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Thinking of the Future - Week 8.Day 1

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Weigh-In Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 390.8
Goal This Week: 388.8
Actual: 388.6
Weight Lost This Week: 2.2 pounds
Total Weight Lost with SP: 27.6
Total Weight Lost overall: 78

emoticon Workout Review:
So far I'm 13 for 13 in the month of June. So 13/30 done!
On Friday the family and I went to the lake and rowed for 2 hours. I did most of the rowing, with small breaks to rehydrate. Hubby was so impressed with my speed and determination! It felt good to see him proud. That night, though, I woke up crying because of the pain in my elbows and shoulders. I was fine after some ibuprofen and ice, but I don't know that I'll be rushing out to do that again anytime soon. There was a guy there with a kayak and I was *SO* jealous! That huge rowboat was SO hard to row!

emoticon Food Review:
My eating hasn't been 100% on track this week. I've been eating more lately, but that simply means I have actually been IN my calorie range! *lol* Of course, I've been working out so much that I've needed a little more fuel to keep the fire burning. We've also been struggling on trying to shop healthy on a budget. I'll get the hang of this, but it's been slow learning. This week I took a page out of KIWIFISH's book and wrote down the meals we would have this week before I went shopping. Only bought a few extras over what we needed for those meals. Tonight we're trying salmon! The last time I cooked fish, it didn't turn out so good, so I'm hoping this recipe will work out better.

emoticon We're thinking of going camping this weekend, and that means some hiking and maybe some swimming. It also means that I'll have to figure out what kind of "diet" foods I can eat over the fire. I did make some roasted veggies in a foil tent yesterday that I know will work in a fire as well.

emoticon Finally, I worked through some training ideas for myself. I'll start by training for a 10K. It's a 12 Week program, and I should be ready for a 10K by the end of July. That would allow me to do the 10K at the Charleston Distance Run on September 4th, instead of the 5K, as I had thought earlier. I'm going to try to get to a 5K walk in Ohio on July 10th, just to make sure I'm really ready. If all goes well, after the 10K training, I'll be ready to train for walking a half-marathon...and I have one in St. Petersburg, FL in my sights for the end of November. I know all of this is ambitious, but I've got to at least try. I have to!

Next week's goals:
* Weight Goal: 386.6 (-2)
* Food Goal: Stick to the menu guidelines
* Other Goal: Get some hiking in and enjoy nature! (And take pictures!!)
* Personal Goal: Finish this book and start the next.

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    Congrats on the loss and great planning your meals. Keep it up! emoticon

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 6/13/2010 8:04PM

    Wow! Positive energy!

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-SHIMMER-ANN- 6/13/2010 7:08PM

    YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're amazing!!!!

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KILA1228 6/13/2010 6:51PM

    I love the cartoon!! Congrats on the 2.2 gone!!!!

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LEXUSIASIS 6/13/2010 5:39PM

    Searching through the blogs for inspiration, and I found it here. Thank you for sharing, I'll get my butt moving again. emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 6/13/2010 5:06PM

    You are doing great! Way to set goals and meet them!

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BECKYB73 6/13/2010 4:27PM

    You are rockin' it!! Keep on nailing those goals! emoticon

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RAVENSONG37 6/13/2010 4:07PM

    Your goals are totally manageable and doable! I love planning meals ahead of time and making a bunch of food at once (ie: oatmeal for the week and putting it in tupperware so I just reheat in the morning!) so it takes a lot of the stress and decisions out of the week. I LOVE your walking plan and think you will totally KILL those 5km and 10km walks!! I'm SO impressed by you.

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IPATRICIA 6/13/2010 3:59PM

    Well Done.You are working it. emoticon emoticon

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In the Beginning - W7.D7

Saturday, June 12, 2010

I was thinking yesterday about 25 pounds lost. Which led me to think that this isn't my first 25 pounds lost. Which led me to thinking about what I've done to get here and just how far I've come. (Warning: This is long, and is likely just part one of my "story")

My youngest son was born on April 5, 2002. I'm pretty sure I had broken 400 pounds by the time he was born, and I felt horrible. I was lazy and confused and angry about life in general. Nothing turned out the way it was supposed to. When I was a junior in high school I was preparing for a wonderful college career. I knew where I wanted to go (University of Toledo) and what I wanted to study (computer engineering). I was going to have a bright future. I felt secure in my ability and intelligence and I was ready to get a wonderful and great paying job, buy a house, marry someone who loved me and had the same beliefs as myself, have children and raise them in bliss.

Instead, this "good little church girl," who had made it to the regionals in Bible quizzing of all things, found herself pregnant just before her 18th birthday. I screwed up. I screwed up several times, caught up in the feeling of "someone loves me, I must do whatever it takes to keep that alive" and I broke vows to myself. And then I had to tell my mother. My heart was broken and so was hers. But we dealt with it. We managed. I opted out of the big, fancy college thing and, instead, I applied for community college. I gave birth to my son, Logan, and I was confused again. Life had suddenly gotten so ....big and important. Still, I managed.

I moved out of my mom's house and in with my boyfriend, sure that I was going to do this independent mother thing without screwing everything up. I tried going to classes (which started just weeks after the birth of my son) but after a while I realized that Music Education was not what I wanted to do. I couldn't play the piano and I didn't want to study music anymore. I hated that music was such a serious thing now. I missed having fun with music. And I knew that I would never make the money I needed to fulfill the dreams and goals I had in my head. So I cried a lot and dropped out. I told everyone that I *would* go back, no matter what the statistics said about people like me.

But when I dropped out, the downward spiral began. My life was a living hell. I was sad and angry and upset all the time. All the time. Boyfriend and I fought all the time. Within years, I was pregnant again. I thought about aborting this one. I couldn't take another child and there had been a break up between boyfriend and I and a horrible transition guy that made me regret the past year and wonder of the origin of the child. At the clinic I met with every belief system I ever had and faced the prospect that I would be going against everything I had ever said I believed in. I didn't abort him (thank God!) and boyfriend said at the restaurant later that day, "I guess we should get married, then." We did get married, but I thought his heart wasn't in it.

Depression set in that next year. In 2002 I was told by a CPS worker that I was suffering from PPD, and I believed her. I was disconnected from life. I spent days in bed. I ate and drank whatever I wanted. I did very little to even exit the house, let alone "exercise." I ballooned to nearly 500 pounds and my family voiced their concerns. But they didn't understand. I didn't care what I weighed because I didn't care about life. I didn't want to live any more. Until someone said to me, "You want to leave those boys without a mother?" and it clicked. One day I simply woke up.

I went to the doctor about gastric bypass surgery and weighed in at 466.6 pounds. One year. That's what they told me. My insurance required me to go through so much testing it could take one year to get through this and possibly get surgery. Whatever, I would do whatever it took. And I had learned from my mother's support groups that those who failed did so because they thought they could eat whatever they wanted after surgery. So I vowed to slowly take on the diet I would be forced to follow after surgery. And I went through all the testing for naught, because my insurance company dropped the surgery while I was going through all the testing they required for the surgery. (I *hate* insurance companies!)

I had two choices. Give in to always being fat or try to do what I could on my own. I chose the second option. I found an online group called "Losing and Loving It" and I stuck mostly to similar meals throughout the day. I did Walk Away the Pounds in my apartment living room three times a week. I went from not even able to complete the 1 mile workout to being able to do two or three miles. I used to drive each week to a doctor's office downtown where my sister had set up for me to weigh in on their huge digital scale. And I spent many a 30 minute drive home crying because I only lost .5 pounds that week. Or super excited for a 2 pound lost. I lost the weight VERY slowly, and by the time we moved I was down 80 pounds. Within a few VERY slow months in the new home, I lost the last 20 and I stayed there for one week. I seriously saw the century mark and somehow lost faith in my ability to do any more than that. I went on maintain mode instead.

I tell you all this so that you understand that I am not some insanely motivated person who woke up this April and decided to lose the weight and is somehow now always on. I understand the tools now, and I'm learning more and more through all of my SparkFriends. I don't exercise every day because I love it. Sometimes I do it because I remember what it was like to not move and be slowly dying in that bed years ago. Sometimes I just feel strong or encouraged by the people here. Sometimes I guilt myself into it, and I go through the entire workout yelling at myself in my head and calling myself fat and telling myself I'll never do it, all while I'm working out.

I feel stronger than I have since that junior year in high school. I'm still not sure of my ability to get a great job, but I'm trying to hold onto hope that there is something perfect out there for me. Something that I will love doing most days, something challenging, something that uses my skills of writing and creative thinking, something that allows me to travel, and something that allows me to make the money I need to move into a nice modest home and make a real life for my kids, instead of just getting by like we've been doing since I left my mom's house.

But one thing I get now is that it is life now, not a journey. I'm no longer living for the end. I'm no longer living for what I will be when I'm skinny and fit. Instead, I'm living for what I can do today to make myself strong, brave, bold, and ready for anything. I'm now getting really close to that century mark once more, and this time I will see it only for a week because the next week I will be below that mark. Headed to the second century mark. There is time as long as there is breath in my body, and the more I work out, the more time I give myself to reach my eventual goal. I'm learning as I go. My world is changing because I'm changing it every day. Sometimes I don't live exactly like I'd like myself to, but I chalk that up to living. Sometimes we have to celebrate or cry into a bowl of ice cream (I just make the bowl smaller now).

I'm not superwoman, I'm just learning how to make a better me.

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    This is a great entry and an important part of understanding how you got form point A to now. You are strong and brave, and I know you are inspiring so many other people out there who are dealing with many of the same things you are. Keep up the good work!

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/13/2010 11:07AM

    How wonderful! It's such a great feeling when the goal isn't to be "skinny" or "pretty" according to some unobtainable standard. It's about living. It's about want to be alive to see your kids graduate, to see them marry someone they love and have children of their own. It's about growing old and loving every minute of it and being able to do all of the activities you want to do. YOU ARE DOING IT! You will get to your ultimate goal and I am glad to be a part of it. Enjoy the ride!

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RAVENSONG37 6/13/2010 12:59AM

    Wow Esther. I love you even more now. I just want to hug you and tell you how much you mean to me (ALREADY!) and tell you that you are totally amazing!

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BAYBELIEVER 6/12/2010 11:33PM

    This is a great blog. So cathartic. I hope it helped you to take some of this incredible weight off your shoulders. Your attitude is good and your thoughts are sound. I think with this much strength you are moving in the right direction. I never thought about how hitting the century mark could be frightening but you made it so I can understand that somewhat. When I get there, WHEN, then I will be better prepared thanks to you. I want to give you a great big
and help you to know that you are loved and you are valuable. Not just to your boys, but to yourself and to your friends here on Spark. You motivate. You inspire. And I am so glad I found you!
One day at a time, one meal at a time. You are doing it!

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HARMONYBLUE 6/12/2010 11:12PM

    Great job on realizing that life doesn't begin at goal weight! You have come so far in gaining strength and confidence. Keep going!

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IPATRICIA 6/12/2010 5:48PM

    Now that is one inspirational story.Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon

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SPUNKYDUCKY 6/12/2010 4:17PM

    I love the concept for living for the now! It leads to happiness, calmness and ability to accept life at the same time that we are working to improve who we are (inside and out).

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TEAM-SARAH 6/12/2010 4:14PM

    Wow you are more amazing, strong and resilient than I ever knew! Thank you for sharing your story, I teared up a little. Just never ever give up. I know with the help of sparkpeople you're going to make it to that next century mark!

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KARVY09 6/12/2010 3:48PM

    I hope it helped to get this all out. You are moving in a great direction and there are so many good things for you on the horizon. Thanks for sharing your journey!

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LIFEGENESIS 6/12/2010 1:40PM


Thank you for sharing. I am proud of you. That might not mean much coming from a complete stranger, but know that you have given another hope that she can maybe even lose 50 pounds. :)

Keep going hon!

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PRETTYMANDI 6/12/2010 1:16PM

    I love love loved this blog! You are wonderful!

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Foto Friday - W7.D6

Friday, June 11, 2010

It's FRIDAY! Which, for me, is Saturday part I. It's my chance to get things done around the house and to get outside during the day and get some activity in the great outdoors. I'm thinking we'll hit up the lake later today because it might pour I can't remember if my mom is supposed to be getting the boys tomorrow...should probably call her and find out. *lol*

A wrap-up of highlights of this week in pictures.


We tried this Roasted Red Potato Casserole. YUM! It's tastes a lot like "loaded potatoes." You can find it on SparkRecipes.

THIS was made by God! This vanilla honey greek yogurt tastes sooo good! I added a little of my homemade Strawberry jam and a little granola on top. *love*

I got this yesterday at the market. There was something weird with the blackberries, but the biggest deal was the kiwi. I tried a kiwi once in 1994. Hated it! I tried it again yesterday, remembering that i also used to hate pineapple and now I love it. Turns out I love kiwi now too. It's true - your tastes change as you age.


The Rocky song was going through my head as I considered this week how much of a fighter I've been working through this knee problem and trying Zumba again. I love it when I surprise myself!

I'm getting dimples where they're supposed to be now! Now my collarbones aren't popping out like crazy (I'm still 390 pounds), but they're making random appearances in the mirror. Love that! The other day I was showering and thought - my shoulders are getting smaller.

I have worked out so much this week that I'm feeling a rush of confidence. My self-esteem isn't a constant 10, but it's moved to a solid 8 most days. It's very cool to realize that I can do more than I thought I can!


My youngest son, Ethan. He's adorable and a mini-Mommy. (Seriously, my oldest looks just like his dad.) I think he loves that we get to do more fun things like going to the park where he can ride his bike. (One downer about living out in nowheresville is that it's hard to find a place to ride bikes...we have to drive into town or to the park or school.)

Plans for today:
Doctor appointment at 9:45am today.
Weeding the garden. (It REALLY needs this!!)
Lake. We're thinking of going out on a boat today. Also might take our new neighbors (a girl I've worked with for nearly 4 years moved in about a mile from my house) to show them where we like to go on the weekends. Maybe I'll take some pictures of it to share with all of you.
Cleaning. Our house needs some serious reorganizing. My room still isn't put together again after we had to rearrange for the new king-sized bed. Time to get things back together.

Hope you all have a great Friday and a wonderful weekend!

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-SHIMMER-ANN- 6/12/2010 11:42AM

    I'm totally making the casserole! And you are so pretty!!!!!!!!!!!

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THEWEIGHTSOVER 6/12/2010 11:25AM

    "You're a Contender!" Thats all I can think of when I see your new pic. LOL. ANd you are such a good contender too. I find your enthusiasm and motivation inspiring. Its amazing how active you are at your weight. I know I am older than you but I am definitely jealous. My knees are shot and I have actually been told that I need knee replacement but I think I can put it off by several years by taking off weight. BUts its such a vicious cycle when I try an activity and it puts too much stress on my joints. I guess I still need to focus mostly on swimming for now but hope to be able to get more active on dry land soon. Keep up your incredile work and thanks again for sharing, I absolutely love the way you write. emoticon

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KILA1228 6/11/2010 9:48PM

    Have a great weekend! The potatoes looked yummy!! You girl, look excellent!!!! Love all the pictures!

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PRETTYMANDI 6/11/2010 3:42PM

    Sounds like a great weekend! I found that taking care of myself always improves my selfesteem. If I don't log my calories and exercise my self esteem goes way down even if I haven't gained weight.

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SPARKGIRL32 6/11/2010 11:59AM

    I didn't know you were a mommy! How cool! You're doing great!!! :)

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RACHELLY0724 6/11/2010 10:24AM

    Go you! You should feel confident and all goooood and schtuff! =) Have a fabulous weekend Rocky! =)

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MILNE81 6/11/2010 10:20AM

    Love the foto blog! The food looks great and I'm glad you're feeling so confident. You look great and you're doing an amazing job! Enjoy the weekend!

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RAVENSONG37 6/11/2010 9:19AM

    As soon as I saw your profile pic I KNEW it was Rocky! The song started playing in my head! I love you! ha ha! Sounds like a great weekend ahead! Enjoy your new body, confidence and DESERVE it!!

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KARVY09 6/11/2010 8:30AM

    Mmmm, love the fruit and yogurt. I hear you on that "funny blackberry" taste sometimes. Dunno what that is!

Good luck at the doc's. I'm sure you'll be fine!

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Hodgepodge Thursday with a T

Thursday, June 10, 2010

emoticonTraining -
Okay, so I've got this book by Prevention called "Walk Off Weight." I've had it for a while, used it a little before (I think this was where I got hooked on Yoga, thank you very much!) but never considered the back page, until now. The back page has a "Train to Walk a Half Marathon" Training Plan. Seriously. They want me to consider walking 13.1 miles? WTF, dude?

And then I got on Spark, and I read some blogs, and I started moving my own body, and I realized that this isn't out of the realm of possibility. (Does any race allow walking only in a half-marathon, though?) While this isn't in my very near future (I know my body, it isn't ready!), I thought maybe I could tweak this to match my goal to walk a 5K by the end of summer, or thereabouts.

Week One looks like this:
Sun - Easy Walk (15 minutes)
Mon - X-Train (20 minutes)
Tues - Brisk Walk (30 minutes)
Wed - Rest
Thurs - Brisk Walk (30 minutes)
Fri - Rest
Sat - Endurance Walk (3 miles)

What if I changed that endurance walk to 2 miles. I can do that right now. It's hard, but I can do it. At least keep 2 miles for the first week before I increase to 2.5 the next week, right? And maybe scale back the brisk walks a bit to start. Say maybe 20 minutes each? Oh, and the rest days...yeah, those have to go. *lol* Remember, I'm doing 30 in 30 this month. I will try to do something a little lighter those days, though. Relaxation yoga or my inStride cycle or something that isn't too rough on me. Thoughts from my runner friends? If this goes well, I'd increase the brisk walk time and the endurance mileage every 2 weeks or so.

No, seriously. What is the deal with tofu? Does anyone even eat it? I'm not against it - not at all - I'm just wondering how the heck you cook this stuff! WTF, dude? I'll be perfectly honest with you - tofu scares me as an ingredient. I like it in my Miso Soup (which I don't eat anymore -- all that sodium! YIKES!) but that's about where that ends. Thoughts? Recipes? Ideas? Agreement with my fear?

That's what I was last night. I was one tough daughter of a gun! I had the same stomach turning feeling on the way to class last night ("PLEASE don't let it happen again! PLEASE!!"), but I went in, handed over my money and grabbed a spot in the back next to a girl I would KILL to look like! (She probably thought she was fat and was probably there to tone up, but she was drop-dead gorgeous! Wish I had the balls or even the thought process last night to lean over and tell her that she was beautiful...but I wasn't thinking straight so you'll have to forgive me for the missed opportunity! If I see her again, though - it's on like Donkey Kong!)

As I said, I tried to be very careful of the knee. No jumping, no kicking too hard, certainly no turning! All in all, everything went well. I have to say, it's a little embarrasing when you're in the back and the whole class turns around and you realize they are now staring at you and probably wondering why YOU aren't turning around. But I did what I had to and I lasted through the entire hour. There were some parts in which I far exceeded several of the skinny chicks on the floor (flexibility is always one - plus the punching part -- OMG I *love* punching! And, surprisingly, the squating...I went deep into those squats because it felt good and I could. I know this helps my knee too, so I went all out on it!). I surprised myself when I asked for the time at the break and realized I'd already made it through 35 minutes!

I did it, y'all! I completed a (completely modified) Zumba class! And...shhh...don't tell anyone this but...I can't wait to go Saturday morning!! Sucks they'll be taking next week off (thought it was this week, it's next week! SUCK!)

emoticonTai Chi
Does anyone do this? It really looks great. Like Yoga, it has that feeling-centered-don't-really-realize-you'
re-working-out vibe to it. Anyone tried it? Likes? Dislikes? Don't cares?

What's your favorite kind? How do you take it? I'm a little bit of Truvia and lightly brewed kinda girl and I'm wondering if this defeats the whole purpose of tea, like hubby seems to think it does, or if it's actually good for me to drink tea. (Certainly better than some other things I can think of!)

emoticon Welp. That's it. Take 'er easy, everyone. Talk to you later. Truck on! Tee you later! *snort*

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    I keep putting off Zumba cause of my back - but seeing how you've just gone in their and done it, loved it, makes me wonder what the heck I'm waiting for.

Tai Chi - I think you'd like it. There are different forms - schools or types. It actually requires lots of control and balance. There is this popular kung fu form that I want to learn - look up "Kung Fu Fan Dance" on youtube and you'll see what I am talking about.

Tofu - for me, I am big on a foods texture. Tofu is mostly tasteless, so you can flavor it anyway you want. But no matter how you cook it, it still has a texture I don't care for. Same with mushrooms and tomatoes. Dress them up anyway you like, but they still make me gag.

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BECKYB73 6/11/2010 12:30AM

    You're really starting to sell me on this Zumba thing...but not enough to make me relish the idea of sweating and I am a terrible sweater...speaking of sweaters, you shoulda seen some of the ones I rocked back in the late 80s!

I've been looking for a Tai Chi class for months now...if I find one first, I'll totally let you know all the deets.

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SOON2BEFITSLP 6/11/2010 12:15AM

    You are one creative person when it comes to blogs! You always keep it interesting! Tofu freaks me out a little, I accidentally had some at school....a little too odd for me, but my vegetarian friend Hana thinks it's awesome. As for tea, I love CHAI TEA....which really is NOT tea at all...but I LOVE IT!!!'s awesome...anyway, I was never a big tea person until my friend took me to an organic grocery and showed me Yogi. It is 100% natural herbal tea. My favorite is the Throat Comfort! Ps...the best part of your blog was the ending...ha ha ha.

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BAYBELIEVER 6/10/2010 11:16PM

    Just my two cents worth: Training: I started this process about 7 weeks ago and on my first day of exercise I could barely walk 0.75 miles and it took 22 minutes! But every day (yes, every day) I got out there and got madder and madder at myself and just kept adding a few steps a day. BUT, that being said, I think I should NOT have been going every day. I think a day of rest is important. After 3 weeks I was forced to take 2 days off when my knee just wouldn't cooperate. So, I listen better to my body now. But now this week I have walked 3-3.33 miles each day for 4 days! Who would have thought it possible 7 weeks ago? Not me! It is amazing how quickly our body adapts. Not without feeling those adjustments, but I can say now there are improvements every day.
Tofu: Not a big fan. I used it to replace hamburger sometimes in spaghetti or lasagne, but I would prefer ground turkey now. So unless you are vegetarian, I just feel there are better choices.
Tough: Love it! Yeah, the class should just help support you. I have been amazed in my walking in public (the hardest thing I have done in a long time) how accepting other walkers, runners, and bicyclist have been. They seem to understand that I am up off my big butt doing something and that is a great thing!

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AKJADE 6/10/2010 6:22PM

    I also like tofu in my miso, and I actually tried a recipe with tofu in it, ish. can't do it.

I like green tea as well! emoticon

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RAVENSONG37 6/10/2010 2:44PM

    So, here's a shock: I have a comment for each point! Can I first say that I ADORE you and your openness? I do! I ADORE you! K, here I go - lookout: Opinions to follow!

Training: Having a training plan helps us to increase slowly which limits the risk of injury but also pushes us to continuously do more. I'm willing to say that if you sign up for a half-marathon, I will come and walk it with you! You should totally be able to walk a 5km by the end of the summer. Our bodies respond SO quickly when we increase slowly!!

Tofu: AWESOME! One of my favourite legumes! So, here are a couple of ways to use it...note, there are several kinds but the difference is simply texture. They are all high in protein and low in fat.
Strawberry cream pie smoothie:
(300 CAL, 23.8g carb, 28g protein, 10.7g fat)

30g vanilla protein powder
4 oz vanilla soy milk
2 oz soft tofu
1/4 c. sliced strawberries
1/4 small banana
1 tsp. flaxseed oil

Mix all ingredients in blender with a few ice cubes!

Garlic, beans, tofu and kale (400 CAL, 38g carbs, 27g protein, 12.8g fat)

2 tsp extra-virgin olive oil
1/2 tsp minced garlic (I add WAAAY more cuz it's delicious!)
1 1/2 c. raw kale, chopped (really green type of cabbage that looks more like produce section)
2 oz. water
1/8 tsp cumin seed
1/8 tsp coriander seed
3/4 c. canned red kidney beans (drained)
5 oz extra firm tofu

Heat olive oil then saute garlic. Add kale, water, cumin and coriander. Add beans and crumbled tofu (Just break it up with your fingers), reduce heat to low and cover. Simmer until kale is tender. Season with salt and pepper to taste.

Tough: You are awesome! I'll bet that when people turned around and saw you doing what you could...they were totally inspired that you were there at all. GREAT JOB!

Tai Chi: It's wonderful and centering and peaceful. If you like yoga, you will probably like it!

Tea: I like any green or white tea. My favourite is green tea with jasmine. It's got such a lovely taste. I have learned to drink tea "black" with nothing in it and enjoy the natural flavor. Brewing it lightly or strongly is up to you..there are tons of benefits to drinking tea...but also to drinking hot water! So, take your pick! Also, in the summer I make iced tea by brewing a huge batch of my fav teas (right now I've got pomegranite green tea) then cooling it in the fridge and pouring over ice with a little stevia to sweeten and give me a special cold treat!

Hope this is helpful!

Comment edited on: 6/10/2010 2:46:04 PM

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-SHIMMER-ANN- 6/10/2010 1:27PM

    I love the half marathon goal! Good luck :) And you're so sweet, I bet that girl would love to hear that she's beautiful! And if not, she's lame :P

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SUGIRL06 6/10/2010 11:53AM

    Ha I liked this! You should go through the whole alphabet I think! LoL. So, I think you should take at least 1 complete rest day. Your body needs to heal, even if you don't feel it. Tofu? yuck. Haven't had it yet where I like it. I'll just stick with chicken and fish thanks. And great job at Zumba!!! Know what I think of the skinny girls in my classes? I pretend that they were once overweight like me and they've worked so hard to look like that! Haha, that always makes me feel good. Maybe next time you see her, you should be like "Wow you look great! Can you share your workout plan with me?" so that it doesn't seem creepy-girl-hitting-on-me. LoL. And I'm not a big fan of truvia. It has artificial sweetener in it (ooh do I see an FS blog???)! At least try and get an all natural stevia if you want to use that! Have a great day lady!

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TEAM-SARAH 6/10/2010 11:39AM

    I'm glad you liked your Zumba class. Good for you for trying again! I went running out of my first Zumba class never to return haha. I think you could totally walk a half if you wanted to! You'd have to check the individual courses. I know some courses have a time limit, so depending on what that limit is you would need to know if you could walk whatever minute mile it would be. Others may not and encourage walkers to sign up as well. Either way you can definitely accomplish this!

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/10/2010 10:59AM

    Training - I totally think you can do this. I'm not a runner, but I am most certainly a speed walker. Take it slow and build a little everyday.

Tofu - OMG..I love tofu. I have a great tofu-honey chili that is so healthy and wonderful. I'll dig it up from home and send it to you.

Tough - That is so great! And hopefully no pain with the knee today. I'm so glad that knee didn't give out on you and is cooperating for the time being.


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PRETTYMANDI 6/10/2010 10:16AM

    I am terrified of tofu! I even read a spark article all about tofu but it did not help me to overcome my fears at all!

As for tea, I like green tea or else I like chai tea with almond milk in it.

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Chocolate Milk After Workout?

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Just another excuse to get some chocolate milk up in my house:

*lol* Of course, the trouble is that I would drink it before a workout, and hours after a workout, and with dinner, and with the apple pie my husband bought me yesterday. (OMG - totally forgot to tell you all this story...) So maybe no chocolate milk for me. Maybe just some greek yogurt and a slice of toast or something? Basically, the message is - refuel with carbs and protein...they're just giving the chocolate milk as an example, and probably as a way to make people feel better about enjoying chocolate milk! *lol*

Apple Pie Story, real quick... (If you haven't noticed...I'm not good at 'quick')

You all know these things, right? These things have been a weakness of mine since I was little. I always knew they weren't "good" for me, but they sure tasted good! (I may think differently if I tried one today, but when I was eating whatever crap I wanted, they tasted so good!!) One of these babies packs 470 calories and over 20 grams of fat - not to mention the 36 grams of sugar! I knew, I know these things are no good, no two ways about it.

So hubby comes home yesterday with a little brown bag from the little store down the street. This store is like the old general stores that most people think are quaint now because you never see them anymore. We simply call it Terry's, because that's the name of the fellow who owns the place. Anyhow, he and the boys went down to Terry's to do a little snack shopping while I was gone. It was a mini-celebration for the boys finishing school yesterday. We used to do this all the time (no wonder I got back up over 400 pounds!!), but I've been only buying my Vitamin water and some Fiber One bars on the off chance they have them. Every once in a while I get a Diet Rite...that's about it. So hubby comes to me with that little brown bag and says, "I got you something. I don't know if you can eat it though." I'm thinking "probably not" but I don't say anything...and then out pops that thing up there. AAAAAAAAAH! RUN AWAY! RUN AWAY! (Those were the sirens going off in my head.)

I chuckled I think. Hubby looks at me and says, "" And then he turns it over and says, "I suppose I could've looked at the back to see..." "It's 410 calories, right?" I interject. Nope. Wrong. Off by 60! So it was even worse than I thought it was!! ACK! I don't know what hubby did with that thing. I hope I don't have to see it again. I thought about it twice last night. Even considered cutting it into four pieces and having one piece a night for a few nights. In the end, I just didn't mention it again...and neither did hubby. He's adorable sometimes, and I know he was trying to do something nice, but he's gotta learn that he needs to show me he was thinking of me with non-food items. A nice Vitamin Water would've been great!

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DIANE929 6/10/2010 3:03AM

    I am so proud of you...that was my favorite snack to get as a lil girl too...((Mine was the berry one emoticon))

GOOD 4 YOU!!! emoticon

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PRETTYMANDI 6/9/2010 11:43PM

    My husband pointed out how proud of me he was because we were at 54th Street Bar and Grill this weekend and I was looking at the dessert menu and asked if there is really a little silver unicorn on the cheesecake like in the picture. When they said no I said "well then I don't want it" my husband is like "wow look at you caring more about unicorns than cheesecake. who would have thought we'd see the day?" lol! And he was right. I was never even thinking about the cheesecake! The menu was just standing on the table there and I thought a free unicorn was a cute touch lol

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 6/9/2010 11:00PM

    I use that article to justify an occasional bottle of Bolthouse Farms Chocolate Protein Milk-mmmmm. I think the cost of the bottle helps me drag it out over several workouts instead of downing it all in one gulp!! Way to say no!!

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RAVENSONG37 6/9/2010 10:09PM

    Great job my dear! My favourite protein/carb refueul after a workout is peanut butter on ryevita crisps or almonds and an apple or cottage cheese and berries. Or a good ole fashioned protein shake (with either whey or soy protein) made with skim milk or soy milk if I'm feelin fancy. Just a question...did you tell your dear hubby that next time he's thinking of bringing you a treat that you would like a vitamin water...and what flavour you would like...cuz he won't have a clue if you don't tell him.

emoticon (what a weird face!)

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KILA1228 6/9/2010 9:05PM

    Love the story! Great will power saying no! I used to eat the cherry pie. It's hard to say no sometimes but you DID! Good for you!!

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KNOWMOREBBK 6/9/2010 6:35PM

    Too funny. Husbands, doppy but lovable. How can you not love a guy that brings you an apple pie? He probably thought, "It's got fruit in it? It's got to be good." Kind of like that Bill Cosby stand-up act from the 80's where he thought cake was good for breakfast because there were eggs and milk in the batter. Love the hubbies.

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SUGIRL06 6/9/2010 5:37PM

    I woulda eaten the pie. LoL! My weakness is Tastey Cake Cookie Bars. OMG they are awesome in all the 200 calories of cookie goodness!

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KIWIFISH 6/9/2010 5:34PM

  I use chocolate milk as a kind of a "treat" on days when I do a REALLY spectacular workout (usually involving a lot more cardio than usual and a full body strength training set) I just buy the little bitty baby carton that only has a cup in it so I don't have the option to overindulge =3 It's a really nice, sweet pat on the back for doing a good job that won't completely negate the exercise that I did haha!

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    lol its amazing how the folks that want to support us the most; are sometimes clueless. My mother has wanted me to lose weight since I was 12. But she repeatedly will bake desserts with my daughter and then send her home with it. Oh well, maybe someday they will get it. I also wouldn't be able to drink the choc milk in moderation. Some things are just too tempting to have in the house.

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BECKYB73 6/9/2010 3:53PM

    I woulda had dreams about that pie! Seriously, carbs are so not my friend (even less now that I've had my blood work done)...but I want them, I want them like a fat kid wants cake...oh wait...I want that too...and an eclair and...well I need to stop and drink some more water. Yay water.

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TEAM-SARAH 6/9/2010 3:46PM

    Aww well he was just trying to be nice haha. I guess he didn't consider it sabotage! Tell him to get ya flowers next time ;)

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CBAILEYC 6/9/2010 3:39PM

    Hubbies mean well, don't they? Mine offered to pick up a big bag of potato chips for me the other day. emoticon

Yes, of course I love potato chips, but NO I don't want any, thanks for asking, and if you love me, you'll never ask me that question again, please!

As for the chocolate milk, that's interesting! I enjoyed a nice cold glass of Silk soy milk last night after treadmill'ing it. I wonder how chocolate would mix up in it.. hmm.

Fun post! Nice to read you emoticon

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