Thursday, January 02, 2014
I started the January Jump Start program today and the first workout video was not as easy as it looked, when you are a beginner and very out of shape. I can really feel it in my legs, but I am happy that I did the video twice today. I feel great! I got through it. There is such a strong part of me that is like Exercise!! Blaaah! But then when you do the workout, afterwards you really feel like, wow! That was so worth it!!
Food wise I did well today too. I had a healthy breakfast, a light lunch, and some chicken & veggies for dinner. I drank a lot of water today, and that too really helps to fill me up. I am reading a great book as well titled: Weight Loss for people who Feel too Much. It is a great book if you are very sensitive emotional person who feels like you might be taking on the very "weight of the world." There are meditation exercises in it, ones that you are supposed to practice right before you eat, to help you become more aware of the reasons why you overeat. It really helped me today to become more aware of discovering the difference between true hunger, and emotional hunger.
I have so many things I want to do when this weight comes off. I want to run marathons. I want to dance without being so out of breath. I want to wear a swimsuit and not feel self conscious thinking oh my gosh, do I look terrible, instead of just enjoying being in the water and at the beach! That's the thing about low self esteem or insecurity. It distracts you from enjoying your life and the simple pleasures because you are only focusing on yourself. I'm tired of that, and I just can't do that anymore. Granted, you should love your self regardless, self esteem comes from within and not how you look. But I really want to aim for both, and think of weight loss as the by product, not the complete reason for all of this. Weight loss is not the prime focus this year as it was the last. I am focusing on the healing aspect, and to simply love myself and my body.
1. Drink 8 Glasses of Water
2. Complete the January Jump start
3. Continue to eat healthy meals/moderation
4. Join an arts and crafts class
5. Meditate, Pray, and read the bible
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
January 1st is finally here! I'm so glad that it has finally arrived! This is a year of new beginnings for me, the year of CHANGE. Last year didn't go so hot, but that is all in the past now. I have many goals, many plans, and things that I wish to accomplish starting today, but little by little taking baby steps. I realize that many people start out their new year's resolutions, very psyched, very excited, only for the motivation to wear down as time goes by. I really don't want to be that person. I want to make changes in my life that last.
I want to really start to eat fruits & veggies. I don't want to feel deprived of eating right, and on the other hand, I don't want to feel over stuffed all the time either. I need to find a balance. I also want to start eating mindfully, and for nourishment. I am tired of running to the kitchen when I feel over emotional or sad and using food as a strategy to cover up what I'm truly feeling.
Then exercise: I want to look forward to it, and to feel good about myself. I want to feel energetic and healthy! I don't know if I will ever get to a point in my life where I can say I'm just crazy about exercise and love it, but I do know that I want it to be a routine, something I do not dread, but something I know will leave me feeling good & rejuvenated. When the workout is over, I'm glad that I did it.
And last but not least, I miss feeling comfortable in my body. The truth is, it's been so long, I don't think I have ever truly known what that feels like. I have always felt self conscious and ashamed of the way that I look. No more negative talk this year. I refuse to feel sorry for myself, or beat myself up, and I will love myself as I am, overweight or thin, I'm still me. I realize that this is all going to take time, it won't be easy, there will be moments that I will make mistakes. But every morning when I wake up, I am going to make an effort to treat my body/mind/spirit with healing, with kindness, and to make healthy living a lifestyle. This will be the year that I really begin to focus on taking care of myself.
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