Monday, February 10, 2014
This is for the A&I Pink Candy Hearts challenge team:
A is for Angels, I enjoy reading books about the subject
B is for Bubble Baths. I love them.
C is for Candles because I enjoy aromatherapy and lavender
D is for Dreams. I have lots of big dreams and goals I want to achieve
E is for Energy. I am starting to like exercise because of the energy it gives me.
F is for Fairies, which I also like & fantasy art
G is for Guitar, I am teaching myself to play
H is for Honey, for putting it in my tea
I is for Imagination, writing poetry and being creative
J is for Jesus, my Lord and Savior
K is for Kerli Koiv, who is my favorite singer/inspirational person
L is for Loving myself, which I am trying to do & to take care of myself better
M is for Mystical, because I like the word
N is for New Beginning, which I am trying to create in my life
O is for Open Minded
P is for Passionate
Q is for Quirky because I am unique
R is for Roses
S is for Spark of course
T is for Teddy Bears
U is for Underwater, I like to swim
V is for Victoria's Secret, a store I like
W is for Work Hard which I want to do this month
X is for XXL, a size I am tired of being
Y is Year, as in 2014 is going to be my YEAR!
Z is for Zodiac, I am a pisces
Saturday, February 08, 2014
Looking back on January, I am proud that I lost a good amount of weight! Towards the beginning of the month I was on a roll! Then towards the end of the month I started to waver a bit. But my attitude is still pretty good, even though at the end of the month I didn't do so hot. But I'm not going to beat myself up over this, it does no good. I am going to learn from it and press on! So that's why I've decided to UP the fruit and veggies. Here is a peak of some things in my fridge: strawberries, apples, kiwi, pears, blueberries, broccoli, cauliflower, radishes, zucchini, and peppers.
It's only been a little while, but I can not tell you the ENORMOUS difference I feel in my mood. I still eat oatmeal, crackers, peanut butter, or yogurt sometimes and of course dips with the raw veggies but I am eating healthier, more natural foods. Basically, If it doesn't feel right, then I'm not eating it! I am letting my addiction and emotional cravings go on vacation and take the backseat for awhile, and I feel like this is a vacation I don't want to come back from. I am trying to look at it as "Eat to live, and not live to eat."
1. Eat the rainbow
3. Exercise Bike
Sunday, January 12, 2014
So far I feel I'm doing pretty well. I have hardly overate at night, that is a big plus for me. I have been trying new recipes. And I believe this is all about small changes and baby steps! Here are my plans:
1. Go swimming at the YMCA as much as a I can
2.Try to drink my 8 glasses of water daily
3. Avoid or at least make healthier choices when I eat fast food
4. Try to get in exercise each day: walking, biking, Wii Fit
5. Continue to make new recipes
Saturday, January 11, 2014
This is a blog about some of the challenges that I face with weight loss. The thing that has definitely hindered me from progress in the past is so simple, but one I've struggled with: looking at this like a diet. Lately I have been telling myself that I actually enjoy exercise, and that eating healthier foods feels good, that this is something I want to do for the rest of my life. This is not a quick fix just so I can just reach a number on the scale than go straight back to eating junk food or overeating too often.
Night snacking is something that has been probably my biggest challenge. It's amazing. Eating healthy and exercise will be like a breeze some days, then, around 4:00 pm, I suddenly feel like I'm really depressed or sad and that food is the only thing will make me feel better. It is instant and readily available. In place of that I have been drinking teas, meditating, and praying, just listening and relaxing, and I am honestly enjoying it and feeling better 20 times above anything a simple candy bar could ever give me. This is not easy every day though, but at least I feel I am trying to move in the right direction.
And the last challenge I believe I face is just overall motivation. Let's face it, for no reason at all, you could be having a bad day, feel sick, or tired, or just cranky and not in the mood to go biking or jogging or anything. But I keep thinking of my of my nice Maurices jeans that I got for Christmas awhile back, and how I am SO close to fitting into them once again. Sometimes I have to give myself that extra push and remind myself to just keep going, and that the results are going to be worth it!
Friday, January 10, 2014
What got me here: I feel my weight is something that has gradually just gotten higher as the years came by, due to not managing stress and not taking care of myself. In grade school and high school I was maybe just 30 or 40 so pounds overweight.
It wasn't though until about between 2008 and 2009 though that my weight took on a significant change. In my early/middle 20's I went from 230 pounds all the way to almost 300, in the course of just two years. I believe this was because of a very difficult relationship I was in, one that was physically and emotionally abusive. I just quit taking care of me. The crazy thing is, I don't even recall noticing any of my weight gain until I finally ended up stepping on the scale towards the end of the year one day and was shocked at the number that I saw. I can't believe I literally did not notice until up to that point.
Finally though, I wish I would have gotten wiser a lot sooner, but I still believe things work out in their own perfect timing. I moved out, and moved back to my home town away from this person because I just felt so miserable around them. For awhile I kept in contact with them through the phone, but then I just quit because I could not take it anymore. I switched my phone number. One day they contacted me through face book, but I still felt it would not be right to contact them at all.
What I finally did realize is this: I did NOT deserve this. And that I will never again put up with any kind of physical or emotional abuse in a relationship. I don't need to always be with someone in order to feel happy or complete. I can stand on my own two feet, love myself, unconditionally, and be strong. It is a process, but I don't want to date anyone until I feel ready, and until I truly feel comfortable with who I am. I used to think, well, I would rather be with someone then feel alone, but I no longer feel that way, because I remember this quote:
"It's better to be alone, than to be with someone who makes you feel alone!"
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