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Saturday, May 02, 2009

While reading through my emails today I ran across a link for the new Sweatsuit to Swimsuit
Boot camp. Since I have been so discouraged lately I decided to join in on the fun. I'm hoping it will re-light a "Spark" under my lazy butt so I can get off it and get back into my quest for a smaller ME. I have had a foot injury that has been a big part of why I have been so discouraged. It seems if I stay off it the pain is not so bad. If I'm off of it then I'm not able to workout and if I'm not working out I'm not losing weight. What a viscous circle. So I have decided to suck it up and try to do as much as I can without over doing it.

Bottom line.....

1. My husband's daughter is getting married May 30th. The dress I am wearing is a size smaller than I am now so I need to lose about 15 lbs and a few inches.

2. August 6 we are going on a family vacation to St. Thomas. I want to wear a bikini for the first time in 27 years!!!!

Beginning tomorrow May 3, 2009 I am starting the Sweatsuit to Swimsuit Boot camp along with the interval training that my personal trainer has created for me.

The first bonus challenge for the team is to update my biog with my starting stats and goals I hope to accomplish this month.

My new goals for this challenge are:

1. Track My Food Every, Every Day - - NO Excuses

2. Do the Daily Videos

3. Do the Daily Bonus Challenges

4. Track My Fitness Minutes, Every Day - - NO Excuses

5. Drink 8 cups H2O - - NO Excuses

6. Do Interval Training at gym - - No Excuses

7. Blog at least 1 time each week noting how I am feeling both physically and emotionally

8. Keep in touch with my Spark Buddies and Teams

Ooops...........I think I just felt the burn on my butt from the Spark......Time to get moving and quit feeling sorry for myself. Bikini here I come.......If Valerie can do it, I CAN!

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SUZY6281 5/4/2009 12:08PM

    Congratulations on taking on a challenge! Your goals are awesome and I think you will be very pleased with yourself when you have completed it.


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GNUATTITUDE 5/4/2009 7:39AM

    I was just wondering the other day about where you've been! Injuries are certainly no fun, but it looks as if you have a good "plan B" here. Best wishes to you emoticon

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Saturday, February 21, 2009

On the wagon but on the edge hanging by a wing and a prayer. The past couple of weeks have been very discouraging for me and the fact that I'm discouraged is discouraging me even more. I'm in a funk and cant seem to get out of it. I had the flu and wasn't able to go to the gym for a week. I was so bummed. I have heard that for every day you miss you are set back two. Getting past that 1 - 2 ratio is not easy. It has been tough getting my endurance back especially with strength training but I'm working on it.

Cant seem to shake the funks. I have been asking myself over and over what have I done wrong that would cause the funks. My energy is gone, I'm tired all the time, motivation is in low gear, emotional eating is in high gear chowing down anything with sugar and tons of carbs. On top of that I have added in the "Girl Scout Diet" diet. Needless to say my staying within my target calorie range has been hosed. UGHHHHHH I have to figure this out soon. If I don't, I'm afraid that I will give up.

So today I sat down and began asking myself these questions:
Do I need to change my workout routine? Do I set smaller short term goals instead of reaching for the whole pie? Do I re-evaluate my meal planning? Should I take a step back from trying to be everything for everyone and focus on my needs? Do I stop working out with my sister in law and letting her dictate the type of workouts we do, when we workout, how we workout? How do I stop eating food with sugar? How do I get myself to drink more water?
Do I limit my Sparking to 2 or 3 teams that I can participate and not feel a crunch for time? How do I learn to believe that I can do this?

I have spent the last couple of days thinking about what changes I can make so I don't let these issues consume me to the point where I want to quit. I've taken a hard look inside myself hoping to find my motivation, inspiration, and determination once again emoticon. Believing in myself has not been one of my strong points. This will be a challenge.

After much thought and soul searching I have come up with a new game plan. I have made a new playbook with short term goals that I hope I can track on a daily basis while helping me win this game. I need to concentrate on the now and start believing in myself. Being selfish is not who I am but if I'm not then I'm not going to succeed. If I don't succeed then I will always be hanging on the edge of the wagon by a wing and a prayer. I want to succeed for ME! I want to ride IN the wagon!

Here is my new, improved self-centered road map to help me find my way while on this journey:

1. Set up my own workout plan based on my needs and schedule. When I joined the gym I paid for a personal training session and have not done any of the suggested exercises once emoticon emoticon emoticon

2. Track every meal every day emoticon

3. Drink 4 cups of water a day....Increasing up to 8 per day emoticon

4. Go completely sugar free starting one day at a time emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

5. Re-evaluate my Spark Teams and commitments emoticon

6. Do a 10 minute Crunchless Abs video every day emoticon

Monday begins a new week with new goals. I hope that I will be able to renew my motivation, inspiration, and determination so I'm once again riding in the wagon instead of hanging on the edge by a wing and a prayer.

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TACOTA 3/16/2009 1:50PM

    First off I'd like to say that missing one day does not set you back two. I had some surgeries a few years ago, and back then I was a total exercise OBSESSOR and I was more concerned about missing a few days of exercise than I was the surgery I was going to face. Mind you, I do understand that some people such as myself need to stay on strict schedule because if they give themselves an inch, they take a mile, and each day they don't do it, gets easier to make excuses for the next. However, the body is a miraculous machine, and muscle, believe it or not, retains memory, and my doctor said the six weeks I would need to take off for the surgery, would not make a big impact on my body as long as I restarted AFTER the sugery's six week recovery phase. He was right, as well...he should have been, he's a sports medicine doctor. So, don't fret about that too much, however, you have the right idea making a schedule AND the kind of exercise you WILL do everyday. I found that when I created my own routines, I was better able to keep them going because I wasn't so resistant to DOING them, and actually looked forward to them. I fell off the wagon, and that's why I am where I am today (if you mix in a little personal life emotional drama), but I know what I need to do.
It sounds like you do too, and I think it's wonderful that you have a plan. It's ALL about having a plan. Having it, and sticking to it like glue. You CAN do this! Don't be so down on yourself. You are not hanging by a wing and a prayer. You are merely in soul-searching purgatory. Do what you need to do for you, and don't let ANYONE stop you, including yourself. You are funny, you are warm, you are beautiful, and you are a STRONG woman. Don't let ANYONE make you feel any less than that. emoticon

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CALLIEA 2/26/2009 5:33AM

    I really enjoyed your blog but I was also saddened by how you are feeling as I have been where you are..many times myself. It is very hard to get out of a funk that seems to be so deep. But YOU CAN and YOU WILL. I have read all the other comments and totally agree with every one and they were all said beautifully...with deep compassion and understanding. Only thing else I can offer is to look inward to your spirit. You have the desire to be the best you can be. I had to down size my Sparks teams as I was trying to join in with too many teams and it was too much. I couldn`t really connect with anyone long enough to feel the encouragement that I needed. I am on 2 teams at the moment and found it was best for ME. I love "Munchie Cheaters" as this is what I do...I reach for the wrong cals and expect my body adjust to what I feed it. So this team is perfect for me and Pammy is a wonderful team leader. I also have joined BLC9 (Biggest Losers Challenge) and it is very encouraging and challenges myself by teams within team support. By downsizing, I have been able to get more one on one. Do your workout for yourself..the way YOU want will be much more satisfied. Your sugar binge may play a VERY huge part in your funk. Go off the sugar (cold turkey) change your workout routine and I am willing to bet you will begin to "see the light". Blessings to you. Callie

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CHIMNEYROCK 2/24/2009 11:10PM

    I just got around to reading your most recent blog post. I know exactly what you mean about being in a funk. Man it is a big one to pull yourself out of.
There is one thing that I want to offer as an encouragement. There is a BIG difference in taking care of your self and being selfish. Dr. Phil has a great CD out on this. He says that if he doesn't take care of himself, then he can't take care of the people that matter the most in His life. If he is unhappy because he is not tending to his own garden, than how can he really preach to others about being happy? Remember there is a difference between Selfishness and Self-Care.
I'm glad you're snapping out of it and that you're my buddy so that we can SNAP each other out it. Weeeeeee Ha!

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GNUATTITUDE 2/24/2009 5:42AM

    You've done yourself a service by examining the funks. Working out on your terms and adding the water are great first steps. Don't beat yourself up when you stumble--it's inevitable and HUMAN!

I might suggest you think of some short term rewards you could give yourself, like one week. It doesn't have to be something big or expensive, just an acknowledgment that you've met your goals for a week at a time. It could be as simple as a special tea or coffee you like and 15 minutes to sit down and enjoy it.

We're behind you, Tarah!

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ANGELME28613 2/23/2009 1:18PM

    emoticonSounds Like A Great Plan Tarah! I love the way you wrote it out. I think everyone needs to make a Planned Goal Schdule like this. Sounds like your on your way to Success. I'm so glad you shared this. It is Very helpful.

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CECEWRITER 2/23/2009 12:05PM

  I like your plan Tarah! Sounds doable and You Centered.

Stop beating yourself up-you had a set back-let it go.

I hopped on the binge wagon this past week myself-due to extended family issues totally outta my control-but I so needed to medicate with food-blah. It is a NEW DAY and a new week.

Plus Feb is such a bleck month here-March will be here in a week and the crocuses - tulips and daffodils will be poking their heads up at us!

You know whatever you decide about your teams I will be in touch with you-rooting for your success. You can do this-

We are doing a March Madness at SASS-to encourage whatever monthly goal one wants to achieve - feel welcome to join it.

Stay in touch with your pals when you feel funky...we are almost as good as a shower for freshening up!

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JENSINE449 2/22/2009 9:07AM

    Hang in there my friend! You're not alone. emoticon There is freedom from this thing, I promise! One day at a time is EXACTLY right.

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DINA:-) 2/22/2009 1:17AM

    i loved your blog! i was so impressed with your commitment- that you realized what was going wrong and took action to fix it! you have set some great goals and i hope you reward yourself when you accomplish them!

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TIZSLIM 2/21/2009 9:02PM

  Well done on focusing and working out a new way of dealing with things. More importantly though, accept - taking care of yourself is NOT being selfish.

Bright blessings.

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CLEWIS0607 2/21/2009 8:34PM

    First of all, let me just say that I would be glad to join you in that prayer! Sometimes that is all it takes...thinking that you are at your wits end and finally giving it all to God. I felt that same way before I finally got my motivation almost 2 months ago. Somewhere in me I wanted to take this journey but I could never get everything to line up. My motivation would be there but not my will power or vice versa. I would try only working out but not eating better or vice versa. Then one day I gave in. I stopped fighting myself, and gave in to the process. Embraced it. I think you are on the right track reevaluating your priorities. Don't be afraid to be selfish! You shouldn't feel guilty for meeting your own needs. I wish you the BEST and will be praying for you as you go into this new week. emoticon emoticon

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LISA_BURT58 2/21/2009 8:31PM

    You have done a great job of dealing with your problem in a productive manner. It is so easy to just fall off the wagon but your determination is very inspiring.

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LIVINTODAY 2/21/2009 8:30PM

    I think your new game plan has some really positive changes. You sound motivated to make this work and you CAN!!! emoticon

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Friday, February 06, 2009

When I started this journey I thought all I have to do is watch what I eat, start working out and the pounds will just start dropping off. WRONG!!!!! There is so much more to losing weight. Never once thought about how turning fat into muscle, drinking more water, the emotional roller coaster, and discouragement would make or break my motivation. Being a member of the " I WANT IT NOW" mindset I seriously thought I would start to see results within a month. Especially since I was seeing so many other Sparkers dropping pounds right and left. WRONG!!! Then I thought surely the next month I would start seeing a loss since by then I was working out 4-5 times a week. NOT!!! Here I am around six weeks into my quest for a new body and I had not lost that first pound. I was so discouraged emoticon.
Im thinking what am I doing wrong? Im watching what I eat, Im working out doing both cardio and weight training, Im tracking.....Ughhhh!
emoticon What am I missing??? In discussing this with a trainer at the gym, she asked if I had lost any inches. Now Im thinking inches....Why am I worried about inches?

It was then I learned Lesson #1 in the journey of weight loss...Inches do matter in the turning fat into muscle phase. Since muscle weighs the same/more than fat success here can only be measured by the loss of inches. I took my measurements, compared them to my starting measurements and by gosh I had lost a total of 7 inches in those 5 weeks. After 8 weeks I had lost another 4 inches. Still no lbs lost but I was finding the curves of a waist, I had, as I call them, "butt dimples" on the sides of my butt, and I was starting to see muscles take shape that had been buried for years and years. emoticon
Discouraged no longer I was now more than ever motivated to keep going!

Lesson #2--Even though I hadn't lost pounds I was gaining something that was much more important- More energy! I noticed I was able to do things like bend over and tie my shoes, walk up stairs without gasping for my last breath of air, able to do housework and sweep without having to take breaks, wanting to park way out in a parking lot and walk to the store. I was feeling GREAT!

Lesson #3--Weight loss is a LIFESTYLE change. It takes more than just sticking to a diet and working out to lose weight. Lifestyle change is the machine! Diet, exercise, physical health, psychological health and social health are all pieces and parts that make the machine run. One doesnt work without the others.

Lesson #4--There are more ways to measure weight loss success other than by what the scales say. Dont let the scales discourage you. I stayed off mine for several weeks.

Lesson #5--Follow a Food Plan and Drink More and More and still More Water. I was "watching" what I ate but I wasnt following a food plan. After discussing several options with trainers and my doctor, I decided that I would follow Weight Watchers. I was also very much encouraged to start drinking more water. I have had a hard time drinking enough water on most days. Have never really cared for just drinking water. I would much rather have a diet pepsi/coke or a coffee drink. I have started cutting out the diet pop and coffee and have started adding in more cups of water.

Now that I have navigated my way through the swamp land, I feel ready to take on the jungle. Im sure I will have many more mountains to climb and many valleys to climb out of while continuing my journey. I am better equipped now to take them on!

P.S. February 5, 2009....After 3 months of sweating, fighting belly rumblings, sore muscles, and loads of discouragement, I have officially lost......12, yep that's 12 pounds. Thank you so much to everyone on Spark that has motivated and encouraged me!!!!!

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-LISH- 2/7/2009 11:36PM

  Congrats Tarah, your persistence has really paid off! That's a great encouragement to the rest of us. (I would, especially, love to gain some energy.)
Your positivity is contagious and it's generous of you to share what works for you with the rest of us. (I'm going to steer a somewhat discouraged friend over to your blog for some inspiration).
Continued success!

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DINA:-) 2/6/2009 8:44PM

    way to go on all your progress! this is a great blog- all of these lessons are spot on! you are now well equipped to reach all your goals!

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GNUATTITUDE 2/6/2009 7:24PM

    Perhaps the most important lesson you wrote about here is how every aspect of your life is connected. Why is that so hard for us to understand, I wonder?

Releasing 12 pounds to the Universe is a wonderful accomplishment, only overshadowed by the fact that having learned these lessons prepares you to view the journey as something to be savored and enjoyed. I can sense that in this post.

So enjoy the ride, my friend. Sometimes the road gets bumpy, but sometime there are those marvelous curves!

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SHERRIE_BERRY 2/6/2009 12:39PM

    Tarah, you rock!

When I read your blog I could hear the change, and optimism in you! I am so proud of you! I knew you could do it! You should read this blog when you feel discouraged, and it will quickly turn your frown upside down!

Good job my friend!

Love and hugs~Sherrie

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CECEWRITER 2/6/2009 6:33AM

  WOO HOO!!! Congrats on your loss, Tarah!

You have also gained a lot of wisdom-so far, can't wait to see al of your successes-


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Tuesday, December 02, 2008

WOW.....I want to shout out a huge emoticon to all of my emoticon who have replied to my recent blog post.
You all took time out of your hectic days to post messages that not only lifted my spirits and gave me encouragement but also and helped me see the whole forest and not just the trees. I am so thankful and blessed to have an awesome support network filled with caring friends.

Patience is not one of my virtues.....I am the type person who wants things right NOW. Not in an hour, not in a day, not in a month and especially not in a year which is why I was getting so frustrated from not losing weight. For the first time in many years I am determined to lose the weight and change my lifestyle. So for me being impatient and now determined, I was expecting to see progress in a tangible way.....a number on a emoticon. So scales sticking + determination + impatience = whining and frustration.

Today, I decided to try focusing on other ways to measure my progress as many of you suggested. I got the tape measure out and I thought for sure I needed new glasses.

I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 6.5 INCHES SINCE 11/17/08 emoticon

Thank you all so much....

You guys are the emoticon

NO MORE WHINING.....................I am making progress!! emoticon

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JAZZYJB 12/5/2008 2:04PM

    You are awesome!! emoticon

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SHERRIE_BERRY 12/4/2008 12:05PM

    Woohoo emoticon

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DINA:-) 12/4/2008 12:28AM

    that is great! i'm so happy you can see your hard work HAS paid off!


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SUZY6281 12/3/2008 11:32AM

    I am so happy for you!!! That is absolutely amazing!

Now "quit yer whining!!" :)

You are awesome!


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JULIE2BTRUE 12/3/2008 11:20AM

    You just made my day, my friend... That is WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!

WOW ((((((6.5 INCHES)))))) IS A LOT, FOR SUCH A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are doing FANTASTIC... Keep up this momentum, and you will be at your goal, before you know it.... (Yipeeeeeeey)
Love ya, Jules emoticon

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DANDREWS03 12/3/2008 9:50AM

    wow 6.5 inches is a monumental achievement when it comes to losing weight... see you were toning and gaining muscle at the same time as losing fat thats why the scale was not moving but the - inches is even better than the numbers on the scale.


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~*KIMMI*~ 12/3/2008 9:14AM

    WOO HOO!!!! 6.5 inches is AMAZING!!!! GO GIRL! Congratulations!!

I think we all need to whine, complain, and grouch about stuff once in a while. I am not a patient person either and love 'instant' results. Keep finding other awesome ways to measure you success and progress because you ARE making some!!!

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CAHIBOMOM 12/2/2008 9:33PM

    What a difference.... 6.5 inches. That's amazing!!!!!

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