zumba, full ST
Wednesday - 2 mile Training, Elliptical
Thursday - Zumba, full ST
Friday - Tennis
Saturday - 3 mile training

We've been invited to a Halloween Party this Saturday, but haven't yet found a babysitter for the boys so I'm not sure we'll get to go. If we do get to go, I have no CLUE what to do for a costume. Everything I want to do I'm nervous about trying to do because I'm still too big to pull off most of the "sexy" costumes on the market today. I'm still quite nervous about it, but I'm not going to stress until after we talk to Hubs' uncle today to see if he's free to watch them. Hubs, on the other hand, has actually figured out what he wants to be and we spent about 10 bucks for his "costume" last night. (He wants to go as guy from The Crow. SEXAY!!)

Alright, I'm gonna go grab some breakfast. Ethan's got his big game today and I can already tell he's nervous. They have to beat the same team that BARELY beat them last week in order to make it to the semi-finals. I don't even know if he'll get a chance to play today, but he really wants his team to make it through today with a win. (He's also banking on this win so he can wear his football gear for Trick-or-Treat next Saturday. If they lose they'll have to turn in their gear and he'll be costumeless.)

  
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HEATHER_TEACHAH 10/26/2010 1:50PM

    congrats on the weigh-in!!!!! your progress is SO inspiring!! Your workout schedule looks like so much fun. I can't wait to join a gym when I get back to the US. I think I have hit my limit of home/outdoor exercising in Korea (ummm arctic winter is back here! yikes!)

great job!!!

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HARMONYBLUE 10/26/2010 10:13AM

    My best friends and I used to be total costume freaks as ADULTS. And we took all of our very plus sized friend along with us. A few things a plus sized girl can pull off very well. Anything renaissance (lots of flowy materials around the bottom and empire waisted with overflowing "assests" at the top). My friend actually duct taped her "girls" to make them more of an eye catcher LOL. A Corset. Lots of characters you can morph into with this-sorceress, villain...) and it takes inches off where they count. I always liked capes (vampire chick). Can't help you in the funny dept though. Worst case, wear you very best business attire and go as a serial killer...cause they look like everyone else. LOL

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RAVENSONG37 10/26/2010 9:57AM

    You can pull off any costume babe. I always like to be funny rather than sexy tho...we should brainstorm some ideas cuz I need a costume too!

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READINESSISALL 10/25/2010 9:41PM

  Congrats and awesome job!!! :) You are so incredibly consistent--it's so motivating. Keep up the great work!

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CANTONIO 10/25/2010 9:23PM

    Awesome job on the loss!

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MEGSFITNESS 10/25/2010 5:25PM

    1) You kicked butt at your MIL&FIL's house this weekend :D -- physically and mentally! Go you! When I helped my parents build their garage, I discovered that I actually LIKE working with concrete lol.. Class 5? Not so much.

2) The meeting with the PT woman sounds amusing. I can just hear her "WOW" and sometimes breathless "Wow..." It's how I was when I first started reading your blogs emoticon

3) Congrats on your weigh in!!! Now stop sabotaging yourself =P

4) Can you give me the recipe to your tater tot hot dish? It sounds tasty and I'd like a healthy tasty comfort food for fall.

5) Good luck to Ethan! I hope his team wins and that he has a good halloween :) ... speaking of which, you could make a toga out of a sheet and use a napkin ring for a brooch, do your make-up all crazy and go as a greek goddess. You could totally do it. In that era of famine, thin was -not- in and having some "meat on your bones" was a sign of wealth so you don't have to worry about not being sexy. You'd rock. I want to come over and do your hair and make up lol.

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FEARLESSFATLESS 10/25/2010 12:45PM

    Congrats on your loss!

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DETERMINED_SOUL 10/25/2010 10:38AM

    Great job! You are doing great.

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WATCHMEGO2 10/25/2010 9:58AM

    woot! woot! good job girl!

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KITHKINCAID 10/24/2010 8:05PM

    344.8!!!! YAHOO!!!! Congrats girl - you did it! And all that rock lifting must have helped for sure. So awesome!

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MAIA2011 10/24/2010 4:19PM

    Have fun with your costumes! The Crow is awesome!

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BARBARAROSE54 10/24/2010 2:33PM

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RIGBY31 10/24/2010 1:07PM

    Your weight loss is amazing, consistent. You inspire me ot stay the course!
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PHYL220 10/24/2010 10:34AM

    emoticon on the weight loss! Your doing emoticon! emoticon emoticon Have a great day! emoticon

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CHICAT63 10/24/2010 9:56AM

    Woohoo, you are definately going to be rocking it this week. Congrats on your loss this week ! As for a Halloween costume, with your imagination I am sure you can up with something. Best of luck to your son for his game !!!!!

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DOWNTOWNJEN 10/24/2010 9:52AM

    You are on a ROLL! That plateau must be nothing but a faded memory now!

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GUARDKITTY 10/24/2010 9:12AM

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