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Guilty: Poor choice Christmas fixings

Monday, December 03, 2012

Ouch! I just returned from the grocery, where I purchased all the items on the list to fill the bag for giving to a family for their Christmas dinner.

I added:
canned vegetables: so high in sodium
stuffing mix: is there anything good in there?
Bisquick: more starches and sodium
Red Velvet cake mix: Yummy processed sugars and starches
canned cream cheese frosting: add that sugar to the cake - woooowww
cranberry sauce: maybe there is hope, if you're careful with portion
Christmas candy: Hershey Kisses - Maybe only eat one per day?
Turkey gravy mix: ???? More starch
boxed mashed potatoes: Fluffy starch and fat - they need lots of butter!

How I would prefer to provide this needy family with fresh fruits and vegetables and healthy desserts and grains along with the knowledge and recipes that Sparkpeople has available to all of us.

Merry Christmas to the family who receives this grocery sack. I hope they make the best and healthiest use of all the ingredients and have a wonderful holiday meal! By the way, the church will add the non-perishables and meat.

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CTUPTON 12/22/2012 9:49AM

    My store had a pre-packaged box of rather healthy things. I donated one of those.
Good for you to be so generous! Chris emoticon

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GREENCAT1 12/4/2012 6:28AM

    You are doing a wonderful thing for this family! Don't beat yourself up! You did the best you could not knowing what foods they would be comfortable preparing,,,, Enjoy your holiday! emoticon

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    Good for you even though you would have like to given them some different food. I am sure that the family this food goes to will appreciate it very much.

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Focus vs. Stress: Thoughts

Saturday, December 01, 2012

It's been too long since my last post. But since today is the first day of the month again and I have committed to not only weighing in, but to taking body measurements on the first day of each month, I decide if there are any thoughts worthy of a first of the month blog. This month I have some thoughts.

Since my lowest weight a few months ago I've gained almost 10 pounds. Due to the cleanse for my first anniversary colonoscopy since my cancer surgery last year, I'm back to only 5 pounds up. It's time to evaluate how that came to be when I made lifestyle choices to lose that first 50 pounds in less than a year and it seemed easy.

First thought: I don't expect my grandkids to want to eat as healthy as I do, so I added back to our household some very tempting treats while they spent most of the summer with us. Since nothing is forbidden to me, I tasted a few, but allowed the taste to become a regular habit again. Again filling my body with the desire for "sugar"! I must re-think that first thought. They need to be healthy too!

Second thought: My husband had surgery a week before the grandkids went back to their parents'. Even though we have both been losing weight and exercising more, since he was home all the time, I didn't leave him home alone to go to the gym. We didn't go together either for fear of doing anything that may overexert his restrictions before the therapist allowed him to. Again, exercising lost status as a habit. I must re-think that second thought. He was strength training daily through physical therapy!

Third thought: This one I didn't realize until yesterday. My first anniversary colonoscopy was nerve wracking. I didn't realize how nervous I was about that test until it was over and the doctor was smiling and telling me my colon "looked wonderful" - if that is possible. I had even been ignoring the need to make an appointment with my physician for my annual physical workup, as important as that is, especially after a cancer scare. Now that stress is missing and I recognize how big it was. I need to complete my annual physical exams now instead of waiting to see what only one portion reports. I must re-think how to acknowledge my stress level. Hmmm, it seems I tend to ignore things I don't want to face.

Today's thought: I feel strong and healthy and re-motivated to re-start habits that I was truly enjoying and that made me feel so much better and stronger (and refreshed the size and look of my wardrobe regularly). I can already feel the energy returning to my body since my cleanse washed out so much of the "junk" I had been allowing too often. I really enjoyed eating lots of vegetables yesterday after I was allowed to eat again. These last 5 pounds of weight gain will not last long. They were caused by stress I recognized as events. Now I know better. I must re-think what I am doing, or even more, not doing. Any suggestions here?

Thoughts for this month: I have lost weight through the holidays a couple times and never felt deprived (mostly because I didn't deprive myself). I anticipate continuing in that manner, simply because I have learned that a sliver of a piece of 3 different pies turns out to be the size of one slice. The enjoyment of the pie is the taste, not the completion. Taking small bites and savoring them make my slice of pie at the family dinner take longer to eat than most who gobble up the yummy stuff and it's gone. Turkey and ham are not high in fat or calories as long as you stay with the leaner versions. (I don't like fat to begin with so that part is easy.) A small piece of the corn pudding beside a baked sweet potato without the cinnamon and sugar doesn't throw the meal off the charts. I enjoy the fresh veggies and the fresh fruits and keep the processed recipes to treat status. It works for me. It's easier to prepare the healthier foods when you know that several other family members are also watching their weight. They also appreciate not being deprived of good things. This sounds like a plan, now to get the exercise back to working status! I won't complain too loudly if you want to hold me accountable on that.

My new goal is to begin the new year back to where I stopped progressing or maybe progressing again below that point and in need of a new wardrobe. Hmmm, maybe that's what I need to ask for for Christmas - the next size smaller clothes! I like that thought!

Have a wonderful December and holiday season! Stay healthy and happy!

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CTUPTON 12/22/2012 9:54AM

    You have lots of healthy attitudes already in place. Congratulations. And you have lost weight in holiday seasons in the past. emoticon WOW! Pre-planing and resting periodically through the hectic days helps tremendously. I bet you take care of everyone and kind of forget your needs sometimes. Then temptation hits.

I wish you blessings in this holiday season. I am struggling with low energy and don't want to be gaining now.

Merry Christmas! chris emoticon

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To Lie Or Not to Lie - That Is the Question!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Do you ever want to just tweak a number just a little? Noone looks at that report except me, so, I'll feel so much better if I just adjust this a little bit. . . Or will I? These thoughts hit me while I weighed in this morning. But then, who am I lying to?

I've weighed every day and kept a written record of it for years, Good, bad or indifferent, that number goes on the page. This habit was begun when I was on a very restrictive diet as a young mom. The program called for me to weigh daily - at their office - and figure out what was happening in my eating or my body to cause any upward motion. That diet program only lasted six months, even though I had lost 60 pounds on it. It wasn't sustainable for life in my family, but the tracking habit was begun.

Since the tracking habit was begun, when I was diagnosed with hypertension (high blood pressure) and ordered on medication several years later, it was easy to adjust my tracker to take my blood pressure every morning and every night and record those numbers as well. My doctor thought I was a genius when he'd look over my reports at each visit. Of course through the years there have been reporting sheets with lots of blank spots on them when I wouldn't be recording daily, or other times that every spot is carefully filled in with additional information pertaining to my health, medications or life events. Still the habit seemed important and continued.

Sparkpeople's trackers are my first online recordkeeping. Tracking my nutrition and fitness have been a joy to do. I learn so much from reviewing what I've done and comparing it to my results - especially since I had to start tracking glucose when I began to seriously track on Spark last September. I still track my weight every morning and my blood pressure twice daily on a calendar page that I print out and keep in the bathroom with my scales and monitor. But my nutrition, fitness, and glucose all go online. My measurements are posted the fist day of each month and my weight is posted after I've seen a downward number two or three days. If the time ever comes that it goes up more than a couple pounds, that too will be tracked.

Tracking seems to work well for me. Whenever I've tracked my nutrition, I've been very aware of the bottom line and have managed to lose weight. Comparing my weight, blood pressure and glucose reports to my nutrition and fitness reports shows where I'm being lazy, making missteps, or doing fantastic. These are great tools. But they are only tools . . .

Now, back to this morning's weigh in. The scale showed that I was up over a pound from yesterday's weight. It was still within the same range I have been for the last several days, so it wasn't out of range, just frustrating enough to be tempting. Now, I asked myself who would know if I adjusted that number just a bit to feel better. I WOULD! I would make several years of faithful tracking into a worthless lie! Why would I do that to myself? A moment of feeling good to negate years of honesty. A moment of feeling good to make my ability to see where I need to make adjustments impossible. A moment to evaluate me to see if I want to begin to lie to myself, or to be trustworthy, even to myself. Mirrors lie, that makes life hard enough. Even though the truth sometimes is uncomfortable, it is still the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, even when I have to sometimes add notes like "water weight" or "5 hr sleep" or "b'day party" and sometimes "5 hrs at zoo" or "aquafit" to flesh out changes.

That number on my tracking record for today is what was on the scale. I do not celebrate it the way I did yesterday's number, but I don't worry about it either. I'm still tracking, and eating and moving healthier than I was last year at this time, and I weigh 50 less pounds. This time I'm tracking a sustainable lifestyle for my family. Honesty is a good thing. Seeing the mindful results of that tracking is priceless.

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CTUPTON 12/22/2012 9:56AM

    emoticon emoticon chris

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TIME4CARRI 12/19/2012 2:30PM

    I so understand this. Sometimes I even feel my ring and tell myself it is water from my salt intake the day before but regardless, it is what it is today, water, fat or muscle, it must be recorded to keep me honest!

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JEANBEAN827 9/10/2012 8:41PM

  50 pounds !! wow ~ thats so awesome !! I hope I can do the same ..

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ASHLEYSAXER 7/19/2012 11:57AM

    Wow great attitude ! Keep it up!!

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I'm Thinking the Hare May Even Beat Me, But I Will Make It to the Finish Line

Saturday, June 02, 2012

I was so proud of me a couple months ago, and guess what! I'm still proud.

I'm comfortable making better food choices, and moving more. It doesn't feel like a punishment or trial, it all just feels good. It's nice not to feel stuffed after eating. It's nice to have the energy to keep up with my kids and grandkids on an outing to the zoo, without having to slow them down so I can "sit for a minute" before going on. It's nice to get a hug when loving arms can go all the way around me.

The big kicker is how slowly I'm progressing. The blessing is that I AM still progressing!
February, I lost 4 pounds
March, I lost 3 1/2 pounds
April, I lost 2 pounds
May, I lost 2 1/2 pounds.
Man, that feels slow, but look! in four months I've lost 12 pounds! If nothing changes, I can still be down 36 pounds in a year. It's not the 104 I originally planned, but I'm not "dieting" this time. I'm making better choices while I live my everyday life. My hope is that, as I get better at choices and exercise, the pounds may slip away slightly faster, at least for a while.

My clothes feel great. I can buy a shirt that fits at my shoulders and still goes around my middle most of the time. At the moment, I'm between sizes. The size I'm headed into is still a little too tight, but the size I'm leaving is a little baggy. What a new problem to experience! Always, in the past, I'd wear the old stuff until it was way bad before I'd buy the next size (or 2) up to get something to fit.

The most wonderful thing I experience now is holding my grandbabies on my lap and feeling like I can really snuggle them up close to me. I don't have to reach around miles of me to get to their little bodies. There's enough room on my lap for them to sit there and not just hang on the end of my knee hoping not to slide off. And I can squat down to pick them up and carry them around without wearing out in a few seconds! How wonderful!

If things are this good when I still have over 90 pounds to lose, imagine how much better it's going to get!

Not only will I regain my youthful vigor, but I should also regain my youthful health! At least that's the plan. God is good, and thankfully, he's making this way of life easy for me to adapt to. Praises for the blessings I receive!


Not What I Did Before - But I'm Not Insane Either

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Wow, It's April! I started this journey in September. I'm 42 pounds down, but my weight loss reversed, balanced and stopped for 8 weeks of that when I had surgery and recovered. I haven't lost the 10 pounds per month that I had planned on, based on the experience from "diets" I did in my late 20's and early 40's. I didn't repeat those either. You know the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. My experience was that I burned out on those "diets" in 6 months, so at 60 pounds down, I was thrilled and beginning to "cheat" regularly. One year later, all my good work was gone . . .

This time, I'm living my life every day and incorporating lifestyle changes that are sustainable into it. There is no "cheating" because nothing is forbidden. There is overeating on my daily intake, which slows things down. There is skipping my exercises, which slows down the inches I've been losing. But I'm not a very good person at living a scheduled life, so I accept these facts and try to continue to have more meals that are on track, and spend more time moving. It's so easy to spend the whole day sitting. I'm finding, though, that as I move more, I want to move even more. That's a big plus!

I lost 4 pounds in February and another 3 1/2 in March. That's not much, but I'm still dropping in clothing sizes while losing that slowly. I'm still eating with my family and eating in restaurants waaayyyyy too much. That is the lifestyle we live right now. At the rate of 4 pounds per month, It'll take me another 2 years to lose all the weight I need to get off. That is only about a year longer than I had "planned" to take. I'll accept that and pray that my health continues to improve along with the weight loss. And I never plan to "diet" again!

Healthy motion is still new to my lifestyle. It still takes concentrated effort to move consistently, but it will come with time I'm sure. The gym membership built in regular workouts for about 2 weeks, then our normal lifestyle needed our attention again. We (my husband and I) are not as faithful to go to the gym 6 days a week as we were, but we're becoming faithful at making sure we are moving more and/or strengthening every day in whatever ways we can fit into our schedules. We're still going to the gym, but since it's spring, only 2 or 3 times weekly. That feels sustainable.

Well, It's April, It's Easter season. I think I'll be very selective about my Easter candy of choice and enjoy every (small) bite of it! They do have nutrition labels on candy, so I just fit it into my day on my tracker. It fits and I don't "cheat!" Happy Easter!

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4MERTEACHER54 5/21/2012 10:22PM

    You've been a great encouragement to me, BreakingOut. Your attitude is great and so very real. I think we have concentrated way too much on those times we "cheated" rather than just enjoying little bites, counting them, and going on. It is amazing how so many of those labels do have nutrition information and those calories can be counted like any others. For years I've jumped on restrictive dieting bandwagons, gloating when successful then giving up after one little "cheat". You're right. We're not cheating as long as we're mindful and intentional about what we choose to eat each day. Thanks for your blog entry. emoticon

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EICHINGER 4/4/2012 1:01AM

  I love your attitude! I soooooooooo agree with you. I feel like I have finally "got it"....I need a new lifestyle, not a new diet. I think we'll have fun trading tips....and grandma stories!! emoticon

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