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Friday, July 27, 2012

Weight Last Week: 301.0
Weight This Week: 305.0

It's official...I'm still on a plateau. And I'm tired.

  
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PATTILYNN224 7/28/2012 9:11PM

    I believe that its important for you to write your ups and downs regardless of whether others are tired of hearing about it. It's not their journey, its yours. Write for yourself, not others. Writing about the up/down emotions are so much better than eating the feelings.

Don't sell yourself short if writing your feelings is what you need to do.

I've appreciated your frustration and your honesty about your real journey - not a sugar coated one. I have empathy for you, sympathy sometimes too as I feel the emotions running hot and deep.



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RESTORETOSANITY 7/28/2012 8:39AM

  In reply to your reply...I subscribe to your blog because I think you're neat people just the way you are, so I hope you don't leave sparkpeople. It has nothing to do with how quickly you're losing or how long you are or aren't on a plateau. You have intrinsic value, and if you can't believe that, we'll believe it til you do!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/27/2012 3:58PM

    Not the end of the story, I think.

There are a lot of good suggestions here.

Can you get a full medical assessment?

Don't give up! You inspire me!


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_MSAPRIL17_ 7/27/2012 2:11PM

    You're not a quitter. You can't fool me.

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SKNYMOMWANNABE 7/27/2012 1:37PM

    So a couple babies in and in your early 30's...Have you had your thyroid tested? If not you should. Don't accept a diagnosis, ask for your numbers. I went from energizer bunny to sloth after baby number two. I gained a ton of weight. Hired a trainer, went to WW for 3 weeks...did it all right and lost ONE POUND. ONE!

I tried medifast, nada. I had my thyroid tested and they said it was "normal" My number was "7" so I asked for the scale-it was 1-40 and "low" was "6." Clearly this wasn't "normal" for me. I started on synthroid and the fog/depression lifted but the scale didn't budge. Tried a whole bunch of diets, no one mentioned the fact that I shouldn't have ANY soy with the meds, goodbye South Beach Bars! Goodbye 99% of protein bars!

Then of course there is the taking it on an empty stomach and waiting an hour before eating, new to me. My dosage got upped because "it wasn't working" then my hair fell out...ooops, my bad! The deal is this took years! My doctor blamed my fatigue on my young kids, high stress etc. I eventually got so out of shape that my metabolism was slowere than a dead person's. I could eat 800 calories a day and nothing. My thyroid failing kicked me into early menopause so at 36 I was having hotflashes and night sweats.

Finally my meds were correct. I had zero muscle mass, a really bad knee, aches, pains, low energy and I weighed 256 pounds. I realized I could change ONE thing. Just one. I found a women only bootcamp and went...everyday. I got my family onboard, eventually. I didn't change my eating for 5 months after joining bootcamp because I was trying to build muscles to increase my sluggish metabolism. Inches were lost-about 16 but "only" 5 pounds. I have arthritis in one knee(my 86 yo knee) and a wonky ankle in the other leg.

I can't make you like yourself. I can tell you that your shape changes with muscles.Your self confidence goes up as you accomplish things you thought were never going to happen again. I blew my knee at 27 and was told my running days were over and I was okay with that. I never thought I'd be doing a 10K at 43 or a half marathon(only one!) at 45...I didn't drop this weight quickly. I consider a plateau a win, I could be GAINING WEIGHT?! I'm jealous of people who lose 100 pounds in six months or a year. I've lost 60 in 2 years...I can tell you that your life is worth saving and that taking off another 100 pounds will go very far in doing just that. I will tell you to RUN to the doctors, have a full panel done. Figure out WHAT is going on and then fix it. My blogging is sporadic but I talk about different aspects of losing weight. Maybe one of them will reasonate with you? Good Luck in whatever direction you choose to pursue. Sydney

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VICKYMARIEC 7/27/2012 12:50PM

    Girl you are doing great. I know those numbers suck and it's been that way for so long. but you know regardless of that damn scale, you are doing great things for your body. Have you told NTB about your plateau? I know he pushed you and you ALWAYS push yourself, but at some point, something has to give. I'm sorry girl, hopefully soon you'll see some light!

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IRONBLOSSOM 7/27/2012 11:58AM

    I'm so sorry you're hurting like this. I know how much it sucks to plateau and feel stuck, and I agree that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result...so switch it up! Just do a different workout one day a week, hope in the pool instead of the bike or something, anything! I don't really know what your plan has been, but you need to mix it up! Switch up your eating, maybe do variable calorie days, i.e. Monday you eat the bottom of your range, Tuesday you eat the top, Wednesday you eat in the middle, etc...so that you "trick" your body into releasing some of that fat!

Think of it this way, it took your whole life to get to this point...it may take the REST of your life to get back and stay at your healthiest weight. You've done AMAZINGLY well until this plateau, if it were easy, everyone would be thin!

I know these are platitudes, but to me you ARE a success story already. You lost SO much and yes, you have further to go, but don't you feel better now that you did all those pounds ago? Don't you want to feel even better yet?

Maybe you need a break from the scale, maybe you need a break from the gym or even your eating plan. Maybe you're just burned out. But DON'T give up. I can only speak for myself, but I don't think anyone is "sick of hearing" about your journey, I don't think anyone here considers you a failure. We're all struggling every day. I'm embarrassed to admit the number of and drooling level when I think about Taco Bell. I have days where every hour I'm changing my mind between giving up and stuffing my face with pringles and chocolate, going on an all water all the time diet to make my loss faster, and having so little energy I'm nearly asleep in my desk chair. Things happen. Thoughts and feelings happen. DON'T LET THEM WIN!!! :-)

Ok, this is long enough, I just want you to know we all have these feelings sometimes, but we will ALL get there as long as we stick to it!
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CALLIKIA 7/27/2012 9:50AM

    I appreciate the support, I do. And maybe this blog will help me later. Right now? I have no idea what I'm going to do. It doesn't mean I'm going to go back to drinking full 2 liters of pop and pounding a box of Twinkies followed by a box of Ho-Hos. I'm not an idiot. I like the food I eat now, and I probably won't change a damn thing from last week to this one and on and on until the end of time. But I have to give up any hope of being a success story, of ever getting rid of my stomach, of ever getting under 300 pounds, of ever being able to say, "I did it!" because it's KILLING ME mentally and emotionally to keep hoping for progress only to see none. I feel like a child constantly starving for attention who does everything she can do to be good, but because she wasn't perfect she gets smacked across the face for silly mistakes that other parents would simply shrug over.

I'll let you know probably tomorrow if I plan on leaving or staying at Spark. I just can't rationalize in my head how I can be a support to anyone ever again. Yes, I lost 160 pounds. It took me YEARS to do it, but I did that. ....BUT... And that's a big but. In relation to the majority of people on here...it's like losing 20 pounds of the 40 that need to be lost. 50 of the 100 that need to be gone. I got halfway and then stalled out like a friggin' broke down car. And I don't know about the rest of you, but I'm getting sick and tired of hearing my up/down emotions on the whole thing. I can't keep obsessing over something that is probably never going to happen. I can't keep working weeks and weeks finally picking the lock of a door only to have it slammed in my face and locked again. Stupidity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. My stupidity is expecting that I might have the answer to this problem someday...because I don't. Something in me is broken and I don't know that it will ever be fixed...but right now it's my heart that hurts the most because I feel like my dreams keep dying and I work so hard to give them CPR each time, but they just keep dying.

This is not getting into grad school all over again.

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HDHAWK 7/27/2012 9:41AM

    Even if the scale isn't budging you are still doing good things for your body. I'm sure you have more energy and are able to do more things. You're certainly making more progress than I have in a long time! Don't give up! emoticon

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ELLISH 7/27/2012 9:11AM

    Plateau or someone who has done ond hell of a job and is maintained it for 8 months! I'll happen, you'll change something up and it will take right off again! Your and inspiration and the fact is everyone here knows you have it in you to acheive! ;)

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/27/2012 8:44AM

    Preach it.

I'm on month 8 as well and I feel pretty much done.

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ABSCAB1 7/27/2012 8:08AM

    Don't you dare give up..You can and will overcome this..This is a big change for your body..Just think this is for the rest of your life..You are doing so awesome..Try to stay positive and when you think you can't go on..get on here and read what people have posted..You are doing it girl!!!

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CALLIKIA 7/27/2012 8:01AM

    I have been on a plateau for 8 months now. EIGHT MONTHS. I'm tired. It's emotionally draining. I've tried. I've failed. End of story.

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EMGERBER 7/27/2012 8:00AM

    I know how hard it can be when you stall like this but pushing through you will be successful. Stay focused re-evaluate and you will succeed.

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ZOEANAEL 7/27/2012 8:00AM

    Don't give up! Have you looked all the great advice about breaking plateaus in the Secret of success section?

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It Wasn't Pretty But...

Thursday, July 26, 2012

There's a theme to this blog...as there seems to have been a theme for the past 24 hours of my life or so.

It wasn't pretty but...


Yesterday I had the new Chicken Cantina Bowl from Taco Bell. We don't have a Chipotle here, and, honestly, I've never even been to one though I've heard great things...but there have been some comparisons to this new Taco Bell infusion and that other (apparently higher class/fresher) chain. You'll have to judge for yourself there. I didn't have any leftovers for lunch yesterday and I was trying to think of something I could get that I wouldn't beat myself up for later. I did NOT want salad. I was sick to death of salad...and that left me with a choice of Subway sub, burger and fries, roast beef sandwich and curly fries, fried fish and fries...you see my point, right?! So this thing popped into my head and I immediately looked up a calorie count on it. 560 calories. Not TOO bad. And the sources of those calories were in the rice, grilled chicken, guac (hello avocado!) and black beans. Not bad options. Not exactly Paleo friendly, but better than most of my other options. Plus, it's new...and I love trying new things (honestly, though, I could've lived my life without having one of those Dorito tacos...blech!).

My thoughts? It wasn't pretty (the sight of it almost made me think twice about trying it at all), but it was actually quite good. And filling as well! I only ate about 1/2 of it and ate the other 1/2 an hour or two later. I'd certainly eat it again if I was running low on options/leftovers. It's better than a burger but not as good as a salad...and that's where it will stay in my head. But as far as indulgences go? It's a pretty safe one, I'd say!

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It wasn't pretty but...

I didn't go swimming last night after work. I know, I know...but it wasn't due to the soreness (but OMG the soreness!! YIKES!). Instead, Hubs called me late in the day to inform me that his father had found someone in the next town over who buys/repairs/resells washers and dryers. He informed me that my FIL had spent $100 buying us a refurbished washer, which was now sitting out on my lawn waiting for us to take it in. *sigh and YAY all at the same time*

I knew Hubs wasn't getting home until after 7pm, but there was some prep stuff that needed to be done first. Our washer/dryer area sits right inside the back door...which we never use. And without any ability to wash clothes and my son's brilliant cleaning style for cleaning his room (he throws everything in my hall....I can't tell you how many legos my poor feet have stepped on!) - well, I needed to do a little cleaning up of the area. Plus...well, Hubs has been lax on his weeding duties out back (hey, he has VERY FEW chores, but the yard is one of them...I will mow but I hate weedeating!) so there was some overgrown brush that needed to be cleared out as well. Enter the comedy of errors.

1) I got home and my brilliant son hadn't done his chores (dishes), so I had to quick do those so I could make dinner later.

2) I clear out the area in front of the washer/dryer after stepping on a few small bits of toys and yelling a few choice words.

3) I go to get the weedeater...it's electric...and Ethan informs me we don't have an extension cord. *facepalm*

4) I go to get the mower, because I figure I can just work at it with that...but the mower is out of gas, and our gas canister is empty. (REALLY!?)

So, yea, that was interesting. We finally got things sorted out when Hubs got home. We got the old washer out and (even with his protesting), got the new one in. (Small note here - I did a lot of the heavy lifting there. *big grin* My Hubs actually made some comment about calling his father to help. "Why?" I asked. "Well, so we can just lift it up in there." I looked straight at him and said, "Do you think I just go to the gym to people watch and look pretty?" And, I took the lead and we got the thing in there no problem. :) )

And our first load? It leaked everywhere. *lmao* (By now it was just funny...everything was getting funny at this point.) Hubs tightened the hoses in the back and we're now in business.

So, it wasn't pretty but I have a washer again and I'm wearing freshly laundered clothes this morning! (Not that I wasn't before...but these were the first clothes washed in my NEW (old...it looks like it's from 1973) washer!!)

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I didn't exactly get to bed early last night with all the drama, but it was around 11:20pm as I was drifting to sleep and I had set my alarm for 5am on the off chance that I was able to get up early and get to the pool to make up my swim I had missed. Little did I know my 12 year old decided to stay up all night...again (this is the last week they're allowed to sleep when they want...next week we go back to bedtimes and routines). He nudged me around 5:15am and said, "Uhm, Mom. It's 5:15am and your alarm is going off." "That's nice..." I told him. *lol* At least he had the intuition to realize I was still half asleep so he tried his approach again. He helped make me breakfast while I was rushing around like chicken sans head to get out the door.

I'm still sore this morning from TUESDAY *sigh* and that showed itself in the pool. Not to mention the countless equipment malfunctions I had. First of all, I got some conditioner in my goggles as they were in my bag. I tried to get most of it out, but it's totally screwing with my goggles (and my eye is burning so maybe there was a touch left in there when I put them on). Not to mention my cap would just NOT stay on this morning. I had to adjust it (and I mean pull it off and put it back on again) no less than half a dozen times! I didn't do my laps as programmed because I couldn't really think this morning other than counting. So I just counted laps. I think I swam slower than I ever have in my life...and it was sloppy as all get out...but I also swam solidly for a lot longer than I usually do (other than equipment breaks I only took about 2-3 breaks the whole time to catch my breath). I ended up doing 60 laps...it took me until lap 50 to do the calculation in my head that 1200 divided by 20 is 60. Yep...that's how "slow" I feel this morning.

It wasn't pretty...but I did 60 laps in 47 minutes and got my swim time in.

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So now I'm back at work, wishing like hell I was at home again in bed. I'm so damn tired and I hurt all over! While I may have missed my swim last night - dragging a washer up and down 4 very tall steps into and out of position certainly isn't "relaxing" or "resting"....

Hope you all have a good day. I might take a nap now. *head falls on desk* *snoring begins*
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IRONBLOSSOM 7/27/2012 12:05PM

    I had that as a burrito the other day, it was GREAT! I really liked it and I was SUPER full, plus it just FEELS healthy. I don't think the burrito is as "good" stats wise as the bowl, but I was eating and driving, it's much easier! :-)

It is a lot like chipotle, I've sworn off chipotle because their calorie counts are so inconsistent they may as well not even be there. But I used to love them. The thing was, you could get really unhealthy with it too, add on the sour cream and cheese and guac and you're adding like 300 calories that's mostly fat! And only one good fat! Still, they're very very very tasty.

Sounds like you really kicked butt on the swim, even if it was slow, you DID it! This morning my workout was just...bad. I don't know, I only got about 5 hours of sleep, had a few drinks last night, whatever it was I closed my eyes while doing a plank and literally started feeling dizzy and like I was falling asleep, emphasis on falling. But I did it. I did an hour. Maybe not the best hour, maybe not as good as it could have been...but better than nothing!

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ERIN1128 7/26/2012 12:18PM

    Awesome on the washer!

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ARUNNINGKAT 7/26/2012 11:49AM

    So glad that you have a new (old) washer! You don't realize how nice it is to have your own washer and dryer until you don't. Been there a few times and it is no fun!

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SUGIRL06 7/26/2012 11:43AM

    How nice of your FIL to get you a new washer!!! Even though its not new, its one less thing to worry about now! And go you for putting it in yourself :) We had a flood too last week. The drain tube popped out of the pipe. Luckily I had walked in when it just started to drain. I immediately stopped the washer and ran to get Rob. Easy fix!
~Ang

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GUITARWOMAN 7/26/2012 11:26AM

    You lead an interesting life.

Our kids are adult and independent, just DH and me and a nicely functioning washing machine that Sears will come to fix if it breaks down.....

I kind of miss (actually for very short periods of time) the busy life one has with growing children.

Good for you for getting the swim in. Sounds like you did a lot?

And good for you for reasonable food choices!



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VICKYMARIEC 7/26/2012 11:21AM

    I'm not even done reading your blog yet, but i LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your comment to your hubby about going to the gym to just ppl watch and look pretty! CLASSIC!!!!

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ROMNEY3 7/26/2012 11:06AM

    Sounds alot like my night, only instead of a washer it was 100 bales of hay, onto wagon, off wagon onto other truck, off truck into customers lot. Mine I have arm muscles this AM.

Good job getting the swimming in this morning, hoping to do that after work if the storms hold off.


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New Trainer Boy and Other Stuffs

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

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That's how I woke up this morning. My arms, legs, and hip are sore as all get out from last night's workout. Jason (New Trainer Boy) worked me VERY hard last night. I honestly need to start scheduling these on swim days because I have no CLUE how I'm supposed to swim 1200 yards today. (Probably VERY slowly... *lol*) I'll do my best.

As you can tell, I didn't make it to the pool this morning. My body was beat and needed the rest. I'm lucky I got up to get to work on time the way my body feels right now! I just wanted to curl up in bed and forget that it was a weekday! As much as I'd like to say I loved the workout, though...I didn't much care for it. Every single time I get a trainer workout I lose a bit of my confidence. I know this is probably a good thing - they push me beyond my normal limits and challenge my body, but I feel like it's day one and I just started exercising with how difficult some of these seemingly easy moves are for me still.

We started with 10 minutes on the Arc Trainer.
No clue why I got on that thing. I friggin' HATE it and it made my hip sore. Next time I'm warming up on a bike, dangit!

Then it was a steady circuit of randomness.
Deep squats
Step-ups with an extension
Inverted rows on the Smith machine
Angled pushups on the Smith machine
Leg extensions
Seated leg curls
Hip ab/adductions
Hammer curls while in a wall sit position
Shoulder presses
L-T raises
Tricep pulldowns

*pants heavily*

By the time we got to the hammer curls I thought I'd impress him by doing 20lb dumbbells. Hadn't taken the 24 pushups and rows and tricep pulldowns into account. I did 2 with the 20 lb dumbbells and then had to back off a bit to 15 lbs.

I stretched like a good little girl after my training session.
Burned about 450 calories and felt pretty good about it. (My goal was around 350.)
NTB (New Trainer Boy) again liked that I wear my HRM so he can keep track of how he's pushing me as well. I shared my calorie burn goal with him and then he kept an eye on my watch throughout the workout to make sure we got there and past that.

So, all in all...not bad.
He's a nice guy. He actually asked me for some advice in dealing with his other clients.
He complimented me on how well I know the machines and workouts.
He stated that he knew I'd had already lost some weight...but wouldn't say why (me: "Because my body is shaped all weird now? I've lost the majority of it from the top half so I look GREAT until you get just under my abs. *sigh*)
He does have a sense of humor and prefers that we converse a bit during our workouts so the time goes faster.
And he told me if for any reason I don't "click" with him, I just had to let him know and we'd find someone else.

I think I'll keep him. ;)

Other stuffs -
I missed the derby last night because of my training session - which I'm perfectly fine with. I was able to go home and make the pre-planned Paleo dinner I had scheduled which included a bacon wrapped beef tenderloin filet with grilled baby bella mushrooms and onions with a side of roasted root vegetables (carrots and turnips) and Brussels sprouts. (I still have not found the best method for cooking Brussels sprouts to make them taste as good as I once had them at a fancy restaurant. I'm going to try the bacon and Brussels sprouts recipe next time...this time it was with some brown sugar, but that didn't seem to help much.) It was the best steak I've had in a very long time and the grilled mushrooms and onions made it unnecessary for me to add steak sauce.

I did have a little Crunch bar piece. It's the new Girl Scout flavors...the coconut one? Those things should never cross the threshold of my house because they are just as bad as the GS cookies themselves!
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I finished the night with some dark chocolate chips and a tall glass of water while icing my hip and watching some TV.

This morning the scale was showing a number that I liked...but I chose to simply ignore it because I do NOT want to get my hopes up. Like AT ALL. If it happens this week - Great! If not - I'll keep working towards that goal.

emoticon Dinner tonight is homemade "taco stuffs" - which is basically a mix of peppers, onions, tomatoes, and taco meat seasoned with my homemade taco seasoning, which I will eat over a bed of lettuce while the boys will eat it in taco shells.

emoticon Tomorrow night we're making Salmon Cakes over shredded cabbage with homemade Ginger Mayo (from everydaypaleo.com)

emoticon I think I'll make a beef stew on Friday in the crockpot (or I'll wait and make it Saturday when I have more time to watch it on the stove).

emoticon And Saturday will either be fish or chicken with vegetables or something else I find while menu planning (which I hope to get done today for next week).

As for my workouts...

emoticon Tonight is another 1200 yard swim. No ST tonight - going to have to swap nights on that this week or just back off for this week only until I get my head wrapped around my new schedule.

emoticon Another 1200 yard swim on Friday.

emoticon And then 30 minutes of yoga for Saturday.

Tomorrow night?

emoticon Mud Pit race at the County Fair!! *lol* It's what the boys and I planned to sub out for the derby we missed last night. We've never seen the mud pit race before, so I hope it's fun and interesting!

  
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BECKYB73 7/25/2012 2:57PM

    This blog is SO FULL OF WIN, I LOVED IT!!!

Thank you for the warning about those Nestle crunch GS bars...I was toying with the idea of trying one, but it sounds like it's too much of a gateway food for me.

I took Monday off (after the warrior dash, I was SORE), but have a session with my trainer tonight...there's SO MANY things I want to work on/improve, it's CRAY CRAY.

Way to keep setting 'em up and knockin' 'em down, Es!

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ERIN1128 7/25/2012 12:25PM

    Yay on the trainer!

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IRONBLOSSOM 7/25/2012 12:21PM

    Sounds like this trainer is a keeper! I realized that I'm not going to be able to afford to keep my trainer after this session, which is making me sad, but we kicked butt this morning and I feel like my shoulders may just go ahead and give up on me altogether and move to bora bora! :-)

It's great to find someone who will push you to your limit but not beyond it!

Have fun at the mud pit race, I love going to the county fair just for fun random stuff like that!

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VICKYMARIEC 7/25/2012 9:37AM

    YAY on a trainer that pushes you and doesn't think he needs to hold back. When they know you've already lost some weight i think they believe in you - in that they know you are serious about exercising. Keep up the great work girl!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/25/2012 9:21AM

    Interesting stuff!

I admire you for working with a personal trainer, this is impressive to me.

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ELLISH 7/25/2012 9:10AM

    Love the detail of your blog! Cool!

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Getting My Head Back in the Game

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Guess what's coming up?!



When I was a kid growing up I always loved watching the Olympics. I remember trying to catch snippets from the 2008 Olympics when Phelps won all his medals while traveling through NYC for the first time with a friend. This year, however, things are a little different.

First of all, I get it a little more.
I'm understanding a little better how much work and dedication and effort it must take to rise to that level of athletic achievement. I have a lot of Sparkfriends who are dedicated to their hardcore workouts and are always working toward their next PR. Their dedication is astounding to a lot of people. I hear all the time from people how I must be so motivated and dedicated to stick to my workouts even through struggles like injuries. But what we've got going on is nothing to the 6-8 hours a day these people spend every single day in the gym working on getting better, moving faster, developing their technique and honing their skills. This year when I watch the Olympics, it will be with even greater respect. Yes, these athletes probably have something a little "special" in them, but they aren't born superheroes like I once thought they were. They were made. They made themselves. And they continue to do that every single day leading up to one point, to one race, to sometimes 2 minutes or less worth of performance time where they have to put it all out on the line and prove to the world that their dedication to their sport was worth it and they measure up with others like them from across the globe.

So what will *I* be watching?
Swimming, of course. Always a favorite of mine! Also diving and gymnastics. I may try to catch some of the rowing and some archery, but the big three for me of the summer games have and always will be diving, swimming, and gymnastics. This year I may actually try to watch some of the weightlifting as well. I never used to think much of it, but I understand that dedication now more than ever as well.

With all these thoughts rolling through my head and the excitement of the opening games this week pulsing through me, it makes you wonder why I had a major "moment" last night. A binge unlike those I've had in a LONG time. It wasn't me setting out to destroy my work like usual...this was a mindless binge to the point of pain...something I haven't done in a while.

But unlike all the times before, I woke up with a more level head this morning. That was one day. One hour of mistakes. It does not erase the 45 minutes I spent in the pool at 6am yesterday morning. It doesn't mean that all my hopes of ever reaching my goal are lost forever. It was a mistake. It could have been worse. It certainly could have gone better. But no matter - it was, and it's over. Time to move on.

I didn't do my ST routine last night, but not for lack of motivation or whatever. My phone reminded me when I got home last night that I've got another supervised workout tonight at the gym. I'll be meeting a new trainer and I have no clue what he's going to ask of me and I didn't want to completely put myself out last night and have nothing left for today. I still have the tightness in the back of my knee to worry about and the hip stiffness as well. There's a reason why I backed off my workouts for now. Mostly because my body needs it...but also because I want to see if I can maintain my focus even when I'm not stepping into the gym every single day. I want to see if it's possible for me to stay strong and move forward and keep losing while not putting my body through hell. Slow and steady wins the race...or at least that's the theory I'm testing right now.

I'm honestly a little nervous about tonight. Tanner was amazing. He could joke with me and my workouts went by in a quick 45 minutes that felt like 10. He put me through things that seemed so simple but challenged my body in ways I never knew it could be challenged. He worked around my body aches and pains without ever letting up on me. I'm hoping by Tanner suggesting this guy for me it means he'll be the same in his efforts. My goal is to shut my mouth and only say "can't" if it's physically impossible or if I know it's going to mess with my injury in a way that might put me out of business for the rest of the week. The rest...well, I'll get it done. If I walk out of there burning at least 300-400 calories in those 45 minutes, I'll consider it a win. (Incidentally, all of the trainers I've worked with there totally love that I wear my HRM to work out. Both Tanner and Raj kept checking it to make sure they were working me hard enough throughout the entire 45 minutes.)

Plan for the day?
emoticon Drink LOTS of water. Flush out the mistakes of last night.
emoticon Eat healthy, well balanced Paleo meals.
emoticon Put in 100% effort at the gym tonight.
emoticon Head home and make a well-balanced Paleo meal for dinner. (We're having steaks and roasted veggies tonight. I made the veggies the other day so I'll only have to reheat those. I'll grill up the steaks with some onions and mushrooms and I think everyone will be quite happy. Let's see if I can NOT overcook mine, though! I don't have steak sauce to fall back on to make it sufferable!)
emoticon Get to sleep by 10pm so I can get some decent sleep tonight and wake up early in the morning for more laps. (Well, if we don't go to the demolition derby at the fair, that is...)

The one good thing about my new schedule is that in addition to lap swim time in the AM before work, my gym also has lap swim time every day between 4:30-5:30pm. That means that I'll be able to make up any missed morning laps right after work! I'd rather not have to do this, but it's there if I need it. :)

emoticon Oh, and hand wash some clothes. *sigh* Hubs got the part for our washing machine that broke last Wednesday. We thought perhaps it was just the belt (again)...but it seems to have been the motor as well. That means Hubs and I will be setting aside some time to shop for washers in the near future. His next day off is next Monday and I'm wondering if I shouldn't just take the day myself so I can get this whole thing sorted out that day. I NEED a washer in my house, dangit! I don't have oodles of time to spend handwashing everything in the bathtub! And I certainly don't have oodles of time to drag everything to the laundromat...which is probably what I will be doing this weekend. Time to get me a few rolls of quarters and wash everything in my house that needs washing so we're all caught up at least. *sigh*

Oh, the joys of being an adult. *sarcasm*

  
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ERIN1128 7/24/2012 12:23PM

    LOVE the Olympics! Swimming and diving are awesome, and it's always fun to watch something you'd never watch otherwise - in the last winter Olympics, I totally got into curling, of all things. Total bummer about the washer, hope that gets resolved quickly!!!

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IRONBLOSSOM 7/24/2012 11:58AM

    I love the olympics and always love those three as well. What I didn't know until the winter olympics is that my boyfriend is OBSESSED with them. He records them and watches literally every minute! By the time they're over I'm READY.

Too bad about the binge, but if we were perfect we wouldn't be here, right? For some reason the past three days almost every meal I've eaten has been out! Never my choice, but definitely my "going-along-with-the-flow-ness." It's good that you're keeping a level head, moving forward, and kicking butt!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/24/2012 11:27AM

    Yes, the work that the Olympians put into their performance is amazing....in fact, any true achievement, I think, depends on a bit of talent and a lot of hard work.....I have even read that Mozart achieved what he did because he had been practicing and playing music for hours a day from a very early age. I think I got this idea from Malcolm Gladwell, can't remember the exact source.

Nice to see your quick and healthy recovery from the binge!


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SUGIRL06 7/24/2012 9:53AM

    I never watch the Olympics. Well, not consistently. If I catch something interesting, I might watch it for a little bit but otherwise, I don't pay attention. I am always amazed by the gymnasts though!

And good luck with the new trainer! I am glad its someone your old one recommended and not some random one. Hoping it works out!
~Ang

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SARAHJ19 7/24/2012 9:22AM

    I am super excited for the Olympics to start! emoticon
can't wait for the swimming and gymnastics. My girls loved watching the gymnastics with me a few weeks back!

Your plan for today is great! emoticon emoticon
Good luck with the washer situation! If only you lived closer...I am selling my washer and dryer!
Have a great day girl!

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VICKYMARIEC 7/24/2012 9:05AM

    I hope your trainer surpasses your expectations! I don't recall...what happened with Tanner that he's no longer your trainer?

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EXPOGIRL18 7/24/2012 8:51AM

    I, too, am amazed at the dedication of Olympians. I can't wait fo the Games to begin!

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The Romantic Weekend that WAS (with some pics)

Monday, July 23, 2012



I honestly, hands down, could not have asked for a better weekend. It was the most fun, relaxed, and enjoyable time that Hubs and I have spent (alone) together in a very, very long time. I think we argued ONE time for about 5 seconds. That's it. Two days mashed together doing everything together, barely glancing at our phones or other electronics that were connected to the outside world, and still we managed to get along like...well, like an old married couple. *lol*

I will say that after we came home last night, though, the missing the kids thing hit big time! *lol* So glad they're coming home today!

Anyhow, to recap just a bit...

We started out heading east to Blackwater Falls in Davis, WV. We took some curvy back roads through the mountains to get there, which really was part of the fun for both of us. We mostly kept our eyes on the road, just taking it all in, laughing over nothing, and listening to some REALLY good music on the radio once we got closer to Morgantown (we both commented on how much we wished we could take that station home with us! We didn't hit a SINGLE bad song the entire time and the commercials were few and far between).

I will admit, however, that it got a little dicey about 2 hours in. My hip started hurting. Like...a LOT. It went from a dull ache to a stinging and stabbing pain to this fire radiating around my entire hip joint. It was torture! Thankfully, we saw a strange little roadside pit stop place as we were coming down the mountain right at the height of my discomfort so we both opted to take a quick break and get out and walk for a minute.

It was a great place to stop too! After using the facilities, Hubs and I walked around the huge yard looking at decades worth of ancient machinery - and donkeys and other animals too! *lol* I kept asking, "What's that?!" but Hubs had no idea either.

Here are a few highlights.






I swear those picker dudes from TV would have had a friggin' field day in this place. For me? It just made me REALLY want the camera I've been dreaming about for about 10 years. (And I've decided that I am GOING to find a way to start saving up for the the thing...even if I just save a buck a week...)





Seemed so random to me to have animals out there...and their droppings created a rather interesting maze of land mines, I'll tell ya! I got about THIS close to dragging some of those donkeys around with us the rest of the day!

After the walking around, my hip felt a LOT better, and Hubs and I got back on the road and finished the winding drive through the mountains to Blackwater Falls.

I have to say, these falls are quite impressive. They aren't "beautiful" in the sense that I think of most waterfalls. It's not a place I'd like to have a lunch next to and sit for a while and chat. In fact, it's stupidly loud because (I guess from the rains lately) there is SO MUCH WATER going down the rocks! These falls are more impressive in the way Niagra Falls is (in fact, it reminded me of a smaller version of that). Hubs was supremely impressed and even told me later that it totally lived up the the expectation he had in his head...in fact, it may have surpassed it!


From the first platform down the LONG steps (over 200).


Getting closer and getting wet.

Interesting side note...the water in the falls is supposed to look like tea. I'd say so!



One thing I should mention is that Hubs and I didn't do quite as much "hiking" as we thought we would. I forgot that Hubs stubbed his pinky toe something awful a week or two again and is still limping. So between my hip and knee and his toe...well, those 200+ steps down and then back up...well that was all the workout we really needed!

After another quick potty break it was back on the road to head to our B&B for the night.

Well, after a quick stop to see The Smallest Church in 48 States...which, yes, was really small! *lol* I'd say you could fit MAYBE 24 people in here plus the preacher.



I have always wanted to stay in a Bed & Breakfast, but I never knew whether I would find it charming or creepy (it's like staying in someone else's house!). Thankfully, the place we went was quaint and quiet and I had reserved us the best room in the place (which, also thankfully, was in another building from the main house). For any interested parties, we stayed at The Inne at Watson's Choice in the Harvest House in Uniontown, PA. The owners didn't bother us at all after check-in, but made sure we knew that they were willing to help meet any of our needs if we had any (and gave us a number to call their main residence on the property).

Some pics from the property...




We immediately sat down to plan out dinner. We both wanted it to be a bit "fancy" but we weren't willing to pay $100 for dinner. Seriously, we consider $60 a fancy dinner night. We're happier around $20 for the two of us. I found a place that served fine dining food, but at a more reasonable price (they actually served a meal - with sides - for the same price you'd get just a steak and a small salad at comparable places).



I highly, HIGHLY recommend this place to anyone in the Uniontown area. I think it's also a B&B (or maybe it used to be?), but it has a full restaurant downstairs. Hubs and I actually walked in the wrong door and got to see the kitchen staff hard at work before we were seated. The staff was friendly and pleasant and simply showed us to a table.

Hubs had a seafood pasta dish. It was a rare treat for him as I didn't think he much cared for mussels and clams (he admitted when the dish came that he didn't care for them much, but I figured maybe he hadn't had them cooked properly, and from the way he devoured them? I'd say I was right! *lol*). The shrimp in the dish was HUGE!



Hubs didn't say a word when I ordered a second glass of Blackberry Merlot after having tried it. AMAZING! (I'm so mad I forgot to ask what brand it was because it was SO good. No bite whatsoever!) As for dinner, I tried to be as Paleo as I could as I didn't want any stomach problems upsetting my weekend. I did have a roll, but as for the food, I ordered the house chicken (which, other than the heavy cream, was completely Paleo). It had mushrooms and sundried tomatoes on it and was amazing! The people at the table next to us also remarked on how good it was.



But the best thing I had all night (besides the merlot, of course) was the Sesame Ginger dressing on my salad! YUM! Do NOT miss this one if you end up at this place.

I had intended to order dessert (and they had grilled peaches too! *pouts*) but I just couldn't eat another bite! We settled up our bill (around $60 bucks with tip!) and headed out.



It may be blurry, but it's the only full-length shot I got of us all weekend. The nice lady kept telling us, "We can take one on the stairs!" Maybe that's what we should have done...

After dinner, Hubs said we could go see a movie or something, but I had other plans. We ended up back at the B&B with a bottle of rose champagne and Casablanca (which Hubs outright REFUSED to watch about a half a dozen times...but I put it on and asked him to just lay with me for a bit and he ended up LOVING it!! *lol* He says it's because of all the Nazis. *snort*).

The next morning, even though I had hoped and prayed for waffles or French toast (I actually WANTED something non-Paleo *lol*), I ended up with an almost completely Paelo breakfast. Fresh fruit, vegetable bake (like a quiche), a small slice of artisan bread with butter, and grilled or roasted tomatoes and zucchini. There was some coffee cake and other pastries, and I had a few bites, but the breakfast was really quite delicious and their coffee was really good as well!


Day 2

Possibly the best thing I planned for the trip was coming up. Hubs loves architecture and I love nature. What better than to go see a Frank Lloyd Wright house, right?! We could've gone to either Kentuck Knob or Fallingwater or both, but we were already running low on energy, and I with my hip and knee and him with his wobble from his toe...we figured one would be plenty...and if you're going to pick just one FLW house to see, you pick Fallingwater. SO glad we did. It was everything I expected and more! Hubs loved it as well and I kept thinking how funny it was that we made this a weekend of waterfalls. *lol*











We made one last stop on our way home for coffee and (more importantly) for the dessert I had missed the night before. We ended up at Almost Heaven Desserts and Coffee Shop in Bridgeport, WV. The iced latte I had was pretty good, but the cannoli, Hubs' shake, and the chocolate cake left a lot to be desired (I had a bite of the cannoli and cake and took the rest home...Hubs drank his shake but he said it was really bland). The place, however, was saved with their White Chocolate Biscotti. SOOOO good!



If I'm ever in the area again, I'll be stopping by to see what other kinds of biscotti they have on sale that day. (The girl working there said the anise kind was her favorite.)

A couple edited pics for you...







I guess it's back to the real world now. Work today, and time to get used to my 5-day a week 8-hour days shift now. The boys will be showing up here around 3pm I think and I'll be off at 4pm. Thankfully I already started the morning with my 1200 lap scheduled swim, but NROLFW will have to wait and I'll have to swap in some bodyweight ST tonight instead as I'll be needing to take the boys home.

The rest of the week, the plan is simple.

Tomorrow - Rest
Wednesday - Laps before work, NROLFW after work
Thursday - Rest
Friday - Laps before work, NROLFW after work
Saturday - 30 minutes of yoga

Thankfully, I weighed this morning and even though my water drinking left something to be desired this weekend and we were in the car a LOT and I didn't count a single calorie, I'm only up 2 pounds...which I'm guessing is most likely just bloat. I'll be pounding the water for the next few days and hope to even out or even maybe see a loss again on Friday. Even 1/2 a pound would thrill me after having one of the best weekends on record! ;) The only struggle I'll be facing this week is whipping together a meal plan...I didn't plan for one this weekend like I usually do, so I'll have to try to fly by the seat of my pants for the next few days. Hopefully I'm skilled enough and have been doing this long enough to be able to do that without any problem.

Hope you all had a great weekend!

  
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ATROTTIER 7/24/2012 5:29PM

    I LOVE THAT DRESS ON YOU!!! You look amazing!!! Your weekend sounds amazing, I'm so happy you had such a great time! =)

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ARUNNINGKAT 7/24/2012 12:26PM

    Girl, you don't give yourself enough credit! You are beautiful in these photos! And it sounds like you had a wonderful weekend. So happy for you!

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DARKFAERY 7/23/2012 8:37PM

    Yay!!!!!!! I'm so happy you both had an awesome weekend!!! You totally deserve it! You look so beautiful in that dress. I love it!

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MUSOLF6 7/23/2012 8:03PM

    Looks like you had a great time....you two are a cute and beautiful couple.... emoticon

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SERENEART 7/23/2012 6:49PM

    What great pics! Sounds like the getaway was wonderful. emoticon

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WILDBEANERZ 7/23/2012 3:07PM

    Sounds like a perfect weekend! Your pics are awesome too!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 7/23/2012 2:20PM

    I'm so glad that you and hubs had a fantastic adults weekend. You guys totally deserve it, and the pictures are beautiful.

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IRONBLOSSOM 7/23/2012 1:34PM

    Wow, sounds so fabulous! I'm jealous :-)

Glad you had a great weekend, hope you have just as great an upcoming week!

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VICKYMARIEC 7/23/2012 1:17PM

    It looks like you guys had a blast!

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ERIN1128 7/23/2012 12:29PM

    SO glad you got "date time," you guys needed and deserved it! Sounds like a great weekend. As for Fallingwater, isn't it amazing? My parents are huge FLW fans, my brother's middle name is Wright (really!), so I'm well educated on FLW work. :-)

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MUSICNERD1993 7/23/2012 12:25PM

    Sounds like you had a great time! I love the pictures!

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CHICAT63 7/23/2012 12:19PM

    Awesome trip, thanks for sharing it gives us ideas. By the way you look HAWT in that dresss !!!!! emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 7/23/2012 12:08PM

    Sounds like a WONDERFUL time! :)

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SUGIRL06 7/23/2012 11:35AM

    Looks like a great trip!!! You look amazing in that dress! Love it!
And I was thinking, no pancakes or waffles because it's summer! You got all of their fresh (probably local) deliciousness. LoL
Have a great week! I hope you enjoy the 8 hour days even though it means 1 more day of work.
~Ang

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MJ7DM33 7/23/2012 10:19AM

  Nice!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/23/2012 9:55AM

    Wow, what a wonderful story, I love that kind of road trip when you don't know what is around the corner.....

Glad you had a great time!


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RJSAMS 7/23/2012 9:45AM

    Sounds like a lovely weekend!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/23/2012 9:43AM

    Looks like a great trip! Glad you had a good time!

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