Monday, August 06, 2012
Haven't been feeling well the past few days, but I'm proud to report that other than my walk on Saturday, I have stuck to all my workouts for the month of August thus far. In fact, I worked out every day last week except Sunday and Saturday. Not too shabby. Still wish I had gotten that Saturday walk in, but somehow I ended up passed out on the couch in between cleaning projects. Like I said, I haven't been feeling very well. Heck, I fell asleep during an episode of Doctor Who for crying out loud! WTF?!
Sunday - None
Monday - Laps
Tuesday - NROLFW with w/u, c/d, and stretching
Wednesday - Laps
Thursday - NROLFW with w/u, c/d and stretching
Friday - Laps
Saturday - None (but a lot of cleaning)
Sunday - 20 minute AM Yoga Hip Opener routine (LOVE this one!)
Monday - Laps
Gonna try to keep it going...
My swim this morning was a killer! I knew it would be rough as I was going from 600 yards straight to 1,000...which I think is quite a jump. In my pool that's going from 30 touches to 50! That's almost double from one week to the next! It didn't help that I was pressed for time due to:
1) waking up late.
2) following the clock on the wall, until I realized it said 5 to 3 for 15 minutes and I was running late.
3) having to stop for gas because my dolt of a husband decided to go for a late night drive last night to Wendy's (shame on him!), not knowing I was rationing my gas and had JUST ENOUGH to not have to stop in the AM.
4) a traffic jam on the freeway 2 miles from my exit. It took me about 20 minutes to get 1 mile and then I had to go the back way round.
Plus, maybe my new goggles were a little tight. Or my new cap needs adjusting to. *shrug* I tend to think it's just the almost double increase in time without breaks. It required me to take longer strokes in order to take longer breaths and take too many recovery laps not using my legs. And I still ended up with a bit of a headache for my trouble. I was supposed to follow that 1,000 with another 4x100 and then a 2x60 and 2x40, so I was 600 off my target (minus the 20 yards of breast stroke to see the clock and the 20 yards of back stroke back before getting out of the water).
Between the time and the difficulty...I'm not mad at myself for not finishing.
I do think I might have to take another week before I do my mile swim.
According to 0 to 1650 one mile will be just under 83 touches...but according to the gym it's 88 touches for a mile. I'll shoot for the higher number when I do my first mile attempt...but I don't think I'll be ready for that by next Friday. Another week might put me there, though...we'll have to see how the rest of the week pans out.
That being said:
I don't want to be at work.
And there are another 6.5 hours until I can leave.
I guess I'll get some work done in order to get my mind off of the fact that there's another 6.5 hours left and I don't want to be at work.
Have a crockpot meal ready for cooking for dinner tonight.
Another football practice tonight...but this time I'm prepared!
My one big pet peeve of this football practice schedule, though? There is no schedule. I have no clue what other nights this week he'll be practicing. At the end of tonight's practice they'll tell the kids - next practice is [fill in day of the week here] at [fill in time]. It's a bit annoying.
Still, they might be getting jerseys tonight, so that should be fun. I'd love Ethan to keep his same number as last year, but I doubt he'll fit the same jersey this year.
And, for the record...it was really hard trying to forget to weigh in this weekend. Friday passed and that was alright. But Sunday was brutal. It was my old weigh-in day, and I debated all day whether or not I should peek. But I didn't. I stayed away. I realized that I needed to keep this focus. Right now working out and eating right are just a part of my life. I'm not perfect at it, but who is? And I'm not killing myself with negativity either. I'm nervous that it won't produce any results, but the other way - killing myself - didn't produce results either. At least this way I feel like I'm getting things done and I don't hate myself for what I don't do.
You can read about my weekend project(s) over at The Life & Times of the Fit Fat Girl:
Friday, August 03, 2012
Oh my lands...if you could hear the blog titles that have come out of my head this morning! HA! *shaking my head* I feel ashamed.
I'm not having the best day. Or, rather, I'm just not in the best mood. Mostly because I missed my morning swim, which throws off my entire day's plans and I need to rework my day again. Also because I have given in to eating out no less than 4 times in the past 2 days. What IS that? That's not me! It's just a mark of my not being prepared for the changes that needed to be made during the start of the football season. I just didn't realize that sitting for 2 hours in the sun and heat would take so much out of me and that the Olympics being on at the same time would steal hours from my sleeping schedule for the week. But, I'll do what I do best - readjust. I missed my swim this morning, but I won't miss it for the day. Even though I'm sore and tired and could probably use a little rest, I need today's swim both for the stress relief factor and because I'm trying to retrain my body and mind to expect 5 days of workouts and a more relaxed, but still active, weekend. And the only way to stop "starting over" is to stop giving up before the end of the week!
I also think I might need to take a little time from work today. I have had a headache since Tuesday and it's really eating into my stamina as well. I need a good long swim followed by a good long nap followed by a good homecooked and Paleorific meal. That would do me up just right...
We shall see how it all turns out, but I'm trying not to be negative about everything. The morning is over and even though I have the quote, "People are especially stupid today; I can't speak to any more of them." running through my head, I simply can't give in to the negativity because it will shut me down.
How do you guys pull yourself out of a morning slump?
You can see this blog written differently (*lmao*) at The Life & Times of the Fit Fat Girl.
Also keep an eye on that blog because I'll be posting a little recap of this week's new recipes from my meal plan and let your know which ones are keepers, which ones were just alright, and which ones were total flops (there actually WAS a major flop this week!).
I'll also try to keep posting there this weekend...something I don't do here usually. Let's hope I can find the time to do it! (usually I don't blog anywhere on the weekends because I'm trying to get things done and just don't have time to sit down at the computer).
Thursday, August 02, 2012
Yesterday I posted my goals for the month...so how am I doing so far?
Wednesday, August 1st
I got my swim in. Well, most of it. Apparently there was a scary storm coming in and the thunder from it meant I had to get out of the pool after 1200 out of my scheduled 1500 yards.
Aren't you scared? I know I sure was!!
Here I am trying to get away from it...
ONE raindrop hit my windshield on the way home. ...ONE. *sigh*
Dinner did not go exactly as planned. I had a bit of running around to do and Logan had skipped out on doing the dishes so I said "forget it!" and took Hubs and Ethan to the local Mexican place (after stopping off at the sports store to drop some cash on cleats, a mouthguard, and a chin strap sweat band thingy). I did well. Got a chicken nacho appetizer and only ate about 1/2 of it. Did have a few bites of the Chorizo from Hubs' dish, though. They make their chorizo on-site and it is absolutely fabulous!
The best part of my night? I actually shut off the Olympics (I still don't know if any of our guys took home a medal in the all-around) and went to bed at 11pm. Not excellent...but better than the past few nights.
And that meant I was able to get up early today and get my butt to the gym. I was running just a tad behind, but not so much that I had to cut anything from my workout (maybe if I had more time I would've done an extra 3 minutes or so on the TM for my cool down, but that's it).
Today was day 2 of NROLFW, so that meant Workout B1.
Deadlifts - 2x15 - weight: 95 lbs
COMBO SET 1:
Overhead Press - 2x15 - weight: 45 lb bar only
Wide-Grip Lat Pulldown - 2x15 - weight: 60 lbs
COMBO SET 2:
Dumbbell Lunges - 2x15 - weight: 15lbs each hand
Swiss Ball Crunches - 2x15
This was all done after another 5 minute warmup at level 13 on the bike and followed up by almost 10 minutes on the TM. I did only 1 1-minute run session at 5.0. I noticed my foot was NOT having it, so I backed off and walked the rest. I paid extra special attention to my feet and calves during my stretches and went to the showers feeling much better about myself. I'm still sore, yes, but I have to move past this sore and get to where my body is expecting this level of workouts again.
Tomorrow I've got another 1500 yards in the pool. Oh, how I wish my new swim cap(s) and goggles would get here because my old ones are causing all kinds of trouble during my first 600 yards! (I ordered 2-3 swim caps and a pair of goggles for a good price on swimoutlet.com. One is even a London 2012 special edition Lochte silicone cap. -- note: I have no clue why they put Lochte's name on it...probably to sell more...I bought it because I thought it looked cute...I'm not the biggest fan in the world of Lochte...though I like him more after he was humbled in a couple races.) I'll be sure to take pictures when they get here. :)
So that's that. Little snafu this morning. Running late = McD's drivethru, but I opted for an egg mcmuffin, which is slightly better than the sausage mcmuffin I usually get. Oh, and no leftovers for lunch today, so I'll have to figure something out when noon rolls around. Fun! (not...I friggin' hate eating out for lunch now...too many decisions and too many of them not following with what I think my body wants to be consuming nowadays. Maybe I'll spring for some fish or shrimp tacos if I can get the place to make them quickly....but I tend to think I'll likely end up at Subway. *sigh*) Football practice tonight, so dinner will be a late one. Going to have to munch on some nuts and fruit or something after work to hold me over until around 9pm.
Basically, I'm adjusting slowly. It was weird not to weigh-in today, but it felt good too. And after taking some measurements yesterday I realized that I actually lost about an inch on my upper arms last month! It has been FOREVER since I managed to lose anything there. Ya think maybe swimming freestyle 2-3 times a week for anywhere from 25-50 minutes might have anything at all to do with that? I'm sure it does! I had to add my right shoulder to the list of body parts needing iced last night. *lol*
Oh, and I tried these the other day.
It's called Unreal: Candy Unjunked and it's supposed to be a more natural substitute for many of the popular candy bars (this one mocking Reese's PB Cups). You can read my review over it at The Life and Times of the Fit Fat Girl - fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/
How did you start off the month of August? It's not to late to make the first 1/2 week of the month one that lights a fire inside you that might burn all month with regular maintenance. Get out there and play!
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
This can't be right...August already?! *sigh*
I thought about not making "goals" for this month. I thought about ignoring the whole thing and sticking to my plan of simply living a healthy life. And then, last night at football practice, all of that changed.
It was the start of Ethan's third year in football. First practice. And though I've cautioned him time and time again that he needs to start conditioning himself for it, he had a few bouts of stop and start exercising and never fully stuck to it in favor of playing video games and, well, being 10. I get it. How can we realize the importance of something like that when we're 10 and all we want to do is have fun and play? I don't fault him for that in the least.
But last night started off like every practice will from here on out until the end of the season. Warm-ups.
Run a lap around the field.
Do pushups (sorta).
Run a lap.
They always give the kids a break for water after the warm-ups and as Ethan trudged toward me I thought I heard him crying. "No!" I said. "You CANNOT cry. You can get mad and take it out on the field, but you cannot cry."
Truth is, it finally hit him how out of shape he has let himself become in the off-season. No manner of healthy foods I feed him can properly fuel him if he doesn't also include conditioning into his off-season training program. He collapsed into a heap next to the car trying to suck down water through gasps. He informed me, in between gasps, that he was not crying, but simply couldn't catch his breath. He was hyperventilating. And then he did start crying as he started to tell me, "I can't do it. I can't do it anymore."
I heard myself in that moment. We've all had those moments. When we realize that our bodies aren't responding in the way we thought they would - the way they did when we were conditioned through regular training. And to add insult to injury, as a child, he also has to deal with the fact that his body grew both up and out over his time off. He's now almost as tall as his brother, who is almost 3 years older than him, and he's about 120 pounds now, compared to about 90 last season. He's got more body to move around this year than he did last year and he was in full-on panic meltdown mode over what he considered a lack of his abilities.
I dumped my water over his head.
I talked him through about 10 deep breaths.
And then I told him...
"The first practice is always the hardest, but you look better out there this year than you did last year."
"You will not say that word to me again. We don't say the word 'can't' because WE don't give up."
"If you don't give up, I won't give up - deal?"
He made the deal. And I have to stick with it. And so, yes, I am making August goals. Because what better way is there to live a healthy life?
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See, through all the nonsense, what I didn't realize is that I actually lost 5.6 pounds this month! If I can build upon that next month, I'll finally be in the place I've been shooting for for the past 7 years!
Minutes: 777 (HAHAHA!) (12h 57m)
The Break Down-
305 minutes spent Swimming (5h 5m)
85 in ST (1h 15m) (including a supervised workout with my new trainer)
248 minutes with Workout DVDs (4h 8m)
139 minutes spent Walking/Running (2h 19m)
So almost 13 hours for the month of July. And, yes, I find the 777 hilarious! I mean, it was the 7th month and somehow I managed to pull a 777! This could be good for me...my oldest son was born on 9/9/99 and crazy number combinations like that pop up all the time in my family. Still, that's an average of 25 minutes every day for the month of July...and I'm not sure if that's good or bad, but it sounds pretty good to me. I'd just like to be a bit more consistent with it.
The month of July saw the biggest push to a positive change in my diet. I've really started cutting out processed foods and have started eating a more Paleolistic diet, which has done wonders for my usual tummy problems. I haven't been 100% on this. Closer to 70% probably. But I'm moving in the right direction.
The one thing I've noticed about Paleo eating is that my calories just seem to work themselves out when I eat like this. It's not as hard to "cut back" because the foods I'm eating are just naturally lower in calories than things full of grains and garbage.
OVERALL JULY GRADE: B-
I pushed hard and got a lot done, but I wasn't consistent. And I started eating healthier foods, but I had some emotional eating as well. All in all, I'd say it wasn't all that bad, and what happened somehow helped me to settle my mind with what needs to happen now to move me forward. I have had several people tell me "Don't give up!" and I'm not. Not in the way you're thinking. I'm just reworking my mindset and strategy to focus less on the goal of "losing weight" and more on the goal of "living a healthy lifestyle"...because as much as we all talk about how we're "changing our lives"...sometimes it can feel like a boring old diet - a must do on the list of lose weight, get healthy and fit. We like to think of it in pretty terms, but on weigh-in day sometimes it all falls apart if we don't get what we want. So I'm trying to change my thinking and make working out and eating right less of a "have to" and more of a "get to" - as in, "I get to eat all these delicious clean and healthy foods and not feel guilty for a random indulgence now and again because I know I'm putting time in at the gym to make my body healthy and strong." July made me realize that with this plateau I had slipped back into a diet mentality...and that crap needs to GO!
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I thought about not setting a weight goal because I don't plan on weighing in until September 1st (if I can help it), but I will say that I'd like to lose another 5-6 pounds like this month. That'd make me feel great and would set me up to be DONE with this plateau and under the 300 mark. Still, I'm not weighing in so I won't be able to stress over the numbers there. There are so many other beautiful numbers I can focus on - like fitness minutes! ;)
Okay, so last month I made it to 777 fitness minutes. I'm not going to go crazy here and try to amp up my workouts to high gear. Instead, I'm going back to the mentality of Spark - small steps lead to positive change, right?! So this month, and with sticking with my pattern/theme, I'm shooting for 888 minutes. *dopey grin*
That would average out to almost 29 minutes every day. A marked improvement.
And how am I going to get there? I'm sticking with the following schedule for August.
Sunday - 30m yoga/PT stretches
Monday - Swim
Tuesday - NROLFW
Wednesday - Swim
Thursday - NROLFW
Friday - Swim
Saturday - 30 minute walk or run
I will try to make every workout I can without stressing myself if I miss one here or there. And, no, I didn't schedule a "rest" day per se, but I'm considering Sunday rest days still because all I really want to do that day is make sure I'm stretching and taking care of my body - managing my hips, my knee, and the PF that is trying to come back. (Yay me... *sarcasm*) And I KNOW there will be some days that I miss my trip to the gym for whatever reason. I have to accept that this is part of life. I can't devote my life to this pursuit entirely and I must be ready for the unexpected family obligation...I just have to do my best to get to every workout I can possibly get to without making stupid excuses that have no real foundation in truth.
Eat more Paleo. Also, I've reset my tickers again on both MFP and Spark, so they have me at a lower calorie range. I'm not lifting as hard as I was months back, so there's no need for me to refuel at higher ranges. Still, I'm not going to stress if I go over now and again. I've been eating pretty consistently around 2000-2400 calories so dipping down to 1600 is going to be really difficult if I try to just go there straight on. Plus, I don't think it would be good for my body. So I'm going to allow myself the higher level of my range - around 1950 - and not stress if I go over a couple hundred calories now and again. In fact, my plan is to not stress at all, because that just leads me to binge/emotional eating. I'll be fine eating anywhere from 1600 to 2400 calories...and I still will try to hold myself down from raging if I get to 2600 on a honest to goodness "hungry day"...because we all have them. (I had one yesterday! ERMAGAD!)
I'm also going to work on keeping my "Weekend Projects" going around the house. I'd love to be able to finish up cleaning and prepping my laundry area this weekend for a bit of a makeover. I'm a little scared to move on to any other room, so if I want to stick with this one until it's completely painted, organized, and in lovely shape, I'm going to give myself every weekend in August to do that. But I may just organize best I can (painting is a pain in the rear!) and try to move on to another important room - either the living room or the kitchen. My goal is to have a better house on September 1st than I do today...and to keep it up throughout the month.
Also, I want to try to keep up my off-site blog. I'm hoping to do more recipes, reviews maybe, and reports on my weekly projects. It's an effort to organize my life and give you a glimpse into the other side of it...the not solely driven by number on the scale part.
You can follow me there at:
So...there we go. August goals. See...I TOLD you I wasn't giving up completely!
What are your goals for this month? Trying anything new and exciting?
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
First of all, if there are any cooks out there willing to help me revamp a recipe, you can find the info at my other blog: fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/2012/07
I have to tell you that I felt better yesterday than I have in a long time. It's like the pressure was released from my shoulders and the worries melted away a bit. (Not completely...I'm not insane here! I still WANT to lose weight and stay healthy so there will always be that little nagging "Are you sure?" question in the back of my head.) That lasted most of the day.
I do have to note that I was a little hungrier than usual yesterday...but I should also note that even though I planned on eating 2 slices of pepperoni pizza last night, I stopped at 1 and a half because I knew I was done. And that, my friends, is the power of not feeling pressured. I didn't emotionally eat the rest because I was angry about the situation and about the guilt I felt over eating it. In fact, I wasn't even feeling guilty. Of course, there was a comment from Hubs that made me want to slither into a ball, but...I know he didn't mean it the way my sensitive brain took it. He honestly just doesn't understand this whole "giving up without giving up" thing. I don't even know if I fully get it, but my body seems to understand.
I have done both morning workouts - yesterday and today - two days in a row without guilt and shame pulling me there. I simply tell myself, "This is your schedule. Today you have to get your workout in early because you have to take Ethan to football tonight." And off I went.
Yesterday it was swimming 1500 yards like a friggin' champ! (That's just 150 off my 1 mile mark!!)
This morning, it was Workout A1 from Stage 1 of New Rules of Lifting for Women. And I did it up smart too...I actually warmed up and cooled down and stretched before and after without nagging myself or fighting myself on it. (Warm-up was 5 minutes, level 13 on the bike. Cool down was a little run/walk intervals for 5 minutes, followed by 5 minutes of real cooldown slow walking on the treadmill.)
So far I feel soreness, but not pain. I do need to ice my hip and back, so I'm going to have to invest in an ice pack to keep here at work. Manage it, Esther. Manage your body.
The best part about all of this is that last night, without feeling rushed or overworked, I was able to take my youngest to get his football gear as the season is starting this week! Of course the first thing his coach told him? "You need a hair cut, Bub!" *lol* My poor son has my hair - thick, coarse, and his is even a bit curly as well. It grows SUPER fast. Just months ago we got him a mohawk cut that was pretty short...but now it's just an overgrown mess again. I'll be taking him this weekend to get it buzzed, though, because when he's under that helmet on hot nights in August, he does not need any extra heating from his hair!
Of course, it's not all sunshine and rainbows out my butt. I did have a moment again last night when I realized that I don't really know the moms like they know each other. A lot of them grew up in this area together and it is just SO difficult to make friends as adults. When we were kids it was so easy, "You like My Little Pony!? Me too! We are BEST friends!" Done. Now...well, honestly I have no idea how to make friends with these women. *shrug* I want to be included but I don't want to force myself in... *sigh* (bad Mom moment incoming) ...it might help if Ethan was more of a rockstar on the field. I feel like too often he's simply forgotten. And he lets it happen. That could all change this year, though...it's his 2nd year on the team and there are less kids and he's one of the biggest. Should be interesting...
So, there ya have it.
Oh, and I made my own deviled eggs today with my homemade (Paleo) Ginger Mayo! NOM! A great post-workout snack!!
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