Monday, February 18, 2013
Hello Team! My name is Sara. I'm 36, married and currently have no children and no pets. I am a full-time student studying Medical Radiography. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I had my 'scare' when I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes in 07. I lost some weight, got my numbers under control, then became complacent, gained some weight back (not all lost, thankfully), held steady for a while and now my numbers are creeping up where I don't like them and it's time to take control now and keep it under control.
I am a laid back, easy-going person with a twisted sense of humor that runs toward quoting movie lines that I think fit the situation. I only let very few people see that side of my personality simply because most people don't get it. A joke just isn't funny it you have to explain it, lol! I am married to a wonderful guy that has helped me become comfortable in my own skin and has taught me to truly love myself. I thank the Lord daily for bringing him into my life. We have a fairly unique history in that we met on match.com, so yes we are a success story!
One may wonder why I wrote that I currently have no children. This is my sweet angel in Heaven:
I live in the hope of being able to see him again one day!
I am hoping that this challenge will help me to turn my healthy changes into a way of life, and not just for a week or two. I want my healthy changes to be in place and a habit when I start clinicals in the fall. This will be a hectic time that can make or break me, and I want to make it!
Can't wait to meet other team members!
Bonus Challenge Results:
Body Fat%= 49.77 (YIKES!!) Me no likey :(
lbs's of Body Fat= 99.03
Lean Body Wt=99.07
Got to start somewhere, but this does provide me with motivation to see the % and lbs of body fat go down and the lean body weight go up.
Monday, February 11, 2013
I am sitting here and just thinking over the past years and all the self-sabotage I've engaged in. I've never really had what you would call great self-esteem. It has truly only been in the last few years that I have gained enough confidence in who I am that I can really be me. Five years ago now I lost 60 pounds doing Weight Watchers and taking a medicine for my type 2 diabetes. It really felt like the weight was more or less melting off of me and even better I didn't have to closely guard what I was eating, really just the amount. I indulged in lots of extras and still the weight was coming off. I was smaller, but the self esteem still wasn't there like I thought it would be if I was able to lose weight.
Right when I hit my lowest weight I had been in years, my grandmother died. . Losing her was tough, and my weight loss stalled at that point and I began a slow climb back up. Hubby proposed on 4th of July that year, and I wanted to lose the weight I had gained, but it never happened. We had started dating before I lost weight and I knew he loved me no matter what size I was. Slow climb kept going until I hit 200. I have been there give or take 5-10 pounds since about 2009.
After getting married, we bought my grandmother's house and worked to fix it up and moved in late '09. Then about a month after we moved in my son (who was born with only about two-thirds of his heart) got H1N1. He had been on a slow decline since '07 and the H1N1 was the straw that broke the camel's back. We lost him 8 months later. Initially I lost a little weight, but put that back on fairly quickly.
In this experience, I gained my self esteem. Not an expected gain in that type of situation, but nevertheless, that's when it happened. I've learned how to stand up for myself and how to make myself feel better through exercise. I have found Zumba and running. I have also strengthened my faith and my belief that God's plan is perfect for us. Yes, it has been, and frankly still is, an emotional rollercoaster and there were days when I didn't know if I would could get out of bed or not, but I have found an inner strenght I didn't know I possessed.
My health journey is not about a number or a size of pants. For me, it is about mental and physical health. I do hope that weight loss is the outcome, of course I do but it isn't strictly about that. It is about mentally and physically having a outlet for my grief, that is positive and healing. It is about the accomplishment of being in a fair amount of control of this when there is so much I have no control over.
Everyone's journey is different and unique, and you never know what may help and motivate someone, so I thought I would let you in on a little of my journey thus far.
Keep on sparking Sparkfriends, your the best!
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Well, I didn't make my actual goal, but I am REALLY close to it. I see no obstacles to being able to make it to my goal this week.
I am starting a new challenge on Monday. A friend wants to sign up for a Warrior Dash in April and wanted people to do it with. I am completely freaking out, but I committed to going with her. So, my new challenge is to train to complete the run. It is a run with obstacles and is about the length of a 5k. Lots of work to do! But it will be loads of fun, sweat and tears! I am looking forward to the feeling of accomplishment when I jump the fire line at the finish line.
The run is April 20th, so that gives me plenty of time to prepare. I don't want to set an actual goal weight to be at by that time but 180 to 185 is not an unreasonable number on which to set my sights.
In a NSV, tonight hubby and I ate supper with my parents and we grilled elk steaks and had corn on the cob, broccoli and rice. When we walked in my Mom had just rolled out biscuit dough, OMG! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE her homemade biscuits! Somehow though I restrained my self and had 1 and a half. Normally I would have at least two if not more. Even better was that when I got home and tracked my calories I was still 50 calories under my upper limit. I normally don't get that close but I had a couple of small treats today. Huge Huge Huge victory for me! I can do this!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
It's what my parent's always taught me and while I am honest with other people, I find that it is difficult to be honest with myself. It may sound crazy, but in my head it is easy to say: 'oh, this little bit of this won't hurt.' Unfortunately, it isn't always just one little bit, it is usually three or four or more! So a goal for me this week is to be more honest with myself, my portion sizes and my choices.
Another goal I have set for myself this week is to be below 200 pounds for weigh-in Friday. I have been very lax about meeting the goals I set for myself and it sabotages my hard work, my healthy choices. And it is all deliberate. Why would I do this to myself? Well, I talked about that in a previous blog, but I still feel the answer is I doubt myself. I think I'm scared of succeeding. Is that crazy or what?!
If I succeed at weightloss, something I've struggled with my whole life, what will I do after that? What will I have to work towards? All I can say is that I am a work in progress. Reading blogs and posting my own blogs about my struggles is really helping me right now. So I hope that I can post a blog in a few days that says GOAL MET!
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