Thursday, June 05, 2014
I'm so proud of myself. For the last 2 days, I haven't had any caffeine during the day or on my drive to work/home. This really big for me.
I started to feel sick from allergies, or a cold, hard to tell the difference sometimes, Monday afternoon. And since then, I've had no desire to want a Dr Pepper. Each time I had the chance for one, I realized it didn't sound good in least. And instead of giving into habit, I decided to go w/what my body said it didn't really want/need and what the heck, save 200+ calories!
Today has been harder. I think it's b/c I'm drinking water w/a bunch of ice... which doesn't help w/soothing my throat or stomach. I'm going to finish up this glass and then get some luke warm water next to see how that goes.
I keep thinking - how awesome would it for me to get through this illness/allergies and then be free from this habit too all the while not noticing the caffeine withdrawal b/c I already feel cruddy.
All in all, I'm actually glad to not feel well b/c I don't WANT a Dr Pepper.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
The other day I was trying to figure out why I don't like to go for walks while at work. 1st I'd like to let you know that was really hard to admit, but it's SO true.
2nd, I want to go out with a purpose. I don't really like walking around the building. It's not inspiring to me at all. Instead, I want to go train to run or jog for a 5K.
That said, I've decided that is what I'm going to do. I'm going to bring my clothes and shoes with the intent to run/jog during my break.
It's about 1 mile if I go around the entire perimeter so its not like I'll get very sweaty while I'm out.
For the last 3 days though I have brought my clothes and shoes to do this. But have I gone out yet? No, I haven't. The 1st day I got some terrible news that a high school friend of mine died of a massive heart attack and I frankly was too much in shock to go out. (Let me also say this guy was healthy [looking], so it was really difficult to fathom since I'm not in the least bit health.) The next day, it was rainy. Today - it was too cold from last night's rain. I'm going to make myself go out for an afternoon break today though and get my first training session under my belt.
Anyway, I'm glad I finally figured it out - that I have to have a mission. Now - just to keep a mission on my list.
Have a great day. I hope you find your mission to do what you need and want to do.
Friday, April 11, 2014
I heard on NPR (National Public Radio for those that don't know the acronym) today that if you react one way to something then you are most likely going to react the same way when it happens again. For example - how you deal with people on the road w/you. Do you honk and show improper hand gestures, or do you breath deeply, back off and slowly get over it?
Well, I'm proud to say that I usually deal with idiocy drivers by backing off now. I used to not... but I got tired of being mad and stressed when on the road. I can say that I learned better habits and where it took effort at first, it's more of just my reactions now.
Now - the reason why this is really on my mind.
Yesterday my sis told me that I argue a lot with people and that she and I clash.
This is funny - no, I don't. (That's arguing, right - defying what the other person said... or at least it's one part of one's definition.)
Seriously though. I don't mean to argue. In fact I just share my opinion and if it's opposite yours, I tend to also give reasons why. I also play devils advocate - sharing the opposite side of the story, even when I agree w/the the 1st side.
I told Dad what my sis had recently told me because it really had upset me, and he said that he doesn't consider our conversations as arguments - we just discuss stuff. And that is exactly the way I think of all my talk fests.
So when I heard the story on the radio, I realized that in most instances I give the other side. I have trained myself to argue w/everything that comes my way!
Seriously, I don't know how to stop doing that. I don't want to be known this way. I want to have a solid relationship w/the people I love and care about and I'm absolutely tired of my sister telling me this. (She does this to me about every 3-4 months... yes, I think it's her way of creating drama for herself, but that's another blog. Nevertheless though, I do believe I do have a problem.)
Today and for the weekend, I'm going to try my hardest to breathe, count to 10 and ask myself am I arguing w/ soandso, or do I really feel what I have to say next to be true to what I believe.
I hope your day and weekend is wonderful and stress free!
Friday, March 28, 2014
This past weekend was my kids birthday party and I had almost everyone show that was invited. I'm happy w/that. (I think though, this might be the last of the combined party.)
For the last several months my sister, Dad, and my only (1st) cousin on my Dad's side would get together for family time. At first it was to learn about our heritage. At our last meeting, I requested that it be at my house but for the kids' party. Everyone agreed that was a great idea.
When I sent out the evites and emails to those 3 though, I didn't hear back from my cousin. I kept thinking that she was busy but would still attend. She's like that, I wasn't too worried that she wouldn't come.
She didn't. I was a little hurt... b/c I live about 1 1/2 hours away from her and this was a special day... and our set "family time". I called her Monday just to see how she was doing and to tell her about the party. Yes, that is my passive aggressiveness coming into play, but I was concerned b/c even though I do live 1 1/2 hours away, she's really good about keeping "family time"...
We said our hellos and then I asked her how she was doing. I wasn't bringing up the party just yet - 20/20 thank goodness. She blasted a bombshell. She was at the hospital w/ her fiance who was admitted into ICU with kidney failure since that morning. OMG! I knew there would be a good reason.
My cousin's fiance is morbidly obese. She is too, but his numbers are really much worse.
In 2009 he had a colonectomy - his colon had ruptured, docs repaired it. My cousin began to let him in her heart. In his recovery, he lost 100 lbs. I was the first to meet him (from my side of the family) and liked him. He was at the tail end of that 100 lbs lost. He was still gravely overweight though. He told me that he was on a good path and planning to continue to lose weight.
Well, they became complacent. The next thing I know, my cousin tells me that he has gained "most" of the weight back. He continues to tell people that his doctors tell him that where he is overweight, everything else is fine. That surprised me. How can he be healthy in every other aspect... he must have some good genes.
Oh... and now they are engaged by this point.
In December he got pneumonia, but not to the point of hospitalization. That's where he tells me some things he had been hiding from me. I don't know if he was keeping this from cousin. Anyway, back in 2000 he had an episode where he was suffering from lung and kidney failure and congestive heart failure. (WHOA!) Because of that, he needed to take diuretic pills to help his body rid of fluid and if not fluid could build up around his heart and lungs. Those conditions are life threatening. Through the holidays and traveling, he wasn't taking his pills like he should and that was the cause of this pneumonia. Luckily though the docs told him that the fluid had not gotten into the heart cavity, but was very close. He said the docs told him he had to take those pills religiously.
I could tell that he wasn't really on board w/the idea, but he said he planned on taking these diuretics b/c he knew he had to in order to stay alive and to be w/my cousin.
This week rolls around.
He's in critical condition in ICU. In my cousins words "He did this to himself." Not only has he not been taking his diuretic pills, hes also not been using his C-Pap machine at night.
He hadn't used his breathing machine at night since he started dating my cousin in 2009.
Come to find out, the doctors have him in the hospital under the diagnosis of OHS - besity hypoventilation syndrome. (check it out on Wikipeida, he suffers from everything discussed on that page.) This is the reason he is battling with kidney failure right now.
In short - you have to have oxygen (O2). If you don't get enough, your body begins to shut down. Where I knew this from biology class, I still didn't realize how important it was. Saying out loud makes me feel stupid... but really, I didn't know.
Yes, I knew you needed O2 for life. That your heart takes oxygen to all your cells and organs. But I also thought that if your breathing, you are getting enough.
I know I haven't done this story real justice, but I never said I was a writer. I hope I got enough information in here to help someone else realize the importance of good quality breathing - O2 in Carbon Dioxide (CO2) out, as well as water retention and diuretic pills and just as important, listen to your doctors AND tell them the things you are doing and not doing so they can better prescribe you stuff.
This episode is such an eye opener to me, my sister, and my cousin.
I pray that my cousin's man survives this battle so we can all see him win the war against obesity!
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