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Excuses. Busted.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I love to workout, always.

Wrong!! ITs true that I generally really love working out and that I tend to prioritize it. But I also get 'comfy' with the amount and intensity I do...

I also love to eat healthy all the time.

Wrong!! Its true that I generally eat pretty healthy, and so I also let that stop myself from pushing to another level of nutritional, conscious eating.

So here are some my top exercise and nutrition excuses:

1. I already exercised today, I dont need to be active the rest of the day
2. I already exercise plenty- I dont need to do more
3. I am SO tired as a new mom, I should just relax
4. Its such a hassel making the time with the baby
5. I feel guilty taking a few more minutes for myself
6. Im so tired, I NEED to eat THIS for the energy
7. I eat better than a lot of people, so I can eat whatever I want right now
8. I exercised so I can eat THIS


1. 10 more minutes, one more squat will ALWAYS get me a little closer to my goal
2. I dont NEED to do more exercise- but I WANT to because why do I want to take the slow train when I can catch the express? I want more time later to go EVEN FARTHER
3a. Ya know, you can do both. Ever heard of yoga? Ever heard of walking?
3b. And how about a 20 minute nap and 10 more minutes of exercise instead of 30 minutes sitting and watching TV?
4. Take the baby with- its more fun for him if Im squatting up and down anyway, and will get me better arms and a better butt
5. An hour is only 4% of your day- and you take care of the baby like over 22hrs of the day. How much of your day is ten more minutes?
6. If food will really help, how about an apple, or some nuts INSTEAD of THAT? How about a glass of water? Or a nap? Or a deep breath?
7a. And some one eats better than you- and they wouldnt use that as an excuse to eat whatever.
7b. You can enjoy yourself and NOT destroy yourself at the same time
8. You exercised- you COULD eat THAT but you NEED some protein, a bit of carb and some water.

Excuses. Busted. Can you bust my excuses even further? :)

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KKLENNERT809 1/16/2013 8:36PM

    Enjoyed your blog, thanks for sharing

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MELAFYAIYAI 1/16/2013 4:50PM

    Love the excuse busting for your personal excuses. Takes a lot of honesty to listen and recognize the excuses we give ourselves. You're doing great, and have inspired me to see if I can do the same.

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JUMPINJULIE 1/16/2013 4:49PM

    nothing to add but love how you busted yourself.

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DALID414 1/16/2013 4:44PM

    I think you did pretty good!

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Fear and Gratitude

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Yesterday I had to take my precious little one to the ER. And he is little. Just over 13 pounds. Thats less than I have to loose to be at my prebaby weight (making this blog relevant for Spark). So, yesterday I took him to the ER and I felt fear. And pain. Several times over. Since he, after all, felt fear and pain.

I also felt pain this morning as I did Sylwia Wysenberg's Tonique dvd. Squat after squat after squat after squat after- you get the idea. In this case, I chose the pain, and could make it stop at any point, whereas yesterday I couldnt stop the pain. Thus the fear.

Its so easy to see how the 'pain' I felt in my workout is 'redemptive', but what about yesterday? What does a new mom do in the face of her child's pain, besides ache and reel inside as she tries to be calm for her screaming babe? Can the question of evil be resolved here now? No.

Its amazing though how facing pain, or fears, can build your strength and make tackling the next, new fear a little easier. And furthermore, what is the fruit of enduring and swallowing that concoction of fear and pain? Surprisingly for me yesterday it was gratitude.

As I held my little boy that night his smell and sound were ever more precious. Suddenly aspects of our daily routine were brought into sharp focus, and I could see how precious, sweet and beautiful they were and how truly amazing it is to be his mom. Its probably trite, but you dont appreciate something until you might loose it. Of course, I appreciated and loved my little boy with fire since the first day he was born. I also felt, reasonably and udnerstandably fatigued. I dont feel guilty about that- thats normal. But the disillusionment and petty annoyance I would sometimes feel when he was endlessly fussy was burned away, at least for now, because I know I would give anything to have it all back if it were lost. And because it had value even if I couldnt see or feel it and yesterday cleared my vision. I could see clearly how precious to me all those fussy moments are, really.

So out of fear and pain grew gratitude. And from there strength. Which gets me thinking, about how out of that experience came growth. Then this morning, all those squats- that, too, will 'grow' me, my muscles, to be exact, my endurance and my limits. Much like motherhood- where every day I reach a limit and am asked to go beyond it, and I so do because thats just love (happens all the time, not just with moms, of course!). it seems that only by moving past our boundaries into the unknown are we able to experience growth.

Should it follow that we should have a strength building 'regimen' to train ourselves like we train our muscles? Not for the sake of the pain or the fear, but for its fruit, strength and gratitude? Its amazing how facing one small fear enlivens your ability to face the next.

What, reader, or self, have you done to scare yourself a little?

1. Facing our fears neednt be about rashness. You dont need to jump out of an airplane, or let alone, off your steps. Fear-facing can be a mindful practice, one that grows with practice.

2. You absolutely must laugh. And forgive. This reminds yourself that you are human, and that being beyond our boundaries, lifting more than we are used to carrying, can make you fumble and fall. Laughing and forgiving can make facing 'fearlessness' an easier task.

I am afraid of so much of what it means to be a mom. So I relinquish myself to my fears and am committing to training regimen of fear-facing. A patient, slow study of fear- a dance that will allow me to go deeper and farther into the unknown.

What fears do you have? What small practices can you engage in to strengthen you for those moments that are truly frightful? How free are you?

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ASOBFALLS 1/18/2013 10:15AM

    Inner Healing has a discussion thread on Emotional Health...perhaps you could repost some of these thoughts on Fear....
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C-MERRIE11 1/15/2013 10:59PM

    It's so true!! I had to dig soooo deep to stay calm and present for him. It helps to have someone there to be there for the mom- I'm sure your sister really appreciated having you there... I had my DH, and then my dad drive out and brought us lunch. Having support makes such a difference- since what you say us very true, mom and baby feed off eachother, and since mom is the adult, she's gotta be strong and calm. Haha, and you say first trip- meaning there are clearly more! Guess im prepared for the next ones ;) hopefully they won't shake me as much. Thanks as always for the encouragement.

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DALID414 1/15/2013 10:42PM

    The first ER trip is scary. I'm not a mom, but I took my sister and nephew on their first time. She was SO worried I had to calm her down so the baby could stay calm (mother and child feed off each other).

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Goals for 1/14/2013

Sunday, January 13, 2013

here are Monday's goals:

1. Do cardio dance for at least 45 minutes
2. Finish the review of chapter 2 of ACE Exercise Science and make headway into chapter 3
3. Organize the to-dos that are floating in my brain :)
4. Of course eat within calorie range by planning ahead, going for produce or protein first, and drinking lots and lots of water
5. Up my motivation factor by surfing for outfits that I tended, even when smaller, to think 'can never wear that' and promising myself that I will :)

thats it!!

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ASOBFALLS 1/14/2013 10:49AM

    emoticon Like the 'reward' ending on your list!

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DALID414 1/13/2013 11:23PM

    Good luck and happy surfing.

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Goals for 1/9

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Wow, so Tonique was CRAZY hard yesterday- I am SO sore...

1. Today I will do 30 minutes of P57, the total body express

2. Eat clean 80/20- I upped my calorie intake slightly since I have been burning more calories than anticipated and I dont want my milk supply to suffer. I cant loose weight too quickly or it could affect the supply- Id rather keep the weight on longer and keep my baby nursing for longer :) Still, it feels like A LOT of food- like Im eating all day long to get in enough calories. I am trying to make them nutritious which I think makes it harder- a giant brownie would get me there in no time ;) But this isnt just about getting the calories, its about eating well, having good habits, etc. SO 80/20.

3. Today Ill finish the review section for chapter 1 of the ACE Exercise Science book and Ill finish chapter 2 in Dance Anatomy.

4. Bonus would be tending to the house in sooome way :)

Thats it! Go!

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DALID414 1/9/2013 11:26AM

    Gotta keep the baby fed lol

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NEELIXNKES 1/9/2013 10:40AM

    emoticon Congrats on the baby!

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Real Fast- Todays Goals

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Seriously, this blog will be SHORT. :)

1. Do Tonique for cardio- thats 60 minutes!! Well see how long baby lasts- if hell cry before the hour is up... gotta fit it in sooome how :)

2. Today is about eating clean. Yesterday was not so clean in the diet department- within calorie range, but not clean. 80/20 folks! :)

3. Read more on Muscles in my textbook. Got through the neuro section, so now Im brushing up on how muscles work. Fun!

4. Oh! and a progress pic :), need to take one, that is.

Ok, thats it!

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DALID414 1/8/2013 1:13PM

    Good luck

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ASOBFALLS 1/8/2013 10:47AM

    emoticon Great to plan (also real fast) Hugs & Smiles

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