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Power Hungry - W8.D4

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

First of all, a thank you to everyone who snapped me out of my nonsense yesterday. By the end of the day you all had me feeling once more like the strong, powerful, and motivated woman I really am.
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I was going to write you a detailed account of last night, but it's really not necessary. I'm going to TRY to be brief.

* No AM workout. SUCK!
* No walk at lunch. SMART! 99 degrees and humidity out the you-know-what!
* Going to the mall instead. AWESOME!
* Buying a tank in size 22/24. MORE AWESOME!
* Realizing you could've gone smaller. AWESOMEST!
* Impromptu going away dinner for a friend. SAD.
* Actually liking something about the pics taken of me. COOL.
* Japanese Steakhouse. YIKES!
* Ordering veggies & tofu with my sushi and avoiding miso soup. AWESOME!
* Fried tofu. YUMMY! (BTW - it tasted like fair food! *lol*)
* Too much sodium (soy sauce). UGH! ...but could have been much worse!
* Rushing home (read: speeding) to get a walk before dark. HILARIOUS!
* Brisk 15 minute walk. DEATH!
* First minute out of air. UH-HUH! Have to quit smoking!
* Telling myself I could just make it 10 minutes. LOSER!
* Wanting to give up at 6 minutes. ACK!
* Pushing through all 15 minutes. SCORE!
* Realizing I did a 17 min/mile pace. OMG! YAY!!
* Doing another 45 minutes on my inStride watching Jillian. SCORE!
* Previewing 30-Day Shred. YIKES!
* Bed at 11:30pm. UH-OH!
* Doing last minute crunches before bed. SCORE!

I am a success! Excuses are for losers, and I am NOT a loser!

This morning I woke up again at 4:30 am and did a DVD of AM Yoga before work. Had plenty of time to relax and destress before work. Felt centered and powerful. And now I keep looking over at my resistance bands thinking maybe I should incorporate those into my ST today. No walk training scheduled for today, so any walking at lunch will just be for me and will include a leisurely stroll. I might *gulp* take the day off of walking entirely and just plan on pulling weeds tonight. *shrug* As far as the 30-Day Shred? I refuse to start it until after this weekend.

Speaking of...anyone got any tasty/healthy camping recipes? We're thinking of going to Hocking Hills this weekend to get some camping in. We bought a tent last year and haven't even opened it. (Long story!) Hoping to get some use out of it Friday and Saturday -- and do some hiking! WOOT!

Well...that's brief for me anyhow!
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Don't forget to drink your water! (It's getting so hot out there!!)

  
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CAALAN23 6/17/2010 11:51AM

    I can relate to the speeding home to walk at my snail's pace. ;) Oh, if only my outer athlete could keep up with my inner speed demon!

Stoppin in to let you know I've tagged you as a friend. Beware!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 6/17/2010 11:08AM

    Just getting caught up on your blogs. Looks like you definitely made up for your lost time that evening. Remember all workouts should be at your pace, don't let Jillian intimidate you too much. You can always turn her instruction off and it's not so bad!

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RAVENSONG37 6/16/2010 5:21PM

    In-Cred-Ible! You are ON FIRE!!!!! I like to take a bunch of fresh fruit and veggies when I go camping and then just throw chicken on the bbq. Easy peazy!

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TEAM-SARAH 6/16/2010 12:45PM

    Wow great job! It sounds like you could perhaps blame the 99 degrees with humidity (sounds like a nightmare to me) for some of the lack of ability to breathe. Definitely still a good idea to quit smoking though... it will only make things easier. You're amazing, such an inspiration. Keep working as hard as you do!!

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-SHIMMER-ANN- 6/16/2010 12:07PM

    Yay!!! Well done :)

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/16/2010 9:25AM

    WTG! Much better!
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KARVY09 6/16/2010 9:20AM

    Hehe, I like the mini recap of yesterday!

Wish it would get hot here... it's been a chilly June!

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SIYC Challenge Goals - 6/15-6/19

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

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~*~SIYC CHALLENGE TEMPLATE FOR ACTIVITIES FROM 6/15-6/19~*~
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emoticon For the next five days, I am going to exercise at least 60 minutes each and every day!

emoticon For the next five days, I will (not attempt, but WILL) do 2 sets of 20 crunches every day.

emoticon For the next five days, I will let go of the "don't have" attitude and focus on what I do have, what I can do, and what changes I can make to make what I want come about.

emoticon In the next five days, I will log all of my food and exercise, honestly, and weigh in daily so I can see the truth in where I need to improve.

emoticon For the next five days, I will blast out of my comfort zone by starting the day off with at least a mini-workout. Every day. No excuses.

emoticon On each of the next five days, I will go out of my way to make time to encourage at least 1 person on my team, to get to know them better, and to fight forward together! (In addition, I will encourage 3 new members and visit 5 friends I haven't heard from in a little while.)

emoticon I will ask my AB! team members and my Spark Friends to stop by my spark page and HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE for what I SAY I'm going to DO!

emoticon The best way to motivate me is to remind me that EXCUSES are for LOSERS and I am NOT a LOSER.

emoticon At some point this week, I will go to the gym and ASK THEM whether their equipment will work for me and FIND OUT what the MEMBERSHIP PRICES are to see if I can afford it.

I AM READY FOR THE FINAL LAP BEFORE SUMMER BEGINS!
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BECKYB73 6/16/2010 6:24PM

    This is an action plan for success! emoticon

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RAVENSONG37 6/16/2010 5:22PM

    Woo Hoo!! You are SO awesome!!

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RTB444 6/16/2010 10:20AM

    I feel like I need to start making these kinds of mini-goals! Good for you, and thanks for the idea! YOU CAN DO IT GIRL!!!!!

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/16/2010 7:55AM

    Way to stay motivated! I was feeling so blah yesterday and still a little bit this morning. Your blog here as motivated me to snap out it and quit with the complaining. We all have so much to be grateful for. The best way to snap out of the blah's is to love all that I can do and push myself to do.

Way to go chickie!
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TEAM-SARAH 6/15/2010 6:30PM

    Great attitude, go get it!

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CALLIKIA 6/15/2010 4:54PM

    TRIX - good point. My work does have a Wellness Program but I don't remember if I signed up previously and couldn't do it, or if that was something else. EEP! (It's a one time offer, if you sign up and quit, you're out forever. BLAH. I'll call and ask.)

TFFN - Thanks! :)

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TIFFANIE150 6/15/2010 4:47PM

    I like your goals!!!

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_TRIXIE_ 6/15/2010 4:44PM

    Aw, girl! You totally have this! Does your insurance plan have any reimbursement plans for gym memberships? My insurance covers $20/month if I go 8 times/month. It's a great deal!

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YOOVIE 6/15/2010 4:31PM

    YAY!!!!!

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A Baby in Need of Some Bathwater - W8.D3

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I fell apart last night. Honestly, I did. I threw a temper tantrum in my kitchen while I prepared Ranch Cheddar Burgers (which everyone loved - even Ethan who snubbed his nose at them when he saw the green onion, but went back for a second one after the first one was inhaled. You can find the recipe at SparkRecipes - I'd only suggest reducing the amount of dry ranch dressing mix to maybe half an envelope...it was a little overkill for my taste).

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"I have to do everything around here!"
"You sit around doing nothing all day and get paid more than me!"
"I'm at some worthless desk job that I hate where there's drama all day and I drive an hour to get there and an hour back when I really would rather be at home weeding the garden or walking or going swimming, or even sleeping for those two hours!"
"And I went to college for nothing...you know that? I did everything right. I did what I was supposed to. I worked full-time and I went to school full-time, and I worked for the paper - which I hate most days, but I do it because it's a writing gig and is supposed to make my resume look better."
"And I get paid pennies for the work I do. And I hate it. I just hate it."
"I got every honor I could have gotten in college. Summa Cum Laude, top in my class. Seriously - what more could I have done! I was the friggin' president of TWO honor societies, for crying out loud!"
"And I maintained a 4.0 for three years! THREE YEARS of busting my butt and not getting enough sleep and feeling like I was going to fall apart...for what?"
"Oh, I know...so I can sit at the same desk I was at before and do the same meaningless work I did before. And be everyone's B&#($ at work! Now they've got me working in another department where I've added a ton more work and training and two more bosses, basically."
"How much is one person supposed to take on without getting a raise? Oh, but I forgot - I'm just a stupid state government employee who does nothing and the stupid taxpayers in this po-dunk state have decided that we don't NEED raises, because...you know, we don't even really DO anything."
"Maybe the rest of the people don't do anything - but I do stuff! I'm constantly doing stuff! I'm stretched to the max working in 3 different departments and trying to wear 40 different hats...but the taxpayers decide that I'm not even worth a teachers salary. At least they get the summers off!"
"Don't I deserve more than this? Who decided that this is all I'm worth? Why did they get to decide? I put in resume after resume and nothing. No calls. No emails. NOTHING. I spend hours looking for work - and there are plenty of postings in the publishing field right now, let me tell you - but apparently I'm not good enough for them. Why not? Why can't I ever be good enough for something worthwhile?"
"What am I good for? I wasn't good enough for grad school...now I'm not good enough for a job in any field remotely related to what I want to do with my life? Why did I go through three years of hell if I wasn't good enough for anything?"
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It went on like that for about 20 minutes or so. Sobbing and slamming patties together to stick on the grill. (I'm a great multitasker.) But then, just as suddenly as it had begun, it was over.

Now I have no idea what is going on. I know I'm stressing right now over work (duh! that's obvious) and the fact that hubby is doing something for himself on the internet and making more money than me most days...and I just got my check where they took out like 1/3 of it for taxes and insurance...which he doesn't have to pay. I've been working toward one singular goal for so long and nothing has turned out like it was supposed to. And now I'm just stagnant. And I *hate* being stagnant. Before this job I didn't stay anywhere longer than 8 months because I couldn't take the stagnant feeling of it. I've been where I am now for nearly 4 years and I'm done. I was done years ago, but I held onto it because they let me go to school and I thought that would mean something some day. But now I'm here twiddling my thumbs and wondering whether it was all worth it or not.

I am SO hoping that outburst was due to the injection of hormones I was given on Friday (Depo shot), but if not I'm not sure what to do. I'm doing what I can to find a job - and having a husband who isn't really "working" and two kids to support, I can't do what I want to do and just pack up and leave. So I'm in limbo. Stagnant.

All this made it very hard to get out of bed this morning. I haven't done anything I should be doing yet. I didn't get my walk in yet, either - which irks me. All I really wanted to do was to wake up somewhere else - NYC maybe ...to put on my gear and take a early morning walk in Central Park before showering, jumping on the subway and heading to my office in a really tall and shiny building, busting my butt all day - ordering in for lunch from a terrific deli that is probably just right across the street - and then walking the many blocks home to get some extra exercise in. At home I would cook a fabulous healthy dinner, feed my family, and then catch up on some emails or something until it was time for bed. Instead, I woke up in my fake panelled room with the sound of rain and gloom outside, fog rolling in making it hard to catch your breath, laundry half done, a toilet that doesn't like to flush, and countless other annoyances. It will get better...or it won't. I just wish I knew where my hole was right now...

  
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ANGELLYBELLY 6/15/2010 3:33PM

    I. totally. feel. you.
*hugs*

I keep wondering where the life I thought I signed up for was.. lol.

But every now and then I take heart to what my yoga teacher always says at the end of his class..

"You are living your dream, don't let it pass you by. Namaste"



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CALLIKIA 6/15/2010 3:20PM

    Okay, have to thank you all for pulling me up by my bootstraps, pulling my hair like the red-headed step-child that I am and telling me to "sit down and shut up" ...as well as the support. I'm better. I got new shoes and plan on walking in them tonight (it's just a short 15 minute walk so I can totally break them in!). Then I'll do some inStride cycle and push myself to do 45 minutes or more. And, if I feel up to it, I'll follow that with some relaxation yoga, which I totally need right now! Also thinking of stopping by the gym in town (that I thought had closed down! *lol*) and seeing what their equipment is like and what their prices are. They're open until 9pm, which fits my crazy schedule here at work! SCORE!

I'm better now. I got it out, I had some Starbucks. I feel like running! I still hate my job, but I need to do it because I'm what's holding this family together right now. Already sent out one resume today and have 3 more to send before the day is over. Then have at least 10 to finish up this week for higher paying jobs with the State. (If I'm not going to get to do what I want, then I'm at least going to find something that pays better! I did all that work for SOMETHING darn it!)

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TEAM-SARAH 6/15/2010 2:40PM

    Let me remind you that the grass is always greener. I walk to my job downtown (not New York, but Chicago) or take public transportation to a shiny high rise office building and that doesn't make the job I do once I'm inside any less mind numbingly boring. I still am not doing what I spent for years studying to do or anything I ever thought i'd do with my life. I've been stuck for 2 years, not 4... but I can relate to that at least. Ultimate you have to seek out the job you will be happy doing, that makes it all worth it. I'm still looking for what that is myself. I understand the need to arbitrarily change jobs for the sake of getting away and doing something else. But after a while, the same feelings will creep up if it's not what you really want. maybe giving yourself some kind of drive and purpose outside of it, and working toward figuring out how to do what you'd really like will make the time you spend at work less awful. Just a way to pay the bills while you're working toward __________. Good luck :)

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ERIN1128 6/15/2010 11:55AM

    I swear, I think it was a full moon yesterday - me, my husband, and our 6-year-old all had bad days, and we were all at each others' throats last night! Thank goodness for a new day and a fresh start. Hang in there!

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RAVENSONG37 6/15/2010 11:55AM

    Remember love, your job...just like your weight...is not YOU. I totally hear all your frustration and it's warranted, but you can't value yourself based on your job title, salary, weight, car, house, etc. Maybe I have said this before, but I try to remember that "expectations are premeditated resentments". Believe that you will be fulfilled in your career and it will happen, but don't get hung up on specific details/time lines. Its all gonna happen when it's supposed to! P.S. Take some time to celebrate all the accomplishments you have made! You are one smarty pants and that's something not a lot of people can say!!

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/15/2010 11:27AM

    It must have been "Spark Tantrum Night" last night. I went off last night on a mini-T myself. I'm constantly annoyed that my son idolizes his father (my-ex), who does nothing... literally nothing...to take care of him. I'm the one who sacrifices everything and Disneyland Dad gets all the rewards. I try to be so supportive of their relationship and I don't want my son to ever think badly of his father, but the man is a complete AH. My episode lasted a whole 10 minutes after my son went to bed. There I am, yelling at NO ONE but the watermelon that I was cutting up for my son to snack on for breakfast the next morning. I was yelling at a watermelon....A WATERMELON! Take heart, we all have crap days. You are young and there is bound to be a job out there that will one day make you happier.

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JESSASAURUSFLEX 6/15/2010 9:55AM

    I really identified with you in this post. Granted, I don't have children.. which I know makes your whole situation more complex. I too wish I could escape my life on a regular basis.. and whereas I love my husband, when things get tough I imagine running away and having a whirlwind romance... with a guy who really understands me. lol Fantasy's are great until you have have reality knocking on your door.

Just this morning, my coworker and I are sitting in our dark classroom... most things taken off the walls, relaxing... and we were bombarded my the principal yelling at us for taking things down... yet, we have no kids to teach?? what the eff??

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PRETTYMANDI 6/15/2010 9:38AM

    Good for you that you let it out! I always stuff my emotions. Preferably with something of the chocolate variety and then wake up still feeling crappy, still unable to voice what's going on, and now hating myself on top of it.

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RUNNINGNP2B 6/15/2010 9:16AM

    Aww babe, it's ok to have days like that. Although if you do the NYC thing, I'M COMING TOO. Sounds amazing :D

As for the job front, it's annoying. It's disappointing, with all the work you put into school, and yourself for that matter...but unfortunately it happens. What do you think you can do to change it? Maybe delegate some of those 40 hats you wear to some different people?

It's funny how having a temper tantrum is sometimes exactly what we need to start feeling better. It's a purging of all those negative emotions, get them the hell on out, and then you start to feel better. Clears the air so to speak so you can refocus on what does make you happy.

I know it's not a deli in NYC (makes me so incredibly happy) but what can you do now that will make you happy???

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SUGIRL06 6/15/2010 9:16AM

    Can I move with you? We can be roomies. Sounds awesome. Cause I think I'm working the same place you are! But Kristina is right, look at all the good things you have (hubby, kids!) and it will make you feel better!
~Ang

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DREAPRADO 6/15/2010 9:10AM

    Sometimes we get into these "moods" and no one even knows where they came from...I had a milder tantrum like this with my husband last night too...when we're stressed anything can set us off. But I always try to remind myself that it wll pass, hopefully he will hear the desperation in my voice when I'm asking for help, hopefully the kids will learn to help out more, hopefully everything will just smooth itself out...usually it does. Work drama sucks, but even that usually works itself out. I know its hard in an office environment (I've been there) but try to keep positive and your reward will come soon enough...in the form of another job or a promotion or just peace =)

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KARVY09 6/15/2010 9:07AM

    I hope the outburst helped you get out everything! I had the same issue (over going to great schools and having big dreams and not being able to find a job...) and I let it simmer for over a year before I was finally be able to let go and appreciate the things I DO have going for me. I should have done what you did and just had a good cry and wrote it out!

I wish nothing but the best for you and hope you are able to find something more fulfilling!

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Awareness - W8.D2

Monday, June 14, 2010

I've decided this week to start weighing myself every day. I did a lot of weighing last week and realized that I fight for my poundage lost on the last two days of the week. Somehow I've gotten it in my head that I can just do whatever I want on Sunday and Monday...because there is the rest of the week to make up for it. But I busted my BUTT last week, and only came up with a 2.2 pound lost. (Don't fight the "only"...just listen.)

Truth is? I was fighting off the two pounds I gained Sunday and Monday, and maybe another pound on Wednesday. I let myself cheat here and there...and while I logged everything and seemed fine calorie-wise...my heart wasn't in it. Then the end of the week I found myself making up for lost time. I decided yesterday that this is no way to live my life. I tell myself all the time, "The only person you're "cheating" is yourself." So this week we're going to monitor and record and be honest. We (I don't know why I suddenly became plural) are going to see what staying on target can do. Besides, I just hit Step 3 in Spark's plan - "Lifestyle Change."

That being said, I have vowed not to let those evil numbers hurt me this week. I just want to watch to see what my body does this week and see what I can tweak to make it perform better. I've promised myself that I will take note of other changes this week as well...to diminish the importance of those numbers on the scale. So while I lost another .4 pounds according to Mr. %#$*-face (I mean Mr. Scale) this morning, here are 5 more important things that I've noticed. (And it's only 11am!)

1. Getting up early...is it for me?
So since I started this training program, I've got walks scheduled each day. (Or, like today, a cross-training session.) To make sure I get this in, I'm attempting to get to bed early each night so I can start my day with a work out. (I'm not gonna lie - RAVENSONG37 had a lot to do with this decision.) I woke up at 4:30am. Yep, you heard me right. FOUR THIRTY AM! When the sun ain't even warm yet! I ate a mini-meal with some protein and carbs, and then put on my spankin' new workout clothes and popped in the Yoga DVD. 30 minutes later, I decided I was done and turned it off(...10 minutes longer than my training suggested - OOPS!). By 5:30am I was worked out, showered, dressed, and checking in for my Spark Points. I got an early request from hubby for editing of an article, which made the rest of my morning a little rushed, but all in all, I was better for it. The best part? I know that I'm done with my training for today! SO awesome!! Worst? My eating schedule is all thrown off. I've added another mid-morning snack before lunch...we'll see how that works out.

2. I walk faster!
I was walking down the hall to the bathroom just moments ago...a simple feat, right? But I noticed something...it took me no time at all to get down the hall! I wasn't even trying to hurry because I really had to pee. Nope, just a normal pace, but something that would have been brisk just two months ago and may have put me out of breath. I noticed this yesterday as well. I used to barely make it through a 30 minute mile...yesterday I did my "easy walk" and reminded myself along the way to just enjoy the walk, take it easy, don't worry about pace or distance or anything but having an enjoyable 15 minute walk. (And Ethan, my youngest, joined me so that helped as we talked about stuff along the way.) Still, I came back and realized that I had gone over a half a mile in 15 minutes at an "easy" pace. That means no more 30 minute miles, even if I'm taking it easy and enjoying life along the way! YAY ME!

3. A pretty face in the mirror.
It is 11:11 am currently. Usually I put my makeup on at my desk as soon as I get into the office (8am) before the rest of the crew arrives. (I used to do this because I never got up early enough...I had planned on putting on my makeup before I left the house this morning, but then hubby popped up with the early-morning editing request and my time was being spent elsewhere, hence, plain-faced Esther left the house with her makeup bag in her shoulder bag for work.) But right now, at 11:13 am now, I am still sans makeup. Why? Well, because I've had a busy morning, partly. But also because I looked at this girl in the mirror today and ....well... she looked just fine without the makeup. I mean, sure her right eyebrow shows up more than the left, making them looked uneven..and her frekles show through in certain places, making her skin look a tiny bit blotchy...but she looks GOOD! She looks healthy. She has a glow. She smiles at herself. And that feels darn good. I'll probably put my makeup on before my walk...or after...or maybe not at all. I'm good either way.

4. Exercise can be fun?
One thing I never thought before was that exercise could actually be something I looked forward to doing. I always thought of smelly gyms that overcharged and had equipment I probably couldn't use, or full aerobic classrooms displayed through my TV where I'd bounce around like a fool in my living room, or even just LONG walks on the busy road outside my house, sweating and cursing the ground I was walking on. But then I realized (thanks to Spark!) that exercise is so many other things. Housework and chores = exercise! That means I can kill two birds with one well-polished and tidy stone! Or pulling weeds, which makes my garden look great, my plants grow better, and makes me feel the sweat pouring down my back and legs. (POURING, I tell you!) And there's hiking and rowing and swimming and running under the water (i.e. water aerobics) and playing H-O-R-S-E with the boys! Exercise does not have to be boring DVDs...though I love these for their convenience when I don't want to go do those other things. I use my weekends now to "get outside and play!" And I get some great cardio in while I'm doing it!

5. Cooking can be fun...but it takes a long time.
Turns out, I really do love to cook! I made grilled salmon last night with roasted veggies - fresh green beans, cut potatoes, green peppers - and some WW Mac-N-Cheese (in case the kids wouldn't eat the other stuff) that SUGIRL06 sent me. Everyone devoured the food. Hubby said, "Are you sure this is diet?" He complimented me on the "greatest meal I've ever made" and I realized something -- he's been saying this for weeks now! Each meal is a hit with him. He questions the validity of the "diet" factor and comments on how we must put this meal into regular rotation. Oddly enough, I'm so addicted to trying new things that nothing has GONE on regular rotation. I've made the Skillet Veggie Couscous twice, and the Chicken Fried Rice with eggplant is a solid fall-back piece for us, but usually I'm too excited about another new recipe that I can't see making something I already made. My breakfasts tend to stay the same, and lunch is a pretty regular rotation, so dinner is my time to try something new! And I *love* it! Of course, it's been difficult doing all of this on a really tight budget, but I'm learning (Thank you KIWIFISH!) how to make menus and how to shop smart. It's actually, dare I say it, fun to try and beat the "healthy food is too expensive" myth!

So, yes...today I was down another .4 pounds. That could stay gone or it could have been silly body makeup at the time I weighed in (maybe I'm lighter at 4:30 and I pack on some water weight between 4:30 and 6am! You never know...). But these 5 things are things that are making permanent changes, or things I probably wouldn't have seriously considered or thought about prior to April 18th. (April 18th is going to be a day of celebration in this house from now on, I tell you! It's my SparkBirthday! The day I chose to live again!) Take that Mr. %#$*-face...err...I mean... Mr. Scale.

  
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PRETTYMANDI 6/15/2010 1:03AM

    I see you have taken to cursing the scale. I try to flatter him into compliance, instead. Before I step on I tell him how thin HE looks today.

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CECINOAKLAND 6/14/2010 11:08PM

    great blog. you seem to be in a wonderful place mentally. if you get into a funk later on, be sure to come back and read this entry for inspiration.

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SUGIRL06 6/14/2010 2:28PM

    I looove grilled Salmon! Yum! Haha. I love everything you listed here. I am super impressed you got up at 4:30!!! Woah! I have to be at work at 7. I hate getting up in the morning, mostly because I won't go to bed any earlier than 10 so getting up earlier = going to bed earlier. Maybe I should jump on this bandwagon? Hm. Anyway, I am most excited for you for the lack of make up thing. I started thinking I had "bad skin" but since working out, everything bad has gone away again and my lovely skin is back! Its the little things.
~Ang

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/14/2010 2:08PM

    Ever notice how the scale is always a man? LOVE IT! I applaud the use of the scale as a way to stay motivated and keeping yourself honest...but don't let the bleeping scale upset you either. Your weight is bound to fluctuate. If tomorrow you have gained a pound, DO NOT INJURE YOURSELF WHILE KICKING MR. SCALE DOWN THE HALLWAY! Mr. Scale is only allowed to weigh me once a month because he is a bleeping liar. Mrs. Tape Measure on the other hand speaks the truth...always. She told me this weekend that I have lost over 6 inches... I love her.
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APATRICIAO521 6/14/2010 1:58PM

    This is such an awesome blog! I love the part about you deciding to not wear make-up. Isn't amazing the changes that this journey makes in our everyday lives?! Congrats on all your success!!!

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KARVY09 6/14/2010 1:15PM

    Congrats on your revelations about exercise! You are moving and you are loving it!

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MERALO 6/14/2010 12:37PM

    I love this! It's like you wrote it for me...
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I've also become so aware of myself and my body that sticking to my plan takes almost no effort...it's a great feeling...a feeling of CONTROL.

The exercise thing surprised me though - last week I made enquiries into studying to become a personal trainer (who? me?) and I'm really going to do it. I know I am because I exercise these days wihtout having to motivate myself at all and I miss it when I decide to have a lazy day. Oddly enough, it's been difficult for me to find alternatives to impact activity and I'd like the be the go-to trainer for people who can't run/sweat/lift weights, etc.

Keep working it, you're doing great!

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JESSASAURUSFLEX 6/14/2010 12:26PM

    You are really one your way beautiful lady!!!
I am an epiphany myself over the weekend. Hubby and I went to BJ's Wholesale, and I bought a 40 pound box of kitty kitter, which was a total *(&%% to lift.. and it hit me.. HOLY COW I have lost half of this in weight.. It felt amazing.. I know I have felt lighter on my feet, but you don't really realize when you lose it so gradually how much you really have lost... So, keep this in mind the next time you lift something like a bag of sugar, or flour... it feels amazing!

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RAVENSONG37 6/14/2010 12:09PM

    This is so great! I'm so proud of you. I love the idea of your Sparkbirthday! My special day is July 4th - "MY Independence Day". It's the first time I signed up for Curves in 2006. Changed my life forever!

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ERIN1128 6/14/2010 11:55AM

    You go girl!!!

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STARDUST2K4 6/14/2010 11:43AM

    I definitely feel ya on the "screwing around and making it up during the last 4 or so days of the week" thing. I too had the same problem Good for you on the walk/jogging! That's definitely something positive to keep you going!

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TEAM-SARAH 6/14/2010 11:42AM

    Week 8, can you believe it!? Look at how far you've come. Maybe the scale isn't saying exactly what you would like this week, but it definitely sounds like you are setting yourself up for a lifetime of healthy habits. You're into the exercise you do and you find yourself ENJOYING cooking. You're in control... no stopping you now!!

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LULLABELL2 6/14/2010 11:40AM

    Way to go girl! What a wonderful, positive outlook! You have seriously turned the corner and this is all about lifestyle for you. I am so proud of and for you and wish you all the best! (and can't wait until the day when I'm fully there myself!) You *almost* make me want to get up at 4:30 tomorrow! emoticon

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Workouts for Week 8

Monday, June 14, 2010

Sunday: 389.6
Training - 15 minute Easy Walk (DONE - .66miles)
Other - 60 minutes weeding garden (DONE!)
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Monday: 389.2
Training - 20 minute X-Train (DONE - 30min Morning Yoga)
Other - Walk at lunch (DONE! 23m/1.06mi), 60 minutes weeding garden (Nope.)
ST - Full body dumbbell workout (Nope.)

*Note - I'm experiencing a little bit of back pain so I didn't want to overwork myself yesterday evening. Plus I had a bit of an emotional ...well, fit...yesterday evening. Not sure if it's the hormone shot they gave me Friday or what. In a matter of minutes I went from yelling and banging dishes around to apologizing to hubby for being a basketcase. Hopefully my body will regulate soon and, hopefully, my back pain disappears today so I can get back on the exercise wagon again.

Tuesday: 387.6
Training - 15 minute Brisk Walk (DONE! .89 miles @ 17min/mile pace!!!)
Other - Walk at lunch (HELL NO! It was 99 degrees and muggy enough to take your breath away!) Instead, I did 45 minutes on the inStride cycle.
ST - OFF - But I did 2 sets of 20 reps Crunches

*NOTE: I didn't get my AM workout in, or my lunch workout. I didn't get anything in until 9:30 pm or so, when I did my brisk walk followed by the cycling (with a break in between). I needed sleep so I didn't eat afterward. Plus, I ate a bunch of salty food at dinner. I did good, don't get me wrong - Vegetables and Tofu and some Sushi, but I ate too much and it had too much soy sauce on it. I could feel that before I even went to bed and knew the scale would reflect it this morning. (see below)

Wednesday: 389.0
Training - OFF
Other - Walk at lunch, yoga break (DONE! AM Yoga - 20 minutes!)
ST - Squat & Lunge Workout (Nope)

Thursday: 390.0
Training - 15 minute Brisk Walk (DONE!)
Other - Walk at lunch (Nope, but walked on my first break, also weeded for 45 minutes)
ST - Full body dumbbell workout (Nope.)

Friday: 386.8
Training - OFF
Other - Hiking? Swimming? Water Aerobics? (DONE! - Hiked for 1-1.5 hours...also pitched a tent, which was a lot of friggin' work because we didn't know what we were doing! *lol*)
ST - OFF

Saturday: (NO SCALE AVAILABLE)
Training - 2.5 mile Endurance Walk (I'm calling this done because we were hiking for 5.5 hours straight - with small breaks, of course - so endurance was certainly in there!)
Other - Hiking? Swimming?
ST - Upper body workout (Nope...well, not technically, but I did have to use my arms a lot for climbing up rocks and such..)

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CALLIKIA 6/15/2010 8:19AM

    Thanks everyone!

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TEAM-SARAH 6/14/2010 1:48PM

    Great plan! Make this an awesome week!

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RAVENSONG37 6/14/2010 12:10PM

    Lookin great! I'll be checking in this week to see how you are doing!!

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SUGIRL06 6/14/2010 11:31AM

    You are a training machine!
~Ang

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IPATRICIA 6/14/2010 7:23AM

    emoticonNow that's commitment.

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SRABANTI 6/14/2010 7:19AM

    Wohoooo... looks like youre seriously kicking buttss.... Wayyyy to go girl.

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1SHEYLA 6/14/2010 6:37AM

  nice routine!

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