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Repeat After Me!!!!

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

This is not an annual event! It is a daily process!

  
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CELEST 1/2/2013 11:05AM

    This is not an annual event! It is a daily process!
This is not an annual event! It is a daily process!
This is not an annual event! It is a daily process!
This is not an annual event! It is a daily process!
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MRSOLIVER455 1/2/2013 10:04AM

    Exactly! Great words to keep in mind through this process

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Present your bodies....acceptable to God.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Present your bodies a sacrifice living, holy, acceptable to God." That was the daily text for Tuesday, taken from Romans 12:1. The reference material mentioned the importance of keeping your body clean of all defilement, so as to be able to be acceptable to Jehovah. The examples of such defilement included tobacco, illicit drugs, and alcohol abuse.

These vices are not at all attractive to me. I get sick if I even catch a whiff of tobacco smoke. I have no desire at all to do drugs. Alcohol taste horrid to me. No problem. I'm clean!

Or am I?

The reason people smoke tobacco, do illicit drugs, or drink themselves into a comatose state is because they want to avoid their problems. They want to ease their pain of everyday life. They want to make themselves feel better. They feel these avenues are the only way to achieve this calmness.

So how does this apply to me? Well, what do I do to calm myself? In what ways do I deal with my problems? Judging from the size of my clothing, I use food. A lot of food. By eating till my body is so out of control, I am no better, nor acceptable to Jehovah, than the passed out alcoholic on the street.

Another point brought out in the reference material is that "Jesus, while on earth, stressed the importance of praising Jehovah by preaching the good news." Do I follow this example?

While I do go out in the ministry, I have some serious issues with my body image that have a detrimental effect on Jehovah's message. It causes me to be less confident in my speech and my eye contact with the householder than I used to be. I am not able to be bold in my reasonings, nor in my conversation stopper responses. If I am not confident, the message that I deliver suffers. I don't enjoy going to the door because of how people view obese people. If people see me as someone who is not happy in my life, why would they ever listen to me as I tell them I have found the truth that leads to a better life?

I have tried to do better with my emotions in the last month. I am losing some of my girth. But I still need to do better at discerning why I overeat and overcoming those obstacles, so that Jehovah's word can be heard.

I am an addict, and food is my drug. I need to clean up my life so as to be "acceptable to Jehovah."

Caddy

  
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GAMOMMY3 1/3/2013 10:51AM

    I have thought those same things many times.... and continue to struggle with. emoticon

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SUSHENO 12/6/2012 1:27AM

    Your words reminded me of a true story I heard. A couple who were addicted to cigarette smoking sat with a pastor of a new church. He was trying to invite them to attend church. The man said explicitly, "Pastor, we smoke cigarettes. We are not going to stop smoking. We will leave church early and stand outside to catch a smoke." The pastor was fine with the what the man said. He also encouraged them to attend church. They attended regularly. Few weeks later, both became born again Christians. Again, they met with the pastor and repeated the words above. And again, he conceded. After attending church regularly for some weeks, they met with the pastor to complain. The man said, "Pastor, I do not know what happened that caused me to HATE smoking. Even my wife can not stand it any longer." He continued with more words.

Hon, we are already acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. He is our shelter and our protector. When we find something that we know will not please God, we just need to approach Him in faith and submit to His Holy Spirit. He does all of the work. We submit and obey. For I do not know about you, but I am not smart enough or capable enough to stop any addictions in my life. It is only through His strength that I am able to live, survive, and thrive.

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CINA-MINI 11/28/2012 11:59AM

    I can understand where you are coming from. The message we preach is very important. It's our assignment from our Wonderful Creator. Jehovah knows what is in your heart. Don't give up in your endeavors. Not all people view others the same. Maybe, you are just the person needed to teach some in your territory. They may have the same issues you have and you can help them see that Jehovah sees what's on the inside. Our actions speak louder than anything.

I am sure you will accomplish your goals. While in the Ministry, if you have a step tracker use it. You can accomplish two things at the same time.

Your words ring true for so many of us. You are not alone in this struggle. Not only your weight, but in your desire to be approved by Jehovah.

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MAMALISA1975 11/28/2012 11:09AM

    It's kind of funny that you had mentioned that. I had been thinking along the same lines. I too use food as my "drug". Food is there for me when I need it, it makes me feel better, it doesn't judge me....but I do all those things to myself when I see what my addiction has done to my body- then to feel better for a while I go right back to my comfort all over again- a vicious cycle to say the least. Thanks so much for voicing those thoughts. emoticon

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CELEST 11/28/2012 8:58AM

    emoticon Admission is the start of wisdom. Food is socially acceptable which makes it the worst drug of all (in my opinion) If you haul out any drug paraphernalia in a public place, you will be frowned at/moaned at/cops called on you....if you haul out a burger....no says anything.
But you've been doing a great job so far. Keep up your good choices and you will see great results. This privilege is a once off ever......so try to enjoy it the best you can.

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CLAUDEM1 11/28/2012 7:36AM

    Caddy,

I can certainly relate to the struggle you are having with food. The real challenge is to love yourself. Jesus said we were to love others "as you love yourself." Loving others comes easily to me; loving myself is a whole other story.

The ministry is a challenge for me, too. Emotions override reason sometimes, and I forget that I am just the messenger.

You are a dear person, Caddy, and Jehovah knows your struggles and your efforts, too. When there is sacrifice involved, He loves you all the more for trying.

Claude xoxo

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JOYFUL78 11/28/2012 5:16AM

    I agree... reflection is wonderful. ty for sharing, yeh!!!!

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BOOKWERME 11/27/2012 8:58PM

    WOW! Potent reasoning. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Good for the rest of us to reflect upon them. Wishing you success in meeting your goals.

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I Think I'm Losing It

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Yesterday I volunteered for my son's field trip to the Wonderlab over in Bloomington.

I got up a few minutes early to get my son dressed and ready for the bus. I scrambled his eggs. I started heating the water for my oatmeal. I went to brush out my hair. I washed my face. I came back to the kitchen, set the eggs on the table, and added the water to my oatmeal. I made lunch for the trip. I made sure I had the camera charged, the phone charged, the debt card packed, and the directions to the museum in my purse. I made sure I packed healthy snacks so I wouldn't fail. I kissed my son goodbye, watched him get on the bus, and went to change my clothes.

I drove to school, got instructions on where to meet Mrs. Teacher, then drove over to Bloomington. It was an hour drive. I wasn't halfway there when I was overcome by hunger, so I ate my 10:30am snack at 9:00am. The museum was cool. There were lots of interesting science exhibits. I was still hungry so I ate part of my sandwich at 10:30am. Lunch was at 12:00am. Still hungry. Driving back home at two, I was weak and could not resist the magnetic pull of those Golden Arches. I had failed even though I had prepared and planned.

I came back home feeling guilty for my indiscretions with Ronald. I felt bad that I couldn't control that giant Suburban and MAKE it stay on the highway and not pull into that drive thru.
I started dinner and cleaning the kitchen. And that's when I saw it. My beautiful mug, sitting on the counter, with my grandpa's favorite spoon in it. And in that mug was my oatmeal. Untouched. With the honey still on top. I was so busy running around in the morning that I forgot to eat my oatmeal. What's worse, I didn't even mentally miss the fact that I never ate the meal they call breakfast. All I felt was hunger.

My mother told me this would happen. She said it when I laughed at her as a teenager. She said if I laughed, I would get old and lose my mind, just like she did. I didn't believe her. I told myself I would be smarter than that. I said I would keep my thoughts together no matter how old I was. I was wrong! Chalk one up for Mommy!!!

One positive thing I got from this was the importance of my breakfast. It sets the tone for the whole day. I have better control of my food intake when I start with a good foundation. I just need to keep the mug in my sight, until I actually see the oatmeal is gone.

I wish my daughter would quit laughing at me. I wouldn't want to wish this on her.

Caddy

  
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MAMALISA1975 11/22/2012 6:48AM

    It wasn't a complete loss. You learned something new that will help keep you on track better next time!

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BOOKWERME 11/21/2012 5:06PM

    This is so easy to do...just like being harried and putting the milk in the cabinet or eggs in your pocket...or a zillion other versions. This IS however a great lesson in why we need that break of the night's fast. Your body NEEDS that fuel. I have to say, I think you handled things remarkably well in view of the circumstances and all the added stressors. GOOD JOB. Maybe next time, you had better not put down that mug till it is empty again. emoticon

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FATDADDY531 11/21/2012 2:17PM

    Found an interesting article about breakfast sandwiches on yahoo. Which average 900 calories. But something was worse! I copied and pasted the following excerpt.

What’s the Worst Breakfast of All?

Whether you’re looking to slim down, build muscle, train for a marathon, or just protect your health, breakfast really is the most important meal of the day. And a fast-food morning meal is not the worse choice. Instead, the unhealthiest option is not eating a morning meal at all.

Not only do people who skip their morning meal—or begin the day with only a cup of coffee—have less energy, worse moods, and poorer memory those who eat breakfast, studies show, but they also face some serious health risks. First of all, they’re up to 450 percent more likely to become obese, which in turn boosts risk for a wide range of ailments, including cardiovascular disease—the leading killer of Americans—gout, joint problems, and even some forms of cancer.

A 2012 study published in American Journal of Clinical Nutrition also reports that people who regularly skip breakfast have a 21 percent higher risk for type 2 diabetes. The researchers tracked about 29,000 men for 16 years and found that the increased risk remained even when body mass index was into account. Scientists suspect that a morning meal helps keep blood sugar levels stable during the day.

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CINA-MINI 11/21/2012 12:53PM

    It's amazing how we tend to "repeat" our parents "mistakes".

My Dad says, "Good grief!" ALL the time and now I say it too. I must sound like Charlie Brown (and my Dad! lol)

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CELEST 11/21/2012 12:50PM

    Oh I simply LOVE your comical take on life as it happens.
Thanks for a great pick me up and a peak at....its not only me.

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ABOUT_FACE 11/21/2012 12:35PM

    You were distracted for real!

I bet you were relieved to find that oatmeal, at least it explained what went south! :-)

You'll do better the rest of the day. Shake it off and move on.



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PLANTAGO 11/21/2012 12:00PM

    You forgot your breakfast because you were thinking about the upcoming trip. Your hands made this mug of oatmeal but your brain was busy and didn't register it. Don't worry.

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WALLINMW 11/21/2012 11:39AM

  stay motivated!

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My Motivation Page

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Part of the Spark People Getting Started Guide is to make up a motivation page and put it up somewhere in the home you will see everyday. I would like to show the one I have created to you.
This is my refrigerator door. It's a highly viewed location. Trust me!!! Highly viewed location. It also is a location that will affect others in the home, thus adding to my support team. It has articles from our bound volumes that deal with stress, healthy eating, and setting a positive example for your children.

The Starting guide also suggest adding some pictures of what I would like to see myself as. I have to admit that my vision is really not about my body, but more about my mindset. I want to be able to think clearly. Most of my stress is because of the discouraging thoughts. Study and prayer would take care of a lot of that. The food only works for a moment, and then it just gives me that slow sloth-like thought process, and it leaves me feeling worse than before.

My goal for the day is to stay mentally clear and focused on some scriptural thoughts.

  
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MISSUSRIVERRAT 11/11/2012 10:18AM

    Great idea and plan! I do think it will help with keeping thoughts uplifted.

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BOOKWERME 11/9/2012 9:06PM

    Prayer and study can, indeed, help with discouraging thoughts..but be aware that if depression is an issue for you, it may have physical causes that can be treated. (Not saying you DO...just reminding you to be aware). There is nothing wrong with seeking medical treatment for a medical/physical condition. That said...GOOD JOB on your vision chart...and best wishes to you that you will achieve your goals. emoticon

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GAMOMMY3 11/8/2012 12:25AM

    Well done!!!

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FATDADDY531 11/7/2012 5:16PM

    Nothing better to strengthen the "New Personality" than Jah's reminders! And yet they are not burdensome! These motivators bring us closer to the REAL LIFE in which God intended for us. We can't be perfect right now, but we get a head start by focusing on it. I like the talk slip. Shows the joy you have expressing your love toward Jah. emoticon

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CELEST 11/7/2012 3:25PM

    Lovely goals and goals that can be reached. Well done on doing something positive to get to your goals.

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The Start of My New Lifestyle

Monday, November 05, 2012

The Anytime Fitness in my hometown ran an essay contest and the winner would receive a one year membership to the gym. It was over on October 15th. The following was my entry which I wrote the night before:

I am a procrastinator. I put off unpleasant things I need to do until the last possible minute. I push things back until I am overwhelmed by the enormity of everything. That is the reason I am in the shape I'm in today.

I finally started this essay at 11:00 pm on the night before you said you would choose a winner of your contest. I have put this off because to write these words to you means I have to face the fact that I need serious help with my life, and that I can't fix this on my own. I had already dismissed the thought of writing this because I am scared. Scared of winning. Scared of everyone there in your gym seeing me try to conquer my demons in front of those big picture windows. I was already in bed for the night. But as I laid there thinking, it hit me that that's been my problem all along. I'm scared of people seeing me struggle with my weight. I'm scared of being looked at by people I used to know, because they all seem to have the same surprised look on their faces, and I know they are thinking I'm a failure. But the ones that truly love me have been seeing this struggle go on for years, and yet they still love me.

I have taken care of my family for 23 years. I have cooked and cleaned. I have home schooled my daughter, and helped her to become a responsible adult. I have worked with my son so that he will be a good person able to succeed in life. I have put off taking care of myself for all these years. It's time to start taking care of my body. It's time to start thinking of my future. I would like to still be alive to see my grandchildren. I would like to grow old with my husband.

I would like the opportunity to show the ones I love that happier person they all remember. I'd love to be able to show that energetic mother, the one that I fell guilty for not being, to my 8 year old son. He has never seen her. Most of all, I need to show my 18 year old daughter a more healthier example of how to live a life.

I can not put this off any longer. There may be no future to push this back to. I have to start today. So I am starting at 11:00 on a Sunday night. I am making a commitment to myself to see this to completion tonight. I'd like you to consider me for your winner. I have a long way to go before I get to that place in life I want to be, But I will need your help to get there. Thank you for your consideration.

Caddy


(By the way I won. I have been going for two weeks. I am seeing several chages already)

  
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SANDYZEE 11/28/2012 8:11PM

    I can why you won. That was beautiful and heartfelt! Good for you...
Sandy in CA

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CLAUDEM1 11/28/2012 7:44AM

    Congratulations on winning this awesome prize! Onward and downward, my friend. emoticon

Claude

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BOOKWERME 11/9/2012 9:00PM

    Good for you...both in analyzing your situation, doing something about it...and in the composition of your winning entry! GOOD JOB! Now keep going and going and going.... emoticon

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BKPKRTAILS 11/6/2012 4:33PM

    Wow, that's great! Keep your drive, even when you start seeing improvements and think you can relax, keep your vision and dream alive and you will make lasting success! I have the same problem with people seeing me workout when I feel less than healthy. What I try to remember is that if I don't workout, they will only see me unhealthy and not doing anything about it, it's not like I'll look BETTER if I don't do anything. I also try to remember that what I see before me isn't so important as what I'm actively doing to change what I see. We are in a state of constant change- don't believe what you see! Congratulations.

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CAMPERLIVING 11/6/2012 11:42AM

    That is an awesomely written submission!! You definitely put your heart on your sleeve and I'm glad that you won and have been going and have already seen some changes!! Good for you!! emoticon emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 11/5/2012 8:25PM

    Looks like you all in to change your life! Joining Sparks, winning this membership! keep up the good work you are worth the effort!

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