BRENDARK   25,515
25,000-29,999 SparkPoints
BRENDARK's Recent Blog Entries

a Hunger for God

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

A while ago I meant to write up this blog, but I didn't. I've been slacking in the spiritual department. You know, reading, getting into His Word. But this was profound for I wanted to share.

I accidentally read the wrong Proverbs one morning, but God totally used it.
"The Lord does not let the righteous go hungry (famished), but he thwarts the craving of the wicked." Prov 10:3

And then some cross references were Matt 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom & his righteousness, and all these things will be given you as well." And Ps 34:10 "The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing." I was convicted this morning as I was thinking about how "hungry" I was. Then to be reminded that we are indeed-made to crave God. When I seek his righteousness, only then will I be satisfied.

Of other interesting note-the word "Seek" in Matthew means to "Crave." Zeteo. I think it also seems like an awesome name for a child.

No, no kid on the way. Just a reminder- I can't get pregnant for a year post surgery otherwise there runs a huge risk factor of complications with development (the bone morphogenic protein they used in my jaw has caused bone deformities in rabbit fetuses within a year of use).

Just sharing.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

HEALTHYSLIM2 4/22/2012 5:43AM

    Oh, I love when that happens - we read the "wrong" scripture, and EUREKA - God speaks to us clear and true.
There's a little boy in our church named Zeo... or that's what they call him. Hmmmmmm - I wonder if he is really a "Zeteo"? I agree with you it is a COOL name!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CINDYTW 4/18/2012 8:45PM

  emoticonGlad you found what you needed!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PULCHRI2DINOUS 4/18/2012 1:52PM

    Isn't' it something when we receive a blessing after reading the "wrong" scripture? I, too, am on a journey to read more, pray more, and to be more thankful every day. Zeteo would certainly be a nice name for a child.

Report Inappropriate Comment

So excited!

Friday, April 13, 2012

So... some of you might not know my hubby is in the Air National Guard, the Hawaiian ANG. Anyway, long story short he's still trying to transfer which means he hasn't been able to find a unit here in the Mainland to do his obligatory drills and what not. His unit was kind enough to let him go back in January to do Jan-Mar drills, and they're letting him go back in May to do Apr-Jun drills, AND his extra two weeks of active duty time. Needless to say he'll be gone the whole month of May.

I was jealous of course, and wishing we could go back as a family for a little bit, so the kid could see his grandparents (my mom lives in HI, as well as M's family and grandma). My medical leave was extended an extra two weeks since I'll be wired shut for the entire six weeks (was expecting to go back to work after 4 weeks)... meaning I go back Mon 30 Apr. I didn't think work would let me turn around and take personal leave on 1 May. Then the tickets got way more pricey... so I thought it was on the back burner. And then I happened to ask my boss if I could take leave 7-18 May since tickets were cheaper then...

and he said yes! And the boss man said yes! (hubby)... so needless to say. I'm SUPER excited to go back to Hawaii next month... And we're surprising my mom. Because perhaps the best part is- we'll be on the island for Mother's day! Totally didn't think of that when I bought the tickets...

and I'm surprising all my Hawaiian friends (mostly church ones)... so if you're my FB friend (Salbatross) please don't say anything on my FB page. :D

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ALPINESALLIE 4/19/2012 7:11PM


Report Inappropriate Comment
HWNHMMBRD 4/15/2012 7:25PM

    emoticon don't you just love it when things fall into place?!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CINDYTW 4/13/2012 11:25PM

  emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ORGANIC811LFRV 4/13/2012 6:10PM

    Wow! That is so amazing! See how the Universe works things out for you? Congrats!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SAVANNAHZMOMMA1 4/13/2012 1:09PM

    Have fun, Brenda!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Another crazy weekend!

Monday, April 09, 2012

This weekend was a bit busier than I was originally intending. Starting off with getting up early Friday morning (by my post-surgery standards), to be ready to go walking with some ladies at 8am. Then M & I went grocery shopping, and did some Easter shopping for Z. Then finally home, and then later in the evening our Good Friday service.

Saturday was the first time we got to head back down to Franklin for the Farmers Market. Definitely got some amazing greens for an Easter Salad at the Sims, and then juicing greens, honey, eggs, butter and bacon. Then Whole Foods, some coffee, and picking up the next part of our Made to Crave study-the action plan. Back home to rest up before the Made to Crave Study, and then time to cook two pecan cherry coconut maple pies for Easter dinner at Sims. M made some green juice for me, that included some cabbage... (dun dun dun)

Sunday morning, a dear friend was going to church for the first time, and she needed to go to the 830 service since she had to drive 2hrs to see family... another early morning for us. We get out of bed and rolling, only to find out the cabbage isn't settling in my stomach very well (perhaps, it was a*hem, a few weeks old)... and the runs come on. Get to church on time, still a little unsettled, survive service, see some people get baptized and head home. Time to make some home-made sweet potato chips, carrot chips, and salt & vinegar chips. Other than burning the sweet potatoes and the regular chips, they were pretty good. The carrot chips not so much, they were too thick and were mushy and not crunchy at all. Head to Varbles, then swing by back home to pick up pies and prep salad, and off to the Sims. All I had Sunday was some kefir, some grapefruit juice, a mini reese's pb cup, some nerds...some broccoli and cheese soup... and that was it. My tummy was too unsettled, with frequent BR breaks... wasn't fun. Needless to say walking into a house of delicious my favorite kind of food (thanksgiving) was not enjoyable. I probably ruined it for M, and then while they were prepping the food, and then the kids got to eat, and I was feeding Z (after I originally told M to do it and then yelled at him to go eat)... I just couldn't handle it. So I took the keys from M and drove home.

Yup I drove. Weird. But I had to get out. I was tired, cranky, hungry, not feeling well... you get the gist. So I laid in bed... texting a friend, about how I ruined Easter dinner. Then finally got out of bed, made a shake, and started reading the Word. (did I mention I burnt the palm of my hand trying to move the cast iron skillet out of the stove?) Totally convicted:
I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice *in you* (not in circumstances); I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.
Psalm 9:1-2

After a final trip to the bathroom, headed back to pick up M and the kid. I felt horribly bad for storming out, and poor M was left with the awkward explaining... and emotionally I was just spent. I think had I been able to really eat and fill myself up, it wouldn't have been so bad. You know, but seriously. I was miserably hungry, and miserably having to go to the bathroom.

Anyway. I'm grateful His mercies are new every morning... cause I definitely needed them this morning. I slept for 14hrs last night, and definitely enjoyed every minute of it. Guess I was a bit more pooped than I thought. :D

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ALPINESALLIE 4/12/2012 11:33AM

    Awe, Bren! Glad you are feeling better chickee! Miss & Love you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHYSLIM2 4/12/2012 4:16AM

oh my dear - we ALL have times like these. Good that you found your bible - our best friend - right when you needed a fresh reminder that we don't have to do all the hard stuff alone, on our own energy. It just feels like that sometimes. But He is always right there if we can just remember to call on Him. Here is a scripture (oldie but goodie!) that has come up for me a couple of times this week, and seems like a tiny blessing to offer my SPark Friend right now:

Psalm 46:10
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Hugs to you and hang in there. I think I need to do that Made to Crave study! emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 4/12/2012 4:17:57 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
CINDYTW 4/9/2012 3:14PM

  Glad you are feeling better today! I am too...

Report Inappropriate Comment

Weekend recap

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

This weekend seemed a little busier than normal. Saturday M had a mens' group meeting, so I watched the kid from about 9-1130. It wasn't too bad, although the 9 part was rough since I normally sleep in. But Z minded his manners with his ipad until I could function. Then up to get Z some breakfast, and me some juice. Then I started cleaning a little since the owners of our rental home were coming by around 3 in the afternoon. Sadly it was smack in the middle of my "Made to Crave" study that I normally go to at 2... but I decided it was best to stay home with M & the kid to help out. After the owners came by, noticed that the siding needs to be cleaned and the deck redone (thankfully they'll be replacing a warped piece of wood, slightly dangerous)- I mentioned the blinds, but I don't think they're likely to replace them any time soon. I guess we can try right? Afterwards we headed to our friend Viv's house for her bday celebration. A couple hours of hanging out, before her and the hubby went to a movie. I made deviled eggs for her, with a twist. Used greek yogurt instead of mayo, and then added mustard and dijon mustard. It was pretty tasty. And.. way healthier!

Anyway. Pain is mostly manageable. Had a crazy headache Sunday morning before and during church, I think it was because I was dehydrated! I've gotten lazy and don't necessarily enjoy drinking stuff. You know? When that's all you can do... it gets old. Fast. So it's been another battle of trying to get water in...

Time to get ready for the day! We're gonna swing by The Settlement to see if we can turn in an application, and if I can check it out. It's only slightly more for full-time care, and they said they had openings for Z's age in May. I think both M & I want him in a more structured academic setting... perhaps someplace that doesn't play "I'm sexy & I know it."

Fantastic note, I made some broccoli and cheese soup last night. Amazing. Used the raw organic cheese, some homemade chicken broth, and frozen broccoli (we were running low of food funds)... nom nom nom. Looking forward to eating some today.


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CINDYTW 4/3/2012 10:26PM

  Glad you are able to function somewhat! I bet it does get old drinking everything!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ORGANIC811LFRV 4/3/2012 11:02AM

    Cut back on salt in any form and you won't be so dehydrated. I think you need more rest than you had too.

Glad you are almost pain free and up and moving.


Report Inappropriate Comment

2 Week Doc Appt

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Good Lord! I realized I haven't blogged on here since I came home from the surgery. I suppose if you're really interested contact me and I can get you my personal blog and you can read there. For now, here's an update from today's appt.

Doc Follow-Up
Well, today was the two week post-surgery follow-up appt. And the doc (resident) was pleased with the swelling that has started to go down, and the healing that is happening on the hip incision and the neck. However, (BIG FAT COMMA) he said they'll see me in FOUR weeks.

Read that as: not getting cut free until four weeks from now. As opposed to the hopeful 2 weeks from now (4wks post surgery) as I was dreaming for.


I am grateful that the healing is going well. We'll know by end of six weeks if the graft took. And the doc was pleased with my juicing that I've picked up, he said he wished all his patients would do it.

So I suppose it gives me an additional two weeks of juicing + healthy choices to perhaps get down to my goal weight, 140lbs (which is 15lbs from now). We'll see. 145lbs would be pretty sweet.

But the cool thing is that I am cleared (by the doc, not the physical therapist) to do walking/low impact walking up to my tolerance. Sweet. And I can go in a pool (water jogging, don't think I can do laps yet-movement of neck not there), and I can take a bath.

Funny story- when scheduling my followup, the nurse was like, "Okay, a month from now- April 30th." I responded with, "Um he did say 4 weeks, how about Fri the 27th?" Seriously lady. It's bad enough to be wired shut for 6 weeks... and then I already add 2 days to that since my surgery was on a Wed and I'll be cut free on Friday... AND then you want to add TWO MORE days to that?!?! And make me wait til Monday!?! PFFFT. Silly lady.

Thankfully the appt is for the 27th. :)

It's late. Time for sleep. Night night. :D

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CINDYTW 3/31/2012 10:05PM

  Sorry it wasn't as quick as you hoped! Hang in there!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CONRADBURK 3/31/2012 8:21AM

    Congratulations on having the surgery and getting it done. I hope your healing continues to go well and you are 100% again very soon.
emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ORGANIC811LFRV 3/31/2012 7:43AM

    LOL LOL She must not be a raw vegan! LOL

Yep I thik you are doing great. I'm happy that the doctor is being long on the time to get you unwired. By then through juicing you will be stronger and able to truly heal up nicely.

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 Last Page