Tuesday, June 19, 2012
well, here we go on my first day. As a military spouse, I move regularly and this makes it difficult to form supportive friendships/workout groups so I'll try this online group and then I can just take you all with me!
As a former athlete and veteran, I am confused about this heavy, weak woman that looks back at me in the mirror. I have all the usual reasons for wanting to lose weight... Horrible family history of diabetes, heart problems, high blood pressure, cholesterol, cancer, depression, anxiety...... In my head all of those read as.... obesity.. I am also a Mom and wife and want to be more active for my family and the fun that comes with getting off the couch. I want all of these things but for me, on the inside, the woman that lives under the fat.... I just miss being strong. and fearless. I was a farm girl and a soldier. I could do anything. How did I get here? bed rest, putting me last, eating to feel better... eating to punish myself, eating to punish others... giving up, making excuses. being afraid.
All that got me here but I am tired of all those things and I just want to find my way back to the strong woman that is still there if I just find faith in her again.
Here's to my journey.....