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A good day

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I WILL have a good day today. I will, I will, I will! I got woken up early this morning by my boyfriend turning the shower on (never usually wakes me). Then the cat sat in the hallway outside the bedroom and scratched his neck caused the bell on his collar to ring. Then I got a rumbly in my tumbly. So I got up! I started my day with a fruit smoothie whipped up in my magic bullet. Soooooo good, and I've already had 2 servings of fruit (peach and berries) and 1 serving of veggies (spinach)! Score!

Workout out today will be inside. The strom has hit and it has hit hard. The rain is pouring down and its is so loud my cats are looking worried. It takes a lot to bother them! I am going to the swimming pools to do water jogging and some swimming (and to sit in the spa, I'm not gonna lie, its the best bit!) While I am at the pools I will buy a 10 trip pass so I can go more often and save a bit of money.


Then I am going to my last placement school to visit my kids. Nothing motivates you to do assignments like these kids. They remind me WHY I'm struggling through these assignments. I want to be a teacher, but there is heaps of non-fun stuff you have to do before they will give you a class!

Other chores for the day:

Finish my sandwich boxes (all will be revealed in my next post, the will be pics)
Buy velcro dots for sandwich boxes
Buy collars for my cats (We are moving in a few weeks time so we want to collar them before that, incase they run away during the move. We have never collared before but we think we need to now)
Buy deflea treatment for the cats
Buy catfood and washing powder
Go food shopping
Get a massage (I ache. I'm worth it!)

Lots of stuff to do, better get moving!

  
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WOTABOUTTHIS 9/22/2010 4:55AM

    Fruit smoothy with spinach??? You deserve a medal! Or a massage lol.

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WGALE13 9/21/2010 9:28PM

    Way to go! I am so glad to see you feeling so optimistic! Awesome job!

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LEXIE63 9/21/2010 6:08PM

    What Carla said! :-)
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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CARLA-216 9/21/2010 5:30PM

    Darned right you're worth that massage! I hope it eases your aches!

Good on you for self talking so positively ("I WILL have a good day today. I will, I will, I will!"), and having a productive plan for your day!


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Hoarding

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Some people are hoarders. My boyfriend is a hoarder. He won't let me throw out an alarm clock that stopped working 3 years ago because he might be able to fix it. He holds onto things and has stuff everywhere.

I'm a different kind of hoarder. I hoard my feelings. I let them pile up and up and up until I need to start throwing my feelings out because there is no more room.

Yesterday I threw feelings out. I had a meltdown. A big, messy meltdown. I blogged a little to get my frustration out, and thank you to everyone who was so nice and supportive.

I'm having a bit of a...life right now. Uni is getting busy and I have heaps to do. But I don't understand a couple of my assignments and I'm feeling very dumb because this has never happened to "Miss A". I'm used to just getting things and this semester nothing is clicking. I'm falling behind and getting stressed.

Home life sucks. My boyfriend and I barely talk and barely see each other. We see each other properly once every 2-3 weeks and there is no promises that he will even want to spend time with me, he prefers his computer. We have been together nearly 5 years though, so I want to work things out etc, but it is hard and adding to my stress.

Work sucks, but I have quit so I only have to worry about it for another week and a half and them I'm done :)

My weight loss has stopped. Nothing I do will make it move and I just want it to go down a little! I'm not greedy, just a kilo or 2 so I don't get discouraged. My run yesterday was awful, and so was the run before that. I just don't think I can do it, which kills me because I want to be a runner very badly. I can't even explain why, it is just something I have wanted for a while. Being bad at it depresses me and makes me feel pretty crappy.

So there are my feelings and my reasons for my meltdown. Nice to get everything out calmly. Thanks for reading

  
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WGALE13 9/21/2010 9:26PM

    I know what you mean! I was there not to long ago with my husband and my job. I finally sat down and had a heart to heart with him and found a way to destress. Stress causes your weight loss to come to a halt. Do something nice for yourself and make a list of things you want to do and then brainstorm how you will do them. You can overcome all things put in front of you. Have faith in yourself and everything will work out! Remember take it one day at a time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CARLA-216 9/21/2010 10:51AM

    I'm sorry you're having these stressors right now. Hugs to you!

I read Beanpod77's response to you and I agree with everything she says. Wise words said there! :) Let me just add: back when I was in my group run training program, I had a terrible, awful, no-good-for-nothing run and I was just about ready to quit. Over the next few days I talked to a couple of the coaches who are seasoned runners and they said to me that even they have bad runs. In fact, one of the runners said he only has one out of like five runs that is great. Another coach said what I was experiencing was a plateau and that I would come out of it better if I worked through it, and I did. You can too!

Blogging is so good for clearing out the cobwebs, even if you decide to not even publish it. And if you do publish it, the support here is just what the doctor ordered! :)

Hang in there!

xoxo,
Carla
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BEANPOD77 9/21/2010 6:39AM

    Hey there..Sorry to read about your stresses..I gotta tell you though, I recognize what you having blogged. It wasn't too many months ago that I had that same down, fateful feeling. My weight was stuck, my frame of mind was all negative. felt discouraged...etc. etc. When we feel like that , everything seems larger than life and it all seems to take on a life of it's own...To share a couple of things that helped me...
First with running..I had about 1.5 weeks, where it was like I could not do anything right..felt awful, couldnt breathe, everything hurt..I took it back a few notches..lowered the running time interval for a few sessions..It's ok..there is no one marking on the calendar where you are and when..It takes weeks and months for the body to adjust to running, its actually not a natural state...so allow yourself the time
Other stuff I found...
1) Blog about it here..the support you get is truly encouraging..most of us have been where you are..It's a "normal" phase..Take heart from all the support. 2) Acknowledge that there are rough patches..lifestyle change is NOT easy..if it was, we wouldnt all be here..3) Know that it IS just a phase..it will pass..look for some positive things..either in what you have done, assignments you have understood, the good times you have had..the sun, the flowers..I know it sounds a bit corny..but training your mind to focus on the positives really helps..4) break some of your challenges into little pieces and tackle them a bit at a time..success breeds success..Celebrate everything you accomplish...human beings tend to focus on negatives..we all need to train ourselves to focus on positives more!
You have a lot going on with school, managing a relationship, and adjusting your lifestyle..Not an easy task, so give yourself some slack..You are worth the effort..you ARE doing the right things..and this too shall pass...
Hope I haven't put you to sleep with all this..but I SO know how you are feeling and am hoping to help you feel better.
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PURPLE_PANDA 9/21/2010 6:39AM

    I understand how you feel. I usually feel like im in control of things but now im lagging behind with classes and assignments. My weight loss is goin pretty slow as well and I hoarde clothes. I havent even gotten to my weight goal yet and im already buying new ones, and that too 2 sizes smaller (my old size) thinking it will motivate me, but we will see...

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BARCLE 9/21/2010 5:14AM

    This may sound silly/crazy but how bout a quick cheap trip down to Wellington - bonus is you get to meet me and my 3 horrorbugs (plus husband), stay with us and we can work on Spark food, we can go for walks together and share a bottle (or 2) of wine and it's just a darn good relax and chill out away from it all for you. I'd even pick you up and drop you off at the airport (just kidding - it goes without saying!).
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MAGGIENCALI 9/21/2010 1:26AM

    Blogging about how you feel is good therapy sometimes. I have vented, meltdown and has almost gotten to the point of actually wanting to quit this whole site all together. But it's people like you and countless others out there that make me hang on and keep me going. So, I am hoping I can do the same for you. Just hang in there and be proud of what you have accomplished so far. Draw strength from that and take on what's ahead of you. Don't ever be sorry about expressing how you feel. Emotions are what makes us human.

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ISABELLAMOM 9/21/2010 1:17AM

    I know how you feel my husband prefers his xbox we been together for 6 years and it's been a struggle. it's been this way for years. and with that stupid new halo reach game I never get any quality time with my husband he spends more hours on the xbox then he does on me oops meant with me lol .

his family likes to horde things. expeically his mom and dad they have two storage units of stuff they don't use.

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DWROBERGE 9/21/2010 1:11AM

    I hoarde a lot of toys that I had as a child back in the 40's and 50's and gave them to my grandchildren. They are worth a great deal of money. I have Illustrated classic comics going back as far as number two that are worth dollars. My mother gave away my baseball cards to my cousins. I never got over that. I collected stamps and coins. I sold most of my coins for over ten thousand dollars years ago. I still have all my stamps that are worth much money. I have to get rid of stuff and periodically I clean out closets, especially clothes. I have a bag to bring to the local thrift store soon. It is good for the soul. If it is no good it is time to get rid of it.

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I quit

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Actually. Seriously. I quit running. I don't wanna do it anymore. I'm not good at it. I don't like it. Its not fun, its depressing and it makes me feel fat and bad about myself. I like being good at stuff and I'm not good at running. It isn't fun. I couldn't finish my intervals today because my asthma was so bad and my leg hurt. Breathing burned. Runnign hurt. It isn't fun anymore. I quit

  
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SHANNALAURA 9/21/2010 12:10PM

    Some people weren't meant to run! I've always wanted to be a runner, and after bootcamps and even training for a triathlon (which I walked), I've decided I'm not a major runner and that's ok. I have exercise-induced asthma and terrible shin splints, so I understand. I've started walking on a track and running a couple laps thrown in and that's worked nicely.

Find something you love and do that!

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CARLA-216 9/20/2010 10:49AM

    I agree with those who say to quit and find something else if you truly hate running. It's okay to do that! Besides, what are the chances of actually doing it if you hate it? Slim to none is my guess. There's so many other ways to get/stay in shape, and no exercise is one that everyone will love.

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LEXIE63 9/20/2010 10:41AM

    Quitting running is probably the best thing you can do if it isn't doing it for you. I'm sure there are plenty of other exercise options you will get more out of, so have fun trying some of them out. :-)
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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ALIHEALTH 9/20/2010 9:56AM

    Come on! Stick with it!

Yeah, running sucks. But it gets better if you work at it.

Take a few days off and go back to it. As your physical fitness improves running will get easier. And running is still the best way to stay in shape, have you ever seen a fat marathoner? LOL.

I'm trying to convince myself as much as you. Since I moved a month ago I still haven't gone running... I've just stuck to cycling. But I was running before and I hated it, but it really did make me feel good AFTER!

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ENDURETHERAIN 9/20/2010 9:07AM

    I agree with everyone else... if there's something you absolutely hate, do something different! Have you tried Zumba? I love it!
But maybe you do want to run and it's just too hard... if you do, then stick with it, keep trying, do smaller increments and work up to it.
But there are a lot of other options out there and I hope you find something that fits for you!

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LILYCHIC 9/20/2010 6:46AM

    emoticon Find something else that you can be successful at. There are lots of other things you can try! Dancing, swimming, biking. I know you'll find one. Just don't give up on exercising completely. Keep your chin up, girl. emoticon

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BRIAEL 9/20/2010 6:19AM

    Life is about learning what works for us, and what doesn't. If running doesn't give you pleasure then it's something you can do without so that you can make room for another exercise that may "rock your socks".

That's the whole point of SP being a "journey!", it's discovery of a lifestyle that we can maintain, not one that we have to struggle to motivate ourselves with every day.

Excellent realisation and good decision. :)

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ENVYFRESH23 9/20/2010 12:53AM

    please DON'T quit!

running isn't for everybody, including myself. in 2008, i tried the running thing, not for me. & i also have asthma so i couldn't run too far anyway! SO i walked. i love walking. i enjoy it. and i don't get asthma from walking. i started out small... walking around the block... and i enjoyed it so much, i realized i was walking up to 5 miles a day! then i got a knee injury (my own fault) and that was the end of THAT. until a few weeks ago, i got extremely motivated and i've started to walk/work out again.

but also, if THAT bores you, maybe you can find something else. i LOVELOVELOVE the elliptical. i use my inhaler 15 minutes prior to me going to the gym and i don't get ANY asthma (and i've got very bad asthma; i was just recently hospitalized for 3 weeks on an oxygen tank) using your inhaler before doing any type of cardio works WONDERS! and as the elliptical, i go on it 4x a week. i enjoy it. i started out slow... i couldn't do more then 3 minutes, SERIOUSLY! and now i am on for 40-60 minutes.

maybe buy a jumprope... walk in place while you watch TV... keep moving and stay optimistic! =)

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MARLINDA5 9/20/2010 12:22AM

    I have asthma and I don't run - I usually do a quick walk (I also make sure I take my asthma pump before I do) Also the treadmill is also good to do - you don't have to run on it when you work out.

hope you find a workout that you can do and enjoy.

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TDWANDD2MYK9 9/20/2010 12:12AM

    Hope you find something you enjoy.

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MAGGIENCALI 9/19/2010 11:57PM

    :(. I'm sorry. I suck at running too and I just do it every so often just to relieve stress. But I'm sure you're very good at other things. There's walking, hiking, elliptical, yoga, there's lot's of other things you can do. Just don't quit, ok. Hang in there. It looks hopeless right now, but I'm sure you will feel differently later on.

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WGALE13 9/19/2010 11:56PM

    I have full faith that you will be able to get to running one day, but in the meantime..... Just find activities that are fun to you. I know for me running is VERY hard. I played softball in high school and now when I try to run my knees will go out. So, I have created a walking group with a few close friends and we take walks together at least 1 new place a week. We also find things we enjoy sports wise and do them together. This week we went swimming. I was able to have fun, confidence, and still exercise. You can overcome any obstacle that comes your way, you just have to find which way is best for you. :-) Never give up! emoticon

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MRSBENNETT2 9/19/2010 11:52PM

    I hate running too. You'll find some other fitness activity you can really excell in! emoticon

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Bikini bottoms

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Yesterday I told you all about my water walking experience. I had fun and this morning I am sore, so I know I worked something! What I neglected to mention is that yesterday I went to the pools in bikini bottoms and a tankini top with no board shorts.

This is the first time I have done this since I was 8 years old (yeah body image issues started early). I really didn't have a choice since my boadies don't fit me and the ones that might are still at my in laws. So I swam in a public pool in my bikini bottoms. And I felt great! No one was looking at me or judging me. No one was pointing and staring and shielding their eyes. I was just a girl, at the pools in bikini bottoms.

Just a note for anyone that doesn't know, board shorts or boardies are shorts made out of a material safe for swimming (doesn't apsorb water). They are popular here.

Right, on to today.

Today I have W4 D1 planned. I'm a little scared, but I think I can do it! After that I will hopefully do the 30DS. Then I need to get on with my assignment. University is getting boring and I'm at the point where I just don't wanna do it anymore. 2 more months and I get the summer off!

Eating today will hopefully be good. I had cereal for breakfast, but it wasn't very filling so I think I'll have another small breakfast soon. Lunch will be whatever is in the freezer...I have corn, so at least I'll have a veggie! I'll probably make my own chicken nuggets (chicken breast cut into bit sized pieces coated in WW flour and chicken salt then baked). Dinner will be another freezer meal. Bring on payday!

  
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CARLA-216 9/20/2010 10:55AM

    How cool that you wore those bikini bottoms and felt okay with it! Like has been said before me, that's a big mental hurdle to overcome. Great job!

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ENDURETHERAIN 9/20/2010 9:08AM

    That's awesome!!! Yay for you! That's a big mental hurdle to overcome and you cleared it!!!

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CAROLJEAN64 9/19/2010 7:18PM

    Yea! Bikini bottoms. emoticon

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Water walking

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Today I went water walking. And I liked it! It was easy on my legs but I still felt like I was getting a workout. The going around in circles bit was boring, but I had my friends there for company and before we knew it 45 minutes had passed! I wanted to do an hour, so we solidered on for another 15 minutes then relaxed in the spa. And there was no sweating involved. Sometimes I like to sweat, but most of the time I don't, so no sweating was a big plus! And, bonus, according to Sparkpeople I burned 650 calories! I can live with that!

I have a weekly date with my friends to go water walking, so I will be doing it every Sunday. We are going to motivate each other to go and I am going to buy a 10 trip pass for further motivation.

I have eaten pretty well today too. I had breakfast for the first time in 2 weeks. I did have chocolate though, but I still think I'll be within my calories. I didn't meet my fruit and veggie goal though :( We have zero dollars until Wednesday so we are living off what we have and we don't have fruit and veg. I may have some tinned fruit, maybe I'll have to bust some of that out.

Here's to a sparktastic week!

  
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ENDURETHERAIN 9/20/2010 9:10AM

    I know what you mean about just eating what you have til payday... I only get paid once a month, so it's a stretch sometimes! Water walking sounds like fun!

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LEXIE63 9/19/2010 4:15PM

    Sounds interesting. I had to go look it up to see what you are doing. :-)
I hear you on the food thing. We are struggling this week. I am beyond broke! We are stripping the freezer bare, under the pretence of needing to defrost it, but the truth is I have no spare cash for anything this week, so anything in the dim recesses of the beastie is fair game, regardless of how healthy it is. Dratted bills! *growl*
Never mind. This too shall pass! :-)
Hugs,
Lex xxx


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CARLA-216 9/19/2010 8:33AM

    That sounds fun and a good workout! So glad you enjoyed it and are committed to going ten more times! Yeah!

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