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I Think I Jinxed Myself...

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

Well, of course, I did not get out of the 260s last week. I haven't lost a friggin' ounce actually... I've hit a plateau. Is that even normal to have happen every few pounds? I thought that only happens when you lose more like 50 lbs. I'm still exercising every day, staying in my nutrition ranges, and taking my metformin. Also, in the last week, my blood sugar started dropping during workouts and I haven't quite figured out how to stop it. Thank you, PCOS.

Basically, I should have just kept my mouth shut (haha). But hey - I PERSEVERE!

A little discouraged this week because I am going on my first DATE date in over a year on Sunday (gasp!), and I really wanted to lose a few more pounds for it... I've also been absolutely terrified all week.

I'm sure stress can hinder your loss... but I highly doubt with all the exercise I'm doing that it would completely prevent it. Just gotta keep barreling through. And if the date doesn't go well, I guess I'll cross that emotional eating bridge when I come to it.

On a positive note, my parents are taking me to a Casting Crowns concert on Saturday for my birthday.... Definitely looking forward to it!

I'm hoping for at least a one pound loss by Sunday... *sigh*

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BEWITCHED_26 10/10/2013 3:38PM

    Just breathe re: the date and I am sure you will look amazing! And if you like him and lose the weight before the next date -- then it will give you that much more confidence on the oh so scary second date! :)

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BRADMILL2922 10/10/2013 3:03AM

    Stick with it, that scale will start moving! Keep on keepin on! Have fun on your date, I hope it goes well! If he is a good guy, a few pounds definitely won't mean anything :)

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SALLYLEE84 10/9/2013 8:29PM

    Like the others said, a few pounds won't change a thing and if he's really that superficial do you even want him? That being said have fun on your date. emoticon And Casting Crowns how cool is that, they are probably one of my favorite Christian artists! emoticon

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MSHEL7 10/9/2013 8:27PM

    I have PCOS and find it extremely normal to only lose 1 pound every 4 weeks. If I do lose, I automatically go into a plateau. Sorry you have it too. It is a real bummer. I read somewhere that a normal person loses weight like 4-1 to a person who has PCOS. I hate it. I do hope that you have fun on the date. Don't give the weight a 2nd thought, just have a good time. Also, so so so cool that you are going to Casting Crowns, I love love love that group. I am so envious. Oh, I'm a friend of Tiger Lily 613, in case you wondered where I came up with your blog. Keep pushing through, us PCOS girls are strong!! We have to be to keep coming back and working through.

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TIGER_LILY_613 10/9/2013 7:52PM

    Just have fun on your date, don't worry about the pounds. Like Ginger said, they won't change much. Just be your charming self, and HAVE FUN ! :)

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SUEPERWOMAN 10/9/2013 7:27PM

What a blessed girl...Casting Crowns, how cool is that!

Listen to me, sweetie. Three or four more pounds lost before your date will not change a thing. I hope you already know that. Try to know that you are already enough, and perfectly wonderful, just the way you are, and then journey toward better health as the days progress.

Keep persevering. I'm proud of you!

Love, Ginger

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People Are Noticing!

Sunday, September 29, 2013

First, let me apologize for not being very active in the Spark community.... I've been SO VERY BUSY! I promise I have not fallen off the bandwagon; in fact, its been quite the opposite. As of today, I am 24 pounds down (10 lost in the last month!) and have had a lot of other NSVs. I am doing great on my exercising, too! I walked 3 miles this morning and have been keeping up with a regular walk/run routine 3-4 times a week. See? I told you I haven't fallen off the bandwagon! ;)

The best part? I've been noticing the changes in myself. My clothes fit better, I feel more energized and confident, I am starting to choose healthier options and smaller portions and *gasp* I don't even feel like I'm depriving myself, my cravings are becoming less and less frequent. I am feeling like I'm breaking away from a prison I've held myself in for 23 years. I feel free. Now if I could only get my self-esteem back...

Possibly even better than seeing these changes in myself is finding out that other people are starting to see the fruits of my extremely strenuous labor too. Today I went to my grandparent's for lunch with my family for the first time in nearly a month. My aunt hugged me, and one of the first things she said to me was, "Look at you, you've lost weight! You're looking great. Keep up the good work!"

What a WONDERFUL FEELING it was to hear those words! I know I'm nowhere near where I want to be physically, mentally, or emotionally... but I finally feel like I'm on the right track... and STAYING there! And who knows, maybe one day I'll be able to run more than a minute at a time without feeling like my lungs are going to explode.

I hope all of you are well, and again - I really apologize for my lack of involvement. I will be trying my best to get on here a little more frequently, but the 22-month race to the finish line for my BS in Psychology is in progress!

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PGHP31CK 10/1/2013 9:46AM

    Yay!! That has to feel soooo very good! Keep pushing -- you CAN do it!

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BRADMILL2922 10/1/2013 4:59AM

    That is great news to hear how well you have been doing Broooke! Congrats and keep it up!

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BESCATS 9/30/2013 4:47PM

    It is a wonderful feeling when people notice. Good for you. emoticon

Fabulous, 24 lbs., and well on your way to a healthier you. Keep up the good work.

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LORI2562 9/30/2013 2:06PM


Reading this put a huge smile on my face!!

Congrats to you on all your success!

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SUEPERWOMAN 9/30/2013 9:09AM

I'm so happy for you! You're doing the work, and you're reaping the benefits.

Love, Ginger

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GRUNGEGODDESS 9/29/2013 8:26PM

    Congrats!!! I know you are supposed to lose weight for you, but it is still nice when someone else notices. I have lost quite a bit from my heaviest, but I still feel like I look that big so it's such a boost when someone else sees it. And you will get to where you need to be physically and emotionally. A healthy life leads to a healthy mind and body!!!! :o)

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BECKY0111 9/29/2013 8:18PM

    Congrats on your weight loss. You're doing great! You are becoming more confident, and that leads to self esteem.
I hope that whatever is working for you also works for me!
Keep up your studies and stop by when you can.

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LUANN7 9/29/2013 6:36PM

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RAPUNZEL53 9/29/2013 6:20PM

  Good Luck!

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Exercising Spark Friends.... A Little Advice, Please?

Monday, July 15, 2013

I started walking after doing absolutely nothing for quite a while.... I started with a mile a day, then increased to two, and got up to two and a half at 3.2 mph but then my knee really started to hurt... Now I can't do anything!! I rested it the latter half of last week and most of the weekend, but today it still hurts. I've been icing it at night, just took some advil today, and am trying to stay off it best I can.... Last night I was doing some housework so I may have aggravated it, but I really thought it'd be better by now. When I go up stairs, it feels like its crackling/popping.

A friend of mine who runs frequently said when he started track the first time he had the same problem and it ended up being an overuse thing and just to rest/ice it.

Also, I hurt this knee while snowtubing when I was younger, so its a little more sensitive than my right knee...

Has anyone had a similar problem? It definitely feels like a muscle thing, but I just wanted to see if I can get a ballpark time until the pain goes away and I can go walking again. Also, how did you start from nothing to regular exercise? I felt fine doing it, but I guess my knee had another opinion.


Any help is very much appreciated..... emoticon

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LILLITH32 7/17/2013 1:43AM

    There are a number of overuse injuries, you can try searching by symptoms. I had runner's knee, sounds pretty close. RICE it, get good shoes, don't increase your mileage by more then 10% at a time. Also, I would advice talking to a doctor at some point. If you have access to a pool, try walking in the water - it's non-impact. Lastly, look for a good program to strengthen your legs and back, and another to stretch the muscles. Hope that helps! emoticon

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BRADMILL2922 7/16/2013 11:08PM

    I have had knee issues since I was like 11 years old. You just need to know the difference between pain and injury. Pain you can work through and deal with. If you are injured, you need to rest and ice and maybe have it looked at. Just be smart about it and don't push too hard too fast.

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BROOKE008 7/16/2013 6:29AM

    Thank you!! I did a mat workout last night for core and upper body.... I'm stating far away from my legs until my knee feels better. Just majorly bummed!

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JULIEPIZZ 7/15/2013 11:20PM

    I think you kow excersise pain -and something is wrong pain. So listen to yourself. If its hurt rest it... if its really bad think about seeing the Dr. So glad you want to keep up on fitness...a good sign.
There are fitness ideas to help you if you want to do fitness in other areas. See SP videos. Chair work outs for example. Low impact and yoga.
You have to take it slow going from zero. Walk and do 10 mins per hour all day long. Try streghth training too. Check out ur resources on SP videos. This is just a start! Be well.

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BROOKE008 7/15/2013 9:04PM

    THANK YOU!!!!

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SKILPAT1 7/15/2013 1:10PM

    First you need to get really good shoes to walk in - go to one of those specialty stores like RunOn. Then do exercises that strengthen the muscles that support the knee like straight leg lifts.
There is a really good site for the exercises at

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I Am Not A Dog

Sunday, July 07, 2013

I love animals. LOVE THEM. I have a particular soft spot for dogs. My sister has a chocolate lab puppy (I call him my four-legged nephew) who is the HAPPIEST dog I have ever met. When I was over on Saturday for the 4th of July cookout, I went in to visit the puppy. I asked him to give me "paw" and he happily obliged. After praising him with a "GOOD BOY!" and head pat, I gave him a treat.

Then I had an epiphany.

I am not a dog.

How did I come to have this epiphany? Well, you see, I have this nasty habit of thinking to myself "Congratulations Brooke, you did so well this week that you get to have this extremely high sugar/fat/carb/absolutely-nutrient-lacking meal as a reward!"

Oh yes, you read it correctly. I reward myself with FOOD. Bad food at that. I AM NOT A DOG. Because apparently unhealthy food is the reward for eating good food all week. The irony isn't lost on me.

I'm sorry, I'm still trying to get my head around this:

emoticon I give myself treats. Like a dog. BAD GIRL! emoticon

How many other people struggle with this? I know I'm not alone!

So here's a thought. Maybe we should take that money we would use to eat unhealthy food and sock it away for a nice, well-earned vacation or a new outfit when our other ones get too big to wear. Even a new haircut or color when we reach a mini-goal is sufficient. Its important to reward yourself for sticking to your routine and achieving your goals. My point is, don't reward yourself with food.

You are not a dog.

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PGHP31CK 10/1/2013 9:56AM

    Hi, Brooke!

I have struggled with the same problem. Up until 3 weeks ago, I used to "reward" myself on Saturdays, and eat whatever I wanted --"Fatterday". Then I stopped tracking my calories on Saturday. Eventually, "Fatterday" became a two day event.

You're right. You aren't a dog, and neither am I! It's hard to think of non-food rewards, and I like your ideas!

I found a great mini-reward at the SparkPeople Secrets of Success tab (located under Community on the top bar). Each time I exercise, I use my favorite shower gel when I shower. I use that specific fragrance only as a reward.

Keep pushing! You've got great attitude, and I know that you're going to reach your goals!!


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RITEEBEE 7/9/2013 10:08AM

    I LOVE this blog!! haha

I am not a dog either!!

Rewards are important but shouldn't be food orientated!! You are so right!

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JUST_BRENDA 7/9/2013 12:47AM

    I totally relate to what you are saying about rewarding myself with food. I guess it's not a problem when it is in limited quantities as part of my overall eating plan and I'm still within nutrition goals.

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BRADMILL2922 7/9/2013 12:43AM

    Glad you had your light bulb moment! You are right on, you should not treat yourself for sticking to your diet with something that you wouldn't even make it on your diet plan if you wanted to stay in range! You aren't the only one who feels like that so don't think you are alone! It is something I figured out and had a light bulb moment a while back. It really doesn't make a lot of sense so definitely save for the new, smaller outfit! Save up for the vacation you should take when you make your goal! Those are much better ways to spend your money than going out for pizza or something! Good for you for realizing what you were doing!

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LILLITH32 7/8/2013 5:04AM

    That was a great blog! I absolutely agree with it. Yummy but bad for you food shouldn't be a reward - it should be a punishment! I wish we could all change our minds and reward ourselves with nutritious things instead...

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EXOTEC 7/7/2013 11:57PM

But even dogs shouldn't be rewarded with off-plan treats!
Labs especially are inordinately susceptible to exactly the sort of weight problems we are prone to. Save the puppy, and yourself! Eat *real* food, and make rewards something not inclined to contribute to dietary delinquency

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JULIEPIZZ 7/7/2013 11:31PM

    Thanks for sharing this! I gave myself rewards when I reached goals at first! Early on I just felt like I was always giving up something or not doing what I wanted to do!? So I gave myself some motivational rewards...but I wrote this out beforehand and stuck to them. I bought sunglasses when I lost five lbs. Perfume at 10 and a night out with my hubby at 15lbs. I looked forward to earning the presents and I noticed these were things that drew some attention to the new me! Nothing expensive. Just little I give myself sp goodies!

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OUTTATHE200CLUB 7/7/2013 11:06PM

    Congratulations on making that connection. I made the same realization three days ago. Bad food as reward for eating well. Crazy, huh? I have opted instead to try these rewards instead: pedicure, going to bed early, a new book, and indulgence in anything that will make me, stupid tv, time with good friends.

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LUANN7 7/7/2013 10:47PM

    I always have 1 cheat day a month and I eat everything in site but your right I should save for an outfit or something else fun. emoticon
Lu Ann

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Taking a Breather!

Thursday, July 04, 2013

PHEW! The past 5 days have been HECTIC! I'm so sorry to all my Spark friends - I haven't been very active the last few days aside from tracking my food/fitness and the comment/email when I can, but I'm hoping next week will be much better!

Saturday and Sunday I wrote about the funk I was in... luckily it passed after spending some time with my family - playing with the babies of the family always helps! Kids are so sweet!

Even feeling as awful as I did during the weekend, I stayed within my goals. I was very proud of myself! I didn't resort to emotional eating like I would have 1-2 years ago when my depression was at its worst either, so I'm celebrating that win!

Monday and Tuesday I worked 16 hour days... Monday I didn't bring enough food and had to resort to vending machine food - BLECK! Disappointed with myself but I made decent choices and still was able to stay within goal. YAY!! :)

Yesterday was the last day before the holiday at work, so it was the most insanely stressful, problem-ridden, HELLISH day imaginable. My brain kept saying, "I need to eat something," and I'd be rummaging in my purse for some change for something from the vending machine and then my body would kick in and say, "No you don't, put the purse away!" It was the first time I've ever actually felt like emotionally eating since I re-started my journey in the beginning of June, and it was the first time I was able to talk myself out of it. ANOTHER PROUD MOMENT - YAY!

Today I woke up and walked past the mirror and wondered who the girl with the waistline was. HA! I'm feeling great! :)

Going to my mom's today to help set up for the barbecue on Saturday. She's put me in charge of desserts (I'm a baker and my family requests my cakes/cupcakes for every occasion lol) - so I'll be working on that the next few days: Blueberry Cheesecake Cupcakes and Pina Colada Cupcakes with Malibu Rum Frosting. The blueberry cheesecake cupcakes aren't exactly diet friendly, but the Pina Colada cupcakes and icing are only 250 calories if you average it out. I'll post pics on Saturday once I'm finished!

My Nanny is making homemade spaghetti with meatballs tonight. I love her spaghetti, and I've been invited to stay for dinner (she lives with my parents). She has stage 4 lung cancer and we don't know how long we will have with her... I gre up on her cooking and let me tell you - she is one of the BEST cooks (second only to my mom!) and I'm certainly not passing up a meal made my her! I love her so much, and when she sees you eat her food, she's so very happy lol.

Don't worry - I already have it preplanned in my nutrition tracker and I'm still under my calories for the day. I'm safe!

Well, I'm off! Once again, I'm so sorry to the friends who've left such supportive comments, goodies, emails, etc that I haven't had a chance to get back to yet - you are all so wonderful and I appreciate SO MUCH the support I have on here! I'll be back to my frequent "sparking" once things calm down in the next couple of days.

Have a wonderful 4th of July everyone!

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JUST_BRENDA 7/9/2013 12:43AM

    Wow, you do have alot going on...but also some successes too!

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BRADMILL2922 7/9/2013 12:37AM

    Definitely sounds like some crazy hectic work stuff you had going on! Glad you had the holiday to get some well deserved R&R!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 7/6/2013 8:52AM

    Enjoy your time!

Nancy (L.I.F.T. team)

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LORI2562 7/5/2013 8:19AM

    You blog made me smile. Your positive attitude shines through!


emoticon on all your success!

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