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Sunday, November 21, 2010

Hi guys, just a quick note to say HI!!!

I'm all moved into my new place but there have been a few hiccups! Yesterday our hot water wasn't working, then we discovered we didn't have a cold water tap in the kitchen and then we found out that we don't have a phone jack, so we can't get onto the internet. I'm at the local library to do my interwebs stuff and the jack should be installed today! Other than that everything is going well. Eating is getting better now that the kitchen is unpacked and I don't have to live on takeaways. Went for a 20 minute walk to the beach and back last night with the boyfriend. I live 10 minutes from the beach, how freakin cool is that!? We are planning on making the walks a regular evening thing :)

Hope everyone is well. I'll catch up on everything when I have internet at home!!!

  
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BEANPOD77 11/24/2010 5:52AM

    Great to hear from you..Sounds like everything is falling into place..So happy for you..Walks on the beach? Awesome.. I have to wait another 6 months before the weather here is right for that ;-) Sending hugs your way!

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VIRGOGURL4 11/22/2010 11:24PM

    That sounds great! Living near the beach can definitely motivate you to spend some time outside being active!

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CARLA-216 11/22/2010 10:48AM

    If you don't take regular walks on the beach, I'm going to accuse you of not appreciating your bee-yoo-tee-full surroundings. emoticon

I'm glad you're all moved in and things are falling into place. Hope you get the interwebz and cold water tap sorted soon!

xoxo
Carla

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PURPLESPEDCOW 11/21/2010 5:51PM

    hope everything settles down soon. it sounds great that you are so close to the beach.

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MAGGIENCALI 11/21/2010 4:41PM

    Yay ! You're back! Missed you. Glad to hear all is well. :)

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DARACOX 11/21/2010 4:18PM

    You should totally make a regular thing of evening walks. My husband and I do that and it's great couple time. You have no distractions and you can just talk!

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Busy Busy Bee

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Hi all! Did ya miss me? The answer should be YES!!!! If its not then thats OK, I still missed you!

I have been soooooooooo busy!!!!!

I have worked the past 5 days in a row. By the time I get home my feet are so sore that walking and running don't sound appealing, so exercise has been patchy. Hopefully I'll get used to it again soon and I'll be back at 'em. Work is fun. I sold my first diamond on Saturday to a lovely couple which was such a high! I also won $20 coz we played 'Beat the Boss'. Whoever could sell more then the boss got $20. I'm more than a little competitive and I sold over twice as much as the boss and I had the highest sales for the week out of all the sales people. Oh yes I did. So for my first week I think I am impressing the right people!!!

Oh and we got a house. We sign the tenancy agreement today and move in on Saturday! Exciting. The only problem is that it is tiny, but we have found a cheap couch that will fit and my parents can store any furniture we don't need until we can either sell it or they decide to use it until we need it. AND the rental agent neglected to tell us that we need all the money (nearly $2000) today. Yeah, I dunno many people who can get that much money together in a weekend, in cash. So my mum has to lend us the money and we are going to pay her back later this week when we get paid.

So big things happening all around!

  
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BEANPOD77 11/18/2010 5:47AM

    Wow..great week..lots going on! Very happy for you..Good luck with the move and keep on rockin' those sales...

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LEXIE63 11/16/2010 2:10PM

    YES!!! *grin*
Yay house and job going well, and boo to your feet. Hope they adjust to your new job asap.
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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CARLA-216 11/15/2010 10:21AM

    I missed you, Jess! I am glad to hear that you're doing so well at your new job and that you got a house. Your feet will adapt soon I hope. Painful feet are no fun!

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ANITA012 11/15/2010 1:15AM

    Fantastic! And yes...We did miss you. Don't let that happen again! ha ha. It's great that things are working out for you.
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ANAJAK 11/14/2010 9:26PM

    Yeaaahhh - rocking it as usual :) It's kinda crazy how sore your feet can get first week back aye?? Glad ya found a place - ours is tiny too - keeps it tidy :)

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PAMATX 11/14/2010 9:20PM

    Wow, congrats on beating the boss! And the house.

Yes, we did miss you.



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MAGGIENCALI 11/14/2010 9:02PM

    Yay! I'm so happy for you. :) Keep on buzzing, busy bee!

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 11/14/2010 5:35PM

    Congrats on the house and the great week at work!

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PURPLESPEDCOW 11/14/2010 4:50PM

    Sounds like a good week.

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I put my big girl panties on

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Right, I'm back, I'm better. Thanks for listening to my breakdown and for you're kind comments. They made me cry then I felt better.

Lets talk about good things.

I get to resubmit my assignment. I talked to the head of the course and he gave me some good pointers and as long as I do what has been asked then I should be OK and recieve a passing grade (C-). At least I don't have to retake the whole paper.

I have started my new job. I really like it but it is really quiet. Like, too quiet and I am struggling to find things to do. Tomorrow I am on blackboard duty though, which means I get to do the boards a few times a day. That should be fun. The best part of my job is how nice everyone is and all the pretty jewellery. I got to try on a ring worth $12,000NZD today. Yes, really. It looked great until I had to put it back in the case (I only had it on because I had to walk it to the till and I was worried about dropping it. Officially we can't wear the jewellery unless we own it).

Oh and I have another problem. A good problem though. In the 2 days that I have been at my job I have fallen in love with an amazing ring. It is sooooooo me and I want it. I could buy it. It isn't expensive. BUT I showed the boyfriend a picture and told him it was my dream ring and he said that in that case he will get it as an engagement ring when he is ready to marry me. Problem: I want the ring right now. It is far too distracting to walk past its display case several times a day and dream about it on my finger. So do I buy it or me for wait for possibly years until the boyfriend gets his act together?

See, my life is one big issue!

  
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ANITA012 11/15/2010 1:18AM

    Why should you wait? Has he not heard of "Long engagements"?
Do what feels right...listen to your little voice and it will guide you. Good Luck! emoticon

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MAGGIENCALI 11/12/2010 1:56AM

    Sounds like you're in a pretty good place right now. Glad to hear that you get to resubmit your assignment and that your new job is going well. As for the ring thing, I have to agree with some of these ladies. Men are funny when it comes to buying things like rings. I would get this one for yourself as a reward for your all your hard work. You've earned it! :)

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CARLA-216 11/11/2010 10:43AM

    So glad you get to resubmit!

As for the ring...I agree with both NOTMILK. Get it for yourself for reaching a goal!

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NOTMILK 11/11/2010 6:54AM

    Buy it for yourself for reaching a goal. Let him get you one that is right for him when he is ready.

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KIWINURSE 11/11/2010 4:54AM

    Do you really think that you will have to wait years? What is he waiting for? I would buy it then......drop some hints and if that doesn't work, tell him you are buying it for yourself :)
Sounds like a dangerous place to work if you ask me emoticon
I would be spending my whole paycheck there!
Christine

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MICHELLEFROST 11/11/2010 4:52AM

    glad to hear your feeling better.

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My terrible day

Monday, November 08, 2010

I'm so stressed and overwhelmed right now. I just have so much going on.

I failed an assignment today. For the first time ever. And I thought I did a good job on it! My friend got the same comments on her assignment as I did on mine and yet she passed. I don't understand. Failing means I have to resubmit. So inbetween working 4 days and 2 days at uni I have to find time to rewrite an assignment that I've already done. I'm frustrated. I'm stressed. I'm waaaay past the point of burn out. This is the end of my 4th year of uni. FOURTH! The other students are b****ing because they are ending their second year. Get in line, ladies! I never wanna do another assignment again. I hate assignments and how they make me feel so awful. I'm a great teacher. An awesome teacher. The kids love me, my associate teachers love my ideas and my enthusiam, my evalutive lecturers call me a natural teacher. So why is the only method of assessing assignments? Assignments that I can write and write well (or so I thought) but don't learn anything from because I'm too busy following the success criteria that I don't enjoy the material.

In addition I am feeling very very lonely. I don't have many friends and the friends that I do have (who I love and are amazing and accept me just the way I am) are usually so busy that I barely get to see them. Uni is a sad and lonely place for me because I only have one friend there and she is only in 3/5 classes. I start work tomorrow, maybe I will make some new friends there?

I don't think I love my boyfriend anymore but I don't know what life would be like without him, so I stay. And would I be able to find someone else? Someone who wants to travel, buy a house by the beach and not have children? The last one is a biggy. Not many guys out there who don't want kids!

I have already emailed the head of the primary papers and asked about part time study options. It would mean that my last year would take 2 years but at least I might not be so stressed all the time. And I could work more which would be good because money is a huge issue right now. It would suck to be a year behind everyone else but I suppose I have to think of my physical and mental health first and neither of those will be in good shape if I am constantly stressed for another year.

Anyways, thanks for reading my whine fest. I just have so much stuff going on and I'm really not coping

  
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VIRGOGURL4 11/11/2010 12:41PM

    Aww...things sound really difficult now. I think that prioritizing is key. Like, literally write a list of what you need to do now--ranked by importance. Focus on you, and what matters the most.

Also, I'm not sure if it's a good idea to go part-time at this point. I have some friends who went part-time or took "a break" from university two or three years ago. Guess what? I've already graduated, and they're still not close to doing so. But then again, I don't know your struggles as well as you do.

Like the others have said, taking it one day at a time will help. Taking those little steps will lead you to be more organized--and ultimately more in control.

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CARLA-216 11/10/2010 2:56PM

    Hugs to you! I hope today has been a better day for you!

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LEXIE63 11/10/2010 2:42PM

    Sorry you have hit a rough patch. emoticon
Hope it all smooths out for you.
If it is any consolation, to have only failed one assignment ever is no mean feat in itself! :-)
You are doing terrifically well, and, like Sparkpeople, take heart in knowing that the assignment is only one way of measuring your progress, and everything else is measuring up just fine!
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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STARINTHENIGHT 11/9/2010 2:46PM

    Aw this is hard Jess. I'm sorry that your teacher didn't like your assignment, but you're right that you're an awesome teacher and you will go far! I understand being lonely and wanting friends, I'm the same & I Hope you make some friends at work. As far as your boyfriend, if you're not happy and you don't love him anymore then you really should move on. Would you want him to stay with you just because he was comfortable? probably not, you'd want him to be happy so I'm sure he wants the same for you. It's never easy and it's hard especially when you live together and probably love him as a person but not the same as you used to. But you WILL find someone else who makes you happy and meets your criteria (my boyfriend doesn't want kids, so there are guys out there!!... unfortunately, I want to have kids :-P) Anyways, hang in there girl, everything will work out! Just take it one day at a time!

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BEANPOD77 11/9/2010 6:26AM

    Awww Jess, SO sorry to hear about all your stresses..There are some great suggestion here from your other SP buddies..Take some time to step back and re-group. Ya, getting a "failing" grade is a tough blow..You said it yourself..you know you are a great teacher and have had lots of positive feedback..so, when it's not quite as raw, go find that professor and ask for some specifics..tell them you want address the areas they saw as needing improvement, so that you can target those..My daughter always says it almost like a game..you gotta find out what THEY want, and whether you agree with them, or believe the same things..find a way to give THEM what they want..
Break it all into smaller steps ( goals) just like our Spark journeys..Things looks so big when we look at them all at once..breaking it into smaller chunks makes it all so much more manageable..plus I think that smaller chunks gets our minds busy on working the solutions, and it doesnt have time to keep fretting on "big picture" stuff??
Get the assignment feedback first...start your new job ( take THAT one step at a time)..when it's settled a bit, then look at your relationship. It sounds like you two are at least very good friends, so don't rush into making a decision yet, when so much is coming at you..
I see you are off to do some water walking..such a great stress reliever ..always a great idea..I find I can get a better "look" at things when I am working out..
YOU are number one...YOUR health ( mental and physical) are the most important, so take the time you need..Think of all you HAVE accomplished and you WILL get this behind you..
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ANITA012 11/9/2010 12:48AM

    Take a deep breath and step back for a moment. It does sound like you have a lot on your plate, and as for friends. You have many right here at Spark.
Perhaps we haven't met in person, but we are all friends just the same. Know that we are all here for you and that you have more friends than you may know.
Failing an assignment can be rough and I commend you for what you have been going through. Do what your gut instinct tells you. It is usually right. If you need more time...then take it.
It's better than becoming a mental case.
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MAGGIENCALI 11/8/2010 11:39PM

    Jess, girl, I'm so sorry you are having a rotten day. It's a crappy thing to have something you have worked so hard on be deemed not good enough. We've all been there. You will rise above this and the other things because you have a such a strong spirit. I'm not going to give you any advice. You know in your heart what you need to do. Take this time to re-evaluate and go from there. We are all here to help you when you need it, ok. Lot's of xxx's. Maggie

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PURPLESPEDCOW 11/8/2010 10:31PM

    Believe me we have all been there. There is always one professor that no one figures out. The stress is part of it. I am sorry you are so down. I wonder if you weren't having doubts about your boy friend, if you would see things different. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now. You are trying to finish many different things at the same time. You have to do what you think is best and then do not play the "what if" game...you know, what if this, what if that. Make a decision about each point you brought up in your blog and deal with each one. Talk to the professor who failed your paper and find out why. Talk to your boy friend and see how he feels. Reach out to people at school and work and maybe make a new friend. Good luck to you, my friend. You can do it and if it takes a little longer, so be it. Believe me when I say that 20 years from now, no one will care. I graduated later than most in my class! It doesn't matter now!

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MARA-H 11/8/2010 10:30PM

  Hey, after something like that, a whine is what you need. But then, you have to figure out what to do to make it better.

YOU do have the right to ask about the grade, or did the teacher grade harder on you because you are in a higher grade? When I was getting my masters I had to have higher scores and provide more information than the underclassmen.

Hope things do look better tomorrow!

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KSCARTY 11/8/2010 10:30PM

    Wait one second...you, my dear, are a DONE Girl! DONE Girls don't give up!!! You can do this! You can get yourself through this assignment (and the next one), you can win this journey of a healthy lifestyle and celebrate in your reward of a healthy you.

You deserve to be in love and to be loved by the right person! You deserve everything that you want and want to be and you will get it ALL because you understand hard work and dedication. Keep your head high and remember you are a DONE Girl!



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This just in

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Official photos!



  
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    love the pics!

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