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Why Bad Day Blog Posts Are Good - W6.D4

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Lately I've been reading some blog posts from people about their bad days. And I mean - a lot. This is not a bad thing, but what worries me is the apologies they make for posting a "non-motivational" blog post...especially from those who have been crowned with the Spark Motivator crown. While I understand their emotion, I have a little something to tell my motivators - all of my motivators, whether you wear a crown that Spark made or an invisible one that I have placed upon your head without you knowing...

Your "bad day" blog posts are motivation too!

Sometimes when we feel like people are watching, or when we hear people say "You've motivated me to do better!" we feel a sort of obligation to that person. We feel like all eyes are now on us and we must not fail to remain the motivator they have come to expect in us. But two things happen here.

1- We stop living for us, and start living for them. The collective them. A specific them. It doesn't matter. It is no longer about what we need, about what we feel or desire, or the pain we've experienced. It's no longer about our journey or the loss of motivation we have, and our struggle to find someone to motivate us. It's become about the people who look up to us. We imagine ourselves on the pedestal there, and we're afraid if we fall we're going to crush the people below us under a ton of marble, and not only will it be "ruined" for us, but for them as well. -- That's just too much weight to be carrying around!

2- We stop realizing that "motivation" is a circle. Think about order to be motivational, you have to have been motivated. You keep people in your life who motivate you and inspire you to be your best. For me, it's my husband, my children, my mother. But I've had people come up to me and say that I motivate them to be better as well. Like my friend yesterday, who kept walking because I wanted to. Who doesn't really need to lose any weight, but is trying to get fit - and who is also going through the sudden loss of her father. I pushed her not because I wanted her to walk more, but because I needed it. And if she had said she was done, I would have stopped and finished my workout later in the day. That's just part of being a friend.

Your "bad-day" blogs remind us that bad days happen to everyone. It is much easier for us to aspire to be "like you" if we know that you are human, that sometimes you fail/fall, but you get back up again. If we didn't see you fall, like ever, we'd simply assume you'd been bitten by some radioactive spider and while we might admire you, we could never aspire to be you - not really. Because we understand that we're not perfect. We understand (especially those of us that are larger here) that it has been a long road of not being perfect to get us to where we are today. AND we understand that we'll have falls along the way, because we aren't perfect, and we never will be.

If I was designed to be perfect, I'd be one of those boney girls like my friend T, who weighs less than your average African swallow and actually has trouble finding clothes that don't fall off of her. I'd be able to eat whatever I wanted and never have to worry about things like calories and fat grams. And, even then, I would not be perfect. Because while I would look skinny, I would not be healthy. I might have insomnia because of my poor eating habits, like one friend of mine. Or I might have stomach ulcers, like another. Either way perfect is not possible.

Last night I did a "bad" thing too. I went to the chinese buffet. WHAT? Yeah, you heard me. The CHINESE BUFFET! I haven't really been out to eat without checking my tracker once since I started this whole thing. And I've really wanted some chinese from our little buffet in town. So as we're realizing we have a bare fridge last night, and hubby looks right at me and says, "What do you want to do?" and I know what I want to do but I'm afraid he'll be disappointed in me (see? there it is!!), and the kids are saying "Chinese!" because they know how much I love that little buffet...Dad turns to one and says, "That's not really the right place for your mom's diet." I smirk and say, "Well, actually...that's exactly where I want to go..."

"Really?" says hubby...unsure...waiting for me to take it back.
"Yes." And then I did what I always did, I felt the need to qualify or justify my reasons to him. To explain why I thought it would be okay for me to go to the buffet. It went a little something like this - "I want to see if I can. I don't want to say that I can never go to another buffet again, ever! And I'd rather do it now, while I'm in control...rather than wait until I'm having a bad week and have my 'screw it' mentality and really blow things!"

So...we went. And I ate. And I paid attention to portion sizes and had more white rice with a tiny bit of fried rice thrown in to trick myself, and a few small pieces of my favorite chicken dishes and some broccoli. And an orange slice or two for dessert. I survived my "bad day" in a way. And, honestly, I don't see it as a bad day, because I was conscious. I was awake and alert and paying attention...I have never done that before at a buffet. EVER.

So thank you, Motivators - crowns or no...because you motivate us every day by showing us that a life can be lived this way. A full life with ups and downs and twists and turns and joy and sorrow. I never wanted a thank you. For everything. Even your bad days!

Now get back on that treadmill and inspire me again! emoticon

Finally, leaving you with my fortune cookie from last night:
"Losers visualize the penalties of failure. Winners visualize the rewards of success."

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ALIMESSA 5/28/2010 1:44AM

    Your blog totally fit right in with my day today...thanks...I needed it!

As always,
Stay Strong!

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MEGS4148 5/27/2010 1:17PM

    You are exactly right! This sight should be a place to share the good and bad days, because that is reality. If we all had things perfectly figured out, we wouldn't need each other so much.

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WHITEJM11 5/27/2010 9:19AM

    Love this post. Thanks for reminding me that we are all humans and that we need to remember that good and bad days happen to all of us. THANKS

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    Well I can't think of anything not already said. Great Blog!! emoticon

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AKJADE 5/26/2010 5:42PM

    Totally wonderful blog, and now you have inspired ME! This is a wonderful reminder that it's ok to be human, for anyone who may be doubting that. I love chinese food as well, so it was great to hear that it IS possible to go to a chinese buffet and survive! As someone else said, you ROCK!


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MOMM4LIFE 5/26/2010 2:19PM

    emoticon Awesome blog!

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RAVENSONG37 5/26/2010 2:12PM

    Thanks for this! I too am way more motivated by people struggling and working through challenges than those who seem to skate through life or who never feel comfortable being vulnerable enough to admit to difficulties. Making ourselves vulnerable allows people to connect with our real selves and it's such an amazing experience!

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WINDEE52 5/26/2010 1:48PM

    Right on sister! Grest blog!! emoticon

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RAWKNRUN 5/26/2010 1:41PM

  Awesome blog, I often don't post my "negative" blogs just because I don't want to bring / let people down. Hugs

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DLEE27 5/26/2010 1:05PM

    I totally agree. I have actually been discouraged by a Spark Motivator or 2 for that exact reason - they seem to perfect. Great job at the buffet too!

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SUGIRL06 5/26/2010 1:02PM

So true!

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MERALO 5/26/2010 12:31PM

    Nicely said! You're so right, I also enjoy the bad day blogs and I always gravitate to them if I can tell from the title that they're about a bad day.

I'm seriously proud of you for conquering the chinese buffet...that's a big victory. Learning that we can live and still be healthy is a great feeling! I wouldn't bother checking out an addicts program just're all right there.

Nice blog, thanks for telling us to go back to the art of being human!

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ERIN1128 5/26/2010 12:09PM

    Love this blog!!!

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_DASH_ 5/26/2010 12:06PM

    you rock. 'nough said. :D

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CALLIKIA 5/26/2010 11:04AM

    Wow! Well, hard to respond to all of that, but I'm glad it's helped some of you. :)

And, yes...I did well at the buffet...but I have to remember that this needs to be a RARE thing, rarely than the once a week event we USED to have with it. I'm a chinese food addict, I they have programs for that?

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HEATHERALENE 5/26/2010 10:59AM's funny that today is the day you chose to write this blog...and that I came across it. Today my blog was a 'bad day' blog. I've been feeling very unmotivated and down lately and decided I needed to vent today. And as I read your blog, I realized that at the end of mine, I too apologized for the negativity. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Reading this made me feel a little better about that much needed vent I had this morning.
YOU motivate ME!


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GETFIT2LIVE 5/26/2010 10:57AM

    You are SO RIGHT! We need the 'bad day' blogs as much (or maybe more) than the rah rah, we can all do this, ones. Finding out that the people who lost a ton of weight struggle just like me and seeing how they pull out of the blue funk we all get in from time to time helps me keep getting back up when I stumble and fall. Life isn't perfect, and no one here is either. Thanks for stating it so well!


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CREATINGAMANDA 5/26/2010 10:46AM

    Totally agree with you ... gold star


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MOMM4LIFE 5/26/2010 10:42AM

    This is a great blog which puts life all into perspective - right? I mean, we all have our bad days or off days or whatever kinda day label we want to use. Being here on Spark with everyone has made this weight loss journey bearable, fun, hard, all over the place, but it has worked! I feel accountable to me, my Spark friends, and those who just happen to stop by! Thank you for stating that journey so elogquently. Isn't funny how others want to help you succeed? emoticon

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BAMBI04 5/26/2010 10:38AM

    Soo very true! And great job having self-control during your chinese buffet!! You are making great progress, keep it up!

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TENACIOUSTIGER 5/26/2010 10:34AM

    well done on the chinese buffet, I find eating out the hardest as your just guessing cals and portion size and also so much choice, Ihave always used a big stick not a carrot to motivate me but are trying to change that emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MICMANSELL 5/26/2010 10:32AM

    GREAT Blog!!! Thanks for sharing!

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Chef Boyard-Me? - W6.D3

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

*announcer voice activated*

In a land, far, far away. Armed with only a spoon, a pan, a grill, and the contents of her fat chick stepped up to the plate in an effort to...COOK HEALTHY!

*announcer voice deactivated*

Just needed to share a little something with all of you out there in Sparkieland. Did you know that Spark can teach you how to cook? That's right, I said it. Spark can make you Chef Mom (Dad/Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Son/Daughter/Div
if only you give it a chance!

One thing I really wanted to do this time around was to learn how to cook healthy foods. I wanted to know if I could grill a pepper and make it taste good. I wanted to know if I could pull everything out of the fridge and decide in a moment how to put those items together to create a nutritious, delicious, and not at all fictitious meal. And it turns out...I can!

Last night as my husband and I were sitting around (playing Guitar Hero 5, which kept telling me over and over again how much I rocked - that game is such a self-confidence booster!) and we didn't really know what to have for dinner. Sure, we had a few leftovers in the fridge...but that was boring. We wanted something good. Something warm and just plain tasty. And I, for one, didn't want anything that came out of a box.

So we head to the fridge, anxious, doubtful and I pull out the remaining produce and an almost forgotten cut of beef from our previous trip to the store. (Another day in the fridge, and we would have wasted about 6 bucks!!) I'm standing there staring at the beef, a big, beautiful red pepper, a huge green pepper, 3 big portobello mushroom caps, and some other mushrooms (I love mushrooms, I put them in everything! *lol*) and I explain that I had bought these items so that I could make kabobs on the grill, but that I had forgotten to buy any skewers.

Hubby starts to walk away, discouraged...and I think - Now wait just a gosh-darn minute! Skewers or no skewers - I can make this work! Now, normally I would pull up the directions for a recipe for such a thing...but I decided instead to wing it. I made a little marinade with some red wine vinagerette and a dash of soy sauce, and another with some olive oil and garlic. The mushrooms get coated with the olive oil mixture, while the beef and peppers get the vinagerette treatment. I pull out a few red potatoes for the heck of it, half them. I pull out my no-salt seasoning mixture from the whole foods store and sprinkle both sides of everything (except the potatoes).

Hubby has the grill going. I make aluminum foil pans for my peppers and mushrooms (and the potatoes). I add the meat to the grill next to my two makeshift "pans" and I hope for the best. This could be utter failure. Complete disaster and wasting of money could be happening right now. But we wait. And wait. And wait.

Some time later, I pull everything off the grill. I make hubby up the plate and make myself one as well. And as I pull the first bite into my mouth I hear, "Oh my god!" I look over. This is it...the final disasterous verdict. Time to pull out the mac-n-cheese reserves... Hubby is smiling. I mean, grinning ear to ear smiling. It was a success people! A success! Later that evening hubby tells me that this dinner was "The BEST thing you have EVER made!" He's full and happy (and healthy too!).

So from the small girl from the suburbs of Columbus, who often forgot her cookies in the oven and burnt them to a crispy black substance. Who more than once has left water boiling on the stove so long that all the water evaporated and the bottom of the dish got a burning. Who once a towel set directly under the smoke detector because it was bound to go off sometime between the making of lunch and the making of dinner...usually during both...made dinner! The best part is, this isn't the first time I've done this. I've been winging it with recipes for a few weeks now, and everything has turned out pretty good!

And how did I do it, you ask? Why, by stalking all of your food blogs. By reading a bunch of recipes and finding the patterns. By carefully discovering through these methods which foods pair well. What kinds of additions you can make to spice up certain dishes. How to properly cook onions and garlic in olive oil! (Don't laugh...I couldn't do that before...) Betcha didn't know your Spark could be so darn helpful, did ya?

What are you making for dinner tonight?

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ALIMESSA 5/26/2010 1:22AM

    Thanks for the info!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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    Sounds good!! yummy!

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KILA1228 5/25/2010 5:50PM

    Your making me hungry!

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FRANKIEKNIGHT1 5/25/2010 12:36PM

    Love the recipe you made up. I'm gonna try it with chicken tonight. I love to cook. Thanks for the blog.

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MERALO 5/25/2010 12:12PM

    Oooh, we just had a meal from the SP recipe pot ground beef, rice and corn....yummy! Way to go!

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AXISLADY 5/25/2010 10:29AM

    At 70-, the worst part for me is deciding what to fix. I am so "over" cooking but I know that it is a better choice. I will try to make it a goal to check recipes more often. Thanks for the boost.

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DLEE27 5/25/2010 10:26AM

    That's so awesome! Great blog gorgeous!

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SNOWFLAKE57 5/25/2010 10:18AM

    Do you think you could come to my house and make the meals? This is probably our worse part of the day, figuring out what to eat. Maybe I can cook like you someday when I grow up.

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SHANNONSTILLS 5/25/2010 10:17AM

  Way to go

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To All the Doubters - W6.D2

Monday, May 24, 2010

Let me start off by saying that this is not directed at any of you...unless you doubt me, and then it is. [Warning: Rant Incoming] I mentioned to my family this morning that I walked a 5k this weekend. First let me explain my experience.

I got this crazy idea on Sunday morning that my workouts had become plain 'ole boring. I have been consistently walking a mile to a mile and a half at least 3-4 times a week and working out in some other way (usually cycling) every other day. I work out every day, and while Friday's gardening was a nice change of pace for me this weekend, I wanted to push myself a little to see where I could go. So I mapped out the route for 3.1 miles from my house, out 1.5 (and some extra) and back. I looked at the map a few times. I thought about it for a while. I gauged how my body was doing and whether I thought I could take it. And then I realized that I wouldn't know if I didn't try.

I set out with both boys in tow. Ethan is 8 and Logan is 10. Ethan is in better shape than Logan and was excited because he has begun his own "training" regimen for football season, which starts at the end of July. He's like his mom...when his heart is set on accomplishing something, he will do everything it takes to pull it off. So we headed out about 2pm. (Which was horrible thinking on my part, btw...but I was really afraid I would wuss out if I waited.) The first mile went just fine. Mile 1.5 I reached without too much hassle, save for the sun. Mile 2 crossed and I was getting tired. Mile 2.5 and my fingers began to swell.

That's right, my fingers got HUGE. And I freaked out for about a second before I realized what was happening. My legs felt fine. My heart was pumping. But my brain felt it needed those oxygen stores elsewhere (heart, lungs, legs, etc.) My hands were sacrificed because, well, who needs hands to walk? I monitored my fingers the rest of the way home and while they were swollen and numb, they were not turning blue or purple. My brain was allowing just enough oxygen to keep them alive and I could see the house...almost done. So I walked the rest of the way and collapsed on the porch.

Hubby came out bearing gifts of water...cold water. I drank a whole 30 ounces or so and begged for more. (I had already drank about 25 ounces on the way, and some of it soaked my shirt because I stopped paying attention to actually getting all of it into my mouth. *lol*) I watched my hands and within minutes feeling was coming back and they were starting to shrink again. My body was recovering much faster than it ever has before.

Hubby begged me not to do that again for a while, and I assured him that I had already told myself it would be another month before I tried to push that hard again. I just needed to know that I could. I just had to. And I took all safety precautions I could think of. I took my cell phone with me in case I needed hubby to come pick me up (he's done this before when I went too far out and couldn't return). I thought about calling him twice, but not because I didn't think I could make it, but because it was HOT. Too hot. We stopped 4 times to rest in the shade for a few seconds. I hadn't really thought about the sun that much, and I suddenly understood why races start so darn early in the morning.

So, yes. I made it. And today? Today I feel great! No, seriously. My foot is a little sore in one spot and I still feel some slight soreness throughout my back and legs, but nothing that makes me think I can't do this or that. Even still considering a walk for lunch today. (Though if I don't get to it, I'll just cycle at home later.) I feel healthier than I have in years. I feel ready to stop smoking that's a bonus (and also, probably, a reason for my heart/blood issues yesterday...DUH!)

Anyways, I tell this (summarized) to my family and my sister, who just finished a half marathon tells me how I shouldn't have done it. How this is a newbie mistake to increase so fast. And how my body can't take it. Yes, I understand that she's a half-marathoner now, but does she really think she's my personal trainer. How about a "Maybe take it a little easier/slower next time." or "Hold off on doing that again, I agree...but great job on making it through." She even told me this after she stated that she went from doing 7 miles to doing her half marathon! She didn't even know that day if she could do the 13.1 miles, but she pushed herself to do it! WTF, dude?

One thing I love about my Sparkers. Even the runners among you don't claim to be experts unless, well, unless you are. And while you might make suggestions, you know about constructive criticism. About "at-a-girls!" with the "try-this"-es. (Did that make sense?) And few of you would ever presume to know what my body can or cannot take. I love you all for that!

And to all the doubters out there... This 392 pound woman walked a 5k yesterday...what did you do?

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    Oh my gosh, you go girl!!!!!!!! That is amazing!!!!! I am totally motivated with this blog!

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RTB444 5/24/2010 6:10PM

    It's funny how sometimes the people closest to us can bring us down the quickest. I'm glad you're in high spirits. You did a wonderful thing and took all the right precautions, so good for you!!! Thank you for sharing this story, can't wait til I try my first 5k!

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RAVENSONG37 5/24/2010 3:46PM

    This is so awesome!! You did something SO wonderful for yourself. Listen to that part of you who knew you could do it...and to all of us on here who are so PROUD and EXCITED for you!! Your family probably just worries for you and doesn't know the right way to express themselves. You have inspired me to run today...even tho I'm tired and don't really want to do it! YAY! I'm so happy we are doing this "together"!!

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AKJADE 5/24/2010 1:04PM

    Awesome! Has anyone in your family seen Biggest Loser? Those folks go for it, at any size or weight, they push thru the pain. I think you were brave, you were prepared, and you DID IT! You are an inspiration to this newbie!



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MERALO 5/24/2010 12:27PM

    Ah man, I had a similar incident this weekend but the issue was nutrition...silly people know how to rile you up!

WELL done! Do it again - you know just how far you can go, and you're sensible enough not to overdo it. Ignore the rest, just do it!

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CALLIKIA 5/24/2010 12:00PM

    No kidding! *lol* I'll admit it freely, about that part - I was a fumbling idiot! Full on idiot mode!

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ABETTERCHERYL 5/24/2010 11:53AM

    You go! I still believe that once we are properly motivated, we are our own best trainers. Great job at pushing yourself but maybe wait until it cools off later in the day or in the moring?! :) Keep up the great work!!

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KNOWMOREBBK 5/24/2010 10:28AM

    You rock! You listened to your body, you hydrated and you were prepared. On top of that, you are setting an example for your boys. Stay strong and motivated and always safe. emoticon

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SWTLDY 5/24/2010 9:40AM

    Wow!! Quite a story.

Yes, you did take a big jump, just to see if you can do it. Your family should have understood that you are proud of your accomplishment. I would be too. I weigh 235, and I don't think I could do as much as you have. I'm not much of a walker or a runner. I know, I know, I should be doing it. lol

I think it is wonderful for anyone, newbie or not, to try to push themselves to do better. Yes, granted, you should have taken it a little at a time to get up to that far. But, you did it, and you made it through it. Just the feeling of knowing you can do something you thought was so far fetched is a wonderful accomplishment.

I LOVE your last sentence in this whole blog. Short and to the point. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ZENTHAE 5/24/2010 9:37AM

    You're amazing!!! And you have inspired me.... I am going to try to do a 5k today!

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PRETTYMANDI 5/24/2010 9:25AM

    you go girl!

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Getting the Hang of Things - Week 6.Day 1

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Weigh-in Day

Starting Weight: 466.6
SP SW: 416.2
Last Week: 398.8
Goal This Week: 396.8
Actual: 392.8
Weight Lost This Week: 6 pounds
Total Weight Lost with SP: 23.4
Total Weight Lost overall: 73.8

Goal Updates:

emoticonFood Goals
- Cook at least one new recipe a week and have the family rate it.
emoticon This week we made Turkey Meatloaf (10 from fam), Chicken Fried Rice with Eggplant (7), Slow Cooker Pork Roast (9)
- Measure everything.
emoticon I didn't measure EVERYTHING because I wanted to try a few times to see if I could trust myself a little more when I'm NOT at home. I think I will go back to measuring again, though. The only thing saving me this week was the large amount of activity.
- Drink 8 glasses of water every day.
emoticon I bought some Diet Rite the other day and have had some pop for 3 days! EEP! Cannot resort back to this habit. Grabbing some more water for this week!
- Consume 4-6 servings of fruits and veggies every day.
emoticon Don't think I got this in the last couple days, but I was doing really well there. Need to restock the fruit bowl before the weekend is out...down to a single banana.
- Track everything.
emoticon Okay, so while I didn't do the best with healthy choices this week...I forced myself to track it anyways. Turns out that "not best" doesn't necessarily mean "bad" or "horrible".
- Work on switching from coffee to green tea.
emoticon Okay, I did have ONE DAY that I drank 0 coffee and had a glass of tea instead around 3pm (when I get really sluggish at work...I work 10 hour shifts so by 3 or 4 I'm exhausted). The rest of the time, I went back to my coffee...but I am lowering the amount of creamer I use.
- Reduce dependence on frozen dinners.
emoticon I only had frozen dinners on Monday and the rest of the week I had sandwiches or leftovers from the night before.

emoticon Fitness Goals
- Work out for at least 10 minutes every day.
emoticon I made myself do it, even when I didn't want to. I'm now 5 day into my new 100 Consecutive Days Workout Challenge. Going to start working towards walking that 5K now.
- Follow SP strength training workouts.
emoticon I didn't ST this week except last night. I'm going to work on that this week.
- Cardio jam sessions 3-4 times a week, walking at least 30 minutes.
emoticon I had a bad energy and motivation week. I still worked out but I didn't walk as much (rain contributed to that a little). Will do better this week. Did up the intensity on my inStride Cycle last night and felt like I was in a spinning class! *lol*
- Work interval training to work towards goal of running a mile.
emoticon I do this now when I go for a walk. I make myself vary my pace a bit and speed up to push myself a little bit more each time.
- Start training to walk my first 5K with Mom.
emoticon This wasn't really on my mind as much this week. I'm going to change that this week. Going to start by seeing how long it does take me to walk 3.1 miles. Wish me luck and tell hubby I'll be back in 2 hours! *lol*

emoticon We did plant or veggie and herb gardens this week! It's so nice to see those little plants out there and know that soon I'll have fresh organic veggies to put in a million different dishes I'm going to try!

What I learned this week:
I learned that every single day counts. The beginning of this week was hell, but come Thursday I pushed myself to do more, to do better...and it resulted in a 6 pound loss for the week.

I learned that I can't lose weight where I want to. *lol* Where I'm seeing the most improvement is in my arms and my butt! I really want this stomach gone but it's a stubborn little thing. It's like one of those friends that you don't really want around but you can't figure out how to make them leave and stay gone. But I should focus on the fact that my "shelf butt" is now more of a "bubble butt" and that my arm flab is starting to SLOWLY shrink. These are good things. I'll take weight lost anywhere for right now...the belly will leave eventually.

I learned that dimples are cute when you're losing weight. There are now dimples in my lower back and butt. *lol* I talked to hubby last night and we have decided that I've just happened to lose some of the fat stores there, so they're dimpling in at those points. Not a bad thing at all, because soon the dimples will grow until there are no dimples, just a smaller butt and back.

I learned that I have a wonderful family! And that not eating out four times a week doesn't kill them. In fact, the kids are having fun trying new things. Still can't get Ethan to eat any veggies other than eggplant, but I'll make him come around. He did end up eating some green peppers when I cooked them long enough...and there were actual onions in my meatloaf that he didn't pick around!

So there you have it folks. Please take this lesson from me. If Monday and Tuesday, and even Wednesday you feel like you're doing a horrible job at maintaining your focus and working on your goals, Thursday or Friday, or even Saturday is not too late to get them back on track! I lost 6 pounds this week in basically 3 days. I didn't starve myself. I didn't beat myself up. I moved more and made healthy choices, even when I felt like I didn't need to eat anymore but still felt hungry. The other night when I went back for more food? It was healthy food! I put the ice cream back in the freezer and had another slice of the turkey meatloaf. I ate 4 ears of corn trying to train myself to indulge in a healthier way. Not saying this will always work, but it worked for me this week.

Weight loss goal for next week: 389.9
I realize this is a little more than 2 pounds, but I would love to kiss 390s goodbye! That being said, I'd be happy with 390.8, which would be 2 pounds. Know what? This isn't sounding impossible anymore!

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MEGSFITNESS 5/24/2010 9:07AM

    This is such an inspiration :) I'm really glad I caught up on your blogs.

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ALIMESSA 5/24/2010 2:00AM

    I am so happy for you...your doing great!! Congrats on the weight loss and the words of is never too true!!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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PRETTYMANDI 5/23/2010 12:00PM

    I am so happy for you! Congratulations on an awesome weigh in! I know the number on the scale isn't everything, but those weeks when it dips so dramatically certainly makes one feel rewarded! I am so happy that you are seeing the fruits of your labor!

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MERALO 5/23/2010 11:43AM

    Good for you...slow and steady wins the race! Keep going and let us know how you're doing...

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CINABEE 5/23/2010 11:26AM

    Good for you keep up with your goals your doing good. emoticon

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School Lunches - W5.D7

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Okay, okay. So you've all seen Jamie Oliver's food revolution and his struggle to bring healthy school lunches to Huntington, WV. Yesterday I went to my sons' school because my 8 year old begged me to come eat lunch with him. I have to say that I was worried. I was about to see the state of WV's school lunches firsthand. What I saw, though, was not at all what I expected.

I sit down next to my son and start analyzing the food on his lunch plate. A small bowl of chili, a small packet of Oyster crackers (about 60 calories and only 2g of fat), a peanut butter sandwich on wheat bread, a small apple, a package of baby carrots and a package of about 4 slices of celery. The worst thing on my son's tray was the Chocolate Milk that he selected. (I convinced him to get white milk for his "extra milk" choice.)

I was...well, surprised and pleased! These aren't BAD food fact, dare I say it, these are pretty healthy choices. Probably around 500-600 calories or so, maybe a little more fat than I would choose, but these are kids...after lunch is recess so they're likely to run a lot of this off in a few minutes. So for those Americans that are afraid all our school lunches are going to hell...well, maybe they're really not. Maybe, just maybe, your child's school is making healthy decisions like mine. And if you're worried that your child's school doesn't "have the money" to make healthier choices, please note that I live in a rural area. Our school is likely one of the most underfunded schools here in WV and, still, healthy decisions are being made! So don't lose heart, Americans. Certainly check up on your child's school to see what they are doing to keep your kids healthy, but don't assume it's all bad...

On a side note...I ate a ton last night for dinner. No, seriously, I was so hungry I ate 4 whole ears of corn! I was so scared and afraid to put this in my nutrition chart because, well, because I had failed. I ate lunch too soon after breakfast because I wasn't on my schedule. I had a small treat after dinner. And within an hour I went back and had a little more food because I was still hungry. I even had a Wendy's Jr. Bacon yesterday! It was a busy day, and I didn't really feel overly guilty about my choices, because life just happens sometimes.

I did it anyways. I put it in the tracker. All of it. And you know what? I was within my ranges on everything (and still under on carbs...WTF, dude?!). Not to mention the fact that I burned like 1,000 calories yesterday spending almost an hour rototilling the garden and then spending another 2 planting my veggies and herbs. The scale says I'm down 2 pounds again...but I'll wait until official weigh in tomorrow to really accept it. Until then, I'm going to try to be a good girl all day. I'm going to continue to make those healthy choices. And I'm going to figure out some kind of exercise to do today through the spurts of on again, off again rain.

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MEGSFITNESS 5/24/2010 8:44AM

    I'm so glad that your son's school is making healthy choices :D thrilled, actually!

and the jr. bacon cheeseburger has fewer calories than you'd think. Try it without the bacon and you'll be doing even better ;)

My favorite wendy's "treat" is their small chili, though. I Love it.

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ALICEART2010 5/22/2010 2:49PM

    That's a great school lunch! Awesome to hear that after watching the J.O. show I was getting depressed about the state of our schools health. I don't think "not enough money" is a good enough excuse ~ (as for reasons to not serve healthy meals in school).

I remember looking forward to school lunch because they tasted good. We only had one pizza day every so often and one hamburger day...usually the food was fairly healthy.

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    A wendys jr bacon.... *drool*
I too have bee enjoying corn on the cob.. MMM!!!
I love that you were able to satisfy your hunger and still come within your calories! I think I really have been eating too little, and my body stopped burning fat... because yesterday, I actually went into my calorie range, rather than under it, and I lost a pound! lol I think I figured it out, finally.

Have you tried no pudge brownie mixes?? It uses yogurt and the mix and thats all.. and 12 servings all are only 120 calories!! soooo chewy and yummy.. I think I am going to go eat another one... lol


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SUGIRL06 5/22/2010 1:35PM

    Awesome day! That is nice that you could go have lunch with your son too!

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