Thursday, May 06, 2010
Ok, so Im into week 4 and I'm 12lbs down with which I can't complain but I seem to be on a bit of a rollercoaster with my weightloss.
My plan when I first started was to eat healthily, stop snacking unnecessarily and to treat myself once a week. So during the week, things go fab but I seem to have my one day of indulgence (not overeating - just maybe some takeout on a saturday) and I seem to gain all weight back that I've lost during the week. How is this even possible. Grrrr.
So I've had to rethink a few things and my day of indulgence has now been narrowed down to one a month :(
It's gonna be tougher staying motivated but it's gotta be done.
So this week, I weigh the same as last week after gaining and then losing again.
Off to the movies tomorrow with friends and that should be tough. Can't usually resist a hot dog and some chocolate so will have to have dinner right before I leave so that I'm not tempted.
I am finding it a lot easier to say no though. Previously, on most of my manyyy diets, as soon as my partner suggested a chinese, I'd cave. But it's getting easier.
I am not going to be the fat girl in Greece this year!
I have however, eaten my body weight in fruit and if I have to look at another strawberry, I think I'll be sick lol.
Oh well, just need to stay strong!
Monday, May 03, 2010
Grrrrr. Okay so a messed up weekend but today I've been back on track. After gaining four pounds over saturday and sunday I've somehow managed to crawl back over from the dark side and give myself a much needed slap.
Even when my insensitive scrote of a boyfriend decided he was having a dominos pizza for dinner, complete with side orders and dessert.
The fact that he felt the need to confront me with it in the bedroom, wafting it under my nose as if to lure me away from my calorie free domain, really got me thinking as to what a complete tosser he is.
I just don't get it? He addresses the fact that I am overweight (not in a bad way, unless we're in an argument and then thereafter he is EXTREMELY apologetic - tosser) and I think secretly, he misses the days we first met when I had the flat tum, round bum and killer legs. Now I feel more like Shamu and my confidence is peeling off like old paint.
Where is the support?! This has been a constant issue over the past week or so. Why, when you know I'm dieting do you insist on asking me every evening if I'd like to get takeout for dinner? I am consistent in telling you 'No!, I'm dieting.' But you just don't get it! And then you make a point of showing off your lovely pizza, deliberately I could tell by the sniggering!
The bad thing about my partner is that he has the waist of a barbie doll and is like a bottomless pitt. It is almost physically painful to live with someone who can eat what they want, when they want and not gain a pound! Grrrr!
I think that living together has warped my opinion of what a regular meal is. Things I'd usually eat one of, I see myself now doubling up as if it's the norm. But it isn't. It's the norm for him maybe but my portions have grew quite tremendously over the last three years and I'm jut starting to notice it.
I don't know what to do. I can't ban him from eating takeout. I have to have self control and I can't banish myself from being around these foods because it's just not a realistic environment. But getting him to wisen up is going to be a much tougher job.
Sorry for the rant. Just had to let off some steam! Man that feels better. Now I can go to bed satisfied that I wont choke him in his sleep. But just incase...I hope they have internet in prison...haha!
Monday, May 03, 2010
Ok so after two weeks of mind blowing concentration, I decided it was time for an indulgence day...
Well, one indulgence day turned into two. And two indulgence days turned into 4lbs!! 4lbs!! I mean WTF!? Ok, so I no I was bad but 4lbs? I didn't eat that much!! I thought the point was to eat what you want but in moderation.
So now that I'm back on track, it looks like I'm back to strictness. Goodbye ALL sugary/fatty/carby food. Until September!
Think I'm going to start struggling to motivate myself soon :o(
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I've always assumed I was. But I've had a good think about it and it turns out...I just love food!
Cookie dough ice cream, fudge sundaes, chinese chicken curry, fried chicken, you name it. I love it :o)
This week, instead of counting calories, I'm going to focus my attention on speeding up my metabolism.
So I'm going to be drinking green tea (Yuck) and trying to eat something small every two hours. I've heard many a time that eating after 6pm is the worst as you don't get a chance to work it off. Well, I am going to defy this rule and eat up until an hour or so until bedtime.
I've done quite a lot of research on other ways to speed it up so I'l keep you all posted :o)
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