Monday, December 27, 2010
These last 8 weeks and have been very bad. The Shingles themselves were never bad, it was always the nerve pain or Neuralgia. The pain has been constant and that leads to depression and then not eating right. I have been better about exercising although I have cut back on intensity. I still have pain but it is getting better so I am going to try to start fighting again. Eating correctly, exercising hard, Tracking every day and drag myself out of this depression or self pity.
I think one of the reasons it has been so bad is Jolene. She is my last AKC show dog out of my last litter. I loved and showed her mother, grandmother and great grandmother. At 13 and a half years of age she started aging before my eyes in about September. I took her to the vet for a check-up and found several things going bad with her. Growths all over her body - had biopsy's on two. No cancer. Weakness in her rear legs and one of her front, kidney failure and several other things. Over the weeks she got worse and worse. Last Monday we made the horrible decision and took her in for euthanasia. I stayed with her. That day and the next one were horrible in several ways but the pain was outrageous.
Two good friends have told me they think I got Shingles from the stress of watching Jolene deteriorate before my eyes. I think I must have been in a lot more stress than I realized.
Jolene at about 6;