Sunday, February 21, 2010
Recently became personally aware of all the self bashing I do..and how that works to sabotage me. "I'm too fat", "I had an unsuccessful day because I ate a cookie", "I'm showing my age", "I feel blah today cuz the scale showed no loss", etc. It made me think back to my original goals..which were not to be a size 2 or look 30 yo again (puhleese..) or wear a bikini by summer. Or ever. Nope..the goals involved eating healthier , increasing fitness, maintaining flexability, controlling my blood pressure and enhancing my health. So..given those goals, I have NOT failed. I may not look as young as i once did, but I look good for my age. I may not ever run a full marathon, but I can walk for miles. I may not have lost the amount of weight society dictates, but I am within my ideal body weight, upper range. My labs are good, my fitness has increased, I eat healthy 95 percent of the time, I don't get sick and my blood pressure is under control. I am a rousing success story! And the one who most needs to remember that daily is me!
Monday, February 15, 2010
but I believe as long as I continue to eat healthy, exercise, and stay committed eventually it will start down again. I hope..cuz this is frustrating.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
and my energy increases by the day. Getting ready to put our home on the market, relocate to another State, down size from 3 bedrooms and about 3/4 acre to a one bedroom apt, etc..an adventure!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Lost a friend this week, and immediately turned to food for comfort the day of her funeral. Drug of choice..sigh. The difference is after one day of it I realized what I was doing, and that it was self sabotage, and stopped doing it. Kept the exercise up every morning monday thru friday regardless. On the whole I am not unhappy with the direction things are going. I may not be perfect, but I am more aware, more likely to do quick damage control, more focused on health than formerly. I am also 6 lbs less than three weeks ago.
So much else going on too.. another friend is end stage with breast cancer. This friend a young Mom, vibrant and with life still to live, unlike the beloved elder friend I said goodbye to this week. Our hearts are breaking..
Meanwhile trying to get our house ready for sale and my things sorted for a move. Excited about the move, and a new adventure, but overwhelmed by the task..keep truckin'..keep truckin' on..
Monday, January 18, 2010
For some reason i haven't yet figured out, after longterm and successful maintenance i slacked off this past Sept .Ate in an unhealthy way much too often, and my regular exercise routine became sporadic. I know better for heavensake! So why? Still working on that puzzle. I was "rewarded" for sloughing off by the return of extreme hypertension, weight gain, lethargy, decreased flexibility, and shortness of breath on exertion! I then rapidly went from feeling deprived by having to eat healthy and exercise when other's seemingly didn't have to, to realizing that when I don't do so I am depriving the body that has served me so well over the years of care and nurturing. Further, that if I continue to do that it won't serve me long. I am back in the saddle again, being good to myself..
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