Friday, December 18, 2009
I am always in awe of God, Holy Father to whom all praise is due. God has a plan for my life and sometimes I try to tell Him of my plans. I remember hearing somebody say:If you want to make God laugh, tell Him about your plans. I have to ask for forgiveness for complaining sometimes because I know we all have our crosses to bear. Sometimes I allow Satan to come in and plant negativity but I thank God for being merciful and gracious to forgive my sins. Things will get better because I trust God for all things and I know He will see me through. I also have to learn to ask for help. I have so many people in my corner who's waiting to help whenever I need, but I'm too proud at times.
God has allowed me to go through some things. I lost my parental rights of my oldest kids when they were 7 and 4 due to drug abuse. The next time I saw them,they were 18 and 15. My daughter has a lot of resentments because she wanted to know, why was I able to straighten up for the 2 youngest and not them. I have to say, it wasn't me, it was the grace of God. She asked me was she not important enough. Of course they are important but at the time I couldn't even help myself. She was also molested in foster care. The devil wanted me to turn that on me and make it my fault because I wasn't there. That was one of my biggest fears when I lost them because my uncle had molested me at age four. I finally forgave myself a couple of years ago because I never meant to hurt them but I did. I ask them to forgive me and they say they do. I see a difference lately with her. When I was taken her money every week, we were closer than we are now. My husband brought to my attention that I was buying love. Then her daddy came into the picture spending all kinds of money and I found myself at ONE time trying to keep up. That was the end of that. I realized, I forgive me and if you don't, that's on you. I cant make up for lost time and I'm through trying. When I talk to her I always tell her that whenever she needs me, I'm here. That's all I got, ME. She is 18 now. Over a year ago she came out (lesbian) to her foster mom. My son who is now 21 tells me she suppose to have a boyfriend now. I don't know, but what I do know is, I cant change the past but I can make the best of the present. They are adults now and will make their own decisions. I pray that God will encamp His angels all around them, while they do.
Why does God allow trails?
For every trail that God has allowed, I am stronger. He also uses us so that I our testimonies will bring glory unto Him. Someone may hear of all He has done for me and turn their life over to Christ, believing that He could do the same thing for them.
I hope and pray that your today, will be brighter than yesterday!
Have a Fantastic day!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Somewhere, in the back of your mind, try to remember that everything has God's fingerprints on it. The fact that we can't see the beauty in something doesn't suggest that it's not there. Rather, it suggests that we are not looking carefully enough or with a broad enough perspective to see it.-Richard Carlson
A Great Day To You ALL!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Good Morning! I woke up with a song in my heart. I thought of this email my cousin sent me a while back and I wanted to share it with you. I hope the message touch you like it touched me.
While watching a little TV on Sunday instead of going to church, I watched a Church in Atlanta honoring one of its senior pastors who had been retired many years. He was 92 at that time and I wondered why the Church even bothered to ask the old gentleman to preach at that age.
After a warm welcome, introduction of this speaker, and as the applause quieted down he rose from his high back chair and walked slowly, with great effort and a sliding gate to the podium. Without a note or written paper of any kind he placed both hands on the pulpit to steady himself and then quietly and slowly he began to speak....
"When I was asked to come here today and talk to you, your pastor asked me to tell you what was the greatest lesson ever learned in my 50 odd years of preaching. I thought about it for a few days and boiled it down to just one thing that made the most difference in my life and sustained me through all my trials. The one thing that I could always rely on when tears and heartbreak and pain and fear and sorrow paralyzed me... the only thing that would comfort was this verse.........
"Jesus loves me this I know.
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
We are weak but He is strong.....
Yes, Jesus loves me...
The Bible tells me so."
When he finished, the church was quiet. You actually could hear his foot steps as he shuffled back to his chair. I don't believe I will ever forget it.
A pastor once stated, "I always noticed that it was the adults who chose the children's hymn 'Jesus Loves Me' (for the children of course) during a hymn sing, and it was the adults who sang the loudest because I could see they knew it the best."
"Senior version of Jesus Loves Me"
Here is a new version just for us who have white hair or no hair at all. For us over middle age (or even those almost there) and all you others check out this newest version of Jesus Loves Me.
JESUS LOVES ME
Jesus loves me, this I know,
Though my hair is white as snow
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in Him.
YES, JESUS LOVES ME.. YES, JESUS LOVES ME..
YES, JESUS LOVES ME FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in His I'll go
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand His love
I love Jesus, does He know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love Him every day.
Take a minute to look around you. Can you see ALL the many blessings you've been given? If you cant think of one, I got one for you. You're thinking and if you're thinking, that means you've been given the gift of life. Somebody didn't wake up this morning so anytime you wake up on this side of the dirt, is truly a blessing.
Have a Sparkling Day!
Monday, December 14, 2009
I went back to the dentist today and I got my teeth cleaned. After he finished he treated my teeth with fluoride. The fluoride he used was a caramel color so I walked around several hours with butter teeth and as a matter of fact, my teeth still look yellow. I was self conscious about it too because I found myself explaining it to the lady at the car shop because she was looking right in my mouth so I know she noticed.
Anyway, I'm without transportation now. My car started running water/hot last week. Yesterday when we put water in it, it ran straight through. I stopped by the shop on my way from the dentist and it had gotten worst. He tells me it's my water pump and it was busted and I needed new hoses too. I was like, how much? $435.97. I don't have that kind of money so I told them if I get it, I'll be back. The $50 engine check fee they charge was split in half because Gloria the shop owners wife said she wanted to give me a break. Thank God for blessings.
Before leaving the shop, I get a call telling me to come and get my Christmas basket so I took a chance and went after I was told to park my car before I blew up the engine. Anyway, I make it to the church and the car went dead just as I parked. It was about 3 lines and the organization who was giving me my basket line was empty. Just so happen, my neighbor was up there and I rode back home with her. I waited a few hours for the car to cool down and my neighbor took me back to get it. I called Auto Zone and the water pump only cost $35 so the car shop was ripping me off because they said that the pump was going to be $146 and the hoses was $67. Everything I'll need to do the job come out to $79 at Auto Zone. Tomorrow I'll try to find a good shade tree mechanic to do the job for a reasonable amount.
God guided me today. When I could have broken down from stress and strain, He showed up in every situation today. He was carrying me and saying, "I'm here! I got you!"
I'm walking in faith and I trust that God CAN and WILL provide. He's already saved me $25 today and has blessed me with a Christmas basket I didn't even ask for.
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