Struggling.

Friday, December 11, 2009

I've been struggling the past few days with emotional eating. It feels like I'm losing my spark. I'm NOT going out without a fight though. I'm also struggling with gaining and losing the same few pounds. Last week, I was 32 pounds lighter and now I'm 3 pounds heavier. This has been going on for a while now and I'm tired of it. It's time for this to stop. I don't want to fail. Thanks for listening!

Have a great day!
~Sabrina

  

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TRAVELNISTA 12/12/2009 3:46PM

Don't give up and don't look at it that way - you are not 3 pounds heavier you are 29 pounds lighter and that is an accomplishment! Report Inappropriate Comment

SAVVYB27 12/11/2009 3:08PM

Just don't quit! Even if you are struggling, at least, you are still trying! And, over time you will see results! As long as you are at least trying, you will not fail! Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

SUEZQMD 12/11/2009 1:46PM

Sabrina, hang in there. There are a lot of us struggling this time of year. I know I am. The holidays are made for emotional eating. I've allowed myself to do the best that I can but to not stress over it. I've already committed to started anew, seriously again after the New Year. You can do this, too. Just take it one day at a time and don't worry about what happened yesterday. Start over fresh today. Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGRL124 12/11/2009 1:09PM

Sabrina - hang in there friend. I know how emotional eating goes; I had one of those days yesterday. You can do this! I know it!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

JUSTWANTTOLOOSE 12/11/2009 1:06PM

Sabrina, Hang in there...you can do this. I'm with you on prancing around the same lbs for a while because of stresses in our lives - and this month "I've" decided nothing will stop me. Sounds like your not going to give up the fight either. We can fight this together! Report Inappropriate Comment

MEAGANM2 12/11/2009 12:48PM

I am going through the same thing right now! I can't seem to stay focused and keep on the right track! Don't give up and keep going even if you have a bad few days, We have goals to meet!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

DJS-DEBBIE 12/11/2009 9:56AM

Sabrina, try to hang in there. I am having some issues with emotions as well, but so far I haven't been eating. I am just a wreck otherwise! Seriously, I know it is hard, especially when you have two small children to take care of and worry about, as well as the issues with your DH. But please try to put yourself first, because you can't take care of anyone else if you don't take care of you. Report Inappropriate Comment

NO_SNOW_BODY 12/11/2009 9:53AM

Sabrina, I know how feel I have been going through that feeling for about two months now. Report Inappropriate Comment

About Night Time Eating.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I'm going to focus on ALL the good I'm doing because if I allow this one thing to define my success, it'll do ME more harm than good. This week I'd burned over 2900 calories by the end of Wednesday night. On Tuesday, I burned 1374 calories that day alone so yeah, I'm doing really well. SELF! Don't get me wrong, I will NOT let this become an excuse to eat just because I can. I will let my body be the judge and NOT my mind. Some might even think I'm making excuses but that's NOT the case. I'm learning that it's NOT one thing in particular that will "fix" me, (so to speak)it is everything working together as a whole. I will win this battle with Obesity, ONE day, ONE step, and ONE pound at a time! I CAN and WILL do it!!!

I'm going to keep making good choices because I know in the end, it ALL, will come together.

Have a Sparkling Day All!
's~Sabrina

  

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TRAVELNISTA 12/10/2009 4:23PM

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SLIM.CHICK 12/10/2009 11:56AM

There are so many factors involved in achieving ones goals. A lot of thought, planning, preparation, finding ways to stay focused, eating the right food, managing stress, and the list goes on. If it were so easy, nobody would be overweight. Keep it up Sabrina! Report Inappropriate Comment

DESIREDXLOVEO09 12/10/2009 10:28AM

Thats the right attuide. you will be slim in not time with that attitude and burning the calories like that congrats hun Report Inappropriate Comment

MOFOLU138 12/10/2009 10:13AM

, you are on the right path with this right attitude. Comment edited on: 12/10/2009 10:14:12 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

FYRCOP 12/10/2009 9:46AM

There you go! With an attitude like that you'll be shopping for smaller clothes soon. Report Inappropriate Comment

Don't Quit!

Monday, December 07, 2009

Someone shared this on one of my teams and I wanted to share it with you ALL.


Don't Quit

When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy and thin.
So What! You went over your points a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the strugglers, when losing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!
- Author Unknown


Have a great night everyone!
~Sabrina

  

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TRAVELNISTA 12/8/2009 4:51PM

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DENISE245 12/8/2009 1:31PM

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AUNTRENEE 12/7/2009 10:27PM

Thanks for sharing. Sounds like a poem that I put onto one of my blogs here while back. Report Inappropriate Comment

LADENTISTA 12/7/2009 10:22PM

That ws really good! Thanks for sharing with us!! Report Inappropriate Comment

A Piece Of Me.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

When I first started using any mood altering substance, it was to numb the pain. Later, euphoria, because I liked the way it felt. Then it became necessary out of habit because my body became dependent on it. There was the never ending roller coaster ride. I was so caught up that I couldn't see nothing else but the drugs. I thank God for a prayerful mother. Even after her death God was still answering her prayers. He allowed me to go through some things in order to get my attention. Then came the despair. I started to feel again. The drugs wasn't having their numbing effect anymore. So I started to pray. I would be walking the streets in the middle of the night crying, praying, asking the Lord to please help me. I would say, Lord I can't do this without you, so please have mercy on me. Lead me, guide me, in your ways. And He heard my cry. It was like he was saying, be patient with me. I will respond as soon as I can.

When I finally got clean, I realized that I had traded one addiction for another because I turned to food. After being clean for 2 and half years and realizing I had allowed myself to get to 305 pounds brought on severe depression. It wasn't long after that that I relapsed and I was in such despair. I didn't have to focus on the weight any longer because I was dropping several pounds a week. The drugs took over. That's the way drugs did me, it took my appetite. But God being the awesome God He is, allowed me to feel every hump and bump of my disease. When you ask God to remove something or take away the desire, He does. So when I started using again, I was forcing something that wasn't there anymore. His mercy and grace saved me again from SELF.

After getting clean again I realized immediately(2/3 months)that I was beginning to gain the weight all over again. Because in my addiction I had loss 77 pounds. So when I got clean in April/2009 I was 227 pounds and in July/2009 I was 260. That's over 30 pounds in 3 months. That's crazy right?

I had a light bulb moment. I realized if I continue on the way I was going, I would surely use again because of depression. I didn't want to live like that any more. I wanted a life free from the use of drugs but most of all I wanted to glorify God in my body. How could I do that when there was no discipline? So I prayed. I said, "God if you can deliver an addict like me from the use of drugs, surely you can take away the desire to over eat. I trust and believe and know that you can and will. Thank you, In Jesus Name".

I've been clean and sober for 8 months now and I've been on this journey to better health and weight close to 5 months. I've had a loss of 32 pounds but I gained 3 back. I'm NOT giving up on me though. When I fall the ONLY option is to get back up and TRY again. I CAN DO IT!!!

If someone asked me how do I get back on the wagon, I would have to say, HONESTY because it keeps me accountable and shines a light on my FAULTS.
If you fall, why lie? The only person you lie to is yourself.

SparkPeople and being a part of a couple of great teams, has played a key role in helping me to reach some of my goals. I still have a ways to go but I AM grateful for the changes I'm starting to see, in ME! What a pretty sight it is!



Some of you already know parts of my story so this is for the ones that don't. I hope it encourages you. Have a wonderful night!
and more ~Sabrina

  

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SHAPEE9 12/10/2009 9:56AM

WTG! Dont give up on u cuz He wouldn't! Keep up the good work and inspiration to others. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRINI_TEACH 12/8/2009 6:30AM

You are an amazing woman. I admire you so much. You are an inspiration in so many ways and I pray God's continued strength to you. Report Inappropriate Comment

DESIREDXLOVEO09 12/7/2009 12:27PM

Wow im proud of you of sticking to this for 8 months now and not giving up and see goes does work with everyone you he just needs time to see how to work with you or slowly show you he is. god bless you hun. Report Inappropriate Comment

WARRIOR--WOMAN 12/7/2009 9:28AM

I am so proud of you! Thanks you for sharing your life with us! Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIM.CHICK 12/6/2009 11:37PM

Sabrina, yes you can and you will realize your dreams as long as you keep trying. I read somewhere that the difference between try and triumph is a little umph. I thought it was cute and oh so true. We all have our burdens to carry but we are also given the strength to do it. Bless you. Kay Report Inappropriate Comment

TRAVELNISTA 12/6/2009 10:29PM

I am so proud of you, 8 months clean and sober is a long time. I know it is a daily battle. You have now added to that battle by conquering your food issues. You are almost to your 6 month Sparkversary. Keep up the great job you are doing! Report Inappropriate Comment

AUNTBEE6 12/6/2009 9:45PM

AWESOME!!!!!!!! You have come a long ways. I'm so glad you turned to God. He was there all the time, waiting patiently in line for you to realize just how much you needed Him. Thanks for sharing your BEAUTIFUL testimony! You said, "When I fall the ONLY option is to get back up and TRY again. I CAN DO IT!!!" You sure can my sister! Hugs Auntbee Report Inappropriate Comment

TEDYBEAR2838 12/6/2009 9:34PM

That is such a testimony to the Power of Prayer and the Power of the Lord when we let HIM take over our lives!! AMEN! Report Inappropriate Comment

Let It Go!

Saturday, December 05, 2009

L E T T I N G G O

By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you; let them walk.. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something.. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.. It ' s not that I ' m hateful, it ' s that I ' m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains.......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction... ..

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.... .

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him.........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship. ....

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.. ....

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed.............

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying ' take your hands off of it, ' then you need to.......

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's! '



Well I hope this blessed your spirit like it did mine.
Have a Beautiful day!
Hugs~Sabrina

  

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/6/2009 12:24AM

Great blog. Thank you for sharing. Report Inappropriate Comment

WILLOW49 12/5/2009 9:52PM

Wonderful blog! Thank you! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRAVELNISTA 12/5/2009 8:45PM

So true! Great blog! Report Inappropriate Comment

TEDYBEAR2838 12/5/2009 2:55PM

I ALWAYS SAY: LET IT GO AND LET GOD! for all your support along this Wonderful Journey to Healthy Report Inappropriate Comment