Sunday, July 04, 2010
Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 383
Goal This Week: 381
Weight Lost This Week: 5 pounds
Total Weight Lost with SP: 38.2
Total Weight Lost overall: 88.6
This week has been a bit sporadic. I Zumbaed one day this week, and I really miss it. They canceled the class for yesterday because of 4th of July festivities. Still, I worked out every single day again. It's become almost second nature to me. One thing we've been doing is trying to walk the dog nearly every day. We missed yesterday due to time constraints, but we still walked at least a mile and a half, stood around for over an hour during the parade, and then walked some more in the evening to grab a better spot on the hill to watch Ripley's fireworks...from miles away! *lol*
Yes, I've been on autopilot. Still trying to make sure my meals all have protein, carbs, and some sort of fruit or vegetable. I have a similar breakfast every morning of an omelet, just because I know it works, it fills me up and lasts for a couple hours. Snacks have been smart. Yesterday I got home from the parade and ate a bunch of blueberries and strawberries. SO good! And then last night I had a little too much beer and some pizza. But I had eaten so conservatively all day that it didn't seem to hurt me much. I'm not touting that this is a way to lose weight...but letting your hair down every now and again is a good thing.
What I learned this week:
Movement is key. If I keep my feet moving I know I'm going in the right direction. Autopilot has been a goal of mine to learn, because I want to know that I can do this all the time. I'm not saying I will stay on autopilot, but it has been nice getting my feet under me and realizing that I know the tools that work. If I rely on these tools I have success. At the high weight I'm at now, there is still room for me to make a few mistakes and learn how to "autopilot" my life when needed. Once this weekend is over, it's back to plans...although I can't say I'll be on all week. This is going to be one of the most stressful weeks I've had in a long time, so I'm prepping myself for the added stress.
I'll add pics soon of my new haircut...but right now I'm waiting on my computer to be fixed by hubs. It's currently not picking up the internet connection through our wireless. SO frustrating! I never did find a black blazer, so I will go with what I have and make the most of it. *shrug* I can only do so much, you know? I sat staring into the fire last night thinking about New York and moving the family and how stupid I'm sure my MIL thinks I am. Everyone keeps saying "Yes, but your cost of living right now is so low." Sure, we don't pay rent or a mortgage, but we pay plenty of bills and I have to pay a buttload in gas to get to Charleston and back every friggin' day. Plus, I'm tired of doing this thankless job and I feel like I worked hard for something. I don't know if this is the right move, but I have to at least try. It's just an interview...decisions can be made later. Nothing is finalized.
So, yeah. That's what's weighing me down right now. That's why it's been so hard to stay here on task, writing out the same boring reflections that I have no answers for. I know I'll figure it out...I just need time. Until then, I'll continue to make the best possible choices I can and continue to move every day. I'm looking forward to my walk later with Joey. We walk about a mile and a half every day...and to think, I once nearly died (just months ago) trying to walk a mile. I may try two miles next time. I have it in me...even though the hills are painful on this route and the dairy farm smells to high heaven! *lol*
Keep on keepin' on. I'm sorry I haven't been around...I've just been spending much needed time with family, including Shane's aunt and cousin who are in from California. They come in one week a year and this is Christy week, so I'll be pretty caught up in family aspects for a few more days. Crazy, crazy week incoming. *sigh*
Saturday, July 03, 2010
It's been a long day already...and it's not over yet.
Just checking in, really. We walked down to watch the parade in town today. Over an hour of standing around...wasn't exactly the best time in the world, but the boys had fun collecting candy (while I collected water bottles).
After a nap, we're all headed up on the hill to the in-laws' cabin. The plan for the evening? Pizza. A keg of beer. Talking. That's about it. *lol* Not sure what's going on exactly yet...but I'm hoping for a good night. It'll be the first time I get to see the cabin done, so I'm excited about that.
I'll check in tomorrow after weigh-in (which I'm secretly dreading *lol*). I'm kinda on autopilot right now ...holiday weekend and all.
Happy 4th my Sparkers!
Friday, July 02, 2010
I'm enjoying the wonderful benefits of this weight loss, don't get me wrong. But there is one thing I just cannot seem to do. Squeeze my hips/stomach into a size 28. This is driving me C-R-A-Z-Y! Since April 18th, I have lost nearly 40 pounds and more than 18 inches. I have lost 6.5 inches alone in my hips, and 3 from my waist. But still...these damn size 30 pants! What's worse? They don't exactly stay up.
Every day I slip myself into my pants, wishing I had a smaller size. Every day I walk around with "droopy drawers" in the back and front of my pants from the weight loss. Every day I find myself pulling them back up. They rest on my hips and I can pull them down (even my "skinny" size 30 jeans from this summer) without undoing them. And still...those stupid size 28s keep mocking me. This seems absolutely stupid to me right now. I *should* be in 28s by now...at least SOME 28s. But I haven't found ONE PAIR that will fit my fat butt yet.
I have a 22/24 tank from Lane Bryant that I bought just a few weeks ago. I could've probably stood to get an 18/20. Now the 22/24 is just too big on me. So my top half has gone down considerably. In stretchy fabrics I'm looking around a 20-22. In the non-stretchy kind I'm down to a 26. I bought a size 28 blazer ...a BLAZER, mind you. This goes over another shirt...and I fit in the 28. I could even button the size 26, though it was a little too snug. Still...size 30 pants.
I know I shouldn't fret. I know, I know...I'm doing great so far and this NSV will come, eventually. But I can't help but be frustrated. I do know this is my body's natural nature. All through HS I work a size 22/24 pants with a size 18 top...or something like that. My top half is naturally smaller than my bottom half because I carry all my weight down there in huge thighs, big hips, and a very large stomach. Still, I can't help but be frustrated right now. "Maybe this month" I think...every month. Until then, I guess I'll keep pulling this stupid, stupid size 30 pants up.
Going to hit a few stores to look for that elusive black blazer today. Maybe I'll try another pair of size 28s...but I don't want to get upset again when they don't fit. *sigh*
All this being said...found a cute size 3x top (non-stretchy fabric and a cinched empire waist) yesterday at the 14 and up consignment shop yesterday. Also found a great find - a pair of size 11 shoes, black...modest heel...they fit and I'm thinking they might just be my NY shoes! WOOT! (I *never* find shoes there). 12 bucks each for both items...and the shirt still has a tag on it, so whoever bought it never wore it.
I'll take pics of the outfit choices soon and post them for all of you. Still not sure about this gray blazer...but who knows. Maybe it looks really nice. I'm just a very matchy-matchy kind of girl when it comes to suits. *shrug* Still looking for that perfect black blazer to go with my (growl) size 30 dress pants.
Tons to do this weekend to get ready for next Thursday:
* Find the perfect blazer
* Get my portfolio together
* Find the perfect, professional black bag
* Print off a copy of my resume
* Print out a list of references
* Prep myself (read: study) on the company and the people I'm interviewing with
* Prep some interview question answers
* Print out directions to myself from 5th avenue to JFK
Repeat after me: "You can do this. You can DO this!"
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Weight beginning of June: 395.6
Weight goal for beginning of July: 387.6 (-8)
Actual Weight beginning of this month: 379.3 (hoping this isn't a fluke!)
Actual Weight lost in May: 16.3 pounds (UHM...wait a minute...)
I weighed in at 379.3 this morning. I'm praying this isn't a fluke because I'd love to see those 370s...and then onto the 360s!! That being said...I'm not entirely comprehending 16.3 pounds in a month. No, seriously...what??
In June I:
Lost 4 in the thigh
Lost 1.75 in the calf
Lost 2.25 in the waist
Lost 2.5 in the hips
Lost 1 in the neck (again!?)
Lost 1.25 in upper arm
Total for June: Lost 12.75 inches!!!!!
Total overall measurements since starting SP:
Lost 3 in the waist
Lost 6.5 in the hips
Lost 2 in the neck
Lost 5 in the thigh
Lost 1.75 upper arm
Total inches lost = 18.25 since April 19th
Now...let's figure out how I had such success by checking in on my June goals.
Weight Goal: 387.6 (-8)
Workout Goal: 30 for 30!
15 minutes a day every day.
Strength training 4 times a week.
Increase speed of 2 mile (from 22 minute mile).
Try Zumba (class tomorrow...wish me luck!)
On most of these, anyways. The ST hasn't been 100%. I didn't always remember to do it 4 times a week. However, a lot of the exercises I did this month combined upper arm moves and other strength moves. In Zumba you punch and squat and do stuff like this. Plus, I just started doing some of my own circuit training...which gets my heart rate up and makes me think on my toes! The most important thing here to me? I didn't just TRY Zumba...I kinda fell in love. I did one half class, then the knee went out...but I tried again! And I made it through the whole hour! And then I went three times last week. I only went once this week...but I've come to know a lot of the dance routines and I'm having fun. Plus, I can FEEL and SEE it working! I guess you can add me to the camp of people who tout Zumba's effectiveness...and for good reason! Also....I almost didn't make it yesterday...but I did 30 for 30. That's 30 days of consecutive workouts! And I went from working out just 15 minutes or so a day, to usually working out 80 minutes or more (split up, of course).
No more "treats" every day. Once a week is good enough.
I like my treats...but I only treat myself every now and again. Can't say I'm down to once a week per se...but close.
Find more "quick and easy" options and keep them on hand for lazy days. These are a reality for me sometimes, so I need to be prepared!
While I hate the sodium in these pre-prepped options...it's important that I have them so I don't go completely off track.
Lower the fat and up the protein and carbs! Try to stay on target here!
? *shrug* I think I did. I'm staying pretty good on making sure I get carbs and protein and some veggie or fruit at every meal. I'm working on balancing my meals - and that's KEY for me!
Breathe easier. I'm just going to leave it at that.
Apply to at least 5 jobs a week. Make sure to check job sites every day for new postings. Spread the word to increase the chances of finding opportunities through friends and acquaintences - NETWORK!
I'm giving myself this one. It hasn't been every day, but I get in 5 apps a week at least. And it's starting to work!!
Go camping one weekend this month.
Go hiking once this month. I'd say!!
Go swimming at least once.
Go rowing at least once.
So to recap here. I pushed myself this month! I ended up walking a 16 minute mile at one point! I've gotten faster and stronger and it's getting easier to remember that every day I need to move. It helps with my sodium intake (which is annoying me more and more now...*lol*) and my water intake and my inches lost (as you can see). I know some of you will say that I've lost too much this month...but I have to say that I did NOT ONCE starve myself. I did push myself, especially on that 5.5 hour hike...especially in Zumba classes. But my body is responding with stronger muscles and a smaller waist. I can keep this up...and that's the most important thing. I even had several "slip" days this month (go back and check those blogs, why don't you?). I even thought a few times "I'll never make it!" I have down days, and I'm learning to work through them. I DO NOT expect similar results next month...that's for sure! But I'm hoping that this month is just bringing me that much closer to my final goal.
Weight Goal for July: 371.3 (-8)
Workout Goal: 30 for 31
I'm giving myself the 8th off because I don't know that it's likely I will get time this day. Let's be honest, I'll either be flying, in a cab, or interviewing all day. HOPEFULLY with my time being moved up, I'll get to the airport in enough time to do some laps or some sort of workout in the airport bathroom...but I cannot count on this. I have to be realistic here. HOPEFULLY I'll get out of there in enough time to walk a few blocks to a further subway station to take to the airport...but I can't count on this either. I will try, but I won't stress about it this day.
How I will achieve this goal:
28-Day Bootcamp? Still checking this out...
30-Day Shred? Not sure I can do this yet...
10k walk training
HOPEFULLY I'll also get my eligibility from the insurance company this month so I can workout at the gym! That would be GREAT!!
Find some favorites so I don't stress on late nights.
Watch that sodium intake!!
Bring back more fruits and veggies and things I know that work.
Balance those meals!!
Work in more Yoga. It centers me.
Try to remember to take 5 minutes to myself each morning to SET my day.
Get more sleep and get up early for early morning workouts.
Keep applying to those jobs!! I WILL find something great in 2010!
Keep that positive attitude!
Spread the spark, both on here and throughout my real life. I've started with people at work.
Challenge my brain through reading and brain teasers.
Start writing. I keep telling myself I will do this...but I haven't. I'm going to try to find time for that this month.
Go hiking up the hill and explore where I live.
Make more weekend plans for fun outings and/or thorough cleanings at this house. I need to get this house in order!
Read with my boys. We're going to find a good book to enjoy together this month! I'm excited about this one!!
BTW - Monthly picture updates coming. Couldn't find my shorts so I had to change things up this month. But I think (HOPE) you'll all see the changes I feel!
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