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Digging my grave with a fork.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Here I am trying again to make some adjustments and changes in my life, wondering is it for naught? Why can I not get it? Is something wrong with me that I don't realize I am digging my grave with a fork? Why did my doctor have to send me a appt in the mail to see the nutritionist? Maybe because we've had this discussion before and she didn't want to keep saying what I already knew. Or maybe she went over my chart and saw that I was 240 in February and now I'm 288. In January I was 232. When will it stop!? In 9 months I have gained 56 pounds. Isn't that terrible/sad? My weight has started to affect my liver. I go to see the liver DR on Wednesday to start medication. Will this be the straw that broke the camels back? I don't know but I am hoping and praying it so.

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MOFOLU138 11/1/2011 11:12PM

    God remains your source of strength.

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PHEBESS 10/24/2010 12:43PM

    It's tough to make changes in our lives - you have to get to a point where keeping on with your current course is more painful (physical or emotional or health or whatever) than making the changes.

For me, it was hitting a certain size - I knew if I kept gaining I'd have to wear tents or custom clothing. That was it. I joined SparkPeople, counted my calories, forced myself to walk every day - and I lost 45 lbs in 18 months. I still want to lose another 40 or so, but that will come.

So - are you at a point where you are willing to make a change? Is your health scary enough to make you change?

Please take a moment to think about what will force you to change. You don't have to make huge changes all at once. You can make small changes every few weeks, until they become your new norm. Then make some more small changes. Eventually you will see a change. In your health, appearance, attitude. Really.

I have a Spark friend who lost 130 lbs in the same time I lost my 45 - she kept telling herself that 30 minutes on an elliptical machine was less painful than being at 330 lbs. Really.

So - good luck, and I hope you find whatever will convince you that you can make this change.

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DJS-DEBBIE 10/24/2010 3:51AM

    Sabrina, you are worth it. I am have been struggling with food, too, and have gained since June. Sometimes life's changes are hard to deal with. I know I turn to food when things are going badly - I feel like it's the only thing that makes me happy. But when I really think about it, it doesn't make me happy. In the short run, most things just don't satisfy me anyway - they don't take away the pain of whatever is bother me (which is why I keep eating). In the long run, when I start to have those aches & pains again and my clothes start getting tighter, it actually makes me miserable.

The real difference for me this time is you and all the wonderful people I have met here. I may be down but I am not out. I am not going to give up on myself this time. I start every day with the attitude that I can do this. I don't always make it, but I keep trying. I want you to do that too. You are worth it, my friend. Like Dawn, I will do anything I can to help you get there. Lean on us!

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MOMFAN 10/24/2010 2:39AM

    Hugs and prayers!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 10/24/2010 12:39AM

    I've often said that I slowly tried to commit suicide by fork. Baby... you are WORTH the gift of life! DO IT! I am proud to be your friend. If I can help you I will do whatever it takes. Love ya, Dawn emoticon

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FORNEYFRAU 10/23/2010 9:52PM

    Good luck to you in getting on the right track with your eating and exercise program. I started about where you are back in Dec. 2009. Since then, I've lost about 53 pounds. It was difficult to get started. I had just recovered from spinal fusion surgery and I felt absolutely like an invalid. It was baby steps at first, 15-20 minutes on the treadmill felt like torture, all I wanted to do was work, come home, eat, and sleep. It took my daughter to help me decide that it was time. She wanted to lose weight too so my little 14 year old wrote up a promise that we signed our names to. I guess it was this promise and this document that made me get started. It was a simple thing really, but it was a vow that I made to my kid. Vows I don't like to break. So I want you to know that you can do it. Take it slowly. Make gradual changes. I never thought I'd say this, but I love to exercise. My back is now stronger and I no longer feel like this invalid. Make a promise to yourself. Write it down if you have to. You will be happy you did.

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COLT2008 10/23/2010 9:51PM

    We can do all things through HIM!! praying for you!

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Friday, September 17, 2010

Do, each day, all that can be done that day. You don’t need to overwork – or to rush blindly into your work, trying to do the greatest possible number of things in the shortest possible amount of time. Don’t try to do tomorrow’s – or next week’s – work today. It’s not so much the number of the things you do but the quality, the efficiency of each separate action that counts. . . . you need only to succeed in the small tasks of each day. This makes a successful day. With enough of these, you have a successful week, month, year – and lifetime. -Earl Nightingale

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    Excellent quote. Thanks for sharing. I hope that you have a wonderful weekend. Love, Dawn emoticon

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GROEDER 9/17/2010 8:33AM

    Great quote. We should all live that way.
Thanks for sharing.

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ACUFF1156 9/17/2010 8:31AM

    What a great blog!! Sometimes we need to be reminded that today is our day... we must do the best we can with it...

Thanks for helping me stay on track!

Here's your smile. emoticon

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JAPOPE1 9/17/2010 8:31AM

  love this and definitely need to remember it more often...thanks for sharing!

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Good Morning!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Here's a scripture that touched my spirit this morning: I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You. —Job 42:5 It brings to mind growing up under the CARE of my mother. She was a woman after God's heart. Romans 3:23 tells us: ALL have sinned and have fallen short of the glory of God and if it wasn't for that, you would have thought she sinned not. She was dying from cancer but she kept a smile on her face in the mist of it and now I know why. So this morning when my spirit received: I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You. —Job 42:5, I was truly blessed spiritually.

By her raising me in the church and instilling the word of God in me has helped me to find my way and have a personal relationship with Him.



Sunday, September 12, 2010

You must accept that you might fail; then, if you do your
best and still don’t win, at least you can be satisfied
that you’ve tried. If you don’t accept failure as a
possibility, you don’t set high goals, you don’t branch out,
you don’t try—you don’t take the risk. -Rosalynn Carter

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DJS-DEBBIE 9/12/2010 10:09PM

    Love it!

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    Awesome quote from a wonderful woman. I have always been found of both of the Carters. Love you my friend. I hope that you have a SPARKTACULAR weekend & week. Love, Dawn emoticon

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PALEAN 9/12/2010 7:59AM

    This a a great motivating quote. It speaks to me today as I am overwhelmed by people's demands not wanting to let anyone down, but not ready to "branch out" quite so far. It's easier to fail when it doesn't effect the needs of others. This is a great reinforcing quote that all is possible. I like the George Burns quote very much as well! Life is full of sunshine, for sure!

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    "I created the rain so you would appreciate the sunshine" George Burns as God in "Oh! God!"

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Tuesday, September 07, 2010

The first and most important thing is to make a commitment to work on yourself. Are you going to improve or stay the same? No matter what you have achieved, you are at a certain point right now. What you have achieved in the past is fine, but it doesn't make a difference for the future. The decision about what you will become is made each day and every day. -ukn

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DJS-DEBBIE 9/8/2010 9:00PM

    Great blog!

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    Excellent quote. I really need to work on how I perceive myself. Love ya, Dawn emoticon

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