Friday, August 13, 2010
First of all, TOM is here which means I'm cranky and bloated and the scale is being mean...I've decided to ignore it and just pretend like it's any other day/week. Plus, my internal clock woke me up this morning before 7am. I'm praying for a nap sometime today! *lol*
Yesterday - I did go to my Zumba class. We ended up with a sub who worked a 45 minute non-stop class. It was insanely hard!! After I survived it, I went and got on the rowing machine, because I promised myself I would. I set it for the smallest workout again - 2000m - and promised myself 15 minutes, finished or not. I had to take a few breaks (okay, a lot of them), but I finished the 2000m in 14:14.6! Felt good considering last time I couldn't finish and only got 8 minutes in on the same machine. Rowing is hard, and I love it! You work your entire body on this machine and, yet, you don't have to use your feet! (Bonus for the bruise where my blister was, which felt a little sore in Zumba!) Today my hips are SO SORE, as well as my legs and arms being just plain good sore. Fun!
Arriving home I was greeted with the smell of a yummy pot roast recipe in the crock pot. Yum! I ate 2 servings because I was just SOO hungry! (Probably not good, but still within my ranges.) It was the perfect evening until Hubs brought Ethan home from football practice and I learned that we have to be in Parkersburg on Saturday for his scrimmage at 8:30am!
ACK!! I have my 5 mile training walk scheduled for Saturday, and I thought I'd just get up super early in order to get it done before the game. Guess THAT isn't happening. We have to leave the house at 7:30am in order to get there on time, and it will take me at least an hour to make sure everyone and everything is ready. (Have to pack food.)
So I have a decision to make.
A) Do my walk that evening, after it cools down...and pray it actually does cool down.
B) Do the 5 miles today. (This is likely not going to happen. I rowed last night so I could have that day of recovery on my legs beforehand. GRR!)
C) Do it Sunday. (This seems like the most likely plan B, if A doesn't work out. I could technically switch my rest day from Sunday to Saturday, and I only have to do 2 miles on Monday.)
If you'll notice, NOT on this list is to not do it. I love my son and I will not miss his first game, even if it's not a in-season game! I will work around the complication but I cannot give up on my training. The most important thing about this 5 mile training is gauging whether I can attempt the 6.2 of the 10k. If I feel like I can survive 5 miles (with a few more weeks of training) I can go ahead and sign up. I have to sign up by either the 23rd or 25th of August and the only question on my mind right now is -- 5k or 10k? So I will do the training, I just have to work around the complications being put in my way.
It's kinda strange how much easier it gets to overcome the roadblocks along the way. It used to just defeat me, not it's put me into plan mode! Hope it stays that way!!
EDIT: P.S. My baby made first-string offense at the Left Guard position! I'm SO proud!!!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Yesterday was rough. Like super hard. Like beat your head against the wall and not care what happens hard. Okay, well not all of yesterday, but the evening workout anyway.
Truth is, I was tired. T-I-R-E-D. I yawned through my 10-hour work shift and could tell my body was craving more fuel throughout the day than normal. (It was trying to keep me going, trying to stay awake!) And even though my physical body was tired, my mind and spirit were wired and focused. With all the wonderful compliments I've been getting lately, here and "in the real world," it's hard to say sleep. It's hard not to keep pushing, even through the blah of tired. So at 5:55pm I changed into my gym clothes and 5 minutes later was headed out the door for home...I mean the gym.
There was no internal mental struggle to go to the gym. It's become such a habit that I don't even think about it. Go to work, go to the gym, go home. Nothing much changes from day to day (except weekends, of course). I got there, tied my laces up and headed upstairs for the treadmill. I had to wait a few minutes for the RIGHT treadmill (yes, I have a favorite treadmill *lol*) but I simply did a couple laps around the indoor track until I saw Sweaty Runner Boy get off.
I got on (and tried to avoid the mass amounts of boy sweat he left behind - EWW!) and settled in for a good 3 mile walk, as scheduled in my training for the week...and then 2 and a half minutes in (I kid you not) I was begging for mercy. I was tired. I didn't want to do it. My legs were moving and I felt physically fine, but I was just DONE for the night. And that's when the hard work started.
I have these mental battles with myself that usually go something like this:
Screw this! I'm too tired!
What the crap? Come on! You're not "tired," that's just an excuse.
Maybe...but so what? I've worked so hard, don't I deserve a break?
Sure you do! And you'll get one...on Sunday.
But I'm sick of walking, and I think my blister hurts.
Are you kidding me? Really?? Uh-oh.
Hey, wait! No it is not! It's uncomfortable, yes...but it's not hurting. You can still walk on it and just keep a mental eye on how it's doing.
But I just don't want to...*pout*
I know you don't. Sometimes walking is boring...and you forgot your book at home. I'll make you a deal though...
A deal? Ooh...what is it?
Don't think about 3 miles anymore. It's really okay if you can't do it today...you ARE tired. But just go as long as you can.
Okay...I guess that's alright...
*1.67 miles in*
OMG! It's SOOO hard! Why is it so hard?
Let's not think about "hard," let's figure out how to get through this for just a LITTLE bit longer, okay? I mean, you are halfway there already!
Yeah. Okay...you're right. So I guess when this thing cycles through the scan feature it equals about 2 one-hundredths of a mile.
That's good! Now let's just focus on getting to 1.69 then.
1.69....1.69....1.69....169...169...169... Phew! There it is! Okay, let's get to 1.71 then.
You can do this! Just get to 2 miles...that's all I ask of you today!
Okay. Two miles. Yes. I can do that!
*2 miles in*
Good job! Can you do any more?
3 miles and 59 minutes...my legs were definitely worked out and while I still didn't feel great about the walk, I had done it. I could give myself a sticker later. And even though I knew I was supposed to row for 15 minutes after, I knew my body couldn't do it. I went through the same reasoning and realized it was a reason, not an excuse. So I opted out of rowing for the day and figured I'd either try to squeeze it in later this week, or I would just be happy with my 3 miles for the day. And because I knew it was ST night, and I didn't really want to do that either, I used my every-ready excuse-repellant:
If you don't do it tonight, you're just going to have to do it tomorrow...which will make your next day Saturday...the day of your 5 miles. Do you REALLY want to come to the gym after your 5 miler to do ST?....Uhm, no.
So I finished out with 60 crunches with the 4lb medicine ball and a full round of ST. And then I went home and ate and spent the rest of the night feeling strong, but still very tired.
I'm still very scared about my 5 miles on Saturday. I have to get up very early to do it because Ethan has a scrimmage all day in Parkersburg that day (still not sure of the time, but probably sometime after 11am at least), and because I can't complete this at the gym. The treadmills are set up for 60 minutes, because they don't want people hogging them for any longer than that...and I don't blame them! I would hate to see someone hogging MY treadmill for an hour and a half! Plus, I figure it's better for me to train for this road race by doing my long Saturday walks on...well, the road. (DUH!) I think the hills just about killed me last Saturday because I hadn't walked outside for a while.
So the plan is to map out the route using Spark's map route feature, and then check the satellite image so I can get an idea of where I should stop and turn around. I'm going to avoid the two major hills by the house, but other than that, it's on like Donkey Kong. I've decided that I will time myself only to see how long it took me, but I will not push myself to go super fast. The goal is endurance on Saturday, so I will simply remind myself to endure. If I need a break, I will take it. I will take some extra water with me to make sure I stay hydrated, and I will make sure that by the end of the 5 miles I can tell Hubs and the boys, "Mommy did it!"
Onwards and downwards (on the scale)!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Picture of the Day:
First of all, thank you to all of you for your outpouring of support and encouragement! It really means the world to me! I wish I could thank you all one by one, but ...well, I'd never get to the gym if I tried that! (We can't have that happening, now can we?)
This week has gone pretty well. The foot blister is healing well and I've been able to do my exercises on it. The elliptical is a bit of a pain, but otherwise we're good.
Last night I opted for a quicker workout than what I had planned, but for good reason. That little boy up there at the top? Yeah, that's my youngest son, Ethan. He was so bummed that I can't be at every practice, so when I found the opportunity yesterday to skip out of work a little early, I took it! I headed straight for the gym and instead of evening Zumba class (which doesn't start until 7pm), I just hopped on the elliptical and committed to do at least 30 minutes. It was a HARD 30 minutes on that blister, but I managed. I did my cool down around the indoor track, stretched and then rushed to the showers. Quick shower later, I was out the door and ready to surprise my boy! (His face positively LIT UP when he saw that I made it to practice!) I was able to watch the last half of the game and then take him out for pizza after. (Yes, I ate pizza...I had a low calorie day so I had the calories to do it. Still kinda wish I hadn't though! *lol* Oh, the mark of being a mother...you want to take the boy for pizza but you really just want a healthy dinner at home. And, in my case, you don't want to have to cook it! *lol*)
Tonight I'm here for the long haul. I'll be off at 6pm and should be at the gym by 6:50pm or so, depending on traffic. I've got at least an hour and a half tonight at the gym as I have planned an "easy" (my program calls them ALL easy walks...stupid liar!) 3 mile training walk, followed by 15 minutes on the rowing machine, and then a full set of ST. I recently added the leg machines to my ST routine to help the knee a little more. So far, so good! Once I feel like this latest increase in weight is too easy I'll start doing multiple sets before moving up in weight again. (Already lifting 50-80 on some of the lower body and ab machines, doing 30-40 on the arms.)
Just have to butt in (on myself) to mention that Hubs has been absolutely wonderful. Sure, there *MAY* have been a joke on Saturday about husbands packing lunches for their wives, but I never expected him to take it to heart. Yesterday he handed me a container of chili for my lunch. Today he made me a yummy healthy sandwich! He also made me breakfast BOTH mornings! (Sorry, girls...he's mine!)
Eating has been good lately (except for the pizza, of course). I've been adding back some more fruit and have been honestly craving veggies lately! I have 3 more gigantor zucchinis waiting for me at home, so I think this weekend I WILL be finding a great (healthy) zucchini bread recipe. And maybe get Hubs to make his, "Oops, I Forgot the Eggplant! Zucchini Soup" again. (If he can remember how!! *lol*) SOO good!
I have noticed that this week's lesson seems to be about learning to juggle. I had one coworker comment on how amazing I look, and another ask me why I've been ignoring her just today! I've been given additional responsibilities at work, added to football practice (a scrimmage this Saturday and then games start next weekend), and school coming up, in addition to the 10k training I'm doing right now... I told the first coworker thank you and the second that I'm overwhelmed recently. I'm trying to be present, consistent and adapt to changes as they come, but it's been a struggle to make sure all of my relationships remain 100%. (And, let's face it...my family comes first!)
Learning...still learning...always learning...
Events I'm interested in right now:
9/4/10 - Charleston Distance Run - Charleston, WV - 10k Walk
10/2/10 - The Barkcamp Race - Bethesda, OH - 5 Mile Trail Challenge
10/10/10 - Dayton River Corridor Classic - Dayton, OH - 5k Walk*
10/16/10 - Auggie's 5k - Wheeling, OH - 5k Walk**
11/13/10 - Nick Caldwell Memorial - St. Albans, WV - 5k Run***
*A 5k with my Momma! (SNOWFLAKE57)
**Great cause! (SPCA)
**Need to see if there's a walk division for the 5k. Another great cause!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
So this little tidbit got tacked onto my race recap, only because they both happened in the same weekend....
Sunday was Weigh-In Day
Highest Weight: 466.6
SP Starting Weight: 416.2
Last Week: 369.2
Goal This Week: 366.0
Weight Loss This Week: 4 pounds!
Total Weight Loss with SP: 51 pounds!!
Total Overall Weight Loss: 101.4 pounds!!!
So, finally, I'm going to give you:
51 Things Spark Taught Me
1. Honesty is refreshing.
2. People on the same path need your support as much as you need theirs.
3. Every day is a chance to make a better life for yourself!
4. Finding opportunities to eat right and exercise are never as hard as we make them out to be in the beginning.
5. Excuses are evil... and can be overcome or ignored.
6. It's important to recognize reasons from excuses. Injuries can hinder the long-term, and reasons talk you out of pushing them. Excuses? See #5.
7. "If I can do it, you can!" may be corny, but it's true!
8. The human body is astounding in its ability to heal and survive!
9. Even a 400-pound woman (who is now 365 pounds, thank you) can become an athlete.
10. Everyone's level of exercise is, and always will be different. I may never compete in a triathlon, and I might, I'll never know until I try...and I'm okay if I don't.
11. If it ain't broke, don't try to fix it.
12. Plans are great, but flexibility endures!
13. When in doubt, take a walk. Just go! Move! Even for 10 minutes!
14. You can do anything for 5 minutes...and eventually for 5 minutes more.
15. Increasing your exercise and "switching it up" are so important to keep things interesting. I'm hardly ever bored, and when I am, I switch it up again.
16. You can be your own personal trainer. The internet and Spark are amazing tools!
17. Always talk to your doctor, because you never know what kind of support, encouragement, and advice you're going to get from him/her.
18. You can eat anything you want, just not every day and not as much as you want.
19. That swelling in your ankles comes from salt. Salt may taste good, but other things taste better!
20. Switch out your Morton's salt for cracked sea salt, better taste and you use less!! YUM!
21. Learn to cook vegetables. Whatever your veggie, keep them on hand at all times. (I'm jonesing today cuz Hubs packed lunch and forgot a veggie! EEP!)
22. Balance means something! Balance your meals, your workouts, and your life for a better chance at success!
23. Having trouble staying on task? Set a month-long challenge, and keep starting it until you finish it. Exercise used to be a chore, until I did my 30 in 30...now it's become a habit! (Thanks SPUNKYDUCKY!)
24. Give what you take. Then again, give more.
25. Feel ignored and overlooked? What have you been looking at lately? Visit other pages and find some new friends...maybe someone out there needs more support than you do today.
26. Sometimes you have to say "can't"...but add a yet for now. (I can't run...yet. Maybe when my knees are stronger.) (Accepting this was super hard for me. I hate waiting for anything I want! *lol*)
27. Run, walk, or swim your own race.
28. If you're brave enough to try, start learning what the healthiest fattening options are at the local food joints. That way when things come up and someone wants a meal on the town to celebrate (or the kids just want to grab McDonald's) you can make the right choice in the moment and not feel overly guilty about it.
29. Moderation doesn't work for everyone, and not with everything. There are some things just better suited for special occasions, meaning a special trip to the store, than a regular seat in your freezer/pantry/fridge.
30. Fruit is a great dessert option!
31. Smoothies = yum! Top with some light cool whip and, well, see #30!
32. Sure, the journey is long, but if every week is something fun it doesn't seem like such a chore!
33. Setting goals is important...and HARD!
34. Fear of success is just silly. So is fear of failure. Healthy fear for safety is one thing, but fear of how others will view you is not your concern.
35. What's the saying, "I've never regretted a workout I did, only the ones I didn't do?" Not true. I've regretted a few in that I shouldn't have moved so fast, but I learned from every single one. I learn nothing from nothing.
36. It really is as simple as eat less, exercise more.
37. Drinking your water is KEY! A good week can be given or taken from my water intake.
38. You don't have to be skinny to go to the gym.
39. You will be questioned and stared at, but all by people who either don't understand or don't matter. Either explain and lead them to the light, or let them on their ignorant way.
40. A large shrinking body can look funny sometimes, but every rut is an area that was once a place where fat was and now no longer is. Rejoice in your divots!
41. You can't believe everything you read. Do research, make a reasonable judgement, and if it works for you keep doing it. If not, stop. If you still don't know, ask around.
42. Trying new foods = fun!
43. You don't have to follow "I've lost 50 pounds" with "I still have SO MUCH MORE to go."
44. You'll catch yourself doing #43 anyways.
45. Don't give up on those people who say, "I wish I could be thin" while eating a chocolate bar, unless they show you they are just not ready. Lead by example!
46. If you have a real craving, indulge. Try to do it on a day when you feel powerful. When I can logically think out how much I want of something vs. how many calories I have to spare, that's when I indulge...because I'M in control, not the craving!
47. Sparkies are great, especially in person!
48. Your blogs are for you and no one else. If they help others, great! Otherwise they are a tool to help you on your journey to discover who you are and what makes you tick.
49. Sweat will not kill you. (Though, yes, it will make your hair look like crap. But a skinny body with some jacked up frizzy hair will feel amazing, who cares about fly-aways when you feel strong and powerful? You will probably feel like you could kick anyone's butt who looked at you the wrong way anyhow!)
50. Admire yourself for a change!
51. Nothing, and I mean nothing, can take the place of the right frame of mind. Mental power is stronger than you could ever imagine!
*I'll add pictures later.*
Sunday, August 08, 2010
FYI - This is LONG!
Yesterday I had Hubs drive me two hours north to Wheeling so I could "compete" in the Debbie Green Memorial 5k. So here's how it all went down...
First of all, the number of people was astounding! I did some calculations using the race results and there were over 1200 finishers (both runners and walkers). I picked up my race packet and then headed to the car to drop it off before the race. On the way back, I stop to retie my shoe (tied it too loose after I put my chip on) and as I'm getting back up I see Hollynn (SPUNKYDUCKY) run right by me. I turn to Hubs with the biggest smile ever and say, "OMG! That's totally her! I KNOW it!" Turns out it took her a moment and soon enough her and her Hubs were turning around to say hello. We hugged like we'd known each other forever and then introduced our men.
Hollynn and I pre-race.
Reflecting on the race all the way home, it meant so much to me that not only was it my first race, but it was my first time meeting a fellow Sparkie (other than my Momma, of course). She was so sweet and her husband was amazing. Attentive, interested, funny. It was a great experience! She gave me a lot of advice about not only the upcoming race, but about future races and promised she would be there to watch me cross the finish line. We spent about an hour pre-race just chatting away, getting to know each other, sharing our experiences, and having a blast! I didn't even have a chance to get nervous before we parted ways so they could head up towards the front where the runners should be and I fell back to the walking crowd.
I loaded up my iPhone with the TIKI mix (Thanks so much STAYFOCUSEDASH!) with one addition to start me off - La Roux's Bulletproof. Before we had even started, the older gentleman at the parking lot said to me, "You walk your own race out there and don't push yourself to do what anyone else is doing." So I kept telling myself "Walk your own race." And then we were off (after a small delay due to a small house fire on the course! EEP!).
Ready to Race.
Sucks. Seriously dude. You're jammed in this huge crowd and you spend the first tenth of a mile or so trying not to step on people. Plus, they started us off with a friggin' huge hill. (WTF dude? *sigh*) Once we took the first turn people started to break up as the faster people headed ahead and the slower ones stayed back.
Like I said, it was hills like WOAH! First up half of it, then a flat patch to the right, then back up again, and up again, and then DOWN DOWN DOWN! I started noticing as we turned left after the downhill that my right foot was already getting a blister. "Oh, great!" I think. I also thought at this point of giving up. I was really starting to get frustrated with being passed by people who didn't seem to be having any trouble and I felt like even though I was keeping my steady pace that I was struggling more than usual. I thought, "I can just go home now...nobody has to know." But my Sparkie ahead of me would certainly know. And I would know. And then I put my arms back in the right position and pushed forward. "I don't care if I have a shoe full of blood at the end of this," I thought. "I am finishing. Period."
And then I take a left turn and I see one of those time clocks and it says 17 something and I think, "Holy crap! I'm going fast! Is that the mile marker?" Sure enough, I pass Ron Green (the race organizer and Debbie Green's brother) and he says, "Mile one! 18:10! Great job guys!" as I pass. 18:10? Okay...I'm doing great!!
By the time we got to the water station, I was so friggin' happy to see them! I didn't hydrate enough beforehand and was parched. I didn't get a lot in my mouth because I did NOT want to slow down...and dodging paper cups kinda blows. I thanked the little boy holding the cup and proceeding to spill half of the cup down the front of my shirt! *lol* I kept pushing through. I remembered that I had been working out to this playlist before and I knew what my pace should be. I figured I was right on if not a tiny bit ahead. It was a really, really hard mile. I kept searching for the mile marker and not seeing it. I was cursing everyone in my head...and then we walked down a street full of homes where people were outside watching the race.
Out of the corner of my eye I see this very large woman sitting on her stoop, and I see her look at me and suddenly she starts clapping and cheering...and I knew it was because of me. I knew because she kept watching me and cheering and it made me feel like perhaps I was inspiring someone...and that always makes me push through.
Around the corner I see a race worker and he says 1.3 miles left. You guys are doing great! We turn back around the block and I hear a girl behind me go, "Oh my God! Thank God we're not last...I thought we were!" I realized then that I was not last...and that made me feel a little better. And then I saw the time marker at the second mile marker. 34:10. What the crap dude? I start doing the math in my head and realize that I've done the past mile in 16 minutes! OH MY! I am MOVING! This is an excellent pace for me...the best I've ever done, and when I did it last at that pace I really thought I was going to die! But I still had something left in me...and then my blister popped.
The Third Mile:
Yeah, walking on the right foot was really starting to get to me. It hurt...it hurt a LOT. But I didn't care. I WOULD finish this race. It felt like it took forever. It was the longest mile of my life...and I kept going through the race course map in my head. When we took the next corner I realized that I was nearly there. I heard loud music and I knew that soon I'd be turning a corner to see the Finish line. I buckled down and got my second wind...and starting actually passing some people! *lol* I see the WesBanco building and realize we're almost there. And then I hear cheering! Off to the left are SPUNKYDUCKY and her husband cheering me on! LOUDLY! *lol*
I reached into myself and thought, "This is it...the final push." I could see the finish line and all I wanted was to cross it! I pumped my arms and legs up the final hill (WTF is up with the hills, dude? GRRRR!) and I pretend my foot is fine and after a bit I don't even really feel the pain anymore. And then I see that I'm about to cross that line and it says 57 something and I think...I've done it! I've done what I've come here to do.
And I pass the finish line panting like a dog on a 13 mile run. *lol* But I did it. And there's my Sparkie pulling me over to the water, cheering me on, telling me I've done amazing! (I only wish I could have seen her and her hubs cross that finish line.) "You did it!" she said. "You're done!" And I kept repeating that one word -- DONE...DONE.
Ron, Hollynn and I after our 5k!
So now for the final results:
471 661 28 Esther Hupp, 29*, Sandyville, WV 57:21 18:30
I was 661 out of 750 walkers.
I was 28th in my age class for women out of 34 (age 25-29).
My final time was 57:21 (though I'm not sure that's from when I crossed the finish line, but I'm not being picky).
And my pace time was 18:30...which is friggin' amazing for me!
So after I rehydrated with a couple bottles of water, we head down to watch the closing and (more importantly) see if we won the door prize trip to NYC! *lol* (We didn't win. :( ) There was a super long line for the free food for racers after, but it looked like nasty pasta, an icky salad soaked in some sort of oil, and pizza...and none of that looked a bit appetizing. Hollynn and Ron pulled out a big surprise when they brought out a cooler of yummy healthy food. *love* this! Totally stealing this idea for my next race! So instead we had turkey wraps and strawberries with our water. I just couldn't stop laughing -- this is a total Sparkie thing to do, bring your own food for after your race! *lol* So I snapped a picture...
Around 9:45pm, with the Hubs impatiently waiting to leave, I hobbled back to the car, changed out of my sweaty shirt and settled in for the long ride home only after checking on my foot. No blood...no real clue what happened, but it doesn't feel too good. Thankfully I brought the medicated bandaid and slapped one on immediately before heading home...then I lay back and let Hubs drive us the two hours home.
And for your viewing pleasure...or displeasure, actually...this is what my foot looked like when I got home.
Finally, because it's Sunday it's also Weigh-In Day.
Highest Weight: 466.6
SP Starting Weight: 416.2
Last Week: 369.2
Goal This Week: 366.0
Weight Loss This Week: 4 pounds!
Total Weight Loss with SP: 51 pounds!!
Total Overall Weight Loss: 101.4 pounds!!!
I did NOT expect this! Usually when I work out super hard it takes my body a week to catch up...but I did have that gain last week. So there it is...my 366...actually, I skipped that! Three hundred sixty five! Holy crap! I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself. I finished my first 5k. I've lost 100 pounds again and surpassed it. I've lost 51 pounds since April 18th, since starting SP! Ask me today and I'll tell you -- I totally rock!
Thank you Hubs!
Thank you Hollynn and Ron!
Thank you Spark Friends!
I can't WAIT to tell my kids when they come home here soon!!!
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