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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

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~*~ WTF??? Template for 9/28-10/3 ~*~
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* List everything you did for exercise since 9/20. You can list this as minutes, exercises, miles, DVDs- or everything, but list it all out right here:

- 2 Lunch Walk (35 minutes)
- 3 ST sessions
- 6 planks
- 78 push-ups
- 1 boxing session (15 minutes)
- 3 Zumba classes, including new Zumba toning
- 1 Treadmill "push it!" interval session
- 140 crunches
- 2 "Weight Loss" program session on elliptical
- 1 mini-jog across the street

* Because you were able to do all of that last week, what can you do between now and Sunday?

- 100 push-ups
- 200 crunches
- 2 boxing sessions
- 1 rowing sessions
- 1 LDW (long-distance walk)
- 1 C25k attempt
- 2 Zumba classes
- 2 elliptical sessions

* What is your rainy day (backup) plan?

- 30DS
- Walk with a hood/umbrella
- Hit the gym!

* How much time will you devote to exercise between now and Sunday?

- 8 hours minimum

Choose a power food for the week. Something you can use as a go-to healthy snack, or a meal that gives you lots of fuel.

- FRUIT!!!

*Repeat the ritual that you created for yourself last week. It's only consistent 'me time' if you do it every week consistently. Tell us what you are going to do for yourself this week.

- Okay, so my bath time did not work out as planned. This week I'm switching gears and trying something different. I'm going to spend at least 20 minutes outside, by myself, reflecting on my goals. I may hike up the hill for this one. I also want to get in a 20 minute photo session with my boys outside. It's fun for us to goof-off and play around with the camera, and while this isn't "me" time, the goof-off time with my boys fills my heart in a way that nothing else can.

* These are the 3 excuses I cannot use this week!
1. I'm too tired.
2. It's taking too long.
3. It's not enough/not working.

* Motivate me this week by reminding me that:
- Okay peeps, I'm not sure HOW to motivate me this week. Maybe tell me to stop thinking and start doing? Maybe tell me what you're doing so I feel like I have to hit my goals along with you? Just being there is also sometimes enough.

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So TOM is still hounding me and the cramps are here in full force = not fun. I slept for no less than 10-11 hours last night because of it. Hoping today will feel a little better because of the extra sleep. My body has just been WORE OUT!

So I didn't excercise last night because I was beyond pooped. I went home and hung out instead of going right to bed. *sigh* Well, all that's over! It's back to the gym tonight and I will make that time up somehow. That might mean double rounds on the machines tomorrow night. For tonight, it means more exercise FOLLOWING my regular Tuesday night Zumba class. I'm good with that. :)

So I had myself a pity party this weekend. Okay, enough of that! Time to move forward and let myself off the hook for whatever caused Sunday's gain. I certainly don't want a repeat of that weigh-in, so it's time to get cracking again!

So I decided last night that I'm trying something a little different, and that's calorie loading midday. I read a blog yesterday concerning a talk with a nutritionist in which she explained that midday is when our metabolisms work the best. That means small breakfast, big lunch, small dinner. I'm going to attempt to have a small snack after my workout tonight and nothing else. I'm also going to attempt to get to bed early. I started this morning by eating half a bagel instead of my normal full bagel, then I had some grapes when I got to work.

Here's the blog for anyone interested in reading it:
www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3667258


So I really, really, really need to remember to send out these two things today: my sister's birthday card and my insurance forms for the weight management program.

So, finally, I need to tell you one more thing. I want my freggies back! *lol* Let's be honest here, I've fallen off the "fresh food" bandwagon lately and my body has noticed. No more! I stocked up on pineapple, grapes, bananas, carrots, celery, peppers, potatoes, green beans, and even bought a pomegranate. When it doubt, I'll be reaching for these!

Hope you all have a lovely week. I have a job interview tomorrow with another agency for a job that will give us a bit more money, so WISH ME LUCK!

  
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ATROTTIER 9/28/2010 6:34PM

    GOOD LUCK ON THE JOB INTERVIEW!!! I love your plan as usual and I know what you mean about the freggies obsession...for a few days I want nothing to do with them and then last night all I wanted was a salad with lots of yummy and healthy stuff in them - it's funny what our bodies tell us! So a big lunch is the way to go huh! That does make sense, the farmer's diet! My grandparents ran a farm in Minnesota and they always had Dinner during the lunch hour and then what we would call lunch would be at our dinner time and they were in excellent health even into their old age!

My plan until Sunday is to do something active everyday - tenative plan is:
Tues (today) - start Week 6, Day 1 of C25K
Wed - Jazzercise for 60 mins
Thurs - Week 6, Day 2 of C25K
Fri - Jazzercise for 60 mins
Sat - my 2nd 5K for Children's Hospital in the early morning!
Sun - Week 6, Day 3 of C25K

We can do it girl!!! WHOO-HOO!!! emoticon

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AMBERHENLEY 9/28/2010 2:50PM

    I just recently had a pomegranate for the first time. I must say it was the best thing that I could have eaten at that time. It was one of those nights when I was feeling very munchie in front of the TV. It took me probably close to an hour to eat and I felt very satisfied afterward because I got to sit in front of the TV and eat it. If I would have went for something else to snack on it would have been gone in less than 5 minutes and I would have still wanted something more. I think I'm going to buy a lot more pomegranates!

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FLWRCHLD97 9/28/2010 2:33PM

    GOOD LUCK ON THE INTERVIEW TOMORROW emoticon. I hope it's a good deal for you and your family.

Let us know how the mid-day meals go, I'm very interested in that. I always though breakfast was supposed to be the large meal (even though I don't do that).

I also am wishing that TOM leaves soon, TOM is such a pain in the arse!

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MEGSFITNESS 9/28/2010 2:28PM

    Wishing you lots of luck!!!

Pomegranates are great fruits for snacking because they take so long to get all of arils out :) it really helps me when I just need something to do with my hands/mouth.

Thanks for posting the WTF template! I'm not on the official team and keep forgetting that I'm doing it =P

wtg!

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Weekend Update (with Pics) - Theme: Compassion

Monday, September 27, 2010

Well, as you all know, I had a bit of a rough weekend. My weekend usually starts on Friday and, as you can see from my blog from Saturday, I spent that day in a highly active state, which was not without its defaults (mainly, getting hurt). Here are my lovely bruises today from the fall on Friday. (Ugh, I can't believe I'm posting this. I *hate* my legs so...I apologize. Focus on the bruises! FOCUS!)


That top one, you can see, is right next to my inner knee. There's another on my calf. I have no real clue how these ended up here after that fall but, whatever. They don't hurt anymore but they look ROUGH! (They sure did hurt Saturday and Sunday!)


See my spotted leg? That's what hurts more than anything, even today!

SATURDAY:
The theme of the day - Rest, rest, rest...well, sorta! And ANIMAL FARM!

Saturday started off in pain. I struggle with soreness from my exercise most weeks, and I usually push through it and rarely even bother to mention it. But the pain this weekend was from HEAD to TOE! There was no working around it. I started to tease Hubs that I couldn't even do hand and foot exercises because of the pain in my second toe on the left foot as well as the soreness from twisting my ankle the day before, and because of my thumb, which has been really sore for weeks now. No clue why, btw. So I vowed to rest. And everyone confirmed it.

Ethan - (in a silly voice) "I'm here to serve you ma'am! Whatever you need, just yell and I'll get it!" *lol* By rest I didn't mean I couldn't move, just that I wasn't exercising. I explained that to him and he said, "Oh! Okay!" and then bopped away. Silly boy. Shane - "You've done enough. Just rest."

We did go to the grocery store before the OSU game and, without a list, I did an excellent job shopping. Most everything came from the produce department because I've really been craving fruits and veggies lately! I got green beans and peppers and a pineapple and grapes! YUM! By the time we were about to leave the boys all were hungry (and I was too) and the kids suggested buying these fish sandwiches that Krogers has. I've been craving a good fish sandwich so I figured - what the heck? It was crap. I took a bite to stop my stomach from causing a headache and then went home to make myself a turkey sandwich on wheat. (It even had cheese on it! EWW! I hate fish and cheese, it just doesn't seem right together!)

All of this later had to be taken back when we headed over to the football BBQ at the house of one of Ethan's teammates. See, there are sometimes warnings that come attached to invitations here in good 'ole WV. This one started out, "Is THAT your car? Do you have anything else?" *lol* The hill/driveway to the house was pretty much straight up in one spot. No way my girl Betty (our van) was going to make it up, especially because she needs a muffler touch up right now. Hubs' car would have definitely not made it up. Their solution was for us to park at the grandparents' place and give him a call so he could pick us up. No problem. Problem! *lol* No cell reception.

So what did we do? We hoofed it up the hill (the other lady who said she was going to have to try wouldn't even attempt it! *LOL*). I didn't think it was honestly going to be that hard since I'm in much better shape, but that hill was a PITA! Serious! I felt like I was still 466 pounds and couldn't walk. I nearly gagged trying to catch my breath. My feet were so slanted coming up the hill I thought I was simply going to slide back down! We made it up though and, thankfully, (a benefit to my fitness level) my breathing came back to normal before we got too close to anyone for them to hear me panting like a rabid dog! The bonus of living on top of a hill like that? A gorgeous setting! Up away from everything. It was beautiful.

And the best thing about their house was that it was beautifully hand-constructed (6 years and still not done, but what is done is absolutely breathtaking!).


This photo can not do it justice. Even inside was all wood, and one of those antler chandeliers too! It was beautiful! A true WV cabin!

Also, this property gives one the ability to house an entire zoo full of animals! Horses, two dogs, a turkey, two ducks, at least 1 chicken, and I have no clue what else they might've had inside!


(This pup reminded me of the little snippy puffball in The Dark Crystal.)


We had a great time, really. I kept updating everyone on various football scores (thank you ESPN ScoreCard app!) and we talked a lot about football and other random things. Let me say that I have a hard time making friends with parents of other kids. I often think they won't like me or something. Heck, it's the reason I have a difficult time making friends period. So Hubs and I have really been trying to attend all these football functions so that we can really get to know other people around us and feel a part of the group. Too often I feel like an outsider, not because of anything that they do, but because I'm too shy to butt in until I've been around them a while. (My fault, not theirs.) Most of them are great people.

As for food, I had a hot dog, on a bun, with mustard, and a half a cheeseburger. I ate about a tablespoon or two of baked beans and about a tablespoon of potato salad, with 4 cool ranch doritoes. To drink I had water and diet rite. (And had stomach problems again later - maybe Splenda and I no longer get along! Me and my old friend may have to part ways!) Hubs kept telling me to let go a little and just enjoy the food. He's been getting on me lately about taking it so seriously and kicking my own butt so bad. He's also been teasing me when I slip up instead of hounding me ...instead of "Are you sure you want that?" he says, "Yeah! Let's fatten you up!"

We had a wonderful time until Ethan starts yelling at another kid and I have to stop the screaming of, "Just freakin' leave me alone, Sam!" Come to find out, Sam hauled off and punched my son in the nose because he had something that Sam wanted. BTW...these kids are EIGHT!, not two. Stupid kid! Everyone got him ice and voiced to us how wrong it was to have happened, and then Sam disappeared for about 10 minutes only to resurface without ever apologizing. (That is NOT the way I would have handled the situation as a mother, I'm just saying!) Ethan was good, a little bump on the nose and a fun story to tell about how he was a victim of violence. *rolls eyes* Boys!

We left around 7pm or so. We wanted to get off the hill before it was dark and get home in time for the WVU game. (They ended up driving us down the hill so we didn't have to hoof it again.) Unfortunately, WVU lost to LSU. It was a tough game, a game of defenses, and their defense was just better than ours. *sigh* Hubs proceeded to make his greatest attempt at finishing off a 12-pack of Yuengling Black & Tan bottles while I fought with my straightening irons.


I won. (BTW - Another thing that's been stressing me about this whole scale issue is that I've been feeling and seeing myself as thinner in the past few weeks, but the scale isn't reflecting it so I start to doubt myself and my own perception.)

After the game it was off to bed for me while Hubs watched a UFC fight. (I grew up in a violent household so the idea of watching people beat the crap out of each other is not my idea of entertainment!)

SUNDAY
Theme of the day - ANGRY and bitter

I woke up to the disappointment of the scale. I then proceeded to eat my regular healthy breakfast, and, just out of spite, followed it with a couple bowls of cereal. For lunch - Kraft Mac N Cheese, which I had been craving since April but is a major no-no (I cannot resist eating and eating and eating of this horrible-for-me food so it stays in the back of the pantry. I won't even let the kids cook it unless I'm out of the house!). I didn't overeat it though since I had to share with both my boys. For dinner? Salmon with canned veggies. And then it started...

While the salmon was cooking I cut up a bunch of veggies - fresh green beans, 3 beautiful different colored bell peppers, red potatoes, onions - coated them in some olive oil, salt, pepper, and thyme and put them in the oven. I have a huge bowl of amazing roasted veggies in the fridge for the week! (Of course, I had to have a small bowl of them when they were done!)

After eating our salmon, of which I couldn't finish and gave to Ethan, I found mysel back in the kitchen mixing 1 lb of ground turkey with 1 lb of ground chicken for our Tator Tot Casserole. It's an easy fallback that everyone LOVES in the house! Never a complaint...except when I say there's no more! *lol* I cooked up a full double batch of the stuff and, while Dexter was on, portioned out a little for myself and portioned out the rest for the fridge. (I later went back and ate another serving of it.)

So all the while I'm both rebelling against my 2 pound gain and ignoring it. I felt like the whole "left hand doesn't know what the right hand is doing" thing was going on. It was weird...but I didn't feel stuffed or uncomfortable. Maybe I was hungry? *shrug*

I did end up cleaning a lot of the kitchen (Hubs even commented that it looked really good!) and then played football with the boy later, even though it was still sprinkling. So I did what I set out to do for the day, plus more. I didn't count or track a thing, and I don't intend to. To hell with it! One day of not killing myself over calorie counts and how much I burned. I needed one day!

Now I know this has been a long blog, but it was an emotional weekend and there's one more puzzle piece to add to it. Yesterday, after the business of everything, after the scale disappointment, after falling down, after feeling out of shape going up that hill, after all of it, I had a break down when I realized my son had used all the laundry detergent and didn't bother to tell me. (I wasn't even sure I had clean underwear for today! --- I did...ONE PAIR! PHEW!) I laid down in my bed and just started to cry. I had talked to Hubs earlier about the scale issue and he had hugged me and told me that it was okay, but I was still broken about everything that had been happening (plus, it's still TOM for crying out loud, and it's been over a week!). Hubs laid down beside me, pulled me into him, and told me that I was NOT a big, fat failure. He told me that I was amazing and that I would get there before I was 50 years old (*lol*). He told me that, no matter what, he was proud of me. And he thanked me for sharing all of the nonsense in my head with him instead of bottling it up like I normally do. I'm still working through the emotions, but I feel better today (other than lack of sleep because of a stupid cat) after really talking it all out (even some stuff I WON'T tell all of you...see I'm not always 100% raw and honest, I can't be!).

So, all in all, my theme for the weekend was summed up in that one word - compassion. Sometimes that's all we need. A sympathetic ear, and some compassion.

  
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CHANGINGMORGAN 9/27/2010 9:56PM

    If you think there's a difference - there's a difference! Sometimes the scale just likes to be stubborn!!! What a nice hubby you have to comfort you, my bf is not so hot on the supportive scale. He likes to think he is, but... crap will then come out of his mouth and I realize he has no conception or empathy for what it is to be anything other than skinny. So yay hubster for telling you you're beautiful and wonderful and thanking you for making a healthy change that involves him.

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CHICAT63 9/27/2010 9:26PM

    Oh, sorry about your mishap & bruises ! You did AWESOME with that hill. Thank you for sharing and do you know what you are not alone, I had a similar day yesterday very upsetting (will be blogging about it). I am joining you with the TOM scale gain, every month is like that I can go up 5 pounds. It will be definately gone and more by next week. Your husband is a great guy for being there for you, to support you. Love your new picture, you look vivacious !

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MENACE79 9/27/2010 9:04PM

    yeah, I do this too... the scale is always up when it's TOM, and I am always at my most emotionally fragile. Recipe for disaster... you are not alone, and it will happen again most likely. But before it does happen again, things will get much, MUCH better.

We all know the cycle. :)

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HARMONYBLUE 9/27/2010 6:21PM

    SO sorry to see those bruises and can totally sympathize with the frustration injury and that bane of my existence (the bathroom scale can bring) because I am the clumsiest person I know and because my scale is on a mission to detroy my self esteem right now. But I will not let it and neither will you! You had a busy weekend. You did a LOT. You made it up the hill and back down again. And the TOM will pass! Hand in:)

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KITHKINCAID 9/27/2010 6:04PM

    You look great! Arnica for those bruises lady - I swear by it. I fell off a ladder last year putting plastic up on my windows and I was bruised from ankle to hip on both legs. The arnica took the bruising down within a week and made the pain go away too.

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FLWRCHLD97 9/27/2010 4:10PM

    When TOM is in town, the hormones go all crazy!! I feel for you about the scale issue, but isn't that normal when TOM is in town (at least that's what I'm hoping, TOM is due to pay me a visit soon...and I'm dreading it!)?

You have an amazing family and you are a strong person. All you can do is take it one day at a time.

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MAIA2011 9/27/2010 3:23PM

    I'm not a stalker (LOL) I just subscribed to your blog because your posts are all really good and thought-provoking. You really went outside your comfort zone this weekend and you have the bruises to prove it. That's awesome! Your family sounds cute and supportive (except, of course, the laundry detergent episode).

One question, where the h^*( was that other kid's mom?

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BABBELINGBHELL 9/27/2010 3:04PM

    sweetie we all go through rough patches and have breakdowns or as i call them melt downs, but what do we do after said rough patch or melt down, get back up and face it again, why because we are stronger than one moment in time we are stronger than our emotions and whatever voices that lie inside of our heads have a choice they can either help us or take a hike because hindering doesnt work, we keep getting back up and coming back for more... what is a bruise or a cut other than a reminder that we live, we breathe, we heal... and we come back again and again and again for more

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MEGSFITNESS 9/27/2010 2:45PM

    Your hubs is so supportive... Hang on to that one, hun.

And, believe me, I read this whole blog, but I won't write you a novel. You know how I feel about 'cha :)

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_DASH_ 9/27/2010 2:43PM

    you look gorgeous in that photo, btw.

and this: "(BTW - Another thing that's been stressing me about this whole scale issue is that I've been feeling and seeing myself as thinner in the past few weeks, but the scale isn't reflecting it so I start to doubt myself and my own perception.) "


i have the SAME problem.
are you measuring your inches though? I've lost 35.25 inches total off my body since the end of January... even though I've "only" lost 30 or so pounds so far. I feel like also the activities i'm doing are redistributing my body fat so i look a lot different - but the numbers aren't like super impressive. maybe that's happening to you too? you progress is DEFINITELY noticeable to me too.



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MRSSIBRAT 9/27/2010 2:29PM

    girl you look totally amazing and beautiful!!

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MAMADWARF 9/27/2010 2:27PM

    Loved hearing about your weekend and seeing the pictures. Most of all, seeing you. You are really beautiful!!
I love that you walked up that hill!!! That is soo awesome and what a challenge. The bruises are brutal looking, man!!

I am most proud of you for pouring your heart out to your man, That is not always easy to do and he said just the right things. You got a winner there, MISSY!

Love your humor, strength and determination but mostly the honesty. You are aweomse. Jan

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4ANEWME2DAY 9/27/2010 1:51PM

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(Note: I love Yuengling Black & Tan, too. Only on very special occassions. I'm salivating now just thinking about drinking one. ~Sigh~)
On my status, I made a resolution to myself only to weigh every other day. Too many fluctuations. Not good for my psyche.
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Weigh-In Day

Sunday, September 26, 2010

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Weigh-in Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 352.2
This Week: 354.8
Loss/Gain: +2.6
SP Total Loss: 61.4
Total Loss: 111.8

Quote of the Day:
ďItís not who you are that holds you back, itís who you think youíre not.Ē

I could give you a million excuses for this gain. Well, I could try, but I'm not really to the point of understanding, yet.

Let's review last week's goals:

Weight Goal: 350
(Let's face it...I'd love for it to be 349.9 or lower! *lol*)
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Food Goals:
* Measure everything! emoticon
* Record/track everything! emoticon
* Find some time to make dinners. emoticon I did PRETTY well with this, honestly. There were a few nights where things went a little wonky, but beside my one Chinese dinner, everything was on track at least with my calorie goals.

Fitness Goals:
* Sunday - 2-3 mile walk emoticon
* Monday - 1-2 miles treadmill or elliptical, abs on reclining bench, full ST, push-ups, planks, cable machine for hips emoticon
* Tuesday - Zumba emoticon
* Wednesday - 2-3 miles treadmill or elliptical, ST, rowing emoticon except the rowing
* Thursday - Zumba emoticon
* Friday - 3-4 miles treadmill or elliptical, ST, boxing -- emoticon Okay, not really. I got about 2 miles on the elliptical, and ST, but I didn't do the boxing because I traded in Zumba toning
* Saturday - C25k attempt 4 with modifications emoticon I just had to take a rest day. Of course, my rest included hiking up a huge hill to get to the house where we were attending a BBQ.

Ultimate fitness goal - Calorie burn of 3000-4000 emoticon 4404+ burned

Other Goals
* Write at least 1 page a day for 4 work days. emoticon
* Use extra time for writing articles. emoticon
* Look for and apply to at least 2-5 jobs. emoticon (2)
* Make sure all forms are in for Weight Management program through insurance company. emoticon BAH! I need to send mine in tomorrow.

So, no, I'm not quite sure how I got this far off track this week. I'm hoping it's a fluke, but I had a mini-meltdown this morning. You know the kind. Where you think how much of a waste it is to be constantly kicking your own butt only to not being seeing any results. I'm getting no closer to my weight goals this week, I'm getting further away, even though I busted my own butt and have the bruises and soreness to show for it.

I have no words of wisdom today. I'm angry at the process. I'm angry at myself because I'm not sure what went so wrong, but I still wish I could change SOMETHING to make it right. *sigh* It's rainy and cold outside, and that really reflects my mood.

Whatever. Moving on.

emoticon Nutrition Goals:
* Continue tracking.
* Stay within 1600-1800 calories.
* Eat healthy meals. Make ahead where possible, or make quick dishes that work with the plan.

emoticon Fitness Goals:
* Sunday - Cleaning at least 30 minutes, play some football with Ethan when the rain lets up
* Monday - 2-3 miles on elliptical or treadmill, boxing, ST, core and abs
* Tuesday - Zumba
* Wednesday - 3-4 miles on elliptical or treadmill, rowing, ST, core and abs
* Thursday - Zumba
* Friday - 4-5 miles walking, elliptical, or treadmill, ST, core and abs, rowing/boxing
* Saturday - Play with the kids for exercise (we're thinking of picking up a couple tennis rackets and some balls to play around on the tennis court), C25k Attempt or a long walk with Logan

emoticon Other Goals:
* Take some pictures. This calms me.
* Blog every day, even when it isn't pretty.
* Keep up with my team challenges.
* End September with a BANG!
* Find and apply to a few more jobs.
* Create a new vision wall for Fall.

*sigh* On we go. I hope next week sees me in a better mood. Sorry for the blah today, but can you blame me? It's really hard to feel like you've done all you've can and you still fall short. I know it's not a new feeling. I know everyone feels this way from time to time, but it hurts so much to feel not good enough to reach the goals I've set for myself. It hurts so much to see my fitness level improving and yet not seeing the scale go in the correct direction. I'm still over 350 pounds...I still have SO much to do, SO far to go. A wasted week kills me because I want to be in those 24s by Christmas and I keep feeling my goal slipping though my fingers. No matter how much I realize how far I've come, this week I just keep thinking it's not far enough.

  
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FLWRCHLD97 9/27/2010 10:56AM

    You can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it....


...just repeat over and over!!!! You are awesome, keep up the good work, you have come so far already!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAMADWARF 9/26/2010 11:38PM

    You have lost a MASSIVE amount of weight! maybe you just need to level off and then you will drop again. I am SOOOO close to hitting my (mini) goal of 50 lbs... I really want to be there by tuesday which is my birthday but as long as I am there by 10/10/10 I will be ok. we just need to keep going and pat ourselves for the success we have had and the fact that we are doing this, every day, every meal, every minute. That is more than most people do, doll. You are really inspirational to me. You have lost the exact amount of weight that I set out to do so you are my hero. Carry on!

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AMBERHENLEY 9/26/2010 9:32PM

    It sounds like you are very active to me. From what your list says you only missed 2 days of exercise last week. Your body is probably building new muscles and muscles weigh more than fat. That could be the cause of your slight gain. Or PMS. Either way, you are doing awesome. Don't beat yourself up over 2 pounds. It's happened to me several times along the way. emoticon

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MEGSFITNESS 9/26/2010 9:31PM

    I bet, given your work outs, you'll definitely notice improvements in your arms and your abs. Yeah. YOU have abs! They're there! I know it! You can hold a plank for 30 seconds at 350 that I can't hold at 215. For serious. Ignore the scale for a weekend and focus on your non-scale victories.

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MAIA2011 9/26/2010 8:35PM

    I've been thinking about your blog all day. That sounds creepy LOL!

I hate the weigh-ins because they either send me into a tailspin shame spiral like the last six weeks when I couldn't even get on the scale or I feel victorious and get cocky and let my healthy habits slide all the next week. My gut response to your blog is you've lost well over a hundred pounds. YOU ROCK! Who cares if you are up this week?!? Obviously you have the mental fortitude to handle these things better than I do so I want to know your secret!

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HARMONYBLUE 9/26/2010 7:47PM

    I can totally understand your frustration but no matter long it take, we will get there. There is no time limit on getting healthy!

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MAGPIE17 9/26/2010 6:30PM

    It happens, but what's most important is that you keep going, Esther...I'm sure you'll see a loss next week!

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CHICAT63 9/26/2010 6:02PM

    Don't let this get you down Chica ! It happens, it happens to me quite often. It'a water gain, i.e.: Chinese will do that me. You will go out kicking in September. emoticon

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MRSSIBRAT 9/26/2010 4:58PM

    girl I know how you feel. I had the same thing this week. It's ok...it's a new week and we got this!!!

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X_NITSIRK 9/26/2010 4:29PM

    I'd be angry and blah too. It is super hard when you know you've been focused and your body throws yuor goals for the week out the window. Take the time you need to be angry about it and then make sure to look at exactly how far you've come.

You've lost 111.8 pounds - WOW - SUPER WOW. You are doing it - and you are doing awesome. You'll reach your goals because you work so hard - and have done so much!!

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TWEETS9401 9/26/2010 3:33PM

    Wow, your doing wonderful. You have lost a bunch of weight so far and it seems like you have a plan to keep it going. Well Done!

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KILA1228 9/26/2010 3:26PM

    Good luck on the goals this week!

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ROOTIHAUSMAN 9/26/2010 3:03PM

    Keep your head up. Take it one day at a time and do a little bit each day. You will be able to accomplish anything you set your mind too!

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Some Things I Would Have Never Done Before

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Yesterday I did something I likely wouldn't have been able to do before, a few things actually.

I picked Ethan up from school around 11:30pm. (Where I got a nice boost from his old teacher as she said not once, but twice, "You look good!") We headed over to Ravenswood to assist in the decorating of the C-Team's float for the Homecoming Parade. I hung signs and streamers and generally made myself the best asset I could be so that the boys and girls (Cheerleaders) would have a nice float to ride through the parade route in (on?).



At one point a parent wanted a red marker, which I knew Ethan had in his bookbag, so I headed back to the car to get it. No problem, right? Problem! My left foot found a small dip in the grass right in front of my van, my foot twisted and I fell down hard on my right knee. It hurt, but my pride made me pop right back up and pretend I was alright. I got back to the float and forgot about all the pain when I realized I had to help settle the kids and make sure they were occupied enough to not really realize that they had to sit there for a half hour before the parade was to start. Once they finally took off, I headed ahead of them to get some pictures as they headed down the parade route. It was an interesting parade.


I didn't quite get it, but there was a superhero theme throughout.


No, I don't know who Tyler is...


Okay, so that made me chuckle...


Supergirl...


He was big and beautiful, and looked great in his jersey! *lol*


Now THERE are our C-Team kids!

After the kids passed, I got in the car and headed to Wendy's to get more water. Ethan and I had both had a bottle of water each before the parade started, but sitting/standing in the sun so long made us even more thirsty. (The other kids were too. Next year remind me to pick up a huge pack of water from Wal-Mart for all the kids!) I picked up 4 more bottles of water and left 2 in the car while I headed to the next part of the parade route with the other two. It took me a while to figure out where Ethan was on the float, but once I realized he was on the other side, I realized I'd have to run through the parade to get to him. That's right, I jogged across the street and hurried to give him his bottle of water. (Later he said, "Mom! You were running!" *lol*)


He said a quick thanks and then was on his way.

After the parade was over, I had to rush back to the van and drive over to the practice field to pick up the boy. I stood around some more once they got back, and stripped down the rest of the signs and tape off the trailer. Once I was sure everything was taken care of, Ethan and I finally stopped by Taco Bell and then headed home. I ate and then took a nap. Why? Well because I still had to get to the gym later. I promised my instructor I'd do that Zumba Toning class, right?

I was a minute late for class, but thankfully there were 4 people there - enough for class! YAY! It's a short class, just 30 minutes, but I sweated much more than I even do in an hour long Zumba session! My shoulders are super sore today from that workout! *lol* I followed the 30 minutes with 2 30-second planks, 30 push-ups, 80 crunches, and then hopped on the elliptical for 20 minutes of a cross training session. My right elbow popped during my second set of push-ups. That didn't feel so good. *sigh* I stretched after, and then headed downstairs for some ST on the machines. I got to just the second machine and my knee popped. OW! I tried to continue but I had to cut it short. Every machine hurt my knee, even just the arm ones. I don't know why, really. It just did. So I stretched and left. I had done enough right? Right?

I mean, in one day I stood from noon until about 2:30pm, with just a couple sitting breaks in the car. I did a new class - Zumba toning. I did 20 minutes on the elliptical. I did all my crunches and push-ups and planks, so cutting short my ST session on the machines wasn't a total bad thing, right? RIGHT? *lol*

I took a bath last night too. It wasn't really relaxing at all. *sigh* Either way, I got to bed before midnight and woke up around 9am this morning. And this morning? SORE! All over! I'm thinking of just taking a rest day today. The scale has me down to 354 today, so at least it's going in the right direction. I don't think a rest day would do any harm...in fact, I'm thinking it might help me a lot! I'll drink lots of water and get some stuff down around the house without worrying about how many calories I'm burning. (Who am I kidding? I'll still worry!) But yesterday I did a lot of things I never could have or would have done before. I was with a bunch of kids for hours without worrying about what they'd think of me. I was on my feet most of the day. And I ran at one point! *lol* Small victories make it all worthwhile!

I hope you all have a great weekend! Do something you didn't think possible before! It worked for me...

  
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ATROTTIER 9/27/2010 6:14PM

    You sure had a rough one!!! But you made it through and still went to the gym!! you are my superhero! emoticon

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MEGSFITNESS 9/26/2010 9:27PM

    Gosh I'm tired just reading that! Your day was absolutely astounding!

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BECOMINGJAMI 9/25/2010 9:15PM

    Wow. That's incredible! I always have that habit too, when I fall... I pop back up, thinking that if I do it quickly enough, no one will notice. (*cough*)

In any case, I hope you enjoy your soreness! (To some extent, at least. Who really enjoys pain that much?) Your body is rebuilding itself to be stronger, and that means progress! Awesome, awesome job!

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HARMONYBLUE 9/25/2010 3:49PM

    Definitely sounds like you took a much more active role in the parade festivities than you might have before losing the weight. No sitting on the sidelines for you! And thank Zumba toning class sounds really cool.

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CHICAT63 9/25/2010 1:15PM

    What a great high energy day you had ! Zumba & Running plus all the rest. Take care & rest-up today.

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DOWNTOWNJEN 9/25/2010 12:26PM

    Girl - I got tired just reading all the stuff that you did!

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MAMADWARF 9/25/2010 12:15PM

    Well I definatly see the SuperHero theme here cause you are Wonder Woman right now!!I am very proud of you and all the changes that you have made (and running??? Come on! awesome!)

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MRSDOUGER07 9/25/2010 12:10PM

    You go girl! I snuck a peek at your page and WOW you are quite the motivator. Love the spunky additude!

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MAIA2011 9/25/2010 12:05PM

    That is so cool! A rest day is probably in order. I just read that your muscles build during the repair phase (you probably already know that! I'm a little slow)! Even though my scale movement is highly uneven I have been amazed all year at what I have been willing and able to do.

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_DASH_ 9/25/2010 12:01PM

    AMAZING STUFF!! it's always so nice to stop and realize hey! this wasn't me a couple months ago, years ago, whatever. feels sooo good!! keep it up esther - doing amazing stuff!

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SARAWALKS 9/25/2010 11:59AM

    What a GREAT DAY! Doing new stuff is what it's all about, pushing the envelope...but NOW be good to yourself, you need a little rest! emoticon emoticon

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KELI-RHODES 9/25/2010 11:50AM

    Wow, what a day! Go you!!!!! emoticon

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KELI-RHODES 9/25/2010 11:45AM

    Wow, what a day! Go you!!!!! emoticon

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PATTYKLAVER 9/25/2010 11:42AM

    I commend you on doing all that you did. I'm not sure if I could do that! I agree that you need a resting day; your body does need to recouperate a little. Good job!

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BTINTERNET 9/25/2010 11:39AM

    Wow! I'm tired just reading that! Definitely moving (literally) in the right direction - congrats!! emoticon

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99 Bottles of Water on the Wall & Learning to Deal

Friday, September 24, 2010

So I totally missed out on MEZZOANGEL's blog yesterday where she announced (and I started to sweat) that there are 100 days left of 2010. Well, today there are 99, so there! *lol* So it's time to re-evaluate my goals for this year and see what else I have yet to accomplish. Let's kick it into high gear and make these 99 days REALLY count!

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(from my front page)

- Lose 10 pounds. DONE (May 2, 2010)
- See the 300s again. DONE (398.4 May 9, 2010)
- Lose 20 pounds DONE (392.2 May 23, 2010)
- Lose 30 pounds DONE (386.0 June 20, 2010)
- Lose 40 pounds DONE (374.0 July 19, 2010)
- Down 50 pounds DONE (365.2 August 8, 2010)
- Under the 350s. (349.9)
- Down 75 pounds (341.6)
- Down 100 pounds (316.6)
- Reach the 200s. (299.9)
- Down 125 pounds (291.6)
- Down 150 pounds to 266.6. (time to set new goals! 200 down from highest weight)

I'm thinking that I can hit the next 2 goals before the end of the year. In fact, I'd like to be able to say that I lost 80 pounds in 2010. Totally doable by the end of the year! This past Sunday I weighed in at 352.2, so I just need to lose another 16 pounds in the next 99 days. I can TOTALLY do that! That would put me at 366.6. But, let's be completely honest. What I *really* want is to be down under 330 by Christmas so I can get myself a Wii Fit and fit on that balance board. That's an extra 6.3 pounds for the year.

Ultimate weight goal for the 99 days: Lose another 22.3 pounds.

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Now I didn't set fitness goals for the year. I started in April and the only goal was to take baby steps, just move and keep moving. I started out with walk breaks at work. I've now moved on to joining the gym. I workout nearly every single day, but it's been a taxing goal. 99 days is 14 weeks of the year, and i want to give myself 2 rest days a week which I can chose to take or not take.

Ultimate fitness goal for the 99 days: Workout 70 days.

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I didn't set nutrition goals for the year either, but lately I've been setting a goal to stay around 1600-1800 calories a day. Sometimes I go over, and I let that happen as long as I don't breach the SP calorie goals set for me. I know I've set my goals lower than SP did, but there are reasons for that. First of all, it's my safety net in case I miss-measure or forget to log something. I give myself a little room to play so that if I want to take a bite of a piece of pie and can't figure out how to log one bite, I know I have the calories to cover it. Also, I've tried eating SP's goals for me. When I tried in the beginning I was really struggling at night to make up what I didn't make in the day to hit my goals. And I felt stuffed and uncomfortable. Let's face it, hitting 2,000 calories is EASY when you're eating junk, but eating 2,000 calories of healthy, filling food is SO DIFFICULT! And, for me, I think that's what I'm supposed to be learning - that my body doesn't want to live on 2,000 calories of junk and seems better sustained and fuller when I eat 1800 calories of whole wheat and grains, fruits and veggies, and lean protein sources.

My ultimate nutrition goal for the 99 days: Stay around 1600-1800 calories. Only go over on a high exercise burn day, and do NOT go over SP's recommended ranges.

emoticon Holiday goals:

Okay, let's just put it out there. Holidays are really hard on diets. So much good food everywhere, and in a society where we've been taught that holidays are "free days" in which to pig out, it's hard to hold back when everyone around us is going in for a second helping. I *know* that Thanksgiving will be extra hard on me, because I'm already planning a trip up to my Mom's house. I've missed my huge extended family, and we potluck every Thanksgiving lunch, so there will be a ton of family favorites that I've waited all year to eat most years. Cheesy Potatoes, mashed potatoes, stuffing, pumpkin pie...they're all able to kill my calorie goals. But I've been playing it all out in my head (visualization - use it!) and I'm going to do the best i can on this day. I've never been much of a turkey person, but I think that's KEY in making sure I stay full and don't go back for seconds.

Halloween - I'm not worried. I'll steal 1 or 2 candies from the boys (they're pretty stingy! *lol*) but I think I can pass up the rest.

Thanksgiving - One plate. One pass. Get some turkey to start. Lay off the rolls. Enjoy some favorites. Follow your meal with a walk (our family always does this, so that's not a problem at all!).

Christmas - Not too worried here either. Might steal a cookie, but otherwise Christmas food isn't all that appealing to me. It's all about the presents instead, and I'm just going to enjoy the fun time with my boys and maybe sit back and have some Hot Cocoa with the boys.

So what will you do with your last 99 days of 2010??
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Finally, "learning to deal." Yesterday I drank a TON of water. Something like 12 glasses or more. i had two big cups of tea when my tummy started to hurt, and that really helped a lot. The end of the day was rough and I ended up eating a piece of fried chicken and some nasty food, just to get something in my stomach. Truth? I was under my SP calories and only a tiny bit over my own calories - even with half of a Kit Kat bar. Sorry, but TOM means chocolate, and I'm not fighting that any more...I'm just going to learn to fit it in.

I also worked out yesterday. I went to my Zumba class and it was really HI so that made me feel great. I also ended up promising my instructor that I'd come to her Zumba Toning class tonight...if she doesn't get 3 people, she can't have the class and won't get paid. She's in the process of planning a wedding, so I want to make sure she has as much moolah as possible for the big day! I just *can't* let her down. So I'll be at Zumba Toning tonight at 6pm.

Ooh, funny bit. The stretching they do at the end of Zumba just never seems enough to me, so I generally stay after and pull out a few more stretches. I usually do it in a quiet corner where no one can see, but last night I said "screw it" and just stayed right there and pulled out some Yoga moves. My Zumba instructor was talking to me and I didn't want to leave and be rude. She eventually looks over at me and I hear her say, "Hrm. I need some Yoga in my life." *lol* Yeah, it made me a little proud. ;)

Friday plan -
* Pick up Ethan from school in about an hour.
* Take him over to Ravenswood where I'll help decorate the parade float.
* At 1:30pm he'll ride on the Homecoming Parade Float for his football team.
* Come back to the house, eat, and then clean out the car - a serious detailing job!
* Plan out next week's menu.
* Zumba Toning and ST at 6pm.

What are you doing today? How are you learning to deal with the unexpected?

  
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THREEE 9/24/2010 3:01PM

    i love how well-thought out your plan is...

and 99 days is a GREAT place to get hold of myself and get in gear...

soooo emoticonfor the reminder and for your good example...

p.s. i don't think i've read a blog of yours that i did not enjoy or learn something from or give me pause to consider something...you do good work and i thank you for sharing your experience with us... emoticon

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FLWRCHLD97 9/24/2010 1:03PM

    Great blog, I need to make up my own goals for 2011 - I like that idea. I have a challenge starting tomorrow and that will bring me to the end of the year. I'm thinking that my end of the year goals will be meeting (and beating) my goals in the challenge!!!

I agree with what someone else said, you are gonna rock those 22.3 pounds!!!

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CHICAT63 9/24/2010 12:26PM

    Woohoo on your 100 days (or 99 day ) post !!! I did the same, have yourself a great day + weekend. Your holidays plan sound like mine I am not a dessert eater, wine drinker or high fats (I get sick *lol*). We can do this, you can do this Sista !!! emoticon

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_AIYANNA_ 9/24/2010 12:13PM

    I'm still at work and I just stole a couple of minutes to read your blog. Can't wait to go home and write a proper reply!!! i think the goals you have set for yourself are awesome and I know you're going to rock each one!!!!

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ATROTTIER 9/24/2010 12:06PM

    Great BLOG! My co-workers are doing a weight loss challenge b/c last week it was like exactly 15 weeks left of the year so their goal is to lose 15 pounds by the end of the year...I was thinking to myself, I wanna really lose 30 so we'll see! I'm going to jazzercise today after work and I just want to keep moving all weekend...I think just pumping up the exercise will help me reach my goals! I'm a little worried about the Holiday food, but my thing is that I love making baked holiday goods and sharing them with others so I don't have them in my house and I can grab one of something...dealing with the unexpected has been so much fun right??!! I just take each day as it comes and learn from every decision if possible!! HAPPY FRIDAY - HAVE FUN AT ZUMBA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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MEGSFITNESS 9/24/2010 10:46AM

    99 Days of Fitness in all, 99 Days of Health!
You take one down, you make yourself proud,
98 days of fitness in all..... emoticon

I love that you're going to be there for your Zumba instructor :) I've really been thinking about picking up a winter y membership so I can have the group classes again.

I forgot all about the fact that you were struggling with TOM this week =/ That damn bastard sabotages every chance he gets. That's okay, though, dust yourself off, lace up your sneakers and make it a good day :) you rock. emoticon

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BOGUSANNIE 9/24/2010 10:34AM

    great goals...met and other!

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MRSSIBRAT 9/24/2010 10:32AM

    girl you will rock those 22 pounds like nothing!!!

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COMPASSLOST1 9/24/2010 10:27AM

    Way to go! I posted a 100 days left blog too! I'm glad we are all rocking the end of the year! We are all going to do WONDERFULLY through the holidays! I love your goals, you are always so realistic, it's refreshing. Have a wonderful day!

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DOLPHINE35384 9/24/2010 10:15AM

    Congratulations on your the goals that you have accomplished. Good luck on your future goals.

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