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My Biggest Downfalls

Saturday, February 20, 2010

My hubby works long hours, he's gone for an average of 11 hours on a day when he works, and in that time I do nothing but watch TV, surf the internet and eat. I lost my job in late August so I no longer have that Monday through Friday routine, it helped me control my weight because it kept my mind busy, with my mind idle I get bored and being bored makes me want to eat even when I'm beyond stuffed.

What I need to do be doing is moving - Sweatin' to the Oldies, walking on the treadmill, doing household chores, etc - but instead I stay in my PJs and sit in my chair with everything at my fingertips.

But when he comes home I change, I wash the dishes, I clean the kitchen, I wait on him as far as food and drinks, I turn into a 2010 version of Donna Reed basically. LOL It's a shame that I haven't figured out how to sustain that mobility that he inspires in me.

I'm also very lonely and a little depressed when he isn't home...making me less likely to move and more likely to eat my way through the day. *sigh*

So let's recap: I am -

A Procrastinator
An Emotional Eater
A Bored Eater (Is that an emotion btw?)
Someone who derives intense enjoyment from eating

OK I think I'm done beating myself up for today. LOL

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NEED_TO_TRY 2/20/2010 11:25AM

  I was just having a conversation yesterday at work how I'm good at taking care of others but don't take the time and effort to take care of me. I am trying - need to try - to change that...hope you do too. I'm trying to take time each day to do something for me, whether it is reading, doing 15 minutes of exercise, etc., and hope to increase daily to get the new habits formed. I've tried before, hoping it sticks this time. Good luck!

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COCOMAC7 2/20/2010 11:25AM

    Good for you for recognizing your downfalls. Now you need to make a list of what you are going to do to avoid them.

Maybe you need to schedule in a walk outside everyday? Maybe it's that you will step ups during one half hour show everyday (you don't need fancy equipment, just something to step onto that is stable).

Everyone has days where they need to beat up on themselves, but don't make it a habit! Time to post all the wonderful things that make you who you are!!

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FRANNIEDID 2/20/2010 11:10AM

    Okay, that is that, but you are also a good wife, very insightful about yourself and you have a sense of humor. I want tomorrow's blog (yes there will be one, mom says so!) to focus on what is wonderful about you. I know there is a lot and you need to know that too!

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Friday, February 19, 2010

Just used the Nutrition Tool to see what I ate today...needless to say my day was very very bad. :(

I admit I was weak and ate Stouffer's Macaroni & Cheese throughout the day for lunch, snack and dinner, finally finishing off the entire 40 0z's a depressing thought actually, to think that I ate that whole thing when I had purchased it to be used as a side dish with some turkey meatloaf I was going to make for dinner for my hubby and me some night. :(

I'm feeling very down now. :(

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SUSAND925 2/19/2010 11:16PM

    Hey, we all do that. But tomorrow is a new day and you can start all over. At least you logged it, and next time that is appealing to you, you can think about it,knowing more about what you are doing to yourself, and make the right choice instead.

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CAGOSSNER 2/19/2010 8:06PM

    Earthbling...thanks, I know we can derail from time to time, but jeez I just started! LOL

Tomorrow will be better...tomorrow will be better...tomorrow will be better. :)

(My new mantra)

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EARTHBLING 2/19/2010 7:49PM

  I think most of us who are honest with ourselves have eaten the whole box. It's one of those emotional and physical "diet disasters". What keeps me from feeling terrible is that even if I eat a lot of calories it doesn't stay. I hope you'll pamper yourself a little and enjoy your next healthy meal. Best wishes to you.

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Uhhh hello there

Friday, February 19, 2010


I'm new to this, can you tell? My page is mostly empty, my goals are lofty and I'm praying for continued motivation! I have never really put any effort into losing weight or getting healthy, but I am recently married (3 months today, actually) and due to my age I feel like if we want to have any children we need to get started as soon as we possibly can. But being a morbidly obese pregnant woman is such a bad idea, for me and the baby. So here I sit, Googling for free online diet help and finding this interesting - if a bit intimidating - website filled with tips and people achieving their goals daily, it's a nice thought that others are in a similar place and heading there at a nice steady pace, now I just need to get going myself!

But how to do this? How to begin? I think I'll weigh myself daily, keep a food diary (though not in an anal way with superfluous details, just what it was and, if I can find then, how many calories and fat it was), and I think I'll start moving. We have a gym in our building and I've checked to see if the machines can handle my weight (they can) and I have my old standby - Sweatin' to the Oldies, Richard Simmons gets a bad rap sometimes, but that tape really does get me moving and seems to work for me because it's a nice, low impact, "just get moving" kind of idea.

I know my husband (a naturally thin man who has to be forced to eat because he "never feels hungry") is going to be with me 100% helping to keep me motivated, he loves me as I am, but being healthy for a potential pregnancy is a big motivator. But I think I may need more than just my hubby to keep I need someone barking at me for motivation a la the Biggest Loser trainers? I don't think so, in fact, knowing myself as well as I do, I think I would probably have my first ever fist fight if I tried to work with either one of them! LOL

No, I think I may be looking for a cyber-buddy, or perhaps down the road, someone from my general neighborhood to meet up with now and then and compare notes.

So with all of that said I put my toe into the water and I pray for the water to be warm, welcoming and somehow slimming. ;)


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RISENSHINE10 2/20/2010 10:33PM

    i was diabetic before I got pregnant-they are now 13 and 15! A diabetic pregnancy can be very stressful, so use that motivation to help you out now. Diabetes doesn't just cause big babies-it puts you and the baby at risk for lots of things! Good luck with SP. I'm just starting out too, thanks for adding me as a friend. I'm still learning to maneuver around!

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COCOMAC7 2/19/2010 6:49PM


Welcome to spark people. There is a really great logging system for food under your "nutrition tab". You can track exercise and all sorts of good stuff. Check out the articles for more information as well!

Best of luck in your journey

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