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I sneaked a peek...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I interrupt this program to bring you a special announcement.

Alright, I admit it...I sneaked a peek at the scale tonight. Truth is I'm exhausted (and full) and was getting a little anxious waiting around for I hopped on, knowing I probably shouldn't because it could be really discouraging. Well, the scale says I'm down almost 5 lbs already! I'm not counting all these chicken eggs as chickens yet...I swear I'm not. I'm just hopeful that I'll add a pound before the end of the week, or at least stay at this weight so I can have a little celebration (sans food) on Sunday when my OFFICIAL weigh in day rolls around.

I now return you to your regularly scheduled programming.

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WEIGHTWAR 4/22/2010 1:09PM

    emoticon that's awesome!

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JAKI1027 4/21/2010 10:38PM

    CONGRATS! doesn't it feel great!? I wish i could weigh in MORE! i'd probably end up weighing in every day though haha! I don't have a scale at my dorm, and im not sure if there is one at the gym because i don't use it!!! I use exercise tapes. I don't like public gyms really emoticon

Hopefully I can find a scale by sunday so i can weight in. I hope to do so every week

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RAVENSONG37 4/21/2010 10:27PM

    I check almost every day (at the same time every day - that's SUPER important). It just keeps me on track - but I'm not super fixated on any specific number and I don't get upset if it goes many things affect our don't sweat it too much! If you are doing the right things every day(okay, most days) you will see the results you want.

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CRIMSCOUT 4/21/2010 10:00PM

    Great job on the weight loss, and good luck! Keep on Sparkin'!


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1YEAR2ONDERLAND 4/21/2010 8:38PM

    Thats great, I must admit, I am a peeker too, it helps me stay motivated

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DLEE27 4/21/2010 8:12PM

    That's awesome! You rock!

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PRESHA911 4/21/2010 8:04PM

    Congrats on your weight loss! Keep up the good work.

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Do What You Do

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Too many times a day people of a larger size say, "I wish I could do [insert activity here], but I can't because I'm too fat/not in shape/have no energy." But when I stepped on the scale years ago and saw that 466.6 staring me down, I made a conscious effort to question myself everytime I said this. "I wish I could go swimming, but I can't because I'm too fat." What? That's just stupid. "I wish I could go running, but I can't because I'm not in shape." Really? But you'll never get in shape to do it if you don't start moving.

Recently, my husband's college basketball team (and mine by default) made it to the Final Four of the NCAA Championships, a feat they hadn't accomplished in more than 50 years. When a few coworkers at the Charleston Gazette ran an article about the team's motto - "Do what we do" - I found myself wanting to know what exactly that meant.

The story goes a little something like this. WVU Coach Bob Huggins said that when he first went to the school and started training (and at the beginning of training every year since) he encouraged his teammates to show him show off. They spent a few weeks trying to make free throws, 3-pointers, nabbing rebounds, etc. They dribbled their fancy ways, passed like a Harlem Globetrotter, and put on quite a show it seems. After those three weeks were up, he sat his players down and said, "Alright," he said, "now I've seen what you can't show me what you CAN do."

His point was simple. Too many times in a game, especially in those high stakes, winner take all type of games, players want to show off for the crowd or for NBA scouts. You'll have a player who isn't exceptionally good at making 3-pointers taking every basket from 'behind the paint', as they say. Now this same player may be very good at blocking, or at grabbing a rebound, but he's putting all his effort into those stupid 3-pointers, of which he seems to miss more times than not. If that same player would just focus on what he COULD do, and not try to do the things he can't, well he'd be known for being a pretty darn good player and the team might actually win a few.

Good story right? And sound logic. Logic that got the team to the final four for the first time in half a century. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that we should all be trying to follow this motto. "Do what you do."

If I've learned anything, I've learned that there are two rules to live by. The first is "Do what you do" and the second is "don't be afraid to try something new." Now, we don't have to be afraid to try things we can't do because we're not playing a championship game. Want to see if you can row a boat for an hour? Try it...could be a blast! (Or you could hate it completely. I honestly love it, though my kids tend to get bored pretty quickly.) When we try new things we often find we can do more than we thought we could and our list of things we "can do" grows. But when that little monster creeps back into your head saying, "I wish I could..." push him away with a "Hey, I can't run no marathon, you're right about that...but I can walk a mile this week and maybe make it a mile and a half next week!"

Don't sit by thinking about what you wish you could do. Do what you do.

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BOMBSHELLBEAN 8/31/2011 10:24PM

    Love this!!!

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DLEE27 4/21/2010 11:28AM

    Love this! What a great motto and what a great idea...I'm going to start a "Can Do" list of my own! Thanks for sharing this awesome story!

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Still Feelin' It - Day 2

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Yesterday I was reminded of the luncheon we have each semester...a luncheon scheduled for today. Crap! I I start this new thing and now all the temptation surrounding me... (did I mention DQ is running a buy 1 blizzard get one for a quarter deal...a sign for which I must pass on my way home from work every day?). Screw it, I thought...I'll just eat what I want and leave the what if I go over? It's just one day, right?

And then I got there and my motivation got the better of me (love that!) and I walked through the line getting tiny bits of anything that looked good or that might be somewhat healthy. I asked questions. I made the best choices I could, and I let myself have a coconut macaroon cookie just because. I was so good it was scary! And when I put in the stats on my Nutrition chart I realized...I did alright, in fact...I'm still within my limits! Yay me! I did so well I even measured my dinner out for myself and used a little plate.

Now I know I'm not exactly eating "healthy" according to most people's terms, but I'm within my limits and I feel fine, I have food in my belly, my legs are still sore from yesterday (though I may work out my arms on the arm cycle tonight to fill my "15 min exercise while watching TV" quota) is a good day.

I'm giving myself a thumbs up because I deserve it!

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CALLIKIA 4/21/2010 8:45AM

    DLEE, you made me giggle last night! "If I see that Dairy Queen commercial ONE MORE TIME..." My husband was even laughing at the comment after he had me read it to him (I was laughing too hard and he wanted to know what was so funny.)

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DLEE27 4/20/2010 10:49PM

Good for you! Such a great feeling to know you made good choices and put together a great day for yourself even against some adversity.

A big emoticon for your comment on my blog. The encouragement really means a lot and I totally appreciate it.

emoticonIf I see that Dairy Queen Blizzard commercial one more time today I think I might scream...I scream for Ice Cream! Haha emoticon

Keep up the stellar work! You are rocking it girl!

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FATHOMGREEN 4/20/2010 10:12PM

    "Eating Healthy" is a myth they use to try and sell whole wheat bread and salads. Anything can be part of a healthy balanced diet, even coconut macaroon cookies.

Having too much of anything, even "healthy" foods, can be bad for you. (Did you know too much fibre can reduce your body's ability to absorb nutrients?)

You're doing just fine. You're making smarter choices and eating things in moderation. That is exactly what a healthy diet is!


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End of Day 1

Monday, April 19, 2010

So today was the end of the first full day here. I had fully intended to simply check out the site and set some goals, not really get anything started...but when I saw how easily I could use the tools, I bought into the hype and starting logging everything. Of course, when I log, I find myself eating better, making better choices. I guess my head is just in the right place to start this journey.

So how did the day go? Good, for the most part. Didn't eat all my calories or carbs (I'm completely full...even pulled out some leftover mashed taters to make up some more calories, but couldn't eat enough to make up the 900 calorie deficit), but I at least had a healthy amount of calories (not too little...those tatoes came out because I had only eaten about 1,000 and I know my body well enough to know that it won't lose on that much, it's more likely to gain).

The workouts just about killed me though. I couldn't reach my calories burned goal, but I still worked out for 30 minutes and did my strength training workout too. My arms and legs are REALLY sore, though...didn't expect that to hit until tomorrow. Plus, my feet hurt from walking....I think I need a better pair of shoes.

Until tomorrow!

On a side note - I talked to my Mom today and told her about this place. She thinks she joined once before but never did anything with it and she's looking into coming back. I told her "I got a salad from McDonald's because I'm trying to be a good girl." and her response made me think, and smile, and love her even more, "You're always a good girl, even when you don't eat the right things."

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CALLIKIA 4/20/2010 8:18PM

    Thanks everyone!

I'm not sure I know how to share those yet, MIGHTYFINE. I'm still trying to figure things out. I'm not one to hide anything...if I can be honest with myself I can certainly be honest with all of you (I'm my toughest critic).

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AGAINALWAYS 4/20/2010 1:09PM

    Another welcome to SP! When I started back in early March, I had trouble making my minimum calories. With some realistic planning (and also expecting a little more of myself than I thought I could do), I got my calorie range down into something more manageable for me. I'm waiting 'til the 28th day of my Spark Book plan to weigh/measure myself - but I can already see and feel the difference in my body. Who knew?

Best of everything to you on your journey!

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    Welcome to SP! This place is definitely addictive. I think "Oh, I'm not going to Spark much today" and then I find myself on here all day. It's SO helpful!

One thing that has helped me a lot is sharing my food an fitness trackers so everyone can look at them. It can be a little scary at first, but it really helps to get great advice from people on your food intake. I've learned some of my best food tips from comments from people who looked at my trackers.

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DLEE27 4/19/2010 10:56PM

    emoticonWay to go! And thanks for the encouraging note on my page. Glad you had such a great day! emoticon

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Trying to find my place

Monday, April 19, 2010

First full day here on SparkPeople, and I'm searching for my place (yet again).

College Students - hey, yeah! I'm a college senior (graduating May 16th, 2pm! *lol*). But...I never seem to fit right here. I'm 29, older than most college students. I'm also a wife, a mother, and a full-time secretary. My life is a little more settled than most college students, and I always feel like I'm on the outside looking in, even when I'm sitting at my desk in class. *shrug*

Plus, I have a whole ton of a lot more weight to lose than most college students struggling with their freshman 15, or even 20, or even 50! I've got a lot more to lose than a lot of people and this tends to get me down when I visit sites like this.

But what I have to remember is where I've come from. A few years ago I weighed in at 466.6 (the last 3 digits weren't lost on me). I was struggling to get gastric bypass surgery, severely depressed, and just not in a good point in my life. It was difficult to walk up stairs. I had no job and spent most days at home in front of the television. Those numbers scared me...terrified me, and I made a change. I worked every day, day by day, with help from online friends, and I ended up dropping 100 pounds all on my own! For the most part, I've kept that weight off for the past 3 years...and then...well, and then things changed a bit. (Gastric bypass never happened - by the time I went through all the stupid testing required by my insurance company, the insurance company dropped coverage of the surgery and I was left with all the tests to prove it would be good for me and none of the results.)

Slowly I have accepted more in my life. We moved from Columbus (where I had a lot of family support and accountability) to West Virginia. Then I got a job working full-time, my first "regular" job ever. A year later, I started school again, something I had abandoned years before, but promised myself I would go back to. Then a year ago I was offered a position in my chosen field part-time and I just couldn't find a good reason to turn an opportunity like that down (they don't come around that often, I've learned). All of these things are great things in my life, and I feel so proud to have done them. (Especially knowing where I came from just a year or two before.) But suddenly I was working full-time, going to school full-time, working part-time twice a month, getting very little sleep, and having even less time to devote to exercise/eating right.

No lunch breaks at work meant I couldn't use my lunches to walk anymore. Constantly driving in the car meant I had to stop and grab food where I could, or eat something on the go (it's really difficult to eat an egg white omelet while driving 60 down the road...ya know?). But I didn't complain to could I? People kept telling me "You're still living a sedentary life" but I couldn't figure out how to change it. I made small corrections, whatever I could fit in, but I had to somehow survive the challenges I was facing and there wasn't much room in my head to "work on me."

Now, thankfully, school is coming to a close. I'm looking for a better job and, most of all, looking forward to a chance to spend some time on me again. I'm ready to pull out the same skills I used once and put them to work for me again, and this time I won't stop until I reach the mile marker that makes me feel the most comfortable. (I decided that day on the scale that I would never let my weight keep me locked inside again, and I don't let it stop me from doing very much. My big butt will wear a bathing suit and go swimming in the lake, because I love swimming and it's great exercise and because I need to worry about myself and what I think/feel/enjoy and not what others think. My big butt boarded a plane to NYC because I had always wanted to go (and I'm telling you this place is a wonderful weight loss tool - I lost 8 lbs or so in 5 days from walking, and more walking, and even MORE walking!)

I'm in mostly planning stages right now (4 weeks of school left), but I tend to make changes when I'm paying more attention, because I DO know what's right and wrong, and consciously chosing to do wrong all the time can kill my feelings of self-worth. The plan for the day is finding a place where I feel like I fit. Where I don't feel like an outsider trying to make something work that doesn't. Where I can hold myself accountable by being myself, completely honest.

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DLEE27 4/19/2010 10:31PM

    I loved this blog! Good for you for being so honest. It's really touching and I can identify with a lot of what you've said here. We know you can do, and you know you can do it!

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TIGGER2908 4/19/2010 11:58AM

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You, my dear, are AWESOME! You have taken on so much in the past year and have succeeded in everything. And you will succeed in this, too.

You say that you have so much more to lose than most. I say you haven't explored SP enough yet. There are people who started at higher weight than you and have succeeded. And there are people who are still on the journey.

So take the next 4 weeks to do your planning and finish your degree. I know that last weeks can sometimes be the hardest but you can do it. Don't add too much stress on yourself about your weight. Once school is over, you can concentrate on SP. In the meantime, go home and hug your beautiful children and your loving husband. We'll be here when you're ready.


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GHOSTMD 4/19/2010 9:15AM

    emoticon emoticonDon't stop ever I see you have so busy life but you have , you must , you will wear a bathing suit and go swimming in the lake

By the way try high intensty workouts littel time with great impact

& good luck

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AMOHAME2 4/19/2010 9:11AM

    Hi and welcome! You will find a balance in your life if you keep up the right attitude, which it looks like you're doing so far! Good luck with your goals!

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NEWLISACOMING 4/19/2010 9:09AM

    I think your wrong where you think you don't fit... everyone fit's here on Sparkpeople. You have worked very hard to better yourself with education and work but now it's time to be a little selfish and work on you.

You need to use the tools that are on SP, there are so many options and support on here to use if you need them. Blogging is a GREAT way to get praise when deserved and support when needed.

You are already taken the first steps in becoming a different person. There are exercises you that you can do at your desk or on a 15min break. Document everything, good or bad track your food and fitness because it's a good tool to use once you see the weight coming off.

Good luck, I know you can do it remember this isn't a diet... this is a life journey. It's not going to be easy, there will be good days and bad but if you persevere you can be that person inside just takes time.

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BUBBLEBEE21 4/19/2010 9:09AM

    you'll find your place here,everyone is so nice and supportive. emoticon emoticon

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DAISY_GURL_4 4/19/2010 9:05AM


Congrats on your college graduation! My husband is also a "non-traditional" student - he is 27 and will be graduating with his bachelor's degree on May 8th. He has struggled with the fact that he feels he is so behind many others (like myself who went straight from high school as a "traditional" student and was awarded my bachelors at age 22) but I always tell him the important part is that you're doing it and accomplishing this fantastic goal and that he had to work harder for it but appreciates it all the more because of his struggles.

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