Friday, September 28, 2012
I went out for dinner with a friend. I made an OK choice (it had veggies), and skipped dessert. Had a glass of wine. I am having some M and M's now. I am over my range for sure. Not by a million calories, but at least a couple of hundred. Nothing much I can do about today. All I can do is go back to being in range tomorrow! I really need to start meeting my friends for a walk...
I am now on holidays for 2 weeks. The kids were manic today. They are kinda fun when they are manic... Watching them play musical chairs was hilarious. I was laughing so hard the kids actually stopped to laugh at ME, laughing at them. They are honestly the coolest kids. That being said, I am very happy for the break!!
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Well, despite a staff morning tea (think meat pies, sausage rolls, cupcakes, slice... Calorie bombs) I stayed on track. I ate my own lunch and blamed 'dietary concerns' for not partaking. I am lactose intolerant, and it is fun to make that work for me some times. I DID split a peanut butter slice with my boss, which gave me a taste AND kept me on track. However she ended up asking me heaps of questions about why I could eat that and not anything else... I just said that I limit dairy, and since I've been having too much yogurt lately I have to be a bit careful.
So I am in range. I have 70 calories left for the day, should I fancy a mini chocolate a bit later. 1730 calories disappear quickly... I couldn't survive on 1200, that is for sure!
The good news is.... I have a job for next year! My boss came and found me just before lunch and said that she has a budget to keep me. The only problem is that I might not have a class... I might have a 'walking position', which means I pretty much do whatever. Now, I am not keen for that. I am happiest in front of a class, so I will have to find out if I will have a class or not before I commit to the position. I really, really want to stay at my school, but not if I don't have a classroom and students to call my own. So, I have employment for next year, which is great, but maybe not doing what I want to do. So, we'll have to see.
I have another physio appointment tomorrow, and I will find out how well I am healing. I am already walking up stairs and doing squats without pain, which were 2 of my goals. I am hoping, with every finger and toe crossed, that the original plan of 6 weeks off exercise may be scaled back. I'll just have to see what she says tomorrow!
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
So, I'm tracking. I don't want to, but since the scale hasn't moved this month I have resigned myself to the fact that I can't just watch what I eat and cross my fingers. Such a shame, I really liked that method...
So I have been tracking for 3 days. Day one I was over by a few hundred. Eeek. Day 2 I was over by 100. In my defence, I adjusted my exercise calories to reflect my new exercise level (FA), so it dropped by 100 calories. Today was day 3. I have stayed in my calories, and I even have 245 leftover. I can have dessert if I want! I did a few things different today
- Halved my lunch and added veggies. I usually have 2 sandwich thins (4 halves) with smoked salmon, and today I had 1. I added 1C of broccoli with some teriyaki sauce to the side, and it was a filling lunch. Yummy, too.
- NO CHOCOLATE AT WORK. Nuff said
- Weighed and measured my dinner. 1/2C of pasta is not much at all :(
So, there ya go. Bring on day 2 of staying in range! And bring on that freaking scale moving!
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
I want to use a swear work. It begins with F and rhymes with truck.
I felt a twinge in my quad muscle a few days ago. I took its easy, but still kept up my usual routine. Today it felt OK, so I decided to give boot camp a go. BIG mistake. Within a minute my quad was sore, and after 5 minutes I told the trainer I had to stop. I raced to the physio, who had luckily had a cancellation and was able to see me immediately.
I have strained my quad muscle. I am off everything leg related for around 6 weeks.
SIX FREAKING WEEKS!
I nearly cried. I love exercise. I need to do it. I am proud of my fitness. I am allowed to keep up my arm weights, and my boxing (just no squats), so I might keep some of my fitness. But boot camp, running and leg weights are out until I get the all clear. I am mainly concerned about the fact that exercise is my way of handling my depression.
Then this happened
Acupuncture. I'll be having it for a while, to help my muscle heal.
So, any words of support, wisdom, commiseration? They are all welcome!
Monday, September 24, 2012
I am tired (last week of term). I am stressed (relationship problems). I am sick.
I am so sick of being sick. I have been well for a grand total of 10 weeks this year. That is what it feels like, anyway. I sometimes wonder what it would feel like to NOT be sick.
I tried to head it off last night. I headed to bed at 6pm, planning on having a nap. Well, other than being woken up to be told that dinner was ready (to which I replied F*** off, I'm sleeping... Man I'm mean when I'm sick), and getting up to pee, I slept until 4am. 10 hours. I even snoozed until 4.30am, hoping to get another couple of hours. It wasn't to be.
Now, after a long day of raising my voice (last week of term, the kids are off the walls) I have a sore head, a sore throat, and I am in no mood for anything or anyone. I skipped boxing, obviously. I am hoping I feel well enough to go to boot camp tomorrow, since I paid for it.
I also tracked today. Yeah. ThisiswhyI'mfat.com. I'm not actually eating much bad food, but because I have a large appetite I am using all my calories for good food, not leaving much room for treats :( I love treats. So I need to have a good, hard look at my food intake and see what can be adjusted. I think I need to eat less fruit. I had 5 servings of fruit today, and that was nearly 500 calories! I know veggies are much, much less calorie dense, but I don't love them like I love fruit. I suppose I can start with a carrot tomorrow... Gotta start somewhere!
So, this was just a whine.
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