Saturday, August 07, 2010
"Debbie Green was a 7 year old girl from Benwood, WV. She was like every other little girl…she loved going to school, cheerleading, and playing with her friends. Debbie was loved by all who knew her. She enjoyed life to the fullest. In 1970, Debbie was diagnosed with leukemia. For two long years, she battled the disease with courage and determination. On February 10, 1972, friends from all over the Ohio Valley put on a benefit show for her, calling it “Debbie Green Day”, helping her during her difficult time. That day meant so much to Debbie and her family, but in less than 2 months, on April 4, 1972, Debbie lost her courageous battle with leukemia. Now, from tragedy comes triumph, and from sadness comes hope. Debbie’s memory lives on with this wonderful event which benefits local children who also suffer from leukemia and need our love and support, just like Debbie did 38 years ago."
Yesterday I struggled with the "why am I doing this" question. Hubs thinks that driving 2 hours to walk 3.1 miles is just plain silly. He's trying to be supportive, but he just doesn't get it. And I can't blame him for that. But this morning I posted a link to the race on Facebook and up pops Debbie Green's story...and it hit me. The outcome doesn't really matter for me. Why did I pay money to walk 3 miles? "Proceeds of the event will benefit a local recipient who suffers from leukemia."
This is for a fellow West Virginian. It's for someone who can't think about things like running/walking a 5k, 10k, HM, or Marathon...because their thoughts are focused on getting better, on surviving. They don't question whether living is important because the choice is literally life or death. And if my little bit of money helps them or their family even a little with hospital costs or living costs, then it's completely worth it. I need to remember that tonight...it's really not about me.
The motto or tagline of this race is simple -- Race for a reason. That's what I hope to do tonight. For the WVian suffering with lukemia, for my kids who believe I can do anything and never doubt me, for my husband who puts up with what I want even when he doesn't really understand, for people here on Spark who don't think they could ever walk a 5k, and for the child I was and the woman I want to be. (Okay, so it's a little about me.)
My clothes are in the dryer now. My iPhone is charging. My kids are getting ready to go up to Grandma's for a camping trip. Hubs is getting a little more sleep. I'm looking up directions and am about to print out my receipt so I make sure I have proof that I signed up and paid. And then we're off around 2:30pm. I'll post some pictures tomorrow for everyone. And, most of all, I'm not going to focus on the fact that the scale isn't budging and I'm getting a little frustrated by it. (I'll deal with that tomorrow.)
I'll be back tomorrow as a woman who has completed a 5k.
Friday, August 06, 2010
So I went to the gym today and made myself go through 30 minutes on the elliptical in order to earn my boxing time. This is a new activity for me so it's more like fun time than working out. I struggled through the first 20 minutes or so of those 30 minutes, but I earned my time and I put on my gloves and headed into the boxing room.
I don't really know what I'm doing. I just do whatever I want...that's why I have to earn it. But today I saw the speedbag there and I have always really wanted to learn how to work that silly thing.
First of all, it's the prettiest piece of equipment in there. It's red with black lining, and has a cute little white lacing up one side.
Second, I have no coordination, and I really want to be coordinated. I'm hoping I'm not to old to learn.
But the last time I tried to hit the speedbag, the thing popped right off the little ring it's hooked on, and I felt silly and inexperienced and ....like a bad little kid who was gonna break somebody's toy. But today, I didn't care. Today I reasoned that there was no one in the room with me. The gym was pretty quiet. I kept my headphones in and vowed to figure out how to hit the thing with some rhythm, even if it was REALLY slow.
After about 10 minutes I did find my rhythm. It was super fun to figure out where to hit the bag with my hand to get the right bounce back, where exactly I had to strike the bag (and where not to hit the bag...it popped off about 4 times as I tried to figure it out, each time I learned something new), and when to hit the bag on the bounce back.
I kept thinking about how all of this is a learning process. What foods to eat when, what works for me as far as calories burned and calories consumed. It's all about the right combo, the right left right hit on the speedbag.
By the time I left the gym I felt renewed. I can still learn and I will continue to learn for the rest of my life.
I also felt something else...powerful.
Powerful is a great feeling. For the rest of my workout I kept on my handwrap gloves like they were my very own version of Wonder Woman bracelets. It was the big S on my chest that propelled me through 50 crunches with a medicine ball and a full set of strength training. I didn't want the power to end.
I finally took my gloves off during stretching and, you know what? I still felt powerful. You can't cut my hair and steal my strength...because it's within me. That power I feel is the confidence I have in my ability to learn and grow as a person.
No, the scale hasn't moved in 2 days (which is weird because my weight never stays the exact same two days in a row), but my muscles are looking great. And I feel so much stronger than I ever have.
I hope I feel powerful again tomorrow at the 5k. I don't have any worries about doing 3 miles, but I feel....unsupported by family and friends right now (not my Sparkies though! Feeling the love there!). Hubs doesn't want to make the drive. I don't think he sees the point of driving 2 hours so I can walk 3 miles when I can walk out the door and walk 3 miles down the street. And I can't seem to find a way to explain it to him. I just need this. I'm chasing that powerful feeling. I'm chasing the high of confidence. (And maybe I worry that I won't get that high...and I'm scared that I feel the need for it...)
But whether I go alone or Hubs comes with me, I will go tomorrow. And I will do it up right. I will wear the right clothes and put my star headband on, and put my arms in the right position, and push my legs to do their best for me. And when I'm done...I'll be done...and then I'll try to gauge how I feel...
I'd love to end this on a high, but all I feel like doing is .... *shrug*
Thursday, August 05, 2010
So yesterday was brilliant. Seriously. I had a good day at work, followed by a great time at the gym and then blissfully quiet evening with the Hubs.
I ended up doing 3.06 miles in 60 minutes on the treadmill (after a warm-up on the indoor track) and then did 5 or 6 minutes of cool down on the indoor track. About mile 2.5 I hit that wall and thought I'd die, and then I pushed through and felt like I was flying! I *love* that feeling! Following that performance, I'm not too too worried about Saturday (except for the weather because it's been storming like crazy here in WV!).
Weird Gym Story:
So last night I'm reading my book on the treadmill, doing a solid 3.1 pace and I feel good. And then this guy comes up and gets on the machine next to me. He sticks in his headphones and gets a steady walk going before upping to a run and doing a few intervals. I think nothing of it. And then the guy starts talking, and singing, and muttering under his breath. I mean, I couldn't understand everything he was saying, it was just super annoying. Half the time he's mumbling the words to a song (I assume) and the other times he's telling himself "Come on!" and "Let's go!" I honestly think that unless you're relatively alone in your part of the gym you should keep these pep talks to yourself. Sure, I've slipped every now and again, but not for like 20 minutes straight! I nearly lost it when I thought I overheard him say, "Ow! My ball sack!" No lie.
Needless to say, I nearly hugged the next guy who didn't talk to himself at all and seemed relatively normal. Of course, I didn't want to seem abnormal so I kept that thought to myself.
After the gym I showered and put on the tight shorts (which won't be tight in a couple more weeks, mark my words!) and headed to dinner with the Hubs. Mexican. Chicken fajitas. Relatively healthy considering. I curbed my munch on the chips and salsa and drank a ton of water. Then Hubs decided we should go somewhere after dinner. Now in the near hickville town near our home, there is rarely anything open late other than the bar, and even they close early sometimes (and the other one, I learned, had no electricity because of the storms), so where we ended up was Wal-Mart. We walked around leisurely for an hour. We circled the entire store and looked at everything from batteries to tires to workout clothes (sports bras and socks and shirts in my basket, oh my!). I finally turned to him and said, "Hun? I'm exhausted. I think I need to go home now." And home we did. And in bed I did soon collapse.
Apparently I didn't sleep enough because I feel like poo on a stick right now. It took everything in me to get myself out of the bed this morning. I thought I was going to kill someone if they looked at me wrong, and then I just got giddy, and I've been there pretty much all day. And it's an ugly day. And I'm sore and tired. And I have to work 11 hours here and then another 3-4 at the paper. And all I want to do is crawl into a ball and snore and dream. And instead I ate 4 servings of honey roasted peanuts for a snack, which I bought on a tired shopping trip to CVS, which I went to in order to get cash out to give a co-worker for the ham and cheese sub she brought me back. Moral of the story? Esther needs more sleep. And Esther is using today as her rest day because if I tried to do a push-up I'd probably fall on the ground and wouldn't be able to get up.
---I'm jealous of this emoticon right now.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Have you noticed that even though I *try* to keep track of the week and day in my blog titles, sometimes they just get out of order? *lol* I swear I'm either trying to lose days or gain them. *shrug*
I've spent half the morning in plan mode doing this...
...and the other half getting pounded with work for this weekend. *growl*
Let's ignore the second part of that and go back to that purty picture up there. Ain't it nice? On that calendar (and the mini calendar that can fit in my wallet) are all the workouts I have planned between now and the end of the month (and a little extra). I *love* making calendars for myself and this one's been on my wall at work for the past year or so...
It used to have color coded the stuff I had from my 2 jobs, my school stuff, my extra-ciric. activities, the boys' school stuff, and any family stuff we had planned. (See..there was a definite need to organize!) Now it only holds my work stuff, my workout stuff, and anything we're doing as a family. It looks much prettier!
But I decided that this wasn't enough because I got all sciency this morning (which I never do) and that led to me figuring out certain days to do certain exercises. Truth is, when I started I was only really walking and doing Yoga. Since then I have gradually added new things in because I never, ever want to be bored with my workout routine. So I added things like Zumba, the elliptical, rowing, the stationary rowing machine, hiking, and now boxing. And next week I'm going to hop on those bikes I've been eyeing at the gym too! *lol*
So because my head goes into a gym full of options and can't figure out what to do each day, I decided to organize myself. This week looks like this:
Monday - 2 mile training (45minutes), boxing (15m), full ST
Tuesday - 10 minute walk, 11 minute walk, Zumba (50m), boxing (10m)
Wednesday - 3 mile training (60m), full ST
Thursday - 35m walk at lunch
Friday - elliptical (30m), punching bag/boxing (15m)
Saturday - RACE DAY! Debbie Green Memorial 5k Walk
I then figured out how many calories a day I would burn and how many each week (which I want to be over 3500/wk). If I do the right things I can easily meet this goal.
Now what, praytell, was the reason for all this? Well, I started to notice yesterday and the day before that I'm getting hungry more often and for more food and certain types of food (usually carbs and protein). I thought maybe it was just a "hungry" day (we all have those right?) until I got like 2-3 in a row and I KNEW it was actual hunger pains. I realized that I may be burning too much and not putting enough in to fuel me. So I got all sciency and organize-y. What I realized? Yeah, my body needs more fuel. Period.
So now I have scheduled my training miles, my Zumba classes, my work lunch walks, my bouts with the punching bag, my battles with the rowing machine, and my rides with the bike...I even scheduled in heavy cleaning as exercise EVERY WEEK to make sure I do it! *lol* And then I bought some stickers, cuz Cheryl and some of my other SparkFriends like stickers to give them a visual boost for a job well done.
A few things following this creative endeavor:
1 - For those of you runners/walkers/racers - what do you normally do the day before race day? Do you do a normal routine? Do you back off? Do you take a full on rest day? What about the day AFTER the race?
2 - What are THE BEST foods pre and post workout. I know about carb loading and protein recovery, but I need some foods I can put on a list and then just grab without thinking.
3 - How soon before a workout do you typically eat? I had one day last week when I knew I ate my snack WAY too soon (like 2:30pm) and I didn't get to Zumba until 7pm and my stomach was P.O.ed at me!!
4 - What do you eat before your race, and how long before? After?
5 - Okay, this 10k looming is freaking me out! I went from 2 - 2 - 3 mile training weeks and then this week its supposed to be 2 - 3 - 4...but I won't get to do the 4 because that's my 5k race day. Next week, then, is 2 - 3 - 5. Am I going to die skipping that 4 mile training?? Should I just walk myself back to the starting line or work something like that out after my race (I really don't want to do that...I just want to enjoy the day!)
...........and now for something completely different:
A picture of me and Hubs last year at my step-brother's graduation. Wow, how things have changed!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
AB is midway (I think) through our TIKI challenge (July-August).
TIKI CHALLENGE CHECKIN 8/2-8/7
I know I rocked the TIKI Challenge in July because I lost 10 pounds and even when I felt like giving up, I got back up on that horse.
I pushed myself in my cardio sessions by reminding myself that the time I put into it is equal to what I get out of it.
I grew in my strength sessions by hitting the gym equipment and really working those muscles! (And they're starting to show!!)
I stretched myself in my flexibility sessions by reminding myself that stretching is a vital part of the process, not merely an afterthought.
I pampered myself on my rest days by enjoying much needed time with my family.
This week's cardio workouts are going to be inspired by MY SATURDAY 5K!
This week's strength workouts are going to be inspired by SEXAY PINK BOXING HANDWRAP GLOVES! HOT!
This week's flexibility workouts are going to be inspired by THE AB AMAZON LADIES, WHO REMIND ME TO REEEACH!
This week's rest time is going to be inspired by ACTIVE REST - MAKING SURE THAT REST TIME IS NOT SIT ON YOUR BUTT TIME, AT LEAST NOT ALL THE TIME.
I'm overhauling the parts of my diet that need it this week. -- I'll work on making sure to rebalance my meals and get the most out of my workouts by fueling and refueling with the right foods!
AUGUST SPECIAL CHALLENGE BONUS #1
For 5 days I am going to do my very best to see what it would be like to feel my body running on good fuel only. If I was a brand new car, I wouldn't fill myself up with crap. So I am going to spend 5 days making sure that I only put good stuff in me. I can do 5 days. I want to see what it feels like to run on the fuel I am supposed to be getting.
- Balanced meals with carb, protein, healthy fats and fruits and veggies, and good for me snack choices!
Tracking Food is going to be part of the TIKI Challenge for this week, and I know that Yoovie is going to be stopping by my page and checking my food diary.
- So remember that cheating at all is just cheating yourself out of the best you can get from this week!!
AUGUST SPECIAL CHALLENGE BONUS #1
The one thing that I am NOT going to do between now and midnight on Saturday is: TELL MYSELF "CAN'T" or CONVINCE MYSELF IT'S NOT WORTH IT -- IT IS SOOO WORTH IT!
My anthem on my mp3 player this week is going to be: She Wolf by Shakira! I'm totally letting myself out of my disguise.
Motivate me by: letting me know you're there and that you support me. The gym gets a little lonely sometimes...
In addition, I've become co-captain of the Awesome Adventurers team of the Biggest Loser End of Summer (BL-EOS) Challenge over at Team 300 lbs. Plus. I'm so excited to be taking on a leadership role. I know it will help me stay accountable as I look out for the rest of my team and make sure we're all on track as much as possible and making our own paths. I absolutely *love* that we're Adventurers, because I feel like this every week! I always want to try something new and different and make my own adventures, no matter how small they might be.
So for this week, the plan is simple: MAKE AN ADVENTURE OUT OF IT!
I started boxing last night. I just put on my new pretty pink handwrap gloves and started hiting the crap out of the bag. I felt strong and powerful! It didn't feel like much of a workout until I realized I had sweat pouring off me. I even got so into it a few times I high kicked the bag! *lol* I'm sitting there beating the crap out of this huge bag, going from one hanging bag to another, trying to duck and weave a bit like I've seen on the movies (*lol* I learn everything from TV and movies...oh, and the internet, because, yes, I did google "how to box" *lmao*). I'm sitting there looking at the crap quality of the boxing gloves they have and some kid walks in, says hello and puts on some gloves. I asked him if he does this all the time and he said, "Once or twice a week probably." And then he proceeds to just punch the crap out of the bag. I told him I was new and he didn't seem to think there was much more to do other than punch the bag and get out your anger. *lol* *shrug* It was FUN!!
My family and I have picked out 4 Geocaches to go find this month. One I wanted to do this past weekend but the boys were gone up to Grandma's. With the 5K this weekend, I'm not sure we'll get it in this weekend (hey! Maybe Friday!) but we will be hitting the park soon to try this new adventure. If you haven't heard of Geocaching, Google it and check it out. I signed up over at www.geocaching.com and can search for locations of caches near our house.
We're headed back to the lake! I looked it up and the lake is out of danger bacteria range, so we're ready to hit it up again for a few good swims before summer ends. The boys start school on the 20th, so we have a couple good weeks left to get some quality time in!
And the greatest adventure I have planned for August? Well, that's easy! My 5k this weekend! It's a strange start time (7pm), but I'm excited that I'll be doing what I thought I might not be able to ever do before. And I'll have a bib and a chip time and all that crazy stuff to post on my blog! And pictures! I already told hubs he has to take tons of pictures for you guys!
(Oooh...final note. I found jean shorts yesterday! As many of you may have heard, my really baggy jean shorts have been driving me simply BATTY! I've been hunting for jean shorts at the stores but everyone is switching over to their fall lines and getting rid of their shorts. *growl* Anyhow, head over to Lane Bryant yesterday and they have a few sets of jean shorts left and ONE size 28! It's tight, but I'll take care of that in no time! I'm excited! Oh, and for those of your searching, they have all of their shorts and capris 50% off right now because they, too, are getting ready to put out their fall and winter lines. So if you haven't been, head over and pick up some stuff!)
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