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10% of the Whole30

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

You can read my more regular blogs over on my personal blog page.

Honestly, sometimes I have a problem being on Spark or any diet and fitness website. I just can't think about weight goals and fitness minutes right now because the thought of my failures in that department make me want to crawl in a hole and hide forever.

I cannot workout right now. I'm working to get my foot fixed, but my podiatrist said I need to take a few days completely off while he tries to heal the problem...which just adds to the ones I was already taken while it hurt. So I haven't worked out since my supervised workout with Jason last Thursday.

As for weight? I weighed 316 pounds when I started The Whole30 on September 23rd. Yep. I did that. Awesome, right?! Gained 20 pounds in less than a month. I got mad skillz. And because Whole30 says not to weigh yourself until you're done...I honestly have no clue how much I weigh right now. I did check on day 2 because I woke up and suddenly my pants were loose again, which I thought was just my mind playing tricks on me because how can anything happen in one day? But when I weighed the night of the 2nd day I was already down 2 pounds...probably bloating that was going away.

As for my experience thus far? It hasn't been that difficult really. I'm having some trouble with the kids' lunches and making sure our food doesn't get boring (especially veggies). I need to make the salad dressing they have in the book and the ranch dip as well. Also thinking to make the mayo up so I can make a big batch of deviled eggs, which I know the boys will gobble up. I just haven't had the time to tackle those things yet.

Speaking of my boys, I'm so very proud of both of them for trying to stick to it! Ethan has gotten so devoted that he will skip lunch (which is bad, and we're making sure his lunch is packed the night before now so he doesn't forget) instead of eating what they give him which is full of no-nos. Logan even admitted to eating the meat they served the other day without the bun and then eating the fruit and that was it because everything else he knew to be off limits. I honestly expected him to cheat every single day of this challenge, but he even packed his own lunch last night of some leftover frittata, a Pure Wrap roll-up with almond butter and banana and a fruit leather. I threw in a hard-boiled (read: baked) egg for him as well, but there wasn't time for me to correct the no vegetable issue before he ran out the door this morning. I'm going to talk to him about it tonight and we're going to find some veggies he likes to eat raw.

Ethan's lunch was a little better. He's getting more used to this now because he's been packing his lunch because of the no dairy restriction for a couple months now. Today he had some leftover coconut crusted chicken, cauliflower, a fruit strip, an apple with a side of almond butter and 2 hard boiled (read: baked) eggs.

As for me? I have a salad with coconut crust pieces, some ground beef, mushrooms, and a hard boiled (read: baked) egg. Which I'm going to have to force down because I haven't had time to make the dressing yet and I honestly 100% doubt there will be any I can pick up or buy at the CVS or in the fridge (some people leave those packets they get from Wendy's and stuff) that don't contain no-no ingredients - especially sugar. I'll take a look. Maybe someone snuck in a vinagrette that's safe...but I doubt it.

Leaving work at noon today because Ethan has an appointment with a GI Specialist. I'm hoping he thinks our new diet restrictions (at least the no dairy one) constitute steps in the right direction. I'm also hoping he doesn't find any blockage whatsoever. I don't know...I think it's been a while that there shouldn't be anything left causing any problems. We shall see.

Tomorrow? Big huge interview which I am not mentally or emotionally ready for. Honestly, I haven't felt this strongly about wanting a job since I flew to NY that one time a couple years ago. Let's hope this one goes better. It's basically all the best parts of my current job, with some new stuff thrown in that I'll get to learn about housing and mortgage lending, and some public speaking as well. I do have a contact there...I just hope she remembers me. And if there was ever a chance that my main reference would get me in...this is it. So fingers and toes crossed. (BTW - It also means more a considerably higher salary and one that would have us not struggling as much...we might actually be able to consider looking at houses some day in the next year or so if this happens. The pressure of all my hopes and dreams riding on this makes me want to vomit.)

So, yeah. 10% done with this. Pushing my way through fog-head on Day 4 now and hoping I feel much better tomorrow. Lots of prep to do tonight with putting together a professional outfit of clothes that actually fit (having issues with that right now...nothing fits quite right any more whether it's too big or too small...). Anyhow. *fingers crossed* *eyes open* *heart hopeful*

Take care y'all! I'll try to brave the waters and update you all again soon!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/26/2012 3:14PM

    Hope the doctors visit went well, and you can bet that I have all my figners and toes crossed for your interview. With how hard of a worker you seem to be, they would be idiots not to hirer you on the spot.

Congrats on making it through 10% of the Whole 30, I know you can stick with the program and glad your boys are supporting/joining you in the adventure.

Sending healing vibes to you so you can get back to your exercising!

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SUGIRL06 9/26/2012 2:56PM

    You are going to do great tomorrow!!!

And congrats on 10%! I am glad the kids are taking the changes to heart. You must be so proud!

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MAGPIE17 9/26/2012 2:37PM

    Fingers are crossed!

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IRONBLOSSOM 9/26/2012 1:16PM

    Congrats on the Whole 30! That's awesome! I need to do something like that too :-) Also, great job on getting your kids on board!

I know it can be frustrating when you're injured, just remember you can only do as much as you can do. Your progress may be slower (or maybe not, I don't know!) but getting through this is mental and emotional exercise!

Have a great week!

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ERIN1128 9/26/2012 12:29PM

    I was wondering where you've been, thanks for checking in. I'm sure the interview will go great - how could anyone not remember you??? You're too special, interesting, funny, and smart, to forget. Hang in there, I know you will get through this!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 9/26/2012 11:52AM

    Sounds like you are working the Whole30 thing pretty darn well, girlie!!!

And wow - interview TOMORROW!!! I am sending you lots and lots of good vibes! Good luck!!!!

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ARUNNINGKAT 9/26/2012 11:38AM

    Congratulations on your food successes, especially with your boys. Healthy lunches for kids can be a challenge, but it sounds like you have tackled it with huge success! Good luck on the job interview! emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 9/26/2012 10:09AM

    Sounds like you are settling right in! Good luck with the interview thing! I am interviewing (by phone) every day this week. Looking for jobs and all the work of it is exhausting!

You and your boys are doing a fantastic job!

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ZACHIESMUM 9/26/2012 9:36AM

  You can do it. i just recently had knee surgery so the whole exercise thing is really hard right now. I'm trying not to make excuses, but thats what I've done for the past 7 years. I wish you the best of luck. Remember you are a woman and a mother and that combination makes you so strong, there is nothing that you can't do! emoticon

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All I Got

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Got really nothing for you. No motivation. No push it spirit. Tired. Sick. Exhausted. Needing to heal. Wanting to take a month or two off to just rest. Wishing the PF would go away.

Here you go...a picture of me now...before I get all fat again because I can't work out anymore.
(I'm totally kidding. I want to take some time off NOT to gain weight, but to rest and heal while maintaining what I have currently so when I come back I don't have to go back to move forward.)

In the beginning...

...and now... where close to where I want to be, but better than before for sure.

If you don't see me for a while, please understand I need that to heal my mind and soul and body.

If I'm back in 2 days with a new plan, just know that I found another wind (about the 323rd by then) and I don't know how long it will last.


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SPARKLISE 9/20/2012 3:13PM

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SEEHOLZ 9/19/2012 10:35PM

    You have come sooo far- you totally deserve a time out! This is a long-term journey for all of us :-) and we'll be here to support you!!!!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 9/19/2012 9:53PM

    Sorry the PF is acting up again, but man, the changes you've made in those pictures is amazing. I hope you get the rest you need and deserve.

Less than three you girlie!

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ATROTTIER 9/19/2012 7:00PM

    LOVE the new pic hot lady!!!

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SUGIRL06 9/19/2012 5:50PM

    PS You look freaking awesome ;)

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MIZINA730 9/18/2012 10:02PM

    Good thoughts. You're on the right track. You'll not gain weight. You might still lose because of your tracking. I've been through back injury, a crazy week, currently illness, and everything is okay. You do need to rest and recover. That will only benefit you.

Oh my goodness, the pictures tell all. Amazing transformation. Just don't worry that you can't work out now. Everything will be fine. This period of time just might kick you out of a plateau. (Read my blog). Besides, if anybody can do anything, it's you.

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WALLAHALLA 9/18/2012 9:59PM

    You have already accomplished so much. Rest is important too. I hope you get revived soon. You will be missed. Hurry back!

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GETFIT2LIVE 9/18/2012 4:48PM

    You really have made tremendous progress; it may not be where you want to be ultimately, but never forget what you have already accomplished and hang onto it. Do what you need to for yourself to heal in every way.


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BAYBELIEVER 9/18/2012 2:43PM

    Sending you big hugs! We all need time to rest and find some peace and serenity. Remember, this is a process and you are so much more able to do things now that we need to adjust to that and how it affects our time, our family lives, our work lives, everything. No, don't go back to where you were, but it's okay to stop and re-group for a little bit. I mean, you have hit an awful lot of goals by now! So it is time just to find some new ones! Rest. Relax. But not too much!

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MANLEYSANDY 9/18/2012 1:47PM

    I think it is really hard not to have that all or nothing attitude and I admire your spirit and resolve, you always fight. So it is imperative to deal with the mental part, or what I thought was a brilliant quote from a fellow spark person (Yoovie) "the brain weight"!!

Always remember how far you have come....

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GUITARWOMAN 9/18/2012 1:27PM

    Big difference......

Good for you!

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-POOKIE- 9/18/2012 1:15PM

    Have you re-searched getting steroid injections for the PF?

I had them and OMG virtually instant relief... hobbled to the car to come home, then within a few hours I was so pain free I cried with happiness instead of the daily pain from my heels.

The injection is nasty, but so very worth it.

I needed one heel re-done about 6 months later, then from then on, I have had very little pain at all.

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ERIN1128 9/18/2012 12:17PM

    You really should keep looking at those pictures, because I just see SUCH a difference! You have achieved amazing amounts of weight loss. Don't beat yourself up, you're doing great!

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GOLOPTIOUS 9/18/2012 12:00PM

    I've been to that place where there's no motivation or goals and where I was so tired of weight loss that I wanted to cry.

Just remember that this is a lifestyle change and that you're doing this for YOU! Don't do what I did and slip back into old habits because it seems to be twice as hard to get my good habits back.

If you need a few weeks or months, take it. But keep your little changes and don't let life get you down!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 9/18/2012 11:54AM

    You have definitely made progress in so many ways!!! Take the time you need to heal yourself...Just know we are here for you!!!

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IRONBLOSSOM 9/18/2012 11:52AM

    You're amazing and you've done so great! Maybe take a little time off working out, focus on food intake (I bet you could make some fantastic recipes with working out time AND have a nap!)

I bet there's something you need. More sleep, more protein, less protein, etc... Take some time for yourself, for your soul, but come back quick re-energized! :-)

You're an inspiration to many others so focus on being an inspiration for yourself! YOU CAN DO IT!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHACKER2 9/18/2012 11:50AM

    You have made great progress. Just keep it up. We all strugle. emoticon

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ARUNNINGKAT 9/18/2012 11:47AM

    Girl, you have come so far and look so good! You have accomplished so much already and I am looking forward to seeing how much more you will accomplish. And I do understand the need for rest times, time to refuel even if it is just emotionally. This is an intense battle that we are fighting and sometimes rest is needed. I will look forward to your future posts and blogs....whether that be later today or a few weeks from now. emoticon

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OBURRELL 9/18/2012 11:45AM

    It's ok. Some of us get to that point where we take a break. Just don't gain weight-maintain and you never know-not stressing about it just might help! Good luck and I hope to see you on here soon. You have come so far and are just simply awesome!

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JENGOJENGO 9/18/2012 11:44AM

  Hey- don't give up or go away-- you look great! You are an inspiration to me in how far you have come.

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Friday, September 14, 2012

My nose a few weeks ago...

And today...

This is not a matter of makeup vs. no makeup. My nose is swollen and bruised and super, super sore. It's making my entire head/sinuses hurt and all I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep some more.


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GUITARWOMAN 9/14/2012 12:45PM

    Definitely looks swollen....

Maybe you should check it out?

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CAROLIAN 9/14/2012 11:40AM

    Hope you get it sorted soon mine does this if i get a cold in winter pinching your nose when blowing it can cause inflamation inside yor nose making it swell, emoticon

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4EVERADONEGIRL 9/14/2012 11:08AM

    Sounds like you might have a sinus infection...are you on antibiotics yet, girlie?? Because if no - you probably should be! :-)

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MIZINA730 9/14/2012 10:35AM

    It must be congestion. Did you ever have allergies before? If not, you can get them at any time. Your doctor will be savvy to any allergens active in your area. If you visit the doctor, they'll ask you if you've been exposed to anything new (or at least they should). The exam will help them decide what it is, although history is a big deal. A good doctor will listen to the patient. I worked in a doctor's office for years. You can do a little detective work ahead of time by noting if anything makes it worse or makes it better (like a steam tent over a bowl of hot water, trying allergy meds or decongestants, etc). Hope you feel better soon.

Sinus Infections make you super tired. Allergies can make you tired too, but if you want to sleep, sleep, sleep, that tends to make me think infection because I've had them before. It did that to me too and my doctor said they really make him tired too.

I just read your last comment. If you were sick two weeks ago, then you've probably progressed to a sinus infection. I would go in.

Comment edited on: 9/14/2012 10:41:30 AM

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NJJ-EXERCISE30 9/14/2012 9:15AM

    I have the same but I do not think my is a sinus infection. I have a swollen nose from me wiping it so much from discharge. My DH wants me to go to the doctor but I say I think it is viral not bacteria. Leaving for a vacation on Thursday so I am monitoring me. emoticon

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CALLIKIA 9/14/2012 9:14AM

    I have no friggin' clue. Woke up a couple days ago and it was sore to the touch like I'd been punched in the face while I slept. No external bruising of any kind...I just assumed it was from so much nose blowing the past 2 weeks when I was sick. But this? This is beyond some soreness from blowing your nose. Last night if felt like my entire head had been smashed in and was collapsed upon itself. It's hard to describe, but I've seen enough horror films to put an image to what I'm feeling. *shrug* I'm hoping it just goes away on its own. Nurses didn't seem to interested or worried this AM when I mentioned it while I was getting my BC shot.

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TDEMAIO2 9/14/2012 9:13AM

    emoticon hope you get better soon

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VICKYMARIEC 9/14/2012 9:11AM

    Did i miss something from your previous blogs? What happened to your nose?

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My Name is Esther, and I Think I Have a Problem

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Step one is admitting it, right?! *runs and hides*

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MIZINA730 9/13/2012 7:45PM

    Your questions and your musings are really helping a lot of people as you move along with your progress.

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RUSSELLORAMA 9/13/2012 4:12PM

    I've always had this crazy fear of success. As soon as it looks like something amazing was about to happen for me, I'd look for ways to tank it. If I hit a weight loss or fitness goal, I'd want to "reward" myself by eating lots of high-calorie junk and sitting on my arse for a week. I am the Queen of Denying Myself Good Things. For a long time, I didn't think I deserved them (because from the outside looking in my life has been pretty charmed and mostly because I had the good fortune to be born) and I still struggle with that image of myself.

If I wasn't self-sabotaging, I was manipulating people into treating me terribly. Once I had a job that I completely HATED with every fiber of my being. Rather than addressing my issues with my employer, I just started calling in sick all the time and doing a whole bunch of passive-aggressive B.S. to make them think I wasn't such a viable employee anymore and show me the door. How crazy that I'd rather do something negative to change my situation than positive? SMH.

I'm glad that you're putting it out there and examining some of your motivations.


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CALGALFOX 9/13/2012 11:19AM

    I think it's GREAT that you've made the connection to perfectionism and that you have an area that you can concentrate on. I don't know how tough this is, I don't honestly understand it, but I do connect with the adversity of your situation. I live with pain and it never goes away. I can ignore it, but in quiet times it often invades.

I have gone the professional help route and it has helped, but it's hard for me try to get help because my issues are not "main stream", but I have found help.

Wishing you all the best.

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LMB-ESQ 9/13/2012 9:50AM

    I have never been a binger, but I overeat all the time, especially at night when, like you, my defenses are down.

Don't run and hide. You got it out there, and you're right, it is the first step.


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WISHICOULDFLY 9/12/2012 8:59PM

    SIX MONTHS is an amazingly long time to keep the monster at bay. You're stronger than ever. Just remind yourself that one setback does not undo all your progress. Learn from this and move on. That damned monster is not the boss of YOU. Don't give it the power to come back for a very long time. emoticon

I agree that there is a HUGE connection between binging and the pursuit of perfection. I call it my "all or nothing" mindset.

You are one amazing woman. Give yourself some credit and cut yourself a little slack. What's the hurry? Enjoy the ride. You will get there (whatever "there" is to YOU)!

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SARAWALKS 9/12/2012 6:59PM

    What ERIN1128 said...
Do you know CLAIREINPARIS? She has been struggling with binge eating for a long time. She's written some very brave blogs.
I think the perfectionist connection is an important one to make.
You will find your way! emoticon

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MIZINA730 9/12/2012 4:50PM

    In the blog link, you said you haven't binged in at least six months. When was the last time you wrote a schedule like that? Is there a connection?

Did you ever go into Reports from MY TRACKER? I'm pretty new at this, so I'm still stumbling on new stuff. If you read my last blog or two, I anticipate that I won't be able to exercise this week, not even the simple walking or biking that I do. Now that it's Wednesday, it has proven true. But when I go into Reports, then click on Daily Calorie Differential, I am reminded that the calorie range I am given has a calorie deficit built into it. The exercise we do is just gravy, er, um, a feather in our caps. Monday I had -150 deficit, Tuesday -200 deficit with no exercise. When I do exercise, it's more like -589, -750, even -1189 once.

So, this week when I can't exercise, I'll be holding my own. I may not see a loss on the scale when I weigh in again, but when I don't post a gain, that is a victory for me. Even though I haven't posted a loss, it doesn't mean I haven't lost anything, because my scale only weighs in half pounds. I probably won't realize a -1750 (half pound) deficit by next week, but considering the situation, that is good. I have not gained.

All this means that if you do a form of exercise that is more user friendly, less rigid, you are going to see results. You do not have to suffer or knock yourself out. I know walking isn't impressive, but it gets results. Applying to your situation, if you walk one mile, you will burn 170-180 calories, and it doesn't take long to walk a mile. It lowers cortisol and relaxes you. You can do it with your family and possibly incorporate it into some of your errands at other times.

Housework - I don't count dusting, dishes. I count housework when I am doing sustained work using upper and lower body. Examples: changing bedding, vaccuming, washing floors, anything requiring bending (cleaning oven, reaching under beds), stair climbing (for me that means laundry), climbing stepstools or ladders (washing windows and walls), sweeping floors and sidewalks, pushing and pulling (moving couch and other furniture), snow shoveling, you get the idea, My family enjoys the clean house and a satisfied mom.

Housework is not the mainstay of my fitness. Walking and cycling are (and swimming in summer). But I do count the housework I do. Some days I tear into housework, some days less. On days I do less, I probably am counting more walking or biking. I also count my grocery trips to Walmart and such. I count it as walking, giving an honest estimate of what it would be if it were on the road. I don't add in the calories of carrying in the groceries and putting them away in case I overestimate the walking part because of stops and starts. When I grocery shop, it's a big trip because I go as seldom as possible due to distance.

Just some ideas to ponder. When you read my blogs, from the start I am figuring out what causes me to overeat and exercise less. I am very analytical and it has come in handy for this. I am slowly coming to grips with what happened to get me this way. I was thin when I was younger, and I am figuring out why.

We're going to be living this way the rest of our lives, so what's the hurry? Be patient and we'll find ourselves thin. A Spark coach said recently that even if we don't think we're making progress, we can be sure something is indeed changing in our bodies.

One suggestion - take part of your 60-minute workout, say, 20 minutes to pack yourself a nice lunch or snacks whenever you go about town for anything, work, errands, whatever. Yes, take it out of your workout if you have to. If it protects you from eating at Long John Silver's, you at least have that. And that is a big deal. Then you are left with at least your non-exercise calorie deficit if you can't do the last 40 minutes of exercise. You have done no damage. And if you CAN do 40 minutes of exercise, that's about another 120 calories to your non-exercise deficit. And you won't feel so pressured.


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HEATHHILL 9/12/2012 1:37PM

    Well, if I could bring myself to be as brave as you are, I think I could have written that too. I'm not sure anything I've ever read before in my life hit as close to home as what you just wrote. I need to go read it again, then I need to write about how I'm going to face the monster myself. Change is good, change is positive and some say all you have to do is make up your mind and you can change, but I have found it to be harder than that.

Thank you for being brave and sharing this.

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IRONBLOSSOM 9/12/2012 1:27PM

    Very brave. And yes, step one is admitting it and leaning on your support system! We all fall down sometimes, the key is to get back up. GET UP! :-D

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GOLOPTIOUS 9/12/2012 12:46PM

    Your blog was completely inspiring to me today. I never thought about how being a perfectionist creates a problems with my diet and exercise but reading through that really opened my eyes.


And you're determined enough that I know you'll figure it out soon! You can do it, one step at a time!

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MIZCATHI 9/12/2012 12:40PM

    I am sorry you are going through this. Been there, done that. Finally I just had to stop in order to save my life. Literally. I hope you can get past this a lot earlier than I did. Basically I figured out that I was hiding beneath my fat. In protected me in ways that seem pointless now. When I was fat I didn't have to try. Being fat made me automatically a loser and imperfect. It weighed me down so hard it was impossible to get up, literally.

Now I know deep in my core that I don't have anymore time to waste hiding. I only have one life, and it's automatically going to be terminated. Now my moments are precious and must be lived. I can't life a full life unless I get out of hiding. It took guts, determination and hard work, but more than that it took courage to face my demons and fight for my life.

I don't binge anymore. I overeat, as you have stated here a completely different thing than binging.

Now I practice HALT.

Never get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired. If I can keep all of those at bay, I can make a success out of each day.

Big Hugs, I know how tough this one is.

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ERIN1128 9/12/2012 12:40PM

    Unfortunately, I don't know if this stuff ever gets easier...but I think the fact that you own up to it publicly, and keep working to move forward, is awesome.

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WHIP IT: Day 2

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

emoticon Eat Mostly Paleo
emoticon About 2,000 Calories Daily
emoticon 5 Servings of Freggies a Day

emoticon Breakfast at Home, around 500 Calories

2 eggs, coffee with creamer = 250 calories
(I was supposed to have sausage too, but Ethan cooked for me this AM and the sausage wasn't done by the time I had to rush out the door.)

emoticon Healthy Lunch, around 500 Calories

Planned: Salad with cranberries and almonds = 195 calories
My salad also had red onions, bell pepper, cucumber and tomato on it. I usually pick all of this stuff off, but I figured "What the heck?!" and gave it a try. Not too bad. Had 2 packs of club crackers with it, but I didn't really need them. Also realized I had regular Italian dressing, not the FF kind...ah-well. Total Calories = 399

* 2-3 Healthy Snacks, for a total of 500 Calories

emoticon Planned Snack 1: apple and almonds = 264 calories
Planned Snack 2: Kind Bar = 190 calories - NOT SO MUCH. *sigh*

Okay, so here's where I struggled again. I had a sort of "out of body" binge yesterday courtesy of Taco Bell. The damage? One Beef Supreme Chalupa, one Taco, one Beefy 5-Layer Burrito. The damage? 1,100 calories. OUCH!

Total = 1,290 calories

emoticon Dinner at Home, around 500 Calories

Planned: Keema over 1c brown rice = 416 calories

YAY! At least there is a small victory in that part. Of course, I should mention that I followed this with a cupcake. Logan's birthday was Sunday and somehow we forgot the cake part, which I meant to do at home with some store-bought cupcakes. I made up for it last night and we each had a chocolate cupcake with blue icing. Calories? I'd say about 310 calories at least.

Total calories for the day? 2,665

So much for having a low calorie day...BUT...I did better than I did on day 1, and it's all about the small steps, right?

emoticon At least 60 Minutes Working Out Daily - NOT HAPPENING. First of all, there was a huge time crunch. Second, I was trying to socialize at practice last night. Say what you will, but I find this to be very important for my mental well-being. Sometimes it's okay for me to be lost in my own little world, but there are other times when if I don't talk to other adults in a non-work-related situation, I basically tend to start going mad. Plus, my body is still screaming from Monday night's workout...which means 2 things - 1) Maybe I pushed a little TOO hard there...not quite ready for the intermediate stuff. 2) I challenged my body in a real way. I forgot how much this circuit training can do that for I'm thinking of adding it back into my routine on a more regular basis.
emoticon About 500 Calories Burned Per Day

* Morning Workout: Bike and ST - MISSED.
* Evening Workout: NTC 30-45 minute workout + walking 15 minutes - NOPE
* Plank-A-Day Planks (current goal: 4 minutes prone, 1 minute side) - NO FRIGGIN' WAY!

emoticon Work Every Day

* Get all cases to completion for now
emoticon Read through information sent yesterday and analyze data before deciding how to proceed
- Do telephone interviews of at least 3 witnesses - I did 1 and then got stuck when some more info came back on another case. Will work on this more today. I have at least 3 more interviews I know I need to do.
* Clean office
* Begin attempts for sponsorship for poster contest project

emoticon Drink at least 80-115 oz Water Per Day

emoticon Mom Stuff

emoticon Ethan - Football Practice
* Check boys' homework - OKAY, so I asked, but I didn't CHECK, which lead to Ethan doing homework this morning before catching the bus.
emoticon Make sure they've done chores

We had a serious family meeting last night wherein I asked everyone (again) for their help in getting the house back in order (again). I'll be sending Hubs a "Honey Do List" today since he's off work, and the boys have a list of what their chores are each day. I told them that they will have to earn their XBox and Computer time, which will now be limited, by doing all their chores and homework. I also told Logan that he MIGHT be able to earn back his computer by Friday IF he follows all the rules and does all his chores between now and then without me having to hound him about it. Let's see how he does...

emoticon Evening Chores

* Living Room - NOPE
* Kitchen - NOPE
* Laundry - NOPE

Honestly, there was like 0 time. I came home, started dinner, then family meeting time, then we ate, did Logan's birthday wish/cake, and then it was time for the boys to go to bed and I watched an episode of my current Netflix TV Series (watching Make It or Break It right now) before heading to bed. Somehow I just forgot about MY chores (great example I'm setting, right? *lol*).

emoticon Bed by 9:30 p.m. - NOPE. More like 11pm. Crazy night.

So, all in all, I did better than yesterday, but I could have done even there's room for improvement today. Once again, plans are changing (and might change again). I was supposed to go out with my bestie on Friday, but I forgot I also promised the boys I would take them to the HS football game that night (and promised some of the football moms last night that I would be there without thinking). So I've asked her to switch to tonight instead and I'm hoping she's free. *fingers crossed*

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Today's plan...

emoticon Eat Mostly Paleo - OKAY. This is NOT going to happen because of dinner...
emoticon About 2,000 Calories Daily
emoticon 5 Servings of Freggies a Day

emoticon Eat Mostly Paleo
emoticon About 2,000 Calories Daily
emoticon 5 Servings of Freggies a Day

emoticon Breakfast at Home, around 500 Calories
Sausage, 2 eggs, and coffee with cream = 445 Calories

* Healthy Lunch, around 500 Calories
Plan: Beef & Cauliflower Stew + Apple = 400 Calories

* 2-3 Healthy Snacks, for a total of 500 Calories
Planned Snack 1: Kind Bar = 190 Calories
Planned Snack 2: Banana (post workout) = 125 Calories

* Dinner OUT, BE CAREFUL!!
We're planning on going here probably:
I've never been here but I've heard great things. Thing is, if I'm being good I'll get steak or fish...but I have a feeling I'm going to cave and get pasta. Maybe the Pasta Pesto would be a good compromise there...*shrug* Basically, I'm going to try to go into it being conscious about what I'm doing, but I'm probably going to have some pasta and a glass of wine because I haven't seen my girl in months and we rarely get time together any longer (because I'm too friggin' busy to even breathe half the time!). Life's too short to be all "I'm on a diet" on occassions like these. Sorry, but that's the God's honest truth. I'll be living with issues with calories and food my entire life and I have to realize that there will be times when the plan flies out the window and you just enjoy some good food with good company. What I have to do is focus the rest of the time so that these times are more special and I don't have to feel the least bit guilty about them.

Plan B: Dinner at home
Hubs is going to be putting in some pot roast in the crock and whipping up some mashed potatoes from scratch, so if my plans fall through with my friend, I'll just go home and enjoy dinner with the boys.

emoticon At least 60 Minutes Working Out Daily - This will probably not happen again. Honestly, I'm shooting for sticking it out for 30 minutes...

emoticon About 500 Calories Burned Per Day - FYI: My HRM needs a new battery so I currently have no clue how many calories I'm burning in any workout...this is just more of a placeholder for when I get the battery replaced (hopefully this weekend).

* Morning Workout: NADA - I honestly COULD NOT get out of bed. My body is so sore from Monday that I feel like I've been hit by a bus. No lie. OW! And I mean EVERYWHERE. Arms, calves, thighs, butt, abs...even my forearms and neck are sore, seriously! GEEZ!

* Evening Workout: Laps at the pool - I'm hoping to squeeze this in between work and dinner.

* Plank-A-Day Planks (current goal: 4 minutes prone, 1 minute side) - I'm honestly not sure if I can tough this out today. I did like half a dozen different planks on Monday and OMG it still hurts!

emoticon Work Every Day

* Get all cases to completion for now
- Make telephone calls and conduct interviews (3)
- Work through and analyze data received yesterday
* Clean office
* Begin attempts for sponsorship for poster contest project

emoticon Drink at least 80-115 oz Water Per Day

emoticon Mom Stuff

* I'm off today, actually...sorta. Hubs is home so he'll be taking care of things mostly, but I do have some research to do on fundraising for Ethan's team. I promised the football moms I would bring some info with me on Thursday to practice...

emoticon Evening Chores

* Laundry - Might ask Hubs to do, actually...he'll be home all day.
* Bathroom

emoticon Bed by 10:00 p.m.

Finally, it's Hump Day, so the weekend is fast approaching. Things currently on my schedule for the weekend:

- Friday Night - HS football game
- Saturday Morning - Football drills with Ethan

Thankfully we have this Sunday off from games (Bye Week), but I still have other stuff to work on like getting the house picked up and then working on this fundraising stuff. I know I'm busy as all get out, but I really want to be more active in Ethan's sports...especially since I'll begin applying to jobs out of state again soon and the possibility of leaving is looming over my head. :(

Honestly, I'd like to go to Columbus either Saturday or Sunday and do the shopping I didn't get to do weekend before last... we'll see...

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SUGIRL06 9/12/2012 9:04PM

    I don't know how you get 3 boys to do chores. Rob and I were struggling for a while there with me being away. I was coming home to a messy house every weekend. He would complain that he had rugby and was *tired*. Finally, I broke and explained to him that I had to keep my apartment at school clean all week and it wasn't fair for him to want me (with him though, he's not lazy) to clean all weekend too. I also told him that I would rather spend that time with him, rather than sweeping floors. That won him over and I come home to a nice clean place at least 3/4 weekends a month! Good luck with your guys!!

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GUITARWOMAN 9/12/2012 12:12PM

    Maybe simplify a bit?

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EGALITAIRE 9/12/2012 9:59AM

    When does your busy season start emoticon

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