Tuesday, May 06, 2014
just another reason not believe the total calories in/out - and the equation that 3500 calories equal ONE POUND.
i have been craving carbs so intensely (some times i think my brain remembers every single day i deprived myself) and when i am under so much stress like now , i decided to figure out the calorie count - and eat what i desire. as long as i don't go over that calorie count i should have LOST SOMETHING, OR AT THE LEAST STAYED THE SAME.
ha ha ha - you know it don't you ?! i gained five pounds!!!! now i wish some one could figure it out - or give in to the fact that if you eat ice cream, or cupcakes - even though you have stayed within or at your calorie alotment - IT AIN'T HAPPENIN'!!!!
for the past two weeks i have kept a diary - i have eaten sensibly (protein shake for breakfast which is low carb and low cal. ) but for my afternoon snack i had as an example, a toasted bagel (230 cal. for cinnamon raisin) one teaspoon of butter and one teaspoon of marmalade- add another 125 calories. so that is a meal. for dinner i would have lean chicken, but still have baked potato (which i have all but eliminated from my diet in the past) with sour cream on top, and green salad with oil and vinegar dressing. my calories for the day is set at 1200 calories - on two occasions i did go over that by 200 calories..
anyway - the scale punched me right in the gut - but deep down i knew i would not stay or loose but that bad things would happen.
mentally - i felt so much better not having to constantly say no and deny my self. i am weary of that.
i am tired of always choosing one thing over the other when i really want what it is i want.
there are days i eat next to nothing- i have plenty of water, clear tea, and so on.
the theory for no weight loss then is 'you have not eaten enough' .
i am just plain warn out with all this self talk, denial and never getting to where i would like to be.
i don't feel particularly energized when i don't eat carbs - cause another theory is carbs make you tired, slouchy and wanting to sleep.
i think that applies to my stress/depression for the life i have - THAT is what makes me tired, slouchy and wanting to sleep. problem is i don't sleep very well or very long.
oh yes, that is another NO WEIGHT LOSS THEORY - no sleep - no weight loss.
looks like i bat a thousand - all on the negative side.
anyway - i miss my carbs and i will not diss carbs any more.. they are ok in my book.