Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Thankfully, things are slowly turning around. I can't be too mad about yesterday being horribly off with my calorie intake (500cals over I think), I was up at 10am and then slept at 5am... so I was up for a longer period of time than normal. I did swim yesterday, so that was nice.
Today I'm doing better in my calorie range. I've decided to stick with my 3hr rule eating... plus drinking some coffee has made it a little bit easier to control the food. I didn't work out today, but that's because after shift in the morning we'll be PTing, and from what I hear it'll be circuits... a good workout for sure. Tomorrow (Wed) after I wake up, I'll be doing the P90 arm/back workout.
I think the hardest part about this upcoming season is that it's Halloween and sweets are my weak point. But, on the plus side, now that I'm tracking it I know how high those calories really can be... so I'm trying to stick away from the little treats all the time...
Then we're leaving Thursday night for the Ironman weekend extravagenza... hooray!
That's it for now, 4hours left on shift, and then PT and then SLEEEP.
Aloha everyone, thanks for your support.
Ooh I did have a good devotional earlier today...
I thought this was very appropriate... I confess lately I've found myself in a rut where I'm depressed, upset, easily angered... and I feel the tugging at my heart that my relationship with my Beloved isn't right... and yes somehow I can always find another reason not to make it right... I don't have time, I can't do this... etc.
Instead, it's exactly what I need. I think this devotional spoke volumes to me because really I hear him say, Aren't I enough? Who care what others think... or what YOU think they think. Brenda, please, make me enough.
And indeed... this is a great reminder, that... Jesus really is enough.
Thank you Lord for such an amazing Savior who "loves us with an everlasting love, drawn us with loving kindness, builds us up again..." (Jer31:3)
Is Jesus Enough?
“That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day.” 2 Timothy 1:12 (NIV)
I stopped in my tracks the other day as I was mindlessly
singing a beautiful praise song. I say mindlessly not because I wasn't focusing on God. I was definitely lifting up my heart to Him. But the mindlessly part came when I realized I had no clue of the weight of the words in this song. Did I really mean what I was singing? The song said this to Jesus: "You're all I want. You're all I ever needed."
Really? Did I really mean those words? Is my Jesus enough? Ultimately the question should be: Is my relationship with Jesus in such a place that if He was truly all I had today, would I still stand and sing those powerful song lyrics?
The economy is shaky, funds are tight, prices at the gas pumps and grocery store keep rising. Am I going to let my heart be drawn into a place of worry and fear over all this instability? Or will I quiet my soul and calmly proclaim, “Jesus is my Provider and He is enough.”
Today my son Jackson, who just got his driver's license, will be driving to a friend's house to watch the football game. His friend lives less than five miles from our house. But statistics show that most car accidents happen on the roads we are most familiar with, those closest to our homes. Will I be able to smile, tell him to be careful and let him drive down our driveway with full
confidence that no matter what, Jesus is enough?
I don't know what kinds of twists and turns might come during my life journey. But, I know the only way to travel with a joyful peace is to settle in my heart the answer to this question once and for all. So, today, I declare Jesus is enough. Before I even know in what way this declaration will be tested, I've made
the decision to say it, believe it and settle it.
Jesus is enough.
I think this is why Proverbs 31 is my favorite portrait of a godly woman. Proverbs 31:25 reminds us, "she can laugh at the days to come.”
She was filled with such incredible joy not because life was
perfect but simply because she had decided to make laughter, peace, and truth the hallmarks of her life. Proverbs 31:30 goes on to say this was a woman to be praised because she so reverenced God in the shrine of her heart. She knew without a doubt, He was - and still is - enough.
Dear Lord, Thank You that in this world we don’t have to live consumed with fear of the unknown. For You know all things. Nothing will happen to us that does not first pass through Your hands. May I find peace in Your love, which is so consuming for us that You only have our best interests in mind. Help us to believe and trust in that truth no matter what. In Jesus’ Name,
Monday, October 06, 2008
Yesterday, I did realize I needed to take control of my life and stop blaming other things. So, I left my friends a little early and came home to do the P90 Kenpo. Although not a favorite (I think from now on I'll just do Turbo on those days), I did work out.
I did lose control and eat THREE cupcakes I made Marcus, but hey, you win some you lose some.
Today is a winning day. I have two more nights left of work before I can switch to my day schedule, so after church today I took a 3hr nap to prepare for tonight's late night. I thought I would do the P90 yoga before running with Sarah at 5, but that didn't go so well (headache! dehydration from nap) so instead did dishes.
Met Sarah and the park, and I ran for 30min without stopping! We took a few walk/water breaks, but for no more than 2-5min and we started up again. We went for 69minutes! I think I'm going to invest in the GPS/HRM because it would come in handy with this training. I think it would be $140 well invested. Anyway, I was very happy with this day... and my eating is going well! I did eat an oatmeal chocolate chip cookie earlier at church, but I just wanted a bite, and no one was around to finish eating it...so I kept eating it. Should have waited to give to someone... but o well. 100calories there. I even have some extra calories for a cupcake and milk... but I might not :) I might just drink some chocolate milk instead.
Anyway. Feels great to be back on track. Eating, working out, even cleaning the house. Especially worship. We had our worship night last night, it was awesome. So blessed. Cannot even begin to describe the wonderful feeling of getting to come before our Lord and be humbled and amazed.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
I knew this would be an off week, and to brinker around 155 was controllable, but to step on this morning at 158, made me want to throw a tantrum.
The worst part is, I'm not seeing it get any better. My body is all helter skelter (early mornings for the past 2 days and tomorrow, despite I should be on a night schedule), who knows what I've been eating, "no time" to work out... ESP yesterday. Today doesn't look better (off to see a friend with her kids, then stop by sick friend's house, then help set up for church and then go to church until bedtime tonight) then tomorrow wake up early for setup church, church, come home (rest?!) I AM running with a friend tomorrow night, which is good cause otherwise I have only worked out once or twice this week :/ no P90... Im trying really hard to be in the middle of beating myself up, and trying to be positive and getting over this, but I guess since I feel like my life (schedule) is spiraling horribly out of control...next week is no better...work mon/tues than leave wed night for big island to watch neil in the ironman and return home mon night (and I'm supposed to be going to PTL class that week, where they kick your butt--hope I can survive it!!- yet maybe that week will be the week of me getting back)
It's the ultimate frustration. Can I blame it on my upcoming period?!
But then I must remember... God's strength. He gives us strength and wisdom and peace... and I must hold on to that. I must call on Him, wait on Him, and let Him be my good shepherd.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Praise the Lord, I am seemingly getting back on track with living healthy! I went to bed early last night (fairly), then woke up and went for a swim (32min) and had a early breakfast/post workout meal.
Now it's time to get ready for work (pack healthy food), and run some errands. I have to keep this new mentality at work. It used to be harder for me to eat healthy on my days off, now it seems to be the other way around!
For the rest of the world it's Thursday, but it's still Wednesday to me. It's 0430, and I woke up 14hrs ago. I was considering doing my P90 arms and shoulders... but am considering otherwise. I think I shall rest and when I wake up do my workout, shower then head to the BBG golf tournament (an all day affair). I am behind this week with P90... but it's ok. I mess up. I take it in strides right? Just like my eating today... a little over on calories... :/
Alas. Live and learn. Confess and repent. Tomorrow is a new day.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Today is a new day. Different than yesterday (when my eating/working out was off). Today is a new start. I'm tired of seeing my pudge come back (how quickly it comes back!) so here's to another day... of eating and working out.
I think I wrote this in the morning (before I had gone to bed for Monday)... still have 4 hours before bedtime... and my eating has been pretty good today... kashi waffles +PB for breakfast, yogurt for snack, pot roast + mixed veggies +brown rice/black beans for dinner.
Doing laundry now... hope to cook some food for this week's meals as well as go running on the treadmill before bedtime (hopefully sleep by 2am) so tomorrow I can... swim at the UH pool, run by Rainbow Marina, drop off the truck at firestone before work, and then work! Then it's the BBG golf tournament! (uh oh, area for potential disaster eating/working out on Thursday). Hmm...
Anyway. Hopefully I can update before I go to bed saying, "Yep, I ran!) :)
**woohoo! It's 0142 and I did run! I couldn't find my HR monitor tho (but hubby later emailed me to tell me it's in the truck compartment), but did a treadmill sprint workout... pretty stoked. I mean,I can tell I've lost some running endurance (plus me no likey treadmill), BUT I did it!! Another step in the right direction, PLUS I stayed in my calories today! Hooray...
Tomorrow is a new day!!
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