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One Year

Monday, April 28, 2008

Tomorrow is exactly one year since I began my SP journey. I've had ups and downs, but overall, I am absolutely thrilled with how I have done. A peer in one of my classes even told me I was her inspiration to get herself back in shape. Amazing.

This one year anniversary comes at such a critical time for me. I've been in a "somewhat off the wagon" stage for about three months, never fully recovering from comprehensive exam time. In the last 90 days, I've secured a (real person) job, found housing for the summer, identified a potential roommate for the next year, helped plan two bachelorette parties and bridal showers, studied for and passed two comprehensive exams, and basically survived my last semester of graduate school. I discovered that I can generally stay within my "personal allotted range" by exercising almost every day, but my food intake has not been stellar. I've also realized that I am terrified of maintenance at my goal weight.

To be honest, I have not officially made it to my goal of 140 (140.2...so close!). So here we go, with 20 days left of graduate school, I am off to pack my lunch for tomorrow, get myself off this slippery slope. I'm going to BE that inspiration and get to 140 in the near future.

Doesn't matter how many times we fall--only how many times we pick ourselves back up.

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LUCUBRATRIX 4/29/2008 1:38PM

    That's fantastic!!!

Congratulations to you on your maintenance. I think finding a way to make "somewhat off the wagon" work for you is absolutely key, because it means you can continue even when life gets crazy... as it certainly sounds yours has been!

I'm in the same category as you in that I'm a few lbs away from my official "goal" weight of 166... Currently 170ish, and in a way I'm almost happy to not be "at goal" because then I'm not really entirely on "maintenance" yet, either.

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HUSKY__HANK 4/29/2008 8:30AM


You are doing so well.

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The most important things I did today

Saturday, January 26, 2008

1. Had a much needed conversation with a very important person in my life.

2. Facilitated a support group meeting for adults who have suffered strokes or head injuries and now suffer from aphasia*. We did introductions around the room (some folks were new, others have been involved for over 15 years!), each sharing something about ourselves, our experience with aphasia, or even just something that happened to us that week.

The most life-changing part of this time for me was the last five minutes of my already-ten-minutes-too-long session. The third to last participant, a man clearly in his thirties, started to introduce himself but then quickly said "Pass." I agreed to let him pass and told him we'd come back to him. Two other participants spoke for a few minutes and we went back to this individual. I gave him a cloze sentence ("My name is ______.") to help him get started because I wasn't sure of his cognitive-linguistic level. He added another short sentence but then stopped, clearly not wanting to fall apart in front of the group. The woman sitting to his right said to him, "Just one more sentence. You can do it."

He looked up at her, and then at the group, and he cried as he told the story of his aphasia in agrammatic fashion to the point where I am still not positive what had happened to him. That wasn't the point. Understanding his story fully wasn't the point. The point was that he was trying, and the amazing survivors in my group went to his side, encouraged him, and promised him that he would make improvements every single day if he kept trying.

I was lucky enough to also have students from another college, an undergraduate student from my university, AND a speech-language pathology supervisor from another college all there to observe this truly amazing moment. The supervisor inched forward and whispered in my ear, "This is my favorite part." I turned to her and my glassy eyes met hers. I looked across the circle and the other students, and many of the participants, were smiling and tearing in that "This is a magical time" kind of way. There is nothing better than watching people who have been there step up and provide hope.

So this second thing wasn't truly something I did, but rather something I was blessed to be a part of.

I am so lucky.

*Aphasia is an acquired communication disorder that impairs a person's ability to process language, but does not affect intelligence. Aphasia impairs the ability to speak and understand others, and most people with aphasia experience difficulty reading and writing (www.aphasia.org).

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    Wow. That is a memory to come back to as the semester goes on and starts to get more hectic. Hell, that's something to go back to whenever you need a pick me up. That's amazing. How fortunate that you were able to help him get there, and had all of those amazing people there to let him know it's okay. :o) So so so fantastic.

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GOGOSHIRE 1/27/2008 9:39AM

    What a neat thing to be a part of!

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JUST_TONE 1/27/2008 9:08AM

    Now that is wonderful!
Simply Wonderful!

What you do is so important...so important...giving support as this only makes you an angel of sorts in my book!

Thank you for sharing your day with us...


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HERESHECOMES 1/27/2008 9:03AM

    Wow. That story is amazing. Thank you for sharing!

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SUSIEQ911 1/26/2008 8:49PM

    Wow...what an amazing day! That must have been so incredible to be there. You practically had me tearing up at the story.

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The reason for workout clothes

Saturday, January 19, 2008

So today I got up and had no desire to go to the gym. I have to walk .75 miles each way and I just did not want to do it. Don't make me, don't make me, don't make me.

I reluctantly got out of bed and did a little of this, a little of that. Finding Facebook bumper stickers becomes the most important thing in life when there's something else that I really need to get done. I had zero motivation...except to find those stickers.

But then, I put on my new workout clothes, and something clicked. Yeah, they're clothes I've had for about three weeks, but I always forget how awesome they are until I put them on again. Magically, I felt energized. I had on Nike pants that are stretchy and warm and a Nike breathable shirt and zip up. I was ready.

Or so I thought, until I put on my socks. I have these Addidas odor resistant socks that wick moisture and are just an absolute joy to wear. Post-workout, I don't feel like I'm peeling my socks off like I do when wearing regular athletic socks. They are glorious. I ran around the Esplanade. It was excellent.

So, my message today is, if you've been working out for a while in old (and maybe baggy?) t-shirts and yoga pants, it's time to spoil yourself. I know, I know...you don't want to buy new workout clothes that you'll just ingrow (the opposite of outgrow, naturally). Well, then go find yourself a sale. Find a Target, Kohl's, or Marshalls, and buy yourself some nice, new, motivating workout clothes.

Or at least invest in the socks.

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SPANISHPEANUT 1/20/2008 3:05PM

    That's motivation enough. And people say that money can't buy happiness. Okay, that's probably true, but it surely buy MOTIVATION. (And motivation leads to healthy habits and healthy habits lead to happiness... so there.)

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More size 8s and general updates

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

I got a newwww size 8 peacoat at New York and Company! It was originally $128 and I got it for $60! A great size and a great deal...can't beat that. It was totally time to get rid of that size 14 peacoat.

Lots of compliments today and spoke openly about my success on SparkPeople with a few classmates. One is somewhat attempting WW but isn't doing it via the online system or meetings. I don't know how I would have done this without the support SparkPeople or WW provides.

I've been assigned my final clinical placement for the spring. I'll be the intern at an aphasia* community center, facilitating therapy/support groups for adults with aphasia. It will be very interesting, but I'll miss my kiddos.

*Aphasia is an acquired communication disorder that impairs a person's ability to process language [usually resulting from stroke or head injury], but does not affect intelligence. Aphasia impairs the ability to speak and understand others, and most people with aphasia experience difficulty reading and writing. (Source: National Aphasia Association)

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HUSKY_HANK 11/8/2007 11:40AM

    Yeah for good deals!!!

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LISY_SOTO 11/7/2007 11:31PM

  I love getting deals! It's so exciting!

I worked with someone who had aphasia. Very challenging but a great experience. Good luck with your placement. =)

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Size 8s?

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Never in my entire life have I been a size 8. Ever. I went from shopping in kids, to wearing a sizes 9, 11, and 13 in juniors, to 14 in women's. But never a size 8.

Until this weekend.

My birthday is next Thursday, so when I went home to visit last weekend, my mother and I went shopping on her dime. I was in desperate need of new pants and bras, so I was pretty excited.

Size 8 dress pants. Size 10 jeans. Medium shirts. And let's just say "much smaller bras." Oh. My. Goodness.

Adding to my glee were all the compliments I got at home. In an effort to continue tracking my "highs," I'll just state that everyone was shocked. My own family told me they didn't even recognize me anymore; when I was checking on dinner in the oven (SP recipe!) and my mother came in the door, she asked my sister, "Who is that?" Crazy!

AND, today at my clinical placement, my supervisor (who only just met me a month ago) and I were discussing the high correlation between voice disorders and morbid obesity and I commented that seeing it so often was a great motivator to get in shape. She actually turned to me and said, "You are in shape!" ME? IN SHAPE?

I still have a few more pounds to lose, but more than anything I'd like to tone up some areas, particularly my upper body and trunk. Life is awesome. For anyone just embarking on this journey, know that it is all worth it.

Also, please consider sponsoring me as I "Walk for Autism Research" this weekend. Even if you cannot donate money, do a little bit of research on www.autismspeaks.com and heighten your awareness about this truly special population of children and their families. There is no greater joy than helping a child succeed.


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LUCUBRATRIX 10/15/2007 5:16PM

    Thanks for the lovely comment! You are getting super-close to goal yourself, so way to go! And it's good to write down the compliments you get, because you can pull them out and remember that feeling when you're having a blah day... not that you should need it, because you're looking amazing!

And I'm so glad you had fun on the shopping spree!!

Also, way to go on the walk for autism research! It's a cause I really care about, too, and it's fabulous that you're involved in fundraising and awareness raising!

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HUSKY_HANK 10/15/2007 9:33AM

    That is aweome!

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SUSIEQ911 10/12/2007 11:57AM

    That is so cool! I hope I can make it there someday!

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NEARINGMYGOAL 10/12/2007 9:32AM

  Way to go! My weight loss has been a long journey and I know from experience that when you lose weight it takes time to start seeing yourself and your body the way others see it. I guess the brain can't always process change as quickly as you can acheive it. And thanks for visiting my blog and participating in the autism walk- those of us with kids on the spectrum know first-hand how much our kids benefit from these types of efforts and the importance of funding autism research and treatment.

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FATUGLYPIG 10/12/2007 2:45AM

    Great work! Good for you! I totally feel where you're coming from! I, myself have never been the size i am now in my ENTIRE life. (size 12..workin' to 8, too) Anyway, keep up the good work and have a lovely day!

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