Saturday, May 26, 2012
I may be making excuses, but I think my workout plans were doomed from the start. Maybe the universe is telling me to rest.
I'm tired, physically and emotionally. My boyfriend told me last night that he is going to university next year, so I am left trying to work out how to buy, and pay off, a house on 1 full time and 1 part time income. I earn too much for him to be entitled to any government assistance, and I am not putting off buying a house for 4+ years. No point paying someone elses mortgage! It is all a bit stressful, and I'm not good with having my life plans change. I want to buy a house, and travel, but I am looking at not being able to travel until I am in my 30's! As someone who loves travel and wants to see the world, this is upsetting and scary.
Also, my boyfriend has already been to uni. He mucked around and wasted his time and ended up flunking out. I don't think he has the work ethic to handle uni, and I am worried that he will just waste more time and money, but this time it will be our money. He was lucky enough to have his parents fund his 2 wasted years, and I doubt they will be interested in helping out this time (not that they should, but it would have been nice if he look his first opportunity seriously). So I am facing more debt, more time wasted waiting for someone to finish uni... I have just done all this! I am ready to start my life, not waste another 4 years waiting for Russell to finish a degree and a postgraduate diploma for him to do the EXACT SAME JOB that he is doing now.
Anyways, I am frustrated, and worried and tired, and I have no idea how to handle this information. I am seriously considering just calling it quits. Honestly. I could sell my engagement ring and wedding ring, pay off some debt, save up some money and go traveling next year. I would be alone, but at least I would be happy. Because right now I am miserable.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
I have just finished purging my wardrobe of my 'too big' clothes. I won't be needing them again, so there was no point having them clog up my wardrobe. The Salvation Army will be getting a big drop off this week. However, now I have next to nothing to wear! I realise that I am lucky to have what I do, and that I should just leave it at that, but 3 pairs of pants and 4 tops wasn't going to cut it.
As usual, because I was looking for something, I found nothing. Gah. You know how it goes, when you aren't looking to buy something you find heaps of cute clothes, when you are looking you find nothing. That, and I don't know how to dress myself now that I don't have a belly to hide. I managed to find 2 tops that I liked (and were on sale, score), as well as a much needed winter woolen cardigan. I ended up getting 2 smaller belts, so I can keep wearing some of my current tops. They are loose, but with a belt they will last another few months/kilos.
I had a rest day today. I am really sore from working out 4 days in a row. Tomorrow I'll be at the gym doing my weights program.
My weight is going up and down like a yo-yo, thanks to some Chinese food the other night. Sodium, fun stuff.
And, finally, I had a haircut tonight. I love the head massage part! Just a trim and some layers/thinning to try and tame the curls.
And thats all!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Upping my weights. Busy means more people using the weights and less selection available. Ah well, go heavy or go home, I suppose.
Another busy day today. We watched some youtube videos for topic, but since 2 classes piggy backed on my lesson, it wasn't hugely effective. Too many kids, too much talking, and the only teachers were me, a reliever and the librarian. Yeah. Oh well, we had a good discussion once we were back in class, and our animal classification display looks cool.
And now I need to go to the supermarket to get some more food for my lunches. The only downside to the healthy eating lark is that real food goes off quicker, which means 2 trips to the supermarket per week. I forgot to go on my way home, so I'll need to venture out in the cold. I'd go before work, but I already leave the house around 7.30am, and I really don't want to get up any earlier.
That's all, folks!
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