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Its been 5 days since my last tub of ice cream

Sunday, February 20, 2011

and I'm going strong. Still at the same weight (bouncing around in the same kilo, I hate that!!) so at least I haven't gained!

The boyfriend is still deciding what he wants. I know what I want. Just biding my time until I can leave. Moving back in with my parents will suck, but I will be able to save a tonne of money and hopefully will be able to go on my OE once I graduate, which is my dream trip and something I won't be able to do with my boyfriend. Being single will suck, and I'm scared of feeling alone (and that my boyfriend will move on, that will kill me) but it is what has to happen. I can't live my life knowing that the person I love doesn't love me back. I deserve better. I deserve someone who will love me and who wants to spend their life with me, travelling the world and seeing everything. That or I'll be alone forever...It could happen. Where do people meet people anyway? Russell and I met at school, so I actually have no idea where people meet. Probably something I should worry about in the long term, not right now.

Moving on.

I have 6 days off work, after spending my entire summer working 40-60 hour weeks. Well deserved, I think. I plan on not doing much, to be honest. I will try and get to the pools a few times. I just want to enjoy not having to do anything. I'm so tired.

  
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CARLA-216 2/21/2011 2:31PM

    Yes, you most certainly do deserve to be loved in return, and I am glad you realize that. Don't worry about where to meet people...you'll probably meet The One when least expecting it.

Enjoy your 6 days off!

xoxo
Carla

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OPALMOON 2/21/2011 4:49AM

    Good on you for pursuing what you want - the stay with your parents doesn't have to be permanent - it sure helps with saving money, and they may be just the support you need once you do leave. Enjoy your time off!

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BEANPOD77 2/20/2011 8:35PM

    Its time to put yourself and your need first! Good for you..Here to support you as much as possible. You CAN do it and you ARE worth it! Have lots of room if your travels bring you to Canada! emoticon

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MBRANDO 2/20/2011 6:28PM

    You do deserve better. Yep, moving back in with parents will suck, I have had to do it before but you get through it. At least they will let you back in!

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Pulling myself together

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Eating a tub of chocolate ice cream isn't going to help matters, so I am going to get back on the bandwagon tomorrow.

Breakfast - Toast and marmite
Lunch - 2 WW pitas with 2T of hummus
Snacks - 2 small apples, quaker bar, small pack of burger rings (gotta treat yourself!)
Dinner - TBD but probably some lean meat and veggies.

Gotta get this thing back on track. Make this man realise that he is throwing away a hottie!

Saw Burlesque tonight. I now want to be a burlesque dancer. I can't sing, dance or fit into the costumes, but those are all minor details.

  
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CARLA-216 2/16/2011 2:16PM

    You're right, the junk food won't solve anything. Good job getting back on track. You're worth it whether that man realizes it or not!

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OPALMOON 2/16/2011 10:04AM

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EVELYN208 2/16/2011 7:02AM

    Good luck with your new start, I know you can do it!

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 2/16/2011 6:22AM

    You are stronger than you know! You will do great!

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BILL60 2/16/2011 6:20AM

    Get it on!!

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Update

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Hi guys. Thought I'd update you on my relationship situation/my new diet!

On Friday my boyfriend of 5 years revealed that the reason he really doesn't want to get married is because he doesn't think I am right for him. Says he loves me but we want different things in life. Mainly it is because I want to travel. I'm not content sitting in NZ my whole life, I want to see the world!! He is happy to sit on his computer for his whole life.

In the YEARS that I have spent expressing my desire for travel he has never once spoken up. If he had we probably wouldn't still be together. But after 5 years it is hard to break up over something like travel. Kids? Yeah. Religion? Sure. But the desire to go on holiday? Not so much.

He has decided he needs to "think about things". I told him not to take too long because I want to be able to get on with my life if he decides that I'm not the one for him. Of course I'm hoping that I am the one for him because I love him, but if he does want to break up then I'll be devistated but I'll get over it. Get myself a nice forgien boy... (Currently taking applications...)

So thats my life right now.

As for the weight loss...Well apparently NOT eating makes you put on weight too. Who knew? I'm still bouncing around in the same kilo so at least I haven't had a major gain. Still not terribly hungry but I'm making myself eat a couple of times a day to get some calories in.

Exercise...Nada. Running and walking is out. Biking is fine but I would need a stationary bike or a gym pass, neither of which I can afford. Swimming is allowed but I need a timetable worked around the tides or a pool pass, which is affordable but....Its such a hassle. You have to change and shower and stuff. Lazy me. Russell and I are planning on going kayaking next week if we are still together, so that should be fun and a good workout. Gotta start thinking outside the box!!! Suggestions welcome!

  
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CARLA-216 2/15/2011 11:03AM

    Sending hugs and love to you.

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A new diet that really works!

Friday, February 11, 2011

True story. Its called the "We might be breaking up" diet. What you do is have a discussion with your boyfriend where he reveals that while he loves you he has doubts about if you are the one for him, and tells you that marriage and a life together, the one you had been talking about for the past 5 years, is pretty much out of the question.

What follows is extreame nausea and the lack of desire to eat anything accompanied by worry because you don't know if your relationship will last the next 2 hours and you have forgotten how to fuction without this person in your life.

The end

  
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CARLA-216 2/13/2011 9:56AM

    Sending you the biggest of emoticon.


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CIARANFURNESS 2/12/2011 10:45PM

    Oh Im so sorry, hope you get things sorted out soon! emoticon

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MEWIEGELE 2/12/2011 8:59AM

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MENHALLS 2/12/2011 8:47AM

    Do remember your own value is not tied to someone else thinking you are "good enough".

If he can't see how amazing you are, then it is his loss. Hugs & hope for easier times ahead.

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PURPLESPEDCOW 2/11/2011 9:01PM

    I am so sorry to hear this. Sending hugs and support.

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 2/11/2011 8:49PM

    Sending you a big hug!

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LEXIE63 2/11/2011 7:26PM

    Cue Beautiful South singing 'A Little Time'. :-(
Sorry Honey.
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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HONEYMOON25 2/11/2011 7:03PM

    Oh, that does make me nauseous. :(

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Accent Vlog

Wednesday, February 09, 2011


This is an accent vlog. I say the following things and you can hear my accent. I hope everyone else does one too!!

Oh and ignore the neck rolls, laptop on lap = V bad angle. Also ignore me fluffing up at the end, wasn't sure how to conclude!!

The words:
Aunt, Route, Wash, Oil, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, Sure, Data, Ruin, Crayon, Toilet, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Spitting image, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Syrup, Pajamas, Caught

Questions:

What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house?
What is the bug that when you touch it, it curls into a ball?
What is the bubbly carbonated drink called?
What do you call gym shoes?
What do you say to address a group of people?
What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
What do you call your grandparents?
What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
What do you call it when rain falls while the sun is shining?
What is the thing you change the TV channel with?

  
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PUFFPASTRY 2/21/2011 6:14AM

    You are soooo adorable in every way! I love Kiwi accents (though I will admit, it's hard to distinguish them from Australian, and *sometimes* from South African -- hope that's not horribly insulting to your Kiwi pride). I'm only just now catching up on your blog -- so sorry about the boyfriend. You have WAY more resilience and self-esteem in this situation that I've ever been able to conjure up in my own pathetic life, so BRAVO on that! Lots of hugs, and I will be out there reading and cheering you on.
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CARLA-216 2/9/2011 2:57PM

    Oh I love, love, LOVE it!

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LORES777 2/9/2011 2:46PM

    Haha this is cute

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GRAMPIAN 2/9/2011 6:37AM

  Enjoyed this. emoticon

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SKYRUNHER 2/9/2011 6:18AM

    I love your accent!!

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