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Them Bones

Monday, July 08, 2013

So Sunday was spent in the ER ... again. Kiddo separated his right shoulder this time. Has a lovely bone sticking up (not out thank goodness) He is in a lot of least until the meds take over. Has an appt. with the Ortho clinic this morning...with the Dr. we don't really care for.

What is sad is that we know who is really good and who is not at an Ortho clinic. Spend way too much time and money there.

This latest incident brought out the absolute worst in my kid...and although timing was probably really bad...I let him have it. Had a huge fight, a longer talk, and after lots of tears on both sides, have agreed that he needs to hit the reset button, take stock of himself, and see where he wants to go.

It breaks your heart when your child tells you he doesn't know why he is angry and doesn't even know who he is anymore.


Needless to say, we did not sleep. I haven't tracked squat in 2.5 days. I've lost weight but I'm not going to count it because I know those tiny pounds will spring back on when things level off and I'm okay with that.

Vacation may or may not happen. Either way, even if we go, it won't be what we had planned...all fun in the sun and whatnot. So while I am thankful that my son was not seriously injured, I'd be a liar if I said I was not disappointed about losing the vacay. Not to mention worried about my child's welfare both physical and mental, short-term and long-term.

Anyhoo, today he goes for an immobilzer sling for the right shoulder, then next week he can take his cast off his left wrist. I just know I am getting those sidelong glances now...they are wondering in the ER if the accidents are real and whether they should be calling child services.


Greeeeaaat. Whatever. He is 13 and has a very stubborn mindset and loves thrills. I don't know where he got that. :P Hopefully the rest of them bones will hold up.

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WMUGRAD 7/11/2013 12:33PM

    Anyone who knows you knows that you would walk through hell and back for Boo. He's an athletic kid, who until recently, had amazing luck in staying away from hurting himself. Also, he's a young teen... I wouldnt worry about the mood swings or feeling confused, reassure him and listen- I think thats the best anyone can do for a kid going thru puberty... even if the waves feel like a tsunami. xoxo

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A tale of two suits...

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

So this month I've been doing things pretty much as we should according to Spark. Moving much, eating less, tracking and whatnot.

The scale has not budged. Now, I'm not going to lie to y'all and say that I don't care about that. I do. It ticks me off a bit. Well, a lot actually.


I'm not considering it failure on my part. Why?

Because of my swimsuits.

Now, for the truly brave and trendy people out there, I'm sure you have absolute JOY and LOVE for swimsuit shopping.

I do not.

I bought a suit last summer so that I could cover myself according to state laws and city ordinances and was not happy. I had to go up a size or two into the "women's" category. By all means, it was not a bad suit, it's a cute enough tankini...but really... once there is a double digit size with a 2 at the there anyting "ini" about it?


Still...even that suit was tight.

So, just last week, I got approval for vacation in July and we decided to go to Destin, FL again.

Now, that joy faded quickly when I realized fun in the sun meant dragging out a new suit or buying one. Needless to say, I'd still rather not have to shop for a suit, so I dragged out last year's model.

It did not fit.

It was too big. WAY too big. As in things could slip out and violate aforementioned city ordinances big.


So...what's a girl to do? Well, I still was not willing to step into a store so I thought, I'll just see how close I was to my other suit. The one that was stashed...long forgotten in the back drawers in my closet. Still double digit...16, but it was lovely. Nice slim teal halter one piece with ruching. Quite sexy when paired with a silky pareo.

The thing fits. Very well. Actually, there is an area of concern if that scale even budges slightly south. But no, I'm not worried about that number anymore. I weigh more than I did when I last wore this suit. It obviously is "good weight" much in the same way as there is "good food."

It's going to be a good vacation, y'all. ;)

Have a healthy day!

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PEWTERBUNNY 7/12/2013 12:07PM

    Awesome!! You're making progress. congrats and enjoy the summer!

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MT-MOONCHASER 7/7/2013 3:43PM

    WooHoo for NSV's!!

Don't you just love it when you can shop in your own wardrobe and find some favorite things that fit? Your "new" swimsuit sounds great!!

I'm sure you will have a lovely time on your vacation wearing your "new" sexy swimsuit.


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SUSANNAH31 7/3/2013 4:13PM

    GOOD FOR YOU!!!!


Have fun swimming!


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RAINTHIEF 7/2/2013 11:48PM

    emoticon Lovin' it!!

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KANSASROSE67 7/2/2013 5:11PM

    Love this! Way to go with the suit...kick that old one to the curb and enjoy yourself!

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VHALKYRIE 7/2/2013 4:40PM

    Enjoy your vacation!

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PRETTYPITHY 7/2/2013 4:37PM

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LZY0108 7/2/2013 4:24PM

    Im having the same issue with the scale. The scale is a lot higher than a couple years ago, but, I swear I am smaller. I don't get it. Its very confusing. And frustrating. I guess its normal. Thank you for sharing, and congratulations on fitting into the old suit! I love when that happens! Great Job!!! emoticon emoticon

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ANDYLIN90 7/2/2013 3:20PM

    I enjoyed reading your blog and good for you!! Your scale and my scale must be related as mine is very reluctant to move too. So we do need these victories that are not related to the *&^%** scale. Have a wonderful time on your vacation!

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MJ7DM33 7/2/2013 3:05PM

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Do It Anyway...

Thursday, June 27, 2013

So lately, my subconscious has been trying to undermine me. If you've kept up with past blogs, my life has been...well...weird...and hectic. I could feel my mind trying to wage war within.

"Take it easy."

"We have time for that later."

"It's not something that HAS to be done now."

"I can do a longer walk the next day."'s been trying really hard. I've been fighting back.
Been alone this week due to work schedules but things still needed done. Things that probably would have been easier with a little extra brawn by my side. Did I wait? Nah. Did it anyway. Got the guest Queen bed swapped into son's room (he's needing space, lol) and put his into guest room. Shoved the old couch into the area in the "dining" space that we've never used as a dining space. Shampooed carpets in guest room while it was empty to boot.

The heat has been spiking here in Arkansas as well. Pushed it with an index of 109 degrees. Did I give up that walk? Nah.

Packed an extra shirt, hauled a water bottle...did it anyway. Kind of kicked it's butt. ;)

I'm looking forward to the next month. I'm hoping to start intervals with the purchase of a new pair of shoes (mine are really shot.) I am having to be patient because at this moment...I don't actually have a way to purchase them (I always buy online because it's cheaper.) Our credit cards were shuffled in the refinance and there's no way I'm using a debit card online. I've had my identity abused twice already.

Anyhoo...on that score...the running...I will wait cause I know if I do it anyway, I'll injure myself. :P Two out of three ain't bad.

Y'all stay healthy and cool!

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VIBRANTSTAR 6/28/2013 10:48PM

    Awesome that you are keeping at it!! :) I swear my mind pulls the same crap. lol Annoying!

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MAESTRACH 6/28/2013 1:03AM

    Sounds like a busy day.please feel free to send some of that summer heat or way. It's been reading and nasty since summer started.think we finally hit 70 today. I'm still jogging in my of these things just doesn't belong here. Hope your able to get your new shoes soon. I know I'm way past due too.

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MJ7DM33 6/27/2013 7:18PM

  emoticon WTG on kickn the walks butt! :)

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MRSTABER 6/27/2013 4:02PM

    Great blog! Congratulations on how far you have come!

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Long Time No Blog!

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I can't believe I've gone this long without blogging. Tells you we've been rather busy huh?

First...the little thing that is driving me NUTS! Skin rash. There is a saying that even the mightiest predators can be taken down my the smallest of creatures such as fleas and flies. I believe it. I have no idea if this is caused by bug bites or just hives but....*scratches* can definitely drive someone crazy. However, thanks to the blessing of an eczemic child, I have an amory of pharmaceutical creams and whatnottery. Feel a bit like a greased pig though. Lovely visual for you there. :)

Let's see...what else? Oh, FINALLY got the house refinanced and things resettled in that department. One huge burden taken care of and done! I had such a stressful week getting all the ridiculous amount of paperwork ready for that...right up to the last day with a 3 hour conference call with one of our creditors. Really...the amount of legal schmegal that stuff requires is what really threatens forests.

Moved mother into her new home. Had battles with uncaring moving companies, lackadaisical real estate agents, bad backs and bones, and weather. For the most's done...all that's left is moving it around to her satisfaction (and really...that's nothing to sneeze at.) It's a great house and I think she's going to love it. It's built on a slope and right outside her dining room window is this HUGE hickory tree. That's going to be FANTASTIC in fall. I'm a wee bit jealous. :D

DH and I are doing all right. He is really trying and it's been rather nice. The thing is...I was really hurt by all this and my psyche is struggling against it. I have bad dreams about it all still. It's kind of hard to wake up and remind myself of reality when just two months ago the reality was the nightmare. Kind of crazy right?

Kiddo is doing great. He got a cast for his broken wrist after getting the pins out. It is one that is removable, which is cool. Ortho has come a long way in just a decade. He is out diving in the local pool today because they can make them waterproof and washable. How cool is that? all of that I have still maintained exercise. I have tried my best to eat as healthy as possible (not always in the massive moves we've made this month.) Scale is staying put but the clothes are loose and I've been able to get into the "archives" as I call them. LOL! I got a really great compliment this morning from my boss, which is nice. Not too worried about that number on the scale yet...I know I've got to boost the workouts soon, but not until my house is in order. (I have stuff piled to the rafters in what is supposed to be a dining room...the detritus of a failed divorce?...that seems so weird to write.) Anyhoo, got to find where all that stuff went in the first place...or ...if I'm lucky...get rid of some of it. *evil grin*

If you've slogged through this blog...thanks? LOL! Sorry? I don't know...I'm glad you feel comfortable enough and hopefully slightly amused that you call yourself a friend and come back for more another day. Til then...have a healthy and fabulous day!

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PEWTERBUNNY 7/12/2013 12:12PM

    Wow! Lots of stuff going on with you. Thanks for taking the time to blog about it. I need to do that too. I am dealing with buying and selling a house and lackadaisical Realtors is accurate!! Don't they realize they don't get paid if they don't move things along??

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    I am glad that things seem to be working out for you and your DH. I am sending you good vibes so they continue to work well.
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And smart to wait for the new shoes to start running. It is much too easy to get an injury when running in old or incorrect shoes.

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WMUGRAD 6/25/2013 4:47PM

    Haha I love you so much. Glad you blogged. We havent chatted lately and I know we have both been super busy... but in the midst of it I sure do miss you. thanks for the updates beautiful lady

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VHALKYRIE 6/25/2013 10:47AM

    You have been busy! Sounds hectic, but things are coming around.

I'm really, really glad that your DH has come back. I know it was painful for you, but sometimes our partners become lost. Letting them go gives them to space to realize what they are losing. Fortunately he woke up and realized he made a mistake! If he didn't get you back, some other lucky guy was going to snag you! ;) My DH and I did that a few times. Sometimes it was me, and sometimes it was him. It hurt, but we forgave and forgot. We are so much stronger for it. He hurt you and has to regain your trust, and that will take time. I am optimistic this will work out for you. :)


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Tuesday, June 04, 2013

So...if you haven't seen the fleeting and random updates my past two weeks in bullets:

* My husband asked to come back. Threw me for a loop. My anxiety went through the roof again.

* Birthday - Felt stronger than I had in a few years. Still realized how much further I have to go physically but accepted that as I usually do.

* Mom's house sold. She had moved in to help me. ANXIETY again! What to do now!?

* Mom found another house, but we are still walking realty tightrope with contingent offers.

* Kid breaks wrist during last few days of school.

* Kid sees bone doctor hoping for cast....nope...

* Kid has surgery and gets two pins...and wrapped mummy arm. We both hate this. :(

* Move husband back in and while it is awkward it's going okay.

* Mom's house appears to finally be sold for reals this time and she locks on house she chose.

* Mom's new house is said to be neighbors with an Indian graveyard (No lie! Fellow realtor friend says it was in the disclosures documentation!) Heh...I guess no pool...(inside joke for lovers of the movie Poltergeist.)

* My weight has not moved. I consider this to be freaking amazing, considering the week I've had. I count that as a win.

So that is how it's been lately. Still have major shuffing to do financially and we'll see where that tide takes me. Amazingly enough, not once during all of this did I feel overwhelmed or like we couldn't handle it. (Okay, small lie, when I came home from work and kid was skateboarding...with two pins in wrist...I kind of revisited the higher tones in my voice.)


The good news is that it is absolutely a fabulous June day and I get to go for an afternoon walk. :D I'm feeling bulletproof. ;)


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MT-MOONCHASER 6/9/2013 10:16AM

    Whew!! I'm tired from just reading this...

I hope you have a great June.

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LINOVER 6/5/2013 9:55PM

    You definitely have a lot going on! Hope everything goes well for you!

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SUSANNAH31 6/5/2013 2:53PM

    Your blog, Realizations, from May 20 leads me to believe that you are in a good place personally, in spite of the many changes happening around you.

Just being able to stop and enjoy the beautiful June day says that your priorities are good too.

(We all would have raised our voice to that reckless pinned wrist on the skateboard!)

And finally, no weight gain throughout it all proves the point!

Wishing you continued strength and self-love....


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WMUGRAD 6/4/2013 10:42PM

    Oh my friend, If anyone can balance all of that, it's you. Looking forward to continued updates on your journey and I cant wait for things to settle down for you so you can sit back and relax and not have to be super woman/mom/cutenearlyexwifewhokicksa
$$/everything in the middle and above.


Winner winner chicken dinner. muah!

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SEATTLESIMS 6/4/2013 4:32PM

    Wow! Lots going on! Hope the transition back to family household goes well and the wrist heals quickly!
Rock on and enjoy that sun shine and stay bulletproof because you deserve it!

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LZY0108 6/4/2013 3:23PM

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PMRUNNER 6/4/2013 2:58PM

    Wow, that is a lot to deal with at once! It sounds like you are keeping a positive attitude through some challenges and curveballs! Keep up the spark!

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BEECHNUT13 6/4/2013 2:42PM

    Wait - what!?

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JONEIL513 6/4/2013 2:34PM

    wow you definitely have a lot going on but you seem so positive! keep it up!

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PICKIE98 6/4/2013 2:13PM

    You have a lot on your plate,,been there, done that.. Use the Spark plate design for your life too. Healthy foods in 1/2 plate, less healthy for the other half.. your decision.. Good luck!

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