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Tuesday, October 01, 2013


Me again for a quick long overdue checkin!

Still busy busy with baby and everything else :)

I have slowly been getting the pounds off! At one point in the past few weeks I was a tantalizing 2lbs away from the top end of my prepregnancy range!!! How is that???

Buuuut then over two weeks it crept back up. Bummer.

So got assess:
Is it water weight?
Have I not been burning as much as I thought?
Have I been eating more than I need?

Prolly a combo.

Water weight:

Ill just let this ride out, see where I am next week.

Not burning as much as I thought:
My exercise plan has really picked up speed- literally! I am running way faster than I had been and putting in ore mileage, plus the ST has been intense. At the same time I havent been walking as much as before, for a few reasons. First of all, Ive been feeling really lazy after my super intense workouts. I wonder if I should let some workout days be just a tad less intense so I dont feel so burnt out about doing additional movement through the rest of the day. I mean, I feel like all my workouts over the past few weeks have been at level 10- definitely a recipe for burn out. Additionally, my son is walking a ton now (11 months) and he does not enjoy being in his carrier as much, not to mention we got a new carrier that is hard to put on and take off, so I kindof avoid using it...

So all that probably amounts to less walking. I think over the next 2 weeks I will commit to at least one additional twenty minute walk, on top of my hour long workouts, every day. Maybe after two weeks Ill amp up to an additional 40 minutes (broken into 2 two minute walks).

Eating more:
Yes. This. Definitely. I think Ive been falling into the trap of the 'licensing effect.' I've been having these tough workouts, plus my son is eating more of my food, so I end up feeling like I can nibble more here and there, maybe eat 100 or a bit more over my range... Not good, it adds up. Additionally, its just hard to eat at adeficit, no matter how meticulous you are with the quality of your calories. Sometimes you just feel hungry and that sucks. Especially when you are trying to focus on your beautiful baby boy, or some reading you have to do, or getting off an important meal, or getting in a little extra walking ;) But its how you lose weight, with a caloric deficit, and for me, that sometimes means Im hungry and feel crappy. Oh well, Im so close. So Im going to try very very hard to stay in my range 1600-1900 over the next two weeks.

Ok, thanks for the refocus!!

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AWESOMECHELZ 10/1/2013 7:35PM

    Refocusing is so important and now you have a clearer view because you wrote it down. I always feel better when I write down and, for me especially, when I am stuck. Keep up the great work! emoticon

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A quick check-in!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Hello Sparklers!

It's been a long time since I've checked-in and I wanted to say a quick hi! I also want to say SORRY to the lovely ladies At the Barre! Sorry to have been so absent from the team!

SO where did I go? I have been on my toes running after my baby boy, working on my personal training certs and pursuing ordination (yes, you read that right!). I have had so little time to check-in on Spark- thank goodness for the Spark app for Iphone, right?

With all that running around you may think that I had no time to focus on pushing the baby weight. Wrong! I have been working HARD to lose those last ten pounds, but to no avail. I counted calories, did intense hour long sessions 5xs a week, at what many would call 'clean' to no avail. My weightloss slowed to about 1lb/month (wrote week earlier on accident!)... Well I thought perhaps I should just cut more, especially since my milk supply was still high. Wrong, again! I checked in with a dietician and she said between the breasfeeding and my activity level that I was burning well beyond what I was eating, and thus the weightloss was slow... and I felt like complete crap. I mistakenly thought that since my supply was adequate, that I could keep cutting and adding more activity, after all isnt that how you lose weight? Eat less, move more? Wrong! For healthy weightloss, sisters, that doesnt butcher your metabolism, you need a balance, the RIGHT deficit.

So now I luxuriate in being able to eat close 2700 calories on days I exercise, and after just over a week of doing this I've already lost some on my waist and hips :) We'll see how this experiment goes- I dont want to weight myself prematurely and get scared off of eating more.

Anyway, thats me! Again, big apologies to the ladies At the Barre- I truly hope that you are thriving and loving your own journeys. It's such a wonderful chance for self discovery, self-awareness and learning what it is you really value and love in life.


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NEELIXNKES 5/29/2013 11:34AM

    emoticon Wowzas busy mom! Glad you were able to get some good advice and get things moving in the direction you want them again. emoticon

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AMYTHBE 5/29/2013 12:33AM

    Yeah, I remember in my women's health class my professor said that a woman could burn an extra 500+ calories a day just because of the whole breastfeeding process. It's amazing how the body tries to cope with such a huge deficit. Good luck!

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LINDA! 5/28/2013 9:06PM

    I remember those busy days as a new mother. It is difficult to get to do everything you need to do and you are so busy chasing your baby.

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C-MERRIE11 5/28/2013 7:50PM

    Thanks all for your comments and support! I should add, ocean mist, that I'm breastfeeding a 7 month old that hasn't really taken on too many solids yet- he eats some carrot or kale here or there. According to the WHO it probably takes me 700+ cals to be EBFing a baby so old. So basically I had been creating a mega deficit... And there are probably so many ways that we in our 'dieting' create burdens for our bodies that are too extreme to maintain. Thus the amazing calorie load! Nice huh? I hope everyone can find a nice balance that gets them where they want to go :)

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AWESOMECHELZ 5/28/2013 5:25PM

    I am glad you are back! emoticon I knew you had just had your baby and I figured that you were probably very busy. The statement, "So now I luxuriate in being able to eat close 2700 calories on days I exercise, and after just over a week of doing this I've already lost some on my waist and hips" means a lot to me since Spark People always says there is a way to lose weight even eating more when exercising. I am curious to hear how the experiment goes. emoticon

Love, Chelsea emoticon emoticon

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FIREFLYBRIDE 5/28/2013 3:38PM

    Sounds like you have a great dietician! The calories in / calories out theory is a good surface level principle for when we tend to overeat, but there is so much more to it than that! Glad eating well is working for you. :)

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RYDERB 5/28/2013 3:34PM

    Thanks for the update! Nothing is more important than running after your baby boy. Good luck with your new food plan. I hope it gets the job done!
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DALID414 5/28/2013 3:23PM

    You are one busy momma!

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Frustration Buster

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Ok- first the whining.

Ive felt sooo hungry lately. Nursing is tough stuff that way. But even still, Ive been eating within the calorie range that should supposedly create a deficit with the exercise Ive been doing. Yet in the past two weeks not a single ounce has budged. :/

What gives?

This wouldnt be so bad, except that I've heard from some that if you don't loose the pregnancy weight within 6 months yadayada you are statistically more likely never to loose it.

How frustrating is that?? I've been working my butt off, while also playing smart (like not cutting too many calories so to preserve milk supply and baby care energy- but I still have 15lbs to go at 4 months.

Again, I really would be ok with that, if there wasn't this 'pressure-cooker' feeling about it, like I need to hurry up and get it off.

Well back to the past two weeks. Ive been feeling markedly more hungry and did eat more than I had been, but should still theoretically have been creating a deficit.

So what do I do from here?

1. Make sure Im being honest accurate. I want to make sure that Im not underestimating my calories nor over estimating my exercise. This is will mean that I need the extra accountability of measuring portions.

2. Drink more water- maybe all that 'hunger' is thirst from nursing, could save me a few calories.

3. Keep plugging! While the math may be all correct, my body isnt a machine, ESPECIALLY since Im nursing. So Ill just give myself more time and trust the program. :)

4. If after all these measures Im still not loosing, Ill try cutting back an additional 100 calories.

Ok, thats my action plan!

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ASOBFALLS 2/25/2013 11:17AM

    emoticon Baby comes first now..... emoticon

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AWESOMECHELZ 2/25/2013 8:47AM

    I wish I could tell you specifically what to do that works. If it was me, I would talk to the nurse at your doctor's office or a nutritionist to see what's normal to feel after a pregnancy as far as hunger and about that "6-month" rule. I wish you the best and for your baby. emoticon Chelsea

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DALID414 2/24/2013 8:45PM

    Work the plan.

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UMBILICAL 2/24/2013 8:35PM

  Be honest

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DMEYER4 2/24/2013 8:30PM

  good luck with your plan.

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Monday, February 18, 2013

"...I prefer to think that the planet needs athletes, philosophers, sex symbols, painters, scientists; it needs the warmhearted, the hardhearted, the coldhearted, and the weakhearted. it needs those who can devote their lives to studying how many droplets of water are secreted by the salivary glands of dogs under which circumstances, and it needs those who can capture the passing impression of cherry blossoms in a fourteen-syllable poem or devote twenty-five pages to the dissection of a small boy's feelings as he lies in bed in the dark waiting for his mother to kiss him goodnight... Indeed the presence of outstanding strengths presupposes that energy needed in other areas has been channeled away from them."- Allen Shawn

Today I embrace my weaknesses for they sacrifice energy, the fuel for my strengths, which together make me who I am, a unique presence on this planet.

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C-MERRIE11 2/26/2013 8:24PM

    Sandy-Toes, thats a high compliment!! Im honored :)

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IYA_EKUNDAYO 2/26/2013 8:07PM

    WOW! What a great blog...
I loved it.
You are beginning to sound like me now. lol.

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NEELIXNKES 2/21/2013 9:16AM

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AWESOMECHELZ 2/21/2013 8:11AM

    This is really a beautiful blog. Thanks SO much for sharing it. You are on the right track! Love, Chelsea emoticon

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ASOBFALLS 2/19/2013 10:23AM

    be·long [bih-lawng, -long]
verb (used without object)
1.to be in the relation of a member, adherent, inhabitant, etc. (usually followed by to ): He belongs to the SparkPeople.
2.to have the proper qualifications, especially social qualifications, to be a member of a group: You don't belong in this club.
3.to be proper or due; be properly or appropriately placed, situated, etc.: Books belong in every home. This belongs on the shelf. He is a statesman who belongs among the great.

Verb phrases
4.belong to,
a.to be the property of: The book belongs to her.
b.to be a part or adjunct of: That cover belongs to this jar.


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RACINGSLUG 2/18/2013 6:35PM

    What a beautiful quote. Congratulations on becoming a mother!

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CLWALDRO 2/18/2013 6:04PM

    We are all important so celebrate who you are today and everyday emoticon

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Weightloss Stress

Monday, February 04, 2013

I know Im not alone: weight loss can be stressful.

First, you want it all right now. I know I do! All that 'visualizing my success' can backfire when I focus too much on how my present falls short from that goal... and doubt creeps in... can I actually reach that goal? am I doing the right things to get there? can I trust my program?

Second, you can become too focused on that goal and forget to live right now, breeding too much disatisfaction with yourself in the present. Sometimes I fall into the trap of thinking that reaching my goal will make me 'happier.' True, I will feel satisfaction and pride, but I need to remember: I need to feel happy NOW! And its ok to feel happy now :) In fact, appreciating who I am NOW will actually HELP me get where I want to go, and will help me be able to actually feel happy with myself once I reach my goal :)

Third, the sloooowwwnesss of the process can be discouraging. Especially when everyday you work HARD, for tiny incremental changes. You begin to wonder, will it ever add up to a difference?? Its so important to take mental note of EVERY TINY LITTLE VICTORY AND CHANGE. Like increased endurance, a streak of workouts, etc....

So here are my affirmations:
1. I WILL reach my goal
2. I love myself today
3. Its about a lifestyle, not a number

Do you experience weight loss stress? How do you manage?

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C-MERRIE11 2/5/2013 11:30AM

    thank you both for the encouragement and advice! i suppose that while i have 'mini-goals' that they have not been playing as prominent a role as they could be :) maybe ill tweak things so I can enjoy the journey more! And Regina, as always you are full of wisdom! Ive already learned so much through this process, about patience, self care, and just plain love, that it has already been worth it! I think my inner perfectionist is finally taking some of its dying breaths :)

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IYA_EKUNDAYO 2/4/2013 11:55PM

    emoticon Meditation and most importantly remember to "Just Be" as this too shall pass.....

I believe that we go through "experiences" ... "tests" to teach us, as humans, a lesson, for our self, i.e., our own personal growth; or

to be able to help someone whom the Great Creator is going to put in our path at some point in the future who is going through the same problem as we are right now or a similar one; or

to teach us a lesson on the great karmic wheel of life... patience, trust in a higher power to help us trust and believe in our self - that we are strong enough to reach what you we working towards... if everything were just "magically" handed to us without any effort what lessons would we learn in that? and

-maybe all 3 of the above or a combination of any of the above.

I agree with Misssusriverrat, little goals - one bite at a time of the elephant, soon it (the big elephant - ) will be gone. emoticon


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    I do agree with your analysis about stress and think your affirmations are excellent. I am wondering if it would be a good idea to have goals that are achievable as stepping stones to the larger goals. Maybe it would bring you into the current time more rather than be so future oriented?

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