Tuesday, January 24, 2012
My eating has been practically down the drain. Thank goodness for tracking my calories tho, it stopped me from devouring some Ben & Jerry's Fro-Yo Cherry Garcia. Yeah, that's right... I have ice cream in the house :( I also have kettle cooked jalapeno potato chips...that I think make me feel bloated (I had them with dinner-and I blame them for me being over my calorie count...ending calories: 1947. Yeah. Seriously. That's.... disgusting. (SP calculated my daily goal of 1480-1830 I dunno how I feel about that, I think they did it cause my cardio goal is 60min/day?)
So.... I read my girl Salbatross' blog today...and she too has been slacking in the blog department (it's been over a week since I've written one)...and you know why I don't write it... because I don't want to tell you all about HOW bad I've been eating. And I don't want to omit it, cause I always talk about what I eat on my blog... and omission is like lying to me. I CONFESS! I've been eating crab rangoons, ice cream, potato chips, Japanese cookies, Cracker Barrel French Toast (TOTALLY not impressed :/), homemade pizza on naan bread, hot chocolate, biscuits & gravy...
Thank goodness I still have SOME roots in Paleo, else I probably would have GAINED weight this week, thankfully I've maintained around 161... but my goal is 159 by surgery (probably next Wed, I'll find out tomorrow if they change the date). The BEST thing that has happened this past couple days- GREEN SMOOTHIES.
I have no idea how I started on that kick, but I did. I googled and found recipes and joined a SP group, and o.my.word. Seriously. I guess, I know what started it...last Friday I brought a DELICIOUS spinach salad to work for breakfast. The norm, chicken with little blue cheese, and pears and blah blah...only to have my mouth screaming at me. I've digressed so much, that eating spinach hurts :/ I wanted to still get my greens in...so green smoothies have been it. So far my favorite is definitely a mixture of: collard greens, ginger!, pear, celery, cucumber, pineapple, frozen mango, and a little spinach. Nom. Nom. Nom. It's what's on tap for tomorrow. I make about 4.5 cups worth, and drink throughout the morning and afternoon. Well, I can't drink it anymore (the sucking through the straw I had, also hurt my mouth), so I use a spoon and eat it--like an acai bowl! I also eat a little substance for breakfast after PT...cause let's be honest here... blended goodness exactly hit the spot.
Anyway. So there you go. The last time I blogged, I talked about the hubby, and how he doesn't exactly contribute to my eating healthy. BUT the other day, I realized-- he doesn't FORCE me to eat anything. It's not HIS fault I have no willpower (although tonight when he was eating the B&J coffee heath bar crunch... I did have willpower!) and I normally wanna eat whatever he's eating...AND... I dunno. It's just something about it... him being back that throws a wrench in my eating. THANK GOODNESS my working out has been pretty good. Seriously.
Speaking of working out, I ordered a participant guide for a Bible study some women at the church are going to start on Saturday, it's called "Made to Crave" it talks about how we are made to crave- not food, but God. I'm excited. Well, I ordered this book of Amazon, and you know how they have free super saver shipping on orders over $25? Jillian's 6 Week 6 Pack was like 7 or 8 bucks, so I bought it, and some poopie bags for the kid. I did her workout this afternoon after work--WOWZA. I KNOW I'm gonna be hurting tomorrow! She made me do stuff I didn't even think I could do!
I'll be real guys, something triggered in me. Probably that addictive crap that is in food, but potato chips have been my biggest fault (go through my food tracker, it's true!). I blame the junk in it, but I also blame my brain. It knows that in about 8 days, I won't be able to eat a potato chip for months...so it wants to get all this chewing and crunchiness out now... Or something.
Sadly, I cannot drink my green smoothies when I'm wired shut, there's no way all those particles are gonna go through my teeth. I did however, meet a woman that juices stuff in Nashville at the Franklin Farmers Market I went to a few weeks ago... so I ordered some juice to pick up this Saturday...and we'll see how they taste and hopefully I can order some of her stuff for those few weeks wired shut. She does some stuff with kale juice and whatnot, I want to still get lots of vitamins and nutrients (without drinking Ensure/Boost crap). GAG.
Well, I think I've mentally vomited enough on you for tonight. I've lost my motivation, my desire to stick to it... I dunno. I might have to pick the Paleo Diet book again and read through it, so I can remember how crappy it all is for me... and maybe that'll push me over the motivation edge for the next week or so.
Sorry to let you down... but- I'm human!
Hope you're more successful than I am! Good thing for fresh starts in the morning!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Well, thank goodness the hubby is back. And that means bad eating... apparently! I didn't realize my husband was associated to eating whatever I wanted. He texted me on his way home when he was in Chicago, and it was like I just wanted to eat and eat. I ate some M&Ms and worse yet... mint OREOS! Haha, only 6 (way better than when I would eat like, 12!) but still something tweaked inside of me. Thankfully I did my Ripped workout literally right before I left the house to pick him up.
This morning we had Korean for lunch (nom nom)... and then had some *ah*hem. Treats. We'll leave it at that. And ended the night with some pork bison sauce atop some deliciously cooked tender broccoli. I was excited with my weigh-in this morning.. but we'll see how tomorrow goes before I post anything.
I'll be real with you. Cause I haven't made a SP announcement (as many people mentioned, we tend to separate our SP lives, from FB lives, etc. For me my SP blog is different than my personal blog).
I'm about to undergo my fourth jaw surgery. In which case, I'm going to be wired shut, for 3 weeks, but I'm trying to mentally prepare for me. I've been wired shut 2 other times before, but the last time was 6 weeks (and you can leave all smug comments about losing weight while be wiring shut NOT on this page... cause believe me, I went through straight depression by the 5th week).
Anyway, surgery is pending....likely 25 January or 1 February... which means there's a little voice in my head, that wants me to "enjoy" certain foods, before I can't. I'm also trying to help develop a menu that won't be straight milkshakes while I'm wired shut. And still get all my nutrients. Let's be real, it's really hard drinking through your teeth (it's like trying to drink through a strainer)... Just giving you a heads up, cause this weekend, I'll be making my pecan maple cherry coconut tart.
*Got 8.5hrs last night
*61 minutes of cardio (ish, I did the Rip workout, and the Shred it Kettle bell work out from Jillian--I'm gonna be so sore tomorrow!
*50SP pts (61)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
That's what I do with sleep on the weekend. Seriously, my hubby calls me a sleep camel, last night the kid and I slept 10 hours. A. Mazing.
Yesterday...was a pretty good day eating wise, just ate my dinner a little too late (happens when you wait until the end of the day to work out), and had my dessert (half frozen berries with sliced banana) too close to bedtime. As expected, saw it reflected on the scale.
I'd like to say I learned my lesson, but me getting out of bed this morning slower than expected, prevented me from working out before heading on a little road trip to see "hanai" grandparents of Zeke (my kid). Hanai is like adopted in Hawaiian. It means, like, when you're so close to another set of parents, they take care of you. In this case, Zeke's Hanai grandparents are my girlfriend's parents. My girlfriend that while we were training for the marathon both got pregnant, and had our kids 3 days apart. We got to spend Christmas with them... and her parents are super stoked and willing to watch Z in case of an emergency. Anyway, in the military you have to have a signed document saying someone will take care of your kid if you and your spouse have to deploy or are unavailable (smart on the military part, stressful for the member-technically my husband is considered military, even tho he's in the air national guard). So, I had to go out there and have them sign the paperwork.
Now don't get me wrong, I love Alice (the grandmother)... but her cooking... is kinda like paula deen's. Amazing, but totally not healthy, nor paleo. So for lunch today we had some pulled pork sandwiches, with homemade cole slaw, baked beans, pretzel "salad", and graham crackers covered in pecan praline amazingess. Now, I'm sorry CINDY, cause I know you can't do grains... but this pretzel "salad" was like the epic sweet and salty. Pretzels on bottom, covered with cream cheese and cool whip, then topped with sliced strawberries in jello. NOM NOM NOM. And those graham crackers were like crack. I did skip the bun tho. ;)
I know, I know. Just bring your own lunch... but the Asian in me doesn't want to shame the family by not eating their food. In some cultures it's super insulting to not eat their food. So I knew it would happen (uh, their Christmas food was amazing, and I didn't even try to count those calories!) so I had a light but filling breakfast (2 eggs over fried "rice") and was determined to just drink water. I knew I'd have to work out ALL 60 minutes tonight afterwards and have a light dinner. And I did it, even though the Yoga Meltdown was a little weaksauce tonight, in my defense, I totally did something to a muscle doing Ripped in 30... but I still got my 60 min in, and still burned over 500 cals.
As I was telling my girl SALBRATROSS, it wasn't so stressful, not like the other time when I ate crap food (perhaps because that was emotional eating?) this was truly a "cheat" meal. Because I knew it was coming (although didn't know what exactly), but I prepped for it, I ENJOYED it... and I'm not regretting it. I know eventually I'll have to get over the Asian thing of not insulting someone... but for now, they totally opened their house to me and my kid, and their other daughter straight up gave me the key to their house (they live down in Nashville) so Marcus could have a comfortable place during surgery in a few weeks.
Love ya'll. Happy weekend!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Thanks to my girl SALBATROSS, I got off my butt after watching Private Practice on my computer... and did some treadmill time (and miles!) while watching Greys. I'm glad I did it.
And I made my cauliflower fried rice. Not 100% paleo cause there's a little shoyu in there.. but seriously. Nom nom nom.
*Sleep: didn't get my 8 hrs last night, hoping to make it up tonight!
*90/10 Paleo... Um yum. Shoyu in fried "rice" tonight makes it non-paleo.
*60min cardio (64min)
*50SP pts (84pts)
New opportunities people, we always get to make new choices. :D
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Yesterday was nuts. As my old pastor used to say, PSYCHO: S-Y-K-O.
We had organized PT in the morning so I had to do a workout that was not my own. It wasn't bad, 20 min of calisthenics (around the world, so each person chooses which exercise and how many reps). Then we did about a 2mile run.
My boss had given me a new project, it was exciting to have something to do, but in all seriousness, it was like trying to invent the wheel, when you have no idea that a wheel is supposed to roll. I'm in charge of organizing and putting together support for an exercise that is going to happen in March, but I'm not going to the exercise. I didn't even know where to start. I mucked around and got made some phone calls. Finally, the NCO that was going to be helping me arrived back from his appointment, and afterwards it started to make sense. And the project suddenly turned a lot bigger than I orginally thought. Fast Forward-my goal of doing my JM Ripped workout at 3:15 didn't happen, and I barely got out the door at work around 4:20 and somehow barely got to childcare on time to pick up the kid at 5:15. Walk in the door at our place aroudn 5:28.
And when do I have to leave my house by in order to get to church on time? 6pm.
I was smart enough this time to eat... but CONRAD and so many others are right...once you start on the path of putting toxins in your body (aka PB M&Ms) the body just wants more, and the cravings get hard to fight. I made my crab rangoon dip and mixed up my popcorn and M&M concoction, and ran out the door (after feeding the kid an almond butter sandwhich).
In church I was so tired, I got glassy-eyed a few times, and was getting to the super tired point. Got home aroudn 8:50 (delayed due to accident on road), and I just didn't have it in me to do the workout (since it takes a good 30min).
I was disappointed. I knew my weigh-in was not going to be the happy 162.3 that I had earlier in the week (even lower than the 162.8 from the weekend), but I couldn't fret over it. Adapt and overcome as they say. I knew my weakness, I knew my struggles. And sometimes- life gets out of control.
This morning I was pooped. But thankfully I had the opportunity to work out on my own, but because I had a briefing at 9:30, I couldn't do quite *all* that I wanted to. I did get to RIP (and I've brought in my 5lb and 3lb weights so I can use them), and hopefully this afternoon I will get to finish my 60min of cardio with some treadmill time (since our ellipticals are poop). It is the end of the work week for me (thankfully-gotta love the Army! We get a four day weekend and hubby flies in late Sunday night!) and sometimes we get released early on the last day of the week. Hoping to take advantage of it to get the rest of my workout on.
I admit, I was gonna lie to you, well-- not lie exactly, but leave out the details. But you know what, what's the point? I can't lie to myself, and word to SALBATROSS for being able to fight her cravings and be skinner than me! She deserves it! Maybe one day I'll beat her on the weigh-in, but for now, I just enjoy the accountability and motivation I have just by doing this alongside her. (last night I was thinking, "man... SALBRATROSS wouldn't do this...neither would CONRAD"
Here's the week's weigh-in:
Starting weight/BMI 25 Dec 11: 171lbs/29.3
Today's weight/BMI 12 Jan 12: 163.2/28.0
Still down from last week's weigh-in (164.6lbs/28.3) which is good, especially since it's that TOM (as off-kilter my body may be with it). But in all honesty my mini-goal was to break 160 before hubby gets back. We'll see. That's 3.2lbs in 3days..HA! So maybe the goal will be just to be back on the 90/10 Paleo seriousness.
Thanks for the love Sparkers. I feel so loved when you comment, and it's a huge encouragement as well!
Let's ROCK-IT today!!
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