Sunday, February 20, 2011
and I'm going strong. Still at the same weight (bouncing around in the same kilo, I hate that!!) so at least I haven't gained!
The boyfriend is still deciding what he wants. I know what I want. Just biding my time until I can leave. Moving back in with my parents will suck, but I will be able to save a tonne of money and hopefully will be able to go on my OE once I graduate, which is my dream trip and something I won't be able to do with my boyfriend. Being single will suck, and I'm scared of feeling alone (and that my boyfriend will move on, that will kill me) but it is what has to happen. I can't live my life knowing that the person I love doesn't love me back. I deserve better. I deserve someone who will love me and who wants to spend their life with me, travelling the world and seeing everything. That or I'll be alone forever...It could happen. Where do people meet people anyway? Russell and I met at school, so I actually have no idea where people meet. Probably something I should worry about in the long term, not right now.
I have 6 days off work, after spending my entire summer working 40-60 hour weeks. Well deserved, I think. I plan on not doing much, to be honest. I will try and get to the pools a few times. I just want to enjoy not having to do anything. I'm so tired.