Thursday, September 27, 2012
Well, despite a staff morning tea (think meat pies, sausage rolls, cupcakes, slice... Calorie bombs) I stayed on track. I ate my own lunch and blamed 'dietary concerns' for not partaking. I am lactose intolerant, and it is fun to make that work for me some times. I DID split a peanut butter slice with my boss, which gave me a taste AND kept me on track. However she ended up asking me heaps of questions about why I could eat that and not anything else... I just said that I limit dairy, and since I've been having too much yogurt lately I have to be a bit careful.
So I am in range. I have 70 calories left for the day, should I fancy a mini chocolate a bit later. 1730 calories disappear quickly... I couldn't survive on 1200, that is for sure!
The good news is.... I have a job for next year! My boss came and found me just before lunch and said that she has a budget to keep me. The only problem is that I might not have a class... I might have a 'walking position', which means I pretty much do whatever. Now, I am not keen for that. I am happiest in front of a class, so I will have to find out if I will have a class or not before I commit to the position. I really, really want to stay at my school, but not if I don't have a classroom and students to call my own. So, I have employment for next year, which is great, but maybe not doing what I want to do. So, we'll have to see.
I have another physio appointment tomorrow, and I will find out how well I am healing. I am already walking up stairs and doing squats without pain, which were 2 of my goals. I am hoping, with every finger and toe crossed, that the original plan of 6 weeks off exercise may be scaled back. I'll just have to see what she says tomorrow!
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
So, I'm tracking. I don't want to, but since the scale hasn't moved this month I have resigned myself to the fact that I can't just watch what I eat and cross my fingers. Such a shame, I really liked that method...
So I have been tracking for 3 days. Day one I was over by a few hundred. Eeek. Day 2 I was over by 100. In my defence, I adjusted my exercise calories to reflect my new exercise level (FA), so it dropped by 100 calories. Today was day 3. I have stayed in my calories, and I even have 245 leftover. I can have dessert if I want! I did a few things different today
- Halved my lunch and added veggies. I usually have 2 sandwich thins (4 halves) with smoked salmon, and today I had 1. I added 1C of broccoli with some teriyaki sauce to the side, and it was a filling lunch. Yummy, too.
- NO CHOCOLATE AT WORK. Nuff said
- Weighed and measured my dinner. 1/2C of pasta is not much at all :(
So, there ya go. Bring on day 2 of staying in range! And bring on that freaking scale moving!
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
I want to use a swear work. It begins with F and rhymes with truck.
I felt a twinge in my quad muscle a few days ago. I took its easy, but still kept up my usual routine. Today it felt OK, so I decided to give boot camp a go. BIG mistake. Within a minute my quad was sore, and after 5 minutes I told the trainer I had to stop. I raced to the physio, who had luckily had a cancellation and was able to see me immediately.
I have strained my quad muscle. I am off everything leg related for around 6 weeks.
SIX FREAKING WEEKS!
I nearly cried. I love exercise. I need to do it. I am proud of my fitness. I am allowed to keep up my arm weights, and my boxing (just no squats), so I might keep some of my fitness. But boot camp, running and leg weights are out until I get the all clear. I am mainly concerned about the fact that exercise is my way of handling my depression.
Then this happened
Acupuncture. I'll be having it for a while, to help my muscle heal.
So, any words of support, wisdom, commiseration? They are all welcome!
Monday, September 24, 2012
I am tired (last week of term). I am stressed (relationship problems). I am sick.
I am so sick of being sick. I have been well for a grand total of 10 weeks this year. That is what it feels like, anyway. I sometimes wonder what it would feel like to NOT be sick.
I tried to head it off last night. I headed to bed at 6pm, planning on having a nap. Well, other than being woken up to be told that dinner was ready (to which I replied F*** off, I'm sleeping... Man I'm mean when I'm sick), and getting up to pee, I slept until 4am. 10 hours. I even snoozed until 4.30am, hoping to get another couple of hours. It wasn't to be.
Now, after a long day of raising my voice (last week of term, the kids are off the walls) I have a sore head, a sore throat, and I am in no mood for anything or anyone. I skipped boxing, obviously. I am hoping I feel well enough to go to boot camp tomorrow, since I paid for it.
I also tracked today. Yeah. ThisiswhyI'mfat.com. I'm not actually eating much bad food, but because I have a large appetite I am using all my calories for good food, not leaving much room for treats :( I love treats. So I need to have a good, hard look at my food intake and see what can be adjusted. I think I need to eat less fruit. I had 5 servings of fruit today, and that was nearly 500 calories! I know veggies are much, much less calorie dense, but I don't love them like I love fruit. I suppose I can start with a carrot tomorrow... Gotta start somewhere!
So, this was just a whine.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
I have lost no weight this month. In fact I have GAINED half a kilo. This is a real gain, because I am seeing the weight so often. The stress of this month certainly hasn't helped, but my biggest problem is my eating. The odd bit of chocolate here and there adds up quick, and I have been eating around maintenance for most of the month.
This is not how I wanted this month to go.
I need to get a handle on my eating, even if that means tracking again. As much as a dislike tracking I will do what needs to be done to lose these last 5 kilos. Summer is coming, and it is coming quickly. While I am happier at this weight than I was 12-13 kilos ago, I would still like to lose a couple more before swimming season rolls around and I have to buy a bikini (because I WILL wear a bikini this summer).
Right. Lets do this!
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